FALSE MEMORY

DEAN KOONTZ

This book is dedicated to

Tim Hely Hutchinson.

Your faith in my work,a long time ago, and now for many years- gave me heart when I most needed it.

And to

Jane Morpeth.

Ours is the longest editorial relationship of my career, which is a testament to your exceptional patience, kindness, and tolerance for fools!

AUTOPHOBIA is a real personality disorder. The term is used to describe three different conditions: (1) fear of being alone; (2) fear of being egotistical; (3) fear of oneself. The third is the rarest of these conditions.

This phantasm of falling petals vanishes into moon and flowers. -OKYO

Whiskers of the cat, webbed toes on my swimming dog:God is in details. -THE BOOK OF COUNTED SORROWS

In the real world as in dreams, nothing is quite what it seems. -THE BOOK OF COUNTED SORROWS

Life is an unrelenting comedy. Therein lies the tragedy of it. -MARTIN STILLWATER

1

On that Tuesday in January, when her life changed forever, Martine Rhodes woke  with a headache, developed a sour stomach after washing down two aspirin with  grapefruit juice, guaranteed herself an epic bad-hair day by mistakenly using  Dustin's shampoo instead of her own, broke a fingernail, burnt her toast,  discovered ants swarming through the cabinet under the kitchen sink, eradicated  the pests by firing a spray can of insecticide as ferociously as Sigourney  Weaver wielded a flamethrower in one of those old extraterrestrial-bug movies,  cleaned up the resultant carnage with paper towels, hummed Bach's Requiem as she  solemnly consigned the tiny bodies to the trash can, and took a telephone call  from her mother, Sabrina, who still prayed for the collapse of Martie's marriage  three years after the wedding. Throughout, she remained upbeat-even  enthusiastic- about the day ahead, because from her late father, Robert "Smilin'  Bob" Woodhouse, she had inherited an optimistic nature, formidable coping  skills, and a deep love of life in addition to blue eyes, ink-black hair, and  ugly toes.

Thanks, Daddy.

After convincing her ever hopeful mother that the Rhodes marriage remained  happy, Martie slipped into a leather jacket and took her golden retriever,  Valet, on his morning walk. Step by step, her headache faded.

Along the whetstone of clear eastern sky, the sun sharpened scalpels of light. Out of the west, however, a cool onshore breeze pushed  malignant masses of dark clouds.

The dog regarded the heavens with concern, sniffed the air warily, and pricked  his pendant ears at the hiss-clatter of palm fronds stirred by the wind.  Clearly, Valet knew a storm was coming.

He was a gentle, playful dog. Loud noises frightened him, however, as though he  had been a soldier in a former life and was haunted by memories of battlefields  blasted by cannon fire.

Fortunately for him, rotten weather in southern California was seldom  accompanied by thunder. Usually, rain fell unannounced, hissing on the streets,  whispering through the foliage, and these were sounds that even Valet found  soothing.

Most mornings, Martie walked the dog for an hour, along the narrow tree-lined  streets of Corona Del Mar, but she had a special obligation every Tuesday and  Thursday that limited their excursion to fifteen minutes on those days. Valet  seemed to have a calendar in his furry head, because on their Tuesday and  Thursday expeditions, he never dawdled, finishing his toilet close to home. This morning, only one block from their house, on the grassy sward between the  sidewalk and the curb, the pooch looked around shyly, discreetly lifted his  right leg, and as usual made water as though embarrassed by the lack of privacy.

Less than a block farther, he was preparing to conclude the second half of his  morning business when a passing garbage truck backfired, startling him. He  huddled behind a queen palm, peering cautiously around one side of the tree bole  and then around the other, convinced that the terrifying vehicle would reappear. "No problem," Martie assured him. "The big bad truck is gone. Everything's fine.

This is now a safe-to-poop zone."

Valet was unconvinced. He remained wary.

Martie was blessed with Smilin' Bob's patience, too, especially when dealing  with Valet, whom she loved almost as much as she might have loved a child if  she'd had one. He was sweet-tempered and beautiful: light gold, with  gold-and-white feathering on his legs, soft snow-white flags on his butt, and a  lush tail.

Of course, when the dog was in a doing-business squat, like now, Martie never  looked at him, because he was as self-conscious as a nun in a topless bar. While  waiting, she softly sang Jim Croce's "Time in a Bottle," which always relaxed  him.

As she began the second verse, a sudden chill climbed the ladder of her spine,  causing her to fall silent. She was not a woman given to premonitions, but as  the icy quiver ascended to the back of her neck, she was overcome by a sense of  impending danger.

Turning, she half expected to see an approaching assailant or a hurtling car.  Instead, she was alone on this quiet residential street.

Nothing rushed toward her with lethal purpose. The only moving things were those  harried by the wind. Trees and shrubs shivered. A few crisp brown leaves  skittered along the pavement. Garlands of tinsel and Christmas lights, from the  recent holiday, rustled and rattled under the eaves of a nearby house. Still uneasy, but feeling foolish, Martie let out the breath that she'd been  holding. When the exhalation whistled between her teeth, she realized that her  jaws were clenched.

She was probably still spooked from the dream that awakened her after midnight,  the same one she'd had on a few other recent nights. The man made of dead,  rotting leaves, a nightmare figure. Whirling, raging.

Then her gaze dropped to her elongated shadow, which stretched across the  close-cropped grass, draped the curb, and folded onto the cracked concrete  pavement. Inexplicably, her uneasiness swelled into alarm.

She took one step backward, then a second, and of course her shadow moved with  her. Only as she retreated a third step did she realize that this very  silhouette was what frightened her.

Ridiculous. More absurd than her dream. Yet something in her shadow was not  right: a jagged distortion, a menacing quality.

Her heart knocked as hard as a fist on a door.

In the severe angle of the morning sun, the houses and trees cast distorted  images, too, but she saw nothing fearsome in their stretched and buckled  shadows-only in her own.

She recognized the absurdity of her fear, but this awareness did not diminish  her anxiety. Terror courted her, and she stood hand in hand with panic.

The shadow seemed to throb with the thick slow beat of its own heart. Staring at  it, she was overcome with dread.

Martie closed her eyes and tried to get control of herself.

For a moment, she felt so light that the wind seemed strong enough to sweep her  up and carry her inland with the relentlessly advancing clouds, toward the steadily shrinking band of cold blue sky. As she  drew a series of deep breaths, however, weight gradually returned to her.

When she dared to look again at her shadow, she no longer sensed anything  unusual about it. She let out a sigh of relief.

Her heart continued to pound, powered not by irrational terror anymore, but by  an understandable concern as to the cause of this peculiar episode. She'd never  previously experienced such a thing.

Head cocked quizzically, Valet was staring at her.

She had dropped his leash.

Her hands were damp with sweat. She blotted her palms on her blue jeans.

When she realized that the dog had finished his toilet, Martie slipped her right  hand into a plastic pet-cleanup bag, using it as a glove. Being a good neighbor,  she neatly collected Valet's gift, turned the bright blue bag inside out,  twisted it shut, and tied a double knot in the neck.

The retriever watched her sheepishly.

"If you ever doubt my love, baby boy," Martie said, "remember I do this every  day."

Valet looked grateful. Or perhaps only relieved.

Performance of this familiar, humble task restored her mental balance. The  little blue bag and its warm contents anchored her to reality. The weird  incident remained troubling, intriguing, but it no longer frightened her.

2

Skeet sat high on the roof, silhouetted against the somber sky, hallucinating  and suicidal. Three fat crows circled twenty feet over his head, as if they  sensed carrion in the making.

Down here at ground level, Motherwell stood in the driveway, big hands fisted on  his hips. Though he faced away from the street, his fury was evident in his  posture. He was in a head-cracking mood.

Dusty parked his van at the curb, behind a patrol car emblazoned with the name  of the private-security company that served this pricey, gated residential  community. A tall guy in a uniform was standing beside the car, managing to  appear simultaneously authoritative and superfluous.

The three-story house, atop which Skeet Caulfield contemplated his fragile  mortality, was a ten-thousand-square-foot, four-million-dollar atrocity. Several  Mediterranean styles-Spanish modern, classic Tuscan, Greek Revival, and early  Taco Bell-had been slammed together by an architect who had either a lousy  education or a great sense of humor. What appeared to be acres of steeply  pitched, barrel-tile roofs hipped into one another with chaotic exuberance,  punctuated by too many chimneys badly disguised as bell towers with cupolas, and  poor Skeet was perched on the highest ridge line, next to the most imposingly  ugly of these belfries.

Perhaps because he was unsure of his role in this situation and needed something to do, the security guard said, "Can I help you, sir?" "I'm the painting contractor," Dusty replied.

The sun-weathered guard was either suspicious of Dusty or squint-eyed by nature,  with so many lines folded into his face that he looked like a piece of origami.  "The painting contractor, huh?" he said skeptically.

Dusty was wearing white cotton pants, a white pullover, a white denim jacket,  and a white cap with RHODES' PAINTING printed in blue script above the visor,  which should have lent some credibility to his claim. He considered asking the  leery guard if the neighborhood was besieged by professional burglars disguised  as housepainters, plumbers, and chimney sweeps, but instead he simply said, "I'm  Dustin Rhodes," and pointed to the lettering on his cap. "That man up there is  one of my crew."

"Crew?" The security man scowled. "Is that what you call it?"

Maybe he was being sarcastic or maybe he was just not good at conversation. "Most painting contractors call it a crew, yeah," Dusty said, staring up at  Skeet, who waved. "We used to call ours a strike force, but that scared off some  homeowners, sounded too aggressive, so now we just call it a crew, like everyone  else."

"Huh," the guard said. His squint tightened. He might have been trying to figure  out what Dusty was talking about, or he might have been deciding whether or not  to punch him in the mouth.

"Don't worry, we'll get Skeet down," Dusty assured him.

"Who?"

"The jumper," Dusty elucidated, heading along the driveway toward Motherwell.

"You think I should maybe call the fire department?" the guard asked, following  him.

"Nah. He won't torch himself before he jumps."

"This is a nice neighborhood."

"Nice? Hell, it's perfect."

"A suicide is going to upset our residents."

"We'll scoop up the guts, bag the remains, hose away the blood, and they'll  never know it happened."

Dusty was relieved and surprised that no neighbors had gathered to watch the  drama. At this early hour, maybe they were still eating caviar muffins and drinking champagne and orange juice out of gold goblets.

Fortunately, Dusty's clients-the Sorensons-on whose roof Skeet was schmoozing  with Death, were vacationing in London.

Dusty said, "Morning, Ned."

"Bastard," Motherwell replied. "Me?"

"Him," Motherwell said, pointing to Skeet on the roof.

At six feet five and 260 pounds, Ned Motherwell was half a foot taller and  nearly one hundred pounds heavier than Dusty. His arms could not have been more  muscular if they had been the transplanted legs of Clydesdale horses. He was  wearing a short-sleeve T-shirt but no jacket, in spite of the cool wind; weather  never seemed to bother Motherwell any more than it might trouble a granite  statue of Paul Bunyan.

Tapping the phone clipped to his belt, Motherwell said, "Damn, boss, I called  you like yesterday. Where you been?"

"You called me ten minutes ago, and where I've been is running traffic lights  and mowing down school kids in crosswalks."

"There's a twenty-five-mile-an-hour speed limit inside this community," the  security guard advised solemnly.

Glowering up at Skeet Caulfield, Motherwell shook his fist. "Man, I'd like to  hammer that punk."

"He's a confused kid," Dusty said.

"He's a drug-sucking jerk," Motherwell disagreed.

"He's been clean lately."

"He's a sewer."

"You've got such a big heart, Ned."

"What's important is I've got a brain, and I'm not going to screw it up with  drugs, and I don't want to be around people who self-destruct, like him."

Ned, the crew foreman, was a Straight Edger. This unlikely but still-growing  movement among people in their teens and twenties- more men than women-required  adherents to forgo drugs, excess alcohol, and casual sex. They were into  head-banging rock-'n'-roll, slam-dancing, self-restraint, and self-respect. One  element or another of the establishment might have embraced them as an inspiring  cultural trend-if Straight Edgers had not loathed the system and despised both  major political parties. Occasionally, at a club or concert, when they  discovered a doper among them, they beat the crap out of him and didn't bother to call it tough love, which was also a practice  likely to keep them out of the political mainstream.

Dusty liked both Motherwell and Skeet, although for different reasons.

Motherwell was smart, funny, and reliable-if judgmental. Skeet was gentle and  sweet-although probably doomed to a life of joyless self-indulgence, days  without purpose, and nights filled with loneliness.

Motherwell was by far the better employee of the two. If Dusty had operated  strictly by the textbook rules of intelligent business management, he would have  cut Skeet from the crew a long time ago.

Life would be easy if common sense ruled; but sometimes the easy way doesn't  feel like the right way.

"We're probably going to get rained out," Dusty said. "So why'd you send him up  on the roof in the first place?"

"I didn't. I told 'im to sand the window casings and the trim on the ground  floor. Next thing I know, he's up there, saying he's going to take a header into  the driveway."

"I'll get him."

"I tried. Closer I came to him, the more hysterical he got."

"He's probably scared of you," Dusty said.

"He damn well better be. If I kill him, it'll be more painful than if he splits  his skull on the concrete."

The guard flipped open his cell phone. "Maybe I'd better call the police." "No!" Realizing that his voice had been too sharp, Dusty took a deep breath and  more calmly said, "Neighborhood like this, people don't want a fuss made when it  can be avoided."

If the cops came, they might get Skeet down safely, but then they would commit  him to a psychiatric ward, where he'd be held for at least three days. Probably  longer. The last thing Skeet needed was to fall into the hands of one of those  head doctors who were unreservedly enthusiastic about dipping into the  psychoactive pharmacopoeia to ladle up a fruit punch of behavior-modification  drugs that, while imposing a short-term placidity, would ultimately leave him  with more short-circuiting synapses than he had now.

"Neighborhoods like this," Dusty said, "don't want spectacles."

Surveying the immense houses along the street, the regal palms and stately  ficuses, the well-tended lawns and flower beds, the guard said, "I'll give you  ten minutes."

Motherwell raised his right fist and shook it at Skeet.

Under the circling halo of crows, Skeet waved.

The security guard said, "Anyway, he doesn't look suicidal."

"The little geek says he's happy because an angel of death is sitting beside  him," Motherwell explained, "and the angel has shown him what it's like on the  other side, and what it's like, he says, is really awesomely cool."

"I'll go talk to him," Dusty said.

Motherwell scowled. "Talk, hell. Give him a push."

3

As the heavy sky, swollen with unspent rain, sagged toward the earth and as the  wind rose, Martie and the dog returned home at a trot. She repeatedly glanced  down at her pacing shadow, but then the storm clouds overwhelmed the sun, and  her dark companion vanished as if it had seeped into the earth, returning to  some nether-world.

She surveyed nearby houses as she passed them, wondering if anyone had been at a  window to see her peculiar behavior, hoping that she hadn't actually looked as  odd as she'd felt.

In this picturesque neighborhood, the homes were generally old and small, though  many were lovingly detailed, possessing more charm and character than half the  people of Martie's acquaintance. Spanish architecture dominated, but here were  also Cotswold cottages, French chaumières, German Häuschens, and Art Deco  bungalows. The eclectic mix was pleasing, woven together by a green embroidery  of laurels, palms, fragrant eucalyptuses, ferns, and cascading bougainvillea.

Martie, Dusty, and Valet lived in a perfectly scaled, two-story, miniature  Victorian with gingerbread millwork. Dusty had painted the structure in the  colorful yet sophisticated tradition of Victorian houses on certain streets in  San Francisco: pale yellow background; blue, gray, and green ornamentation; with  a judicious use of pink in a single detail along the cornice and on the window  pediments.

Martie loved their home and thought it was a fine testament to Dusty's talent  and craftsmanship.

Her mother, however, upon first seeing the paint job, had declared, "It looks as  if clowns live here."

As Martie opened the wooden gate at the north side of the house and followed  Valet along the narrow brick walkway to the backyard, she wondered if her  unreasonable fear somehow had its origins in the depressing telephone call from  her mother. After all, the greatest source of stress in her life was Sabrina's  refusal to accept Dusty. These were the two people whom Martie loved most in all  the world, and she longed for peace between them.

Dusty wasn't part of the problem. Sabrina was the only combatant in this sad  war. Frustratingly, Dusty's refusal to engage in battle seemed only to harden  her hostility.

Stopping at the trash enclosure near the back of the house, Martie removed the  lid from one of the cans and deposited the blue plastic bag full of Valet's  finest.

Perhaps her sudden inexplicable anxiety had been spawned by her mother's whining  about Dusty's supposed paucity of ambition and about his lack of what Sabrina  deemed an adequate education. Martie was afraid that her mother's venom would  eventually poison her marriage. Against her will, she might start to see Dusty  through her mother's mercilessly critical eyes. Or maybe Dusty would begin to  resent Martie for the low esteem in which Sabrina held him.

In fact, Dusty was the wisest man Martie had ever known. The engine between his  ears was even more finely tuned than her father's had been, and Smilin' Bob had  been immeasurably smarter than his nickname implied. As for ambition. . . Well,  she would rather have a kind husband than an ambitious one, and you'd find more  kindness in Dusty than you'd find greed in Vegas.

Besides, Martie's own career didn't fulfill the expectations her mother had for  her. After earning a bachelor's degree-majoring in business, minoring in  marketing-followed by an M.B.A., she had detoured from the road that might have  taken her to high-corporate executive glory. Instead, she became a freelance  video-game designer. She'd sold a few minor hits entirely of her own creation,  and on a for-hire basis she had designed scenarios, characters, and fantasy  worlds based on concepts by others. She earned good money, if not yet great, and  she suspected that being a woman in a male-dominated field would ultimately be an enormous advantage, as her point of view  was fresh. She liked her work, and recently she'd signed a contract to create an  entirely new game based on J.R.R. Tolkien's The Lord of the Rings trilogy, which  might produce enough royalties to impress Scrooge McDuck. Nevertheless, her  mother dismissively described her work as "carnival stuff," apparently because  Sabrina associated video games with arcades, arcades with amusement parks, and  amusement parks with carnivals. Martie supposed she was lucky that her mother  hadn't gone one step further and described her as a sideshow freak.

As Valet accompanied her up the back steps and across the porch, Martie said,  "Maybe a psychoanalyst would say, just for a minute back there, my shadow was a  symbol of my mother her negativity-"

Valet grinned up at her and wagged his plumed tail.

"-and maybe my little anxiety attack expressed an unconscious concern that Mom  is. . . well, that she's going to be able to mess with my head eventually,  pollute me with her toxic attitude."

Martie fished a set of keys from a jacket pocket and unlocked the door.

"My God, I sound like a college sophomore halfway through Basic Psych."

She often talked to the dog. The dog listened but never replied, and his silence  was one of the pillars of their wonderful relationship.

"Most likely," she said, as she followed Valet into the kitchen, "there was no  psychological symbolism, and I'm just going totally nutball crazy."

Valet chuffed as though agreeing with the diagnosis of madness, and then he  enthusiastically lapped water from his bowl.

Five mornings a week, following a long walk, either she or Dusty spent half an  hour grooming the dog on the back porch, combing and brushing. On Tuesdays and  Thursdays, grooming followed the afternoon stroll. Their house was pretty much  free of dog hair, and she intended to keep it that way.

"You are obliged," she reminded Valet, "not to shed until further notice. And  remember-just because we're not here to catch you in the act, doesn't mean  suddenly you have furniture privileges and unlimited access to the  refrigerator."

He rolled his eyes at her as if to say he was offended by her lack of trust.  Then he continued drinking.

In the half bath adjacent to the kitchen, Martie switched on the light. She  intended to check her makeup and brush her windblown hair.

As she stepped to the sink, sudden fright cinched her chest again, and her heart  felt as though it were painfully compressed. She wasn't seized by the certainty  that some mortal danger loomed behind her, as before. Instead, she was afraid to  look in the mirror.

Abruptly weak, she bent forward, hunching her shoulders, feeling as if a great  weight of stones had been stacked on her back. Gripping the pedestal sink with  both hands, she gazed down at the empty bowl. She was so bowed by irrational  fear that she was physically unable to look up.

A loose black hair, one of her own, lay on the curve of white porcelain, one end  curling under the open brass drain plug, and even this filament seemed ominous.  Not daring to raise her eyes, she fumbled for a faucet, turned on the hot water,  and washed the hair away.

Letting the water run, she inhaled the rising steam, but it did not dispel the  chill that had returned to her. Gradually the edges of the sink became warmer in  her white-knuckled grip, though her hands remained cold.

The mirror waited. Martie could no longer think of it as a mere inanimate  object, as a harmless sheet of glass with silvered backing. It waited.

Or, rather, something within the mirror waited to make eye contact with her.An  entity. A presence.

Without lifting her head, she glanced to her right and saw Valet standing in the  doorway. Ordinarily, the dog's puzzled expression would have made her laugh;  now, laughter would require a conscious effort, and it wouldn't sound like  laughter when it grated from her.

Although she was afraid of the mirror, she was also-and more  intensely-frightened of her own bizarre behavior, of her utterly  uncharacteristic loss of control.

The steam condensed on her face. It felt thick in her throat, suffocating. And  the rushing, gurgling water began to sound like malevolent voices, wicked  chuckling.

Martie shut off the faucet. In the comparative quiet, her breathing was  alarmingly rapid and ragged with an unmistakable note of desperation.

Earlier, in the street, deep breathing had cleared her head, flushing away the  fear, and her distorted shadow had then ceased to be threatening. This time,  however, each inhalation seemed to fuel her terror, as oxygen feeds a fire.

She would have fled the room, but all her strength had drained out of her. Her  legs were rubbery, and she worried that she would fall and strike her head  against something. She needed the sink for support.

She tried to reason with herself, hoping to make her way back to stability with  simple steps of logic. The mirror couldn't harm her. It was not a presence. Just  a thing. An inanimate object. Mere glass, for God's sake.

Nothing she would see in it could be a threat to her. It was not a window at  which some madman might be standing, peering in with a lunatic grin, eyes  burning with homicidal intent, as in some cheesy screamfest movie. The mirror could not possibly reveal anything but a reflection  of the half bath-and of Martie herself.

Logic wasn't working. In a dark territory of her mind that she'd never traveled  before, she found a twisted landscape of superstition.

She became convinced that an entity in the mirror was gaining substance and  power because of her efforts to reason herself out of this terror, and she shut  her eyes lest she glimpse that hostile spirit even peripherally. Every child  knows that the boogeyman under the bed grows stronger and more murderous with  each denial of its existence, that the best thing to do is not to think of the  hungry beast down there with the dust bunnies under the box springs, with the  blood of other children on its fetid breath. Just don't think of it at all, with  its mad-yellow eyes and thorny black tongue. Don't think of it, whereupon it  will fade entirely away, and blessed sleep will come at last, followed by  morning, and you will wake in your cozy bed, snug under warm blankets, instead  of inside some demon's stomach.

Valet brushed against Martie, and she almost screamed.

When she opened her eyes, she saw the dog peering up with one of those  simultaneously imploring and concerned expressions that golden retrievers have  polished to near perfection.

Although she was leaning into the pedestal sink, certain that she couldn't stand  without its support, she let go of it with one hand. Trembling, she reached down  to touch Valet.

As if the dog were a lightning rod, contact with him seemed to ground Martie,  and like a crackling current of electricity, a portion of the paralyzing anxiety flowed out of her. High terror subsided to mere fear. Although affectionate and sweet-tempered and beautiful, Valet was a timid  creature. If nothing in this small room had frightened him, then no danger  existed here. He licked her hand.

Taking courage from the dog, Martie finally raised her head. Slowly. Shaking  with dire expectations.

The mirror revealed no monstrous countenance, no otherworldly landscape, no  ghost: only her own face, drained of color, and the familiar half bath behind  her.

When she looked into the reflection of her blue eyes, her heart raced anew, for  in a fundamental sense, she had become a stranger to herself. This shaky woman  who was spooked by her own shadow, who was stricken by panic at the prospect of  confronting a mirror... this was not Martine Rhodes, Smilin' Bob's daughter, who  had always gripped the reins of life and ridden with enthusiasm and poise. "What's happening to me?" she asked the woman in the mirror, but her reflection  couldn't explain, and neither could the dog.

The phone rang. She went into the kitchen to answer it.

Valet followed. He stared at her, puzzled, tail wagging at first, then not  wagging.

"Sorry, wrong number," she said eventually, and she hung up. She noticed the  dog's peculiar attitude. "What's wrong with you?"

Valet stared at her, hackles slightly raised.

"I swear, it wasn't the girl poodle next door, calling for you."

When she returned to the half bath, to the mirror, she still did not like what  she saw, but now she knew what to do about it.

4

Dusty walked under the softly rustling fronds of a wind-stirred phoenix palm and  along the side of the house. Here he found Foster "Fig" Newton, the third member  of the crew.

Hooked to Fig's belt was a radio-his ever present electronic IV bottle. A pair  of headphones dripped talk radio into his ears.

He didn't listen to programs concerned with political issues or with the  problems of modern life. Any hour, day or night, Fig knew where on the dial to  tune in a show dealing with UFOs, alien abductions, telephone messages from the  dead, fourth-dimensional beings, and Big Foot.

"Hey, Fig."

"Hey."

Fig was diligently sanding a window casing. His callused fingers were white with  powdered paint.

"You know about Skeet?" Dusty asked as he followed the slate walkway past Fig.

Nodding, Fig said, "Roof."

"Pretending he's gonna jump."

"Probably will."

Dusty stopped and turned, surprised. "You really think so?"

Newton was usually so taciturn that Dusty didn't expect more than a shrug of the  shoulders byway of reply. Instead Fig said, "Skeet doesn't believe in anything."

"Anything what?" Dusty asked. "Anything period."

"He isn't a bad kid, really."

Fig's reply was, for him, the equivalent of an after-dinner speech: "Problem is, he isn't much of anything."

Foster Newton's pie-round face, plum of a chin, full mouth, cherry-red nose with  cherry-round tip, and flushed cheeks ought to have made him look like a  debauched hedonist; however, he was saved from caricature by clear gray eyes  which, magnified by his thick eyeglasses, were full of sorrow. This was not a  conditional sorrow, related to Skeet's suicidal impulse, but a perpetual sorrow  with which Fig appeared to regard everyone and everything.

"Hollow," Fig added.

"Skeet?"

"Empty."

"He'll find himself."

"He stopped looking."

"That's pessimistic," Dusty said, reduced to Fig's terse conversational style.

"Realistic."

Fig cocked his head, attention drawn to a discussion on the radio, which Dusty  could hear only as a faint tinny whisper that escaped one of the headphones. Fig  stood with his sanding block poised over the window casing, eyes flooding with  an even deeper sorrow that apparently arose from the weirdness to which he was  listening, as motionless as if he had been struck by the paralytic beam from an  extraterrestrial's ray gun.

Worried by Fig's glum prediction, Dusty hurried to the long aluminum extension  ladder that Skeet had climbed earlier. Briefly, he considered moving it to the  front of the house. Skeet might become alarmed by a more direct approach,  however, and leap before he could be talked down. The rungs rattled under  Dusty's feet as he rapidly ascended.

When he swung off the top of the ladder, Dusty was at the back of the house.  Skeet Caulfield was at the front, out of sight beyond a steep slope of orange  clay tiles that rose like the scaly flank of a sleeping dragon.

This house was on a hill, and a couple miles to the west, beyond the crowded  flats of Newport Beach and its sheltered harbor, lay the Pacific. The usual  blueness of the water had settled like a sediment to the ocean floor, and the  choppy waves were many shades of gray, mottled with black: a reflection of the  forbidding heavens. At the horizon, sea and sky appeared to curve together in a  colossal dark wave which, if real, would have rushed ashore with enough force to  sweep past the Rocky Mountains more than six hundred miles to the east.

Behind the house, forty feet below Dusty, were slate-paved patios that posed a  more immediate danger than the sea and the oncoming storm. He could more easily  envision himself splattered across that slate than he could conjure, in his  mind's eye, an image of the Rockies awash.

Turning his back to the ocean and to the perilous drop, leaning from the waist,  with his arms slightly spread and thrust forward to serve as counterweights to  the dangerous backward pull of gravity, Dusty clambered upward. The onshore flow  was still just a strong breeze, not yet grown into a full-fledged wind;  nevertheless, he was grateful to have it at his back, sticking him to the roof  instead of lifting him away from it. At the summit of the long incline, he  straddled the ridge line and looked toward the front of the house, past  additional slopes of the complex roof.

Skeet was perched on another ridge parallel to this one, beside a double-stack  chimney disguised as a squat bell tower. The stucco tower was surmounted by  Palladian arches, the faux-limestone columns of which supported a copper-clad  Spanish-colonial cupola, and atop the cupola was a shortened but ornate Gothic  spire that was no more out of place in this screwball design than would have  been a giant neon sign for Budweiser.

With his back toward Dusty, knees drawn up, Skeet gazed at the three crows  circling above him. His arms were raised to them in an embracive gesture,  inviting the birds to settle upon his head and shoulders, as though he were not  a housepainter but Saint Francis of Assisi in communion with his feathered  friends.

Still straddling the ridge, waddling like a penguin, Dusty moved north until he  came to the point at which a lower roof, running west to east, slid under the  eaves of the roof that he was traversing. He abandoned the peak and descended  the rounded tiles, leaning backward because gravity now inexorably pulled him  forward. Crouching, he hesitated near the brink, but then jumped across the rain  gutter and dropped three feet onto the lower surface, landing with one rubber-soled  shoe planted on each slope.

Because his weight wasn't evenly distributed, Dusty tipped to the right. He  struggled to regain his balance but realized that he wasn't going to be able to  keep his footing. Before he tilted too far and tumbled to his death, he threw  himself forward and crashed facedown on the ridge-line tiles, right leg and arm  pressing hard against the south slope, left leg and arm clamped to the north  slope, holding on as though he were a panicked rodeo cowboy riding a furious  bull.

He lay there for a while, contemplating the mottled orange-brown finish and the  patina of dead lichen on the roofing tiles. He was reminded of the art of  Jackson Pollock, though this was more subtle, more fraught with meaning, and  more appealing to the eye.

When the rain came, the film of dead lichen would quickly turn slimy, and the  kiln-fired tiles would become treacherously slippery. He had to reach Skeet and  get off the house before the storm broke.

Eventually he crawled forward to a smaller bell tower.

This one lacked a cupola. The surmounting dome was a miniature version of those  on mosques, clad in ceramic tiles that depicted the Islamic pattern called the  Tree of Paradise. The owners of the house weren't Muslims, so they apparently  included this exotic detail because they found it visually appealing-even  though, up here, the only people who could get close enough to the dome to  admire it were roofers, housepainters, and chimney sweeps.

Leaning against the six-foot tower, Dusty pulled himself to his feet. Shifting  his hands from one vent slot to another, under the rim of the dome, he edged  around the structure to the next length of open roof.

Once more straddling the ridge, crouching, he hurried forward toward another  damn false bell tower with another Tree of Paradise dome. He felt like  Quasimodo, the high-living hunchback of Notre Dame: perhaps not nearly as ugly  as that poor wretch but also not a fraction as nimble.

He edged around the next tower and continued to the end of the east-west span,  which slid under the eaves of the north-south roof that capped the front wing of  the residence. Skeet had left a short aluminum ladder as a ramp from the lower  ridge line to the slope of the higher roof, and Dusty ascended it, rising from  all fours to an apelike crouch as he moved off the ladder onto one more incline.

When at last Dusty reached the final peak, Skeet was neither surprised to see  him nor alarmed. "Morning, Dusty"

"Hi, kid."

Dusty was twenty-nine, only five years older than the younger man; nonetheless,  he thought of Skeet as a child.

"Mind if I sit down?" Dusty asked.

With a smile, Skeet said, "I'd sure like your company."

Dusty sat beside him, butt on the ridge line, knees drawn up, shoes planted  solidly on the barrel tiles.

Far to the east, past wind-shivered treetops and more roofs, beyond freeways and  housing tracts, beyond the San Joaquin Hills, the Santa Ana Mountains rose brown  and sere, here at the beginning of the rainy season; around their aged crowns,  the clouds wound like dirty turbans.

On the driveway below, Motherwell had spread a big tarp, but he himself was  nowhere to be seen.

The security guard scowled up at them, and then he consulted his wristwatch. He  had given Dusty ten minutes to get Skeet down.

"Sorry about this," Skeet said. His voice was eerily calm.

"Sorry about what?"

"Jumping on the job."

"You could have made it a leisure-time activity," Dusty agreed.

"Yeah, but I wanted to jump where I'm happy, not where I'm unhappy, and I'm  happiest on the job."

"Well, I do try to create a pleasant work environment."

Skeet laughed softly and wiped his runny nose on the back of his sleeve. Though always slender, Skeet had once been wiry and tough; now he was far too  thin, even gaunt, yet he was soft-looking, as if the weight he had lost  consisted entirely of bone mass and muscle. He was pale, too, although he often  worked in the sun; a ghostly pallor shone through his vague tan, which was more  gray than brown. In cheap black-canvas-and-white-rubber sneakers, red socks,  white pants, and a tattered pale-yellow sweater with frayed cuffs that draped  loosely around his bony wrists, he looked like a boy, a lost child who had been  wandering in the desert without food or water.

Wiping his nose on the sleeve of his sweater again, Skeet said, "Must be getting  a cold."

"Or maybe the runny nose is just a side effect."

Usually, Skeet's eyes were honey-brown, intensely luminous, but now they were so  watery that a portion of the color seemed to have washed out, leaving him with a  dim and yellowish gaze. "You think I've failed you, huh?"

"No."

"Yes, you do. And that's all right. Hey, I'm okay with that."

"You can't fail me," Dusty assured him.

"Well, I did. We both knew I would."

"You can only fail yourself."

"Relax, bro." Skeet patted Dusty's knee reassuringly and smiled. "I don't blame  you for expecting too much of me, and I don't blame myself for being a screwup.

I'm past all that."

Forty feet below, Motherwell came out of the house, single-handedly carrying the  mattress from a double bed.

The vacationing owners had left keys with Dusty, because some interior walls in  high-traffic areas had also needed to be painted. That part of the job was  finished.

Motherwell dropped the mattress on the previously positioned tarpaulin, glanced  up at Dusty and Skeet, and then went back into the house.

Even from a height of forty feet, Dusty could see that the security guard didn't  approve of Motherwell raiding the residence to put together this makeshift  fall-break.

"What did you take?" Dusty asked.

Skeet shrugged and turned his face up toward the circling crows, regarding them  with such an inane smile and with such reverence that you would have thought he  was a total naturehead who had begun the day with a glass of fresh-squeezed  organic orange juice, a sugarless bran muffin, a tofu omelet, and a nine-mile  hike.

"You must remember what you took," Dusty pressed.

"A cocktail," Skeet said. "Pills and powders."

"Uppers, downers?"

"Probably both. More. But I don't feel bad." He looked away from the birds and  put his right hand on Dusty's shoulder. "I don't feel like crap anymore. I'm at  peace, Dusty."

"I'd still like to know what you took."

"Why? It could be the tastiest recipe ever, and you'd never use it." Skeet  smiled and pinched Dusty's cheek affectionately. "Not you. You're not like me."

Motherwell came out of the house with a second mattress from another double bed.

He placed it beside the first.

"That's silly," Skeet said, pointing down the steep slope to the mattresses.

"I'll just jump to one side or the other."

"Listen, you're not going to take a header into the Sorensons' driveway," Dusty  said firmly.

"They won't care. They're in Paris."

"London."

"Whatever."

"And they will care. They'll be pissed."

Blinking his bleary eyes, Skeet said, "What-are they really uptight or  something?"

Motherwell was arguing with the guard. Dusty could hear their voices but not  what they were saying.

Skeet still had his hand on Dusty's shoulder. "You're cold."

"No," Dusty said. "I'm okay."

"You're shaking."

"Not cold. Just scared."

"You?" Disbelief brought Skeet's blurry eyes into focus. "Scared? Of what?"

"Heights."

Motherwell and the security guard headed into the house. From up here, it  appeared as though Motherwell had an arm around the guy's back, as if maybe he  was lifting him half off his feet and hurrying him along.

"Heights?" Skeet gaped at him. "Whenever there's anything on a roof to be  painted, you always want to do it yourself."

"With my stomach in knots the whole time."

"Get serious. You're not afraid of anything."

"Yes, I am."

"Not you."

"Me."

"Not you!" Skeet insisted with sudden anger.

"Even me."

Distressed, having undergone a radical mood swing in an instant, Skeet snatched  his hand off Dusty's shoulder. He hugged himself and began to rock slowly back  and forth on the narrow seat provided by the single-width cap of ridge-line  tiles. His voice was wrenched with anguish, as though Dusty had not merely  acknowledged a fear of heights but had announced that he was riddled with  terminal cancer:

"Not you, not you, not you, not you.. .

In this condition, Skeet might respond well to several sweet spoonfuls of  sympathy; however, if he decided that he was being coddled, he could become  sullen, unreachable, even hostile, which was annoying in ordinary circumstances,  but which could be dangerous forty feet above the ground. Generally he responded  better to tough love, humor, and cold truth.

Into Skeet's not you chant, Dusty said, "You're such a feeb."

"You're the feeb."

"Wrong. You're the feeb."

"You are so completely the feeb," Skeet said.

Dusty shook his head. "No, I'm the psychological progeriac."

"The what?"

"Psychological, meaning 'of, pertaining to, or affecting the mind.' Pro geriac,  meaning 'someone afflicted with progeria,' which is a 'congenital abnormality  characterized by premature and rapid aging, in which the sufferer, in childhood,  appears to be an old person.'"

Skeet bobbed his head. "Hey, yeah, I saw a story about that on 60 Minutes." "So a psychological progeriac is someone who is mentally old even as a kid.  Psychological progeriac. My dad used to call me that. Sometimes he shortened it  to the initials-PP. He'd say, 'How's my little pee-pee today?' or 'If you don't  want to see me drink another Scotch, you little pee-pee, why don't you just hike  your ass out to the tree house in the backyard and play with matches for a  while.'"

Casting anguish and anger aside as abruptly as he had embraced them, Skeet said  sympathetically, "Wow. So it wasn't like a term of endearment, huh?"

"No. Not like feeb."

Frowning, Skeet said, "Which one was your dad?"

"Dr. Trevor Penn Rhodes, professor of literature, specialist in  deconstructionist theory."

"Oh, yeah. Dr. Decon."

Gazing at the Santa Ana Mountains, Dusty paraphrased Dr. Decon: "Language can't  describe reality. Literature has no stable reference, no real meaning. Each  reader's interpretation is equally valid, more important than the author's  intention. In fact, nothing in life has meaning. Reality is subjective. Values  and truth are subjective.

Life itself is a kind of illusion. Blah, blab, blah, let's have another Scotch."

The distant mountains sure looked real. The roof under his butt felt real, too,  and if he fell headfirst onto the driveway, he would either be killed or  crippled for life, which wouldn't prove a thing to the intractable Dr. Decon,  but which was enough reality for Dusty.

"Is he why you're afraid of heights," Skeet asked, "because of something he  did?"

"Who-Dr. Decon? Nah. Heights just bother me, that's all."

Sweetly earnest in his concern, Skeet said, "You could find out why. Talk to a  psychiatrist."

"I think I'll just go home and talk to my dog."

"I've had a lot of therapy."

"And it's done wonders for you, hasn't it?"

Skeet laughed so hard that snot ran out of his nose. "Sorry." Dusty withdrew a  Kleenex from a pocket and offered it. As Skeet blew his nose, he said, "Well,  me.. . now I'm a different story. Longer than I can remember, I've been afraid  of everything."

"I know."

"Getting up, going to bed, and everything between. But I'm not afraid now." He  finished with the Kleenex and held it out to Dusty

"Keep it," Dusty said.

"Thanks. Hey, you know why I'm not afraid anymore?"

"Because you're shitfaced?"

Skeet laughed shakily and nodded. "But also because I've seen the Other Side."

"The other side of what?"

"Capital 0, capital S. I had a visitation from an angel of death, and he showed  me what's waiting for us."

"You're an atheist," Dusty reminded him.

"Not anymore. I'm past all that. Which should make you happy, huh, bro?"

"How easy for you. Pop a pill, find God."

Skeet's grin emphasized the skull beneath the skin, which was frighteningly  close to the surface in his gaunt countenance. "Cool, huh? Anyway, the angel  instructed me to jump, so I'm jumping."

Abruptly the wind rose, skirling across the roof, chillier than before, bringing  with it the briny scent of the distant sea-and then briefly, like an augury, came the rotten stink of decomposing seaweed.

Standing up and negotiating a steeply pitched roof in this blustery air was a  challenge that Dusty did not want to face, so he prayed that the wind would  diminish soon.

Taking a risk, assuming that Skeet's suicidal impulse actually arose, as he  insisted, from his newfound fearlessness, and hoping that a good dose of terror  would make the kid want to cling to life again, Dusty said, "We're only forty  feet off the ground, and from the edge of the roof to the pavement, it's  probably only thirty or thirty-two. Jumping would be a classic feeb decision,  because what you're going to do is maybe end up not dead but paralyzed for life,  hooked up to machines for the next forty years, helpless."

"No, I'll die," Skeet said almost perkily. "You can't be sure."

"Don't get an attitude with me, Dusty." "I'm not getting an attitude."

"Just denying you have an attitude is an attitude."

"Then I've got an attitude."

"See."

Dusty took a deep breath to steady his nerves. "This is so lame. Let's get down  from here. I'll drive you over to the Four Seasons Hotel in Fashion Island. We  can go all the way up to the roof, fourteen, fifteen floors, whatever it is, and  you can jump from there, so you'll be sure it'll work."

"You wouldn't really."

"Sure. If you're going to do this, then do it right. Don't screw this up, too."

"Dusty I'm smacked, but I'm not stupid."

Motherwell and the security guard came out of the house with a king-size  mattress.

As they struggled with that ungainly object, they had a Laurel and Hardy quality  that was amusing, but Skeet's laugh sounded utterly humorless to Dusty Down in the driveway, the two men dropped their burden squarely atop the pair of  smaller mattresses that were already on the tarp.

Motherwell looked up at Dusty and raised his arms, hands spread, as if to say,  What're you waiting for?

One of the circling crows went military and conducted a bombing run with an  accuracy that would have been the envy of any high-tech air force in the world.  A messy white blob splattered across Skeet's left shoe.

Skeet peered up at the incontinent crow and then down at his soiled sneaker. His  mood swung so fast and hard that it seemed his head ought to have spun around  from the force of the change. His eerie smile crumbled like earth into a  sinkhole, and his face collapsed in despair. In a wretched voice, he said, "This  is my life," and he reached down to poke one finger into the mess on his shoe.

"My life."

"Don't be ridiculous," Dusty said. "You're not well enough educated to think in  metaphors."

This time, he couldn't make Skeet laugh.

"I'm so tired," Skeet said, rubbing bird crap between his thumb and forefinger.

"Time to go to bed."

He didn't mean bed when he said bed. He didn't mean he was going to take a nap  on the pile of mattresses, either. He meant that he was going to settle in for  the big sleep, under a blanket of dirt, and dream with the worms.

Skeet got to his feet on the peak of the roof. Although he was hardly more than  a wisp, he stood at his full height and didn't seem unduly bothered by the  hooting wind.

When Dusty rose into a cautious crouch, however, the onshore flow hit him with  gale force, rocking him forward, off the heels of his shoes, and he teetered for  a moment before he settled into a position that gave him a lower center of  gravity.

Either this was a deconstructionist's ideal wind-the effect of which would be  different according to each person's interpretation of it, a mere breeze to me,  a typhoon to thee-or Dusty's fear of heights caused him to have an exaggerated  perception of every gust. Since he'd long ago rejected his old man's screwy  philosophies, he figured that if Skeet could stand erect with no risk of being  spun away like a Frisbee, then so could he.

Raising his voice, Skeet said, "This is for the best, Dusty"

"Like you would know what's for the best."

"Don't try to stop me."

"Well, see, I've got to try."

"I can't be talked down."

"I've become aware of that."

They faced each other, as though they were two athletes about to engage in a  strange new sport on a slanted court: Skeet standing tall, like a basketball  player waiting for the opening toss-up, Dusty crouched like an underweight sumo  wrestler looking for leverage.

"I don't want to get you hurt," Skeet said.

"I don't want to get me hurt, either."

If Skeet was determined to jump off the Sorensons' house, he couldn't be  prevented from doing so. The steep pitch of the roof, the rounded surfaces of  the barrel tiles, the wind, and the law of gravity were on his side. All that  Dusty could hope to do was to make sure the poor son of a bitch went off the  edge at exactly the right place and onto the mattresses.

"You're my friend, Dusty My only real friend."

"Thanks for the vote of confidence, kid."

"Which makes you my best friend."

"By default," Dusty agreed.

"A guy's best friend shouldn't get in the way of his glory."

"Glory?"

"What I've seen it's like on the Other Side. The glory."

The only way to be sure that Skeet went off the roof precisely above the  fall-break was to grab him at the right instant and hurl him to the ideal point  along the brink. Which meant going down the roof and over the edge with him. The wind tossed and whipped Skeet's long blond hair, which was the last  attractive physical quality that he had left. Once, he'd been a good-looking  boy, a girl magnet. Now his body was wasted; his face was gray and haggard; and  his eyes were as burnt out as the bottom of a crack pipe. His thick, slightly  curly, golden hair was so out of sync with the rest of his appearance that it  seemed to be a wig.

Except for his hair, Skeet stood motionless. In spite of being more stoned than  a witch in Salem, he was alert and wary, deciding how best to break away from  Dusty and execute a clean running dive headfirst into the cobblestones below. Hoping to distract the kid or at least to buy a little time, Dusty said,  "Something I've always wondered. .. . What does the angel of death look like?"

"Why?"

"You saw him, right?"

Frowning, Skeet said, "Yeah, well, he looked okay."

A hard gust of wind tore off Dusty's white cap and spun it to Oz, but he didn't  take his attention off Skeet. "Did he look like Brad Pitt?"

"Why would he look like Brad Pitt?" Skeet asked, and his eyes slid sideways and  back to Dusty again, as he glanced surreptitiously toward the brink.

"Brad Pitt played him in that movie, Meet Joe Black."

"Didn't see it."

With growing desperation, Dusty said, "Did he look like Jack Benny?"

"What're you talking about?"

"Jack Benny played him once in a really old movie. Remember? We watched it  together."

"I don't remember much. You're the one with the photographic memory."

"Eidetic. Not photographic. Eidetic and audile memory."

"See? I can't even remember what it's called. You remember what you had for  dinner five years ago. I don't remember yesterday."

"It's just a trick thing, eidetic memory. Useless, anyway."

The first fat drops of rain spattered across the top of the house.

Dusty didn't have to look down to see the dead lichen being transformed into a  thin film of slime, because he could smell it, a subtle but singular musty odor,  and he could smell the wet clay tiles, too.

A daunting image flickered through his mind: He and Skeet were sliding off the  roof then tumbling wildly, Skeet landing on the mattresses without sustaining a  single cut or bruise, but Dusty overshooting and fracturing his spine on the  cobblestones.

"Billy Crystal," Skeet said.

"What-you mean Death? The angel of death looked like Billy Crystal?"

"Something wrong with that?"

"For God's sake, Skeet, you can't trust some wise-ass, maudlin, shtick-spouting  Billy Crystal angel of death!"

"I liked him," Skeet said, and he ran for the edge.

5

As though the great guns of battleships were providing cover fire for invading  troops, hard hollow explosions echoed along the south-facing beaches. Enormous  waves slammed onto the shore, and bullets of water, skimmed off the breakers by  a growing wind, rattled inland through the low dunes and sparse stalks of grass. Martie Rhodes hurried along the Balboa Peninsula boardwalk, which was a wide  concrete promenade with ocean-facing houses on one side and deep beaches on the  other. She hoped the rain would hold off for half an hour.

Susan Jagger's narrow, three-story house was sandwiched between similar  structures. The weather-silvered, cedar-shingle siding and the white shutters  vaguely suggested a house on Cape Cod, although the pinched lot did not allow  for a full expression of that style of architecture.

The house, like its neighbors, had no front yard, no raised porch, only a  shallow patio with a few potted plants. This one was paved with bricks and set  behind a white picket fence. The gate in the fence was unlocked, and the hinges  creaked.

Susan had once lived on the first and second floors with her husband, Eric, who  had used the third floor-complete with its own bath and kitchen-as a home  office. They were currently separated. Eric had moved out a year ago, and Susan  had moved up, renting the lower two floors to a quiet retired couple whose only  vice seemed to be two martinis each before dinner, and whose only pets were four parakeets.

A steep exterior set of stairs led along the side of the house to the third  story. As Martie climbed to the small covered landing, shrieking seagulls  wheeled in from the Pacific and passed overhead, crossing the peninsula, flying  toward the harbor, where they would ride out the storm in sheltered roosts. Martie knocked, but then unlocked the door without waiting for a response. Susan  was usually hesitant to welcome a visitor, reluctant to be confronted with a  glimpse of the outside world; so Martie had been given a key almost a year  previously.

Steeling herself for the ordeal ahead, she stepped into the kitchen, which was  revealed by a single light over the sink. The blinds were tightly shut, and lush  swags of shadows hung like deep-purple bunting.

The room was not redolent of spices or lingering cooking odors. Instead, the air  was laced with the faint but astringent scents of disinfectant, scouring powder,  and floor wax.

"It's me," Martie called, but Susan didn't answer.

The only illumination in the dining room came from behind the doors of a small  breakfront, in which antique majolica china gleamed on glass shelves. Here, the  air smelled of furniture polish.

If all the lights had been ablaze, the apartment would have proved to be  spotless, cleaner than a surgery. Susan Jagger had a lot of time to fill. Judging by the mélange of odors in the living room, the carpet had been  shampooed recently, the furniture polished, the upholstery dry-cleaned in place,  and fresh citrus-scented potpourri had been placed in two small, ventilated,  red-ceramic jars on the end tables.

The expansive windows, which framed an exhilarating ocean view, were covered by  pleated shades. The shades were for the most part concealed by heavy drapes. Until four months ago, Susan had been able at least to look out at the world  with wistful longing, even though for sixteen months she had been terrified of  venturing into it and had left her home only with someone upon whom she could  lean for emotional support. Now merely the sight of a vast open space, with no  walls or sheltering roof, could trigger a phobic reaction.

All the lamps glowed, and the spacious living room was brightly lighted. Yet because of the shrouded windows and the unnatural hush, the  atmosphere felt funereal.

Shoulders slumped, head hung, Susan waited in an armchair. In a black skirt and  black sweater, she had the wardrobe and the posture of a mourner. Judging by her  appearance, the paperback book in her hands should have been the Bible, but it  was a mystery novel.

"Did the butler do it?" Martie asked, sitting on the edge of the sofa.

Without looking up, Susan said, "No. The nun."

"Poison?"

Still focused on the paperback, Susan said, "Two with an ax. One with a hammer.

One with a wire garrote. One with an acetylene torch. And two with a nail gun."

"Wow, a nun who's a serial killer."

"You can hide a lot of weapons under a habit."

"Mystery novels have changed since we read them in junior high."

"Not always for the better," Susan said, closing the book.

They had been best friends since they were ten: eighteen years of sharing more  than mystery novels-hopes, fears, happiness, sorrow, laughter, tears, gossip,  adolescent enthusiasms, hard-won insights. During the past sixteen months, since  the inexplicable onset of Susan's agoraphobia, they had shared more pain than  pleasure.

"I should have called you," Susan said. "I'm sorry, but I can't go to the  session today."

This was ritual, and Martie played her part: "Of course, you can, Susan. And you  will."

Putting the paperback aside, shaking her head, Susan said, "No, I'll call Dr.  Ahriman and tell him I'm just too ill. I'm coming down with a cold, maybe the  flu."

"You don't sound congested."

Susan grimaced. "It's more a stomach flu."

"Where's your thermometer? We'd better take your temperature."

"Oh, Martie, just look at me. I look like hell. Pasty-faced and red-eyed and my  hair like straw. I can't go out like this."

"Get real, Sooz. You look like you always look."

"I'm a mess."

"Julia Roberts, Sandra Bullock, Cameron Diaz-they'd all kill to look as good as you, even when you're sick as a dog and projectile vomiting,  which you aren't."

"I'm a freak."

"Oh, yeah, right, you're the Elephant Woman. We'll have to put a sack over your  head and warn away small children."

If beauty had been a burden, Susan would have been crushed flat. Ash-blond,  green-eyed, petite, with exquisitely sculptured features, with skin as flawless  as that of a peach on a tree in Eden, she had turned more heads than a coven of  chiropractors.

"I'm bursting out of this skirt. I'm gross."

"A virtual blimp," Martie said sarcastically. "A dirigible. A giant balloon of a  woman."

Although Susan's self-imprisonment allowed her no exercise except housecleaning  and long walks on a treadmill in the bedroom, she remained svelte.

"I've gained more than a pound," Susan insisted.

"My God, it's a liposuction emergency," Martie said, bolting up from the sofa.  "I'll get your raincoat. We can call the plastic surgeon from the car, tell him  to get an industrial-size sump pump to suck out all the fat."

In the short hall that led to the bedroom, the coat closet featured a pair of  sliding, mirrored doors. As Martie approached it, she tensed and hesitated,  concerned that she would be overcome by the same irrational fear that had seized  her earlier.

She had to keep a grip on herself. Susan needed her. If she leaped into  looniness again, her anxiety would feed Susan's fear, and perhaps vice versa. When she confronted the full-length mirror, nothing in it made her heart race.  She forced a smile, but it looked strained. She met her eyes in the reflection,  and then quickly looked away, sliding one of the doors aside.

As she slipped ±e raincoat off the hanger, Martie considered, for the first  time, that her recent peculiar bouts of fear might be related to the time that  she'd spent with Susan during the past year. Maybe you should expect to absorb a  little overspill of anxiety if you hung out a lot with a woman suffering from an  extreme phobia.

A faint heat of shame flushed Martie's face. Even to consider such a possibility  seemed superstitious, uncharitable, and unfair to poor Susan. Phobic disorders  and panic attacks weren't contagious.

Turning away from the closet door and then reaching back to slide it shut, she  wondered what term psychologists used to describe a fear of one's shadow. A  disabling fear of open spaces, which afflicted Susan, was called agoraphobia.

But shadows? Mirrors?

Martie stepped out of the hail and into the living room before she realized that  she had reached behind her back to pull shut the sliding door in order to avoid  glancing in the mirror again. Startled that she had acted with such unconscious  aversion, she considered returning to the closet and confronting the mirror.

From the armchair, Susan was watching her.

The mirror could wait.

Holding the raincoat open, Martie approached her friend. "Get up, get in this,  and get moving."

Susan gripped the arms of the chair, miserable at the prospect of leaving her  sanctuary. "I can't."

"If you don't cancel a session forty-eight hours ahead, you have to pay for it."

"I can afford to."

"No, you can't. You don't have any income."

The only psychological malady that could have destroyed Susan's career as a  real-estate agent more effectively than agoraphobia was uncontrollable  pyromania. She had felt reasonably safe inside any property while showing it to  a client, but such paralyzing terror had overcome her while she was traveling  between houses that she hadn't been able to drive.

"I have the rent," Susan said, referring to the monthly check from the  parakeet-infatuated retirees downstairs.

"Which doesn't quite cover the mortgage, taxes, utilities, and maintenance on  the property."

"I have a lot of equity in the house."

Which might eventually be the only thing between you and total destitution, if  you don't beat this damn phobia, Martie thought, but she could not bring herself  to speak those words, even if that dire prospect might motivate Susan to get out  of the armchair.

Raising her delicate chin in an unconvincing expression of brave defiance, Susan  said, "Besides, Eric sends me a check."

"Not much. Hardly more than pocket change. And if the swine divorces you, maybe  there won't be anything more at all from him,considering you came into this marriage with more assets than he did, and there aren't any kids."

"Eric's not a swine."

"Pardon me for not being blunt enough. He's a pig."

"Be nice, Martie."

"I gotta be me. He's a skunk."

Susan was determined to avoid self-pity and tears, which was highly admirable,  but she was equally determined not to admit to her anger, which was less so. "He  just was so upset seeing me. . . this way. He couldn't take it anymore."

"Oh, the poor sensitive darling," Martie said. "And I guess he was just too  distressed to remember the part of the marriage vows that goes 'in sickness and  in health.'"

Martie's anger at Eric was genuine, although she made an effort to stoke it like  a fire and keep it ever alive. He had always been quiet, self-effacing, and  sweet-and in spite of his abandonment of his wife, he remained hard to hate.

Martie loved Susan too much not to despise Eric, however, and she believed that  Susan needed anger to motivate her in her struggle against agoraphobia.

"Eric would be here if I had cancer or something," Susan said. "I'm not just  sick, Martie. I'm crazy, is what I am."

"You aren't crazy," Martie insisted. "Phobias and anxiety attacks aren't the  same as madness."

"I feel mad. I feel stark raving."

"He didn't last four months after this started. He's a swine, a skunk, a weasel,  and worse."

This grim part of each visit-which Martie thought of as the extraction phase-was  stressful for Susan, but it was downright grueling for Martie. To get her  resistant friend out of the house, she had to be firm and relentless; and  although this was a firmness informed by much love and compassion, she felt as  though she were hectoring Susan. It wasn't within Martie's character to be a  bully, even in a good cause, and by the end of this brutal four- or five-hour  ordeal, she would return home to Corona Del Mar in a state of physical and  emotional exhaustion.

"Sooz, you're beautiful, kind, special, and smart enough to whip this thing."

Martie shook the raincoat. "Now get your ass out of that chair."

"Why can't Dr. Ahriman come to me for these sessions?"

"Leaving this house twice a week is part of the therapy. You know the  theory-immersion in the very thing you're frightened of. A sort of inoculation."

"It isn't working."

"Come on."

"I'm getting worse."

"Up, up."

"It's so cruel," Susan protested. Letting go of the arms of the chair, she  fisted her hands on her thighs. "So damn cruel."

"Whiner."

She glared at Martie. "Sometimes you can be such a mean bitch."

"Yeah, that's me. If Joan Crawford were alive, I'd challenge her to a wire  coat-hanger fight, and I'd lacerate her."

Laughing, then shaking her head, Susan rose from the armchair. "I can't believe  I said that. I'm sorry, Martie. I don't know what I'd do without you."

Holding the raincoat as Susan slipped her arms into it, Martie said, "You be  good, girlfriend, and on the way back from the doctor, we'll get some great  Chinese takeout. We'll open a couple bottles of Tsingtao, and we'll play some  killer two-hand pinochle over lunch, fifty cents a point."

"You already owe me over six hundred thousand bucks."

"So break my legs. Gambling debts aren't legally collectible."

After Susan switched off all but one of the lamps, she retrieved her purse from  the coffee table and led Martie through the apartment.

As she was crossing the kitchen behind Susan, Martie found her attention drawn  to a wicked-looking item that lay on a cutting board near the sink. It was a  mezzaluna knife, a classic Italian kitchen tool: The curved stainless-steel  blade was shaped like a half-moon, with a handle at each end, so it could be  rocked rapidly back and forth to dice and slice.

Like an electric current, scintillant light seemed to sizzle along the cutting  edge.

Martie could not look away from it. She didn't realize how completely the  mezzaluna had mesmerized her-until she heard Susan ask, "What's wrong?"

Her throat was tight, and her tongue felt swollen. With audible thickness, she  asked a question to which she already knew the answer:

"What's that?"

"Haven't you ever used one? It's great. You can dice an onion in a flash."

The sight of the knife didn't fill Martie with terror, as had her shadow and the  bathroom mirror. It did, however, make her uneasy, although she couldn't explain  her queer reaction to it.

"Martie? Are you okay?"

"Yeah, sure, let's go."

Susan twisted the knob but hesitated to open the kitchen door. Martie put her  hand over her friend's, and together they pulled the door inward, admitting cold gray light and a sharp-toothed wind. Susan's  face drained of color at the prospect of entering the roofless world beyond her  threshold.

"We've done this a hundred times before," Martie assured her.

Susan clutched the doorjamb. "I can't go out there."

"You will," Martie insisted.

Susan attempted to return to the kitchen, but Martie blocked her. "Let me in,  this is too hard, it's agony."

"it's agony for me, too," Martie said.

"Bullshit." Desperation clawed some of the beauty out of Susan's face, and a  feral terror darkened the green of her jungle eyes. "You're getting off on this,  you love it, you're crazy."

"No, I'm mean." Martie gripped the doorjamb with both hands, holding her ground.  "I'm the mean bitch. You're the crazy bitch."

Suddenly Susan stopped pushing at Martie and clutched at her instead, seeking  support. "Damn, I want that Chinese takeout."

Martie envied Dusty, whose biggest worry of the morning would be whether the  rain would hold off long enough for his crew to get some work done.

Fat drops of rain-at first in fitful bursts but soon more insistently-began to  rattle on the roof that covered the landing.

Finally, they stepped across the threshold, outside. Martie pulled the door shut  and locked it.

The extraction phase was behind them. Worse lay ahead, however, and Martie was  unable to see most of it coming.

6

Skeet ran exuberantly down the steeply pitched roof, toward the brink, angling  for a point of departure that would ensure he landed on skull-cracking pavement  rather than on mattresses, bounding along the convex orange-brown tiles as  though he were a kid racing across a cobbled street to an ice-cream vendor, and  Dusty ran grimly after him.

To those watching from below, it must have appeared that the two men were  equally deranged, fulfilling a suicide pact.

More than halfway down the slope, Dusty caught up with Skeet, grabbed him,  wrenched him off his intended trajectory, and stumbled diagonally across the  incline with him. Some clay tiles cracked underfoot, dislodging small chunks of  roofer's mortar, which rattled toward the rain gutter. Remaining upright on this  rolling debris was no less difficult than walking on marbles, with the added  challenges of the rain and the slimy lichen and Skeet's energetic and gleeful  resistance, which he waged with flailing arms and spiking elbows and disturbing  childlike giggles. Skeet's invisible dance partner, Death, seemed to give him  supernatural grace and balance, but then Dusty fell and took Skeet down with  him, and entwined they rolled the last ten feet, perhaps toward the mattresses  or perhaps not-Dusty had lost his bearings-and across the copper gutter, which  twanged like a plucked bass string.

Airborne, plummeting, letting go of Skeet, Dusty thought of Martie: the clean smell of her silky black hair, the mischievous curve of her  smile, the honesty of her eyes.

Thirty-two feet wasn't far, merely three stories, but far enough to split open  the most stubborn head, far enough to crack a spine as easily as one might snap  a pretzel stick, so when Dusty fell flat on his back on the piled mattresses, he  thanked God as he bounced. Then he realized that in free fall, when each  lightning-quick thought could have been his last, his mind had been filled with  Martie, and that God had occurred to him after the fact.

The Sorensons had purchased first-rate mattresses. The impact didn't even knock  the wind out of Dusty.

Skeet, too, had crashed into the safety zone. Now he lay as he had landed, face  planted in the satin-weave ticking, arms over his head, motionless, as though he  had been so fragile that even a fall into layers of cotton batting, foam rubber,  and airy eiderdown had shattered his eggshell bones.

As the top mattress quickly became sodden with rain, Dusty got onto his hands  and knees. He rolled the kid faceup.

Skeet's left cheek was abraded, and a small cut bisected the shallow cleft in  his chin. Both injuries had probably occurred as he had rolled across the roof  tiles; neither produced much blood.

"Where am I?" Skeet asked.

"Not where you wanted to be."

The kid's bronze eyes had a dark patina of anguish that hadn't been evident  during the manic minutes on the roof. "Heaven?"

"I'll make it seem like Hell, you smacked-out creep," Motherwell said, looming  over them, grabbing Skeet by his sweater and hauling him to his feet. If the sky  had been split by lightning and shaken by thunder, Motherwell could have passed  for Thor, Scandinavian god of the storm. "You're off my crew, you're finished,  you hopeless screwup!"

"Easy, easy," Dusty said, scrambling to his feet and off the mattress. Still holding Skeet a foot off the ground, Motherwell rounded on Dusty. "I mean  it, boss. Either he's gone, he's history, or I can't work with you anymore."

"Okay, all right. Just put him down, Ned."

Instead of releasing Skeet, Motherwell shook him and shouted in his face,  spraying enough foamy spittle to flock him like a Christmas tree: "By the time we buy new mattresses, three expensive mattresses, there goes  most of the profit. Do you have any clue, you shithead?"

Dangling from Motherwell's hands, offering no resistance, Skeet said, "I didn't  ask you to put down the mattresses."

"I wasn't trying to save you, asshole."

"You're always calling me names," Skeet said. "I never call you names."

"You're a walking pus bag." Straight Edgers, like Motherwell, denied themselves  many things, but never anger. Dusty admired their efforts to lead a clean life  in the dirty world they had inherited, and he understood their anger even as he  sometimes wearied of it.

"Man, I like you," Skeet told Motherwell. "I wish you could like me." "You're a pimple on the ass of humanity," Motherwell thundered, casting Skeet  aside as if tossing a bag of garbage.

Skeet almost slammed into Foster Newton, who was passing by. Fig halted as the  kid collapsed in a heap on the driveway, glanced at Dusty, said, "See you in the  morning if it doesn't rain," stepped over Skeet, and proceeded to his car at the  curb, still listening to talk radio through his headphones, as though he'd seen  people jumping off roofs every day of his working life.

"What a mess," Ned Motherwell said, frowning at the drenched mattresses. "I've got to check him into rehab," Dusty told Motherwell, as he helped Skeet to  his feet.

"I'll take care of this mess," Motherwell assured him. "Just get that cankerous  little weasel-dick out of my sight."

All along the rainwashed circular driveway to the street, Skeet leaned on Dusty.  His previous frenetic energy, whether it had come from drugs or from the  prospect of successful self-destruction, was gone, and he was limp with  weariness, almost asleep on his feet.

The security guard fell in beside them as they neared Dusty's white Ford van.  "I'll have to file a report about this."

"Yeah? With whom?"

"The executive board of the homeowners' association. With a copy to the  property-management company."

"They won't kneecap me with a shotgun, will they?" Dusty asked as he propped  Skeet against the van.

"Nah, they never take my recommendation," the guard said, and Dusty was forced  to reevaluate him.

Rising out of his stupor, Skeet warned, "They'll want your soul, Dusty. I know  these bastards."

From behind a veil of water that drizzled off the visor of his uniform cap, the  security guard said, "They might put you on a list of undesirable contractors  they'd rather not have in the community. But probably all that'll happen is  they'll want you never to bring this guy inside the gates again. What's his full  name, anyway?"

Opening the passenger door of the van, Dusty said, "Bruce Wayne."

"I thought it was Skeet something."

Helping Skeet into the van, Dusty said, "That's just his nickname." Which was  truthful yet deceptive.

"I'll need to see his ID."

"I'll bring it later," Dusty said, slamming the door. "Right now I've got to get  him to a doctor."

"He hurt?" the guard asked, following Dusty around the van to the driver's side.

"He's a wreck," Dusty said as he got in behind the wheel and pulled the door  shut.

The guard rapped on the window.

Starting the engine with one hand, winding down the window with the other, Dusty  said, "Yeah?"

"You can't go back to strike force, but crew isn't the right word, either.

Better call them your circus or maybe hullabaloo."

"You're all right," Dusty said. "I like you."

The guard smiled and tipped his sopping hat.

Dusty rolled up the window, switched on the wipers, and drove away from the  Sorensons' house.

7

Descending the exterior stairs from her third-floor apartment, Susan Jagger  stayed close to the house, sliding her right hand along the shingle siding, as  though constantly needing to reassure herself that shelter was close by,  fiercely clutching Martie's arm with her left hand. She kept her head down,  focusing intently on her feet, taking each ten-inch-high step as cautiously as a  rock climber might have negotiated a towering face of sheer granite.

Because of Susan's raincoat hood and because she was shorter than Martie, her  face was concealed, but from rainless days, Martie knew how Susan must look.  Shock-white skin. Jaw set, mouth grim. Her green eyes would be haunted, as  though she'd glimpsed a ghost however, the only ghost in this matter was her  once vital spirit, which had been killed by agoraphobia.

"What's wrong with the air?" Susan asked shakily.

"Nothing."

"Hard to breathe," Susan complained. "Thick. Smells funny."

"Just humidity. The smell is me. New perfume."

"You? Perfume?"

"I've got my girlish moments."

"We're so exposed," Susan said fearfully.

"It's not a long way to the car."

"Anything could happen out here."

"Nothing will happen."

"There's nowhere to hide."

"There's nothing to hide from."

Fifteen-hundred-year-old religious litanies were no less rigidly structured than  these twice-a-week conversations on the way to and from therapy sessions. As they reached the bottom of the steps, the rain fell harder than before,  rattling through the leaves of the potted plants on the patio, clicking against  the bricks.

Susan was reluctant to let go of the corner of the house.

Martie put an arm around her. "Lean on me if you want."

Susan leaned. "Everything's so strange out here, not like it used to be."

"Nothing's changed. It's just the storm."

"It's a new world," Susan disagreed. "And not a good one."

Huddling together, with Martie bending to match Susan's stoop, they progressed  through this new world, now in a rush as Susan was drawn forward by the prospect  of the comparatively enclosed space of the car, but now haltingly as Susan was  weighed down and nearly crushed by the infinite emptiness overhead. Whipped by  wind and lashed by rain, shielded by their hoods and their billowing coats, they  might have been two frightened holy sisters, in full habit, desperately seeking  sanctuary in the early moments of Armageddon.

Evidently Martie was affected either by the turbulence of the incoming storm or  by her troubled friend, because as they proceeded fitfully along the promenade  toward the side street where she had parked her car, she became increasingly  aware of a strangeness in the day that was easy to perceive but difficult to  define. On the concrete promenade, puddles like black mirrors swarmed with  images so shattered by falling rain that their true appearance could not be  discerned, yet they disquieted Martie. Thrashing palm trees clawed the air with  fronds that had darkened from green to green-black, producing a  thrum-hiss-rattle that resonated with a primitive and reckless passion deep  inside her. On their right, the sand was smooth and pale, like the skin of some  vast sleeping beast, and on their left, each house appeared to be filled with a  storm of its own, as colorless images of roiling clouds and wind-tossed trees  churned across the large ocean-view windows.

Martie was unsettled by all these odd impressions of unnatural menace in the  surrounding landscape, but she was more disturbed by a new strangeness within herself, which the storm seemed to conjure. Her heart  quickened with an irrational desire to surrender to the sorcerous energy of this  wild weather. Suddenly she was afraid of some dark potential she couldn't  define: afraid of losing control of herself, blacking out, and later coming to  her senses, thereupon discovering she had done something terrible.. . something  unspeakable.

Until this morning, such bizarre thoughts had never occurred to her. Now they  came in abundance.

She remembered the unusually sour grapefruit juice that she'd drunk at  breakfast, and she wondered if it had been tainted. She didn't have a sick  stomach; but maybe she was suffering from a strain of food poisoning that caused  mental rather than physical symptoms.

That was another bizarre thought. Tainted juice was no more likely an  explanation than the possibility that the CIA was beaming messages into her  brain via a microwave transmitter. If she continued down this twisty road of  illogic, she'd soon be fashioning elaborate aluminum-foil hats to guard against  long-distance brainwashing.

By the time they descended the short flight of concrete steps from the beach  promenade to the narrow street where the car was parked, Martie was drawing as  much emotional support from Susan as she was giving, although she hoped Susan  didn't sense as much.

Martie opened the curbside door, helped Susan into the red Saturn, and then went  around and got in the driver's seat.

Rain drummed on the roof, a cold and hollow sound that brought hoofbeats to  mind, as though the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse-Pestilence, War, Famine, and  Death-were approaching at full gallop along the nearby beach.

Martie pulled back her hood. She fished in one coat pocket and then in the other  until she found her keys.

In the passenger seat, Susan remained hooded, head bowed, hands fisted against  her cheeks, eyes squeezed shut, and face pinched, as if the Saturn were in one  of those hydraulic car crushers, about to be squashed into a three-foot cube. Martie's attention fixed on the car key, which was the same one she had always  used, yet suddenly the point seemed wickedly sharp, as never before. The  serrations resembled those on a bread knife, which then reminded her of the  mezzaluna in Susan's kitchen.

This simple key was a potential weapon. Crazily, Martie's mind clotted with  images of the bloody damage a car key could inflict.

"What's wrong?" Susan asked, though she had not opened her eyes.

Thrusting the key into the ignition, struggling to conceal her inner turmoil,  Martie said, "Couldn't find my key. It's okay. I've got it now."

The engine caught, roared. When Martie locked herself into her safety harness,  her hands were shaking so badly that the hard plastic clasp and the metal tongue  on the belt chattered together like a pair of windup, novelty-store teeth before  she finally engaged the latch.

"What if something happens to me out here and I can't get home again?" Susan  worried.

"I'll take care of you," Martie promised, although in light of her own peculiar  state of mind, the promise might prove empty.

"But what if something happens to you?"

"Nothing is going to happen to me," Martie vowed as she switched on the  windshield wipers.

"Something can happen to anybody. Look at what happened to me."

Martie pulled away from the curb, drove to the end of the short street, and  turned left onto Balboa Boulevard. "Hold tight. You'll be in the doctor's office  soon."

"Not if we're in an accident," Susan fretted.

"I'm a good driver."

"The car might break down."

"The car's fine."

"It's raining hard. If the streets flood-"

"Or maybe we'll be abducted by big slimy Martians," Martie said. "Be taken up to  the mother ship, forced to breed with hideous squid-like creatures."

"The streets do flood here on the peninsula," Susan said defensively.

"This time of year, Big Foot hides out around the pier, bites the heads off the  unwary. We better hope we don't have a breakdown in that area."

"You're vicious," Susan complained.

"I'm mean as hell," Martie confirmed.

"Cruel. You are. I mean it."

"I'm loathsome."

"Take me home."

"No."

"I hate you."

"I love you anyway," Martie said.

"Oh, shit," Susan said miserably. "I love you, too."

"Hang in there."

"This is so hard."

"I know, honey."

"What if we run out of fuel?"

"The tank's full."

"I can't breathe out here. I can't breathe."

"Sooz, you're breathing."

"But the air's like a.. . sludge. And I'm having chest pains. My heart."

"What I've got is a pain in the ass," Martie said. "Guess its name."

"You're a mean bitch."

"That's old news."

"I hate you."

"I love you," Martie said patiently.

Susan began to cry. She buried her face in her hands. "I can't go on like this."

"It's not much farther."

"I hate myself."

Martie frowned. "Don't say that. Don't ever."

"I hate what I've become. This frightened, quivering thing I've become." Martie's eyes clouded with tears of pity. She blinked furiously to clear her  vision.

From off the cold Pacific, waves of black clouds washed across the sky, as  though the tide of night were turning and would drown this bleak new day.  Virtually all the oncoming traffic, northbound on Pacific Coast Highway,  approached behind headlights that silvered the wet blacktop.

Martie's perception of unnatural menace had passed. The rainy day no longer  seemed in the least strange. In fact, the world was so achingly beautiful, so  right in every detail, that although she was no longer afraid of anything in it,  she was terribly afraid of losing it.

Despairing, Susan said, "Martie, can you remember me. . . the way I used to be?"

"Yes. Vividly."

"I can't. Some days I can't remember me any other way but how I am now. I'm  scared, Martie. Not just of going outside, out of the house. I'm scared of. . .  all the years ahead."

"We'll get through this together," Martie assured her, "and there'll be a lot of  good years."

Massive phoenix palms lined the entrance road to Fashion Island, Newport Beach's  premier shopping and business center. In the wind, the trees, like agitated  lions preparing to roar, shook their great green manes.

Dr. Mark Ahriman's suite of offices was on the fourteenth floor of one of the  tall buildings that surrounded the sprawling, low-rise shopping plaza. Getting  Susan from the parking lot to the lobby and then across what seemed like acres  of polished granite into an elevator was not as arduous a trek as Frodo's  journey from the peaceful Shire to the land called Mordor, there to destroy the  Great Ring of Power-but Martie was nonetheless relieved when the doors slid shut  and the cab purred upward.

"Almost safe," Susan murmured, gaze fixed on the indicator board inset in the  transom above the doors, watching the light move from number to number, toward  14, where sanctuary waited.

Though entirely enclosed and alone with Martie, Susan never felt secure in the  elevator. Consequently, Martie kept one arm around her, aware that from Susan's  troubled point of view, the fourteenth-floor elevator alcove and the corridors  beyond it-even the psychiatrist's waiting room-were also hostile territories  harboring uncountable threats. Every public space, regardless of how small and  sheltered, was an open space in the sense that anyone could enter at any time.  She felt safe only in two places: in her home on the peninsula-and in Dr.  Ahriman's private office, where even the dramatic panoramic view of the  coastline did not alarm her.

"Almost safe," Susan repeated as the elevator doors slid open at the fourteenth  floor.

Curiously, Martie thought of Frodo again, from The Lord of the Rings. Frodo in  the tunnel that was a secret entrance to the evil land of Mordor. Frodo  confronting the guardian of the tunnel, the spiderlike monster Shelob. Frodo  stung by the beast, apparently dead, but actually paralyzed and set aside to be  devoured later.

"Let's go, let's go," Susan whispered urgently. For the first time since leaving  her apartment, she was eager to proceed.

Inexplicably, Martie wanted to pull her friend back into the elevator, descend  to the lobby, and return to the car.

Once more she sensed a disquieting strangeness in the mundane scene around her,  as if this were not the ordinary elevator alcove that it appeared to be, but was  in fact the tunnel where Frodo and his companion Sam Gamgee had confronted the  great pulsing, many-eyed spider.

Responding to a sound behind her, she turned with dread, half expecting to see  Shelob looming. The elevator door was rolling shut. Nothing more than that. In her imagination, a membrane between dimensions had ruptured, and the world of  Tolkien was seeping inexorably into Newport Beach. Maybe she had been working  too long and too hard on the video-game adaptation. In her obsession with doing  honor to The Lord of the Rings, and in her mental exhaustion, was she confusing  reality and fantasy?

No. Not that. The truth was something less fantastic but equally strange. Then Martie caught a glimpse of herself in the glass panel that covered a wall  niche containing an emergency fire hose. Immediately, she turned away, rattled  by the razor-sharp anxiety in her face. Her features appeared jagged, with deep  slashes for laugh lines, a mouth like a scar; her eyes were wounds. This  unflattering expression was not what made her look away. Something else. Worse.  Something to which she couldn't quite put a name.

What's happening to me?

"Let's go," Susan said more insistently than before. "Martie, what's wrong?

Let's go."

Reluctantly, Martie accompanied Susan out of the alcove. They turned left into  the corridor.

Susan took heart from her mantra-"almost safe, almost safe"- but Martie found no  comfort in it.

8

As the wind stripped wet leaves off trees and as cataracts gushed along gutters  toward half-clogged street drains, Dusty drove down through the Newport hills.

"I'm soaked. I'm cold," Skeet complained.

"Me too. Fortunately, we're high-order primates with lots of gadgets." Dusty  switched on the heater.

"I screwed up," Skeet mumbled. "Who, you?"

"I always screw up." "Everybody's good at something." "Are you angry with me?"

"Right now I'm sick to death of you," Dusty said honestly.

"Do you hate me?"

"No."

Skeet sighed and slid down farther in his seat. In his boneless slump, as a  faint steam rose off his clothes, he looked less like a man than like a pile of  damp laundry. His chafed and swollen eyelids drooped shut. His mouth sagged  open. He appeared to be asleep.

The sky pressed down, as gray-black as wet ashes and char. The rain wasn't the  usual glittering silver, but dark and dirty, as if nature were a scrubwoman  wringing out a filthy mop.

Dusty drove east and south, out of Newport Beach, into the city of Irvine. He hoped that the New Life Clinic, a drug-and-alcohol-rehabilitation  facility. would have an open bed.

Skeet had been in rehab twice before, once at New Life six months ago. He came  out clean, sincerely intending to stay that way. After each course of therapy,  however, he gradually slid backward.

Until now he'd never gotten low enough to try suicide. Perhaps, from this new  depth, he'd realize that he was facing his last chance.

Without lifting his chin from his chest, Skeet said, "Sorry... back there on the  roof. Sorry I forgot which one was your dad. Dr. Decon. It's just that I'm so  wrecked."

"That's okay. I've been trying to forget him most of my life."

"You remember my dad, I'll bet"

"Dr. Holden Caulfield, professor of literature."

"He's a real bastard," Skeet said.

"They all are. She's attracted to bastards."

Skeet slowly raised his head, as though it were a massive weight elevated by a  complex system of powerful hydraulic lifts. "Holden Caulfield's not even his  real name."

Dusty braked at a red traffic signal and regarded Skeet with skepticism. The  name, identical to that of the protagonist in The Catcher in the Rye, seemed too  pat to have been an invention.

"He changed it legally when he was twenty-one," Skeet said. "Sam Farner was his  born name."

"Is this stoned talk or true talk?"

"True," Skeet said. "Old Sam's dad was a career military man. Colonel Thomas  Jackson Farner. His mom, Luanne, she taught nursery school. Old Sam had a  falling-out with them-after the colonel and Luanne finished putting him through  college and after old Sam got a scholarship toward his master's degree.  Otherwise, he might've waited to have his falling-out, until his folks ponied up  more tuition."

Dusty knew Skeet's father-the false Holden Caulfield-and knew him far too well,  because the pretentious bastard was his stepfather. Trevor Penn Rhodes, Dusty's  father, was the second of their mother's four husbands, and Holden Sam Caulfield  Farner was her third. From before Dusty's fourth birthday until past his  fourteenth, this self-styled blue blood had ruled their family with a lofty  sense of divine right, and with enough authoritarian zeal and sociopathic  ferocity to earn praise from Hannibal Lecter. "He said his mother had been a professor at Princeton, his father at Rutgers. All those stories . .

"Not biography," Skeet insisted. "Just his cooked-up résumé."

"Their tragic death in Chile? . .

"Another lie." In Skeet's bloodshot eyes was a fierce light that might have been  vengeance. For a moment, the kid appeared not sad at all, not drawn and gaunt  and ruined, but full of a wild and barely contained glee.

Dusty said, "He had such a tremendous disagreement with Colonel Farner that he  wanted to change his name?"

"I guess he liked The Catcher in the Rye."

Dusty was amazed. "Maybe he liked it, but did he understand it?" Which was a  dumb question. Skeet's father was as shallow as a petri dish, culturing one  short-lived enthusiasm after another, most of them as destructive as salmonella.

"Who would want to be Holden Caulfield?"

"Sam Earner, my good old dad. And I'll bet it hasn't hurt the bastard's career  at the university. In his line of work, that name makes him memorable."

A horn sounded behind them. The traffic signal had changed from red to green. Resuming the drive to New Life, Dusty said, "Where did you learn all this?"

"To begin with-on the Internet." Skeet sat up straighter, and with his bony  hands, he smoothed his damp hair back from his face. "First, I checked out the  faculty emeritus at Rutgers, on their web-site. Everyone who'd ever taught  there. Same at Princeton. No one with his parents' names had been professors at  either place. His invented parents, I mean."

With an unmistakable note of pride in his voice, Skeet recounted the tortuous  route he'd followed in his search for the simple truth about his father. The  investigation had required concerted effort and considerable creative thought,  not to mention sober logic.

Dusty marveled that this fragile kid, ravaged by life as well as by his own  addictions and compulsions, had been able to focus sharply enough and long  enough to get the job done.

"My old man's old man, Colonel Earner-he's long dead," Skeet said. "But Luanne,  his mother, she's alive. She's seventy-eight, lives out in Cascade, Colorado." "Your grandmother," Dusty said.

"Didn't know she existed till three weeks ago. Talked to her on the phone twice.  She seems real sweet, Dusty. Broke her heart when her only kid cut them out of  his life."

"Why did he?"

"Political convictions. Don't ask me what that means."

"He changes convictions with his designer socks," Dusty said. "It must have been  something else."

"Not according to Luanne."

Pride of accomplishment, which had given Skeet the strength to sit up straighter  and lift his chin off his chest, was no longer sufficient to sustain him.  Gradually he slid down and retreated turtlelike into the steam, the wet smell,  and the soggy folds of his loose rain-soaked clothes.

"You can't afford all this again," Skeet said as Dusty drove into the New Life  Clinic parking lot.

"Don't worry about it. I have two major jobs lined up. Besides, Martie's  designing all kinds of hideous deaths for Orcs and assorted monsters, and  there's serious bucks in that."

"I don't know if I can go through the program again."

"You can. You jumped off a roof this morning. Hell, getting through rehab should  be a piece of cake."

The private clinic was in a building styled like the corporate headquarters for  a prosperous chain of Mexican fast-food restaurants: a two-story hacienda with  arched loggias on the first floor, covered balconies on the second, too  precisely prettified with royal-purple bougainvillea, which had been  meticulously hand-woven around columns and across archways. Perfection had been  sought so aggressively that the result was a Disneyesque artificiality, as if  everything from the grass to the roof were stamped out of plastic. Here, even  the dirty rain had a tinsel glimmer.

Dusty parked at the curb near the entrance, in the zone reserved for patient  admissions. He switched off the wipers, but didn't kill the engine. "Have you  told him what you've learned?"

"You mean good old Dad?" Skeet closed his eyes, shook his head. "No. It's enough  I know it myself."

In truth, Skeet was afraid of Professor Caulfield, née Farner, no less now than  when he'd been a boy-and perhaps with good reason.

"Cascade, Colorado," Skeet said, pronouncing it as if it were a magical place,  home to wizards and gryphons and unicorns.

"You want to go there, see your grandma?"

"Too far. Too hard," Skeet said. "I can't drive anymore."

Because of numerous moving violations, he had lost his driver's license. He rode  to work each day with Fig Newton.

"Listen," Dusty said, "you get through the program, and I'll take you out there  to Cascade to meet your grandma."

Skeet opened his eyes. "Oh, man, that's risky."

"Hey, I'm not that bad a driver."

"I mean, people let you down. Except you and Martie. And Dominique. She never  let me down."

Dominique was their half sister, born to their mother's first husband. She'd  been a Down's baby and had died in infancy. Neither of them had ever known her,  though sometimes Skeet visited her grave. The one who escaped, he called her.

"People always let you down," he said, "and it's not smart to expect too much." "You said she sounded sweet on the phone. And evidently your dad despises her,  which is a good sign. Damn good. Besides, if she turns out to be the grandmother  from Hell, I'll be there with you, and I'll break her legs."

Skeet smiled. He stared wistfully through the rain-washed windshield, not at the  immediate landscape but perhaps at an ideal portrait of Cascade, Colorado, which  he'd already painted in his mind. "She said she loved me. Hasn't met me, but  said it anyway."

"You're her grandson," Dusty said, switching off the engine.

Skeet's eyes appeared to be not just swollen and bloodshot but sore, as if he'd  seen too many painful things. But in the ice-pale, sunken wreckage of his gaunt  face, his smile was warm. "You're not just a half brother. You're a brother and  a half."

Dusty cupped a hand against the back of Skeet's head and pulled him close, until  their foreheads touched. They sat for a while, brow to brow, neither of them  saying anything.

Then they got out of the van, into the cold rain.

9

Dr. Mark Ahriman's waiting room featured two pairs of Ruhlmanstyle lacquered  lacewood chairs with black leather seats. The floor was black granite, as were  the two end tables, each of which held fanned copies of Architectural Digest and  Vanity Fair The color of the walls matched the honey tone of the lacewood.

Two Art Deco paintings, nighttime cityscapes reminiscent of some early work by  Georgia O'Keeffe, were the only art.

The high-style decor was also surprisingly serene. As always, Susan was visibly  relieved the moment she crossed the threshold from the fourteenth-floor  corridor. For the first time since leaving her apartment, she didn't need to  lean on Martie. Her posture improved. She raised her head, pushed back the  raincoat hood, and took long breaths, as if she'd broken through the surface of  a cold, deep pond.

Curiously, Martie, too, felt a measure of relief. Her floating anxiety, which  didn't seem to be anchored to any particular source, abated somewhat as she  closed the waiting-room door behind them.

The doctor's secretary, Jennifer, could be seen through the receptionist's  window. Sitting at a desk, talking on the phone, she waved.

An inner door opened soundlessly. As if telepathically informed of his patient's  arrival, Dr. Ahriman entered from the equally well furnished chamber in which he  conducted therapy sessions. Impeccably dressed in a dark gray Vestimenta suit,  as stylish as his offices, he moved with the easy grace characteristic of professional athletes. He was forty-something, tall, well-tanned, with salt-and-pepper hair, as  handsome as the photographs on the dust jackets of his bestselling books about  psychology. Though his hazel eyes were unusually direct, his stare wasn't  invasive or challenging, not clinical-but warm and reassuring. Dr. Ahriman  looked nothing like Martie's fader; however, he shared Smilin' Bob's affability,  genuine interest in people, and relaxed self-confidence. To her, he had a  fatherly air.

Rather than reinforce Susan's agoraphobia by solicitously asking how she had  handled the trip from her apartment, he spoke eloquendy about the beauty of the  storm, as though the soggy morning were as luminous as a painting by Renoir. As  he described the pleasures of a walk in the rain, the chill and the damp sounded  as soul-soothing as a sunny day at the beach.

By the time Susan stripped out of her raincoat and handed it to Martie, she was  smiling. All the anxiety was gone from her face, if not entirely from her eyes.  As she left the waiting room for Dr. Ahriman's inner office, she no longer moved  like an old woman, but like a young girl, apparently unintimidated by the  expansive view of the coastline that awaited her from his fourteenth-floor  windows.

As always, Martie was impressed by the instant soothing effect that the doctor  had on Susan, and she almost decided against sharing her concern with him. But  then, before he followed Susan into the office, Martie asked if she might have a  word with him.

To Susan, he said, "I'll be right with you," and then shut his office door. Moving to the center of the waiting room with Ahriman, keeping her voice low,  Martie said, "I'm worried about her, Doctor."

His smile was as comforting as hot tea, sugared shortbread, and a fireside  armchair. "She's doing well, Mrs. Rhodes. I couldn't be more pleased." "Isn't there medication you could give her? I was reading that anxiety  medication-"

"In her case, anxiety medication would be a very grave mistake. Drugs aren't  always the answer, Mrs. Rhodes. Believe me, if they would help her, I'd write  the prescription in a minute."

"But she's been like this for sixteen months."

He cocked his head and regarded her almost as if he suspected that she was teasing him. "Have you really seen no change in her, especially  over the last few months?"

"Oh, yes. Plenty. And it seems to me . . . Well, I'm no doctor, no therapist,  but lately Susan seems to be worse. A lot worse."

"You're right. She's getting worse, but that's not a bad sign."

Baffled, Martie said, "It's not?"

Sensing the depth of Martie's distress, perhaps intuitively aware that her  anxiety arose not entirely from her concern about her friend, Dr. Ahriman guided  her to a chair. He settled into the seat beside her.

"Agoraphobia," he explained, "is almost always a sudden-onset condition, rarely  gradual. The intensity of the fear is as severe during the first panic attack as  during the hundredth. So when there's a change in the intensity, it often  indicates the patient is on the edge of a breakthrough."

"Even if the fear gets worse?"

"Especially when it gets worse." Ahriman hesitated. "I'm sure you realize I  can't violate Susan's privacy by discussing the details of her specific case.  But in general the agoraphobic often uses his or her fear as a refuge from the  world, as a way to escape engagement with other people or to avoid dealing with  particularly traumatic personal experiences. There's a perverse comfort in the  isolation-"

"But Susan hates being so fearful, trapped in that apartment."

He nodded. "Her despair is deep and genuine. However, her need for isolation is  even greater than her anguish over the limitations imposed by her phobia." Martie had noticed that sometimes Susan seemed to cling to her apartment because  she was happy there more than because she was too frightened of the world  beyond.

"If the patient begins to understand why she's embracing her loneliness,"  Ahriman continued, "if at last she starts to identify the real trauma she's  trying not to face, then sometimes, in denial, she will cling to the agoraphobia  more fiercely. An intensification of symptoms usually means she's making a  last-ditch defense against the truth. When that defense fails, she'll finally  face the thing she really fears-not open spaces, but something more personal and  immediate."

The doctor's explanation made sense to Martie, yet she couldn't easily accept  the idea that an ever steeper decline would inevitably lead to a cure. Last year, her father's battle with cancer progressed along a  relentless downward spiral, and at the bottom there had been no joyful  breakthrough, only death. Of course a psychological illness could not be  compared to a physical disease. Nevertheless "Did I set your mind at rest, Mrs. Rhodes?" A twinkle of humor enlivened his  eyes. "Or do you think I'm full of psychobabble?"

His charm won her over. The impressive array of diplomas in his office, his  reputation as the finest specialist in phobic therapy in California and perhaps  in the nation, and his keen mind were no more important to building patient  trust than was his bedside manner.

Martie smiled and shook her head. "No. The only babble is coming from me. I  guess . . . I feel like I've failed her somehow."

"No, no, no." He placed a hand reassuringly on her shoulder. "Mrs. Rhodes, I  can't stress strongly enough how important you are to Susan's recovery. Your  commitment to her means more than anything I can do. You must always feel  comfortable about expressing your worries to me. Your concern for her is the  rock on which she stands."

Martie's voice thickened. "We've been friends since we were kids, most of our  lives. I love her so much. I couldn't love her more if she were my sister." "That's what I mean. Love can accomplish more than therapy, Mrs. Rhodes. Not  every patient has someone like you. Susan is so very lucky in that regard."

Martie's vision blurred. "She seems so lost," she said softly.

His hand tightened slightly on her shoulder. "She's finding her way. Believe me,  she is."

She did believe him. Indeed, he had comforted her so much that she almost  mentioned her own peculiar rushes of anxiety this morning: her shadow, the  mirror, the mezzaluna, the point and the serrated edge of the car key. . In the inner office, Susan was waiting for her session. This time was hers, not  Martie's.

"Is there something else?" Dr. Ahriman asked.

"No. I'm all right now," she said, getting to her feet. "Thank you. Thank you so  much, Doctor."

"Have faith, Mrs. Rhodes."

"I do."

Smiling, he gave her a thumbs-up sign, went into his office, and closed the  door.

Martie followed a narrow hallway between the doctor's private office and a large  file room, to a second waiting area. This was smaller than-but similar to-the  first.

Here, a back door led into Dr. Ahriman's office, and another door opened onto  the fourteenth-floor corridor. This double-waiting-room arrangement ensured that  arriving patients and their companions, if any, wouldn't encounter departing  patients, thus guaranteeing everyone's privacy.

Martie hung Susan's raincoat and her own on a pair of wall hooks beside the exit  door.

She had brought a paperback book, a thriller, to pass the time, but she couldn't  focus on the story. None of the creepy things happening in the novel was as  disquieting as the real events of this morning.

Soon Jennifer, the doctor's secretary, brought a mug of coffee- black, without  sugar, as Martie liked it-and a chocolate biscotto. "I didn't ask if you'd  rather have a soft drink. I just assumed, on a day like this, coffee was the  thing."

"Perfect. Thank you, Jenny."

When Martie first accompanied Susan here, she had been surprised by this simple  courtesy; although having no previous experience with psychiatrists' offices,  she was sure that such thoughtful treatment was not common to the profession,  and she was still charmed by it.

The coffee was rich but not bitter. The biscotto was excellent; she would have  to ask Jennifer where to buy them.

Funny, how one good cookie could calm the mind and even elevate a troubled soul. After a while, she was able to concentrate on the book. The writing was good.  The plot was entertaining. The characters were colorful. She enjoyed it.

The second waiting room was a fine place to read. Hushed. No windows. No  annoying background music. No distractions.

In the story, there was a doctor who loved haiku, a concise form of Japanese  poetry. Tall, handsome, blessed with a mellifluous voice, he recited a haiku  while he stood at a huge window, watching a Storm:

"Pine wind blowing hard, quick rain, torn windpaper talking to itself"

Martie thought the poem was lovely. And those succinct lines perfectly conveyed  the mood of this January rain as it swept along the coast, beyond the window.  Lovely-both the view of the storm and the words.

Yet the haiku also disturbed her. It was haunting. An ominous intent lurked  beneath the beautiful images. A sudden disquiet came over her, a sense that  nothing was what it seemed to be.

What's happening to me?

She felt disoriented. She was standing, though she had no memory of having risen  from her chair. And for God's sake, what was she doing here?

"What's happening to me?" she asked aloud this time.

Then she closed her eyes, because she must relax. She must relax. Relax. Have  faith.

Gradually she recovered her composure.

She decided to pass the time with a book. Books were good therapy. You could  lose yourself in a book, forget your troubles, your fear.

This particular book was especially good escape reading. A real thriller. The  writing was good. The plot was entertaining. The characters were colorful. She  enjoyed it.

10

The one available room at New Life was on the second floor, with a view of the  well-landscaped grounds. Queen palms and ferns thrashed in the wind, and beds of  blood-red cyclamens throbbed.

Rain clicked against the window so hard that it sounded like sleet, though Dusty  could see no beads of ice sliding down the glass.

His clothes only slightly damp now, Skeet sat in a blue tweed armchair. He paged  desultorily through an ancient issue of Time.

This was a private rather than semiprivate room. A single bed with  yellow-and-green-checked spread. One blond, wood-grain Formica nightstand, a  small matching dresser. Off-white walls, burnt-orange drapes, bile-green carpet.  When they went to Hell, sinful interior designers were assigned to quarters like  this for eternity.

The attached bath featured a shower stall as cramped as a phone booth. A red  label-TEMPERED GLASS-was fixed to a corner of the mirror above the sink: If  broken, it would not produce the sharp shards required to slash one's wrists. Although the room was humble, it was costly, because the care given by the staff  at New Life was of a far higher quality than their furniture. Skeet's health  insurance didn't include  I-was-stupid-andself-destructive-and-now-l-need-to-have-a-full-brain-flush  coverage, so Dusty had already written a check for four weeks of room and board, and he had signed a commitment to pay for the services of therapists,  physicians, counselors, and nurses as needed.

As this was Skeet's third course of rehabilitation-and his second at New  Life-Dusty was beginning to think that to have any hope of success, what he  needed were not psychologists, physicians, and therapists-but a wizard, a  warlock, a witch, and a wishing well.

Skeet was likely to be at New Life for a minimum of three weeks. Perhaps six.  Because of his suicide attempt, a series of nurses would be with him around the  clock for at least three days.

Even with painting contracts lined up and with Martie's deal to design a new  Lord of the Rings game, they were not going to be able to afford a long Hawaiian  vacation this year. Instead, they could put a few tiki lanterns in the backyard,  wear aloha shirts, crank up a Don Ho CD, and have a canned-ham luau. That would  be fun, too. Any time spent with Martie was fun, whether the backdrop was Waimea  Bay or the painted board fence at the end of their flower garden.

As Dusty sat on the edge of the bed, Skeet dropped the issue of Time that he'd  been reading. "This magazine sucks since they stopped running nudes." When Dusty  didn't respond, Skeet said, "Hey, that was just a joke, bro, not the drugs  talking. I'm not particularly high anymore."

"You were funnier when you were."

"Yeah. But after the flight goes down, it's hard to be funny in the wreckage."  His voice wobbled like a spinning top losing momentum.

The rataplan of rain on the roof was usually soothing. Now it was depressing, a  chilling reminder of all the dreams and drug-soaked years washed down the drain. Skeet pressed pale, wrinkled fingertips to his eyelids. "Saw my eyes in the  bathroom mirror. Like someone hocked wads of phlegm in a couple dirty ashtrays.  Man, that's how they feel, too."

"Anything particular you'd like besides your gear? Some new magazines, books, a  radio?"

"Nah. For a few days, I'll be sleeping a lot." He stared at his fingertips, as  if he thought part of his eye might have stuck to them. "I appreciate this,  Dusty. I'm not worth it, but I do appreciate it. And I'll pay you back somehow."

"Forget it."

"No. I want to." He slowly melted down into the chair, as though he were a wax  candle in the shape of a man. "It's important to me.

Maybe I'll win the lottery or something big. You know? It could happen."

"It could," Dusty agreed, because although he didn't believe in the lottery, he  did believe in miracles.

The first-shift nurse arrived, a young Asian American named Tom Wong, whose air  of relaxed competence and boyish smile gave Dusty confidence that he was putting  his brother in good hands.

The name on the patient-ID sheet was Holden Caulfield Jr., but when Tom read it  aloud, Skeet was roused from his lethargy. "Skeet!" he said ferociously, sitting  up straighter in his chair, clenching his fists. "That's my name. Skeet and  nothing but Skeet. Don't you ever call me Holden. Don't you ever How can I be  Holden junior when my phony shit of a father isn't even Holden senior? Who I  should be is Sam Farner Jr. Don't you call me that, either! You call me anything  but Skeet, then I'll strip naked, set my hair on fire, and throw myself through  that freaking window. Okay? You understand? Is that what you want, me taking a  flaming-naked suicide leap into that pretty little garden of yours?"

Smiling, shaking his head, Tom Wong said, "Not on my shift, Skeet. The flaming  hair would be an amazing sight, but I sure don't want to see you naked."

Dusty smiled with relief. Tom had struck the perfect note.

Slumping in the armchair again, Skeet said, "You're all right, Mr. Wong."

"Please call me Tom."

Skeet shook his head. "I'm a bad case of arrested development, stuck in early  adolescence, more screwed-up-twisted-up-tangled-up than a couple earthworms  makin' babies. What I need here aren't a bunch of new friends, Mr. Wong. What I  need here, you see, are some authority figures, people who can show me the way,  'cause I really can't go on like this and I really do want to find the way, I  really do. Okay?"

"Okay," said Tom Wong.

"I'll be back with your clothes and stuff," Dusty said.

When Skeet tried to get to his feet, he didn't have sufficient strength to push  himself up from the chair.

Dusty bent down and kissed him on the cheek. "Love you, bro."

"Truth is," Skeet said, "I'll never pay you back."

"Sure you will. The lottery, remember?"

"I'm not lucky."

"Then I'll buy the ticket for you," Dusty said.

"Hey, would you? You're lucky. Always were. Hell, you found Martie. You walk  around in luck up to your ears."

"You have some pay coming. I'll buy you two tickets a week."

"That would be cool." Skeet closed his eyes. His voice settled into a murmur.

"That would be. . . cool." He was asleep.

"Poor kid," Tom Wong said.

Dusty nodded.

From Skeet's room, Dusty went directly to the second-floor care station, where  he spoke to the head nurse, Colleen O'Brien: a stout, freckled woman with white  hair and kind eyes, who could have played the mother superior in every convent  in every Catholicthemed movie ever produced. She claimed to be aware of the  treatment limitation special to Skeet's case, but Dusty went through it with her  anyway.

"No drugs. No tranquilizers, no sedatives. No antidepressants. He's been on one  damn drug or another since he was five, sometimes two or three at once. He had a  learning disability, and they called it a behavior disorder, and his old man had  him on a series of drugs for that. When one drug had side effects, then there  were drugs to counter the side effects, and when those produced side effects,  there were more drugs to counter the new side effects. He grew up in a chemical  stew, and I know that's what screwed him up. He's so used to popping a pill or  taking an injection that he can't figure how to live straight and clean." "Dr. Donklin agrees," she said, producing Skeet's file. "He's got a  zero-medication advisory in place."

"Skeet's metabolism is so out of whack, his nervous system so shot, you can't  always be sure what reaction he'll have even to some usually harmless patent  medicine."

"He won't even get Tylenol."

Listening to himself, Dusty could hear that in his concern for Skeet, he was  babbling. "He nearly killed himself once with caffeine tablets, they were such a  habit. Developed caffeine psychosis, had some amazingly weird hallucinations,  went into convulsions. Now he's incredibly sensitized to it, allergic. You give  him coffee, a Coke, he could go into anaphylactic shock."

"Son," she said, "that's here in the file, too. Believe me, we're going to take good care of him." To Dusty's surprise, Colleen O'Brien made the  sign of the cross and then winked at him. "No harm is going to come to your  little brother on my watch."

If she had been a mother superior in a movie, you would have had full confidence  that she was speaking both for herself and for God.

"Thank you, Mrs. O'Brien," he said softly. "Thank you very, very much."

Outside again, in his van, he did not at once switch on the engine. He was  trembling too badly to drive.

The shakes were in part a delayed reaction to the fall off the Sorensons' roof.  Anger shook him, too. Anger at poor screwed-up Skeet and the endless burden he  imposed. And the anger made Dusty tremble with shame, because he loved Skeet, as  well, and felt responsible for him, but was powerless to help him. Being  powerless was the worst of it.

He folded his arms across the steering wheel, put his forehead on his arms, and  did something that he had rarely permitted himself to do in his twenty-nine  years. He cried.

11

After the session with Dr. Ahriman, Susan Jagger appeared to be restored to her  former self, the woman she had been prior to the agoraphobia. As she slipped  into her raincoat, she declared that she was famished. "With considerable humor  and flair, she rated the three Chinese restaurants that Martie suggested for  takeout. "I don't have a problem with MSG or too many hot red peppers in the  Szechuan beef, but I'm afraid I must rule out choice number three based on the  possibility of getting an unwanted cockroach garnish." Nothing in her face or in  her manner marked her as a woman in the nearly paralytic grip of a severe  phobia.

As Martie opened the door to the fourteenth-floor corridor, Susan said, "You  forgot your book."

The paperback was on the small table beside the chair in which Martie had been  sitting. She crossed the room, but she hesitated before picking up the book. "What's wrong?" Susan asked.

"Huh? Oh, nothing. Seem to have lost my bookmark." Martie slipped the paperback  into her raincoat pocket.

All the way along the corridor, Susan remained in good spirits, but as the  elevator descended, her demeanor began to change. When they reached the lobby,  she was whey-faced, and a tremor in her voice quickly curdled the note of good  humor into sour anxiety. She hunched her shoulders, hung her head, and bent  forward as though she could already feel the cold, wet lash of the storm outside.

Susan exited the elevator on her own, but four or five steps into the lobby, she  had to grip Martie's arm for support. As they approached the lobby doors, her  fear reduced her nearly to paralysis and to abject humiliation.

The return trip to the car was grueling. By the time they reached the Saturn,  Martie's right shoulder and that entire side of her neck ached, because Susan  had clutched so tenaciously and had clung so helplessly to her arm.

Susan huddled in the passenger's seat, hugging herself, rocking as if racked by  stomach pain, head bent to avoid a glimpse of the wide world beyond the windows.  "I felt so good upstairs," she said miserably, "with Dr. Ahriman, through the  whole session, so good. I felt normal. I was sure I would be better coming out,  at least a little better, but I'm worse than when I went in."

"You're not worse, honey," Martie said, starting the engine. "Believe me, you  were a pain in the ass on the way in, too."

"Well, I feel worse. I feel like something's coming down on top of us, out of  the sky, and I'm going to be crushed by it."

"It's just the rain," Martie said, because the rain drumming on the car was  cacophonous.

"Not the rain. Something worse. Some tremendous weight. Just hanging over us.  Oh, God, I hate this."

"We'll get a bottle of Tsingtao into you."

"That's not going to help."

"Two bottles."

"I need a keg."

"Two kegs. We'll get sloppy together."

Without raising her head, Susan said, "You're a good friend, Martie."

"Let's see if you still think so when we're both committed to some alcohol-rehab  hospital."

12

From New Life, in the grip of something close to grief, Dusty went home to  change out of his damp work clothes into dry civvies. At the connecting door  between the garage and the kitchen, Valet greeted him with doggy enthusiasm,  tail wagging so hard that his whole butt swayed. The very sight of the retriever  began to bring Dusty out of his internal darkness.

He squatted and gave the dog a nose-to-nose greeting, gently scratching behind  the velvety ears, slowly down the crest of the neck to the withers, under the  chin, along the dewlaps, and into the thick winter fur on the chest.

He and Valet enjoyed the moment equally. Petting, scratching, and cuddling a dog  could be as soothing to the mind and heart as deep meditation-and almost as good  for the soul as prayer.

When Dusty plugged in the coffeemaker and began to spoon some good Colombian  blend into the filter, Valet rolled onto his back, with all four legs in the  air, seeking a belly rub.

"You're a love hog," Dusty said.

Valet's tail swished back and forth across the tile floor.

"I need my fur fix," Dusty admitted, "but right now I need my coffee more. No  offense."

His heart seemed to be pumping Freon instead of blood. A chill had settled deep  in his flesh and bones; even deeper. Turned up full blast, the van heater hadn't been able to warm him. He was counting on the  coffee.

When Valet realized that he wasn't going to receive a belly rub, he got to his  feet and padded across the kitchen to the half bath. The door was ajar, and the  dog stood with his snout poked through the six-inch gap, sniffing the darkness  beyond.

"You've got a perfectly fine water dish there in the corner," Dusty said. "Why  do you want to drink out of a toilet?"

Valet glanced back at him, but then returned his attention to the dark bathroom. As fresh-brewed coffee began to drip into the glass pot, the kitchen filled with  a delicious aroma.

Dusty went upstairs and changed into jeans, a white shirt, and a navy-blue wool  sweater.

Usually, when only the two of them were in the house, the dog followed him  around, hoping for a cuddle, a treat, a play session, or merely a word of  praise. This time, Valet remained downstairs.

When Dusty returned to the kitchen, the retriever was still at the door to the  half bath. He came to his master's side, watched as Dusty filled a cup with the  steaming java, then returned to the bathroom door.

The coffee was strong, rich, and plenty hot, but what warmth it provided was  superficial. The ice in Dusty's bones didn't begin to thaw.

In fact, as he leaned against the counter and watched Valet sniffing at the gap  between the bathroom door and the jamb, he was overcome by a new and separate  coldness. "Something wrong in there, fluffy butt?"

Valet looked at him and whined.

Dusty poured a second cup of coffee, but before sampling it, he went to the  bathroom, nudged Valet aside, pushed the door inward, and switched on the light. A few soiled Kleenex had been emptied out of the brass waste can, into the sink.  The can itself lay on its side atop the closed lid of the toilet seat.

Someone apparently had used the waste can to smash the mirror on the medicine  cabinet. Jagged shards like solidified lightning blazed across the bathroom  floor.

13

When Martie went into the restaurant to get the takeout-moo goo gai pan,  Szechuan beef, snow peas and broccoli, rice, and a cold six-pack of Tsingtao-she  left Susan in the car, with the engine running and the radio tuned to a station  playing classic rock. She had placed the order from her cell phone, en route,  and it was ready when she arrived. In respect of the rain, the cardboard  containers of food and the beer were packed in two plastic bags.

Even before Martie stepped out of the restaurant, just a few minutes later, the  car-radio volume had been cranked so high that she could hear Gary U.S. Bonds  belting "School Is Out," saxophones wailing.

She winced when she got into the car. The woofer diaphragms were vibrating so  violently in the radio speakers that several loose coins in a change tray  jingled against one another.

Left alone in a car, even though she was technically not in an open space, and  though she kept her head down and her eyes away from the windows, Susan could  often be overwhelmed by an awareness of the vast world beyond. Sometimes loud  music helped by distracting her, diminishing her ability to obsess on her fear. The severity of her attack could be measured by how loud she needed the music to  be if it were to help her. This had been a grim seizure: The radio couldn't be  turned any louder.

Martie drastically reduced the volume. The driving rhythms and booming melody of "School Is Out" had completely masked the sounds of the storm.  Now the drumbeat, maracas rattle, and cymbal hiss of the downpour washed over  them again.

Shuddering, breathing raggedly, Susan didn't look up or speak.

Martie said nothing. Sometimes Susan had to be coached, cajoled, counseled, and  occasionally even bullied out of her terror. At other times, like this, the best  way to help her climb down from the top of the panic ladder was to make no  reference to her condition; talking about it propelled her toward an even higher  anxiety.

After she had driven a couple of blocks, Martie said, "I got some chopsticks." "I prefer a fork, thanks."

"Chinese food doesn't taste fully Chinese when you use a fork."

"And cow milk doesn't taste fully like milk unless you squirt it directly into  your mouth from the teat."

"You're probably right," Martie said.

"So I'll settle for a reasonable approximation of the authentic taste. I don't  mind being a philistine as long as I'm a philistine with a fork."

By the time they parked near her house on Balboa Peninsula, Susan was  sufficiently in control of herself to make the trek from the car to her  third-floor apartment. Nevertheless, she leaned on Martie all the way, and the  journey was grindingly difficult.

Safe in her apartment, with all the blinds and drapes tightly shut, Susan was  again able to stand fully erect, with her shoulders drawn back and her head held  up. Her face was not wrenched anymore. Although her green eyes remained haunted,  they were no longer wild with terror.

"I'll zap the takeout containers in the microwave," Susan said, "if you'll set  the table."

In the dining room, as Martie was putting a fork beside Susan's plate, her hand  began to shake uncontrollably. The stainless-steel tines rattled against the  china.

She dropped the fork on the place mat and stared at it with a queer dread that  rapidly escalated into a repulsion so severe that she backed away from the  table. The tines were wickedly pointed. She had never before realized how  dangerous a simple fork might be in the wrong hands. You could tear out an eye  with it. Gouge a face. Shove it into someone's neck and snare the carotid artery  as though you were twisting a strand of spaghetti. You could- Overcome by a desperate need to keep her hands busy, safely busy, she opened one  of the drawers in the breakfront, located a sixty-four-card pinochle deck used  for playing a two-hand game, and took it out of the box. Standing at the dining  table, as far from the fork as she could get, she shuffled the deck. At first  she repeatedly fumbled, spilling cards across the table, but then her  coordination improved.

She couldn't shuffle the cards forever.

Stay busy. Safely busy. Until this strange mood passed.

Trying to conceal her agitation, she went into the kitchen, where Susan was  waiting for the microwave timer to buzz. Martie took two bottles of Tsingtao  from the refrigerator.

The complex fragrances of Chinese food filled the room.

"Do you think I'm getting the authentic smell of the cuisine when I'm dressed  like this?" Susan asked.

"What?"

"Or to really smell it, maybe I should put on a cheongsam."

"Ho, ho," Martie said, because she was too rattled to think of a witty reply. She almost put the two bottles of beer on the cutting board by the sink, to open  them, but the mezzaluna was still there, its wicked crescent edge gleaming. Her  heart hammered almost painfully hard at the sight of the knife.

Instead, she set the beers on the small kitchen table. She got two glasses from  a cabinet and put them beside the beers.

Stay busy.

She searched through a drawer full of small utensils until she found a bottle  opener. She plucked it from among the other items, and returned to the table. The opener was rounded on one end, for bottles. The other end was pointed and  hooked, for cans.

By the time she reached the kitchen table, the pointed end of the opener  appeared to be as murderous an instrument as the fork, as the mezzaluna. She  quickly put it beside the Tsingtaos before it dropped out of her trembling hand  or she threw it down in horror.

"Will you open the beers?" she asked on her way out of the kitchen, leaving  before Susan could see her troubled face. "I've got to use the john." Crossing the dining room, she avoided looking at the table, on which the fork  lay, tines up.

In the hallway leading off the living room, she averted her eyes from the  mirrored sliding doors on the closet.

The bathroom. Another mirror.

She almost backed out into the hail. She could think of nowhere else to go to  collect her wits in private, however, and she didn't want Susan to see her in  this condition.

Summoning the courage to confront the mirror, she found nothing to fear. The  anxiety in her face and eyes was distressing, although not as evident as she had  thought it must be.

Martie quickly closed the door, lowered the lid on the toilet, and sat down.  Only when her breath burst from her in a raw gasp did she realize that she'd  been holding it for a long time.

Upon discovering the shattered mirror in the half bath off the kitchen, Dusty  first thought that a vandal or a burglar was in the house.

Valet's demeanor didn't support that suspicion. His hackles weren't raised.  Indeed, the dog had been in a playful mood when Dusty first came home.

On the other hand, Valet was a love sponge, not a serious watchdog. If he had  taken a liking to an intruder-as he did to ninety percent of the people he  met-he would have followed the guy around, licking his larcenous hands as the  family treasures were loaded into gunnysacks.

With the dog trailing after him this time, Dusty searched the house room by  room, closet by closet, first the lower floor and then the upper. He found no  one, no further vandalism, and nothing missing.

Dusty instructed the obedient Valet to wait in a far corner of the kitchen, to  prevent him from getting slivers of glass in his paws. Then he cleaned up the  mess in the half bath.

Maybe Martie would be able to explain the mirror when Dusty saw her later. It  must have been an accident of some kind, which had happened just before she'd  needed to leave for Susan's place. Either that, or an angry ghost had moved in  with them.

They would have a lot to talk about over dinner: Skeet's would-be suicide  plunge, another expedition with Susan, poltergeists...

14

Doing deep-breathing exercises in Susan's bathroom, Martie decided that the  problem was stress. Most likely that was the explanation for all this. She had  so much on her mind, so many responsibilities.

Designing a new game based on The Lord of the Rings was the most important and  difficult job she'd ever undertaken. And it came with a series of looming  deadlines that put a lot of pressure on her, perhaps more pressure than she had  realized until now.

Her mother, Sabrina, and the endless antagonism toward Dusty:

That stress had been with her a long time, too.

And last year, she'd had to watch her beloved father succumb to cancer. The last  three months of his life had been a relentless, gruesome decline, which he had  endured with his customary good humor, refusing to acknowledge any of the pains  or the indignities of his condition. His soft laughter and his charm had, in  those final days, failed to buoy her as they usually did; instead, his ready  smile had pierced her heart each time she saw it, and though from those wounds  she had lost no blood, a little of her lifelong optimism had bled away and had  not yet been entirely replenished.

Susan, of course, was a source of more than a little stress. Love was a sacred  garment, woven of a fabric so thin that it could not be seen, yet so strong that  even mighty death could not tear it, a garment that could not be frayed by use,  that brought warmth into what would otherwise be an intolerably cold world-but  at times love could also be as heavy as chain mail. Bearing the burden of love,  on those occasions when it was a solemn weight, made it more precious when, in  better times, it caught the wind in sleeves like wings-and lifted you. In spite  of the stress of these twice-weekly outings, she could no more walk away from  Susan Jagger than she could have turned her back on her dying father, on her  difficult mother, or on Dusty.

She would go out to the dining room, eat Chinese food, drink a bottle of beer,  play pinochle, and pretend that she was not full of strange forebodings. When she got home, she'd call Dr. Closterman, her internist, and make an  appointment for a physical examination, just in case her self-diagnosis of  stress was incorrect. She felt physically fit, but so had Smilin' Bob just before the sudden onset of a curious little pain that had  signaled terminal illness.

Crazy as it sounded, she was still suspicious of that unusually sour grapefruit  juice. She'd been drinking it most mornings lately, instead of orange juice,  because of the lower calorie count. Maybe that explained the dream about the  Leaf Man, too: the raging figure formed of dead, rotting leaves. Perhaps she  would give a sample of the juice to Dr. Closterman to have it tested. Finally she washed her hands and confronted the mirror again. She thought that  she appeared passably sane. Regardless of how she looked, however, she still  felt like a hopeless nutcase.

After Dusty finished sweeping up the broken mirror, he gave Valet a special  treat for being a good boy and staying out of the way: a few pieces of roasted  chicken breast left over from dinner the previous night. The retriever took each  bit of meat from his master's hand with a delicacy almost equal to that of a  hummingbird sipping sugar water from a garden feeder, and when it was all gone,  he gazed up at Dusty with an adoration that could not have been much less than  the love with which the angels regard God.

"And you are an angel, all right," Dusty said, as he gently scratched under  Valet's chin. "A furry angel. And with ears that big, you don't need wings." He decided to take the dog with him to Skeet's apartment and then to New Life.  Although no intruder was in the house, Dusty didn't feel comfortable leaving the  pooch here alone, until he knew what had happened to the mirror.

"Man, if I'm this overprotective with you," he said to Valet, "can you imagine  how impossible I'm going to be with kids?"

The dog grinned as though he liked the idea of kids. And as if he understood  that he was to ride shotgun on this trip, he went to the connecting door between  the kitchen and the garage, where he stood patiently fanning the air with his  plumed tail.

As Dusty was pulling on a hooded nylon jacket, the telephone rang. He answered  it.

When he hung up, he said, "Trying to sell me a subscription to the L.A. Times,"  as though the dog needed to know who had called.

Valet was no longer standing at the door to the garage. He was lying in front of  it, half settled into a nap, as though Dusty had been on the phone ten minutes  rather than thirty seconds.

Frowning, Dusty said, "You had a shot of chicken protein, golden one. Let's see  some vigor."

With a long-suffering sigh, Valet stood.

In the garage, as he buckled the collar around the dog's neck and snapped a  leash to it, Dusty said, "Last thing I need is a daily newspaper. Do you know  what newspapers are full of, golden one?"

Valet looked clueless.

"They are full of the stuff newsmakers do. And do you know who the newsmakers  are? Politicians and media types and big-university intellectuals, people who  think too much of themselves and think too much in general. People like Dr.  Trevor Penn Rhodes, my old man. And people like Dr. Holden Caulfield, Skeet's  old man."

The dog sneezed.

"Exactly," Dusty said.

He didn't expect Valet to ride in the back of the van, among the painting tools  and supplies. Instead, the mutt jumped onto the front seat; he enjoyed gazing  out the windshield when he traveled. Dusty buckled the safety harness around the  retriever, and received a face-lick of thanks before closing the passenger door. Behind the wheel, as he started the engine and backed out of the garage into the  rain, he said, "Newsmakers screw up the world while trying to save it. You know  what all their deep thinking amounts to, golden one? It amounts to the same  thing we scoop up in those little blue bags when we follow you around."

The dog grinned at him.

Pressing the remote control to close the garage door, Dusty wondered why he  hadn't said all this to the telephone salesperson who had been pushing the  newspaper. Those incessant calls from the Times subscription hawkers were one of  the few serious drawbacks to living in southern California, on a par with  earthquakes, wildfires, and mudslides. If he'd delivered this same rant to the  woman-or had it been a man?-pitching the Times, maybe his name would finally  have been removed from their solicitation list.

As he backed out of the driveway into the street, Dusty had the peculiar  realization that he couldn't recall whether the Times representative on the  phone had been a man or a woman. No reason why he should remember, really, since he had listened only to enough of the spiel to  realize what it was, whereupon he had hung up.

Usually, he ended a Times call by making a proposition, to have fun with the  salesperson. Okay, I'll subscribe if you'll take barter. I'll paint one of your  offices, you give me three years of the Times. Or, yeah, I'll take a lifetime  subscription if your paper promises never again to refer to a mere sports star  as a hero.

He hadn't made them a proposition this time. On the other hand, he couldn't  remember what he had said, even if it was as simple as no thanks or stop  bothering me.

Odd. His mind was blank.

Evidently, he was even more preoccupied with-and disturbed by-the business with  Skeet this morning than he had realized.

15

The Chinese takeout was no doubt as delicious as Susan said it was, but although  Martie, too, exclaimed over it, she actually found the food flavorless. The  Tsingtao tasted bitter today.

Neither the food nor the beer was at fault. Martie's free-floating anxiety,  although ebbing at the moment, robbed her of the ability to take pleasure in  anything.

She ate with chopsticks, and at first she thought that merely watching Susan use  a fork would induce another panic attack. But the sight of the wicked tines  didn't alarm her, after all, as it had earlier. She had no fear of the fork, per  Se; she was afraid, instead, of what damage could be done with the fork if it  were in her own hand. In Susan's possession, the utensil seemed harmless.

The apprehension that she, Martie herself, harbored the dark potential for some  unspeakable act of violence was so disturbing that she refused to dwell on it.  This was the most irrational of fears, for she was certain in mind and heart and  soul that she had no capacity for savagery. And yet she had not trusted herself  with the bottle opener....

Considering how edgy she was-and how hard she was trying not to reveal that  edginess to Susan-she should have been an even bigger loser at pinochle than  usual. Instead, the cards favored her, and she played with masterful skill,  taking full advantage of each piece of good luck, perhaps because the game  helped to distract her from morbid considerations.

"You're a champ today," Susan said.

"I'm wearing my lucky socks."

"Already your debt is down from six hundred thousand to five hundred and  ninety-eight thousand."

"Great. Now maybe Dusty will be able to sleep at night."

"How is Dusty?"

"Even sweeter than Valet."

"You get a man who's more lovable than a golden retriever." Susan sighed. "And I  marry a selfish pig."

"Earlier, you were defending Eric."

"He's a swine."

"That's my line."

"And I thank you for it."

Outside, a wolfish wind growled, scratched on the windows, and raised mournful  howls to the eaves.

Martie said, "Why the change of heart?"

"The root of my agoraphobia might lie in problems between Eric and me, going  back a couple years, things I've been in denial about."

"Is that what Dr. Ahriman says?"

"He doesn't really direct me toward ideas like that. He just makes it possible  for me to. . . figure it out."

Martie played a queen of clubs. "You never mentioned problems between you and  Eric. Not until he wasn't able to handle.. . this."

"But I guess we had them."

Martie frowned. "You guess?"

"Well, there's no guessing. We had a problem."

"Pinochle," Martie said, taking the last trick. "What problem?"

"A woman."

Martie was stunned. Real sisters could be no closer than she and Susan. Although  they both had too much self-respect to share intimate details of their sex  lives, they never kept big secrets from each other, yet she'd never before heard  of this woman.

"The creep was cheating on you?" Martie asked.

"A discovery like that, all of a sudden, it makes you feel so vulnerable," Susan  said, but without the emotion the words implied, as though quoting a psychology  textbook. "And that's what agoraphobia is about-an overwhelming, crippling  feeling of vulnerability."

"You never even hinted at this."

Susan shrugged. "Maybe I was too ashamed."

"Ashamed? What would you have to be ashamed about?"

"Oh, I don't know.. . ." She looked puzzled and finally said, "Why would I feel  ashamed?"

To Martie it appeared, amazingly, as though Susan were thinking this through for  the first time, right here, right now.

"Well. . . I guess maybe because. . . because I wasn't enough for him, not good  enough in bed for him."

Martie gaped at her. "Who am I talking to? You're gorgeous, Sooz, you're erotic,  you have a healthy sex drive-"

"Or maybe I wasn't there for him emotionally, wasn't supportive enough?" Pushing the cards aside without totaling the points, Martie said, "I don't  believe what I'm hearing."

"I'm not perfect, Martie. Far from it." A sorrow, quiet but as heavy and gray as  lead, pressed her voice thin. She lowered her eyes, as though embarrassed. "I  failed him somehow."

Her contrition seemed profoundly inappropriate, and her words angered Martie.  "You give him everything-your body, your mind, your heart, your life-and you  give it in that totally over-the-top, all-or-nothing, passionate Susan Jagger  trademark style. Then he cheats on you, and you blame yourself?"

Frowning, turning an empty beer bottle around and around in her slender hands,  gazing at it as though it were a talisman that might, with sufficient handling,  magically provide full understanding, Susan said, "Maybe you've just put your  finger on it, Martie. Maybe the trademark Susan Jagger style just. . . smothered  him."

"Smothered him? Give me a break."

"No, maybe it did. Maybe-"

"What's with all these maybes?" Martie asked. "Why are you inventing a series of  excuses for the pig? What was his excuse?"

Hard shatters of rain made tuneless music against the windowpanes, and from a  distance came the ominous, rhythmic booming of storm waves hammering the shore. "What was his excuse?" Martie pressed.

Susan turned the beer bottle more slowly than before, and now slower still, and  when at last she stopped turning it altogether, she was frowning in evident  confusion.

Martie said, "Susan? What was his excuse?"

Putting the bottle aside, gazing at her hands as she folded them on the table,  Susan said, "His excuse? Well. . . I don't know."

"We're all the way down the rabbit hole and at the tea party," Martie declared,  exasperated. "What do you mean you don't know? Honey, you catch him having an  affair, and you don't want to know why?"

Susan shifted uneasily in her chair. "We didn't talk about it much."

"Are you serious? That isn't you, girlfriend. You're no milquetoast."

Susan spoke more slowly than usual, with a thickness of tone like that in the  voice of a freshly roused sleeper who was not yet fully awake: "Well, we talked  about it a little, you know, and this could be the cause of my agoraphobia, but  we didn't talk the dirty details."

This conversation had grown so deeply strange that Martie sensed a hidden and  perilous truth in it, an elusive insight that would suddenly explain all of this  troubled woman's problems, if only she could grasp it.

Susan's statements were simultaneously outrageous and vague. Disturbingly vague.

"What was this woman's name?" Martie asked.

"I don't know."

"Good God. Eric didn't tell you?"

Finally Susan raised her head. Her eyes were unfocused, as though she were  staring at someone other than Martie, in another place and time. "Eric?"

Susan had spoken the name with such puzzlement that Martie turned in her chair  to survey the room behind her, expecting to find that Eric had silently entered.

He wasn't there.

"Yeah, Sooz, remember old Eric? Hubby. Adulterer. Swine."

"I didn't . .

"What?"

Now Susan's voice faded to a whisper, and her face was eerily devoid of  expression, as inanimate as the face of a doll. "I didn't learn about this from

Eric."

"Then who told you?"

No reply.

The wind dropped, not shrieking anymore. But its cold whispering and sly cooing  knotted the nerves more effectively than had its voice at full bleat.

"Sooz? Who told you Eric was screwing around?"

Susan's flawless skin was no longer the color of peaches and cream, but as pale  and translucent as skimmed milk. A single drop of perspiration appeared at her  hairline.

Reaching across the table, Martie held one hand in front of her friend's face. Susan apparently didn't see it. She stared through the hand.

"Who?" Martie gently insisted.

Suddenly, numerous beads of sweat were strung across Susan's brow. Her hands had  been folded on the table, but now they were fiercely clenched, the skin  stretched tight and white across the knuckles, the fingernails of her right hand  digging hard into the flesh of her left.

Ghost spiders crawled along the back of Martie's neck and crept down the  staircase of her spine.

"Who told you Eric was screwing around?"

Still staring at some specter, Susan tried to speak but could not get a word  out. Her mouth turned soft, trembled, as though she were about to break into  tears.

Susan seemed to have been silenced by a phantom hand. The sense of another  presence in the room was so powerful that Martie wanted to turn again and look  behind her; but no one would be there.

Her hand was still raised in front of Susan. She snapped her fingers.

Susan twitched, blinked. She looked at the cards that Martie had pushed aside,  and incredibly she smiled. "Whipped my ass good. You want another beer?"

Her demeanor had changed in an instant.

Martie said, "You didn't answer my question."

"What question?"

"Who told you Eric was screwing around?"

"Oh, Martie, this is too boring."

"I don't find it boring. You-"

"I won't talk about this," Susan said with airy dismissiveness, rather than with  anger or embarrassment, either of which would have seemed more appropriate. She  waved one hand as if she were chasing off a bothersome fly. "I'm sorry I brought  it up."

"Good grief, Sooz, you can't drop a bombshell like that and then just-,'

"I'm in a good mood. I don't want to spoil it. Let's talk Martha Stewart crap or  gossip, or something frivolous." She sprang up from her chair almost girlishly.  On the way into the kitchen, she said, "What was your decision on that beer?" This was one of those days when being sober didn't have a lot of appeal, but  Martie declined a second Tsingtao anyway.

In the kitchen, Susan began singing "New Attitude," Patti LaBelle's classic  tune. Her voice was good, and she sang with buoyant conviction, especially when  the lyrics claimed I'm in control, my worries are few.

Even if Martie had known nothing about Susan Jagger, she was sure that  nevertheless she would have detected a note of falseness in this apparently  cheerful singing. When she thought of how Susan had looked only minutes ago-in  that trancelike state, unable to speak, skin as pale as a death mask, brow  beaded with sweat, eyes focused on a distant time or place, hands clawing at  each other-this abrupt transition from catatonia to exuberance was eerie. In the kitchen, Susan sang, "'Feelin' good from my head to my shoes,' "

Maybe the shoes part. Not the head.

16

Dusty never failed to be surprised by Skeet's apartment. The three small rooms  and bath were almost obsessively well ordered and scrupulously clean. Skeet was  such a shambling wreck, physically and psychologically, that Dusty always  expected to find this place in chaos.

While his master packed two bags with clothes and toiletries, Valet toured the  rooms, sniffing the floors and furniture, enjoying the pungent aromas of waxes  and polishes and cleaning fluids that were different from the brands used in the  Rhodeses' home.

Finished with the packing, Dusty checked the contents of the refrigerator, which  appeared to have been stocked by a terminal anorexic. The only quart of milk was  already three days past the freshness date stamped on the carton, and he poured  it down the drain. He fed a half loaf of white bread to the garbage disposal,  and followed it with the hideously mottled contents of an open package of  bologna that looked as if it would soon grow hair and growl. Beer, soft drinks,  and condiments accounted for everything else in the fridge; and all of it would  still be fresh when Skeet came home.

On the counter next to the kitchen phone, Dusty found the only disorder in the  apartment: a messy scattering of loose pages from a notepad. As he gathered  them, he saw that the same name had been written on each piece of paper,  sometimes only once, but more often three or four times. On fourteen sheets of  paper, one-and only one-name appeared thirty-nine times: Dr Yen Lo. None of the fourteen pages  featured a phone number or any additional message.

The handwriting was recognizably Skeet's. On a few pages, the script was fluid  and neat. On others, it appeared as if Skeet's hand had been a little unsteady;  furthermore, he had borne down hard with the pen, impressing the seven letters  deep into the paper. Curiously, on fully half the pages, Dr Yen Lo was inscribed  with such apparent emotion-and perhaps struggle-that some letters were virtually  slashed onto the paper, gouging it.

A cheap ballpoint pen also lay on the counter. The transparent plastic casing  had snapped in two. The flexible ink cartridge, which had popped out of the  broken pen, was bent in the middle.

Frowning, Dusty swept the counter with his hand, gathering the pieces of the pen  into a small pile.

He spent only a minute sorting the fourteen sheets from the notepad, putting the  neatest sample of writing on top, the messiest on the bottom, ordering the other  twelve in the most obvious fashion. There was an unmistakable progression in the  deterioration of the handwriting. On the bottom page, the name appeared only  once and was incomplete-Dr Ye-probably because the pen had broken at the start  of the n.

The obvious deduction was that Skeet had become increasingly angry or distressed  until finally he exerted such ferocious pressure on the pen that it snapped.

Distress, not anger.

Skeet didn't have a problem with anger. Quite the opposite.

He was gentle by nature, and his temperament had been further cooked to the  consistency of sweet pudding by the pharmacopoeia of behavior-modification drugs  to which a fearsome series of clinical psychologists with aggressive-treatment  philosophies had subjected him, with the enthusiastic encouragement of Skeet's  dear old dad, Dr. Holden Caulfield, alias Sam Farner. The kid's sense of self  was so faded by years of relentless chemical bleaching that it could not hold  red anger in its fibers; the meanest offense, which would enrage the average  man, drew from Skeet nothing more than a shrug and a fragile smile of  resignation. The bitterness he felt toward his father, which was the closest to  anger that he would ever come, had sustained him through his search for the  truth of the professor's origins, but it hadn't been potent enough or enduring enough to give him the strength to confront the phony bastard with his  discoveries.

Dusty carefully folded the fourteen pages from the notepad, slipped them into a  pocket of his jeans, and scooped the fragments of the pen off the counter. The  ballpoint was inexpensive but not poorly made. The one-piece transparent plastic  casing was rigid and strong. The pressure required to snap it like a dry twig  would have been tremendous.

Skeet was incapable of the necessary rage, and it was difficult to imagine what  could have caused him such extreme distress that he would have pressed down on  the ballpoint with the requisite ferocity.

After a hesitation, Dusty threw the broken pen in the trash.

Valet stuck his snout in the waste can, sniffing to determine if the discarded  item might be edible.

Dusty opened a drawer and withdrew a telephone directory, the Yellow Pages. He  looked under PHYSICIANS for Dr. Yen Lo, but no such entry existed.

He tried PSYCHIATRISTS. Then PSYCHOLOGISTS. Then finally THERAPISTS. No luck.

17

While Susan put the pinochle deck and score pad away, Martie rinsed the lunch  plates and the takeout cartons, trying not to look at the mezzaluna on the  nearby cutting board.

Susan brought her fork into the kitchen. "You forgot this."

Because Martie was already drying her hands, Susan washed the fork and put it  away.

While Susan drank a second beer, Martie sat with her in the living room. Susan's  idea of background music was Glenn Gould on piano, playing Bach's Goldberg  Variations.

As a young girl, Susan had dreamed of being a musician with a major symphony  orchestra. She was a fine violinist; not world-class, not so great that she  could be the featured performer on a concert tour, but fine enough to ensure  that her more modest dream could have become a reality. Somehow, she had settled  for real-estate sales instead.

Even until late in her final year of high school, Martie had wanted to be a  veterinarian. Now she designed video games.

Life offers infinite possible roads. Sometimes your head chooses the route,  sometimes your heart. And sometimes, for better or worse, neither head nor heart  can resist the stubborn pull of fate.

From time to time, Gould's exquisite sprays of silvery notes reminded Martie  that although the wind had diminished, cold rain was still falling outside,  beyond the heavily draped windows. The apartment was so cloistered and cozy that she was tempted to succumb to the  dangerously comforting notion that no world existed beyond these protective  walls.

She and Susan talked about the old days, old friends. They devoted not a word to  the future.

Susan wasn't a serious drinker. Two beers were, to her, a binge. Usually, she  got neither giddy nor mean with drink, but pleasantly sentimental. This time,  she became steadily quieter and solemn.

Soon, Martie was doing most of the talking. To her own ear, she sounded  increasingly inane, so at last she stopped babbling.

Their friendship was deep enough to make them comfortable with silence. This  silence, however, had a weird and edgy quality, perhaps because Martie was  surreptitiously watching her friend for signs of the trancelike condition that  had previously overtaken her.

She couldn't bear to listen to the Goldberg Variations yet again, because  suddenly the music's piercing beauty was depressing. Strangely, for her, it had  come to signify loss, loneliness, and quiet desperation. The apartment quickly  became stifling rather than cozy, claustrophobic rather than comforting. When Susan used the remote control to replay the same CD, Martie consulted her  watch and recited a series of nonexistent errands to which she must attend  before five o'clock.

In the kitchen, after Martie slipped into her raincoat, she and Susan embraced,  as they always did on parting. This time the hug was more fierce than usual, as  though both of them were trying to convey a great many important and deeply felt  things that neither was able to express in words.

As Martie turned the knob, Susan stepped behind the door, where she would be  shielded from a glimpse of the fearsome world outside. With a note of anguish,  as if suddenly deciding to reveal a troubling secret that she had been keeping  with difficulty, she said, "He's coming here at night, when I'm asleep." Martie had opened the door two inches. She closed it but left her hand on the  knob. "Say what? Who's coming here while you're asleep?"

The green of Susan's eyes seemed to be an icier shade than before, the color  having been intensified and clarified by some new fear. "I mean, I think he is."

Susan lowered her gaze to the floor. Color had risen in her pale cheeks. "I  don't have proof it's him, but who else could it be but Eric?"

Turning away from the door, Martie said, "Eric conies here at night while you're  asleep?"

"He says he doesn't, but I think he's lying."

"He has a key?"

"I didn't give him one."

"And you've changed the locks."

"Yeah. But somehow he gets in."

"Windows?"

"In the morning.. . when I realize he's been here, I check all the windows, but  they're always locked."

"How do you know he's been here? I mean, what's he do?"

Instead of answering, Susan said, "He comes . . . sneaking around . . .  sneaking, slinking like some mongrel dog." She shuddered.

Martie was no great fan of Eric's, but she had difficulty picturing him slinking  up the stairs at night and slithering into the apartment as if through a  keyhole. For one thing, he didn't have sufficient imagination to figure out an  undetectable way to slip in here; he was an investment adviser with a head full  of numbers and data, but with no sense of mystery. Besides, he knew Susan kept a  handgun in her nightstand, and he was highly aversive to risk; he was the least  likely of men to take a chance at being shot as a burglar, even if he might  harbor a twisted desire to torment his wife.

"Do you find things disturbed in the morning-or what?"

Susan didn't reply.

"You never heard him in the apartment? You never woke up when he's been here?"

"No."

"So in the morning there are. . . clues?"

"Clues," Susan agreed, but offered no specifics.

"Like things out of order? The smell of his cologne? Stuff like that?"

Still staring at the floor, Susan nodded.

"But exactly what?" Martie persisted.

No answer.

"Hey, Sooz, could you look at me?"

When Susan raised her face, she was blushing brightly, not as if with mere  embarrassment, but as if with shame.

"Sooz, what aren't you telling me?"

"Nothing. I'm just. . . being paranoid, I guess."

"There is something you're not saying. Why bring it up at all, and then hold out  on me?"

Susan hugged herself and shivered. "I thought I was ready to talk about this,  but I'm not. I've still got to.. . work some things out in my head."

"Eric sneaking in here at night-that's a weird damn thing. It's creepy. What  would he be doing-watching you sleep?"

"Later, Martie. I've got to think this through a little more, work up the  courage. I'll call you later."

"Now."

"You've got all those errands."

"They're not important."

Susan frowned. "They sounded like they were pretty important a minute ago." Martie wasn't capable of hurting Susan's feelings by admitting that she had  invented the errands as an excuse to get out of this dreary, suffocating place,  into fresh air and the invigorating chill of cold rain. "If you don't call me  later and tell me all of it, every last detail, then I'll drive back here  tonight and sit on your chest and read you pages and pages of the latest book of  literary criticism by Dusty's old man. It's The Meaning of Meaninglessness:  Chaos as Structure, and halfway through any paragraph, you'll swear that fire  ants are crawling across the surface of your brain. Or what about Dare to Be  Your Own Best Friend? That's his stepfather's latest. Listen to that one on  audiotape, and it'll make you want to cut off your ears. They're a family of  writing fools, and I could inflict them on you."

Smiling thinly, Susan said, "I'm suitably terrified. I'll call you for sure."

"Guaranteed?"

"My solemn oath."

Martie grasped the knob again, but she didn't open the door. "Are you safe here,

Sooz?" .

Of course, Susan said, but Martie thought she saw a flicker of uncertainty in  those haunted green eyes.

"But if he's sneaking-"

"Eric's still my husband," Susan said.

"Watch the news. Some husbands do terrible things."

"You know Eric. Maybe he's a pig-"

"He is a pig," Martie insisted.

"-but he's not dangerous."

"He's a wimp."

"Exactly."

Martie hesitated but then finally cracked open the door. "We'll be finished with  dinner by eight o'clock, maybe sooner. In bed by eleven, as usual. I'll be  waiting for your call."

"Thanks, Martie."

"De nada."

"Give Dusty a kiss for me."

"It'll be a dry peck on the cheek. All the good wet stuff comes strictly from  me."

Martie pulled her hood over her head, stepped out onto the landing, and drew the  door shut behind her.

The air had grown still, as though the wind had been pressed out of the day by  this enormous weight of falling rain, which came down like cataracts of iron  pellets.

She waited until she heard Susan engage the dead bolt, a solid Schiage lock that  would hold against serious assault. Then she quickly descended the long, steep  flight of stairs.

At the bottom, she stopped, turned, and peered up toward the landing and the  apartment door.

Susan Jagger seemed like a beautiful princess in a fairy tale, imprisoned in a  tower, besieged by trolls and malevolent spirits, with no brave prince to save  her.

As the gray day reverberated with the ceaseless booming of big storm waves on  the nearby shore, Martie hurried along the beach promenade to the nearest  street, where gutters overflowed and dirty water churned around the tires of her  red Saturn.

She hoped Dusty had taken advantage of the bad weather to be domestic and to  make his incomparable meatballs and spicy tomato sauce. Nothing would be more  reassuring than stepping into the house and seeing him in a cooking apron, a  glass of red wine near at hand. The air would be full of delicious aromas. Good  retro pop music-maybe Dean Martin-on the stereo. Dusty's smile, his embrace, his  kiss. After this bizarre day, she needed all the cozy reassurances of home and  hearth and husband.

As Martie started the car, a sickening vision blazed through her mind, burning  away all hope that the day might yet bring her a small measure of peace and reassurance. This was more real than an ordinary  mental picture, so detailed and intense that it seemed as if it were happening  right here, right now. She was convinced that she was flashing forward to a  terrible incident that would happen, receiving a glimpse of an inevitable moment  in the future, toward which she was plunging as surely as if she'd thrown  herself off a cliff. When she thrust the key into the ignition, her mind filled  with an image of an eye pierced by the wicked point of the key, gouged by the  serrated edge, which sank into the brain behind the eye. Even as she jammed the  key into the car ignition, she twisted it, and simultaneously the key in her  vivid premonition also twisted in the eye.

Without any conscious awareness of having opened the door, Martie found herself  out of the car, leaning against the side of it, bringing up her lunch onto the  rainwashed street.

She stood there for a long while, head bent.

Her raincoat hood had slipped back. Soon her hair was soaked.

When she was sure that she was fully purged, she reached into the car, plucked  tissues from a box of Kleenex, and wiped her lips.

She always kept a small bottle of water in the car. Now she used it to rinse out  her mouth.

Though still a little queasy, she got into the Saturn and pulled the door shut. The engine was idling. She wouldn't have to touch the key again until she was  parked in her garage in Corona Del Mar.

Wet, cold, miserable, frightened, confused, she wanted more than anything to be  safe at home, to be dry and warm and among familiar things.

She was shaking too much to drive. She waited almost fifteen minutes before she  finally released the hand brake and put the car in gear.

Although she desperately wanted to go home, she was afraid of what might happen  when she got there. No. She was being dishonest with herself. She wasn't afraid  of what would happen. She was afraid of what she might do.

The eye that she had seen in her premonition-if, indeed, that's what it had  been-was not merely any eye. It had been a distinctive shade of gray-blue,  lustrous and beautiful. Just like Dusty's eyes.

18

At New Life Clinic, the positive psychological influences provided by animals  were thought to be useful in certain cases, and Valet was welcome. Dusty parked  near the portico, and by the time they got into the building, they were only  slightly damp, which was a disappointment to the dog. Valet was a retriever,  after all, with webbed feet, a love of water, and enough aquatic talent to  qualify him for the Olympic synchronized-swimming team.

In his second-floor quarters, Skeet was fast asleep atop the covers, fully  clothed, shoes off.

The bleak winter afternoon pressed its fading face to the window, and shadows  gathered in the room. The only other light issued from a small battery-powered  reading lamp clipped to the book that Tom Wong, the male nurse, was reading. After scratching Valet behind the ears, Tom took advantage of their visit to go  on a break.

Dusty quietly unpacked both suitcases, stowed the contents in dresser drawers,  and took up the vigil in the armchair. Valet settled at his feet.

Two hours of daylight remained, but the shadows in the corners spun expanding  webs until Dusty switched on the pharmacy lamp beside the chair.

Although Skeet was curled in the fetal position, he looked not like a child, but like a desiccated corpse, so gaunt and thin that his clothes  appeared to be draped over a fleshless skeleton.

Going home, Martie drove with extreme care not only because of the bad weather  but also because of her condition. The prospect of a sudden-onset anxiety attack  at sixty miles an hour was daunting. Fortunately, no freeways connected the  Balboa Peninsula with Corona Del Mar; the entire trip was on surface streets,  and she remained behind the slowest-moving vehicles.

On Pacific Coast Highway, before she was even halfway home, traffic came to a  complete stop. Forty or fifty cars ahead, the revolving red and blue emergency  beacons of ambulances and police cars marked the site of an accident.

Caught in the jam-up, she used her cell phone to call Dr. Closterman, her  internist, hoping to get an appointment the next day, in the morning if  possible. "It's something of an emergency. I mean, I'm not in pain or anything,  but I'd rather see him about this as soon as possible."

"What're your symptoms?" the receptionist asked.

Martie hesitated. "This is pretty personal. I'd rather talk about it only with  Dr. Closterman."

"He's gone for the day, but we could squeeze you in the schedule about  eight-thirty in the morning."

"Thank you. I'll be there," Martie said, and she terminated the call.

A thin shroud of gray fog billowed in from the harbor, and needles of rain  stitched it around the body of the dying day.

From the direction of the accident, an ambulance approached along the oncoming  lanes, which contained little traffic.

Neither the siren nor the emergency beacons were in operation. Evidently the  patient was beyond all medical help, not actually a patient anymore, but a  package bound for a mortuary.

Solemnly, Martie watched the vehicle pass in the rain, and then turned her gaze  to the side mirror, where the taillights dwindled in the mist. She had no way of  knowing for sure that the ambulance was indeed now a morgue wagon; nevertheless,  she was convinced that it held a corpse. She felt Death passing by.

As he watched over Skeet while waiting for Tom Wong to return, the last thing  Dusty wanted to think about was the past, yet his mind drifted back to the  childhood he'd shared with Skeet, to Skeet's imperial father-and, worse, to the  man who had followed that bastard as head of the household. Husband number four.  Dr. Derek Lampton, neo-Freudian psychologist, psychiatrist, lecturer, and  author.

Their mother, Claudette, had a fondness for intellectuals-especially for those  who were also megalomaniacs.

Skeet's father, the false Holden, had lasted until Skeet was nine years old and  Dusty was fourteen. The two of them celebrated his departure by staying up all  night, watching scary movies, eating bales of potato chips and buckets of  Baskin-Robbins chocolate-peanut-butter ice cream, which had been verboten under  the strict low-fat, no-salt, no-sugar, no-additives, no-fun Nazi diet enforced  for all kids-though not adults-during his dictatorship. In the morning, half  nauseated from their gluttony, grainy-eyed with exhaustion, but giddy with their  newfound freedom, they managed to stay awake a few extra hours in order to  search the neighborhood until they accumulated two pounds of dog droppings,  which they hermetically boxed and posted to the deposed despot's new digs.

Although the package was sent anonymously, with a false return address, they  figured that the professor might deduce the identities of the senders, because  after enough double martinis, he sometimes bemoaned his son's learning  disability by claiming that a reeking pile of manure had greater potential for  academic accomplishment than did Skeet: You are about as erudite as excrement,  boy, no more scholarly than a stool sample, as cultured as crap, less  comprehending than cow chips, as perceptive as poop. By sending him the box of  dog waste, they were challenging him to put his lofty educational theories to  work and transform the dog droppings into a better student than Skeet.

Days after the counterfeit Caulfield's butt was kicked out into the rye field,  Dr. Lampton took up residence. Because all the adults were excruciatingly  civilized and eager to facilitate one another's quests for personal fulfillment,  Claudette announced to her children that a quick and uncontested divorce would  be followed immediately by a new marriage.

Dusty and Skeet ceased all celebration. Within twenty-four hours, they knew that  soon the day would come when they would be nostalgic for the golden age during  which they had been marked by the ruling thumb of the humbug Holden, because Dr.  Derek Lampton would no doubt brand them with his traditional ID number: 666. Now Skeet brought Dusty back from the past: "You look like you just ate a worm.

What're you thinking about?"

He was still in the fetal position on the bed, but his rheumy eyes were open.

"Lizard Lampton," Dusty said.

"Oh, man, you think too much about him, and I'll be trying to talk you down from  a roof." Skeet swung his legs off the bed and sat up.

Valet went to Skeet and licked his trembling hands.

"How're you feeling?" Dusty asked.

"Postsuicidal."

"Post is good." Dusty withdrew two lottery tickets from his shirt pocket and  offered them to Skeet. "As promised. Picked these up at the convenience store  near here, where they sold the big winning ticket last November. That  thirty-million-dollar jackpot."

"Keep them away from me. My touch'll suck the luck right out of 'em."

Dusty went to the nightstand, opened the drawer, and withdrew the Bible. He  paged through it, scanning the verses, and then read a line from Jeremiah:  "'Blessed is the man who trusts in God.' How's that?"

"Well, I've learned not to trust in methamphetamines."

"That's progress," Dusty said. He tucked the pair of tickets into the Bible, at  the page from which he'd read, closed the book, and returned it to the drawer. Skeet got up from the bed and tottered toward the bathroom. "Gotta pee."

"Gotta watch."

Turning on the bathroom light, Skeet said, "Don't worry, bro. Nothing in here I  could kill myself with."

"You might try to flush yourself down the john," Dusty said, stepping into the  open doorway.

"Or make a hangman's noose out of toilet paper."

"See, you're too clever. You require diligent security."

The toilet had a sealed tank and a button-flush mechanism: no parts that could  be easily disassembled to locate a metal edge sharp enough to slash a wrist. A minute later, as Skeet was washing his hands, Dusty withdrew the folded pages  of the notepad from his pocket and read aloud Skeet's handwritten message: "Dr.  Yen Lo."

The bar of soap slipped out of Skeet's grip, into the sink. He didn't try to  pick it up. He leaned against the sink, his hands under the spout, water  sluicing the lather off his fingers.

He had said something as he dropped the soap, but his words had not been clear  over the sound of the running water.

Dusty cocked his head. "What'd you say?"

Raising his voice slightly, Skeet repeated: "I'm listening."

Puzzled by that response, Dusty asked, "Who's Dr. Yen Lo?"

Skeet didn't reply.

His back was to Dusty. Because his head was bowed, his face couldn't be seen in  the mirror. He seemed to be staring at his hands, which he still held under the  running water, although every trace of soap had been rinsed from them.

"Hey, kid?"

Silence.

Dusty moved into the cramped bathroom, beside his brother.

Skeet stared down at his hands, eyes shining as if with wonder, mouth open in  what appeared to be awe, as though the answer to the mystery of existence was in  his grasp.

Soap-scented clouds of steam had begun to rise out of the sink. The running  water was fiercely hot. Skeet's hands, usually so pale, were an angry red. "Good God." Dusty quickly turned off the water. The metal faucet was almost too  hot to touch.

Evidently feeling no pain, Skeet kept his half-scalded hands under the spout.

Dusty turned on the cold water, and his brother submitted to this new torrent  without any change of expression. He had exhibited no discomfort whatsoever from  the hot water and now appeared to take no relief from the cold.

In the open doorway, Valet whimpered. Head raised, ears pricked, he backed a few steps into the bedroom. He knew that something was  profoundly wrong.

Dusty took his brother by one arm. Hands held in front of him, gaze still fixed  on them, Skeet allowed himself to be led out of the bathroom. He sat on the edge  of the bed, hands in his lap, studying them as if reading his fate in the lines  of his palms.

"Don't move," Dusty said, and then he hurried out of the room, in search of Tom  Wong.

19

When Martie drove into the garage, she was disappointed to see that Dusty's van  wasn't there. Because his work would have been rained out, she had hoped to find  him at home.

In the kitchen, a ceramic-tomato magnet held a brief note to the refrigerator  door: Oh, Beautiful One. I'll be home by 5:00. We'll go out for dinner Love you  even more than I love tacos. Dusty.

She used the half bath-and not until she was washing her hands did she realize  the mirror was missing from the door of the medicine cabinet. All that remained  was a tiny splinter of silvered glass wedged in the lower right-hand corner of  the metal frame.

Evidently, Dusty had accidentally broken it. Except for the one small sliver  stuck in the frame, he'd done a thorough job of cleaning up the debris. If broken mirrors meant bad luck, this was the worst of all possible days to  shatter one.

Although she had no lunch left to lose, she still felt queasy. She filled a  glass with ice and ginger ale. Something cold and sweet usually settled her  stomach.

Wherever he had gone, Dusty must have taken Valet with him. In reality, their  house was small and cozy, but at the moment it seemed big and cold-and lonely. Martie sat at the breakfast table by the rainwashed window to sip the ginger  ale, trying to decide if she preferred to go out this evening or stay home. Over dinner-assuming she could eat-she intended to share the  unsettling events of the day with Dusty, and she worried about being overheard  by a waitress or by other diners. Besides, she didn't want to be out in public  if she suffered another episode.

On the other hand, if they stayed home, she didn't trust herself to cook dinner. She raised her eyes from the ginger ale to the rack of knives on the wall near  the sink.

The ice cubes rattled against the drinking glass clutched in her right hand. The shiny stainless-steel blades of the cutlery appeared to be radiant, as  though they were not merely reflecting light but also generating it.

Letting go of the glass, blotting her hand on her jeans, Martie looked away from  the knife rack. But at once her eyes were drawn to it again.

She knew that she was not capable of doing violence to others, except to protect  herself, those she loved, and the innocent. She doubted that she was capable of  harming herself, either.

Nevertheless, the sight of the knives so agitated her that she couldn't remain  seated. She rose, stood in indecision, went into the dining room and then into  the living room, moving about restlessly, with no purpose except to put some  distance between herself and the knife rack.

After rearranging bibelots that didn't need to be rearranged, adjusting a  lampshade that was not crooked, and smoothing pillows that were not rumpled,  Martie went into the foyer and opened the front door. She stepped across the  threshold, onto the porch.

Her heart knocked so hard she shook from its blows. Each pulse pushed such a  tide through her arteries that her vision throbbed with the heavy surge of  blood.

She went to the head of the porch steps. Her legs were weak and shaky. She put  one hand against a porch post.

To get farther from the knife rack, she'd have to walk out into the storm, which  had diminished from a downpour to a heavy drizzle. Wherever she went, however,  in any corner of the world, in good and bad weather, in sunshine and in  darkness, she would encounter pointed things, sharp things, jagged things,  instruments and utensils and tools that could be used for wicked purposes. She had to steady her nerves, slow her racing mind, push out these strange  thoughts. Calm down.

God help me.

She tried taking slow, deep breaths. Instead, her breathing became more rapid,  ragged.

When she closed her eyes, seeking inner peace, she found only turmoil, a  vertiginous darkness.

She wasn't going to be able to regain control of herself until she found the  courage to return to the kitchen and confront the thing that had triggered this  anxiety attack. The knives. She had to deal with the knives, and quickly, before  this steadily growing anxiety swelled into outright panic.

The knives. Reluctantly, she turned away from the porch steps. She went to the open front  door.

Beyond the threshold, the foyer was a forbidding space. This was her much-loved  little home, a place where she'd been happier than ever before in her life, yet  now it was almost as unfamiliar to her as a stranger's house.

The knives.

She went inside, hesitated, and closed the door behind her.

20

Although Skeet's hands were badly irritated, they were not as raw-looking as  they had been a few minutes ago, and they were not scalded. Tom Wong treated  them with a cortisone cream.

Because of Skeet's eerie detachment and his continued failure to respond to  questions, Tom drew a blood sample for drug testing. Upon checking into New  Life, Skeet had submitted to a strip search for controlled substances, and none  had been found either in his clothing or secreted in any body cavities. "It could be a delayed secondary reaction to whatever he pumped into himself  this morning," Tom suggested as he left with the blood sample.

During the past few years, through the worst of his periodic phases of  addiction, Skeet had exhibited more peculiar behavior than Donald Duck on PCP,  but Dusty had never before seen anything like this semi-catatonic glaze. Valet enjoyed no furniture privileges at home, but he seemed to be so troubled  by Skeet's condition that he forgot the rules and curled up on the armchair. Fully understanding the retriever's distress, Dusty left Valet undisturbed. He  sat on the edge of the bed, beside his brother.

Skeet lay flat on his back now, head propped on a stack of three pillows. He  stared at the ceiling. In the light of the nightstand lamp, his face was as  placid as that of a meditating yogi.

Remembering the apparent urgency and emotion with which the name had been  scrawled on the notepad, Dusty murmured, "Dr. Yen Lo."

Although still in a state of disengagement from the world around him, Skeet  spoke for the first time since Dusty had initially mentioned that name when they  had been in the adjacent bathroom. "I'm listening," he said, which was precisely  what he had said before.

"Listening to what?" "Listening to what?"

"What're you doing?"

"What am I doing?" Skeet asked.

"I asked what you were listening to." "You."

"Yeah. Okay, so tell me who's Dr. Yen Lo." "You."

"Me? I'm your brother. Remember?" "Is that what you want me to say?"

Frowning, Dusty said, "Well, it's the truth, isn't it?"

Although his face remained slack, expressionless, Skeet said, "Is it the truth?

I'm confused."

"Join the club."

"What club do you want me to join?" Skeet asked with apparent seriousness.

"Skeet?"

"Hmmm?"

Dusty hesitated, wondering just how detached from reality the kid might be. "Do  you know where you are?"

"Where am I?"

"So you don't know?"

"Do I?"

"Can't you look around?"

"Can I?"

"Is this an Abbott and Costello routine?"

"Is it?"

Frustrated, Dusty said, "Look around."

Immediately, Skeet raised his head off the pillows and surveyed the room.

"I'm sure you know where you are," Dusty said.

"New Life Clinic."

Skeet lowered his head onto the pillows once more. His eyes were again directed  at the ceiling, and after a moment, they did something odd.

Not quite certain what he had seen, Dusty leaned closer to his brother, to look  more directly at his face.

In the slant of the lamplight, Skeet's right eye was golden, and his left was a  darker honey-brown, which gave him an unsettling aspect, as if two personalities  were staring Out of the same skull.

This trick of light was not, however, the thing that had caught Dusty's  attention. He waited for almost a minute before he saw it again: Skeet's eyes  jiggled rapidly back and forth for a few seconds, then settled once more into a  steady stare.

"Yes, New Life Clinic," Dusty belatedly confirmed. "And you know why you're  here."

"Flush the poisons out of the system."

"That's right. But have you taken something since you checked in, did you sneak  drugs in here somehow?"

Skeet sighed. "What do you want me to say?"

The kid's eyes jiggled. Dusty mentally counted off seconds. Five. Then Skeet  blinked, and his gaze steadied.

"What do you want me to say?" he repeated.

"Just tell the truth," Dusty encouraged. "Tell me if you snuck drugs in here."

"No."

"Then what's wrong with you?"

"What do you want to be wrong with me?"

"Damn it, Skeet!"

The faintest frown creased the kid's forehead. "This isn't the way it's supposed  to be."

"The way what is supposed to be?"

"This." Tension lines tweaked the corners of Skeet's mouth. "You aren't  following the rules."

"A/hat rules?"

Skeet's slack hands curled and tightened into half-formed fists.

His eyes jiggled again, side to side, this time while also rolling back in his  head. Seven seconds.

REM. Rapid eye movement. According to psychologists, such movements of the  closed eyes indicated that a sleeper was dreaming.

Skeet's eyes weren't closed, and though he was in some peculiar state, he wasn't  asleep.

Dusty said, "Help me, Skeet. I'm not on the same page. What rules are we talking  about? Tell me how the rules work."

Skeet didn't at once reply. Gradually the frown lines in his brow melted away.  His skin became smooth and as pellucid as clarified butter, until it appeared as  though the white of bone shone through. His stare remained fixed on the ceiling.

His eyes jiggled, and when the REM ceased, he spoke at last in a voice untouched  by tension but also less flat than before. A whisper:

"Clear cascades."

For all the sense they made, those two words might have been chosen at random,  like two lettered Ping-Pong balls expelled from a bingo hopper.

"Clear cascades," Dusty said. When his brother didn't respond, he pressed: "I  need more help, kid."

"Into the waves scatter," Skeet whispered.

Dusty turned his head toward a noise behind him.

Valet had gotten down from the armchair. The dog padded out of the room, into  the hallway, where he turned and stood with his ears pricked, tail tucked,  staring warily in at them from the threshold, as though he had been spooked. Into the waves scatter

More bingo balls.

A small snowflake moth, with delicate patterns of piercing along the edges of  its fragile white wings, had landed on Skeet's upturned right hand. As the moth  crawled across his palm, his fingers didn't twitch; there was no indication that  he could feel the insect. His lips were parted, jaw slack. His breathing was so  shallow that his chest didn't rise and fall. His eyes jiggled again; but when  that quiet seizure ended, Skeet could have passed for a dead man.

"Clear cascades," Dusty said. "Into the waves scatter. Does this mean anything,  kid?"

"Does it? You asked me to tell you how the rules work."

"Those are the rules?" Dusty asked.

Skeet's eyes twitched for a few seconds. Then: "You know the rules."

"Pretend I don't."

"Those are two of them."

"Two of the rules." "Yes."

"Not quite as straightforward as the rules of poker."

Skeet said nothing.

Though it all sounded like sheer gibberish, the ramblings of a drug-soaked mind,  Dusty had the uncanny conviction that this strange conversation had real-if  hidden-meaning and that it was leading toward a disturbing revelation. Watching his brother closely, he said, "Tell me how many rules there are."

"You know," Skeet said.

"Pretend I don't."

"Three."

"What's the third rule?"

"What's the third rule? Blue pine needles."

Clear cascades. Into the waves scatter Blue pine needles.

Valet, who rarely barked, who growled more rarely still, now stood at the open  door, peering in from the hallway, and issued a low, menacing grumble. His  hackles were raised as dramatically as those of a cartoon dog encountering a  cartoon ghost. Although Dusty couldn't identify, with certainty, the cause of  Valet's displeasure, it seemed to be poor Skeet.

After brooding for a minute or so, Dusty said, "Explain these rules to me,  Skeet. Tell me what they mean."

"I am the waves."

"Okay," Dusty said, although this made less sense to him than if, in the  tradition of the Beatles' psychedelic-era lyrics, Skeet had claimed, I am the  walrus.

"You're the clear cascades," Skeet continued.

"Of course," Dusty said, merely to encourage him.

"And the needles are missions." "Missions."

"Yes."

"All this makes sense to you?" "Does it?"

"Apparently it does."

"Yes."

"It doesn't make sense to me." Skeet was silent.

"Who is Dr. Yen Lo?" Dusty asked.

"Who is Dr. Yen Lo?" A pause. "You."

"I thought I was the clear cascades."

"They're one and the same."

"But I'm not Yen Lo."

Frown lines reappeared in Skeet's forehead. His hands, which had fallen slack,  once more curled slowly into half-formed fists. The delicate snowflake moth flew  out from among the pale clutching fingers.

After watching another REM seizure, Dusty said, "Skeet, are you awake?"

After a hesitation, the kid replied, "I don't know."

"You don't know if you're awake. So. . . you must be asleep."

"No."

"If you're not asleep and you're not sure if you're awake-then what are you?"

"What am I?"

"That was my question."

"I'm listening."

"There you go again."

"Where?"

"Where what?"

"Where should I go?" Skeet asked.

Dusty had lost the gut feeling that this conversation was full of profound if  mysterious meaning and that they were approaching a revelation that would  suddenly make sense of it all. Though unique and extremely peculiar, it now  seemed as irrational and depressing as numerous other discussions they'd had  when Skeet had been brain-bruised from a self-inflicted drug bludgeoning.

"Where should I go?" Skeet inquired again.

"Ah, give me a break and go to sleep," Dusty said irritably.

Obediently, Skeet closed his eyes. Peace descended upon his face, and his  half-clenched hands relaxed. Immediately, his breathing settled into a shallow,  slow, easy rhythm. He snored softly.

"What the hell happened here?" Dusty wondered aloud. He cupped his right hand  around the back of his neck, to warm and smooth away a sudden stippling of  gooseflesh. His hand had gone cold, however, and it pressed the chill deeper,  into his spine.

With hackles no longer raised, sniffing quizzically, peering into shadowy corners and under the bed, as if in search of someone or something,  Valet returned from the hail. Whatever spooked him had now departed.

Apparently, Skeet had gone to sleep because he had been told to do so. But  surely it wasn't possible to fall asleep on command, in an instant.

"Skeet?"

Dusty put a hand on his brother's shoulder and shook him gently, then less  gently.

Skeet didn't respond. He continued to snore softly. His eyelids twitched as his  eyes jiggled beneath them. REM. He was without a doubt in a dream state this  time.

Lifting Skeet's right hand, Dusty pressed two fingers against the radial artery  in his brother's wrist. The kid's pulse was strong and regular but slow. Dusty  timed it. Forty-eight beats per minute. That rate seemed worrisomely slow, even  for a sleeper.

Skeet was in a dream state, all right. Deep in a dream state.

21

The stainless-steel rack of knives hung from two hooks on the wall, like the  totem of some devil-worshiping clan that used its kitchen for more sinister work  than cooking dinner.

Without touching the knives, Martie unhooked the rack. She slid it onto a shelf  in a lower cupboard and quickly closed the door.

Not good enough. Out of sight was not out of mind. The knives remained readily  accessible. She must make them harder to reach.

In the garage, she found an empty cardboard box and a roll of strapping tape,  and she returned to the kitchen.

When she squatted before the cabinet in which she had stowed the knives, Martie  wasn't immediately able to open the door. In fact, she was afraid even to touch  it, as though this were not an ordinary cabinet but a satanic reliquary in which  reposed a paring from one of Beelzebub's cloven hooves. She had to work up the  courage to retrieve the cutlery, and when at last she cautiously withdrew it  from the shelf, her hands shook so badly that the blades rattled in the slots of  the rack.

She dropped the knives into the box and folded shut the flaps of cardboard. She  began to use strapping tape to seal the box-but then realized she would need to  cut the tape.

When she opened a drawer and reached for a pair of scissors, she wasn't able to  pick them up. They would make a lethal weapon. She had seen uncountable movies in which a killer had used a pair of scissors  instead of a butcher knife.

So many soft, vulnerable spots on the human body. The groin. The stomach.  Between the ribs and straight into the heart. The throat. The side of the neck.

Like an official serial-killer deck of cards-ALL OF JACK THE RIPPER'S MURDERS DEPICTED IN GRAPHIC DETAIL! EVERY JOKER FEATURES A DIFFERENT  FULL-COLOR ILLUSTRATION OF JEFFREY DAHMER'S REFRIGERATED HEAD  COLLECTION!-grotesque and bloody pictures shuffled through Martie's mind.

Slamming shut the drawer, turning her back to it, she struggled to suppress the  brutal images that some demented part of her psyche dealt out with savage glee.

She was alone in the house. She could harm no one with the scissors. Except, of  course, herself. Since reacting so bizarrely to the mezzaluna in Susan's kitchen and to the car  key a few minutes thereafter, Martie had sensed that she was possessed of-or  by-a strange and inexplicable new potential for violence, and she'd been afraid  of what injury she might inflict on some innocent person during a spell of  transient madness. Now, for the first time, she suspected that in a fit of  irrationality, she might be capable of harming herself.

She stared down at the box in which she'd deposited the rack of knives. If she  carried it out to the garage, put it in a corner, and piled other stuff on top  of it, the box could still be retrieved in a minute. The single strip of  tape-and the big roll dangling at the end of it-could be easily ripped away, the  lid flaps torn open, and the knives recovered.

Although the butcher knife-all the knives-remained in the box, she could feel  the weight of that weapon as if she were holding it now in her right hand: thumb  pressed flat against the cold blade, fingers clenched around the wooden handle,  forefinger jammed against the guard, little finger tight against the neb. This  was the grip she might use if she were to strike with the knife from a low  angle, swing it up, hard and fast, and drive it deep, to disembowel some  unsuspecting victim.

Her right hand began to shake, and then her arm, and finally her entire body.  Her hand flew open, as though she were trying to fling aside the imaginary  knife; crazily, she half expected to hear the steel blade ring against the tile  floor.

No, dear God, she wasn't capable of committing such atrocities with one of these  knives. She wasn't capable of suicide, either, or of disfiguring herself.

Get a grip.

Yet she couldn't stop thinking about shiny blades and sharp edges, slashing and  gouging. She strove to put away that mental Jack the Ripper deck, but a  rapid-fire game of solitaire brought a series of horrific scenes in front of her  mind's eye, one card sliding-spinning over another, flick-flick-flick, until a  spasm of vertigo spiraled down from her head, through her chest, into the pit of  her stomach.

She didn't remember dropping to her knees in front of the box. She didn't recall  grabbing the roll of strapping tape, either, but suddenly she found herself  turning the box over and over, frantically pulling the tape securely around it,  again and again, first around the long circumference several times, then around  the short, then diagonally.

She was frightened by the frenzy with which she addressed the task. She tried to  pull her hands back, turn away from the box, but she couldn't stop herself.

Working so fast and so intensely that she broke into a thin greasy sweat,  breathing hard, whimpering with anxiety, Martie wound the entire economy-size  roll around the carton in one continuous loop to avoid using the scissors. She  encased it in the tape as thoroughly as ancient Egypt's royal embalmers had  wrapped their dead pharaohs in tannin-soaked cotton shrouds.

When she came to the end of the roll, she wasn't satisfied, because she still  knew where the knives could be found. Granted: They were no longer easy to reach. She would have to carve through the many  layers of strapping tape to open the box and get at the cutlery, but she would  never dare allow herself to pick up a razor blade or scissors, with which to  perform the task, so she should have felt relieved. The box, however, wasn't a  bank vault; it was nothing but cardboard, and she wasn't safe-no one was safe-as  long as she knew exactly where the knives could be found and as long as there  was the slightest chance that she could get at them.

A murky red mist of fear churned across the sea of her soul, a cold boiling fog  arising from the darkest heart of her, spreading through her mind, clouding her  thoughts, increasing her confusion, and with greater confusion came greater  terror.

She carried the box of knives out of the house, onto the back porch, intending  to bury it in the yard. Which meant digging a hole. Which meant using a shovel  or a pick. But those implements were more than mere tools: They were also  potential weapons. She could not trust herself with a shovel or a pick. She dropped the package. The knives clattered together inside the box, a muffled  but nonetheless gruesome sound.

Get rid of the knives altogether. Throw them away. That was the only solution. Tomorrow was trash-pickup day. If she put the knives out with the trash, they  would be hauled to the dump in the morning.

She didn't know where the dump was located. Had no idea. Far out to the east  somewhere, a remote landfill. Maybe even in another county. She'd never be able  to find the knives again once they were taken to the dump. After the trash  collectors visited, she would be safe.

'With her heart rattling its cage of ribs, she snatched up the hated package and  descended the porch steps.

Tom Wong timed Skeet's pulse, listened to his heart, and took his blood  pressure. The cold stethoscope diaphragm against the kid's bare chest and the  tightness of the pressure cuff around his right arm failed to elicit even a  slight response from him. Not a twitch, blink, shiver, sigh, grunt, or grumble.

He lay as limp and pale as a peeled, cooked zucchini.

"His pulse was forty-eight when I took it," Dusty said, watching from the foot  of the bed.

"Forty-six now."

"Isn't that dangerous?"

"Not necessarily. There's no sign of distress."

According to his chart, Skeet's average normal pulse, when he was clean and  sober and awake, was sixty-six. Ten or twelve points lower when sleeping.

"Sometimes you see sleeping pulse rates as low as forty," Tom said, "although  it's rare." He peeled back Skeet's eyelids, one at a time, and examined his eyes  with an ophthalmoscope. "Pupils are the same size, but it could still be  apoplexy."

"Brain hemorrhage?"

"Or an embolism. Even if it's not apoplectic, it could be another type of coma.

Diabetic. Uremic."

"He's not diabetic."

"I better get the doctor," Tom said as he left the room.

The rain had stopped, but the oval leaves of the Indian laurels wept as if with  green-eyed grief.

Carrying the package of knives, Martie hurried to the east side of the house.  She wrenched open the gate of the trash-can enclosure.

An observant part of her, a sane part of her imprisoned by her fear, was grimly  aware that her posture and her movements were like those of a marionette: head  thrust forward on a stiff neck, shoulders drawn up sharply, seemingly all elbows  and knees, rushing forward in herky-jerky urgency.

If she were a marionette, then the puppeteer was Johnny Panic. In college, some  of her friends had been devoted to the brilliant poetry of Sylvia Plath; and  though Martie had found Plath's work too nihilistic and too depressive to be  appealing, she had remembered one painful observation by the poet-a convincing  explanation of what motivated some people to be cruel to one another and to make  so many self-destructive choices. From where 1 sit, Plath wrote, I figure the  world is run by one thing and this one thing only. Panic with a dog-face,  devil-face, hag-face, whore-face, panic in capital letters with no face at  all-it's the same Johnny Panic, awake or asleep.

For all her twenty-eight years, Martie's world had been largely free of panic,  rich instead with a serene sense of belonging, peace, purpose, and connection  with creation, because her dad had brought her up to believe that every life had  meaning. Smilin' Bob said that if you were always guided by courage, honor,  self-respect, honesty, and compassion, and if you kept your mind and your heart  open to the lessons that this world teaches you, then you would eventually  understand the meaning of your existence, perhaps even in this world, but  certainly in the next. Such a philosophy virtually guaranteed a brighter life,  less shadowed by fear than the lives of those who were convinced of  meaninglessness. Yet here, at last, inexplicably, Johnny Panic came into  Martie's life, too, somehow snared her in his controlling strings, and was now jerking her through this demented performance.

In the trash enclosure alongside the house, Martie removed the clamp-on lid from  the third of three hard-plastic cans, the only one that was empty. She dropped  the tape-encased box of knives into the can, jammed the lid on, and fumbled the  steel-wire clamp into place.

She should have felt relieved.

Instead, her anxiety grew.

Fundamentally, nothing had changed. She knew where the knives were. She could  retrieve them if she was determined. They would not be beyond her reach until  the trash collector tossed them into his truck and drove away with them in the  morning.

Worse, these knives weren't the only instruments with which she could give  expression to the new violent thoughts that terrified her. Her brightly painted  house, with its charming gingerbread millwork, might appear to be a place of  peace, but it was in fact a well-equipped abattoir, an armory bulging with  weapons; if you had a mind for mayhem, many apparently innocent items could be  used as blades or bludgeons.

Frustrated, Martie clasped her hands to her temples as though she could  physically suppress the riot of frightful thoughts that churned and shrieked  through the dark, twisted streets of her mind. Her head throbbed against her  palms and fingers; her skull suddenly seemed elastic. The harder she pressed,  the greater her inner tumult became.

Action. Smilin' Bob always said that action was the answer to most problems.  Fear, despair, depression, and even a lot of anger result from a sense that  we're powerless, helpless. Taking action to resolve our problems is healthy, but  we must apply some intelligence and a moral perspective if we have any hope of  doing the right and most effective thing.

Martie didn't have a clue as to whether she was doing either the right thing or  the most effective thing when she pulled the big, wheeled trash can out of the  enclosure and hurriedly rolled it along the walkway toward the back of the  house. Applying intelligence and sound moral principles required a calm mind,  but she was swept up in a mental tempest, and those inner storm winds were  gaining power by the second.

Here, now, Martie knew not what she ought to do, only what she must do. She couldn't wait for the serenity required to logically assess her  options; she must act, do something, do anything, because when she remained  still, even for a moment, a hard gale of spinning-tumbling dark thoughts  battered her more fiercely than when she kept moving. If she dared to sit or  even to pause for a few deep breaths, she would be torn asunder, scattered,  blown away; however, if she kept moving, maybe she would do more things wrong  than not, maybe she would take one stupid action after another, but there was  always the chance, no matter how slim, that by sheer instinct she would do  something right and thereby earn some relief, at least a small measure of peace.

Besides, on a gut level, where thought and reflection were not valued, where  only feelings mattered, she knew that somehow she must alleviate her anxiety and  regain control of herself before nightfall. The primitive in each of us climbs  closer to the surface during the night, for the moon sings to it, and the cold  void between the stars speaks its language. To that savage self, evil can look  lovely in too little light. With darkness, a panic attack might degenerate into  something worse, even into gibbering madness.

Although the rain had stopped, an ocean of black thunderheads remained overhead,  from horizon to horizon, and a premature twilight drowned the day. True twilight wasn't far off, either. When it arrived, the cloud-throttled sky  would seem as black as night.

Already, fat night crawlers squirmed out of the lawn, onto the walkway. Snails  had come forth, too, oozing silvery trails behind them.

A fecund odor arose from the wet grass, from the mulch and the rotting leaves in  the flower beds, from the darkly glistening shrubbery, and from the dripping  trees.

In the gloaming, Martie was uneasily aware of the fertile life to which the sun  was forbidding but to which the night offered hospitality. She was aware, too,  that an awful centipedal part of herself shared an enthusiasm for the night with  all the wriggling creeping-crawling-slithering life that came out of hiding  between dusk and dawn. The squirming she felt within herself was not just fear;  it was a dreadful hunger, a need, an urge that she dared not contemplate.

Keep moving, keep moving, keep moving, and make a safe house, make a refuge in which nothing remains that might be dangerous in violent hands.

New Life was staffed primarily by nurses and therapists, but a medical doctor  was on site from six o'clock in the morning until eight o'clock at night. The  current shift was covered by Dr. Henry Donklin, whom Dusty had first met during  Skeet's previous course of treatment at the clinic.

With curly white hair, with baby-pink skin remarkably smooth and supple for his  age, Dr. Donidin had the cherubic good looks of a successful televangelist,  although he was without the concomitant oiliness that suggested an easy slide  into damnation for many of those electronic preachers.

After closing his private practice, Dr. Donidin had discovered that retirement  was hardly more appealing than death. He had taken this position at New Life  because the work was worthwhile even if not challenging and, in his words,  "saves me from the stifling purgatory of endless golf and the living hell of  shuffleboard."

Donklin gripped Skeet's left hand, and even in his sleep, the kid weakly  returned the squeeze. The physician successfully repeated the test with Skeet's  right hand.

"No obvious signs of paralysis, no stertorous breathing," Donklin said, "no  puffing of the cheeks on expiration."

"Pupils are equally dilated," Tom Wong noted.

After checking the eyes himself, Donklin continued his brisk examination. "Skin  isn't clammy, normal surface temperature. I'd be surprised if this is apoplectic  coma. Not hemorrhage, embolism, or thrombosis. But we'll revisit that  possibility and transfer him to a hospital if we can't identify the problem  quickly."

Dusty allowed himself a measure of optimism.

Valet stood in a corner, head raised, intently watching the proceedings-perhaps  alert for a return or reoccurrence of whatever had raised his hackles and had  driven him from the room a short while ago.

At the doctor's direction, Tom prepared to catheterize Skeet and obtain a urine  sample.

After leaning close to his unconscious patient, Donklin said, "He doesn't have sweet breath, but we'll want to check the urine for albumin and  sugar."

"He's not diabetic," Dusty said.

"Doesn't look like uremic coma, either," the physician observed. "He'd have a  hard, fast pulse. Elevated blood pressure. None of the symptoms here."

"Could he be just sleeping?" Dusty asked.

"Sleep this deep," Henry DonkJin said, "you need a wicked witch casting a spell  or maybe a bite from Snow White's apple."

"The thing is-I got a little frustrated with him, the way he was behaving, and I  told him to just go to sleep, said it sort of sharply, and the moment I said it,  he zonked out."

Donklin's expression was so dry that his face looked as if it needed to be  dusted. "Are you telling me you're a witch?"

"Still a housepainter."

Because he didn't believe that apoplexy was involved, Donklin risked the  application of a restorative; however, a whiff of ammonium carbonate-smelling  salts-failed to revive Skeet.

"If he's just sleeping," the physician said, "then he must be a descendant of  Rip van Winkle."

Because the trash container held only the box of cutlery and because its wheels  were large, Martie was able to drag it up the short flight of stairs onto the  back porch with little difficulty. From inside the well-taped box, through the  walls of the can, came the angry music of knives ringing against one another.

She had intended to roll the container inside. Now she realized that she would  be bringing the knives into the house again.

Hands locked on the handle of the trash can, she was frozen by indecision. Ridding her home of all potential weapons must be priority one. Before full  darkness descended. Before she surrendered more control of herself to the  primitive within.

Into her stillness came a greater storm of fear, rattling all the doors and  windows of her soul.

Move, move, move.

She left the back door standing open and parked the wheeled trash can on the porch, at the threshold, where it was near enough to be  convenient. She removed the lid and put it aside on the porch floor. In the kitchen once more, she pulled open a cabinet drawer and scanned the  gleaming contents: flatware. Salad forks. Dinner forks. Dinner knives. Butter  knives. Also ten steak knives with wooden handles.

She didn't touch the dangerous items. Instead, she carefully removed the safer  pieces-tablespoons, teaspoons, coffee spoons- and placed them on the counter.  Then she removed the drawer from the cabinet, carried it to the open door, and  upended it.

Along with a set of plastic drawer dividers, a steely cascade of forks and  knives clinked and jingled into the trash can. The marrow in Martie's bones rang  in sympathy with the icy sound.

She put the drawer on the kitchen floor, in a corner, out of her way. She didn't  have time to return the salvaged spoons to it and slide it back into the  cabinet.

The false twilight was bleeding into true twilight. Through the open door, she  could hear the first rough songs of the little winter toads that ventured forth  only at night.

Another drawer. Miscellaneous culinary tools and gadgets. A bottle opener. A  potato peeler. A lemon-peel shaver. A wicked-looking spikelike meat thermometer.  A small meat-tenderizing hammer. A corkscrew. Miniature yellow-plastic ears of  corn with two sharp pins protruding from one end, which could be jammed into a  cob to make fresh corn easier to eat.

She was astonished by the number and variety of common household items that  could also serve as weapons. On his way to an inquisition, any torturer would  feel well prepared if his kit contained nothing more than the items now before  Martie's eyes.

The drawer also contained large plastic clips for bags of potato chips,  measuring spoons, measuring cups, a melon scoop, a few rubber spatulas, wire  whisks, and other items that didn't look as if they would be lethal even in the  possession of the cleverest of homicidal sociopaths.

Hesitantly, she reached into the drawer, intending to sort the dangerous items  from the harmless things, but at once she snatched her hand back. She wasn't  willing to trust herself with the task.

"This is crazy, this is totally nuts," she said, and her voice was so torqued by  fear and by despair that she barely recognized it as her own.

She dumped the entire collection of gadgets into the trash can. She put the  second empty drawer atop the first, in the corner.

Dusty, where the hell are you? I need you. I need you. Come home, please, come  home.

Because she had to keep moving to avoid being paralyzed by fear, she found the  courage to open a third drawer. Several big serving forks. Meat forks. An  electric carving knife.

Outside, the shrill singing of toads in the wet twilight.

22

Martie Rhodes, struggling to stave off total panic, pushed by obsession, pulled  by compulsion, moved through a kitchen that now seemed no less filled with  mortal threats than a battlefield torn by clashing armies.

She found a rolling pin in a drawer near the ovens. You could bash in someone's  face with a rolling pin, smash his nose, split his lips, club and club and club  him until you fractured his skull, until you left him on the floor, gazing  sightlessly at you, with starburst hemorrhages in both his eyes.

Although no potential victim was present, and although she knew she was  incapable of bludgeoning anyone, Martie nonetheless had to talk herself into  plucking the rolling pin from the drawer. "Get it, come on, for God's sake, get  it, get it out of here, get rid of it."

Halfway to the trash can, she dropped the pin. It made a hard, sickening sound  when it struck the floor.

She couldn't immediately summon the nerve to pick up the pin again. She kicked  it, and it rolled all the way to the threshold of the open door.

With the rain, the last of the wind had drained out of the day, but the twilight  exhaled a cold draft across the porch and through the kitchen door. Hoping the  chilly air would clear her head, she took deep breaths, shuddering with each. She gazed down at the rolling pin, which lay at her feet. All she had to do was snatch up the damn thing and drop it into the can beyond the  threshold. It wouldn't be in her hand more than a second or two.

Alone, she couldn't harm anyone. And even if she was seized by a  self-destructive impulse, a rolling pin wasn't the ideal weapon with which to  commit hara-kiri, although it was better than a rubber spatula.

With that little joke, she humiliated herself into plucking the rolling pin off  the floor and dropping it in the can.

When she searched the next drawer, she found an array of tools and devices that  for the most part didn't alarm her. A flour sifter. An egg timer. A garlic  press. A basting brush. A colander. A juice strainer. A lettuce dryer.

Mortar and pestle. No good. The mortar was about the size of a baseball, carved  out of a chunk of solid granite. You could brain someone with it. Step up behind  him and swing it down hard, in a savage arc, cave in his skull.

The mortar had to go, right away, now, before Dusty came home or before some  unwary neighbor rang the doorbell.

The pestle seemed harmless, but the two items composed a set, so she took both  to the trash can. The granite mortar was cold in her cupped hand. Even after she  threw it away, the memory of its coolness and satisfying heft tantalized her,  and she knew that she had been right to dispose of it.

As she was pulling open another drawer, the telephone rang. She answered it  hopefully: "Dusty?"

"It's me," Susan Jagger said.

"Oh." Her heart withered with disappointment. She tried not to let her distress  color her voice. "Hey, what's up?"

"Are you all right, Martie?"

"Yeah, sure."

"You sound funny."

"I'm okay."

"You sound out of breath."

"I was just doing some heavy lifting."

"Something is wrong."

"Nothing is wrong. Don't grind me, Sooz. I've got a mother for that. What's up?"

Martie wanted to get off the phone. She had so much to do. So many kitchen  drawers and cupboards had not yet been searched. And dangerous items, potential weapons, were in other rooms, as well. Instruments of  death were scattered throughout the house, and she needed to find them all,  dispose of every last one.

"This is a little embarrassing," Susan said.

"What is?"

"I'm not paranoid, Martie."

"I know you're not."

"He does come here sometimes, you know, sometimes at night when I'm sleeping."

"Eric."

"It must be him. All right, I know, he doesn't have a key, and the doors and  windows are all locked, there's no way in, but it's got to be him."

Martie opened one of the drawers near the telephone. Among other things, it  contained the pair of scissors that she had not been able to touch earlier, when  she had wanted to cut the strapping tape.

Susan said, "You asked me how I know when he's been here, were things out of  order, the smell of his cologne on the air, anything like that."

The handles of the scissors were coated in black rubber to provide a sure grip.

"But it's a lot worse than cologne, Martie, it's creepy. . . and embarrassing."

The steel blades were as polished as mirrors on the outside, with a dull brushed  finish on the inner cutting surfaces.

"Martie?"

"Yeah, I heard." She was pressing the phone so tightly to her head that her ear  hurt. "So tell me the creepy thing."

"How I know he's been here, he leaves his. . . his stuff."

One of the blades was straight and sharp. The other had teeth. Both were  wickedly pointed.

Martie struggled to keep track of the conversation, because her mind's eye was  suddenly filled with bright flashing images of the scissors in motion, slashing  and stabbing, gouging and tearing. "His stuff?"

"You know."

"His stuff."

"What stuff?"

Engraved in one blade, just above the screwhead pivot, was the word Klick, which  was probably the name of the manufacturer, although it resonated in a strange  way with Martie, as if it were a magical word with secret power, mysterious and  full of grave meaning.

Susan said, "His stuff, his . . . spunk."

For a moment, Martie couldn't make sense of the word spunk, simply couldn't  connect with it, couldn't process it, as though it were a nonsense word invented  by someone talking in tongues. Her mind was so preoccupied with the sight of the  scissors lying in the drawer that she couldn't concentrate on Susan.

"Martie?"

"Spunk," Martie said, closing her eyes, striving to push all thoughts of the  scissors out of her mind, trying to focus on the conversation with Susan.

"Semen," Susan clarified.

"His stuff."

"Yes."

"That's how you know he's been there?"

"It's impossible but it happens."

"Semen."

"Yes."

Klick.

The sound of snipping scissors: klick-klick. But Martie wasn't touching the  scissors. Although her eyes were closed, she knew the shears were still in the  drawer, because there was nowhere else they possibly could be. Klick-klick.

"I'm scared, Martie."

Me too. Dear God, me too.

Martie's left hand was clenched around the phone, and her right hand hung at her  side, empty. The scissors couldn't operate under their own power, and yet:

klick-klick.

"I'm scared," Susan repeated.

If Martie hadn't been shaken by fear and struggling determinedly to conceal her  anxiety from Susan, if she'd been able to concentrate better, perhaps she  wouldn't have found Susan's claim to be bizarre. In her current condition,  however, each turn of the conversation led her deeper into confusion. "You said  he. . . leaves it? Where?"

"Well.. . in me, you know."

To prove to herself that her right hand was empty, that the scissors weren't in  it, Martie brought it to her chest, pressed it over her pounding heart.

Klick-klick.

"In you," Martie said. She was aware that Susan was making truly astonishing  statements with shocking implications and terrible potential consequences, but  she wasn't able to bring her mind to bear exclusively on her friend, not with  that infernal klick-klick, klick-klick, klick-klick.

"I sleep in panties and a T-shirt," Susan said.

"Me too," Martie said inanely.

"Sometimes I wake up, and in my panties there's this.. . this warm stickiness,  you know."

Klick-klick. The sound must be imaginary. Martie wanted to open her eyes just to  confirm that the scissors were, indeed, in the drawer, but she would be entirely  lost if she looked at them again, so she kept her eyes shut.

Susan said, "But I don't understand how. It's nuts, you know? I mean.. . how?"

"You wake up?"

"And I have to change underwear."

"You're sure that's what it is? The stuff."

"It's disgusting. I feel dirty, used. Sometimes I have to shower, I just have  to."

Klick-klick. Martie's heart was racing already, and she sensed that the sight of  the gleaming blades would plunge her into a full-fledged panic attack far worse  than anything that she had experienced previously. Klick-klick-klick.

"But, Sooz, good God, you mean he makes love to you-"

"There's no love involved."

"-he does you-"

"Rapes me. He's still my husband, we're just separated, I know, but it's rape."

"-but you don't wake up during it?"

"You've got to believe me."

"All right, of course, honey, I believe you. But-"

"Maybe I'm drugged somehow."

"When would Eric be able to slip the drugs to you?"

"I don't know. All right, yeah, it's crazy. Totally whacked, paranoid. But it's  happening."

Klick-kiick.

Without opening her eyes, Martie pushed the drawer shut.

"When you wake up," she said shakily, "you've got your underwear on again."

"Yes."

Opening her eyes, staring at her right hand, which was knotted around the drawer  pull, Martie said, "So he comes in, undresses you, rapes you. And then before he  goes, he puts your T-shirt and panties on you again. Why?"

"So maybe I won't realize he's been here."

"But there's his stuff."

"Nothing else has that same smell."

"Sooz-"

"I know, I know, but I'm agoraphobic, not totally psychotic. Remember? That's  what you told me earlier. And listen, there's more."

From inside the closed drawer came a muffled klick-klick.

"Sometimes," Susan continued, "I'm sore."

"Sore?"

"Down there," Susan said softly, discreetly. The depth of her anxiety and  humiliation was more clearly revealed by this modesty than it had been by  anything she'd previously said. "He's not. . . gentle."

Inside the drawer, blade pivoting against blade: klick-klick, klickklick.

Susan was whispering now, and she sounded farther away, too, as though a great  tide had lifted her beachfront house and carried it out to sea, as if she were  steadily drifting toward a far and dark horizon. "Sometimes my breasts are sore,  too, and once there were bruises on them. . . bruises the size of fingertips,  where he'd squeezed too hard."

"And Eric denies all this?"

"He denies being here. I haven't. . . I haven't discussed the explicit details  with him."

"What do you mean?"

"I haven't accused him."

Martie's right hand remained on the drawer, pushing against it as though  something inside might force its way out. She applied herself with such  intensity that the muscles in her forearm began to ache.

Klick-klick.

"Sooz, for God's sake, you think maybe he's drugging you and screwing you in  your sleep, but you haven't confronted him about it?"

"I can't. I shouldn't. It's forbidden."

"Forbidden?"

"Well, you know, not right, not something I can do."

"No, I don't know. What an odd word-forbidden. By whom?"

"I didn't mean forbidden. I don't know why I said that. I just meant. . . well,  I'm not sure what I meant. I'm so confused."

Although she was distracted by her own anxiety, Martie sensed something profound  in Susan's word choice, and she wouldn't drop the issue. "Forbidden by whom?"

"I've had the locks changed three times," Susan said, instead of answering the  question. Her voice rose from a whisper, sharpened by a brittle note of nascent  hysteria that she was struggling mightily to repress. "Always a different  company. Eric can't know someone at every locksmith, can he? And I didn't tell  you this before, because maybe it makes me sound loopy, but I've dusted the  windowsills with talcum powder, so if he did come through a locked window  somehow, there'd be evidence of it, there'd be handprints in the powder, some  mark of disturbance, but the talcum is always perfect in the morning. And I've  wedged a kitchen chair under the doorknob, too, so even if the bastard has a  key, he can't open the door, and the next morning the chair is always there,  where I put it, yet I've got his stuff in me, in my panties, and I'm sore, and I  know I've been used, brutally, I know it, and I shower and shower, hotter and  hotter water, so hot it hurts sometimes, but I can't get clean. I never feel  really clean anymore. Oh, God, sometimes I think what I need are exorcists-you  know?- some priests to come here and pray over me, priests who really believe in  the devil if there are any like that today, holy water and crucifixes, incense,  because this is something that defies all logic, this is utterly supernatural,  that's what it is, supernatural. And now you're thinking I'm a fully rounded  nutball, but I'm really not, Martie, I'm not. I'm messed up, no question about  that, okay, but this is apart from the agoraphobia, this is really happening,  and I can't go on like this, waking up and finding. . . It's creepy, disgusting.

It's destroying me, but I don't know what the hell to do. I feel helpless,  Martie, I feel so vulnerable."

Klick-klick.

Martie's right arm ached from the wrist to the shoulder now; as she pressed on  the drawer with all her weight, all her strength. Her jaw was clenched. Her  teeth ground together.

Bright needles drew hot threads of pain up through her neck, and the pain sewed  a little reason into her confusion-torn thoughts. In truth, she wasn't concerned  that something would escape from the drawer. The scissors weren't magically  animated like the brooms that plagued the beleaguered sorcerer's apprentice in  Disney's Fantasia. The crisp dry sound-klick-klick-was in her mind. She was not  actually afraid of the scissors or of the rolling pin, not afraid of the knives,  the forks, the corkscrew, the corncob skewers, the meat thermometer. For hours  now, she had known the true object of her terror, and she had fleetingly  considered it several times during this strange day, but until now she had not  faced it directly and without equivocation. The sole menace before which she  cowered was Martine Eugenia Rhodes: She feared herself, not knives, not the  hammers, not the scissors, but herself She was forcing the drawer shut with  unwavering determination because she was convinced that otherwise she would yank  it open, would seize the shears-and, in the absence of any other victim, would  rip brutally at herself with the pointed blades.

"Are you there, Martie?"

Klick-klick.

"Martie, what am I going to do?"

Martie's voice trembled with compassion, with anguish for her friend, but also  with fear for herself and fear of herself. "Sooz, this is spooky shit, this is  weirder than hoodoo." A cold brine of sweat drenched her as thoroughly as if she  had just stepped out of the sea. Klick-klick. Her arm, shoulder, and neck ached  so intensely that tears flooded her eyes. "Listen, I've got to wrap my brain  around this a little while before I can advise you what to do, before I can  figure out how I can help."

"It's all true."

"I know it's true, Sooz."

She was frantic to be off the telephone. She must get away from the drawer, get  away from the scissors that waited in it, because she couldn't escape from the  violent potential within herself.

"It's happening," Susan insisted.

"I know it is. You've convinced me. That's why I've got to mull it over. Because it's so strange. We've got to be careful, be sure we do the right  thing."

"I'm afraid. I'm so alone here."

"You aren't alone," Martie promised, her voice beginning to break apart, not  just quaverous anymore, but quaking and cracking. "I won't let you be alone.

I'll call you back."

"Martie-"

"I'll think about this, think it through-"

"-if anything happens-"

"-figure out what's best-"

"-if anything happens to me-"

"-and I'll call you back-"

"-Martie-"

"-call you back soon."

She racked the wall phone, although at first she couldn't release it. Her grip  was locked around the handset. When finally she was able to let go, her hand  remained cupped, holding fast to a phantom phone.

Releasing the drawer, Martie winced as cramps spasmed through her right hand.  Like a clay mold, the soft interdigital pads at the base of her fingers had  taken a clear impression of the drawer handle, and the metacarpals ached as if  the red groove in her flesh were reflected in the bone beneath.

She backed away from the drawer until she bumped against the refrigerator.

Inside the fridge, bottles rattled softly against one another.

One of them was a half-empty bottle of Chardonnay, left over from dinner the  previous night. A wine bottle is thick, especially at the bottom, which features  a sediment-collecting, concave punt. Solid. Blunt. Effective. She could swing it  like a club, crack someone's skull with it.

A broken wine bottle could be a particularly devastating weapon. Hold it by the  neck, jagged points thrust forward. Rake it down some unsuspecting person's  face, jam it into his throat.

Slamming doors could have been no louder than the crash of her heart resonating  through her body.

23

"Urine doesn't lie," said Dr. Donklin.

From his sentinel post near the door, Valet raised his head and twitched his  ears as if in agreement.

Skeet, who was now hooked to an electrocardiograph, remained in a sleep so deep  that it appeared to be cryogenic suspension.

Dusty watched the tracery of green light spiking across the readout-window on  the heart monitor. His brother's pulse was slow but steady, no arrhythmia.

New Life Clinic was neither a hospital nor a diagnostic lab. Nevertheless,  because of the self-destructiveness and cleverness of its patients, it had the  sophisticated equipment required to provide rapid analysis of bodily fluids for  the presence of drugs.

Earlier, Skeet's initial blood samples, taken upon admission, had revealed the  recipe for the chemical cocktail with which he had started his day:  methamphetamine, cocaine, DMT. Meth and coke were stimulants.

Dimethyltryptamine-DMT-was a synthetic hallucinogen, similar to psilocybin,  which itself was an alkaloid crystal derived from the mushroom Psilocybe  mexicana. This constituted a breakfast with a lot more punch than oatmeal and  orange juice.

Analysis of the latest blood sample, drawn while Skeet lay in a comalike  slumber, had not yet been completed; however, the urine sample, acquired by  catheter, indicated that no new drugs had been introduced into his system and,  moreover, that his body had largely metabolized the methamphetamine, cocaine, and DMT For the time being, at least,  he would be seeing no more of the angel of death who had induced him to leap off  the Sorensons' roof.

"We'll get the same data from the second blood samples," Donklin predicted.

"Because it's true, urine doesn't lie. Or in laymen's terms. . . there's truth  in a tinkle. Pee-pee can't prevaricate."

Dusty wondered if the physician's bedside manner had been so irreverent when  he'd had his own practice or if irreverence had come upon him after retirement,  when he'd taken this for-hire position at New Life. In either case, it was  refreshing.

The urine sample had also been analyzed for urethral casts, albumin, and sugar.  The results failed to support a diagnosis of either diabetic or uremic coma.

"If the new blood workup doesn't tell us anything," Dr. Donklin said, "we'll  probably want to transfer him to a hospital."

Inside the refrigerator, against which Martie leaned, the clink of glass against  glass gradually subsided.

The pain in her cramped hands wrung tears from her. With the sleeves of her  blouse, she blotted her eyes, but her vision remained blurred.

Her hands were hooked, as if she were clawing at an adversary- or at a crumbling  ledge. Seen through a salty veil, they might have been the menacing hands of a  demon in a dream.

With the image of a jaggedly broken wine bottle still vivid in her mind's eye,  she remained so frightened of her potential for violence, of her unconscious  intentions, that she was paralyzed.

Action. Her father's admonition. Hope lies in action. But she didn't have the  clarity of mind to consider, analyze, and then judiciously choose the right and  most effective action.

She acted anyway, because if she didn't do something, she would lie on the  floor, curl into a ball like a pill bug, and remain there until Dusty came home.  By the time he arrived, she might have turned in upon herself so tightly that  she'd never be able to uncurl.

So, now, with pale resolve, push away from the refrigerator. Cross the kitchen.  To the cabinet from which she'd retreated only moments ago.

Fingers hooking around the handle. Klick-klick. Pulling open the drawer. The  gleaming scissors. Martie almost faltered. Almost lost her shaky conviction when she saw the shiny  blades.

Action. All the way out of the cabinet with the damn drawer. All the way out.  Heavier than she expected.

Or perhaps the drawer wasn't in fact as heavy as it seemed, was heavy only  because, for Martie, the scissors possessed more than mere physical weight.  Psychological weight, moral weight, the weight of malevolent purpose residing  within the steel.

Now to the open back door. The trash can.

She tipped the drawer away from herself, intending to let the contents spill  into the can. The sliding scissors rattled against other objects, and the sound  so alarmed Martie that she dropped the drawer itself into the trash, along with  everything it contained.

When Tom Wong brought the results of the latest blood-sample analysis to Skeet's  room, Dr. Donklin's prediction was fulfilled. The mystery of Skeet's condition  remained unsolved.

The kid hadn't ingested drugs of any kind within the past few hours. Residual  traces of this morning's indulgence were barely detectable.

His white-blood-cell count, which was normal, and his lack of fever didn't  support the theory that he might be afflicted by an acute meningeal infection.

Or any infection whatsoever.

If the problem were food poisoning, specifically botulism, the coma would have  been preceded by vomiting and stomach pain, and most likely by diarrhea, as  well. Skeet hadn't suffered from any of those complaints.

Although clear symptoms of apoplexy were not apparent, the grave possibilities  of cerebral hemorrhage, embolism, and thrombosis must be reconsidered.

"This isn't a rehab case, anymore," Dr. Donklin decided. "Where do you prefer we  transfer him?"

Dusty said, "Hoag Hospital, if they have an open bed."

"Something's happening here," Tom Wong noted, drawing their attention to the  electrocardiograph.

Because the annoying audio module on the EKG was switched off, neither Dusty nor  Donklin had noticed that Skeet's pulse rate had increased. The tracery of green  light and the digital readout indicated that it was up from a low of forty-six  beats per minute to fifty-four.

Suddenly yawning, stretching, Skeet opened his eyes.

His heart rate, now up to sixty beats per minute, was still rising.

Skeet blinked at Tom Wong, at Dr. Donklin, and at Dusty. "Hey, we havin' a party  or something?"

The open bottle of Chardonnay, two bottles of Chablis that were unopened: into  the trash can.

In the laundry room, hideous weapons. A bottle of blinding, suffocating ammonia.  Bleach. A lye-based drain cleaner. All of it into the trash.

She remembered the matches. In a kitchen cabinet. In a tall tin container that  had once held biscotti. Several books of paper matches. Boxes of short wooden  matches. A bundle of matches with ten-inch sticks, used to light the floating  wicks in long-necked glass oil lamps.

If a person were capable of raking a broken wine bottle across an innocent  victim's face, if a person were dangerous enough to have no compunction about  plunging a car key into a loved one's eye, then setting fire to him-or to an  entire house-would pose no significant moral hurdle.

Martie dropped the unopened container of matches into the trash can, and the  contents made a raspy sound like a rattlesnake issuing a warning.

A quick trip to the living room. So much to do, so much to do. The gas fireplace  featured a set of realistic-looking ceramic logs. A battery-fired butane match  lay on the hearth.

Returning to the open kitchen door, dropping the butane match into the trash can  on the back porch, Martie was troubled by the possibility that she had turned on  the gas in the fireplace. She had no reason to turn it on, and she had no memory  of having done so, but she didn't trust herself.

Didn't dare trust herself.

With the valve cranked wide open, a mortal flood of natural gas would escape in  a minute or two. Any spark might set off an explosion powerful enough to destroy  the house.

To the living room again. Like a frantic character in a video game. Ricocheting  from peril to peril.

No rotten-egg odor.

No hiss of escaping gas.

The geared shank of the valve protruded from the wall beside the hearth. A key  chuck was required to turn it, and the brass key lay on the mantel.

Relieved, Martie left the room. By the time she returned to the kitchen,  however, she was once more concerned that in the grip of a fugue, she had keyed  on the gas after satisfying herself that it was off.

This was ridiculous. She couldn't spend the rest of her life bouncing in and out  of the living room, ceaselessly checking on the fireplace. She didn't suffer  from fugues, amnesiac phases, didn't commit acts of sabotage while blacked out.

For reasons she could not grasp, Martie thought of the second waiting room at  Dr. Ahriman's offices, where she had read part of a novel during Susan's therapy  session. A fine place to read. No windows. No annoying background music. No  distractions.

A windowless room. And yet hadn't she stood at an enormous window, watching the  gray rain sweep along the coast?

No, that had been a scene in the paperback novel.

"It's a real thriller," she said aloud, though she was alone. "The writing's  good. The plot is entertaining. The characters are colorful. I'm enjoying it." Now, here in the disordered kitchen, she remained troubled by a perception of  time lost. She sensed an ominous gap in her day, during which something terrible  had happened.

Consulting her wristwatch, she was surprised to see that the hour had grown so  late-5: 12 P.M. The day had dissolved and washed away with the rain.

She didn't know when she had first gone into the living room to inspect the  fireplace. Perhaps a minute ago. Perhaps two or four or ten minutes ago. Early-winter night breathed at the open door to the back porch. She couldn't  recall if darkness had pressed against the living-room windows when she had been in there. If a gap existed in her day, it must have  been in that room, at the fireplace.

Martie raced toward the front of the house, and the territory through which she  passed was familiar yet different from what it had been this morning. No space  was quite rectangular or precisely square anymore; each was fluid-now almost  triangular, now hexagonal, and now curved, or otherwise curiously proportioned.  Ceilings that had been flat appeared to be subtly pitched. She could have sworn  that the floor canted under her, as if it were the deck of a tacking ship. The  powerful anxiety that warped her mental processes also at times seemed to bend  the physical world into strange shapes, although she knew that this surreal  plasticity was imaginary.

In the living room: no hiss of escaping gas. No odor.

The key lay on the mantel. She didn't touch it. Gaze fixed on that shiny brass  item, Martie retreated from the fireplace, carefully backing between the  armchairs and the sofa, out of the room.

When she reached the hall, she glanced at her watch. Five-thirteen. One minute  had passed. No lost time. No fugue.

In the kitchen, shaking uncontrollably, she consulted her watch again. Still  5:13. She was all right. She hadn't blacked out. She couldn't have returned to  the living room in a fugue and switched on the gas. One number changed before  her eyes-5: 14.

In his note, Dusty had promised to be home by five o'clock. He was overdue.  Dusty was usually prompt. He kept his promises.

"God, please," she said, shocked by the pathetic tone of her voice, by the  wretched tremor that distorted her words, "bring him home. God, please, please,  help me, please bring him home now."

When Dusty returned, he would drive his van into the garage, park it beside her  Saturn.

No good. The garage was a dangerous place. Uncounted sharp tools were stored out  there, deadly machinery, poisonous substances, flammable fluids.

She would stay in the kitchen, wait for him here. Nothing would happen to him in  the garage if she weren't out there when he arrived. Sharp tools, poisons,  flammables-they were not dangerous. Martie herself was the real danger, the only  threat.

From the garage, he would come directly into the kitchen. She must be sure that  she had stripped from this room everything that might serve as a weapon.

Yet to continue this purge of the sharp and the blunt and the toxic was sheer  madness. She would never harm Dusty. She loved him more than she loved life. She  would die for him, as she knew he would die for her. You didn't kill someone  whom you loved that much.

Nevertheless, these irrational fears infected her, swarmed in her blood, bred in  her bones, crawled in bacterial plenitude through her mind, and she was growing  sicker by the second.

24

Skeet was sitting in bed, propped against pillows, pallid and sunken-eyed, his  lips more gray than pink, and yet he had a tattered and tragic dignity, as  though he were not merely one of the legion of lost souls who wandered through  the ruins of this crumbling culture, but was instead a consumptive poet, living  during a distant past more innocent than this new century, perhaps taking the  tuberculosis cure in a private sanatorium, struggling not against his own  compulsions, not against a hundred years of cold philosophies that denied  purpose and meaning to life, but against nothing more than stubborn bacteria. A  footed bed tray bridged his lap.

Standing at the window, Dusty might have been gazing at the night sky, reading  his fate in the patterns of the lingering storm clouds. The prows and keels of  the eastward-tacking thunderheads appeared to be filigreed with gold leaf, for  they were uplighted by the luminous suburban sea above which they sailed.

In truth, the night transformed the glass into a black mirror, allowing Dusty to  study Skeet's colorless reflection in the pane. He expected to see his brother  do something strange and revealing that he would not have done if he'd known he  was being observed.

This was a curiously paranoid expectation, but it clung like a prickly bur, and  Dusty could not shake it off. This odd day had brought him deep into a forest of  suspicion that was formless and without object, though nonetheless disturbing. Skeet was enjoying an early dinner: tomato-basil soup seasoned with chips of  Parmesan, followed by rosemary-garlic chicken with roasted potatoes and  asparagus. The meals at New Life were superior to ordinary hospital fare-though  solid food came precut into bite-size pieces, because Skeet was on a suicide  watch.

Sitting erect on the armchair, Valet watched Skeet with the interest of a born  gourmand. He was a good dog, however, and though his dinner was overdue, he  didn't beg.

Around a mouthful of chicken, Skeet said, "Haven't eaten like this in weeks. I  guess nothing gives you an appetite like jumping off a roof."

The kid was so thin that he appeared to have taken bulimia lessons from a  supermodel. Considering how shrunken his stomach must be, it was difficult to  believe that he had the capacity to pack away as much as he had already eaten. Still pretending to be seeking portents in the clouds, Dusty said, "You seemed  to fall asleep just because I told you to."

"Yeah? Well, it's a new leaf, bro. From now on I do everything you want."

"Fat chance."

"You'll see."

Dusty slipped his right hand into a pocket of his jeans and felt the folded  pages from the notepad that he had found in Skeet's kitchen. He considered  asking about Dr. Yen Lo again, but intuition told him that this name, when  spoken, might precipitate a second catatonic withdrawal followed by another  frustrating, inscrutable dialogue similar to the one in which they had engaged  earlier.

Instead, Dusty said, "Clear cascades."

As revealed by his ghostly reflection in the window, Skeet did not even lift his  gaze from his dinner. "What?"

"Into the waves scatter."

Now Skeet looked up, but he said nothing.

"Blue pine needles," Dusty said.

"Blue?"

Turning from the window, Dusty said, "Does that mean anything to you?"

"Pine needles are green."

"Some are blue-green, I guess."

Having cleaned his dinner plate, Skeet slid it aside in favor of a dessert cup containing fresh strawberries in clotted cream and brown sugar. "I  think I've heard it somewhere."

"I'm sure you have. Because I heard it from you."

"From me?" Skeet seemed genuinely surprised. "When?"

"Earlier. When you were.. . out of it."

After savoring a cream-slathered berry, Skeet said, "That's weird. I'd hate to  think the literary thing is in my genes."

"Is it a riddle?" Dusty asked.

"Riddle? No. It's a poem."

"You write poetry?" Dusty asked with undisguised disbelief, aware of how  assiduously Skeet avoided every aspect of the world that his father, the  literature professor, inhabited.

"Not mine," Skeet said, as like a little boy he licked cream from his dessert  spoon. "I don't know the poet's name. Ancient Japanese. Haiku. I must have read  it somewhere, and it just stuck."

"Haiku," Dusty said, trying and failing to find useful meaning in this new  information.

Using his spoon as if it were a symphony conductor's baton, Skeet emphasized the  meter as he recited the poem:

"Clear cascades

into the waves scatter

blue pine needles."

Given structure and meter, the nine words no longer sounded like gibberish. Dusty was reminded of an optical illusion that he had seen once in a magazine,  many years ago. It was a pencil drawing of serried ranks of trees, pines and  firs and spruces and alders, towering and dense and regimented, which had been  titled Forest. The accompanying text claimed that this woodland concealed a more  complex scene that could be perceived if you put aside your expectations, if you  could make yourself forget the word forest, and if you could peer through the  surface image to another panorama far different from the sylvan scene. Some  people required as little as a few minutes to comprehend the second picture,  while others struggled more than an hour before achieving a revelation. After  only ten minutes, frustrated, Dusty had pushed aside the magazine-and then from  the corner of his eye had glimpsed the hidden city. When again he stared directly at the drawing, he saw a vast Gothic metropolis, where granite  buildings crowded one another; shadowy woodland paths between tree trunks had  metamorphosed into narrow streets buried deep in a gloom cast by man-made cliffs  of stone rising cold and gray against a bleak sky.

Similarly, new meaning arose from these nine words the moment that Dusty heard  them read as haiku. The poet's intent was evident: The "clear cascades" were gusts of wind stripping pine needles off trees and  casting them into the sea. It was a pure, evocative, and poignant observation of  nature, which on analysis would surely prove to have numerous metaphorical  meanings pertinent to the human condition.

The poet's intent, however, was not the sole meaning to be found in those three  brief lines. There was another interpretation that had profound importance to  Skeet when he was in his peculiar trance, but he now appeared to have forgotten  all that. Previously, he'd called each line a rule, although he hadn't been  coherent in his attempt to explain what conduct, procedure, sport, or game these  cryptic rules governed.

Dusty considered sitting on the edge of his brother's bed and questioning him  further. He was inhibited by the concern that under pressure Skeet might retreat  into a semi-catatonic state and might not easily wake the next time.

Besides, together they had been through a difficult day. Skeet, in spite of his  nap and fortifying dinner, must be nearly as weary as Dusty, who felt clipped,  ripped, and whipped.

Shovel.

Pick

Hatchet.

Hammers, screwdrivers, saws, drills, pliers, wrenches, long steel nails by the  fistful.

Although the kitchen was not yet entirely a safe place, and though other rooms  of the house must be inspected and secured, as well, Martie couldn't stop  thinking about the garage, mentally cataloging the numerous instruments of  torture and death that it contained.

At last, she was no longer able to maintain her resolve to stay out of the  garage and to avoid the risk of being among its sharp temptations when Dusty  eventually arrived. She opened the connecting door from the kitchen, fumbled for  the light switch, and turned on the overhead fluorescent panels.

As Martie stepped across the threshold, her attention was first drawn to the  Peg-Board on which were racked a collection of gardening tools that she had  forgotten. Trowels. One pair of snips. A hand spade. Spring-action clippers with  Teflon-coated blades. A battery-powered hedge trimmer. A pruning hook.

Noisily, Skeet scraped the last traces of clotted cream and brown sugar from the  dessert cup.

As though summoned by the clatter of spoon against china, a new private nurse  arrived for the night shift: Jasmine Hernandez, petite, pretty, in her early  thirties-with eyes the purple-black shade of plum skins, mysterious yet clear.  Her white uniform was as bright and crisp as her professionalism, although red  sneakers with green laces suggested-correctly, as it turned out-a playful  streak.

"Hey, you're just a little bit of a thing," Skeet told her. He winked at Dusty.

"If I want to kill myself, Jasmine, I don't see you being able to stop me."

As she removed the dinner tray from the bed and set it on the dresser, the nurse  said, "Listen, my little chupaflor, if the only way to keep you from hurting  yourself is to break every bone in your body, then put you in a cast from the  neck down, I can handle that."

"Holy shit," Skeet exclaimed, "where'd you go to nursing school-Transylvania?"

"Tougher than that. I was taught by nuns, the Sisters of Mercy. And I'm warning  you, chupaflor-no bad language on my shift."

"Sorry," Skeet said, genuinely chagrined, though still in a mood to tease. "What  happens when I have to go pee-pee?"

Scratching Valet's ears, Jasmine assured Skeet, "You don't have anything I  haven't seen before, though I'm sure I've seen larger."

Dusty smiled at Skeet. "From now on, it would be wise to say nothing but Yes, ma "What is chupaflor?" Skeet asked. "You're not trying to slip some bad language  by me, are you?"

"Chupaflor means 'hummingbird,' " Jasmine Hernandez explained as she stuck a  digital thermometer in Skeet's mouth.

In a thermometer-punctuated mumble, Skeet said, "You're calling me hummingbird?" "Chupaflor," she confirmed. Skeet was no longer hooked to the  electrocardiograph, so she lifted his bony wrist to time his pulse. A new uneasiness slid into Dusty, as cold as a shiv between the ribs, though he  couldn't identify the cause. Not wholly new, in fact. It was the free-floating  suspicion that earlier had motivated him to watch Skeet's reflection in the  night-mirrored window. Something was wrong here, but not necessarily with Skeet.

His suspicion refocused on the place, the clinic.

"Hummingbirds are cute," Skeet told Jasmine Hernandez.

"Keep the thermometer under your tongue," she admonished.

Mumbling again, he pressed: "Do you think I'm cute?"

"You're a nice-looking boy," she said, as though she could see Skeet as he had  once been-healthy, fresh-faced, and clear-eyed.

"Hummingbirds are charming. They're free spirits."

With her attention on her wristwatch, counting Skeet's pulse, the nurse said,  "Yes, exactly, the chupaflor is a cute, charming, free, insignificant little  bird."

Skeet glanced at his brother and rolled his eyes.

If something were wrong about this moment, this place, these people, Dusty was  unable to pinpoint the falsity. The bastard son of Sherlock Holmes, born of Miss  Jane Marple, would be hard pressed to find good reason for the suspicion that  sawed at Dusty's nerves. His edginess probably arose from weariness and from his  worry about Skeet; until he was rested, he couldn't trust his intuition. In response to his brother's rolling eyes, Dusty said, "I warned you. Two words.

Yes, ma'am. You can't go wrong with Yes, ma'am."

As Jasmine let go of Skeet's wrist, the digital thermometer beeped, and she took  it out of his mouth.

Moving to the bed, Dusty said, "Gotta split, kid. Promised Martie we'd go Out to  dinner, and I'm late."

"Always keep your promises to Martie. She's special."

"Didn't I marry her?"

"I hope she doesn't hate me," Skeet said.

"Hey, don't be stupid."

Unspent tears shimmered in Skeet's eyes. "I love her, Dusty, you know? Martie's  always been so good to me."

"She loves you, too, kid."

"That's a pretty small club-People Who Love Skeet. But People Who Love  Martie-now, that's bigger than the Rotary and the Kiwanis and the Optimist clubs  all rolled into one."

Dusty could think of no comforting reply, because Skeet's observation was  undeniably true.

The kid wasn't speaking from self-pity, however. "Man, that's a load I wouldn't  want to carry. You know? People love you, they have expectations, and then you  have responsibilities. The more people who love you-well, it goes round and  round, it never stops."

"Love is hard, huh?"

Skeet nodded. "Love is hard. Go, go take Martie out for a nice dinner, a glass  of wine, tell her how beautiful she is."

"I'll see you tomorrow," Dusty promised, picking up Valet's leash and clipping  it to the dog's collar.

"You'll find me right here," Skeet said. "I'll be the one in a body cast from  the neck down."

As Dusty led Valet out of the room, Jasmine approached the bed with a  sphygmomanometer. "I need your blood pressure, chupaflor."

Skeet said, "Yes, ma'am."

That skewering sense of wrongness again. Ignore it. Weariness. Imagination. It  could be cured with a glass of wine and the sight of Martie's face.

All the way along the hall to the elevator, Valet's claws ticked softly on the  vinyl-tile flooring.

Nurses and nurses' assistants smiled at the retriever. "Hi, puppy." "What a  handsome fella." "You're a cutie, aren't you?"

Dusty and Valet shared the elevator with a male orderly who knew just the spot  on the ears that, when gently rubbed, caused the dog's eyes to take on a dreamy  cast. "Had a golden myself. A sweet girl named Sassy. She got cancer, had to put  her to sleep about a month ago." His voice caught briefly on the word sleep.

"Couldn't get her to go for a Frisbee, but she'd chase tennis balls all day." "Him, too," Dusty said. "He won't drop the first ball when you throw a second,  brings them both back, looking like the world's worst case of mumps. You going  to get a new puppy?"

"Not for a while," said the orderly, which meant not until the loss of Sassy  hurt a little less than it hurt now.

On the ground floor, in the recreation room adjacent to the lobby, a dozen  patients, at tables in groups of four, were playing cards. Their conversation  and easy laughter, the click of shuffling decks, and the mellow strains of an  old Glenn Miller swing tune on the radio contributed to such a cozy mood that  you might have thought this was a gathering of friends at a country club, a  church hall, or a private home, instead of a physically shaky and  psychologically desperate collection of middle-class and upper-middle-class  crack smokers, snow blowers, crank freaks, cross-top poppers, acid-heads, cactus  eaters, and shit spikers with Swiss-cheese veins.

At a desk next to the front door, a guard was posted to ensure that upon the  premature departure of a headstrong patient, family members and officers of the  court would be phoned depending upon the notification requirements of each case.

During the current shift, the security station was manned by a fiftyish man  dressed in khakis, a light-blue shirt, a red tie, and a navy-blue blazer. His  name tag identified him as WALLY CLARK, and he was reading a romance novel.

Pudgy. dimpled, well-scrubbed, smelling faintly of a spice-scented aftershave,  with the kind blue eyes of a sincere pastor and a smile just sweet enough-but  not too sweet-to replace the vermouth in a not-too-dry martini, Wally was every  Hollywood casting director's ideal choice for the star's favorite uncle, mentor,  dedicated teacher, beloved father, or guardian angel.

"I was here the last time your brother stayed with us," Wally Clark said,  leaning forward in his chair to pet Valet. "I didn't expect he'd be back. Wish  he wasn't. He's a good-hearted boy."

"Thank you."

"Used to come down here to play some backgammon with me. Don't you worry, Mr.  Rhodes. Your brother, deep inside, he's got the right stuff. He'll fly straight  out of here this time, and stay straight."

Outside, the night was cool and damp, although not unpleasant. The woolen clouds  unraveled, revealing a silver moon skating serenely across the lake of the sky,  before quickly knitting up again.

Shallow puddles remained in the parking lot, and Valet weaved to the limits of  his leash to prance through each of them.

When Dusty reached the van, he looked back at the haciendastyle clinic. With  queen palms whispering lullabies in the sleepy breeze, with bougainvillea entwining the columns of the loggias and draping like  bedclothes in graceful swags across the arches, this might have been the home of  Morpheus, the Greek god of dreams.

Yet Dusty was unable to peel off a clinging suspicion that there was another,  darker reality beneath the picturesque surface: a place of ceaseless activity,  of secret scurrying and scheming, a nest, a hive, in which a nightmare colony  labored to some hideous purpose.

Tom Wong, Dr. Donklin, Jasmine Hernandez, Wally Clark, and all the staff at New  Life appeared to be smart, professional, dedicated, and compassionate. Nothing  in their behavior or demeanor gave Dusty the slightest reason to question their  motives.

Perhaps what bothered him was that they were all too perfect to be real. If one  New Life employee had been slow on the uptake or sloppy, rude or disorganized,  Dusty might have been free of this peculiar new distrust of the clinic.

Of course, the unusual competence, commitment, and friendliness of the staff  meant only that New Life was well managed. Evidently, the head of personnel had  a gift for hiring and nurturing first-rate employees. The happy consequences  should have inspired gratitude in Dusty, not a paranoid perception of  conspiracy.

Yet something felt wrong. He worried that Skeet was not safe here. The longer he  stared at the clinic, the stronger his suspicion grew Frustratingly, the reason  for it continued to elude him.

The spring-action clippers with the long blades and the battery-powered hedge  trimmer were so wicked-looking that Martie was not satisfied merely to throw  them away. She would not feel safe until they were reduced to useless scrap.

Larger garden tools were stored neatly in a tall cabinet. Rake, leaf rake,  shovel, hoe. Sledgehammer. She put the hedge trimmer on the concrete floor, where Dusty would park his van  when he came home, and she swung the sledge at it. Under the impact of the large  blunt hammerhead, the trimmer shrieked as though it were a living thing, but  Martie judged the damage to be insufficient. She hefted the hammer and swung it  again, then a third time, a fourth.

Pieces of plastic from the shattered handle, a couple screws, and other debris rattled off nearby cabinets, pinged off the Saturn. With each loud  blow, the garage windows vibrated in their frames and chips of concrete exploded  out of the floor.

All this shrapnel peppered Martie's face. She recognized the danger to her eyes,  but she didn't dare pause to search for safety goggles. Much work remained to be  done, and at any moment, the big garage door might rumble upward, announcing  Dusty's arrival.

She threw the hedge clippers on the floor. She pounded them ferociously, until  the spring popped out and the handles came apart.

Then a spading fork. Pounding and pounding it until the wooden handle was  smashed into splinters. Until the tines were bent and squashed together in a  useless tangle.

The sledgehammer was a three-pound rather than a five-pound model. Nevertheless,  strength and balance were required to wield it with the desired devastating  effect. Sweating, gasping for breath, mouth dry, throat hot, Martie repeatedly  swung the hammer high and drove it down smoothly, with calculated rhythm.

She would suffer in the morning; every muscle in her shoulders and arms would  ache, but right now the sledge felt so glorious in her hands that she didn't  care about the pain to come. A sweet current of power flowed through her, a  gratifying sense of being in control for the first time all day. Each solid thud  of the hammerhead thrilled her; the hard reverberation of the impact, traveling  up the long handle, into her hands, along her arms, into her shoulders and neck,  was deeply satisfying, almost erotic. She sucked air with each upswing, grunted  when she drove the hammer down, issued a wordless little cry of pleasure each  time that something bent or cracked under the pummeling weight- -until abruptly she heard herself and realized that she sounded more animal than  human.

Panting, still gripping the hammer in both hands, Martie turned from the ruined  tools and caught sight of her reflection in a side window of the Saturn. Her  shoulders were hunched, head thrust forward and cocked at a weird angle, like  that of a condemned murderess who had been reprieved but deformed when a  hangman's noose had snapped. Her dark hair was tangled and bristling as though  she'd received an electric shock. Dementia carved her face into that of a hag,  and a wild thing glared from behind her eyes.

Crazily, she recalled an illustration in a storybook she'd treasured as a child: an evil troll under an old stone bridge, bent over a glowing forge,  working with hammer and tongs to make chains and shackles for his victims. What would she have done to Dusty if he had arrived at the very moment when her  frenzied hammering had been at a peak-or, for that matter, if he arrived now? With a shudder of revulsion, she dropped the hammer.

25

Having expected to be away from home past feeding time, Dusty had brought  Valet's dinner in a Ziploc bag: two cups of dry lamb-and-rice kibble. He poured  it into a plastic bowl and put the bowl on the pavement beside the van. "Sorry about the lousy ambience," he apologized.

If the clinic parking lot had been a lush meadow or a penthouse, Valet would  have approached his dinner with no greater pleasure than he showed now. Like all  of his kind, he had no pretensions.

Dogs possessed so many admirable qualities, in fact, that Dusty sometimes  wondered if God had created this world expressly for them above all other  creatures. Human beings might have been put here as an afterthought, to ensure  that dogs would have companions to prepare their meals, to groom them, to tell  them they were cute, and to rub their bellies.

While Valet made quick work of the kibble, Dusty fished his cell phone from  under the driver's seat and called home. On the third ring, the answering  machine responded.

Assuming that Martie was screening calls, he said, "Scarlett, it's me. Rhett.  Just calling to say I do give a damn, after all."

She didn't pick up.

"Martie, are you there?" He waited. Then, stretching the message to give her  time to get to the study-and the answering machine-from anywhere in the house,  he said: "Sorry I'm running late. Hell of a day. I'll be there in half an hour, we'll go out for dinner.  Somewhere we can't afford. I'm sick of always being so damn responsible. Choose  something extravagant. Maybe even a place where the food comes on real plates  instead of in Styrofoam containers. We'll take a bank loan if we have to."

Either she hadn't heard the phone or she wasn't home.

Valet had finished his kibble. He used his tongue to imitate an airplane  propeller, making 360-degree sweeps of his chops and muzzle, collecting crumbs. When traveling with the dog, Dusty carried bottled water. He poured a few ounces  into the blue dish.

After Valet finished drinking, they walked the dimly lighted lawns that embraced  three sides of New Life Clinic. This stroll was ostensibly for the purpose of  giving the dog a chance to do his post-dinner dump, but it also provided Dusty  with an opportunity to examine more closely the rambling structure.

Even if the clinic were less legitimate than it appeared to be, Dusty had no  idea where he should look for clues to its true nature. There would be no hidden  door to the vast subterranean headquarters of a flamboyant James Bond-style  villain. Nor could he expect to discover the soulless personal servant of Count  Dracula clandestinely transferring the undead nobleman's coffin from a  horse-drawn lorry into the basement of the building. This was southern  California in the dazzling new millennium, and it was, therefore, full of far  stranger creatures than Goldfinger and vampires-though currently none appeared  to be lurking in this neighborhood.

Dusty's suspicion was difficult to sustain in the face of the unrelenting  ordinariness of the clinic grounds. The grass was well manicured, the earth  still slightly squishy from the recent rain. The shrubs were neatly trimmed. The  night shadows were only shadows.

Although Valet was easily spooked, he was so comfortable here that he completed  his toilet without any nervous hesitation-and did it in the amber glow of a  landscape lamp, which allowed his master to pick up easily after him.

The fully loaded, conspicuous blue bag gave Dusty an excuse to explore the  alleyway behind the clinic, where no grass bordered the pavement. As he located  a small trash Dumpster and deposited the bag, he surveyed this more humble  aspect of the building: delivery and service entrances, utilities boxes, a  second small Dumpster.

Neither he nor his four-legged Dr. Watson discovered anything amiss in the  backstreet-although beside the second Dumpster, the dog found a grease-stained  Big Mac container that he would have enjoyed sniffing and licking for six or  seven hours.

Retreating from the alley, passing once more across the lawn along the south  side of the clinic, Dusty glanced up at Skeet's room- and saw a man standing at  the window. Backlit by a single well-shaded lamp, he was a featureless  silhouette.

Though the angle was deceiving, the guy seemed too tall and too broad-shouldered  to be Skeet or Dr. Donklin. Tom Wong was gone for the night, but he, too, was a  different physical type from this man.

Dusty could discern nothing of the stranger's face, not even the vague glint of  his eyes. Nevertheless, he was sure the man was watching him.

As though he were in a staring contest with a ghost, Dusty gazed up at the  window until, with the ectoplasmic fluidity of a haunting spirit, the dark form  turned away from the glass and drifted out of sight.

Dusty considered hurrying to his brother's room to learn the identity of the  watcher. Almost certainly, however, the man would prove to be a staff member. Or  another patient, visiting Skeet.

On the other hand, if this nagging suspicion were merited, rather than being  mere paranoia, if the man at the window were up to no good, he would not hang  around now that Dusty had seen him. No doubt he was already gone.

Common sense argued against suspicion. Skeet had no money, no prospects, no  power. There was nothing to be gotten from him that would motivate anyone to  engineer an elaborate conspiracy Besides, an enemy-in the unlikely event that gentle Skeet had one-would realize  the futility of engaging in elaborate schemes to torment and destroy the kid.  Left to his own devices, Skeet would torture himself more ruthlessly than could  the most cruel dungeon master, and he would diligently pursue his own  destruction.

Maybe this wasn't even Skeet's room. Dusty had been sure it was the kid's window  when he first looked up. But... perhaps Skeet's window was to the left of this  one.

Dusty sighed. The ever sympathetic Valet sighed as well.

"Your old man's losin' it," Dusty said.

He was eager to go home to Martie, to walk out of the insanity of this day and  return to reality.

Lizzie Borden took an ax and gave her husband forty whacks.

That bastardized line of verse swung back and forth through Martie's mind,  repeatedly cleaving her train of thought, so she had to struggle to remain  focused.

The workbench in the garage featured a vise. After bracing the ax with a block,  Martie cranked the jaws shut until they tightened on the handle. She was able to pick up a pistol-grip hacksaw only with great effort. It was a  dangerous instrument, but less fearsome than the ax, which must be destroyed.  Later, she'd wreck the hacksaw, too.

Using the saw, she attacked the wooden handle at the neck. The cast-steel head  would still be deadly once it had been severed, but the ax, intact, was far more  lethal than either of its parts.

Lizzie Borden took an ax and gave her husband forty whacks.

The hacksaw blade torqued, bound in the ax handle, stuttered loose, torqued  again, and made a sloppy kerf in the hard wood. She threw it on the floor. In the tool collection were two carpenter's saws. One was a rip-saw, for cutting  with the grain of the wood, the other a crosscut saw, but Martie didn't know  which was which. Hesitantly, she tried one, then the other, and both frustrated  her.

When the job was neatly done, she gave him another forty-one.

Among the power tools was a hand-held reciprocating saw with a blade so fierce  that she required all the courage she could muster to plug it in, pick it up,  and switch it on. Initially the teeth stuttered with little effect across the  oak, and the saw vibrated violently, but when Martie bore down, the blade buzzed  through the wood, and the severed ax head, with handle stump, fell onto the  workbench.

She switched off the saw and set it aside. Opened the jaws of the vice. Freed  the ax handle. Threw it on the floor.

Next, she decapitated the sledgehammer.

Then the shovel. Longer handle. Cumbersome. Getting it into the vise was more  difficult than dealing with the ax or sledgehammer.

The reciprocating saw tore through it, and the shovel blade clattered onto the  workbench.

She sawed through the hoe.

The rake.

What else?

A crowbar. A pointed pry blade at one end, leveraging hook at the other. All  steel. Couldn't be sawn.

Use it to smash the reciprocating saw. Steel ringing off steel, off concrete,  the garage reverberating like a great bell.

When she had disabled the saw, she still held the crowbar. It was as dangerous  as the sledgehammer, which had driven her to use the saws in the first place. She had come full circle. She hadn't accomplished anything. In fact, the crowbar  was more effective than the sledgehammer, because it was easier to wield. There was no hope. No way to make the house safe, not even one room within the  house, not as little as one corner within one room. It couldn't be done as long  as she remained in residence. She, not any inanimate object, was the source of  these vicious thoughts, the sole threat.

She should have clamped the reciprocating saw in the jaws of the vise, switched  it on, and cut off her own hands.

Now she held the crowbar in the same grip with which she had held the hammer.  Through her mind spiraled bloody thoughts that terrified her.

The garage-door motor kicked in. The door clattered upward, and she turned to  face it.

Tires, headlights, the windshield, Dusty in the driver's seat of the van, Valet  beside him. Normal life on wheels, motoring into Martie's personal Twilight  Zone. This was a collision of universes that she had been fearing since the  portentous mental image of a key-skewered eye-Dusty's eye-had caused her heart  to plummet like an express elevator and her lunch to rise like a counterweight.

"Stay away from me!" she cried. "For God's sake, stay away! There's something  wrong with me."

Almost as effectively as a mirror, Dusty's expression revealed to Martie how  bizarre-how crazed-she looked.

"Oh, God."

She dropped the crowbar, but the head of the ax and the head of the sledgehammer were within reach on the workbench. She could easily snatch  them up, pitch them at the windshield.

The key. The eye. Thrust and twist.

Suddenly Martie realized that she had not thrown away the car key. How could she  have failed to dispose of it immediately upon getting home, before dealing with  the knives, the rolling pin, the garden tools, and everything else? If in fact  the vision she had experienced was a premonition, if this hideous act of  violence was inevitable, the car key was the first thing she should have mangled  and then buried at the bottom of the trash can.

Enter Dusty, and therefore on to the next level of the game, where the humble  key of Level 1 now becomes a powerful and magical object, equivalent to the One  Ring, the Master of all the Rings of Power, which must be conveyed back to  Mordor and destroyed in the Fire from which it came, must be melted down before  it can be used for evil purpose. But this was no game. These horrors were real.  The blood, when it came, would be thick, warm, and wet, rather than a  two-dimensional arrangement of red pixels.

Martie turned away from the van and hurried into the house.

The car key wasn't hanging on the Peg-Board, where it should have been. The sweating glass of unfinished ginger ale and a cork coaster were the only  things on the kitchen table.

Draped over a chair: her raincoat. Two deep pockets. A few Kleenex in one. The  paperback book in the other.

No key.

In the garage, Dusty was calling her. He must be out of the van, picking his way  through the debris that she had left on the floor. Each repetition of her name  was louder than the previous one, closer.

Out of the kitchen, into the hail, past the dining room, living room, into the  foyer, Martie fled toward the front door, with the sole intention of putting  distance between herself and Dusty. She was unable to think ahead to the  consequence of this mad flight, to where she would ultimately go, to what she  would do. Nothing mattered except getting far enough away from her husband to  ensure that she couldn't harm him.

The foyer carpet, small and Persian, slid on the polished-oak tongue and groove,  and for a moment she was floor-surfing. Then she wiped out and went down hard on  her right side.

When her elbow rapped the oak, wasps of pain took flight along the nerves of her  forearm, swarming in her hand. More pain buzzed along her ribs, stung through  her hip joint.

The most shocking pain was the least acute: a quick jabbing in her right thigh,  sharp but short-lived pressure. She had been poked by something in the  right-hand pocket of her jeans, and she knew at once what it was.

The car key.

Here was incontestable proof that she couldn't trust herself. On some level, she  must have known the key was in her pocket, when she had checked the Peg-Board,  when she had scanned the table, when she had frantically searched her raincoat.  She'd deceived herself, and there was no reason to have done so unless she  intended to use the key to blind, to kill. Within her was some Other Martine,  the deranged personality she feared, a creature who was capable of any atrocity  and who intended to fulfill the hateful premonition: the key, the eye, thrust  and twist.

Martie scrambled up from the foyer floor and to the windowed front door.

At the same instant, Valet leaped against the outside of the door, paws planted  at the base of the leaded-glass pane, ears pricked and tongue lolling. The many  squares, rectangles, and circles of beveled glass, punctuated by jewel-like  prisms and round glass beads, transformed his furry face into a cubist portrait  that looked both amusing and demonic.

Martie reeled back from the door, not because Valet frightened her, but because  she was afraid of harming him. If she were truly capable of hurting Dusty, then  the poor trusting dog was not safe, either.

In the kitchen, Dusty called, "Martie?"

She didn't answer.

"Martie, where are you? What's wrong?"

Up the stairs. Quickly, silently, two steps at a time, half limping because pain  lingered in her hip. Clutching at the railing with her left hand. Digging in a  pocket with her right.

She reached the top with the key buried in her fist, just the silvery tip poking  out from her tightly clenched fingers. Little dagger.

Maybe she could toss it out a window. Into the night. Throw it into thick  shrubbery or over the fence into the neighbor's yard, where she couldn't easily  retrieve it.

In the shadowy upstairs hail, which was lit only by the foyer light rising  through the stairwell, she stood in indecision, because not all the windows were  operable. Some were fixed panes. Of those that could be opened, many were sure  to be swollen after a long day of rain, and they wouldn't slide easily.

The eye. The key. Thrust and twist.

Time was running out. Dusty would find her at any moment.

She didn't dare delay, couldn't risk trying a window that more likely than not  would be stuck, and have Dusty come upon her while she still held the key. At  the sight of him, she might snap, might commit one of the unthinkable atrocities  with which her mind had been preoccupied throughout the afternoon. Okay, then  the master bathroom. Flush the damn thing down the toilet.

Crazy.

Just do it. Move, move, do it, crazy or not.

On the front porch, muzzle to the jeweled window, the usually quiet Valet began  barking.

Martie dashed into the master bedroom, switched on the overhead light. She  started toward the bathroom-but halted when her gaze, as swift and sharp as a  guillotine, fell on Dusty's nightstand.

In her frenzied attempt to make the house safe, she had thrown out gadgets as  innocuous as potato peelers and corncob holders, yet she had not given a thought  to the most dangerous item in the house, a weapon that was nothing but a weapon,  that did not double as a rolling pin or a cheese grater: a .45 semiautomatic,  which Dusty had purchased for self-defense.

This was one more example of clever self-deception. The Other Martie-the violent  personality buried within her for so long, but now disinterred-had misdirected  her, encouraged her hysteria, kept her distracted until the penultimate moment,  when she was least able to think clearly or act rationally, when Dusty was near  and drawing nearer, and now she was permitted-oh, encouraged-to remember the  pistol.

Downstairs in the foyer, Dusty spoke to the retriever through the window in the  front door-"Settle! Valet, settle!"-and the dog stopped barking.

When Dusty had first purchased the pistol, he had insisted that Martie take  firearms training with him. They had gone to a shooting range ten or twelve  times. She didn't like guns, didn't want this one, even though she understood the wisdom of being able to defend herself in a world  where progress and savagery grew at the same pace. She had become surprisingly  competent with the weapon, a thoroughly customized stainless-steel version of  the Colt Commander.

Down in the foyer, Dusty said, "Good dog," rewarding Valet's obedience with  praise. "Very good dog."

Martie wanted desperately to dispose of the Colt. Dusty wasn't safe with the gun  in the house. No one in the neighborhood was safe if she could get her hands on  a pistol.

She went to the nightstand.

For God's sake, leave it in the drawer.

She opened the drawer.

"Martie, honey, where are you, what's wrong?" He was on the stairs, ascending.

"Go away," she said. Although she tried to shout, the words came out in a thin  croak, because her throat was tight with fear and because she was out of  breath-but perhaps also because the murderess within her didn't really want him  to leave.

In the drawer, between a box of tissues and a remote control for the television,  the pistol gleamed dully, fate embodied in a chunk of beautifully machined  steel, her dark destiny.

Like a deathwatch beetle, its mandibles tick-tick-ticking as it quarried tunnels  deep within a mass of wood, the Other Martie squirmed in Martie's flesh, bored  through her bones, and chewed at the fibers of her soul.

She picked up the Colt. With its single-action let-off, highly controllable  recoil, 4.5-pound trigger pull, and virtually unjammable seven-round magazine,  this was an ideal close-up, personal-defense piece.

Until she stepped on it while turning away from the nightstand, Martie didn't  realize that she had dropped the car key.

26

Falling off a roof, Dusty had not been this scared, because now he was  frightened for Martie, not for himself.

Her face, before she dropped the crowbar and ran away, had been as stark as the  face of an actor in a Kabuki drama. White-greasepaint skin, pale and smooth.  Eyes darkly outlined, not with mascara but with anguish. Red slash of a mouth. Stay away from me! For God's sake, stay away! There's something wrong with me. Even above the engine noise, he'd heard her warning, the terror scraping her  voice raw.

Debris in the garage. A mess in the kitchen. Trash can on the back porch, at the  open door, stuffed full of everything but trash. He couldn't extract meaning  from any of it.

The downstairs was cold because the kitchen door wasn't closed. He found it too  easy to imagine that part of the chill resulted from the presence of an icy  spirit that had come through another door, one not visible, from a place  infinitely stranger than the back porch.

The silver candlesticks on the dining-room table appeared to be as translucent  as they were reflective, as though carved from ice.

The living room was filled with the wintry glitter of glass bibelots, brass  fireplace tools, porcelain lamps. The grandfather clock had frozen time at  11:00.

On their honeymoon, they had found the clock in an antique shop and acquired it for a reasonable price. They weren't interested in its value as  a timepiece, and they didn't intend to have it repaired. Its hands were stopped  at the hour of their wedding, which seemed like a good omen.

After silencing Valet, Dusty decided to leave the dog on the front porch for  now, and he quickly climbed the stairs. Although he ascended into increasingly  warmer air, he brought with him the chill that had pierced him at the sight of  Martie's tortured face.

He found her in the master bedroom. She was standing beside the bed, with the  .45 pistol.

She had ejected the magazine. Muttering frantically to herself, she was prying  the bullets out of it. Jacketed hollowpoints.

When she extracted a round, she threw it across the room. The cartridge snapped  against a mirror without cracking it, rattled onto the top of the vanity, and  came to rest among the decorative combs and hairbrushes.

Dusty couldn't at first understand what she was saying, but then he recognized  it: ". . . full of grace, the Lord is with thee; blessed art thou among women. . In a whispery voice, pitched high with anxiety, a voice almost like that of a  frightened child, Martie was reciting the Hail Mary, fingering another round out  of the magazine, as if the bullets were rosary beads and she were paying penance  with prayer.

Watching Martie from the doorway, Dusty felt his heart swell with fear for her,  swell and swell impossibly until the pressure made his chest ache.

She flung another bullet, which cracked off the dresser-and then saw him in the  doorway. Already sufficiently white-faced for a Kabuki stage, she grew even  paler.

"Martie-"

"No!" she gasped, as he stepped off the threshold.

She dropped the pistol and kicked it across the carpet so hard that it traveled  the length of the room and clattered noisily against a closet door.

"It's only me, Martie."

"Get out of here, go, go, go."

"Why are you afraid of me?"

"I'm afraid of me!" Her fingers, sharp and white, plucked at the pistol magazine  with carrion-crow tenacity, extracting one more cartridge. "For God's sake,  run!"

"Martie, what-"

"Don't get close to me, don't, don't trust me," she said, her voice as thin,  shaky, and urgent as that of a high-wire walker losing balance. "I'm all screwed  up, totally screwed."

"Honey, listen, I'm not going anywhere until I know what's happened here, what's  wrong," Dusty said as he took another step toward her.

With a despairing wail, she threw the bullet and the half-empty magazine in  different directions, neither at Dusty, and then ran to the bathroom.

He pursued her.

"Please," Martie pleaded, determinedly trying to close the bathroom door in his  face.

Only a minute ago, Dusty would not have been able to imagine any circumstances  in which he would have used force against Martie; now his stomach fluttered  queasily as he resisted her. Inserting one knee between the door and the jamb,  he tried to shoulder into the room.

She abruptly stopped resisting and backed away.

The door banged open so hard that Dusty winced as he stumbled across the  threshold.

Martie retreated until she bumped against the entrance to the shower stall. Catching the bathroom door as it rebounded from the rubber stop, Dusty kept his  attention on Martie. He fumbled for the wall switch and clicked on the  fluorescent panel in the soffit above the twin sinks.

Hard light ricocheted off mirrors, porcelain, white-and-green ceramic tile. Off  nickel-plated fixtures as shiny as surgical steel.

Martie stood with her back to the glass-enclosed shower. Eyes shut. Face  pinched. Hands fisted against her temples.

Her lips moved rapidly but produced not a sound, as if she had been stricken  mute by terror.

Dusty suspected that she was praying again.

He took three steps, touched her arm.

As dire blue and full of trouble as a hurricane sea, her eyes snapped open. "Get  away!"

Rocked by her vehemence, he relented.

The seal on the shower door popped with a twonk, and she eased backward over the raised sill, into the stall. "You don't know what I'll do, my  God, you can't imagine, you can't conceive how vicious, how cruel."

Before she could pull the shower door shut, he intervened and held it open.

"Martie, I'm not afraid of you."

"You should be, you've got to be."

Bewildered, he said, "Tell me what's wrong."

The radiant patterns of striations in her blue eyes resembled cracks in thick  glass, her black pupils like bullet holes at the center.

Explosive shatters of words broke from her: "There's more to me than you see,  another me down inside somewhere, full of hate, ready to hurt, cut, smash, or if  maybe there's no Other and there's just me alone, then I'm not the person I  always thought I was, I'm something twisted and horrible, horrible."

In his worst dreams and in the most desperate moments of his waking life, Dusty  had never been this profoundly frightened, and in his private image of himself  as a man, he had not allowed for the possibility that he could be so utterly  humbled by fear as he was now.

He sensed that Martie, as he had always known her, was slipping away from him,  inexplicably but inexorably being sucked down into a psychological vortex  stranger than any black hole at the far end of the universe, and that even if  some aspect of her remained when the vortex closed, she would be as enigmatic as  an alien life-form.

Although, until this moment, Dusty had never realized the depth of his capacity  for terror, he had always understood how bleak this world would be if Martie  were not in it. The prospect of life without her, joyless and lonely, was the  source of the fear that racked him now.

Martie backed away from the glass door, until she wedged herself into a corner  of the shower, shoulders cramped forward, arms crossed over her breasts, hands  fisted in her armpits. All her bones seemed to be surfacing-knees, hips, elbows,  shoulder blades, skull- as if her skeleton might secede from its union with her  flesh.

When Dusty stepped into the shower, Martie said, "Don't, oh, please, please,  don't," her voice resonating hollowly along the tile walls "I can help you."

Weeping, face wrenched, mouth soft and trembling, she said, "Baby, no. Stay  back."

"Whatever this is about, I can help you."

When Dusty reached for her, Martie slid down the wall and sat on the floor,  because she could not back away from him any farther.

He dropped to his knees.

As he put a hand on her shoulder, she convulsed in panic around a word: "Key!"

"What?"

"Key, the key!" She extracted her fists from under her clamping arms and raised  them to her face. Her clenched fingers sprang open, revealing an empty right  hand, then an empty left, and Martie looked amazed, as if a magician had caused  a coin or a wadded silk scarf to vanish from her grasp without her sensing a  thing. "No, I had it, still have it, the car key, somewhere!" Frantically she  patted the pockets of her jeans.

He recalled seeing the car key on the floor near the nightstand. "You dropped it  in the bedroom."

She regarded him with disbelief, but then appeared to remember. "I'm sorry. What  I would've done. Thrust, twist. Oh, Jesus, God." She shuddered. Shame welled in  her eyes and washed across her face, imparting faint color to her unnaturally  chalky skin.

When Dusty tried to put his arms around her, Martie resisted, urgently warning  him not to trust her, to shield his eyes, because even if she didn't possess the  car key, she had acrylic fingernails sharp enough to gouge his eyes, and then  suddenly she attempted to tear off those nails, clawing at her hands, acrylic  scraping against acrylic with the insectile click-click-click of beetles  swarming over one another.

At last Dusty stopped trying to put his arms around  her and just, damn it, put them around her, overwhelmed her, forced his loving  embrace upon her, drew her fiercely against him, as though his body were a  lightning rod with which he could ground her to reality. She went stiff,  retreating into an emotional carapace, and though she was already physically  drawn in upon herself, she curled tighter now, so it seemed the tremendous power  of her fear would press her ever inward, condensing her, until she became as  solid as stone, as hard as diamond, until she imploded into a black hole of her  own making and vanished into the parallel universe where she'd briefly imagined  that the car key had gone when it had been in neither of her fists.

Undeterred, Dusty held her, rocked slowly back and forth with her on the floor of the  shower, telling her that he loved her, thathe cherished her, that she was not an evil Orc but a good Hobbit, telling her  that her Hobbitness could be proved by taking one look at the curious,  unfeminine, but charming toes that she had inherited from Smilin' Bob, telling  her anything he could think to tell her that might make her smile. Whether she  smiled or not, he didn't know, for her head was tucked down, face hidden. In  time, however, she ceased resistance. After a while longer, her body unclenched,  and she returned his embrace, tentatively at first, but then less tentatively,  until by degrees she opened entirely and clung to him as he clung to her, with a  desperate love, with an acute awareness that their lives had changed forever,  and with an unnerving sense that they now existed under the shadow of a great  looming unknown.

27

After watching the evening news, Susan Jagger went through the apartment,  synchronizing all the clocks with her digital wristwatch. She performed this  task every Tuesday evening at the same hour.

In the kitchen, clocks were built into the oven and microwave, and another hung  on the wall. A stylish, battery-operated Art Deco clock stood on the fireplace  mantel in the living room, and on the nightstand beside her bed was a clock  radio.

On average, none of these timepieces lost or gained more than a minute during  the week, but Susan took pleasure in keeping them running tick for tick. Through sixteen months of near isolation and chronic anxiety, she had relied on  ritual to save her sanity.

For every household chore, she established elaborate procedures to which she  adhered as rigorously as an engineer would follow the operational manual in a  nuclear power plant where imprecision might mean meltdown. Waxing floors or  polishing furniture became a lengthy enterprise that filled otherwise empty  hours. Performing any task to high standards, while conforming to codified  housekeeping rules, gave her a sense of control that was comforting even though  she recognized that it was fundamentally an illusion.

After the clocks were synchronized, Susan went into the kitchen to prepare  dinner. A tomato-and-endive salad. Chicken marsala.

Cooking was her favorite work of the day. She followed recipes with scientific exactitude, measuring and combining ingredients as carefully as  a bombmaker handling explosive, unstable chemicals. Culinary rituals and  religious rituals, like no others, could calm the heart and quiet the mind,  perhaps because the former fed the body and the latter fed the soul.

This evening, however, she wasn't able to concentrate on dicing, grating,  measuring, stirring. Her attention repeatedly strayed to the silent telephone.

She was eager to hear from Martie, now that she'd at last found the courage to  mention the mysterious night visitor.

Before recent events, she'd thought she could reveal anything to Martie with  complete comfort, without feeling self-conscious. For six months, however, she'd  been unable to speak of the sexual assaults committed against her while she  slept.

Shame silenced her, but shame inhibited her less than did the concern that she'd  be thought delusional. She herself found it hard to believe that she could have  been stripped out of her sleepwear, raped, and re-dressed on numerous occasions  without being awakened.

Eric was no sorcerer with the ability to steal in and out of the apartment-and  in and out of Susan herself-utterly undetected.

Although Eric might be as weak and morally confused as Martie said, Susan was  reluctant to consider that he might hate her enough to do these things to her,  and hatred was undeniably at the heart of this abuse. They had loved each other,  and their separation had been marked by regret, not by anger.

If he wanted her, even without the obligation to stand by her in time of need,  she might welcome him. There was no reason, then, why he should scheme so  elaborately to take her against her will.

Yet. . . if not Eric, who?

Having shared this house with her and having used this top floor as his home  office, Eric might know a way to circumvent the doors and windows-as unlikely as  that seemed. No one else was sufficiently familiar with the place to come and go  undetected.

Her hand trembled, and salt spilled from the measuring spoon.

Turning from the dinner preparations, she blotted her suddenly damp palms on a  dish towel.

At the apartment door, she checked the dead bolts. Both were engaged. The  security chain was in place.

She leaned with her back against the door.

I am not delusional.

On the phone, Martie had seemed to believe her.

Convincing others, however, might not be easy.

Evidence supporting her contention of rape was inconclusive. Sometimes she  experienced vaginal tenderness, but not always. Bruises the size of a man's  fingertips occasionally appeared on her thighs and breasts, but she couldn't  prove they were the work of a rapist or that she hadn't sustained them during  ordinary physical activity.

Immediately on waking, she always knew when the phantom intruder had visited her  during the night, even if she wasn't sore or bruised, even before she grew aware  of the deposit he left in her, because she felt violated, unclean.

Feelings, however, were not proof.

The semen was the only evidence that she had been with a man, but it did not  absolutely confirm rape.

Besides, presenting her stained panties to the authorities-or, worse yet,  submitting to a vaginal swab in a hospital emergency room-would involve more  embarrassment than she'd be able to endure in her current condition.

Indeed, her condition, the agoraphobia, was the primary reason she had been  reluctant to confide in Martie, let alone in the police or other strangers.

Although enlightened people knew that an extreme phobia wasn't a form of  madness, they could not help but regard it as odd. And when she claimed that she  was being sexually violated in her sleep, by a ghostly assailant whom she'd  never seen, by a man who could enter through bolted doors. . . Well, even her  lifelong best friend might wonder if the agoraphobia, while not itself a form of  madness, was a precursor to genuine mental illness.

Now, after checking the dead bolts yet again, Susan impatiently reached for the  telephone. She couldn't wait a minute longer for Martie's considered response.  She needed to be reassured that her best friend, if no one else, believed in the  phantom rapist.

Susan keyed the first four digits of Martie's number-but hung up. Patience. If  she appeared fragile or too needy, she might seem less believable. Returning to the marsala sauce, she realized she was too nervous to be lulled by  culinary rituals. She wasn't hungry, either.

She opened a bottle of Merlot, poured a glassful, and sat at the kitchen table.  Lately, she was drinking more than usual.

After sipping the Merlot, she held the glass up to the light. The dark ruby  liquid was clear, apparently uncontaminated.

For a while, she had been convinced that someone was drugging her. That  possibility was still troubling but not as likely as it had once seemed. Rohypnol-which the news media had dubbed the date-rape drug-might explain how  she was able to remain unconscious, or at least oblivious, even during rough  intercourse. Mix Rohypnol into a woman's drink, and she appears to be in an  advanced stage of inebriation: disoriented, pliant-defenseless. The drugged  state ultimately gives way to genuine sleep, and upon waking, she has little or  no memory of what took place during the night.

In the morning, however, after her mysterious visitor ravaged her, Susan never  experienced any symptoms of Rohypnol hangover. No queasy stomach, no dry mouth,  no blurring of vision, no throbbing headache, no lingering disorientation.  Routinely, she woke clear-headed, even refreshed, though feeling violated.

Nevertheless, she had repeatedly changed grocers. Sometimes Susan relied on  Martie to do her shopping, but for the most part she ordered groceries and other  supplies from smaller family-owned markets that offered home delivery. Few  provided that extra service these days, even for a charge. Although Susan had  tried all of them, paranoically certain that someone was lacing her food with  drugs, changing vendors didn't bring an end to the postmidnight assaults. In desperation, she had sought answers in the supernatural. The mobile library  brought her lurid books about ghosts, vampires, demons, exorcism, black magic,  and abductions by extraterrestrials.

The delivering librarian, to his credit, never once commented upon-or even  raised an eyebrow at-Susan's insatiable appetite for this peculiar subject  matter. Anyway, it was no doubt healthier than an interest in contemporary  politics or celebrity gossip.

Susan had been particularly fascinated by the legend of the incubus. This evil  spirit visited women in their sleep and had sex with them while they dreamed. Fascination had never become conviction. She hadn't descended so far into  superstition that she had slept with copies of the Bible at all four corners of  her bed or while wearing a necklace of garlic.

Ultimately, she ceased researching the supernatural, because as she delved into  those irrational realms, her agoraphobia intensified.

By sitting down to a banquet of unreason, she seemed to be feeding the sick part  of her psyche in which her inexplicable fear thrived.

Her glass of Merlot was half empty. She refilled it.

Carrying the wine with her, Susan set out on a circuit of the apartment, to  ascertain that all possible entrances were secured.

Both windows in the dining room faced the residence next door, which crowded  close to Susan's house. They were locked.

In the living room, she switched off the lamps. She sat in an armchair, sipping  Merlot, while her eyes adjusted to the darkness.

Although her phobia had progressed until she had difficulty looking at the  daylight world even through windows, she could still tolerate the night view  when the sky was overcast, when no deep sea of stars awaited her contemplation.  In weather like this, she never failed to test herself, for she worried that if  she didn't exercise her weak muscle of courage, it would atrophy altogether. When her night vision improved and the Merlot lubricated the little engine of  fortitude in her heart, she went to the middle pane of the three big  ocean-facing windows. After a brief hesitation and a deep breath, she raised the  pleated shade.

Immediately in front of the house, the paved promenade lay under the false frost  of widely separated streetlamps. Though the hour was not yet late, the promenade  was nearly deserted in the January chill. A young couple skated by on  Rollerblades. A cat scurried from one drift of shadows to another.

Thin tendrils of mist wound between the few palm trees and the streetlamps. In  the still air, the fronds hung motionless, so the creeping mist seemed to be  alive, advancing with silent menace.

Susan couldn't see much of the night-cloaked beach. She could not see the  Pacific at all: A bank of dense fog had advanced as far as the shore, where it  could be glimpsed only intermittently-high, gray, like a towering tsunami  flash-frozen an instant before it would have smashed across the coast. The lazy  mist writhed off the face of the fog bank, as cold steam rises off a block of  dry ice.

With the stars lost above the low clouds, with darkness and fog partitioning the  world into small spaces, Susan should have been able to stand at the window for  hours, insulated from her fear, but her heart began to race. Agoraphobia was not  the cause of her sudden apprehension; rather, she was overcome by a sense of  being watched.

Since the night assaults had begun, she was increasingly plagued by this new  anxiety. Scopophobia: fear of being watched.

Surely, however, this wasn't just another phobia, not just an unreasonable fear,  but an entirely rational one. If her phantom rapist was real, he must at times  keep her home under surveillance, to be sure that he'd find her alone when he  paid a visit.

Nevertheless, she was concerned about acquiring new layers of fear atop her  agoraphobia, until eventually she would be bound up like an Egyptian mummy,  wrapped by smothering shrouds of anxiety, paralyzed and effectively embalmed  alive.

The promenade was deserted. The palm boles weren't wide enough to conceal  anyone.

He's out there.

For three nights in a row, Susan hadn't been assaulted. This all too human  incubus was due. He exhibited a pattern of need, more regular than-but as  reliable as-the pull of the moon on the blood tides of a werewolf Often she had tried to stay awake on the nights she expected him. When she  succeeded, exhausted and grainy-eyed by dawn, he never showed. Usually, if her  willpower failed her and she dozed off, he paid a visit. Once, she fell asleep  fully dressed, in an armchair, and she woke fully dressed, but in bed, with the  faint scent of his sweat clinging to her and with his hateful, sticky issue  clotted in her panties. He seemed to know, by some sixth sense, when she was  sleeping and most vulnerable.

He's out there.

On the generally flat beach, a few low dunes rose at the outer limit of  visibility, curving smoothly away into darkness and mist. An observer might be  watching from behind one of them, although he would have to be lying prone in  the sand to remain hidden.

She felt his gaze upon her. Or thought she felt it.

Susan quickly lowered the pleated shade, covering the window.

Furious with herself for being so shamefully timid, shaking more with anger and  frustration than with fear, sick of being a helpless victim, after having been  anything but a victim for most of her life, she wished fervently that she could  overcome her agoraphobia and go outside, storm across the beach, kick through  the sand to the crest of each dune, and either confront her tormentor or prove  to herself that he was not out there. But she didn't have the courage to stalk the stalker,  wasn't able to do anything but hide and wait.

She couldn't even hope for deliverance, because her hope, which had long  sustained her, had recently shrunk until, if given physical substance, it would  not be visible through either a magnifying glass or the most powerful  microscope.

Magnifying glass.

As she dropped the cord of the window shade, Susan picked up a new idea, turned  it around in her mind, and liked the shape of it. Housebound by agoraphobia, she  couldn't stalk her stalker, but maybe she could watch him while he watched her. In the bedroom closet, above the hanging clothes, on the top shelf, was a vinyl  carrying case containing a pair of high-power binoculars. In better days, when  she had not been unnerved by the very sight of the sunlit world in all its  vastness, she had enjoyed watching sailboat regattas staged along the coast and  larger ships bound for South America or San Francisco.

With a two-step folding stool borrowed from the kitchen, she hurried to the  bedroom. The binoculars were where she expected to find them.

Stored on the same shelf, among other stuff, was an item that she had forgotten.  A video camera.

The camcorder had been one of Eric's short-lived enthusiasms. Long before he  moved out, he had lost interest in taping and editing home movies.

An electrifying possibility short-circuited Susan's plan to survey the dunes for  a concealed observer. Leaving the binoculars untouched, she lifted down the hard-plastic case  containing the video camera and associated gear. She opened it on the bed. In addition to the camcorder, the case contained a spare battery pack, two blank  tapes, and an instruction book.

She had never used the camera. Eric had done all the taping. Now she read the  instruction book with keen interest.

As usual when pursuing a new hobby, Eric had not been saris-fled with ordinary  tools. He insisted on owning the best, state-of-the-art equipment, cutting-edge  gadgetry. This handheld video camera was compact but nevertheless provided the  finest available lenses, near flawless image and sound recording, and whisper-quiet operation that would not register through the microphone.

Instead of accepting only twenty- or thirty-minute tapes, it could accommodate a  two-hour cassette. It also featured an extended-recording mode, using fewer  inches of tape per minute, which allowed three hours of recording on a two-hour  tape, though the resultant image was said to be ten percent less clear than that  produced at standard speed.

The camcorder was so energy efficient and the rechargeable battery pack was so  powerful that two to three hours of operation could be expected, depending on  how much you used the image monitor and the various other power-draining  features.

According to the built-in gauge, the installed battery pack was dead. Susan  tested the spare pack, which held a partial charge.

Not certain that the dead pack could be revived, she used the charging cord to  plug the livelier battery into a bathroom outlet, to bring it up to full  readiness.

The glass of Merlot was on an end table in the living room. She raised it as if  making a silent toast, and this time she drank not for solace but in  celebration.

For the first time in months, she genuinely felt that she was in control of her  life. While she knew that she was taking just a single small step to resolve  only one of the many grievous problems that plagued her, knew that she was far  from truly being in control, Susan didn't temper her excitement. At least she  was doing something, at long last, and she desperately needed to be lifted by  this rush of optimism.

In the kitchen, as she cleaned up the preparations for chicken marsala and took  a pepperoni pizza from the freezer, she wondered why she hadn't thought of the  camcorder weeks or months ago. Indeed, she began to realize that she had been  surprisingly passive, considering the horror and abuse she'd endured.

Oh, she had sought therapy. Twice a week for almost sixteen months now. That was  no small accomplishment, the struggle to and from each session, the perseverance  in the face of limited results, but submitting to therapy was the very least she  could have done when her life was falling apart. And the key word was  submitting, because she'd deferred to Ahriman's therapeutic strategies and  advice with uncharacteristic docility, considering that in the past she had  dealt with physicians as skeptically as she did with high-pressure car salesmen,  double-checking them through her own research and by seeking second opinions.

Popping the pizza into the microwave, Susan was happy to be relieved of the  necessity to cook a complicated dinner, and she understood, almost with the  power of an epiphany, that she'd held fast to her sanity through ritual at the  expense of action. Ritual anesthetized, made the misery of her condition  bearable, but it did not bring her closer to a resolution of her troubles; it  didn't heal.

She filled her wineglass. Wine didn't heal, either, and she needed to be careful  not to get bagged and then screw up the work ahead of her, but she was so  excited, so adrenaline-stoked, that she could probably finish the whole bottle  and, with her metabolism in high gear, burn it off by bedtime.

As Susan paced the kitchen, waiting for the pizza to be ready, her bafflement at  her long passivity grew into amazement. Looking over the past year with new  detachment, she could almost believe she'd been living under a warlock's evil  spell that had clouded her thinking, sapped her willpower, and shackled her soul  with dark magic.

Well, the spell was broken. The old Susan Jagger was back- clearheaded,  energized, and ready to use her anger to change her life.

He was out there. Maybe he was even watching from the dunes this very minute.  Maybe he would skate past her house on Rollerblades now and then, or jog past,  or ride past on a bike, to all appearances only one more California fun freak or  exercise fanatic. But he was out there, for sure.

The creep hadn't visited her for three successive nights, but he followed a  pattern of need that all but assured he would come to her before dawn. Even if  she could not fend off sleep, even if she was somehow drugged and unaware of  what he was doing to her, she would know all about him in the morning, because  with a little luck, the hidden camcorder would capture him in the act.

If the tape revealed Eric, she would kick his sorry ass until her shoe would  need to be surgically removed from his cheeks. And then get him out of her life  forever.

If she caught a stranger, which seemed highly unlikely, she would have proof for  the police. As deeply mortifying as it would be to surrender a tape of her own  rape into evidence, she would do what she must.

Returning to the table for her glass of wine, she wondered what if... what if... What if upon waking she felt used and sore, felt the insidious warmth of semen,  and yet the tape showed her alone in bed, tossing either in ecstasy or in  terror, like a madwoman in a fit? As though her visitor were an entity-call him  Incubus-who cast no reflection in mirrors and left no image on videotape.

Nonsense.

The truth was out there, but it wasn't supernatural.

She raised the glass of Merlot for a sip-and took half of it in one thick  swallow.

28

Like a shrine to Martha Stewart, goddess of the modern American home. Two floor  lamps with fringed silk shades. Two big armchairs with footstools, facing each  other across a tea table. Needlepoint pillows on the chairs. The living-room  fireplace to one side.

This was Martie's favorite spot in the house. Many nights during the past three  years, she and Dusty had sat here with books, quietly reading, each lost in a  separate fiction, yet as intimate as if they had been holding hands and gazing  into each other's eyes.

Now her legs were drawn up on the chair, and she was turned slightly to her  left, sans book. She sat quite still, in a languid attitude, which must have  looked like the posture of serenity, when in fact she was not so much serene as  emotionally exhausted.

In the other chair, Dusty tried to settle back in an assumption of calm  consideration and analysis, but he slid repeatedly to the edge of his seat.

Occasionally halted by embarrassment, more often silenced because she couldn't  help pausing to marvel at the weird details of her own demented behavior, Martie  recounted her ordeal in short installments, resuming her story when Dusty gently  encouraged her with questions.

The very sight of Dusty calmed her and gave her hope, but Martie sometimes could  not meet his eyes. She gazed into the cold fireplace as if hypnotic flames  licked the ceramic logs.

Surprisingly, the decorative set of brass fireplace tools didn't alarm her. A  small shovel. Pointed tongs. A poker. Only a short while ago, the sight of the  poker alone would have plucked arpeggios of terror from her harp-string nerves. Embers of anxiety remained aglow in her, but right now she was more afraid of  another crippling panic attack than of her potential to do violence.

Although she recounted the attack in all its gaudy detail, she couldn't convey  how it felt. Indeed, she had difficulty remembering the full intensity of her  terror, which seemed to have happened to another Martie Rhodes, to a troubled  persona that had briefly risen from the muck of her psyche and had now submerged  again.

From time to time, Dusty noisily rattled the ice in his Scotch to get her  attention. When she looked at him, he raised his drink, reminding her to sample  her serving. She'd been reluctant to accept the Scotch, fearful of losing  control of herself again. Ounce by ounce, however, Johnny Walker Red Label was  proving to be effective therapy.

Good Valet lay by her chair, rising now and then to rest his chin on her bent  legs, submitting to a smoothing hand on his head, commiseration in his soulful  eyes.

Twice she gave the dog small cubes of ice from her drink. He crunched them with  a strangely solemn pleasure.

When Martie finished her account, Dusty said, "What now?"

"Dr. Closterman, in the morning. I made an appointment today, coming back from  Susan's, even before things got really bad for me."

"I'll go with you."

"I want a full physical. Complete blood workup. A brain scan, in case maybe  there's a tumor."

"There's no tumor," Dusty said with a conviction based solely on hope. "There's  nothing serious wrong with you."

"There's something."

"No." The thought of her being ill, perhaps terminal, caused Dusty such dread  that he could not conceal it.

Martie treasured every line of anguish in his face, because more than all the  love talk in the world, it revealed how much he cherished her.

"I'd accept a brain tumor," she said.

"Accept?"

"If the alternative is mental illness. They can cut out the tumor, and there's a  chance of being what you were."

"It's not that, either," he said, and the lines in his face grew deeper. "It's  not mental."

"It's something," she insisted.

Sitting in bed, Susan ate pepperoni pizza and drank Merlot. This was the most  delicious dinner she had ever known.

She was sufficiently perceptive and self-aware to realize that the ingredients  of the simple meal had little or nothing to do with its special succulence and  flavor. Sausage, cheese, and well-browned crust were not as tasty as the  prospect of justice.

Freed from her peculiar spell of timidness and helplessness, she was in fact  less hungry for justice than for a thick cold slice of vengeance. She had no  illusions about her primitive capacity to take delight in retribution. After  all, her teeth, like those of every human being, included four canines and four  incisors, the better to rip and tear.

Remembering how she'd defended Eric to Martie, Susan bit off a mouthful of pizza  and chewed it with fierce pleasure.

If she had developed agoraphobia as an insulating response to the pain of Eric's  adultery, then perhaps he deserved some payback for that. But if he were her  phantom visitor, mercilessly screwing with her mind and her body, he was a far  different man from the one she'd thought he'd been when she married him. Not a  man at all, in fact, but a creature, a hateful thing. A serpent. With evidence,  she would use the law to chop him, as a woodsman might use an ax on a  rattlesnake.

As she ate, Susan studied the bedroom, seeking the best place in which to  secrete the camcorder.

Martie sat at the kitchen table, watching as Dusty cleaned up the mess that she  had made.

When he dragged the trash can off the porch, into the kitchen, the contents  rattled and chimed like the tools in a knacker's bag.

Martie held her second glass of Scotch with both hands as she raised it to her  lips.

After closing the door, Dusty loaded the knives, forks, and other eating  utensils into the dishwasher.

The sight of the sharp blades and pointed tines, the clink and steely scrape of  them against one another, did not alarm Martie. Her throat thickened, however,  and the warm Scotch trickled slowly down, as though melting through a clog in  her esophagus.

Dusty returned the Chardonnay and Chablis to the refrigerator. Those bottles  would still make effective bludgeons, lacerating scalp and cracking skull bone,  but Martie's mind was no longer acrawl with the temptation to heft them, swing  them.

After he slid the emptied drawers into the cabinets and put away those items  that didn't need to be washed, Dusty said, "The stuff in the garage can wait  till morning."

She nodded but said nothing, in part because she didn't trust herself to speak.  Here at the scene of her bizarre seizure, memories of madness floated upon the  air, like poisonous spores, and she half expected to be recontaminated by them,  whereupon she might open her mouth only to hear herself spouting lunacies. When Dusty suggested dinner, Martie pleaded no appetite, but he insisted she  must eat.

In the refrigerator was a casserole with enough leftover lasagna for two. Dusty  heated it in the microwave.

He cleaned and sliced some fresh mushrooms.

The knife looked harmless in his hands.

As Dusty sautéed the mushrooms with butter and diced onion, then stirred them  into a pot with a package of sugar snap peas, Valet sat in front of the  microwave, dreamy-eyed, deeply inhaling the aroma of cooking lasagna.

In light of what Martie had done here a short time ago, this cozy domesticity  struck her as surreal. Like wandering across vast burning fields of sulfur and  coming upon a doughnut shop in Hell.

When Dusty served dinner, Martie wondered if earlier she might have poisoned the  leftover lasagna.

She couldn't recall committing such treachery. But she still suspected that she  suffered fugues: spasms of time during which she functioned as if conscious,  though nothing stuck in her memory.

Certain that Dusty would eat the lasagna just to prove his trust in her, Martie restrained herself and didn't caution him. To guard against the  dismal prospect of surviving dinner alone, she overcame her lack of appetite to  eat most of what he had put on her plate.

She refused a fork, however, and ate with a spoon.

A Biedermeier pedestal stood in one corner of Susan Jagger's bedroom. Atop the  pedestal was a bronze bowl containing a miniature ming tree, which received no  sunshine from the perpetually covered windows but flourished because a small  plant light stood behind it.

At the base of the ming tree was lush ivy with small star-shaped leaves, which  covered the potting soil and trailed over the curves of bronze. After  calculating the best angle of view between bowl and bed, she placed the  camcorder in the container and artfully arranged the trailers of ivy to conceal  it.

She switched off the plant light, leaving on a nightstand lamp. The room  couldn't be dark if she were to get anything useful on tape.

To explain the lamp, she would appear to have fallen asleep while reading. Only  a half-finished glass of wine on the nightstand and an open book, precisely  tumbled among the bedclothes, would be necessary to create that impression. She circled the room, studying the bronze bowl. The camcorder was well hidden.

From one acute angle, an amber reflection of the lamp glowed like animal  eyeshine in the dark lens, as though a cyclopean lizard were peering from the  loops of ivy. This telltale was so small that it wouldn't draw the attention of  either incubus or mere mortal.

Susan returned to the camcorder, slipped one finger into the ivy, searched  briefly, and pressed a button.

She retreated two steps. Stood very still. Head cocked, breath held. Listening. Though the heat was off and no furnace fan was churning, though no wind  whispered in the eaves or at the windows, though the silence in the bedroom was  as complete as one could hope for in this age of omnipresent mechanisms, Susan  couldn't hear the hum of the camcorder motor. Indeed, the equipment fulfilled  the manufacturer's guarantee of whisper-quiet operation, and the faint sibilant sigh of turning tape reels was completely muffled by the shrouding ivy.

Aware that quirks of architecture could cause sound to travel in unexpected  arcs, amplifying it at the end of its bounce, she moved around the room. Five  times she paused to listen, but she could hear nothing suspicious.

Satisfied, Susan returned to the pedestal and extracted the camcorder from the  ivy. She reviewed the recording on the camera's built-in monitor.

The entire bed was visible in the frame. The entrance to the room was captured  at the extreme left side of the image.

She watched herself move in and out of the shot. In and out again. Pausing to  listen for the softly whirring motor.

She was surprised that she appeared so young and attractive.

These days, she didn't see herself this clearly when she looked in mirrors. In  mirrors, she perceived less of a physical reflection than a psychological one: a  Susan Jagger aged by chronic anxiety, features softened and blurred by sixteen  months of reclusion, gray with boredom and gaunt with worry.

This woman on the tape was slim, pretty. More important, she was full of  purpose. This was a woman with hope-and a future.

Pleased, Susan replayed the recording. And here she came once more, out of the  camcorder's iron-oxide memory, moving purposefully around the bedroom, in and  out of frame, pausing to listen: a woman with a plan.

Even a spoon could be a weapon if she reversed her grip on it, held it by the  bowl, and stabbed with the handle. Although not as sharp as a knife, it could be  used to gouge, to blind.

Fits of tremors came and went, causing the spoon to oscillate between Martie's  fingers. Twice it rattled against her plate, as though she were calling for  attention before raising a toast.

She was tempted to put the spoon out of reach and eat with her hands. For fear  of appearing even crazier in Dusty's eyes than she did already, she persevered  with the flatware.

Dinner conversation was awkward. Even after the detailed account she had given  in the living room, he had many questions regarding the panic attack. She grew increasingly reluctant to talk about it.

For one thing, the subject depressed her. Recalling her queer behavior, she felt  helpless, as though she had been cast back to the powerless and dependent  condition of early childhood.

In addition, she was troubled by an irrational but nonetheless firm conviction  that talking about the panic attack would induce another one. She felt as if she  were sitting on a trapdoor, and the longer she talked, the more likely she was  to speak the trigger word that would release the hinges and drop her into an  abyss below.

She asked about his day, and he recited a list of business errands that he  usually attended to when the weather didn't favor housepainting.

Although Dusty never lied, Martie sensed that he wasn't giving her the full  story. Of course, in her current condition, she was too paranoid to trust her  feelings.

Pushing aside his plate, he said, "You keep avoiding my eyes." She didn't deny  it. "I hate for you to see me like this."

"Like what?"

"Weak."

"You aren't weak."

"This lasagna has more spine than I do."

"It's two days old. For lasagna. . . hell, that's eighty-five in human years."

"I feel eighty-five."

He said, "Well, I'm here to testify, you look way better than that damn  lasagna."

"Gee, mister, you sure can charm a girl."

"You know what they say about housepainters."

"What do they say?"

"We know how to roll it on thick." She met his eyes.

He smiled and said, "It's going to be all right, Martie."

"Not unless your jokes get better."

"Weak, my ass."

Walking the battlements of her four-room fortress, Susan Jagger satisfied  herself that all the windows were locked.

The only apartment door opening to the outside world was in the kitchen. It was  protected by two dead bolts and a security chain.

Finished checking the locks, she tipped a kitchen chair onto its back legs and  wedged it under the doorknob. Even if Eric somehow had obtained a key, the chair  would prevent the door from being opened.

Of course, she had tried the chair trick before. It hadn't foiled the intruder. After hiding the camcorder and testing the view angle, she had removed the  battery pack to plug it into a bathroom outlet once more. Now it was fully  charged.

She inserted the battery and hid the camcorder in the ivy under the potted ming  tree. She would switch it on just before she got into bed, and then would have  three hours of tape-in extended mode- on which to catch Eric in the act. All the synchronized clocks agreed on the hour: 9:40 P.M. Martie had promised to  call before eleven o'clock.

Susan remained eager to hear what analysis and advice her friend might offer,  but she wasn't going to tell Martie about the camcorder. Because maybe her phone  was tapped. Maybe Eric was listening.

Oh, how lovely it was here on the dance floor at the Paranoia Cotillion, gliding  around and around in the fearsome embrace of a malevolent stranger, while the  orchestra played a threnody and she grimly worked up the courage to look into  the face of the dancer whose lead she followed.

29

Two glasses of Scotch, a brick of lasagna, and the events of this terrible day  left Martie half numb with exhaustion. As Dusty cleaned up the dinner dishes,  she sat at the table, watching him from under heavy eyelids.

She had expected to lie awake until dawn, racked by anxiety, dreading the  future. But now her mind rebelled at assuming an even heavier burden of worry;  it was shutting down for the night.

A new fear of sleepwalking was the only thing preventing her from nodding off  here at the kitchen table. Somnambulism had never previously afflicted her, but  then she had never suffered a panic attack until this morning, either, and now  all things were possible.

If she walked in her sleep, perhaps that Other Martie would control her body.  Slipping out of bed, leaving Dusty to dream on, the Other might descend barefoot  through the house, as comfortable as the blind in darkness, to extract a clean  knife from the utensils basket in the dishwasher.

Dusty took her hand and led her through the downstairs, turning off lights as  they went. Valet padded after them, his eyes red and shining in the gloom. Having brought Martie's raincoat from the kitchen, Dusty paused to hang it in  the foyer closet.

Sensing a weight in one of the coat pockets, he fished out the paperback book.

"Are you still reading this?" he asked.

"It's a real thriller."

"But you've been taking it to Susan's sessions forever."

"Not all that long." She yawned. "The writing's good."

"A real thriller-but you can't get through it in six months?"

"It hasn't been six months, has it? No. Can't be. The plot is entertaining. The  characters are colorful. I'm enjoying it."

He was frowning at her. "What's wrong with you?"

"Plenty. But, right now, mostly I'm just so damn tired."

Handing the book to her, he said, "Well, if you have trouble going to sleep,  obviously a page of this is better than Nembutal."

To sleep: perchance to walk, to knife, to burn.

Valet preceded them up the stairs.

As Martie ascended with one hand on the banister and Dusty's supportive arm  around her waist, she took some comfort from the realization that the dog might  wake her if she went sleepwalking. Good Valet would lick her bare feet, slap his  handsome tail against her legs as she went down the stairs, and certainly bark  at her if she withdrew a butcher knife from the dishwasher without using it to  carve a snack for him from the brisket in the refrigerator.

Susan dressed for bed in simple white cotton panties-no embroidery or lace, no  adornment of any kind-and a white T-shirt.

Prior to the past few months, she had favored colorful lingerie with frills. She  had enjoyed feeling sexy. No more.

She understood the psychology behind her change in sleepwear. Sexiness was now  linked in her mind to rape. Appliquéd lace, fimbria, furbelow, plicated selvage,  bargello stitchery, point de gaze, and the like might offer encouragement to her  mysterious postmidnight visitor; he might interpret frills as an invitation to  further abuse.

For a while she had gone to bed in men's pajamas, loose and ugly, and then in  baggy exercise cottons. The creep hadn't been turned off by either.

In fact, after undressing her and brutally using her, he took the time to  re-dress her with attention to detail that was obvious mockery. If she had  buttoned every button on her pajama top before going to bed, he buttoned each;  but if she had left one unbuttoned, the same remained unbuttoned when she woke. He retied the waistband drawstring in  precisely the bow knot that she had used.

These days, simple white cotton. An assertion of her innocence. A refusal to be  degraded or soiled, regardless of what he did to her.

Dusty was worried about Martie's sudden torpor. She pleaded bone-deep weariness,  but judging by her demeanor, she was succumbing less to exhaustion than to  profound depression.

She moved sluggishly, not with the loose-limbed awkwardness of exhaustion, but  with the grim and determined plodding of one who labored under a crushing  burden. Her face was tight, pinched at the corners of the mouth and eyes, rather  than slack with fatigue.

Martie was only a half step down the ladder from fanaticism when it came to  dental hygiene, but this evening she didn't want to bother brushing her teeth.  In three years of marriage, this was a first.

On every night in Dusty's memory, Martie washed her face and applied a  moisturizing lotion. Brushed her hair. Not this time.

Forgoing her nightly rituals, she went to bed fully dressed.

When Dusty realized she was not going to take off her clothes, he untied her  laces and removed her shoes. Her socks. Skinned off her jeans. She didn't  resist, but she didn't cooperate, either.

Getting Martie out of her blouse was too difficult, especially as she lay on her  side, knees drawn up, arms crossed on her breasts. Leaving her partially  dressed, Dusty pulled the covers over her shoulders, smoothed her hair back from  her face, kissed her brow.

Her eyelids drooped, but in her eyes was something more stark and sharp-edged  than weariness.

"Don't leave me," she said thickly.

"I won't."

"Don't trust me."

"But I do."

"Don't sleep."

"Martie-"

"Promise me. Don't sleep."

"All right."

"Promise."

I promise.

"Because I might kill you in your sleep," she said, and closed her eyes, which  seemed to change from cornflower-blue to cyanine and then to purple madder just  as her eyelids slipped shut.

He stood watching her, frightened not by her warning, not for himself, but for  her.

She mumbled, "Susan."

"What about her?"

"Just remembered. Didn't tell you about Susan. Strange stuff. Supposed to call  her."

"You can call her in the morning."

"What sort of friend am I?" she muttered.

"She'll understand. Just rest now. Just rest."

In seconds, Martie appeared to be asleep, lips parted, breathing through her  mouth. The pinched lines of anxiety were gone from the corners of her eyes.

Twenty minutes later, Dusty was sitting up in bed, combing back through the  tangled story that Martie had told him, trying to pull the burs out and smooth  it into a fully intelligible narrative, when the telephone rang. In the interest  of uninterrupted sleep, they kept the ringer switched off in the bedroom, and  what he heard now was the phone in Martie's office down the hall; the answering  machine picked up after the second ring.

He assumed Susan was calling, though it might have been Skeet or one of the  staff at New Life. Ordinarily, he would have gone to Martie's office to monitor  the incoming message, but he didn't want her to wake up while he was out of the  room and discover that he had broken his promise to remain with her. Skeet was  safe in good hands, and whatever "strange stuff" was going on with Susan, it  couldn't be any stranger or more important than what had transpired right here  this evening. It could wait until morning.

Dusty turned his attention once more to what Martie had told him of her day. As  he worried at each bizarre event and quirky detail, he was overcome by the  peculiar conviction that what had happened to his wife was somehow associated  with what happened to his brother. He sensed parallel oddities in both events,  though the precise nature of the connections eluded him. Undeniably, this was  the strangest day of his life, and instinct told him that Skeet and Martie had  not unraveled simultaneously by mere coincidence.

In one corner of the room, Valet was curled on his bed, a large sheepskin-covered pillow, but he remained awake. He lay with his chin propped on  one paw, intently watching his mistress sleeping in the golden lamplight.

Because Martie had never failed to keep a commitment and thus had banked a lot  of moral capital, Susan didn't feel aggrieved when the promised phone call  failed to come in by eleven o'clock; however, she was uneasy. She placed her own  call, got an answering machine, and grew worried.

No doubt Martie had been rocked and mystified by Susan's claim of a phantom  rapist to whom locked doors were no impediment. She'd asked to be given some  time to think. But Martie wasn't prone either to waffle or to be unnecessarily  diplomatic. By now she would have arrived at some considered advice-or would  have called to say she needed more convincing if she were to believe this tall,  tall story.

"It's me," Susan told the answering machine. "What's wrong? You okay? You think  I'm nuts? It's all right if you do. Call me."

She waited a few seconds, then hung up.

Most likely, Martie would not have suggested a course of action with more  potential for success than the camcorder sting, so Susan went forward with her  preparations.

She placed a half-full glass of wine on the nightstand, not to be drunk, but as  a prop.

She settled into bed with a book, sitting up against a pile of pillows. She was  too nervous to read.

For a while she watched an old movie on TV, Dark Passage, but she couldn't  concentrate on the story. Her mind wandered down darker and more frightening  alleyways than any that Bogart and Bacall had ever traveled.

Although Susan was preternaturally alert, she recalled other nights when  apparent insomnia had abruptly given way to unnaturally deep sleep-and to  victimization. If she was secretly being drugged, she couldn't predict when the  chemicals might kick in, and she did not want to wake up to discover that she  had been violated and that she had failed to activate the camcorder.

At midnight, she went to the Biedermeier pedestal, slipped one finger into the  ivy under the little ming tree, started the videotape rolling, and returned to bed. If she was still awake at one o'clock, she would  rewind the cassette and start recording from the beginning, and again at two and  three o'clock, so in the event that she slept, there would be less of a chance  that the tape would run out before the creep entered the room.

She switched off the television, the better to support the  fell-asleep-while-reading scenario, but also because it might mask sounds  arising elsewhere in the apartment.

After less than a minute of silence, as she was about to pick up the book, the  telephone rang. Assuming that Martie was calling, Susan answered. "Hello?"

"This is Ben Marco."

As though Ben Marco were a magic mason whose very voice could conjure stone and  mortar, sudden walls of granite seemed to enclose Susan's heart, confining it,  pressing upon auricles and ventricles. Even as her heart rapped frantically  against its prison, her mind opened as if it were a house from which the roof  had been torn away by a cyclone; suddenly as wispy as dust and cobwebs, her  thoughts dispersed on an updraft, and into her head, from the black infinity  above, sifted a whispering darkness, an irresistible Presence that glided, as  invisible and cold as a haunting spirit, first through the attic of her mind and  then down, down into deeper regions.

"I'm listening," Susan told Ben Marco.

At once her racing heart began to settle, and in her blood, the insectile  twitching of fear subsided.

And now the rides.

He said, "The winter storm-"

"The storm is you," she replied.

"-hid in the bamboo grove-"

"The grove is me."

"-and quieted away."

"In the quiet, I will learn what is wanted," Susan said.

The Winter storm

hid in the bamboo grove

and quieted away.

Beautiful, really.

With the litany of the rules completed, Susan Jagger was awash in a sea of quiet: the apartment profoundly silent around her, all hushed within  her, as soundless as the lifeless void must have been only an instant before  Creation, when God had not yet said, Let there be light.

When the winter storm spoke again, his soft deep voice seemed not to come from  the telephone but from within Susan. "Tell me where you are."

"In bed."

"I believe you're alone. Tell me if I'm correct."

"You are."

"Let me in."

"Yes."

"Quickly."

Susan put down the phone, got out of bed, and hurried through the dark  apartment.

In spite of her quickened pace, her heartbeat continued to grow slower: strong,  steady, calm.

In the kitchen, the only light was green and pale, issuing from the numerals on  the digital clocks in the microwave and in the oven. The inky shadows didn't  hinder her. For too many months, this small apartment had been her world; and  she was as intimately familiar with it as if she'd been raised here blind since  birth.

A chair was wedged firmly under the doorknob. She removed it and slid it aside,  and the wooden legs squeaked faintly on the tile floor.

The slide bolt at the end of the brass security chain rasped out of the slot in  the latch plate. When she let go, the links rattled against the door casing. She disengaged the first dead bolt. The second.

She opened the door.

A storm he was, and wintry, too, waiting on the landing at the head of the  stairs, quiet now but filled with the rage of hurricanes, a fury usually well  hidden from the world but always churning in him, revealed in his most private  moments, and as he crossed the threshold into the kitchen, forcing her backward,  shoving the door shut behind him, he clamped one strong hand around her slender  throat.

30

The left and right common carotid arteries, providing the principal blood supply  to the neck and head, arise directly from the aorta, which itself arises from  the upper surface of the left ventricle. Having so recently departed the heart,  the blood surging through both vessels is particularly rich in oxygen and is  driven with force.

Hand cupped around the front of Susan's throat, fingers spread along the left  side of her neck, the pad of his thumb pressed just under her jawbone and over  her right carotid, Dr. Mark Ahriman held her thus for perhaps a minute, enjoying  the strong, steady throb of her pulse. She was so wonderfully full of life. If he'd wanted to strangle her to death, he could have done so without fear of  resistance. In this altered state of consciousness, she would stand, docile and  unprotesting, while he choked the life out of her. She would ease to her knees  when she could no longer stand, and then fold quietly into a graceful mound on  the floor as her heart stuttered to a stop, apologizing with her eyes for being  unable to die on her feet and, therefore, requiring him to kneel with her as he  finished the job.

In fact, while dying, Susan Jagger would favor Dr. Ahriman with whatever  attitude and expression he requested. Childlike adoration. Erotic rapture.  Impotent rage or even lamblike meekness with a glaze of bafflement, if either of  those responses amused him.

He had no intention of killing her. Not here, not now-though soon.

When the time inevitably came, he wouldn't act directly to snuff Susan, because  he had great respect for the scientific-investigation division of virtually any  contemporary American police agency. When wet work was required, he always used  intermediaries to deliver the death blow, sparing himself the risk of suspicion.

Besides, his purest bliss came from clever manipulation, not directly from  mutilation and murder. Pulling the trigger, shoving in the knife, twisting the  wire garrote-none of that would thrill him as keenly as using someone to commit  atrocities on his behalf.

Power is a sharper thrill than violence.

More precisely, his greatest delight arose not from the end effect of using  power but from the process of using it. Manipulation. Control. The act of  exerting absolute control, pulling strings and watching people perform as  commanded, was so profoundly gratifying to the doctor that in his finest moments  of puppeteering, plangent peals of pleasure shook through him like great gongs  of sound shivering the cast bronze of massive cathedral bells.

Susan's throat beneath his hand reminded him of a long-ago thrill, of another  slender and graceful throat that had been torn by a pike, and with this memory  came a tintinnabulation through the bone bells of his spine.

In Scottsdale, Arizona, stands a Palladian mansion in which a willowy young  heiress named Minette Luckland pounds her mother's skull to mush with a hammer  and shortly thereafter shoots her father in the back of the head while he is  eating a slice of crumb cake and watching a rerun of Seinfeld. Subsequently, she  leaps from a second-floor gallery, free-falling eighteen feet, impaling herself  on a spear held by a statue of Diana, goddess of the moon and the hunt, which  stands on aflutedplinth in the center of the entry rotunda. The suicide note,  indisputably written in Minette's own neat band, claims that she has been  sexually abused since childhood by both parents-an outrageous slander that Dr  Ahriman had suggested to her Around Diana's bronze feet: spatters of blood like  red plum-flower petals on white marble floorNow, standing half naked in the shadowy kitchen, green eyes reflecting the faint  green light of the digital clock in the nearby oven, Susan Jagger was even  lovelier than the late Minette. Although her face and form were the stuff of an  erotomaniac's sweat-drenched dreams, Ahriman was less excited by her looks than  by the knowledge that in her lithe limbs and supple body was a lethal potential as great as that  unleashed in Scottsdale so many years ago.

Her right carotid artery throbbed against the doctor's thumb, her pulse slow and  thick. Fifty-six beats per minute.

She was not afraid. She was calmly awaiting use, as though she were an  unthinking tool-or, more accurately, a toy.

By using the trigger name Ben Marco and then by reciting the conditioning haiku,  Ahriman had transferred her into an altered state of consciousness. A layman  might have used the term hypnotic trance, which to a certain extent it was. A  clinical psychologist would have diagnosed it as a fugue, which was closer to  the truth.

Neither term was adequately defining.

Once Ahriman recited the haiku, Susan's personality was more deeply and firmly  repressed than if she were hypnotized. In this peculiar condition, she was no  longer Susan Jagger in any meaningful sense, but a nonentity, a meat machine  whose mind was a blank hard-drive waiting for whatever software Ahriman chose to  install.

If she had been in a classic fugue state, which is a serious personality  disassociation, she would have appeared to function almost normally, with a few  eccentric behaviors but with far less detachment than she now exhibited.

"Susan," he said, "do you know who I am?"

"Do I?" she asked, her voice fragile and distant.

In this state, she was incapable of answering any question, because she was  waiting to be told what he wanted of her, what act she must commit, and even how  she must feel about it.

"Am I your psychiatrist, Susan?"

In the gloom, he could almost see the puzzlement on her face. "Are you?"

Until she was released from this state, she would respond only to commands.

He said, "Tell me your name."

Receiving this direct instruction, she was free to provide whatever knowledge  she possessed. "Susan Jagger."

"Tell me who I am."

"Dr. Ahriman."

"Am I your psychiatrist?"

"Are you?"

"Tell me my profession."

"You're a psychiatrist."

This more-than-trance-not-quite-fugue state had not been easily engineered. Much  hard work and professional dedication had been required to remake her into this  pliant plaything.

Eighteen months ago, before he had been her psychiatrist, on three separate  carefully orchestrated occasions, without Susan's knowledge, Ahriman had  administered to her a potent brew of drugs:

Rohypnol, phencyclidine, Valium, and one marvelous cerebrotropic substance not  listed in any published pharmacopoeia. The recipe was his own, and he personally  compounded each dose from the stock in his private and quite illegal pharmacy,  because the ingredients must be precisely balanced if the desired effect were to  be achieved.

The drugs themselves had not reduced Susan to her current obedient condition,  but each dose had rendered her semiconscious, unaware of her situation, and  supremely malleable. While she had been in this twilight sleep, Ahriman had been  able to bypass her conscious mind, where volitional thinking occurred, and speak  to her deep subconscious, where conditioned reflexes were established and where  he met no resistance.

What he had done to her during those three long sessions would tempt tabloid  newspapers and writers of spy novels to use the word brainwashing, but it was  nothing as twentieth-century as that. He had not torn down the structure of her  mind, with the intention of rebuilding it in a new architecture. That  approach-once favored by the Soviet, the Chinese, and the North Korean  governments, among others-was too ambitious, demanding months of  around-the-clock access to the subject in a dreary prison environment, with lots  of tedious psychological torture, not to mention a tolerance for the wretch's  annoying screams and cowardly pleading. Dr. Ahriman's IQ was high, but his  boredom threshold was low. Besides, the rate of success using traditional  brainwashing techniques was uninspiring and the degree of control seldom total. Rather, the doctor had gone down into Susan's subconscious, into the cellar, and  he had added a new chamber-call it a secret chapel-of which her conscious mind  remained unaware. There, he conditioned her to worship one god to the exclusion  of all others, and that god was Mark Ahriman himself. He was a stern deity,  preChristian in his denial of free will, intolerant of the slightest  disobedience, merciless with transgressors.

Thereafter, he had never again drugged her. There was no need to do so anymore.  In those three sessions, he had established the control devices-the Marco name,  the haiku-that instantly repressed her personality and took her to the same deep  realms of her psyche to which the chemicals had taken her.

In the final drug session, he also implanted her agoraphobia. He thought it was  an interesting malady, ensuring satisfying drama and many colorful effects as  she gradually cracked apart and finally came to ruin. The whole point, after  all, was entertainment.

Now, with his hand still upon Susan's throat, he said, "I don't think I'll be  myself this time. Something kinky tonight. Do you know who I am, Susan?"

"Who are you?"

"I'm your father," Ahriman said. She did not reply.

He said, "Tell me who I am." "You're my father."

"Call me Daddy," he instructed.

Her voice remained distant, devoid of emotion, because he had not yet told her  how she was required to feel about this scenario. "Yes, Daddy."

Her carotid pulse, under his right thumb, remained slow.

"Tell me the color of my hair, Susan."

Although the kitchen was too dark for her to determine his hair color, she said,  "Blond."

Ahriman's hair was salt-and-pepper, but Susan's father was indeed a blond.

"Tell me the color of my eyes."

"Green like mine."

Ahriman's eyes were hazel.

With his right hand still pressed to Susan's throat, the doctor leaned down and  kissed her almost chastely.

Her mouth was slack. She was not an active participant in the kiss; in fact, she  was so passive that she might as well have been catatonic if not comatose.

Biting gently at her lips, then forcing his tongue between them, he kissed her  as no father should ever kiss a daughter, and although her mouth remained slack  and her carotid pulse did not accelerate, he sensed her breath catch in her  throat.

"How do you feel about this, Susan?"

"How do you want me to feel?"

Smoothing her hair with one hand, he said, "Deeply ashamed, humiliated. Full of  terrible sorrow. . . and a little resentful at being used like this by your own  father. Dirty, debased. And yet obedient, ready to do what you're told. . .  because you're also aroused against your will. You have a sick, hungry need that  you want to deny but cant.

Again he kissed her, and this time she tried to close her mouth to him; she  relented, however, and her mouth softened, opened. She put her hands against his  chest, to fend him off, but her resistance was weak, childlike.

Under his thumb, the pulse in her right carotid artery raced like that of a hare  in the shadow of a hound.

"Daddy, no."

The reflection of green light in Susan's green eyes glistered with a new watery  depth.

Those shimmering fathoms produced a subtle fragrance, faintly bitter, briny, and  this familiar scent caused the doctor to swell with fierce desire.

He lowered his right hand from her throat to her waist, holding her close.

"Please," she whispered, managing to make that one word both a protest and a  nervous invitation.

Ahriman breathed deeply, then lowered his mouth to her face. The reliability of  a predator's sense of smell was confirmed: Her cheeks were wet and salty.

"Lovely."

With a series of quick little kisses, he moistened his lips on her damp skin,  and then explored his flavored lips with the tip of his tongue.

Both hands around her waist now, he lifted her and carried her backward, until  he was pressing her between his body and the refrigerator.

"Please" again, and then once more "please," the dear girl so conflicted that  eagerness and dread spiced her voice in equal measure.

Susan's weeping was accompanied by neither whimper nor sob, and the doctor  savored these silent streams, seeking to slake the thirst that he could never satisfy. He licked a salty pearl from the corner of her  mouth, licked another from the flared rim of a nostril, and then suckled on the  droplets beaded across her eyelashes, relishing the flavor as though this would  be his sole sustenance for the day, Letting go of her waist, stepping back from her, he said, "Go to your bedroom,  Susan."

Sinuous shadow, she moved like hot tears, clear and bitter.

The doctor followed, admiring her graceful walk, to her bed in Hell.

31

Valet dozed, twitching and snuffling in the company of phantom rabbits, but  Martie lay in stone-still silence, as though she were a death sculpture upon a  catafalque.

Her sleep seemed deeper than possible in the turbulent wake of the day's events,  and it was reminiscent of Skeet's plumbless slumber in his room at New Life.

Sitting up in bed, barefoot, in jeans and a T-shirt, Dusty once more sorted  through the fourteen pages that had come from the notepad in Skeet's kitchen,  brooding on the name Dr Yen Lo in all thirty-nine renditions.

That name, when spoken, had seemed to traumatize Skeet, causing him to lapse  into a twilight consciousness in which he answered every question with a  question of his own. Open eyes jiggling as in REM sleep, he responded  directly-if often cryptically-only to questions that were framed as statements  or commands. When Dusty's frustration had led him to say Ah, give me a break and  go to sleep, Skeet dropped into an abyss as abruptly as a narcoleptic responding  instantaneously to the flipping of an electrochemical switch in the brain.

Of the many curious aspects of Skeet's behavior, one currently interested Dusty  more than any other: the kid's failure to remember anything that had happened  between the moment when he had heard the name Dr Yen Lo and, minutes later, when  he had obeyed Dusty's unthinking demand that he go to sleep. Selective amnesia  might be blamed. But it was more as though Skeet had conducted the conversation with  Dusty while in a blackout.

Martie had spoken of her suspicion that she was "missing time," from her day,  though she could not identify precisely when any gap or gaps had occurred.

Fearful that she had opened the gas valve in the fireplace without lighting the  ceramic logs, she had repeatedly returned to the living room with an urgent  conviction that a furious explosion was imminent. Although the valve had always  been tightly closed, she continued to be troubled by a perception that her  memory had been nibbled like a holey woolen scarf beset by moths.

Dusty had witnessed his brother's blackout. And he sensed truth in Martie's fear  of having fallen into a fugue.

Perhaps a link.

This had been an extraordinary day. The two people dearest to Dusty's heart had  suffered quite different but equally dramatic episodes of aberrant behavior. The  odds of such serious-even if temporary-psychological collapse striking twice,  this close, were surely a great deal smaller than the one-in-eighteen-million  chance of winning the state lottery.

He supposed that the average citizen of our brave new millennium would think  this was a grim coincidence. At most they would consider it an example of the  curious patterns that the grinding machinery of the universe sometimes randomly  produces as a useless by-product of its mindless laboring.

To Dusty, however, who perceived mysterious design in everything from the color  of daffodils to Valet's pure joy in pursuit of a ball, there was no such thing  as coincidence. The link was tantalizing-though difficult to fathom. And  frightening.

He put the pages of Skeet's notepad on his nightstand and picked up a notepad of  his own. On the top page, he had printed the lines of the haiku that his brother  had referred to as the rules.

Clear cascades

into the waves scatter

blue pine needles.

Skeet was the waves. According to him, the blue pine needles were missions. The  clear cascades were Dusty or Yen Lo, or perhaps anyone who invoked the haiku in  Skeet's presence.

At first everything that Skeet said seemed to be gibberish, but the longer Dusty  puzzled over it, the more he sensed structure and purpose waiting to be  discerned. For some reason, he began to perceive the haiku as a sort of  mechanism, a simple device with a powerful effect, the verbal equivalent of a  compressor-driven paint sprayer or a nail gun.

Give a nail gun to a carpenter from the preindustrial age, and although he might  intuit that it was a tool, he would be unlikely to understand its purpose-until  he accidentally fired a nail through his foot. The possibility of  unintentionally causing psychological harm to his brother motivated Dusty to  contemplate the haiku at length, until he understood the use of this tool,  before deciding whether to explore further its effect on Skeet.

Missions.

To grasp the purpose of the haiku, he had to understand, at the very least, what  Skeet had meant by missions.

Dusty was certain he precisely remembered the haiku and the kid's odd  interpretation, because he was blessed with a photographic and audio-retentive  memory of such high reliability that he cruised through high school and one year  of college with a perfect 4.0 grade average, before deciding that he could  experience life more fully as a housepainter than as an academic.

Missions.

Dusty considered synonyms. Task. Work. Chore. Job. Calling. Vocation. Career  Church.

None of them furthered his understanding.

From the big sheepskin pillow in the corner, Valet whimpered anxiously, as  though the rabbits in his dreams had grown fangs and were now doing the dog's  work while he played rabbit in the chase.

Martie was too zonked to be roused by the dog's thin squeals.

Sometimes, however, Valet's nightmares escalated until he woke with a terrified  bark.

"Easy boy. Easy boy," Dusty whispered.

Even in dreams, the retriever seemed to hear his master's voice, and his  whimpering subsided.

"Easy. Good boy. Good Valet."

Although the dog didn't wake, his feathery plumed tail swished across the  sheepskin a few times before curling close around him once more.

Martie and the dog slept on peacefully, but suddenly Dusty sat up from the  pillows piled against the headboard, the very thought of sleep banished by a  rattling insight. Mulling over the haiku, he'd been fully awake, but by  comparison to this wide-eyed state, he might as well have been drowsing. He was  now hyperalert, as cold as if he had ice water for spinal fluid.

He had been reminded of another moment with the dog, earlier in the day.

Valet stands in the kitchen, at the connecting door to the garage, ready to ride  shotgun on the trip to Skeet's apartment, patiently fanning the air with his  plumed tail while Dusty pulls on a hooded nylon jacket.

The phone rings. Someone peddling subscriptions to the Los Angeles Times.

When Dusty racks the wall phone after only a few seconds, be turns toward the  door to the garage and discovers that Valet is no longer standing, but lying on  his side at the threshold, as though ten minutes have passed, as if he has been  napping.

"You had a shot of chicken protein, golden one. Let's see some vigor"

With a long-suffering sigh, Valet gets to his feet.

Dusty was able to move through the scene in his mind's eye as though it were  three-dimensional, studying the golden retriever with acute attention to detail.

Indeed, he could see the moment more clearly now than he'd seen it then: In  retrospect the dog obviously, inarguably had been napping.

Even with his eidetic and audile memory, he could not recall whether the Times  salesperson had been a man or woman. He had no memory of what he had said on the  phone or of what had been said to him, just a vague impression that he had been  the target of a phone-sales campaign.

At the time, he had attributed his uncharacteristic memory lapse to stress.  Taking a header off a roof, watching your brother suffer a breakdown before your  eyes: This stuff was bound to mess with your mind.

If he had been on the phone five or ten minutes instead of a few seconds,  however, he couldn't possibly have been speaking with anyone in the Times  subscription-sales operation. What the hell would they have talked about for so  long? Typefaces? The cost of newsprint? Johannes Gutenberg-What a cool guy!-and  the invention of movable type? The tremendous effectiveness of the Times as a puppy-training aid in Valet's early days, its singular convenience, its  remarkable absorbency, its admirable service as an environment-friendly and  fully biodegradable poop wrap?

During the minutes that Valet had settled down to nap at the connecting door to  the garage, Dusty either had been on the phone with someone other than a Times  salesperson or had been on the phone only a few seconds and had been engaged in  some other task the rest of the time.

A task that he could not remember.

Missing time.

Impossible. Not me, too.

Ants with urgent purpose, busy bustling multitudes, seemed to be swarming up his  legs, down his arms, across his back, and although he knew that no ants had  invaded the bed, that what he felt was the nerve endings in his skin responding  to the sudden dimpling from a case of universal gooseflesh, he brushed at his  arms and at the back of his neck, as if to cast off an army of six-legged  soldiers.

Unable to sit still, he got quietly to his feet, but he couldn't stand still,  either, and so he paced, but here and there the floor squeaked under the carpet,  and he could not pace quietly, so he eased into bed again and sat motionless,  after all. His skin was cool and antless now. But things were crawling along the  surface convolutions of his brain: a new and unwelcome sense of vulnerability,  an X Files perception that unknown presences, strange and hostile, had entered  his life.

32

Tear-damp flush of face, white cotton so sweetly curved, bare knees together.  Susan was sitting on the edge of the bed, waiting.

Ahriman sat across the room from her, in an armchair upholstered with  peach-colored moire silk. He was in no hurry to have her.

Even as a young boy, he had understood that the cheapest toy was fundamentally  like one of his father's expensive antique automobiles. As much pleasure could  be taken from the leisurely study of it-from the appreciation of its lines and  fine details-as from its use. In fact, to truly possess a plaything, to be a  worthy master of it, one must understand the art of its form, not merely the  thrill of its function.

The art of Susan Jagger's form was twofold: physical, of course, and  psychological. Her face and body were exceptionally beautiful. But there was  beauty in her mind, too-in her personality and in her intellect.

As a toy, she also had a twofold function, and the first was sexual. Tonight and  for a few more nights, Ahriman would use her savagely and at length.

Her second function was to suffer and die well. As a plaything, she had already  given him considerable delight with her courageous if hopeless battle to  overcome agoraphobia, her anguish and despair as rich as marzipan. Her brave  determination to keep her sense of humor and to win back her life was pathetic  and therefore delectable. Soon he would enhance and complicate her phobia,  sending her into a swift and irreversible decline, and then he would enjoy the final- and  sharpest-thrill that she was capable of providing.

Now she sat tearful and timid, conflicted by the prospect of imagined incest,  repulsed and yet full of a sick sweet yearning, as programmed. Trembling. From time to time, her eyes jiggled, the telltale REM that marked the deepest  state of personality submersion. It distracted the doctor and compromised her  beauty.

Susan already knew the roles they were playing tonight, knew what was expected  of her in this erotic scenario, so Ahriman brought her closer to the surface,  though nowhere near to full consciousness. Just far enough to put an end to the  spasms of rapid eye movement.

"Susan, I want you to move out of the chapel now," he said, referring to that  imaginary place in her deepest subconscious where he had taken her for  instruction. "Come out and move up the stairs, but not too far, one flight,  where a little more light filters down. There, right there."

Her eyes were like clear ponds made murky by the reflections of gray clouds on  their surfaces, suddenly touched by a few faint beams of sunshine, and now  revealing greater depths.

"What you're wearing still appeals to me," he said. "White cotton. The  simplicity." Several visits ago, he had instructed her to dress for bed in this  fashion until he suggested something different; the look excited him. "The  innocence. Purity. Like a child, yet so incredibly ripe."

The roses in her cheeks blossomed brighter, and she lowered her eyes demurely.

Tears of shame, like beads of dew, quivered on the petals of the blush.

She actually saw her father when she dared to look at the doctor. Such was the  power of suggestion when Ahriman spoke to her one-on-one in the deep sanctity of  that mind chapel.

When they were finished playing tonight, he would instruct her to forget all  that had happened from the moment he phoned until he left her apartment. She  would recall neither his visit nor this fantasy of incest.

If he chose to do so, however, Ahriman could concoct for Susan a detailed  history of sexual abuse at the hands of her father. Many hours would be required  to weave that lurid narrative through the tapestry of her real memories, but  thereafter he could instruct her to believe in her lifelong victimization and gradually to "recover" those repressed  traumas during her therapy sessions.

If her belief drove her to report her father to the police, and if they asked  her to submit to a lie-detector test, she would respond to each question with  unwavering conviction and precisely the correct shadings of emotion. Her  respiration, blood pressure, pulse, and her galvanic skin response would  convince any polygraph examiner that she was telling the truth, because she  would be convinced that her vile accusations were indeed factual in every  detail.

Ahriman had no intention of toying with her in that fashion. He had enjoyed that  game with other subjects; but it bored him now.

"Look at me, Susan."

She raised her head. Her eyes met his, and the doctor recalled a bit of verse by  e. e. cummings: In your eyes there lives / a green egyptian noise.

"Next time," he said, "I'll bring my camcorder, and we'll make another  videotape. Do you remember the first one I shot of you?"

Susan shook her head.

"That's because I've forbidden you to remember. You so debased yourself that any  memory of it might have left you suicidal. I wasn't ready for you to be suicidal  yet."

Her gaze slid away from him. She stared at the miniature ming tree in the pot  atop the Biedermeier pedestal.

He said, "One more tape to remember you by. Next time. I've been giving my  imagination a workout. You'll be a very dirty girl next time, Susie. It'll make  the first tape look like Disney."

Keeping a video record of his most outrageous puppetry was not wise. He stored  this incriminating evidence-currently totaling 121 tapes-in a locked and  well-hidden vault, although if the wrong people suspected its existence, they  would tear his house apart board by board, stone by stone, until they found his  archives.

He took the risk because he was at heart a sentimentalist, with a nostalgic  yearning for days past, old friends, discarded toys.

Life is a train ride, and at the many stations along the route, people important  to us debark, never to get aboard again, until by the end of our journey, we sit  in a passenger car where most of the seats are empty. This truth saddens the  doctor no less than it does other men and women who are given to  reflection-although his sorrow is undeniably of a quality different from theirs.

"Look at me, Susan."

She continued to stare at the potted plant on the pedestal.

"Don't be willful. Look at your father now."

Her tearful gaze flowed away from the lacy ming tree, and upon it she floated a  plea to be allowed at least some small measure of dignity, which Dr. Ahriman  noted, enjoyed, and disregarded.

Undoubtedly, one evening long after Susan Jagger is dead, the nostalgic doctor  will think fondly of her, and will be overcome by a wistful desire to hear her  musical voice again, to see her lovely face, to relive the many good times they  had together. This is his weakness.

He will indulge himself, on that evening, by resorting to his video archives.  He'll be warmed and gladdened to see Susan engaged in acts so sordid, so  squalid, that they transform her almost as dramatically as a lycanthrope is  transformed in the fullness of the moon. In these wallows of obscenity, her  radiant beauty dims sufficiently to allow the doctor to see clearly the  essential animal that lives within her, the pre evolutionary beast, groveling  and yet cunning, fearful and yet fearsome, darkling in her heart.

Besides, even if he did not get so much pleasure from reviewing these home  movies, he would maintain his videotape archives, because he is by nature an  indefatigable collector. Room after room in his rambling house is dedicated to  displays of the toys that he has so tirelessly acquired over the years: armies  of toy soldiers; charming hand-painted, cast-iron cars; coin-operated mechanical  banks; plastic playsets with thousands of miniature figures, from Roman  gladiators to astronauts.

"Get up, girl."

She rose from the bed.

"Turn."

Slowly she turned, slowly for his examination.

"Oh, yes," he said, "I want more of you on tape for posterity. And perhaps a  little blood next time, a minor bit of self-mutilation. In fact, bodily fluids  in general could be the theme. Very messy, very degenerate. That should be fun.  I'm sure that you agree."

Again, she favored the ming tree over his eyes, but this was a passive  disobedience, for she looked at him again when commanded to do so.

"If you think that will be fun, tell me so," he insisted.

"Yes, Daddy. Fun."

He instructed her to get on her knees, and she settled to the floor.

"Crawl to me, Susan."

Like a gear-driven figure on a mechanical bank, as though she had a coin gripped  in her teeth and were following a rigorous track toward a deposit slot, she  approached the armchair, face painted with realistic tears, a superb example of  her kind, an acquisition that would delight any collector.

33

The Moment When Dusty Had Noticed the Napping Dog bad been scissored from the  earlier Moment When the Kitchen Phone Had Rung, and no matter how many times he  replayed the scene in his mind, he could not tie together those severed threads  of his day. One moment the dog stood, tail wagging, and the next moment the dog  was waking from a short sleep. Missing minutes. Spent talking to whom? Doing  what?

He was replaying the episode yet again, concentrating on the dark hole between  when he'd picked up the phone and when he'd put it down, striving to bridge the  memory gap, when beside him on the bed, Martie began to groan in her sleep.

"Easy. It's okay. Easy now," he whispered, lightly placing a hand on her  shoulder, trying to gentle her out of the nightmare and into untroubled sleep  again, much as he had done for Valet earlier.

She would not be gentled. As her groans became whimpers, she shuddered, kicking  feebly at the entangling sheets, and as whimpers skirled into shrill cries, she  thrashed, abruptly sat up, flung off the bedclothes, and shot to her feet, no  longer squealing in terror, but choking, gagging thickly, on the queasy verge of  regurgitation, vigorously scrubbing at her mouth with both hands, as though  repulsed by something on the menu in a dream feast.

Up and moving almost as explosively as Martie, Dusty started around the bed,  aware of Valet alert beyond her.

She swung toward him: "Stay away from me!"

Such emotion rushed through her voice that Dusty halted, and the dog began to  shake, the hair standing straight up along the length of his withers.

Still wiping at her mouth, Martie looked at her hands, as if she expected to see  them gloved in fresh blood-and perhaps not her own. "Oh, God, oh, my God."

Dusty moved toward her, and again she ordered him to stay away, no less fiercely  than before. "You can't trust me, you can't get near me, don't think you can."

"It was only a nightmare."

"This is the nightmare."

"Martie-"

Convulsively, she bent forward, gagging on the memory of the dream, then letting  out a miserable groan of disgust and anguish.

Despite her warning, Dusty went to her, and when he touched her, she recoiled  violently, shoving him away. "Don't trust me! Don't, for Christ's sake, don't."

Rather than step around him, she scrambled monkeylike across the disheveled bed,  bounded off the other side, and hurried into the adjoining bathroom.

A short sharp bleat escaped the dog, a plucked-wire sound that twanged through  Dusty and struck in him a fear that he had not known before.

Seeing her like this a second time was more terrifying than the first episode.

Once could be an aberration. Twice was a pattern. In patterns could be seen the  future.

He went after Martie and found her at the bathroom sink. The cold water gushed  into the basin. The door of the medicine cabinet, which had been open, was  swinging shut of its own accord.

"It must've been worse than usual this time," he said.

"What?"

"The nightmare."

"It wasn't the same one, nothing as pleasant as the Leaf Man," she said, but  clearly she had no intention of elaborating.

She popped the cap off a bottle of an effective nonprescription sleeping aid  that they rarely used. A slurry of blue caplets spilled into her cupped left  hand.

At first, Dusty thought she was intending to overdose, which was ridiculous,  because even a full bottle probably wouldn't kill her- and, anyway, she must  know that he would knock them out of her hand before she could swallow so many. But then she let most of the pills rattle back into the bottle. Three were left  on her palm.

"Two's the maximum dosage," he said.

"I don't give a rat's ass about the maximum dosage. I want to be out cold. I've  got to sleep, got to rest, but I'm not going to go through another dream like  that, not another one like that."

Her black hair was damp with sweat and tangled like the crowning snakes of  whatever Gorgon she had encountered in her dream. The pills were to vanquish  monsters.

Water slopped into the drinking glass, and she chased the three caplets with a  long swallow.

At her side, Dusty didn't interfere. Three pills didn't warrant paramedics and a  stomach pump, and if she was a little groggy in the morning, she might be  somewhat less anxious, as well.

He saw no point in suggesting that deeper slumber might not be as dreamless as  she expected. Even if she slept in the scaly arms of nightmares, she would be  more rested in the morning than if she didn't sleep at all.

As she lowered the glass from her lips, Manic caught sight of herself in the  mirror. Her reflection strummed a shiver from her, which the cold water had been  unable to induce.

As winter freezes the blueness out of a pond, so fear had frozen much of the  color out of Martie. Face as pale as ice. Lips less pink than they were  mallow-purple, with dry peels of zinc-gray skin that had been rubbed loose by  her scrubbing hands.

"Oh, God, look what I am," she said, "look what I am."

Dusty knew that she was not referring to her damp and tangled hair or to her  blanched features, but to something hateful that she imagined she saw in the  depths of her blue eyes.

Splashing out the last of its contents, the glass arced back in her hand, but  Dusty seized it before she could throw it at the mirror, tore it from her  clutching fingers as water spattered on the tile floor.

At his touch, she erupted away from him with such alarm that she crashed into the bathroom wall hard enough to rattle the shower door in its  frame.

"Don't get near me! For God's sake, don't you realize what I could do, all the  things I could do?"

Half nauseated by worry, he said, "Manic, I'm not afraid of you."

"How far is it from a kiss to a bite?" she asked, her voice hoarse and ragged  with dread.

"Not far from a kiss to a bite, your tongue in my mouth."

"Martie, please-"

"A kiss to a bite. So easy to tear off your lips. How do you know I couldn't?  How do you know I wouldn't?"

If she hadn't already reached a full-blown panic attack, she was running  downhill toward one, and Dusty didn't know how to stop her, or even how to slow  her.

"Look at my hands," she demanded. "These fingernails. Acrylic nails. Why do you  think I couldn't blind you with them? You think I couldn't gouge out your eyes?" "Martie. This isn't-"

"There's something in me I never saw before, something that scares the shit out  of me, and it could do something terrible, it really could, it could make me  blind you. For your own good, you better see it, too, and you better be afraid  of it."

Tidal emotion swept through Dusty, terrible pity and fierce love, crosscurrents  and rips.

He reached for Manic, and she squeezed past him, out of the bathroom. She  slammed the door between them.

When he followed her into the bedroom, he found her at his open closet. She was  riffling through his shirts, rattling the hangers on the metal pole, searching  for something.

The tie rack. Most of the rack pegs were empty. He owned only four neckties. She pulled a plain black tie and a red-and-blue striped number from the closet  and held them out to Dusty. "Tie me."

"What? No. Good God, Manic."

"I mean it."

"So do I. No."

"Ankles together, wrists together," she said urgently.

"No."

Valet was sitting up in his bed, twitchy eyebrows punctuating a series of  worried expressions as his attention bounced from Martie to Dusty to Manic. She said, "So if I go psycho, total blood nuts, during the night-" Dusty tried to be firm but calm, hoping that his example would settle her.

"Please, stop it."

"-total blood nuts, then I'll have to get loose before I can screw up anybody.  And when I'm trying to get loose, that'll wake you if you've fallen asleep." "I'm not afraid of you."

His feigned calm didn't infect her, and in fact words gushed out of her in an  ever more feverish stream: "All right, okay, maybe you're not afraid, even if  you should be, maybe you're not, but I am. I am afraid of me, Dusty, afraid of  what the hell I might do to you or to somebody else when I'm having a fit, some  crazy seizure, afraid of what I might do to myself I don't know what's happening  here, to me, it's weirder than The Exorcist even if I'm not levitating and my  head isn't spinning around. If I managed to get my hands on a knife at the wrong  time, or your pistol, when I'm in this crazy mood, then I'd use it on myself, I  know I would. I feel this sick desire in here"-she rapped her stomach with a  fist-"this evil, this worm of a thing curled inside me, whispering to me about  knives and guns and hammers."

Dusty shook his head.

Martie sat on the bed and began cinching her ankles together with one of the  neckties, but after a moment she stopped, frustrated. "Damn it, I don't know  knots the way you do. You've got to help me with this."

"One of those pills usually does the job. You took three. You don't need to be  tied."

"I'm not going to trust pills, not pills alone, no way. Either you help me with  this, or I'll puke up the pills, stick a finger down my throat and puke 'em  right now."

Reason wasn't going to sway her. She was as high on fear as Skeet on his drug  cocktail, and hardly more rational than the kid had been on the Sorensons' roof. Sitting in an ineffective tangle of ties, sweating, shaking, she began to cry.  "Please, baby, please. Please help me. I've got to sleep, I'm so tired, I need  some rest, or I'm going to go bugshit. I need some peace, and I'm not going to have any peace if you don't help me. Help me.

Please."

Tears moved him as fury couldn't.

When he went to her, she lay back on the bed and covered her face with her  hands, as though ashamed of the helplessness to which fear had reduced her. Dusty trembled as he bound her ankles together.

"Tighter," she said through her mask of hands.

Although he obliged, he didn't draw the knots as tight as she would have  preferred. The thought of hurting her, even inadvertently, was more than he  could bear.

She held her clasped hands toward him.

Using the black necktie, Dusty hitched wrist to wrist tightly enough to secure  her until morning, but he was careful not to cut off her circulation.

As he bound her, she lay with her eyes shut, head turned to one side and away  from him, perhaps because she was mortified by the disabling intensity of her  fear, perhaps because she was embarrassed by her disheveled appearance. Perhaps.  But Dusty suspected that she was trying to hide her face largely because she  equated tears with weakness.

The daughter of Smilin' Bob Woodhouse-who had been a genuine war hero, as well  as a hero of another kind more than once in the years following the war-was  determined to live up to the legacy of honor and courage she had inherited. Of  course, life as a young wife and a video-game designer in a balmy California  coastal town didn't provide her with frequent opportunities for heroics.

This  was a good thing, not a reason to move to a perpetual cauldron of violence like  the Balkans or Rwanda, or the set of the Jerry Springer Show. But living in  peace and plenty, she could honor her father's memory only through the small  heroics of daily life: by doing her job well and paying her way in the world, by  commitment to her marriage in good times and in bad, by giving all possible  support to her friends, by having true compassion for life's walking wounded,  like Skeet, while living with honesty and truthfulness and enough self-respect  to avoid becoming one of them. These small heroics, never acknowledged with  awards and stirring marches, are the fuel and the lubrication that keep the  machine of civilization humming, and in a world rife with temptations to be  self-indulgent, self-centered, and self-satisfied, there are surprisingly more small heroes than might be expected.  When you stood in the shadow of great heroics, however, as Manic did, then  merely living a decent life-lifting others by your example and by your acts of  kindness-might make you feel inadequate; and maybe tears, even in moments of  extreme tribulation, might seem to be a betrayal of your father's legacy.

All this Dusty understood, but he could say none of it to Manic now, or perhaps  ever, because to speak of it would be to say that he recognized her deepest  vulnerabilities, which would imply a pity that robbed her of some measure of  dignity, as pity always does. She knew what he knew, and she knew that he knew  it; but love grows deeper and stronger when we have both the wisdom to say what  must be said and the wisdom to know what never needs to be put into words. So Dusty knotted the black tie with formal, solemn silence.

When Martie was securely tied, she turned onto her side, closed eyes still  damming a lake of tears, and as she turned, Valet padded to the bed, craned his  neck, and licked her face.

The sob that she had been repressing broke from her now, but it was only half a  sob, because it was also half a laugh, and then another followed that was more  laugh than sob. "My furry-faced baby boy. You knew your poor mama needed a kiss,  didn't you, sweet thing?"

"Or is it the lingering aroma of my truly fine lasagna on your breath?" Dusty  wondered, hoping to provide a little oxygen to make this welcome, bright moment  burn a little longer.

"Lasagna or pure doggy love," Manic said, "doesn't matter to me. I know my baby  boy loves me."

"So does your big boy," Dusty said.

At last she turned her head to look at him. "That's what kept mc sane today. I  need what we've got."

He sat on the edge of the bed and held her bound hands.

After a while her eyes fell shut under a weight of weariness and patent  medicine.

Dusty glanced at the nightstand clock, which reminded him about the issue of  missing time. "Dr. Yen Lo."

Without opening her eyes, Manic said thickly, "Who?"

"Dr. Yen Lo. You've never heard of him?"

"No."

"Clear cascades."

"Huh?"

"Into the waves scatter."

Manic opened her eyes. They were dreamy, gradually darkening with clouds of  sleep. "Either you're making no sense, or this stuff is kicking in."

"Blue pine needles," he finished, although he no longer thought that any of this  might resonate with her as it had with Skeet.

"Pretty," she mumbled, and she closed her eyes again.

Valet had settled on the floor near the bed instead of returning to his  sheepskin pillow. He wasn't dozing. From time to time he raised his head to look  up at his sleeping mistress or to survey the shadows in farther corners of the  room. He lifted his pendant ears as much as they would lift, as if listening to  faint but suspicious sounds. His damp black nostrils flared and quivered as he  tried to identify the plaited odors on the air, and he growled softly. Gentle  Valet seemed to be trying to remake himself into a guard dog, though he remained  puzzled as to what, exactly, he was guarding against.

Watching Mat-tie sleep, her skin still ashen and her lips as unnaturally dark as  a fresh purple bruise, Dusty became strangely convinced that his wife's descent  into long-term mental instability wasn't the greatest threat, as he had thought.  Instinctively, he sensed that death stalked her, not madness, and that she was  already half in the grave.

He was, in fact, overcome by a preternatural sense that the instrument of her  death was here in the bedroom this very minute, and with prickles of  superstition stippling the nape of his neck, he rose slowly from the edge of the  bed and looked up with dread, half expecting to see an apparition floating near  the ceiling: something like a swirl of black robes, a hooded form, a grinning  skeletal face.

Although nothing but smoothly troweled plaster hung overhead, Valet let out  another low, protracted growl. He had gotten to his feet beside the bed. Manic slept undisturbed, but Dusty lowered his attention from the ceiling to the  retriever.

Valet's nostrils flared as he drew a deep questing breath, and as if thus  inflated, his golden hackles rose, bristled. Black lips skinned back, baring  formidable teeth. The retriever seemed to see the deadly presence that Dusty  could only sense.

The dog's guardian stare was fixed sharply on Dusty himself.

"Valet?"

Even in spite of the dog's thick winter coat, Dusty could see the muscles  tighten in his shoulders and thighs. Valet assumed an aggressive stance totally  out of character for him.

"What's wrong, fella? It's only me. Just me."

The low growl faded. The dog was silent but tense, alert.

Dusty took a step toward him.

The growl again.

"Just me," Dusty repeated.

The dog seemed unconvinced.

34

When at last the doctor was finished with her, Susan Jagger lay on her back,  thighs pressed together demurely, as if in denial of how widely they had been  spread. Her arms were crossed modestly over her breasts.

She was still crying, but not silently as before. For his own pleasure, Ahriman  had allowed her some vocalization of her anguish and shame.

Buttoning his shirt, he closed his eyes to hear broken bird sounds. Her  feather-soft sobs: lonely pigeons in rafters, misery of windblown gulls.

When he first moved her to the bed, he had used the techniques of  hypnotic-regression therapy to return her to the age of twelve, to a time when  she was untouched, innocent, a rosebud without thorns. Her voice acquired a  tender tone, higher pitched; her phrasing was that of a precocious child. Her  brow had actually become smoother, her mouth softer, as if time had indeed run  backward. Her eyes did not become a brighter green, but they grew clearer, as  though sixteen years of hard experience had been filtered from them.

Then, behind the mask of her father, he had deflowered her. She was at first  allowed to resist feebly, then more actively, initially frightened and confused  in her rediscovered sexual innocence. Bitter resistance was soon sweetened with  tremulous hunger. At the doctor's suggestion, Susan was seized by quickening  animal need; she rocked her hips and rose to him.

Throughout what followed, Ahriman shaped her psychological state with murmured  suggestions, and always, always, her thrilling girlish cries of pleasure were  tempered by fear, shame, sorrow. To him, her tears were a more essential  lubricant than the erotic oils that her body secreted to facilitate his entry.

Even in ecstasy, tears.

Now, as he finished dressing, Ahriman studied her flawless face.

Moonlight on water, eyes brimming ponds of spring rain-dark fish in the mind.

No. No good. He wasn't able to compose a haiku to describe her bleak expression  as she stared at the ceiling. His talent for writing poetry was but a fraction  as great as his ability to appreciate it.

The doctor had no illusions about his gifts. Although by all measures of  intelligence, he was a high-range genius, he nevertheless was a player, not a  creator. He had a talent for games, for using toys in new and imaginative ways,  but he was no artist.

Likewise, although he had been interested in the sciences since childhood, he  didn't possess the temperament to be a scientist: the patience, the acceptance  of repeated failures in a quest for ultimate success, the preference for  knowledge over sensation. The respect given to most scientists was a prize the  young Ahriman coveted, and the authority and quiet superiority with which they  often conducted themselves-high priests in this culture that worshiped change  and progress-were attitudes that came naturally to Ahriman. The gray, joyless  atmosphere of laboratories had no appeal for him, however, nor did the tedium of  serious research.

When he was thirteen, a child prodigy already in his first year of college, he  realized that psychology offered him an ideal career. Those who claimed to  understand the secrets of the mind were regarded with respect bordering on  reverence, much as priests must have been in prior centuries, when belief in the  soul was as widespread as the current belief in the id and the ego. Upon a  psychologist's claim of authority, laymen at once accorded it to him.

Most people regarded psychology as a science. Some called it a soft science, but  those making such a distinction grew fewer by the year.

In the hard sciences-like physics and chemistry-a hypothesis was proposed to  guide inquiry into a group of phenomena. Thereafter, if a large enough body of  research by many scientists supported the propositions of that hypothesis, it  might become a general theory. In time, if a theory proved universally effective in thousands  of experiments, it might become a law.

Some psychologists strove to hold their field to this standard of proof. Ahriman  pitied them. They operated under the illusion that their authority and their  power were linked to the discovery of timeless truths, when in reality, truth  was an annoying constraint on authority and power.

Psychology, in Ahriman's view, was an appealing field because you needed only to  compile a series of subjective observations, find the proper prism through which  to view a set of statistics, and then you could leap over the hypothesis and the  theory, declaring the discovery of a law of human behavior.

Science was tedium, work. To young Ahriman, psychology clearly was play, and  people were the toys.

He always pretended to share his colleagues' outrage when their work was  denigrated as soft science, but in fact he thought of it as liquid science, even  gaseous, which was the very quality that he cherished about it. The power of the  scientist, who must work with hard facts, was limited by those facts; but within  psychology was the power of superstition, which could shape the world more  completely than electricity, antibiotics, and hydrogen bombs.

Having entered college at thirteen, he acquired his doctorate of psychology by  his seventeenth birthday. Because a psychiatrist is even more widely admired and  highly esteemed than a psychologist, and because the greater authority of the  tide would facilitate the games that he wished to play, Ahriman added a medical  degree and other necessary credentials to his résumé.

Considering that medical school requires so much real science, he thought that  it would be tedious, but on the contrary, it proved to be great fun. After all,  a good medical education involved much blood and viscera; he had numerous  opportunities to witness suffering and grievous pain, and wherever suffering and  pain flourished, there was no shortage of tears.

When he was a little boy, he was as filled with wonder at the sight of tears as  other children were affected by rainbows, starry skies, and fireflies. Upon  achieving puberty, he discovered that the mere sight of tears, more than  hard-core pornography, enflamed his libido.

He himself had never cried.

Now fully dressed, the doctor stood at the foot of Susan's bed and studied her tear-stained face. Desolate pools, her eyes. Her spirit floated in  them, almost drowned. The objective of his game was to finish the drowning. Not  this night. But soon.

"Tell mc your age," he said.

"Twelve," she replied in the voice of a schoolgirl.

"You will now come forward in time, Susan. You are thirteen... fourteen. . .  fifteen. . . sixteen. Tell me your age."

"Sixteen." "You are now seventeen. . . eighteen. . .

He brought her all the way forward to the present, to the hour and minute on the  bedside clock, and then he instructed her to get dressed.

Her nightclothes were scattered on the floor. She retrieved them with the slow,  deliberate movements of anyone in a trance.

Sitting on the edge of the bed, as she drew the white cotton panties up her  slender legs, Susan suddenly bent forward as though she'd taken a blow in the  solar plexus, breath exploding from her. She inhaled with a shudder, and then  spat in disgust and horror, saliva glistening like snail trails on her thighs,  and spat again, as though she were desperate to rid herself of an intolerable  taste. Spitting led to gagging, and between these wretched sounds were two words  that she wrenched from herself at great cost-"Daddy, why, Daddy, why?"-because  although she no longer believed that she was twelve years old, she remained  convinced that her beloved father had brutally raped her.

To the doctor, this final unexpected spasm of grief and shame was lagniappe, a  little dinner mint of suffering, a chocolate truffle after cognac. He stood  before her, breathing deeply of the faint but astringent, briny fragrance  arising from her cascade of tears.

When he placed a hand paternally upon her head, Susan flinched from his touch,  and Daddy, why? deteriorated into a soft and wordless wail. This muffled  ululation reminded him of the eerie puling of distant coyotes in a warm desert  night even farther in the past than Minette Luckland impaled on the spear of  Diana out there in Scottsdale, Arizona.

Just beyond the glow of Santa Fe, New Mexico, lies a horse ranch: a fine adobe  house, stables, riding rings, fenced meadows mottled with sweet bunchgrass, all  surrounded by chaparral in which rabbits tremble by the thousands and coyotes  hunt at night in packs. One summer evening two decades before anyone has yet begun to ponder the approaching dawn of a new  millennium, the rancher's lovely wife, Fiona Pastore, answers the phone and  listens to three lines of haiku, a poem by Buson. She knows the doctor  socially-and also because her ten-year-old son, Dion, is his patient, whom he  has been endeavoring to cure of a severe stutter On a score of occasions, Fiona  has engaged in sex with the doctor, often of such depravity that she has  suffered bouts of depression afterward, even though all memory of their trysts  has been scrubbed from her mind. She poses no danger to the doctor, but he is  finished with her physically and is ready now to proceed to the final phase of  their relationship.

Remotely activated by haiku, Fiona receives her fatal instructions without  protest, proceeds directly to her husband's study, and writes a brief but  poignant suicide note accusing her innocent spouse of an imaginative list of  atrocities. Note finished, she unlocks a gun cabinet in the same room and  removes a six-shot .45 Colt built on a Seville frame, which is a lot of gun for  a woman only five feet four, 110 pounds, but she can handle it. She is a girl of  the Southwest, born and raised; she has shot at game and targets for more than  half her thirty years. She loads the piece with 325-grain, .44 Keith bullets and  proceeds to her son's bedroom.

Dion's window is open for ventilation, screened against desert insects, and when  Fiona switches on a lamp, the doctor is afforded the equivalent of a  fifty-yard-line view. Ordinarily, he is unable to be present during these  episodes of ultimate control, because he does not wish to risk incriminating  himself- although he has friends in places high enough to all but ensure his  exoneration. This time, however, circumstances are idea/for his attendance, and  he is unable to resist. The ranch, although not isolated, is reasonably remote.  The ranch manager and his wife, both employees of the Pastores, are on vacation,  visiting family in Pecos, Texas, during the lively annual cantaloupe festival,  and the other three ranch hands do not live on site. Ahriman placed his call to  Fiona from a car phone, only a quarter of a mile from the house, whereafter he  traveled on foot to Dion's window, arriving only a minute before the woman  entered the bedroom and clicked on the lamp.

The sleeping boy never wakes, which is a disappointment to the doctor, who  almost speaks through the fine-mesh screen, like a priest assigning penance in a  confessional, to instruct Fiona to rouse her son. He hesitates, and she does  not, dispatching the dreaming child with two rounds. The husband, Bernardo,  arrives at a run, shouting in alarm, and his wife squeezes off another pair of  shots. He is lean and tan, one of those weather-beaten Westerners whose  sun-cured skin and heat-tempered bones give them an air of imperviousness, but instead of bouncing off his hide, of course, the bullets punch him with terrible  force. He staggers, slams into a tall chest of drawers, and hangs desperately on  to it, his shattered jaw askew. Bernardo's lampblack eyes reveal that surprise  has hit him harder than either of the .44 slugs. His stare grows wider when,  through the window screen, he sees the visiting doctor Black under lampblack, a  lightless eternity, in his startled eyes. A tooth or bit of bone falls from his  crumbling jaw: He sags and follows that white morsel to the floor Ahriman finds the show to be even more entertaining than he had anticipated, and  if he has ever doubted the wisdom of his career choice, he knows that he will  never do so again. Because certain hungers are not easily sated, he wants to  amplify these thrills, crank up the volume, so to speak, by bringing Fiona at  least part of the way out of her more-than-trance-not-quite-fugue state into a  higher level of consciousness. Currently her personality is so firmly repressed  that she is not emotionally aware of what she has done and has, therefore, no  visible reaction to the carnage. If she could be released from control just  enough to understand, to feel-then her agony would bring a singular storm of  tears, a tide on which the doctor could sail to places he has never been before.

Ahriman hesitates, but for good reason. Released from bondage enough to realize  the enormity of her crimes, the woman might behave unpredictably, might slip her  fetters altogether and resist being bobbled again. He is sure that in the worst  case, he will be able to reestablish control using vocal commands within a  minute, but only seconds are required for her to turn toward the open window and  fire one round point-blank. Potential injuries can be incurred in any game or  playground sport: skinned knees, abraded knuckles, contusions, the occasional  minor cut, now and then a perfectly good tooth knocked loose in a tumble. As far  as the doctor is concerned, however, the mere possibility of taking a bullet in  the face is enough to drain all the fun out of this frolic. He does not speak,  leaving the woman to finish this Grand Guignol puppet show in a state of  benightedness.

Standing over her dead family, Fiona Pastore calmly puts the barrel of the Colt  in her mouth and, regrettably tearless, destroys herself She falls so softly,  but the hard clatter of steel coldly resonates: The gun in her hand, snagged on  her trigger finger, raps the pine bed rail.

With the toy broken and the thrill of its function no longer to be enjoyed, the  doctor stands at the window for a while, studying the art of her form for the  last time. This is not as pleasurable as it once was, what with the back of her  head gone, but the exit wound is turned away from him, and the distortion of her  facial bone structure is surprisingly slight.

The unearthly cries of coyotes have shivered the air since the doctor first  arrived at the ranch house, but until now they have been hunting through the  chaparral a couple miles to the east. A change of pitch, a new excitement in  their puling, alerts the doctor to the fact that they are drawing nearer If the  scent of blood travels well and quickly on the desert air, these prairie wolves  may soon gather beneath the screened window to bay for the dead.

Throughout Indian folklore, the trickiest creature of all is named Coyote, and  Ahriman sees no amusement value in matching wits with a pack of them, He walks  quickly but does not run toward his Jaguar, which is parked a quarter mile to  the north.

The night bouquet features the silicate scent of sand, the oily musk of  mesquite, and a faint iron smell the source of which he can't identify.

As the doctor reaches the car, the coyotes fall silent, having caught a whiff of  some new spoor that makes them cautious, and no doubt the cause of their caution  is Abriman himself In the sudden hush, a sound above makes him look up.

Rare albino bats, calligraphy on the sky, sealed by the full moon. High looping  white wings, faint buzz of fleeing insects: The killing is quiet.

The doctor watches, rapt. The world is one great playing field, the sport is  killing, and the sole objective is to stay in the game.

Carrying moonlight on their pale wings, the freak bats recede, vanishing into  the night, and as Ahriman opens the car door, coyotes begin to wail again. They  are close enough to include him in the chorus if he wished to raise his voice.

By the time he pulls shut the door and starts the engine, six coyotes- eight,  ten-appear out of the brush and gather on the grave/ed lane in front of the car,  their eyes fiery with reflections of the headlights. As Ahriman drives forward,  loose stones crunching together under the tires, the pack divides and moves  ahead along both shoulders of the narrow lane, as though they are the outrunners  of a Praetorian guard, escorting the Jaguar A hundred yards later, when the car  turns west, where the high city rises in the distance, the slouching beasts  break away from it and continue toward the ranch house, still in the game, as is  the doctor

As is the doctor.

Although Susan Jagger's soft quaverous cries of grief and shame were a tonic,  and though the memories of the Pastore family that her tortured voice had  resurrected were refreshing, Dr. Ahriman was not a young man now, as he'd been  in his New Mexico days, and he needed to get at least a few hours of sound  sleep. The day ahead would require vigor and an especially clear mind, because Martine and Dustin  Rhodes would become far bigger players in this complex game than they had been  thus far. Consequently, he ordered Susan to overcome her emotions and finish  getting dressed.

When she was in her panties and T-shirt once more, he said, "Get to your feet." She rose.

"You are a vision, daughter. I wish I could've gotten you on video tonight  instead of next time. Those sweet tears. Why, Daddy? Why? That was particularly  poignant. I won't ever forget that. You've given me another albino-bats moment."

Her attention had shifted from him.

He followed her gaze to the ming tree in the bronze pot atop the Biedermeier  pedestal.

"Horticulture," he said approvingly, "is a therapeutic pastime for an  agoraphobic. Ornamental plants allow you to remain in touch with the natural  world beyond these walls. But when I'm talking to you, I expect your attention  to remain on me."

She looked at him again. She was no longer weeping. The last of her tears were  drying on her face.

An oddness about her, subtle and indefinable, nagged at the doctor. The  levelness of her stare. The way her lips were pressed together, mouth pinched at  the corners. Here was a tension unrelated to her humiliation and shame.

"Spider mites," he said.

He thought he saw worry crawling through her eyes.

"They're hell on a ming tree, spider mites."

Unmistakably, what spun across her face was a web of worry, but surely not about  the health of her houseplants.

Sensing trouble, Ahriman made an effort to clear the postcoital haze from his  mind and concentrate on Susan. "What are you worried about?"

"What am I worried about?" she asked.

He rephrased the question as a command: "Tell me what you're worried about." When she hesitated, he repeated the command, and she said, "The video."

35

Valet's hackles smoothed. He stopped growling. He became his familiar,  tail-wagging, affectionate self, insisted upon a cuddle, and then returned to  his bed, where he dozed off as though he had never been bothered.

Bound hand and foot at her insistence, even more profoundly subdued by three  sleeping pills, Martie was unnervingly still and silent. A few times, Dusty  raised his head from the pillow and leaned close to her, worried until he heard  her faint respiration.

Although he expected to lie awake all night, and therefore left his nightstand  lamp aglow, eventually he slept.

A dream stirred his sleep, blending dread and absurdity into a strange narrative  that was disturbing yet nonsensical.

He is lying in bed, atop the covers, fully dressed except for his shoes. Valet  is not present. Across the room, Martie sits in the lotus position on the dog's  big sheepskin pillow, utterly still, eyes closed, fingers laced in her lap, as  though lost in meditation.

He and Martie are alone in the room, and yet he is talking to someone else. He  can feel his lips and tongue moving, and although he can hear his own voice  reverberating-deep, hollow, fuzzy-in the bones of his skull, he cannot quite  make out a single word of what he is saying. The pauses in his speech indicate  that be is engaged in a conversation, not a monologue, but he can hear no other  voice, not a murmur, not a whisper Beyond the window, the night is slashed by lightning, but no thunder protests the wound, and no rain drizzles on the roof The only sound arises when  a large bird flies past the window, so close that one of its wings brushes the  glass, and it squawks. Although the creature appears and vanishes in an instant,  Dusty somehow knows that it is a heron, and the cry it makes seems to travel in  a circle through the night, fading and then growing louder, again faint but then  near once more.

He becomes aware of an intravenous needle in his left arm. A plastic tube loops  from the needle to a clear plastic bag, which is plump with glucose and dangling  from a pharmacy-style floor lamp that serves as a makeshift IV rack.

Again the storm flashes and the huge heron passes the window in the pulsing  glare, its shriek traveling into the darkness behind the lightning. The right sleeve of Dusty's shirt is rolled higher than the left, because his  blood pressure is being taken; the pressure cuff of a sphygmomanometer wraps his  upper arm. Black rubber tubing extends from the cuff to the inflation bulb,  which floats in midair like an object in zero gravity. Strangely, as if in the  grip of an unseen hand, the bulb is being rhythmically compressed and released,  while the pressure cuff tightens on his arm. If a third person is in the room,  this nameless visitor must have mastered the magic of invisibility.

When lightning flares again, it is born and comes to ground in the bedroom, not  in the night beyond the window. Many-legged, nimble, slowed from the speed of  light to the speed of a cat, the bolt hisses out of the ceiling as it usually  sizzles from a cloud, springs to a metal picture frame, from there to the  television, and finally to the floor lamp that serves as an IV rack, spitting  sparks as it gnashes its bright teeth against the brass.

Immediately behind the leaping lightning swoops the big heron, having entered  the bedroom through a dosed window or a solid wall, its swordlike bill cracking  wide as it shrieks. It's huge, at least three feet, head to foot: prehistoric-looking, with its pterodactyl glare. Shadows of wings wash the  walls, fluttering feathery forms in the flickering light.

Leading its shadow, the bird darts toward Dusty, and he knows it will stand upon  his chest and pluck out his eyes. His arms feel as if they are strapped to the  bed, although the right is restrained only by the pressure cuff and the left is  weighed down by nothing but the bracing board that prevents him from bending his  elbow while the needle is in the vein. Nevertheless, be lies immobile,  defenseless, as the bird shrieks toward him.

When lightning arcs from television to floor lamp, the dear-plastic glucose bag  glows like the gauzy sac in a pressurized gas lantern, and a hot rain of brassy sparks-which ought to set the bedclothes afire but does not-showers  upon Dusty. The shadow of the descending heron shatters into as many black  fragments as there are sparks, and when the clouds of bright and dark mites  swarm dazzlingly together, Dusty closes his eyes in terror and confusion. He is assured, perhaps by the invisible visitor, that he need not be afraid, hut  when he opens his eyes, he sees a fearsome thing hanging over him. The bird has  been impossibly condensed, crushed-twisted-squeezed, until it now fits inside  the bulging glucose bag. In spite of this compression, the heron remains  recognizable-though it resembles a bird painted by some half-baked Picasso  wanna-be with a taste for the macabre. Worse, it is somehow still alive and  shrieking, a/though its shrill cries are muted by the clear walls of its plastic  prison. It tries to squirm inside the bag, tries to break free with sharp beak  and talons, cannot, and rolls one bleak black eye, glaring down at Dusty with  demonic intensity.

He feels trapped, too, lying here helpless under the pendant bird: he with the  weakness of one crucified, it with the dark energy of an ornament fashioned for  a Satanist's mock Christmas tree. Then the heron dissolves into a bloody brown  slush, and the clear fluid in the intravenous line begins to cloud as the  substance of the bird seeps out of the bag and downward, downward. Watching this  filthy murk contaminate the tube inch by inch, Dusty screams, but he makes no  sound. Paralyzed, drawing great draughts of air but as silently as one  struggling to breathe in a vacuum, he tries to lift his right hand and tear out  the IV, tries to cast himself' off the bed, cannot, and he rolls his eyes,  straining to see the last inch of the tube as the toxin reaches the needle. A terrible flash of inner heat, as though lightning arcs through his veins and  arteries, is followed by a shriek when the bird enters his blood. He feels it  surging up his median basilic vein, through biceps and into torso, and almost at  once an intolerable fluttering arises within his heart, the busy  twitching-pecking-fluffing of something making a nest.

Still in the lotus position on Valet's sheepskin pillow, Martie opens her eyes.  They are not blue, as before, but as black as her hair No whites at all: Each socket is filled with a single, smooth, wet, convex blackness. Avian eyes  are generally round, and these are almond-shaped like those of a human being,  but they are the eyes of the heron nonetheless.

"Welcome," she says.

Dusty snapped awake, so clearheaded the instant he opened his eyes that he didn't cry out or sit up in bed to orient himself. He lay very  still, on his back, staring at the ceiling.

His nightstand lamp was aglow, as he had left it. The floor lamp was beside the  reading chair, where it belonged; it had not been pressed into service as an IV  stand.

His heart didn't flutter. It pounded. As far as he could tell, his heart was  still his private domain, where nothing roosted except his own hopes, anxieties,  loves, and prejudices.

Valet snored softly.

Beside Dusty, Martie enjoyed the deep slumber of a good woman-albeit goodness  was in this case assisted by three doses of sleep-inducing antihistamines. While the dream remained fresh, he walked around it in his mind, considering it  from a variety of perspectives. He tried to apply the lesson he had long ago  learned from the pencil drawing of a forest primeval that morphed into an image  of a Gothic metropolis when it was approached without preconceptions. Ordinarily, he didn't analyze his dreams.

Freud, however, had been convinced that fishy expressions of the subconscious  could be seined from dreams to provide a banquet for a psychoanalyst. Dr. Derek  Lampton, Dusty's stepfather, fourth of Claudette's four husbands, also cast his  lines into that same sea and regularly reeled in strange, squishy hypotheses  that he force-fed to his patients without regard for the possibility that they  might be poisonous.

Because Freud and Lizard Lampton had faith in dreams, Dusty had never taken them  seriously. Now he was loath to admit there might be meaning in this one, and yet  he sensed a morsel of truth in it. Finding one scrap of clean fact in that heap  of trash, however, was going to be a Herculean task.

if his exceptional eidetic and audile memory preserved all the details of dreams  as well as it stored away real experiences, then at least he could be sure that  if he sorted through the refuse of this nightmare carefully enough, he would  eventually find any shiny truth that might await discovery like a piece of  heirloom silverware accidentally thrown out with the dinner garbage.

36

"The video," Susan repeated, in response to Ahriman's inquiry, and once more she  looked away from him, toward the ming tree.

Surprised, the doctor smiled. "You're still such a modest girl, considering the  things you've done. Relax, dear. I've made only one tape of you-a ninety-minute  astonishment, I will admit-and there'll be just one more, next time we meet.

Nobody but me gets to see my little home movies. They will never be broadcast on  CNN or NBC, I assure you. Although the Nielson ratings would be through the  roof, don't you think?"

Susan continued to stare at the potted ming tree, but now the doctor understood  why she was able to look away from him even though he had commanded her to stand  eye-to-eye. Shame was a powerful force, from which she drew the strength for  this one small rebellion. We all commit acts that shame us, and with varying  degrees of difficulty, we reach accommodation with ourselves, forming pearls of  guilt around each offending bit of moral grit. Guilt, unlike shame, can be  nearly as soothing as virtue, because the jagged edges of the thing that it  encapsulates can no longer be felt, and the guilt itself becomes the object of  our interest. Susan could have made a necklace from all the moments of shame to  which Ahriman had subjected her but because she was aware of the videotape  record, she was not able to form her little pearls of guilt and thus smooth the  shame away.

The doctor commanded her to look at him, and after a hesitation, she once more  shifted her attention from the ming tree to his eyes.

He instructed her to descend the steps of her subconscious, until she returned  to the mind chapel, from which he had previously allowed her to ascend a short  distance in order to enhance their play session.

When she was once more in that deep redoubt, her eyes jiggled briefly. Her  personality had been filtered from her and set aside, as a chef would strain the  solids out of beef broth to make bouillon, and now her mind was a pellucid  liquid, waiting to be flavored according to Ahriman's recipe.

He said, "You will forget your father was here tonight. Memories of his face  where you should have seen mine, memories of his voice when you should have  heard mine, are now dust, and less than dust, all blown away. I am your doctor,  not your father. Tell me who I am, Susan."

Her whispery voice seemed to echo from a subterranean room:

"Dr. Ahriman."

"As always, of course, you will have absolutely no accessible memory of what  happened between us, absolutely no accessible memory of my presence here  tonight."

In spite of his best efforts, somewhere memory survived, perhaps in an  unknowable realm below the subconscious. Otherwise, she would not suffer shame  at all, because no recollection of these depravities or those of other nights  would remain. Her lingering shame was, in the doctor's view, proof of a  sub-subconscious-a level even beneath the id-where experience left an indelible  mark. This deepest of all memory was, Ahriman believed, virtually inaccessible  and of no danger to him; he needed only to wipe clean the slates of her  conscious and subconscious to be safe.

Some would have wondered if this sub-subconscious might be the soul. The doctor  was not one of them.

"If nevertheless you have any reason to feel that you have been sexually  assaulted, any soreness or other clue, you will suspect no one other than your  estranged husband, Eric. Tell me now whether or not you fully understand what  I've just said."

A spasm of REM accompanied her reply, as if the specified memories were being  shaken out of her through her oscillating eyes: "I understand."

"But you are strictly forbidden from confronting Eric with your suspicions."

"Forbidden. I understand."

"Good."

Ahriman yawned. Regardless of how much fun a play session had been, it was  ultimately diminished by the need to clean up at the end, to put away the toys  and straighten the room. Although he understood why neatness and order were  absolute necessities, he begrudged the time spent on this put-away period as  much now as he had when he was a boy.

"Please lead me to the kitchen," he requested, yawning around his words.

Still graceful in spite of the crude use to which she had been put, Susan moved  through the dark apartment with the fluid suppleness of a pale koi swimming in a  midnight pond.

In the kitchen, as thirsty as any player would be after a long and demanding  game, Ahriman said, "Tell me what beer you have?"

"Tsingtao."

"Open one for me."

She got a bottle from the refrigerator, fumbled in a drawer in the dark until  she found an opener, and popped the cap off the beer.

While in this apartment, the doctor took care to touch as seldom as possible  those surfaces on which fingerprints could be left.

He hadn't yet decided if eventually Susan would self-destruct when he was  finished with her. If he concluded that suicide would be sufficiently  entertaining, then her long and depressing struggle to overcome agoraphobia  would provide a convincing motive, and her handwritten farewell note would close  the case without a rigorous investigation. More likely, she would be used in the  bigger game with Martie and Dusty, culminating in mass murder in Malibu. Other options included arranging to have Susan murdered by her estranged husband  or even by her best friend. If Eric snuffed her, a homicide investigation would  ensue-even if he phoned the cops from the scene, confessed, blew his own brains  out, and fell dead beside his wife, with all the forensic evidence supporting  the conclusion that an ugly domestic altercation was to blame. Then the  Scientific Investigation Division would move in, with their pocket protectors  and bad haircuts, seeking fingerprints with powders, iodines, silver nitrate  solutions, ninhydrin solutions, cyanoacrylate fumes, even with methanol solution of rhodamine 6G and an argo ion laser. If  Ahriman had inadvertently left a single print where these tedious but meticulous  scientific types thought to look for it, his life would be changed, and not for  the better.

His well-placed friends could ensure that he was not easily brought to trial.  Evidence would disappear or be altered. Police detectives and prosecutors in the  district attorney's office would repeatedly screw up, and those obstructionists  who tried to conduct a credible investigation would have their lives complicated  and even ruined by all manner of troubles and tragedies that would appear to  have nothing whatsoever to do with Dr. Ahriman.

His friends would not be able to prevent him from falling under suspicion,  however, or be able to protect him from sensationalistic speculations in the  media. He would become a celebrity of sorts. That was not acceptable. Fame would  cramp his style.

When he accepted the bottle of Tsingtao from Susan, he thanked her, and she  said, "You're welcome."

Regardless of the circumstances, the doctor believed that good manners should be  observed. Civilization is the greatest game of all, a wonderfully elaborate  communal tournament in which one must play well in order to have the license to  pursue secret pleasures; mastering its rules-manners, etiquette-is essential to  successful gamesmanship.

Politely, Susan followed him to the door, where he paused to communicate his  final instructions for the night. "Assure me that you're listening, Susan."

"I'm listening."

"Be calm."

"I'm calm."

"Be obedient."

"Yes."

"The winter storm-"

"The storm is you," she replied.

"-hid in the bamboo grove-"

"The grove is me."

"-and quieted away."

"In the quiet, I will learn what is wanted," Susan said.

"After I leave, you will close the kitchen door, engage all the locks, and wedge  the chair under the knob, just as it was. You will return to bed, lie down, switch off the lamp, and close your eyes. Then, in your  mind, you will leave the chapel where you are now. When you close the chapel  door behind you, all recollection of what has happened from the moment you  picked up the telephone and heard my voice until you wake in bed will have been  erased-every sound, every image, every detail, every nuance will vanish from  your memory, never to be recovered. Then, counting to ten, you will ascend the  stairs, and when you reach ten, you will regain full consciousness. When you  open your eyes, you will believe you have awakened from a refreshing sleep. If  you understand all that I've said, please tell me so."

"I understand."

"Good night, Susan."

"Good night," she said, opening the door for him.

He stepped out onto the landing and whispered, "Thank you."

"You're welcome."

She softly closed the door.

Like an invading armada that meant to steal all memory of the world from those  sleeping in their cozy homes, galleons of heavy fog sailed in from the sea,  plundering all color first, then detail, depth, and shape.

From the other side of the door came the sound of the security chain sliding  into the latch-plate slot.

The first dead bolt snapped shut, followed a moment later by the second.

Smiling, nodding with satisfaction, the doctor drank a little beer and stared at  the steps in front of him, waiting. Glistening dewdrops, cold on the gray rubber  treads: tears on a dead face.

The back rail of the maple chair rapped once against the other side of the door  as Susan wedged it under the knob.

Now she would be padding barefoot back to bed.

Without need of the handrail, as nimble as a boy, Dr. Ahriman went down the  steep stairs, turning up the collar of his coat as he descended.

The bricks on the front patio were wet and as dark as blood. As far as he could  discern in the fog, the boardwalk beyond the patio appeared to be deserted. The gate in the white picket fence squeaked. In this earthbound cloud bank, the sound was muffled, too slight even to prick the ears of a cat on  guard for mice.

Departing, the doctor averted his face from the house. He had been equally  discreet upon arrival.

No lights had shone at the windows earlier. None were visible now. The retirees  renting the lower two floors were no doubt snug under their blankets, as  oblivious as their parakeets dozing in covered cages.

Nevertheless, Ahriman took sensible precautions. He was the lord of memory, but  not everyone was susceptible to his mind-clouding power.

Its voice muted by the dense mist, the lazy surf crumbling to shore was less a  sound than a vibration, less heard than felt as a tingle in the chilly air. Palm trees hung limp. Condensation dripped from the points of every blade of  every frond, like clear venom from the tongues of serpents.

He paused to look up at the fog-veiled crowns of the palms, suddenly uneasy for  reasons he could not identify. After a moment, puzzled, he took another swallow  of beer and continued along the boardwalk.

His Mercedes was two blocks away. He encountered no one en route.

Parked under a huge, dripping Indian laurel, the black sedan plinked, tinked,  and tatted like an out-of-tune xylophone.

In the car, as he was about to start the engine, Ahriman paused again, still  uneasy, brought closer to the source of his uneasiness by the tuneless music of  water droplets snapping steel. Finishing the beer, he stared out at the massive  overhanging canopy of the laurel, as if revelation awaited him in the complex  patterns of those branches.

When revelation didn't come, he started the car and drove west on Balboa  Boulevard, toward the head of the peninsula.

At three o'clock in the morning, traffic was light. He saw only three moving  vehicles in the first two miles, their headlights ringed by fuzzy aureoles in  the fog. One was a police car, heading down the peninsula, in no hurry.

Across the bridge to Pacific Coast Highway, glancing at the westernmost channel  of the huge harbor to his right, where yachts loomed like ghost ships at docks  and moorings in the mist, and then south along the coast, all the way into  Corona Del Mar, he puzzled over the cause of his uneasiness, until he came to a  stop at a red traffic light and found his attention drawn to a large California  pepper tree, lacy and elegant, rising out of low cascades of red bougainvillea.  He thought of the potted ming tree with the sprays of ivy at its base.

The ming tree. The ivy.

The traffic light changed to green.

So green, her eyes riveted on the ming tree.

The doctor's mind raced, but he kept his foot hard on the brake pedal.

Only when the light turned yellow did he finally drive through the deserted  intersection. He pulled to the curb in the next block, stopped, but didn't  switch off the engine.

An expert on the nature of memory, he now applied his knowledge to a meticulous  search of his own recollections of events in Susan Jagger's bedroom.

37

Nine.

Waking in darkness, Susan Jagger thought she heard someone speak that number.  Then she surprised herself by saying, "Ten."

Tense, listening for movement, she wondered if she had spoken both numbers or  whether her ten had been a reply.

A minute passed, another, with no sound but her low breathing, and then, when  she held her breath, no sound at all. She was alone.

According to the glowing numbers on the digital clock, it was shortly after  three in the morning. Apparently she had been asleep more than two hours.

Finally she sat up in bed and switched on the lamp.

The half-finished glass of wine. The book tumbled among the rumpled bedclothes.

The blind-covered windows, the furniture-all as it should be. The ming tree.

She raised her hands to her face and smelled them. She sniffed her right  forearm, as well, and then her left.

His scent. Unmistakable. Partly sweat, partly the lingering fragrance of his  preferred soap. Perhaps he used a scented hand lotion, as well.

If she could trust her memory, this was not how Eric smelled. Yet she remained  convinced that he, and no other, was her too-real incubus.

Even without the residual scent, she would have known that he had paid her a visit while she slept. A soreness here, a tenderness there. The  faint ammonia odor of his semen.

When she threw back the covers and got out of bed, she felt his viscid essence  continuing to seep from her, and she shuddered.

At the Biedermeier pedestal, she parted the concealing runners of ivy to reveal  the camcorder under the ming tree. At most, the cassette could contain a few  remaining feet of unused tape, but the camera was still recording.

She switched it off and extracted it from the pot.

Her curiosity and eagerness for justice were suddenly outweighed by her disgust.

She put the camcorder on the nightstand and hurried into the bathroom.

Often, upon awakening to the discovery that she had been used, Susan's disgust  settled into nausea, and she purged herself, as if by emptying her stomach she  could turn back the clock to just prior to dinner and, therefore, to a time  hours before she had been violated. Now, however, the nausea passed when she  reached the bathroom.

She wanted to take a long and extremely hot shower with lots of fragrant soap  and shampoo, scrubbing herself vigorously with a loofah sponge. She was tempted,  in fact, to shower first and watch the video later, because she felt dirtier  than ever before, intolerably filthy, as though she were smeared with a vile  grime she couldn't see, acrawl with hordes of microscopic parasites.

The videotape first. The truth. Then the cleansing.

Although she was able to delay her shower, repulsion drove her to strip out of  her clothes and wash her privates. She scrubbed her face, too, and then her  hands, and she gargled with a mint-flavored mouthwash.

She tossed the T-shirt into the clothes hamper. The panties, with his odious  ooze, she placed atop the closed lid of the hamper, because she didn't intend to  launder them.

If she had captured the intruder on videotape, she probably had all the evidence  she needed to file rape charges. Preserving a semen sample for DNA testing was  nonetheless wise.

Her condition and demeanor on the tape would no doubt convince the authorities  that she had been drugged-not a willing participant, but a victim. Yet when she  called the police, she would ask them to take a blood sample from her as soon as  possible, while traces of the drug remained in her system.

Once she knew the camcorder had worked, that the image was good, and that she  had irrefutable proof against Eric, she would be tempted to phone him before  ringing the cops. Not to accuse him. To ask why. Why this viciousness? Why this  secretive scheming? Why would he jeopardize her life and sanity with some  devil's brew of narcotics? Why such hatred?

She wouldn't make that call, however, because alerting him might be dangerous.  It was forbidden.

Forbidden. What an odd thought.

She realized that she had used the same word with Martie. Maybe it was the right  word, because what Eric had done to her was worse than abuse, seemed to be  beyond mere unlawful behavior, felt almost like an act of sacrilege. Marriage  vows are sacred, after all, or ought to be; therefore, these assaults were  arguably profane, forbidden.

In the bedroom again, she dressed in a clean T-shirt and fresh panties. The  thought of being naked while watching the hateful video was intolerable.

She sat on the edge of the bed and picked up the camera from the nightstand. She  rewound the cassette.

The preview window on the camcorder provided a three-inch-square image. She saw  herself returning to the bed after starting the tape, which she'd done a few  minutes past midnight.

The single bedside lamp provided adequate-though not ideal- light for  videotaping. Consequently, the clarity of the image on the small preview window  was not good.

She ejected the cassette from the camcorder, put it in the VCR, and turned on  the television. Holding the remote control in both hands, she sat on the foot of  the bed and watched with fascination and apprehension.

She saw herself as she had been at midnight, returning to the bed after  resetting the tape in the camcorder, saw herself get into bed and switch off the  TV.

For a moment, she sits in bed, listening intently to the silent apartment. Then  as she reaches for the book, the telephone rings.

Susan frowned. She had no recollection of having received a phone call.

She picks up the handset. "Hello?"

At best the videotape could provide her with only one side of the telephone conversation. Her distance from the camcorder ensured that some of her  words were fuzzy, but what she heard made even less sense than she had expected. Hurrying, she hangs up the phone, gets out of bed, and leaves the room.

From the moment she had taken the call, there had been subtle changes in her  face and body language that she perceived but could not easily define. Subtle as  those changes were, however, as she watched herself leaving this bedroom, she  seemed to be watching a stranger.

She waited half a minute, and then fast-forwarded through the tape until she saw  movement.

Shadowy forms in the hallway beyond the open bedroom door Then she herself  returning. Behind her, a man moves out of the dark hail, across the threshold.

Dr. Ahriman.

Astonishment left Susan breathless. Stiller than stone, colder, too, she was  suddenly deaf to the audio portion of the tape, deaf to her own heartbeat, as  well. She sat like a marble maiden sculpted for the focal point of a  boxwood-hedge parterre in a formal garden, and here misplaced.

After a moment, astonishment spawned disbelief, and she inhaled sharply. She  pressed the pause button on the remote control.

In the frozen image, she sat on the edge of the bed, rather as she was sitting  now. Ahriman stood over her.

She pressed rewind, reversing herself and the doctor out of the room. Then she  touched play and watched the shadows in the hallway resolve into people once  more, half convinced that this time Eric would follow her across the threshold.  Because Dr. Ahriman-his being here was impossible. He was ethical. Widely  admired. So professional. Compassionate. Concerned. Simply impossible: here,  like this. She would have been no more disbelieving if she had seen her own  father on the tape, and less shocked if what followed her into the room had been  a demonic incubus with horns sprouting from its forehead, eyes as yellow and  radiant as those of a cat. Tall, self-assured, and hornless, here came Ahriman  once more, puncturing disbelief.

Handsome as ever handsome in an actorly way, the doctor's face was the stage for  an expression she had never before seen on it. Not entirely raw lust, as might  have been expected, although lust was a component. Not a mask of madness, though  his chiseled features were ever so slightly misaligned, as if they were being distorted by some inner  pressure that had only just begun to build. Studying his face, Susan at last  recognized the attitude: smugness.

This wasn't the prim-mouth, pinched-eye, cocked-head smugness of a moralizing  preacher or of a temperance-sotted prude announcing his disdain for all those  who drank, who smoked, and who ate a high-cholesterol diet. Here, instead, was  the smirking superiority of an adolescent. Once he passed through the bedroom  doorway, Ahriman had the lazy posture, the loose-limbed movements, and the  cockiness of a schoolboy who believed that all adults were morons-and a shiny,  hot-eyed stare of squirmy pubescent need.

This criminal and the psychiatrist whose office she attended twice each week  were physically identical. The difference between them was entirely one of  attitude. And yet the difference was so alarming that her heart rapped hard and  fast.

Her disbelief gave way to anger and to a sense of betrayal so intense that she  spat out a series of expletives, in a bitter voice unlike her own, as if she  suffered from Tourette's syndrome.

On the tape, the doctor moved out of frame to the armchair.

He orders her to crawl to him, and crawl she does.

Watching this record of her humiliation was almost more than Susan could bear,  but she did not press stop, because watching fed her anger, and that was good  right now. Anger gave her strength, empowered her after sixteen months of  feeling powerless.

She fast-forwarded until she and the doctor returned to the frame. They were  naked now.

Grim-faced, using the fast-forward button several times, she watched a series of  depravities interspersed with periods of ordinary sex that seemed, by  comparison, as innocent as teenagers necking.

How he could effect this control of her, how he could erase such shocking events  from her mind-these mysteries seemed as deep as the origins of the universe and  the meaning of life. She was overcome by a feeling of unreality, as though  nothing in the world was what it appeared to be, all of it just an elaborate  stage setting and the people merely players.

This trash on the TV was real, however, as real as the stains in the underwear  that she had left on the hamper lid in the bathroom.

Leaving the tape running, she turned away from the television and went to the phone. She keyed in two digits-9, 1-but not the second 1. If she called the police, she would have to open the door to let them into the  apartment. They might want her to go with them somewhere, to make a full  statement, or to a hospital emergency room to be examined for indications of  rape that later would be useful evidence in court.

Although strong with anger, she was not nearly strong enough to overcome her  agoraphobia. The mere thought of going outside was enough to bring the familiar  panic back into her heart.

She would do what was necessary, go where they wanted, as often as they wanted.  She would do anything she was required to do if it would put the sick son of a  bitch Ahriman behind bars for a long, long time.

The prospect of going outside with strangers, however, was too distressing to  contemplate, even if those strangers were policemen. She needed the support of a  friend, someone she trusted with her life, because going outside felt as close  to death as anything but dying itself.

She called Martie and got the answering machine. She knew their phone didn't  ring through to their bedroom at night, but one of them might be awakened by the  ringing down the hall, might go to Martie's office out of curiosity, to see who  was phoning at this ungodly hour.

After the beep, Susan said, "Martie, it's me. Martie, are you there?" She  paused. "Listen, if you're there, for God's sake, pickup." Nothing. "It isn't  Eric, Martie. It's Ahriman. It's Ahriman. I've got the bastard on videotape. The  bastard-after the good deal he got on his house. Martie, please, please, call  me. I need help."

Suddenly sick to her stomach again, she hung up.

Sitting on the edge of the bed, Susan clenched her teeth and put one cold hand  on the nape of her neck, the other on her abdomen. The spasm of nausea passed. She glanced at the television-and looked at once away.

Staring at the phone, willing it to ring, she said, "Martie, please. Call me.  Now, now."

The half glass of wine had been sitting untouched for hours. She drained it. She pulled open the top drawer in her nightstand and withdrew the pistol that  she kept for protection.

As far as she knew, Ahriman never visited her twice in one night. As far as she  knew.

She suddenly realized the absurdity of something she had said to Martie's  answering machine: The bastard-after the good deal he got on his house. She had  sold Mark Ahriman his current residence eighteen months ago, two months before  the onset of her agoraphobia. She represented the seller, and the doctor walked  in during an open house, and he asked her to represent him as well. She'd done a  damn good job looking after the interests of buyer and seller, but it was  admittedly a stretch to expect that if her client was a seriously demented  sociopathic rapist, he would cut her a little slack because she had been an  ethical Realtor.

She started to laugh, choked on the laugh, sought refuge in the wine, realized  none was left, and put down the empty glass in favor of the handgun. "Martie,  please. Call, call."

The telephone rang.

She set the gun aside and snatched up the phone.

"Yeah," she said.

Before she could say more, a man said, "Ben Marco."

"I'm listening."

38

Having rebuilt the dream in his memory, Dusty walked through it as though  touring a museum, leisurely contemplating each Gothic image. Heron at the  window, heron in the room. Silent strikes of lambent lightning in a thunderless,  rainless storm. Brass tree with glucose fruit. Martie meditating.

Studying the nightmare, Dusty was increasingly convinced that a monstrous truth  was concealed in it, like a scorpion waiting in the smallest container in a  stack of Chinese boxes. This particular stack contained a lot of boxes, however,  many of them tricky to open, and the truth remained hidden, poised to sting. Eventually, frustrated, he got out of bed and went to the bathroom. Martie was  sleeping so soundly, was cuffed and hobbled so securely by Dusty's neckties,  that she was unlikely either to wake up or to leave the room while he was away  from her side.

A few minutes later, as he was washing his hands at the bathroom sink, Dusty was  visited by a revelation. It was not a sudden insight into the meaning of the  dream, but an answer to a question over which he'd been puzzling earlier, before  Martie had awakened and demanded to be tied hand and foot.

Missions.

Skeet's haiku.

Clear cascades. Into the waves scatter Blue pine needles.

The pine needles were missions, Skeet had said.

Trying to make sense of this, Dusty had made a mental list of synonyms for  mission, but nothing he'd come up with had furthered his understanding. Task.  Work. Chore. Job. Calling. Vocation. Career Church.

Now, as he held his hands under the hot water, rinsing the soap from them,  another series of words poured into his mind. Errand. Charge. Assignment.

Instructions.

Dusty stood at this sink almost as Skeet had stood with his hands under the  near-scalding water in the bathroom at New Life, brooding about the word  instructions.

The fine hairs on the back of his neck suddenly felt as stiff as tightly  stretched piano wires, and a reverberant chill like a silent glissando shivered  down the keys of his spine.

The name Dr. Yen Lo, when spoken to Skeet, had elicited a formal reply: I'm  listening. Thereafter, he'd answered questions only with questions.

Skeet, do you know where you are?

Where am I?

So you don't know?

Do I?

Can't you look around?

Can I?

Is this an Abbott and Costello routine?

Is it?

Skeet had answered questions only with questions of his own, as if seeking to be  told what he should think or do, but he had responded to statements as though  they were commands, and to actual commands as though they came directly from the  lips of God. When, in frustration, Dusty had said, Ab, give me a break and go to  sleep, his brother had fallen instantly unconscious.

Skeet had referred to the haiku as "the rules," and Dusty later had thought of  the poem as a mechanism of some kind, a simple device with a powerful effect,  the verbal equivalent of a nail gun, though he had not been quite sure what he  meant by that.

Now, as he continued to explore the ramifications of the word instructions, he  realized that the haiku might better be defined not as a mechanism, not as a  device, but as a computer operating system, the software that allows the  instructions to be received, understood, and followed.

And what the hell was the logical deduction to be drawn from the  haiku-as-software hypothesis? That Skeet was. . . programmed?

As Dusty shut off the water, he thought he heard the faint ringing of a phone. Dripping hands raised as though he were a surgeon fresh from a scrub sink, he  stepped out of the bathroom, into the bedroom, and listened. The house was  silent.

If a call had come in, it would have been picked up after the second ring by the  answering machine in Martie's office.

Most likely, he had imagined the ringing. No one ever called them at this hour.  Nevertheless, he ought to check it out before he returned to bed.

In the bathroom once more, drying his hands on a towel, he turned the word  programmed over and over in his mind, considering all the ramifications of it.

Staring into the mirror, Dusty saw not his reflection but a replay of the  strange events in Skeet's room at New Life Clinic.

Then his memory wound time backward to the previous morning, to the roof of the  Sorensons' house.

Skeet claimed to have seen the Other Side. An angel of death had shown him what  waited beyond this world, and the kid had liked what he'd seen. Then the angel  had instructed him to jump. Skeet's very word: Instructed.

That icy glissando again, along Dusty's spine. Another of the Chinese boxes had  been opened, though yet another box lay inside it. Each box smaller than the  last. Perhaps not many layers of the puzzle were left to be resolved. He could  almost hear the scorpion scuttle: the sound of a nasty truth waiting to sting  when the last lid was lifted.

39

The soft shush of surf, conspiratorial fog cover his return.

Dew on the gray steps. Snail on the second wet tread. Crushed hard underfoot. Ascending, the doctor whispered into his cell phone: "The winter storm-"

Susan Jagger said, "The storm is you."

"-hid in the bamboo grove-"

"The grove is me."

"-and quieted away."

"In the quiet, I will learn what is wanted."

Arriving at the landing outside her door, he said, "Let me in."

"Yes."

"Quickly," he said, and then terminated the call and pocketed the phone.

He glanced worriedly toward the deserted boardwalk.

Hanging in the fog, cascades of dead-still palm fronds, like cold dark  fireworks.

With a rattle and scrape, the bracing chair was removed from under the doorknob  in the kitchen. The first dead bolt. The second. The clatter of the security  chain being disengaged.

When Susan greeted him demurely, without a word but with an obedient half bow,  as though she were a geisha, Ahriman stepped inside. He waited while she closed the door again and engaged one of the locks,  and then he instructed her to lead him to her bedroom.

Across the kitchen, through the dining room and living room, along the short  hall to the bedroom, he said, "I think you've been a bad girl, Susan. I don't  know how you could scheme against me, why it would even occur to you to do such  a thing, but I'm pretty sure that's what you've done."

Earlier, every time she had looked away from him, she had turned her eyes toward  the potted ming tree. And each time, before her gaze was drawn to that bit of  greenery, Ahriman had first made reference either to the videotape he'd shot of  her or to the tape he intended to shoot on his next visit. When she appeared to  be tense and racked by worry, he directed her to reveal the source of her  anxiety, and when she said simply, The video, he made the obvious assumption.

Obvious and perhaps wrong. His suspicion had been aroused, almost too late, by  the fact that she always looked toward the ming tree: not at the floor, as might  be expected when bowed by shame, and not at the bed where so much of her  humiliation had occurred, but always at the ming tree.

Now, following her into the bedroom, he said, "I want to see what's in that pot,  under the ivy."

Dutifully, she led him toward the Biedermeier pedestal, but the doctor stopped  short when he saw what was playing on the TV.

"I'll be damned," he said.

He would have been damned, in fact, if he had not recognized the cause of his  suspicion, if he had finally driven home and gone to bed without returning here.

"Come to me," he said.

As Susan approached, the doctor made fists of his hands. He wanted to punch her  pretty face.

Girls. They were all alike.

As a boy, he'd seen no use for them, had wanted nothing to do with them. Girls  had made him sick with all their coy manipulations. The best thing about them  was that he could make them cry without much effort-all those beautiful, salty  tears-but then they always ran to their mothers or fathers to tattle. He was  good at defending himself against their hysterical accusations; adults tended to  find him charming and convincing. He had soon realized, however, that he must learn discretion and not let his thirst for tears control him the way that  a taste for cocaine controlled more than a few people in the Hollywood crowd  with which his father worked.

Eventually, victimized by his hormones, he discovered that he needed girls for  more than their tears. He learned, too, how easily a handsome lad like him could  play games that put girls' hearts in his hands, allowing him to wring more tears  from them through calculated romance and betrayal than, as a younger boy, he had  ever gotten from them by pinching, poking, boxing ears, and pushing them into  mud puddles.

Decades of torturing them emotionally had not, however, made them any more  appealing to him than they had been when he was just a preschooler dropping  caterpillars down their blouses. Girls still annoyed more than charmed him, left  him feeling vaguely ill after he had indulged with them, and the fact that he  was also fascinated by them only made him resent them more. Worse, sex was never  enough for them; they wanted you to father their children. The marrow crawled in  his bones at the thought of being anyone's father. He had once nearly fallen  into that trap, but fate had favored his escape. You couldn't trust children.  They were inside your defenses, and when you least expected it, they could kill  you and steal your wealth. The doctor knew all about such treachery. And if you  fathered a daughter, the mother and child would surely conspire against you at  every turn. In the doctor's view, all other men belonged to a breed different  from-and far inferior to-his own, but girls were another species entirely, not  merely another breed; girls were alien and ultimately unknowable.

When Susan stopped before him, the doctor raised one fist.

She appeared free of fear. Her personality was now so deeply repressed that she  was unable to exhibit emotion until instructed to do so.

"I should beat your face in."

Although he heard the boyish petulance in his voice, he wasn't embarrassed by  it. The doctor was sufficiently self-aware to realize that during these games of  control, he was undergoing personality regression, descending the ladder of  years. This descent was not mortifying or troubling in the least; indeed, it was  essential if he were to enjoy the moment in its fullness. As an adult of broad  experience, he was jaded; but as a boy, he still had a delightfully raw sense of wonder, was  still thrilled by every nuance of the imaginative abuse of power.

"I should just beat your stupid face so hard you'll be ugly forever."

Deep under his spell, Susan remained serene. A spasm of REM seized her for a few  seconds, but it was unrelated to his threat.

Discretion and restraint were now essential. Ahriman dared not strike her. Her  death, if properly staged, was unlikely to generate a homicide investigation.

Bruised and battered, however, she would not be a credible suicide.

"I don't like you anymore, Susie. I don't like you at all."

She was silent, because she hadn't been instructed to reply.

"I assume that you haven't yet called the police. Tell me if that's correct."

"That's correct."

"Have you spoken to anyone about that videotape on the TV?"

"Have I?"

Cautioning himself that her response was not defiant, that this was only how she  was programmed to reply to questions when she was far down in the mind chapel,  the doctor lowered his fist and slowly unclenched it. "Tell me, yes or no, if  you have spoken to anyone about that videotape on the TV"

Relieved, he took her by the arm and led her to the bed. "Sit down, girl."

She sat on the edge of the bed, knees pressed together, hands folded in her lap.

For a few minutes the doctor quizzed her, phrasing his questions as statements  and commands, until he understood why she had set the trap with the camcorder.

She had been after evidence against Eric, not against her psychiatrist.

Although her memory was erased after each of their assignations, Susan was  certain to suspect that she had been sexually used, and if the doctor did not  choose to sponge up and take with him every drop of sweat and passion that he  produced, Susan was also certain to find evidence to support her suspicion.  Ahriman chose not to be obsessive about postcoital cleanup, because that would  diminish the thrill of power and compromise the pleasing illusion that his  awesome control was absolute. There would be little fun in either a food fight or bloody  murder if, afterward, one were required to wash the walls and mop the floor.

He was an adventurer, after all, not a housekeeper.

He had numerous techniques with which to mitigate or misdirect Susan's  suspicion. For one thing, he could have suggested to her that upon waking she  would simply ignore all signs of physical abuse, be unaware of even the most  obvious evidence of intercourse.

In a more playful mood, the doctor could have implanted in her the conviction  that she was being visited by a yellow-eyed spawn of the brimstone pit  determined to breed with her and bring forth the Antichrist. By seeding  dreamlike memories of an evil night-lover with a coarse leathery body, sulfurous  breath, and a forked black tongue, he literally could have made her life a  living Hell.

Ahriman had played that tune with others, strumming the harp of superstition,  inducing severe cases of demonophobia-the fear of demons and devils-that had  shattered his patients' lives. He had found such sport highly entertaining, but  only for a while. This phobia could be more poisonous than others, often  advancing swiftly to a complete mental decline and outright insanity. In the  long run, therefore, Ahriman found it to be less than fully satisfying, because  the tears of the mad, who were detached from their suffering, were not as  invigorating as the tears of the sane, who still believed that they had a hope  of recovery.

From his many other options, the doctor had chosen to direct Susan's suspicion  toward her estranged husband. This current game, for which he'd mentally  composed a particularly bloody and intricate scenario, was meant to end in a  storm of violence that would make nationwide news. The precise details of the  final inning were constantly being revised in the doctor's mind, although Eric  might be either a significant perpetrator or a victim.

By encouraging Susan to focus her suspicion on Eric and then forbidding her to  confront him, Ahriman had crafted a clockspring of psychological tension. Week  by week, the spring wound tighter, until Susan could barely contain the  tremendous emotional energy coiled in it. Consequently, desperate to relieve  that tension, she had sought proof of her estranged husband's guilt, sufficient  evidence to make it possible for her to go directly to the police and avoid the  forbidden confrontation with Eric himself.

Ordinarily, this situation would not have arisen, because the doctor never toyed  with anyone as long as he had played with Susan Jagger. He had begun to drug and  condition her a year and a half ago, for God's sake, and she had been his  patient for sixteen months. Usually he grew bored in six months, sometimes in as  few as two or three. Then either he cured the patient, stripping away the phobia  or the obsession that he'd implanted in the first place, thereby adding to his  singular reputation as a therapist-or he devised a death colorful enough to be  satisfying to a gamesman of his experience. Bewitched by Susan's exceptional  beauty, he had dallied far too long, allowing her stress to build, until she was  driven to this act of entrapment.

Girls. They were always trouble, sooner or later.

Rising from the edge of the bed, Ahriman ordered Susan to stand, as well, and  she obeyed.

"You've really messed up my game," he said, impatient with her now. "I'll have  to figure out a whole new ending."

He could question her to discover when the camcorder scheme had first occurred  to her, and could then follow through from that moment to the present, excising  all related memories; in the end, however, she might be aware of odd gaps in her  day. He could relatively easily erase a whole block of time from a subject's  memory and then fill the gap with false recollections that, though painted with  a broad brush, were convincing in spite of their lack of detail. Comparatively,  it was quite difficult to finesse out a single narrative thread from the broader  weave of memory-like trying to strip out the fine veins of fat from a  well-marbled filet mignon, while leaving the cut of meat intact. He could  rectify the situation and remove from Susan's mind all knowledge that he was her  tormentor, but he didn't have enough time, energy, or patience to do so.

"Susan, tell me where you keep the nearest pen and notepaper."

"Beside the bed."

"Get them, please."

When he followed her around the bed, he saw the pistol on the nightstand. She appeared to have no interest in the gun. She opened the nightstand drawer  and withdrew a ballpoint pen and a lined notepad the size of a stenographer's  tablet. At the top of each page in the pad was her photograph, plus the logo and  phone numbers of the real-estate company for which she had worked before agoraphobia had ended her career.

"Put the gun away, please," he directed, with no fear whatsoever that she would  use the weapon on him.

She placed the pistol in the nightstand and closed the drawer. Turning to  Ahriman, she held out the pen and the notepad.

He said, "Bring them with you."

"Where?"

"Follow me."

The doctor led her to the dining room. There, he instructed her to switch on the  chandelier and sit at the table.

40

Still staring into the bathroom mirror, reviewing yet again his rooftop  conversation with Skeet, trying to marshal details that would lend credibility  to his incredible theory that his brother had been programmed, Dusty realized  that he was finished with sleep for the night. Mosquito swarms of questions  buzzed through his mind, their bites more ruinous of sleep than pots of black  coffee boiled to the thickness of molasses.

Who would have programmed Skeet? When? How? Where? For what possible purpose?  And why Skeet, of all people: self-admitted feeb, druggie, sweet loser that he  was?

The whole thing smelled-smacked-reeked of paranoia. Perhaps this crazy-ass  theory would make sense in the world of paranormal talk radio, in which Fig  Newton lived while painting houses-and in fact during most of his waking  hours-in that unreal but widely cherished America where scheming  extraterrestrials were busily crossbreeding with hapless human females, where  transdimensional beings were reputed to be responsible for both global warming  and outrageous credit-card interest rates, where the President of the United  States had been secretly replaced by a look-alike android assembled in Bill  Gates's basement, where Elvis was alive and living on an elaborate space station  built and operated by Walt Disney, whose brain had been transplanted into a host  body that we now know as the rap star and movie titan, Will Smith. But the idea of a programmed  Skeet didn't make sense here, not here in the real world, where Elvis was  thoroughly dead, where Disney was dead, too, and where the closest things to  horny extraterrestrials were the aging cast of Star Trek on Viagra.

Dusty would have laughed off his harebrained theory. . . assuming that Skeet had  not said he'd been instructed to take a header from the Sorensons' roof,  assuming the kid hadn't dropped into that eerie trance at New Life Clinic,  assuming all of them-Skeet, Martie, and Dusty himself-had not been missing bits  of time from their day, and assuming their lives hadn't abruptly fallen apart  with such uncanny simultaneity and with the cataclysmic weirdness of a two-part  X Files episode. If laughs were dollars, if chuckles were quarters, and if  smiles were pennies, Dusty would at the moment be flat broke.

Are you lonesome tonight, Elvis, up there in orbit?

Certain that insomnia would be his companion until dawn, he decided to shave and  shower while Martie was still deep in a drugged sleep. When she woke, if she was  once more gripped by that grotesque fear of herself, she wouldn't want him to  let her out of his sight, for fear she would somehow wrench loose of her  restraints and creep up on him with homicidal intent.

A few minutes later, smooth-cheeked, Dusty switched off his electric razor-and  heard muffled cries of distress coming from the bedroom.

When he reached Martie's side, he found her whimpering in her sleep, dreaming  again. She strained at her bonds and murmured, "No, no, no, no."

Stirred from dog fantasies no doubt full of tennis balls and bowls of kibble,  Valet raised his head to crack a wide and toothy yawn worthy of a crocodile, but  he did not growl.

Martie rolled her head back and forth on her pillow, grimacing and softly  groaning, like a feverish malaria patient wandering the land of delirium.

Dusty blotted her damp brow with a few Kleenex, smoothed her hair away from her  face, and held her stylishly shackled hands until she quieted.

In which nightmare was she snared? The one that had plagued her on several other  occasions over the past half year, involving the hulking figure composed of dead leaves? Or the new spook show from which she  awakened earlier, choking and gagging and scrubbing at her mouth with both  hands?

As Martie settled into silent sleep once more, Dusty wondered if her recurring  dream of the Leaf Man might be as meaningful as his encounter with the  lightning-chased heron had seemed to him.

She had described the nightmare to him months ago, the second or third time that  she had suffered through it. Now he brought it forth from his vaultlike memory  and examined it as he watched over her.

Though at first consideration, their dreams appeared to be utterly different  from each other, analysis revealed disturbing similarities.

Increasingly mystified rather than enlightened, Dusty pondered the points of  intersection, nightmare to nightmare.

He wondered if Skeet had been dreaming recently.

Still lying on his sheepskin pillow, Valet blew air out of his nostrils, one of  those forceful but entirely voluntary quasi-sneezes with which he cleared his  nose when preparing to seek the scent of rabbits on a morning walk. This time,  with no rabbits in the house, it seemed to be a skeptical judgment of his  master's sudden new obsession with dreams.

"There's something to it," Dusty muttered.

Valet blew air again.

41

Restlessly circling the room, Ahriman composed a wonderfully poignant farewell  to life, which Susan took down in her graceful handwriting. He knew exactly what  to put in and what to leave out in order to convince even the most skeptical  police detective that the note was authentic.

Handwriting analysis would, of course, leave little or no room for doubt, but  the doctor was meticulous.

Composition under these circumstances was not easy. His mouth was sour with the  lingering aftertaste of Tsingtao. Weary to the bone, eyes hot and grainy, mind  fuzzy from lack of sleep, he mentally polished every sentence before dictating  it.

He was distracted by Susan, as well. Perhaps because he would never possess her  again, she seemed more beautiful to him than at any previous moment of their  relationship.

Banners of gold hair. Egyptian-green firework eyes. Sad, this broken toy. No. That was a lousy haiku. Embarrassing. It had seventeen syllables, all right,  and in the ideal five-seven-five pattern, but not much else.

He could occasionally compose a reasonably good verse about a snail on a stair  tread, crushed hard underfoot, and stuff like that, but when it came to writing  lines to capture the look, the mood, the essence of a girl, any girl, then he  floundered.

Some truth in his lousy haiku: She was broken, this once-fine toy. Although she  still looked great, she was badly damaged, and he couldn't simply fix her with a  little glue, as he might have repaired a plastic figurine from a classic Marx  playset like Roy Rogers Rodeo Ranch or Tom Corbett Space Academy.

Girls. They always let you down when you're counting on them.

Filled with a strange mix of sentimental yearning and sullen resentment, Ahriman  finished composing the suicide note. He stood over Susan to watch as she signed  her name at the bottom.

Her long-fingered hands. The gracefully looping pen. Last words without tears. Shit.

Leaving the notepad on the table for now, the doctor led Susan into the kitchen.  At his request she produced a spare apartment key from the built-in secretaire  where she sat to compose shopping lists and plan menus. He already had a key,  but he hadn't brought it with him. He pocketed this one, and they returned to  the bedroom.

The videotape was still playing. At his direction, she used the remote to stop  it; then she ejected it from the VCR and put it on the nightstand beside the  empty wineglass.

"Tell me where you usually store the camcorder."

Her eyes jiggled. Then her gaze steadied. "In a box on the top shelf of that  closet," she said, pointing.

"Please pack it up and put it away."

She had to bring a two-step folding stool from the kitchen to complete the task. Next, he instructed her to use a hand towel from the bathroom to wipe down the  nightstands, the headboard of the bed, and anything else he might have touched  while in the bedroom. He monitored her to ensure that she did a thorough job. Because he was careful to avoid touching most surfaces in the apartment, Ahriman  had little concern that his prints would be found anywhere but in Susan's two  most private chambers. When she finished in the bedroom, he stood in the doorway  of the bathroom for about ten minutes, watching as she polished tile, glass,  brass, and porcelain.

Task completed, she folded the hand towel into perfectly aligned thirds and  draped it on a brushed-brass bar beside another hand towel that was folded and hung in precisely the same manner. The doctor valued  neatness.

When he saw the folded white cotton panties on the hamper lid, he had almost  instructed her to toss them in with the other laundry, but instinct had led him  to question her about them. When he learned that they had been set aside to  provide a DNA sample to the police, he was shocked.

Girls. Devious. Cunning. More than once, when the doctor was a boy, girls had  taunted him into pushing them down a flight of porch steps or shoving them into  a thorny rosebush, whereupon they had always run to the nearest adults, claiming  that the assault had been unprovoked, that it had been pure meanness. Here, now,  these decades later, more treachery.

He could have instructed her to wash the panties in the sink, but he decided  that prudence required him to take them when he left, remove them from the  apartment altogether.

The doctor wasn't an expert on the latest forensic techniques of practical  homicide investigation, but he was reasonably sure that latent fingerprints on  human skin lasted only a few hours or less. They could be lifted with the use of  lasers and other sophisticated equipment, but he knew simpler procedures might  also be effective. Kromekote cards or unexposed Polaroid film, pressed firmly to  the skin, will transfer the incriminating print; when the card or film is dusted  with black powder, a mirror image of the latent print appears and must then be  reversed through photography. Magnetic powder applied with a Magna Brush  directly to the skin is acceptable in a pinch, and the iodine-silver transfer  method is an alternative if a fuming gun and silver sheets are close at hand. He didn't expect Susan's body to be found for five or six hours, perhaps much  longer. By then, the early stages of decomposition would have eradicated all the  latent prints on her skin.

Nevertheless, he had touched virtually every plane and curve of her body-and  often. To be a winner at these games, one had to play with energetic enthusiasm  but also with a detailed knowledge of the rules and with a talent for strategy. He suggested that Susan draw a hot bath. Then step by step he walked her through  the remaining minutes of her life.

While the tub was filling, she got a safety razor from one of the vanity drawers. She had used it to shave her legs; but now it would serve a more  serious purpose.

She twisted open the razor and extracted the single-edge blade. She put the  blade on the flat rim of the bathtub.

She undressed for the bath. Naked, she didn't look broken, and Ahriman wished he  could keep her.

Waiting for further instruction, Susan stood beside the bathtub, watching the  water gush out of the faucet.

Studying her reflection in the mirror, Ahriman took pride in her tranquility.  Intellectually, she was aware that she would soon be dead, but because of the  excellent work he'd done with her, she lacked the capacity for genuine and  spontaneous emotional response while in this state of total personality  submersion.

The doctor regretted that the time inevitably came when each of his acquisitions  must be discarded and allowed to go the way of all flesh.

He wished he could preserve each of them in perfect condition and set aside a  few rooms of his house to a display of them, just as he currently dedicated  space to his Corgi model cars, die-cast banks, playsets, and other enthusiasms.  What a delight it would be to walk among them at will, these women and men who  had been both his cat's-paws and his companions over the years. With his own  engraving kit, he could lovingly prepare brass plaques featuring their names,  vital statistics, and dates of acquisition-just as he did for items in his other  collections. His videotapes were splendid mementos, but they were all motion in  two dimensions, providing none of the depth or the satisfying tactility that  physically preserved playthings could offer.

The problem was rot. The doctor was a perfectionist who would not add an item to  one of his collections unless it was in mint or near-mint condition. Not for him  the merely excellent or very good example. Because no known form of  preservation, from mummification to state-of-the-art embalming, could meet his  high standards, he would of necessity continue to rely on his videotapes when  overcome by a nostalgic and sentimental mood.

Now, he sent Susan to the dining room to retrieve the notepad on which she had  written her farewell to life. She returned with it and placed it on the freshly  polished tile top of the vanity, next to the sink, where it would be found  simultaneously with her cadaver.

The bath was ready. She turned off both faucets.

She added scented salts to the water.

The doctor was surprised, because he had not instructed her to spice the bath.

Evidently, she always did so before stepping into the tub, and this act was  essentially a conditioned reflex that required no volitional thinking.

Interesting.

Writhing vines of steam, rising from the water, now bloomed with the faint  fragrance of roses.

Sitting on the closed lid of the toilet, careful not to touch anything with his  hands, Ahriman instructed Susan to enter the bath, to sit, and to bathe herself  with special thoroughness. There was no longer any danger that a laser,  Kromekote card, Magna Brush, or fuming gun could turn up incriminating  fingerprints on her skin. He was counting on the action of her bath to flush out  and disperse all of his semen, as well.

No doubt, in the bedroom and elsewhere in the apartment, he had left behind  hairs and fibers from his clothing that could be gathered in a police-lab  vacuum. Without good fingerprints, however, or other direct evidence that could  put him on a list of suspects, they would not be able to trace these scraps of  evidence back to him.

Besides, because he had taken such pains to present the police with a convincing  tableau and a solid motivation for suicide, they were not likely to pursue even  a cursory homicide investigation.

He would have liked to watch Susan bathe a while longer, for she was an  enchanting sight; however, he was weary, sleepy. Furthermore, he wanted to leave  the apartment well before dawn, when there was only a small chance of  encountering witnesses.

"Susan, please pick up the razor blade."

For a moment, the steel blade stuck to the wet rim of the tub. Then she got it  between the thumb and forefinger of her right hand.

The doctor preferred flamboyant destruction. Easily bored, he saw no thrill in a  poisoned cup of tea, in a simple hangman's noose- or, in this case, in the  severance of a radial artery or two. The real fun was in shotguns, large-caliber  handguns, axes, chain saws, and explosives.

Her pistol had interested him. But a gunshot would wake the retirees downstairs,  even if they had gone to bed martini-sotted, as usual.

Disappointed but determined not to surrender to his taste for the theatrical, Ahriman told Susan how to grip the blade, precisely where to cut on  her left wrist, and how hard to press. Before the mortal slice, she scored her  flesh lightly, and then lightly again, producing the hesitation marks that the  police were accustomed to seeing in more than half of such suicides. Then, with  no expression on her face and with only pure green beauty in her eyes, she made  a third cut, much deeper than the first two.

Because some tendon damage was unavoidably sustained in addition to the severing  of the radial artery, she couldn't hold the blade as firmly in her left hand as  she had held it in her right. The wound in her right wrist was comparatively  shallow and bled less heartily than the wound in her left; but that, too, would  be consistent with police expectations.

She dropped the blade. Lowered her arms into the water.

"Thank you," he said.

"You're welcome."

The doctor waited with her for the end. He could have walked out, confident that  in this obedient state, even unchaperoned, she would sit calmly in the tub until  she died. Already in this game, however, fate had thrown him a couple of  change-up pitches, and he was going to remain alert for another.

Far less steam arose from the water now, and attar of roses was not the only  scent it carried anymore.

Yearning for greater drama, Ahriman considered bringing Susan out of the mind  chapel and up a flight or two of stairs, nearer to full consciousness, where she  could better appreciate her plight. Although he could control her at higher  levels of awareness, there was a slim but real chance that an involuntary cry of  terror or despair would escape her, just loud enough to wake pensioners and  parakeets downstairs.

He waited.

The bathwater grew darker as it cooled, though the color that Susan lent to it  was hot.

She sat in silence, no more touched by emotion than the tub that contained her,  and the doctor was, therefore, shocked to see a single tear track down her face. He leaned forward, disbelieving, certain that it must be mere water or  perspiration.

When the drop had descended the length of her face, another- larger than the first, enormous-welled from the same eye, and there could be no  question that this was the genuine article.

Here was more entertainment than he had expected. Fascinated, he monitored the  descent of the tear over the elegant swell of her high cheekbone, into the  pocket of her cheek, to the corner of her ripe mouth, and then toward the line  of her jaw, where it arrived diminished but large enough to quiver like a  pendulous jewel.

This second tear was not followed by a third. The dry lips of Death had kissed  away the excess moisture in her eyes.

When Susan's mouth sagged open, as though with awe, the second-and last-tear  trembled and fell from her delicate jaw into the bathwater, with the faintest  detectable plink like a note struck from the highest octave on a piano keyboard  rooms and rooms away.

Green eyes growing gray. Rosy skin borrows color.. . from the razor blade. He rather liked that one.

Leaving the lights on, of course, Ahriman picked up her soiled underwear from  the hamper lid and stepped out of the bathroom, into the bedroom, where he  retrieved the videotape.

In the living room, he paused to enjoy the subtle scent of citrus potpourri  seeping from the ceramic jars. He had always meant to ask Susan where she'd  purchased this particular melange, so that he could acquire some for his own  home. Too late.

At the kitchen door, fingers safely wrapped in Kleenex, he twisted the thumbturn  on the only lock that she had engaged following his arrival. Outside, after  quietly pulling the door shut, he used the spare key from the secretaire to  engage both dead bolts.

He could do nothing about the security chain. This one detail should not make  the authorities unduly suspicious.

The night and the fog, his conspirators, still waited for him, and the surf had  grown louder since last he'd heard it, masking what little noise his shoes made  on the rubber treads of the stairs.

Again, he reached his Mercedes without encountering anyone, and on the pleasant  drive home, he found the streets only slightly busier than they had been  forty-five minutes earlier.

His hilltop house stood on two acres in a gated community: a sprawling,  futuristic, artful stack of square and rectangular forms, some in polished  poured-in-place concrete and others clad in black granite, with floating decks,  deep cantilevered roofs, bronze doors, and floor-to-ceiling windows so massive that birds were knocked unconscious  against them not just one at a time but in flocks.

The place had been built by a young entrepreneur who had been made improbably  rich from the IPO of his Internet retailing company. By the time it was  completed, he had become enamored of Southwest architecture and had begun  building a forty thousand-square-foot faux adobe pile in the pueblo style,  somewhere in Arizona. He'd offered this residence for sale without moving into  it.

The doctor parked in the eighteen-car subterranean garage and took the elevator  up to the ground floor.

The rooms and hallways were of grand proportions, with polished black granite  floors. The antique Persian rugs-in lustrous shades of teal, peach, jade,  ruby-were exquisitely patinaed by lifetimes of wear; they seemed to float upon  the black granite as if they were magic carpets in flight, the blackness beneath  them not stone, but the deep abyss of night.

In corridors and major chambers, lights came on to preset scenes as he entered,  triggered by motion sensors managed by thousand-year universal clocks. In  smaller rooms, lamps answered to vocal commands.

The young internet billionaire had computerized all the house systems in  obsessive detail. When he had seen 2001: A Space Odyssey, no doubt he had been  under the impression that Hal was the hero.

In his lacewood-paneled study, the doctor phoned his office and left a  voice-mail message for his secretary, asking her to cancel and reschedule his  ten- and eleven-o'clock appointments to next week. He would be in after lunch. There were no patient sessions filled on the second half of his Wednesday  calendar. He had left his afternoon open for Dustin and Martine Rhodes, who  would call in the morning, desperate for help.

Eighteen months ago, the doctor had realized that Martie could be one of his key  toy soldiers in a marvelous game more elaborate than any he had played  heretofore. Eight months ago, he served his witches' brew of drugs to her in  coffee, with a chocolate biscotto on the side, and programmed her during three  of Susan's office visits, as Susan herself had long previously come under his  thrall.

Since then, Martie had awaited use, unaware that she'd been added to Ahriman's  collection.

Tuesday morning, eighteen hours ago, when Martie came to the office with Susan, the doctor at last put her into play, escorting her down into  her mind chapel, where he implanted the suggestion that she could not trust  herself, that she was a grave danger to herself and others, a monster capable of  extreme violence and unspeakable atrocities.

After he wound her up and sent her off with Susan Jagger, she must have had an  interesting day. He looked forward to hearing the gaudy details. He had not yet used Martie sexually. Although she was not as beautiful as Susan,  she was quite attractive, and he looked forward to seeing just how completely  and deliciously sordid she could be if she really tried. She was not yet in  sufficient misery to have much erotic appeal for him.

Soon.

Now, he was in a dangerous mood-and knew it. The personality regression he  underwent during intense play sessions didn't reverse instantly upon conclusion  of the games. Like a deep-sea diver rising through the fathoms at a measured  pace to avoid the bends, Ahriman ascended toward full adulthood in decompressive  stages. He was not entirely man or boy at the moment, but in emotional  metamorphosis.

At the corner bar in his study, he poured a bottle of Coke-the classic  formula-into a cut-crystal Tom Collins glass, added a thick squirt of cherry  syrup and ice, stirring the concoction with a long-handled sterling-silver  spoon. He tasted it and smiled. Better than Tsingtao.

Exhausted yet restless, he walked the house for a while, after instructing the  computer to precede him neither with blazes of light nor with softly luminous  preset scenes. He wanted darkness in those spaces that had a view, and a single  lamp dimmed so far as to be nearly extinguished in those chambers that did not  benefit from the nighttime panorama of Orange County.

On the vast flatlands below these hills, although most of the county's  multitudes were still asleep, millions of lights glimmered even at this hour.  View windows admitted just enough ambient light for the doctor to make his way  with catlike surety, and he found the golden glow appealing.

Standing at a huge sheet of glass in the dark, basking in the incoming radiance,  gazing at this urban sprawl that lay before him like the biggest playset in the world, he knew how God would feel, looking down  on Creation, if there had been a god. The doctor was a player, not a believer. Sipping cherry Coke, he roamed room to room, along passage-ways and galleries.  The huge house was a labyrinth in more ways than one, but eventually he returned  to the living room.

Here, more than eighteen months ago, he acquired Susan. On the day that escrow  closed, he had met her here to receive the house keys and the thick operating  manual for the computerized systems. She was surprised to find him with two  champagne flutes and a chilled bottle of Dom Perignon. From the day they'd met,  the doctor had been careful never to suggest that his interest in her went  beyond her real-estate expertise; even with champagne in hand, he had struck a  note of such erotic indifference that she didn't feel she, a married woman, was  being romanced. Indeed, from the moment he'd met her and decided to have her, he  had scattered hints, like breadcrumbs to a pigeon, that he was gay. Because he  was so happy with his spectacular new house and because she wasn't displeased by  the fat commission she'd earned, she saw no harm in celebrating with a glass of  champagne-although hers was, of course, spiked.

Here in the wake of her death, conflicting emotions bedeviled Ahriman. He  regretted the loss of Susan, all but swooned to the tug of a sweet  sentimentality, but also felt wronged, betrayed. In spite of all the great good  times they'd had together, she would still have ruined him if she'd had the  chance.

At last he resolved his inner conflict, because he realized that she was just a  girl like other girls, that she hadn't deserved all the time and attention he  had lavished on her. To brood about her now would be to concede that she'd had a  power over him no one else had ever exercised.

He was the collector, not her. He possessed things; they did not possess him. "I'm glad you're dead," he said aloud in the dark living room. "I'm glad you're  dead, you stupid girl. I hope the razor hurt."

After vocalizing his anger, he felt ever so much better. Oh, really, a thousand  percent.

Although Cedric and Nella Hawthorne, the couple who managed the estate, were  currently in residence, Ahriman was not concerned about being overheard. The  Hawthornes were surely abed in their three-room apartment in the servants' wing. And regardless of what they  might see or hear, he need not be concerned that they would ever remember  anything that would endanger him.

"I hope it hurt," he repeated.

Then he took the elevator up to the next floor and followed the hallway to the  master-bedroom suite.

He brushed his teeth, flossed meticulously, and dressed in black silk pajamas. Nella had turned down the bed. White Pratesi sheets with black piping. Plenty of  plump pillows.

As usual, on his nightstand was a Lalique bowl full of candy bars, two each of  his six favorite brands. He wished he hadn't brushed his teeth.

Before turning in, he used the bedside Crestron touch-screen to access the  automated-house program. With this control panel, he could operate lights  throughout the residence, air-conditioning and heating room by room, the  security system, landscape-surveillance cameras, pool and spa heaters, and  numerous other systems and devices.

He entered his personal code to access a vault page that listed six wall safes  of various sizes distributed throughout the residence. He touched master bedroom  on the screen, and the image of a keypad replaced the list of locations. When he keyed in a seven-digit number, a pneumatically driven section of granite  on the face of the fireplace slid aside, revealing a small, embedded steel safe.  Ahriman entered the combination on the keypad, and across the room, the lock  released with an audible click.

He went to the fireplace, opened the twelve-inch-square steel door, and removed  the contents from the safe box, which was lined with quilted padding. A  one-quart jar.

He put the jar on a brushed-steel and zebrawood desk and sat down to study its  contents.

After a few minutes, he could no longer resist the siren call of the candy bowl.  He pondered the contents of the Lalique container and finally selected a  Hershey's bar with almonds.

He would not brush his teeth again. Falling asleep with the taste of chocolate  in his mouth was a sinful pleasure. Sometimes he was a bad boy.

Sitting at the desk again, Ahriman savored the candy, making it last, while he thoughtfully studied the jar. Although he didn't hurry through  the snack, he had gained not a scintilla of new insight from his father's eyes  by the time he finished the final crumbs of chocolate.

Hazel, they were, but with a milky film over the irises. The whites were no  longer white, but pale yellow faintly marbled with pastel green. They were  suspended in formaldehyde, in the vacuumsealed jar, sometimes peering through  the curved glass with a wistful expression and sometimes with what seemed to be  unbearable sorrow.

Ahriman had been studying these eyes all his life, both when they had been  seated in his father's skull and after they had been cut out. They held secrets  that he wished to know, but they were, as ever, all but impossible to read.

42

Due to the lingering effects of three caplets of the sleep aid, Martie appeared  to be unable to work herself into a state of panic, even after she was freed  from the neckties, out of bed, and on her feet.

Her hands trembled almost nonstop, however, and she became alarmed when Dusty  got too close to her. She still believed that she might suddenly claw out his  eyes, chew off his nose, bite off his lips, and have a thoroughly unconventional  breakfast.

Undressing to shower she had an agreeably heavy-eyed, pouty look, which Dusty  found appealing as he watched her from a distance that she deemed just barely  safe. "Very erotic, smoldering. With that look, you could make a guy run  barefoot across a tack-covered football field."

"I don't feel erotic," she said, her voice husky. She pouted without calculation  but with powerful effect. "I feel like birdshit."

"Curious."

"Not me."

"What?"

Skinning out of her underwear, she said, "I don't want to go the way of the  cat."

"No," he said, "I meant your choice of words. So you feel like birdshit-why in  particular bird?"

She yawned. "Is that what I said?"

"Yeah."

"I don't know. Maybe because I feel like I've dropped a long way and splattered  all over everything."

She didn't want to be alone to shower.

Dusty watched from the bathroom doorway while Martie spread the bath mat, opened  the door of the shower stall, and adjusted the water. When she stepped into the  stall, he moved into the room and sat on the closed lid of the toilet.

As Martie began to soap herself, Dusty said, "We've been married three years,  but I feel like I'm at a peep show."

A bar of soap, a squeeze bottle of shampoo, and a tube of cream conditioner were  objects so lacking in lethal potential that she was able to finish bathing  without being seized by terror.

Dusty got the hair dryer out of a vanity drawer, plugged it in for her, and then  retreated to the doorway once more.

Martie balked at using the hair dryer. "I'll just towel it a little and let it  dry naturally."

"Then it'll just fizz up, and you'll hate the way it looks, and you'll bitch all  day."

"I don't bitch."

"Well, you certainly don't whine."

"Damn right I don't."

"Complain?" he suggested.

"All right. I'll admit to that."

"You'll complain all day. Why don't you want to use the hair dryer? It's not  dangerous."

"I don't know. It sort of looks like a gun."

"It's not a gun."

"I didn't claim any of this was rational."

"I promise if you turn it up to maximum power and try to blow-dry me to death, I  won't stand still for it."

"Bastard."

"You knew that when you married me."

"I'm sorry."

"For what?"

"Calling you a bastard."

He shrugged. "Hey, call me anything you want, as long as you don't kill me."

Gas flames weren't as blue as her eyes when anger brightened them. "That's not  funny."

"I refuse to be afraid of you."

"You've got to be," she said plaintively.

"Nope."

"You stupid, stupid. . . man."

"Man. Ow. The ultimate insult. Listen, if you ever call me a man again.. . I  don't know, it could mean we're through."

She glared at him, finally reached for the hair dryer, but then snatched her  hand back. She tried again, recoiled again, and began to shake not with fear as  much as with frustration and quiet anguish.

Dusty was afraid she might cry. Last night, the sight of her in tears had  knotted his guts.

Approaching her, he said, "Let me do it."

She shrank from him. "Stay away."

He plucked a towel off the rack and offered it to her. "Do you agree this  wouldn't be any homicidal maniac's weapon of choice?"

Her gaze actually traveled the length of the towel as though she were warily  calculating its murderous potential.

"Grip it in both hands," he explained. "Pull it taut, hold it tight, concentrate  and keep your grip on it. As long as your hands are occupied, you can't hurt  me."

Accepting the towel, she looked skeptical.

"No, really," he said. "What could you do except snap my ass with it?"

"There'd be some satisfaction in that."

"But there's at least a fifty-percent chance I'd survive." When she seemed  hesitant, he said, "Besides, I've got the hair dryer. You try anything, I'll  give you a case of chapped lips you won't forget."

"I feel like such a schiump."

"You're not."

From the doorway, Valet chuffed.

Dusty said, "The vote is two to one against schlumpdom."

"Let's get this over with," she said grimly.

"Face the sink and keep your back to me if you think I'll be safer that way."

She faced the sink, but she closed her eyes rather than look at herself in the  mirror.

Though the bathroom wasn't cold, Martie's bare back was stippled with  gooseflesh.

With a brush, Dusty repeatedly pulled her thick, black, glorious hair through the gush of hot air from the blow-dryer, shaping it as he had seen  her shape it before.

Ever since they'd been together, Dusty enjoyed watching Martie groom herself.  Whether she was shampooing her hair, painting her nails, applying her makeup, or  massaging suntan lotion into her skin, she approached the task with an easy,  almost lazy, meticulousness that was catlike and wonderfully graceful. A  lioness, confident of her appearance but not vain.

Always, Martie had seemed strong and resilient, and Dusty had never worried  about what might happen to her if fate dealt him an early death while he was  climbing across some high roof. Now, he worried-and his worrying felt to him  like an insult to her, as if he pitied her, which he didn't, couldn't. She was  still too Martie to elicit pity. Yet now she appeared alarmingly vulnerable,  neck so slender, shoulders so fragile, the vertebrae linked with such delicacy  in the spinal cleft of her back, and Dusty feared for this dear woman to an  extent that he must never allow her to perceive.

As the great philosopher Skeet once put it, Love is hard.

Something strange happened in the kitchen. In fact, virtually everything that  happened in the kitchen was strange, but the last thing, just before they left  the house, was the strangest of all.

First: Martie was rigid in one of the dinette chairs, hands trapped under her  thighs, actually sitting on her hands, as though they would seize anything  within reach and hurl it at Dusty if they were not restrained.

Because she was having blood drawn and tests conducted, she was required to fast  from nine o'clock the previous night until the doctor was finished with her  later this morning.

She was upset about lingering in the kitchen while Valet wolfed his morning  kibble and while Dusty drank a glass of milk and ate a doughnut, though not  because she resented their freedom to indulge. "I know what's in those drawers,"  she said with anxiety evident in her voice, meaning knives and other sharp  utensils.

Dusty winked lecherously. "I know what's in your drawers, too."

"Damn it, you better start taking this more seriously."

"If I do, we might as well both kill ourselves now."

Though her frown deepened, he knew she recognized the wisdom of what he'd said.

"There you stand, drinking whole milk, eating a glazed doughnut with cream  filling. Looks like you're already halfway to harakin."

Finishing the milk, he said, "I figure the best way to live a normal-and  probably long-life is to listen to everything the health Nazis say, then do  exactly the opposite."

"What if tomorrow they say cheeseburgers and french fries are the healthiest  diet you can eat?"

"Then it's tofu and alfalfa sprouts for me."

Washing out the glass, he turned his back to her, and she said, "Hey," sharply,  and he faced her while he dried it, so she wouldn't have a chance to sneak up on  him and beat him to death with a can of pork and beans.

They were not going to be able to take Valet on his morning constitutional.

Martie refused to stay here alone while Dusty went out with the dog. And if she  accompanied them, she would no doubt be terrified of pushing Dusty in front of a  truck and feeding Valet into some gardener's portable woodchipper.

"There's a pretty funny aspect to all this," Dusty said.

"There's nothing funny about it," she grimly disagreed.

"We're both probably right."

He opened the back door and sent Valet out to spend the morning in the fenced  backyard. The weather was cool but not chilly, and no rain was in the forecast.

He put a full water dish on the porch and told the dog, "Poop where you want,  and I'll pick it up later, but don't get the idea this is a new rule."

He closed the door, locked it, and looked toward the telephone, which was when  the strange thing happened. He and Martie began to talk at once, over and  through each other.

"Martie, I don't want you to take this the wrong way-"

"I have all the faith in the world in Dr. Closterman-"

"-but I think we really should consider-"

"-but it might take days for test results-"

"-getting a second opinion-"

"-and as much as I hate the idea-"

"-not from another medical doctor-"

"-I think I need to be evaluated-"

"-but from a therapist-"

"-by a psychiatrist-" "-who treats anxiety disorders-" "-with the right  experience-"

"-someone like-" "-I'm thinking maybe-" "-Dr. Ahriman." "-Dr. Ahriman."

They spoke the name in unison-and gaped at each other in the ensuing silence.

Then Martie said, "I guess we've been married too long."

"Much longer, and we'll start to look like each other."

"I'm not nuts, Dusty."

"I know you're not."

"But give him a call."

He went to the phone and obtained Ahriman's office number from the information  operator. He left a request for an appointment on the doctor's voice mail and  recited his cell-phone number.

43

At Skeet's apartment, the bedroom was as barren of decoration and as starkly  furnished as any monk's cell.

Having backed into a corner to limit her options if a murderous impulse seized  her, Martie stood with her arms crossed over her chest and her hands clamped  tightly under her biceps. "Why didn't you tell me last night? Poor Skeet's back  in rehab and you don't tell me till now?"

"You had enough on your mind," Dusty said as he searched under the neatly folded  clothes in the bottom drawer of a dresser so plain it might have been crafted by  a strict religious order that thought Shaker furniture was sinfully ornate.

"What're you looking for-his stash?"

"No. If there's any of that left, it'll take hours to find it. I'm looking for.

. . well, I don't know what I'm looking for."

"We've got to be at Dr. Closterman's office in forty minutes."

"Plenty of time," Dusty said, elevating his search to a higher drawer.

"Did he show up at work stoned?"

"Yeah. He jumped off the Sorensons' roof."

"My God! How bad was he hurt?"

"Not at all."

"Not at all"

"It's a long story," Dusty said, opening the top drawer on the dresser. He wasn't going to tell her that he had gone off the roof with Skeet,  not while she was in her current condition.

"What are you hiding from me?" she demanded.

"I'm not hiding anything." "What are you keeping from me?"

"Martie, let's not play games with semantics, okay?"

"At times like this, it couldn't be clearer that you are the son of Trevor Penn  Rhodes."

Closing the last dresser drawer, he said, "That was low. I'm not keeping  anything from you."

"What are you protecting me from?"

"I guess what I'm hunting for," he said, instead of answering her question, "is  evidence that Skeet's mixed up in some cult."

Because he'd already searched the single nightstand and under the bed, Dusty  stepped into the adjoining bathroom, which was small, clean, and completely  white. He opened the medicine cabinet and quickly sorted through the contents.

From the bedroom, in an anxious and accusatory tone, Martie said, "You don't  know what I might be doing out here."

"Looking for an ax?"

"Bastard."

"We've been down that road."

"Yeah, but it's a long one."

When he came out of the bathroom, he saw that she was shaking and as pale  as-though prettier than-something that lived under a rock. "You okay?"

"What do you mean-cult?"

Though she cringed when he approached her, he took her by the arm, drew her out  of the corner, and led her into the living room. "Skeet said he jumped off the  roof because an angel of death told him he should."

"That's just the drugs talking."

"Maybe. But you know how those cults operate-the brainwashing and all."

"What're you talking about?"

"Brainwashing."

In the living room, she backed into another corner and clamped her hands in her  armpits again. "Brainwashing?"

"Rub-a-dub, cerebrum in a tub."

The living room contained only a sofa, an armchair, a coffee table, an end  table, two lamps, and a set of shelves on which were stored both books and  magazines. Dusty cocked his head to scan the titles on the spines of the books.

From her corner, Martie said, "What're you hiding from me?"

"There you go again."

"You wouldn't think he was mixed up in a cult-brainwashed, for God's sake-just  because of what he said about some angel of death."

"There was an incident at the clinic."

"New Life?"

"Yeah."

"What incident?"

All the paperbacks on the shelves were fantasy novels. Tales of dragons,  wizards, warlocks, and swashbuckling heroes in the land of long-ago or  never-was. Not for the first time, Dusty was baffled by the kid's genre of  choice; after all, Skeet pretty much lived in a fantasy, anyway, and wouldn't  seem to need it for entertainment.

"What incident?" Martie repeated.

"Went into a trance."

"What do you mean, a trance?"

"You know, like a magician, one of those stage hypnotists, casts on you and then  makes you cluck like a chicken."

"Skeet was clucking like a chicken?"

"No, it was more complicated than that."

As Dusty continued along the shelves, the titles began to make him terribly sad.

He realized that perhaps his brother sought refuge in these make-believe  kingdoms because they were all cleaner, better, more-ordered fantasies than the  one in which the kid lived. In these books, spells worked, friends were always  true and brave, good and evil were sharply defined, good always won-and no one  became drug-dependent and screwed up his life.

"Quacking like a duck, gobbling like a turkey?" Martie asked from her corner  exile.

"What?"

"How was it more complicated, what Skeet did at the clinic?"

Quickly sorting through a stack of magazines, finding nothing published by any  cult more nefarious than the Time-Warner media group, Dusty said, "I'll tell you  later. We don't have time for it now."

"You are exasperating."

"It's a gift," he said, leaving the magazines and books for a quick look through  the small kitchen.

"Don't leave me alone here," she pleaded.

"Then come along."

"No was;" she said, obviously thinking about knives and meat forks and potato  mashers. "No way. That's a kitchen."

"I'm not going to ask you to cook."

The combination kitchen and dining area was open to the living room, all one big  California floor plan, so Martie was in fact able to see him pulling open  drawers and cabinet doors.

She was silent for half a minute, but when she spoke, her voice was shaky.

"Dusty; I'm getting worse."

"To me, babe, you just keep getting better and better."

"I mean it. I'm serious. I'm on the edge here, and sliding fast." Dusty wasn't  finding any cult paraphernalia among the pots and pans. No secret decoder rings. No pamphlets about Armageddon looming. No tracts  about how to recognize the Antichrist if you run into him at the mall.

"What're you doing in there?" Martie demanded.

"Stabbing myself through the heart, so you won't have to."

"You bastard."

"Been there, done that," he said, returning to the living room.

"You're a cold man," she complained. Her pale face squinched with anger. "I'm  ice," he agreed.

"You are. I mean it." "Arctic."

"You make me so angry."

"You make me so happy," he countered.

Squinch became startled realization, and her eyes widened as she said, "You're  my Martie."

"That doesn't sound like another insult."

"And I'm your Susan."

"Oh, this is no good. We'll have to change all our monogrammed towels."

"For a year, I've treated her like you're treating me. Jollying her along,  always needling her out of her self-pity, trying to keep her spirits up."

"You've been a real bitch, huh?"

Martie laughed. Shaky, one tremble away from a sob, like those laughs in operas,  when the tragic heroine pitches a soprano trill and lets it fall into a  contralto quaver of despair. "I've been a bitch and a sarcastic wiseass, yeah,  because I love her so much."

Smiling, Dusty held out his right hand toward her. "We've got to be going." One step out of her corner, she stopped, unable to come farther. "Dusty; I don't  want to be Susan."

"I know."

"I don't want to. . . fall that far down."

"You won't," he promised.

"I'm scared."

Rather than follow her customary preference for bright colors, Martie had gone  to the dark side of her wardrobe. Black boots, black jeans, a black pullover,  and a black leather jacket. She looked like a mourner at a biker's funeral. In  this stark outfit, she should have appeared to be tough, as hard and as  formidable as night itself. Instead, she seemed as ephemeral as a shadow fading  and shrinking under a relentless sun.

"I'm scared," she repeated.

This was a time for truth, not for jollying, and Dusty said, "Yeah. Me, too." Overcoming the fear of her imagined homicidal potential, she took his hand. Hers  was cold, but touching was progress.

"I've got to phone Susan," she said. "She was expecting me to call last night." "We'll phone her from the car."

Out of the apartment, along the common hail, down the stairs, across the small  foyer where Skeet had penciled the name FARNER under CAULFIELD on his mailbox  label, and out of the building, Dusty felt Martie's hand warming in his and  dared to think he could save her.

A gardener early to work, was bundling hedge trimmings into a burlap tarpaulin.  A handsome young Hispanic with eyes as dark as mole sauce, he smiled and nodded. Lying on the lawn, near him, were a small pair of hand clippers and a large pair  of two-hand shears.

At the sight of the blades, Martie let out a strangled cry. She wrenched her  hand free of Dusty's and ran, not toward those makeshift weapons but away from them, to the red Saturn that was parked at the  curb.

"Disputa?" the gardener asked Dusty sympathetically, as if he himself had a  regrettable amount of experience arguing with women.

"Infinidad," Dusty replied as he hurried past, and he was all the way to the car  before he realized he had meant to say enfermedad, meaning "illness," but had  instead said "infinity."

The gardener stared after him, not frowning with puzzlement, but nodding  solemnly, as though Dusty's wrong word choice were in fact an indisputable  profundity.

Thus are reputations for wisdom raised on foundations flimsier than those of  castles built on air.

By the time Dusty got behind the wheel of the car, Martie was in the passenger's  seat, doubled over as far as the dashboard would allow, shuddering, groaning.  Her thighs were pressed together, trapping her hands as though they itched with  the desire to make mayhem.

When Dusty pulled his door shut, Martie said, "Is there anything sharp in the  glove box?"

"I don't know."

"Is it locked?"

"I don't know."

"Lock it, for God's sake."

He locked it and then started the engine.

"Hurry;" she pleaded.

"All right."

"But don't drive too fast."

"Okay."

"But hurry."

"Which is it?" he asked, pulling away from the curb.

"If you drive too fast, maybe I might try to grab the wheel, try to pull the car  off the road, roll it, or plow us head-on into a truck."

"Of course, you won't."

"I might," she insisted. "I will. You don't want to see what's in my head, the  pictures in my head."

The residual effect of three caplets of sleep-aid medication was fading from her  by the second, while Dusty's heartburn from the cream-filled, glazed doughnut  was steadily growing.

"Oh, God," she groaned. "God, please, please, don't let me see these things,  don't make me see them."

Huddled forward in abject misery, apparently sickened by the violent images  spurting unwanted through her mind, Martie gagged, and soon the gagging evolved  into fierce spasms of retching that would have brought up her breakfast if she  had eaten any.

The morning traffic on these surface streets was moderately heavy, and Dusty  weaved from lane to lane, sometimes taking risks to wedge into a gap, ignoring  the angry looks of other motorists and the occasional hard bark of a horn.

Martie appeared to be on an emotional toboggan run, rocketing along slick ice,  with a panic attack at the end of the chute. Dusty wanted to be as close to Dr.  Closterman's office as possible if she hit the wall and ricocheted into a  crack-up like the one he had witnessed the previous night.

Although dry heaves racked her with greater force than ever; she achieved no  relief, not merely because her stomach was empty; but because she needed to  disgorge the undisgorgeable vomitous images churning in her mind. Perhaps her  mouth flooded with saliva, as is usual during bouts of nausea, because more than  once she spat on the floorboards.

Between fits of retching, she gasped vehemently for breath, her throat surely  parched and half raw from the sheer force of these inhalations. Shudders shook  Martie, too, and with such violence that Dusty was shivered by a sympathetic  cold revulsion, even though he could not imagine what ghastly visions plagued  her.

He drove faster yet, weaving with greater aggression from lane to lane, taking  bigger risks, to the accompaniment of more blaring horns and, now, the frequent  squeal of brakes. He almost hoped that a policeman would pull him over.

Considering Martie's condition, any cop was likely to forgo issuing a traffic  citation and, instead, provide an emergency escort, with siren.

Worsening condition. For the moment, her convulsive retching passed, but she  began to rock back and forth in her seat, groaning, thumping her forehead  against the padded dashboard, softly at first, slow and easy, as though to  distract herself from the hobgoblins that seethed through her mind, but then  with greater force, faster, and faster still, no longer groaning but grunting  like a football player slamming into a tackling dummy, faster; harder: "Uh, uh,  uh, uh, uuuhhh."

Dusty spoke to her; urged her to calm down, to hang on, to remember that he was  here for her, that he trusted her; and that everything was going to be all  right. He didn't know if she could hear him. Nothing he said appeared to comfort  her.

He wanted desperately to reach out to her and gentle her with his touch, but he  suspected that during this seizure, any contact would have the opposite effect  of what he intended. His hand upon her shoulder might send her into even greater  paroxysms of terror and revulsion.

Dr. Closterman's offices were in a medical high-rise adjacent to the hospital.  Both buildings rose in the next block, the tallest structures in sight.

Regardless of the padding, she was certain to hurt herself if she kept knocking  her head against the dashboard, but she would not relent. She didn't cry out in  pain, only grunted with each impact, cursed, and quarreled with herself-"Stop  it, stop it, stop it"-and seemed like nothing less than a woman possessed. More  precisely, she was both the possessed and the exorcist, striving mightily to  cast out her own demons.

At the medical complex, the surrounding parking lots were shaded by aisles of  big carrotwood trees. He searched for and found a space close to the office  high-rise, under a canopy of branches.

Even after he braked to a halt and put the car in park, Dusty felt as though he  were still moving. A morning breeze shivered leaf shadows across the windshield,  while interleaved blades of sunshine fluttered against the curve of glass and  seemed to tumble away to each side as if they were bright scraps of foliage  spinning into his wake on a slipstream.

As Dusty switched off the engine, Martie stopped butting the dash. Her hands,  until now trapped between her clamped thighs, broke free. She clasped her head  as though trying to suppress the waves of pain from a migraine headache,  pressing so hard on her skull that the skin over her knuckles tightened until it  was as smooth and white as the bone beneath.

She was no longer grunting or cursing, no longer quarreling with herself. Worse,  bending forward once more, she began to scream. Shrill shrieks punctuated by  hard swallows of air, like a swimmer in trouble. Terror in her cries. But also  outrage, disgust, shock. Screams that shuddered with revulsion, as those of a  swimmer who had felt something strange sliding past beneath the water; something cold and slick and  terrible.

"Martie, what? Talk to me. Martie, let me help."

Maybe her cries and the booming of her heart and the rush of blood in her ears  didn't allow her to hear him, or maybe there was simply nothing he could do,  therefore no reason to answer him. She was struggling against riptides of  powerful emotion that seemed to be dragging her out into deep waters, toward a  drowning abyss that might be madness.

Against his better judgment, Dusty touched her. She reacted as he had been  afraid she would, shrinking from him, swatting his hand off her shoulder,  jamming herself up against the passenger's door; still irrationally convinced  that she was capable of blinding him or worse.

A young woman, crossing the parking lot with two small children, heard Martie's  screams, came closer to the Saturn, frowning-peering, and locked eyes with  Dusty, her gaze darkening as if she saw in him the evil of every tower sniper;  schoolboy assassin, serial strangler, mad bomber, and head-collector who had  made the news in her lifetime. She pulled her kids close to her and moved them  more quickly toward the hospital, probably seeking a security guard.

Martie's frenzy passed more abruptly than it had arisen, not by slow degrees but  nearly all at once. A final scream, resounding glass to glass to glass in this  small space, gave way to quaking gasps, until soon the gasps were only deep  shuddery breaths, and threaded through them was a disheartening wounded-animal  mew!, as thin as a silken filament, fading in and out, sewing one ragged breath  to the next.

Although Dusty had seen not one frame of the spook show that had stuttered  through the sprockets of Martie's mind, the ordeal of observation, in itself,  had left him weak. His mouth was dry. His heart raced. He raised his hands to  watch them tremble, and then blotted his damp palms on his jeans. The keys still dangled from the ignition. He plucked them out, muffled their  jingle in his clenched hand, and stuffed them into one of his pockets before  Martie could raise her bowed head and catch sight of them.

He was not concerned that she would grab the keys and stab at his face in a  furious determination to blind him, as she claimed to have seen herself doing in a vision. He was no more afraid of her now than he  had been before this latest episode.

In the immediate aftermath of her seizure, however, perhaps a glimpse of the  keys would be enough to send her tumbling down the stairs of panic yet again. Silent now except for her hard breathing, she sat up straighter and lowered her  hands from her head.

"I can't take much more like that," she whispered.

"It's over."

"I'm afraid it isn't."

"For now, anyway."

Dappled with sunshine and leaf shadows, Martie's face appeared to flicker, gold  and black, as if it were no more substantial than a face in a dream, likely to  glimmer less with gold and darkle more with black, until at last it lost all  composition and sparkled into extinction like the last few bright crackles of a  Roman candle in a bottomless night sky.

Though intellectually he rejected the possibility that he was losing her, in his  heart he knew that she was slipping away from him, captive of a force that he  could not understand and against which he could offer no defense.

No. Dr. Ahriman could help her. Could, would, must.

Perhaps Dr. Closterman, with MRIs and EEGs and PET scans and all the  abbreviations and acronyms of high-tech medicine, would identify her condition,  isolate the cause, and provide the cure.

But if not Closterman, then surely Ahriman.

From out of a wilderness of wind-stirred leaf shadows, as blue as the two jewels  in the sockets of a jungle-wrapped stone goddess, Martie's eyes met his. No  illusions in her gaze. No superstitious surety that all would be well in this  best of all possible worlds. Just a stark appreciation of her dilemma.

Somehow she overcame the dread of her lethal potential. She extended her left  hand to him.

He held it gratefully.

"Poor Dusty," she said. "A druggie brother and a crazy wife."

"You're not crazy."

"I'm working at it."

"Whatever happens to you," he said, "won't happen just to you. It happens to  both of us. We're in this together."

"I know"

"Two musketeers."

"Butch and Sundance."

"Mickey and Minnie."

He didn't smile. Neither did she. But with characteristic fortitude, Martie  said, "Len go see if Doc Closterman learned any damn thing at all in medical  school."

44

Taking of the temperature, blood pressure, pulse rate, careful ophthalmoscope  examination of the left eye, then the right, a peek with auriscope at the  secrets of the ears, much solemn listening with stethoscope at the chest and the  back-Breathe deep and hold, breathe out, breath deep and ho/d-palpation of the  abdomen, a quick test of the audito-oculogyric reflex, one gentle rap of a small  hammer on a pretty kneecap to gauge patellar reflex: All the easy stuff led Dr.  Closterman to conclude that Martie was an exceptionally healthy young woman,  physiologically even younger than her twenty-eight years.

From the spare chair in the corner of the examination room, Dusty said, "She  seems to get younger week by week."

To Martie, Closterman said, "Does he spread it on this heavy all the time?"

"I have to shovel out the house every morning." She smiled at Dusty. "I love  it."

Closterman was in his late forties but, unlike Martie, looked- and no doubt  tested-older than his age, and not solely because of his prematurely white hair.  Double chins and dewlaps, generous jowls and a proud knob of a nose, eyes pink  in the corners with a perpetual bloodshot sheen from too much time in salt air  and wind and sun, and a tan that would leave any dermatologist hoarse from  lecturing-

all marked him as a dedicated gourmet, deep-sea fisherman, wind-surfer, and  probably connoisseur of beer. From his broad brow to his broader belly, he was a  living example of the consequences of ignoring the sound advice that he  unabashedly doled out to his patients.

Doc-his surfer handle-had a mind as sharp as a scalpel, the bedside manner of a  favorite grandfather with a storybook in hand, and a dedication to his practice  that would have shamed Hippocrates, yet Dusty preferred him over all other  possible internists less for those fine qualities than for his very human, if  medically unsound, indulgences. Doc was that rare expert without arrogance, free  of dogma, able to view a problem from a fresh perspective rather than through  the lenses of preconception that often blinded others who claimed high  expertise, humbled by an awareness of his weaknesses and his limitations. "Gloriously healthy," Closterman proclaimed as he entered notes in Martie's  file. "Tough constitution. Like your dad."

Sitting on the edge of the examination table, in a paper gown and rolled red  kneesocks, Martie did indeed appear to be as healthy as any aerobics instructor  on one of those cable-television shows devoted to obsessive exercise with a host  who believed that death was a personal choice rather than an inevitability. Dusty could see the changes in Martie that Closterman, in spite of his  sensitivity to his patients, couldn't perceive. A bleak shadow in her eyes that  dimmed her usually bright gaze. A persistent grim set to her mouth and a  defeatist slump to her shoulders.

Although Closterman agreed to refer Martie to the hospital next door for a  series of diagnostic procedures, he clearly was thinking of it as just an  elaborate annual checkup, not as an essential step in diagnosing the cause of a  life-threatening condition. Doe had listened to a highly abbreviated account of  her bizarre behavior during the past twenty-four hours, and though she'd not  described her violent visions in detail, she'd recounted enough to make Dusty  wish he had not eaten that greasy doughnut. Nevertheless, as the physician  finished making notes in his patient's file, he launched into an explanation of  the many sources of stress, the mental and physiological problems arising from  stress, and the best techniques that one might use to deal with stress- as  though Martie's problem resulted from overwork, too little leisure, a tendency  to sweat the small stuff, and a lumpy mattress.

She interrupted Closterman to ask if he would please put away the reflex hammer. Blinking, derailed from the tracks of his stress homily, which had been chugging  along so nicely, he said, "Put it away?"

"It makes me nervous. I keep looking at it. I'm afraid of what I might do with  it."

The polished-steel instrument was as small as a toy hammer and appeared to be of  no use as a weapon.

"If I snatched it up and threw it at your face," Martie said, her words more  disturbing for the fact that her voice was soft and reasonable, "it would stun  you, maybe worse, and then I'd have time to grab something more lethal. Like the  pen. Would you put the pen away, please?"

Dusty moved to the edge of his chair.

Here we go.

Dr. Closterman looked at the ballpoint that lay atop the closed patient file.

"It's just a Paper Mate pen."

"I'll tell you what I could do with it, Doctor. A little sample of what goes  through my mind, and I don't know where it comes from, this evil stuff, or how  to stop it from coming." The blue paper gown made a crisp and ominous crinkling  sound like a dry chrysalis within which something deadly was struggling to be  born. Her voice remained soft, though now there was an edge to it. "I don't  really care if it's a Montblanc or a Bic, because it's also a stiletto, a  skewer, and I could snatch it off that folder and be at you before you knew what  was happening, ram it into your eye, shove it halfway back into your skull,  twist it around, twist it, twist, really screw with your brain, and either you'd  fall down dead on the spot or spend the rest of your life with the mental  capacity of a flicking potato." She was shaking. Her teeth chattered. She  clasped both hands to her head, as she had done in the car, as though striving  to repress the hideous images that bloomed unwanted in the midnight garden of  her mind. "And whether you were dead or alive on the floor, there are all kinds  of things I could do to you after the pen. You've got syringes in one of those  drawers, needles-and there on that counter, a glass beaker full of tongue  depressors. Break the glass, the shards are knives. I could carve your face-or  slice it off in pieces and pin the pieces to the wall with hypodermic needles,  make a collage from your face. I could do this. I can see.. . see it in my head right now." She buried her face in her  hands.

Closterman came to his feet on the word potato, rising like a dancer in spite of  his size, and now Dusty rose, too.

"First thing," said the rattled physician, "is a prescription for Valium. How  many of these episodes have there been?"

"A few," Dusty said. "I don't know. But this one wasn't bad."

Closterman's round face was better suited to a smile; his frown was unable to  achieve sufficient gravity, buoyed as it was by his ball of a nose, rosy cheeks,  and merry eyes. "Not bad? The others were worse? Then I wouldn't recommend these  tests without Valium. Some of these procedures, like an MRI, they disturb  patients."

"I'm disturbed going in," Martie said.

"We'll mellow you out, so it's not such an ordeal." Closterman stepped to the  door, then hesitated with his hand on the knob. He glanced at Dusty. "Are you  okay here?"

Dusty nodded. "These are only things she's afraid of doing-not anything she  could do. Not her, not Martie."

"Like hell I couldn't," she said from behind a veil of fingers.

When Closterman had gone, Dusty moved the reflex hammer and the ballpoint beyond  Martie's reach. "Feel better?"

Between her fingers, she had seen his act of consideration. "This is  mortifying."

"Can I hold your hand?"

A hesitation. Then: "Okay."

When Closterman returned, having phoned in a prescription for Valium to their  usual pharmacy, he had two individually packaged samples of the drug. He opened  one sample and gave it to Martie with a paper cup full of water.

"Martie," said Closterman, "I truly believe the tests are going to rule out any  intracranial mass-neoplastic, cystic, inflammatory, and gummatous. A lot of us,  we get an unusual headache that takes a while to go away-we right away think, at  least in the back of our mind, it must be a tumor. But brain tumors aren't that  common."

"This isn't a headache," she reminded him.

"Exactly. And headaches are a prime symptom of brain tumors. As is a retinal  condition called choked disk, which I didn't find when I examined your eyes. You  mentioned vomiting and nausea. If you were vomiting without nausea, then we'd have a classic symptom. From what you  told me, you don't actually have hallucinations-"

"Just these unpalatable thoughts, grotesque images in your head, but you don't  mistake them for things really happening. What I see is anxiety of a high order.  So when all is said and done, though we have a lot of physiological conditions  to eliminate first. . . Well, I suspect I'll need to recommend a therapist."

"We already know one," Martie said.

"Oh? Who?"

"He's supposed to be one of the best," Dusty said. "Maybe you've heard of him. A  psychiatrist. Dr. Mark Ahriman."

Although Roy Closterman's round face couldn't produce the sharp angles of a  suitably disapproving frown, it smoothed at once into a perfectly inscrutable  expression that could be read no more easily than alien hieroglyphics from  another galaxy. "Yes, Ahriman, he has a fine reputation. And his books, of  course. Where did you get the recommendation? I imagine his patient list is  full."

"He's been treating a friend of mine," Martie said.

"May I ask for what condition?"

"Agoraphobia."

"A terrible thing."

"It's changed her life."

"How's she doing?"

Martie said, "Dr. Ahriman thinks she's nearing a breakthrough."

"Good news," Closterman said.

The sun-leathered skin at the corners of his eyes crinkled, and his lips tweaked  up to precisely the same degree at both sides of his mouth, but this was not the  broad and winning smile of which he was capable. In fact, it was hardly a smile  at all, just a variation of his inscrutable look, reminiscent of the smile on a  statue of Buddha: benign but conveying more mystery than mirth.

Still tweaked and crinkled, he said, "But if you find that Dr. Ahriman isn't  taking on new patients, I know a wonderful therapist, a compassionate and quite  brilliant woman, who I'm sure would see you." He picked up Martie's file and the  pen with which she could have put out his eye. "First, before there's any talk  of therapy, let's get those tests done. They're expecting you at the hospital,  and the various departments have promised to squeeze you into their schedules as if you were an emergency-room admission, no appointments needed. I'll have  all the results by Friday, and then we can decide what's next. By the time you  dress and get next door, that Valium will have kicked in. If you need another  one before you can get the prescription filled, you've got the second sample.  Any questions?"

Why don't you like Mark Abriman? Dusty wondered.

He didn't ask the question. Considering his distrust of most academics and  experts-two labels Ahriman no doubt wore with pride- and considering his respect  for Dr. Closterman, Dusty found his reticence inexplicable. Nevertheless, the  question remained glued between his tongue and the roof of his mouth.

Minutes later, as he and Martie were crossing the quadrangle from the office  tower to the hospital, Dusty realized that his reluctance to pose the question,  though strange, was less puzzling than his failure to inform Dr. Closterman that  he had already phoned Ahriman's office to seek an appointment later this same  day and was awaiting a callback.

Hard skreaks from overhead drew his attention. Thin gray clouds like bolts of  dirty linen had been flung across the azure sky, and three fat black crows  wheeled through the air, jinking now and then as if plucking fibers from that  raveled, rotting mist to build nests in graveyards.

For some reasons clear and others not, Dusty thought of Poe, of a bad-news raven  perched above a doorway. Although Martie, in a Valium lull, held his hand with  none of her previous reluctance, Dusty thought also of Poe's lost maiden,  Lenore, and he wondered if the skreak of the crow, translated into the tongue of  the raven, might be "nevermore."

In the hematology lab, while Martie sat watching her blood slowly fill a series  of tubes, she chatted with the technician, a young Vietnamese American, Kenny  Phan, who had gotten the needle into her vein quickly and without a sting.

"I cause much less discomfort than a vampire," Kenny said with an infectious  grin, "and usually have sweeter breath."

Dusty would have watched with normal interest had this been his blood being  drawn, but he was squeamish at the sight of Martie's.

Sensitive to his discomfort, she asked that he use the moment to get Susan  Jagger on his cell phone.

He placed the call and waited through twelve rings. When Susan didn't answer, he  pressed end and asked Martie for the number.

"You know the number."

"Maybe I entered it wrong."

He keyed it in again, reciting it aloud, and when he pressed the final number,  Martie said, "That's it."

This time he waited through sixteen rings before terminating the call. "She  isn't there."

"But she must be there. She's never anywhere else-unless she's with me."

"Maybe she's in the shower."

"No answering machine?"

"No. I'll try later."

Mellowed by the Valium, Martie looked thoughtful, perhaps even concerned, but  not worried.

Replacing a full tube of blood with the final empty vial, Kenny Phan said, "One  more for my personal collection."

Martie laughed, this time without an underlying tremor of any darker emotion. In spite of the circumstances, Dusty felt as though normal life might be within  their grasp again, much easier to rediscover than he had imagined in the grimmer  moments of the past fourteen hours.

As Kenny Phan was applying a small, purple Barney the Dinosaur adhesive bandage  to the needle puncture, Dusty's cell phone rang. Jennifer, Dr. Ahriman's  secretary, was calling to confirm that the psychiatrist would be able to  rearrange his afternoon schedule to see them at one-thirty.

"That's a bit of luck," Martie said with evident relief when Dusty gave her the  news.

"Yeah."

Dusty, too, was relieved-curiously so, considering that if Martie's problem was  psychological, the prognosis for a quick and full recovery might be less  reassuring than if the malady had an entirely physical cause. He had never met  Dr. Mark Ahriman, and yet a warm sense of security, a comforting flame, had been  lit in him by the call from the psychiatrist's secretary-which was also a  curious and surprising reaction.

If the problem wasn't medical, Ahriman would know what to do. He would be able  to uncover the roots of Martie's anxiety.

Dusty's reluctance to put his trust entirely in experts of any kind was  borderline pathological, and he was the first to admit as much. He was somewhat  dismayed with himself for being so eager to hope that Dr. Ahriman, with all his  degrees and his best-selling books and his exalted reputation, would possess a  nearly magical ability to set things right.

Evidently he was more like the average sucker than he had wanted to believe he  could be. When everything he cared most about-Martie and their life together-was  at risk, and when his own knowledge and common sense were inadequate to solve  the problem, then in his abject fear, he turned to the experts not merely with a  pragmatic degree of hope but also with something uncomfortably close to faith. All right, okay. So what? If he could just have Martie back in charge of herself  as she had been, healthy and happy, he would humble himself before anyone,  anytime, anywhere.

Still all in black but with purple Barney on her arm, Martie left the hematology  lab hand-in-hand with Dusty. An MRI scan was next.

The corridors smelled of floor wax, disinfectant, and a faint underlying scent  of illness.

A nurse and an orderly approached, rolling a gurney on which lay a young woman  no older than Martie. She was connected to an IV drip. Compresses had been  applied to her face; they were spotted with fresh blood. One of her eyes was  visible: open, gray-green, and glazed with shock.

Dusty looked away, feeling that he had violated this stranger's privacy, and he  tightened his hold on Martie's hand, superstitiously certain that in this  injured woman's glassy stare was more bad luck poised to jump, quick as a blink,  from her to him.

Tweaked and crinkled, the inscrutable smile of Closterman rose Cheshire-like in  Dusty's memory.

45

From dreamless sleep, the doctor woke late, refreshed and looking forward to the  day.

In the fully equipped gym that was part of the master suite, he completed two  full circuits on the weight-training machines and half an hour on a reclining,  stationary bicycle.

This was the sum of his exercise regimen, three times a week, yet he was as fit  as he had been twenty years ago, with a thirty-two-inch waist and a physique  that women liked. He credited his genes and the fact that he had the good sense  not to let stress accumulate.

Before showering, he used the telephone intercom to call the kitchen and ask  Nella Hawthorne to prepare breakfast. Twenty minutes later, hair damp, smelling  faintly of a spice-scented skin lotion, wearing a red silk robe, he returned to  the bedroom and retrieved his breakfast from the electric dumbwaiter.

On the antique sterling-silver tray were a carafe of freshly squeezed orange  juice kept cold in a small silver bucket full of ice, two chocolate croissants,  a bowl of strawberries accompanied by supplies of brown sugar and heavy cream,  an orange-almond muffin with a half cup of whipped butter on the side, a slice  of coconut pound cake with lemon marmalade, and a generous serving of  french-fried pecans sprinkled with sugar and cinnamon for nibbling between other  treats.

Though forty-eight, the doctor boasted the metabolism of a ten-year-old boy on  methamphetamines.

He ate at the brushed-steel and zebrawood desk where a few hours ago he had  studied his father's disembodied eyes.

The jar of formaldehyde was still here. He had not returned it to the safe  before retiring for the night.

Some mornings, he switched on the television to watch the news with his  breakfast; however, none of the anchormen or anchor-women, regardless of the  channel, had eyes as intriguing as those of Josh Ahriman, dead now for twenty  years.

The strawberries were as ripe and flavorful as any the doctor had ever eaten.  The croissants were sublime.

Dad's gaze settled languishingly upon the morning feast.

A formidable prodigy, the doctor had completed all his education and opened his  psychiatric practice while still in his twenties, but though learning had come  easily to him, well-heeled patients had not, in spite of his Hollywood  connections through his father. Although the film-business elite loudly  proclaimed their egalitarianism, many harbored a prejudice against youth in  psychiatry, and they were not ready to lie down on the couch of a  twenty-something therapist. To be fair, the doctor had looked much younger than  his age- still did-and could have passed for eighteen when he hung out his  shingle. Nevertheless, in the movie biz, where the sight of someone wearing his  heart on his sleeve was more commonly encountered than the name of even the most  spectacularly successful fashion designer of the moment, Ahriman had been  frustrated to find himself a victim of such hypocrisy.

His father had continued to provide generous support, but the doctor had been  increasingly reluctant to accept his old man's largesse. How embarrassing it was  to be dependent at twenty-eight, especially considering his considerable  academic achievements. Besides, as open as Josh Ahriman's wallet had been, the  allowance that he provided was not sufficient for the doctor to live in the  style he desired or to finance research he wished to conduct.

Only child and sole heir, he killed his father with a massive dose of ultra  short-acting thiobarbital combined with paraldehyde, injected into a pair of  delicious chocolate-covered marzipan petits fours, for which the old man had a  weakness. Before torching the house to destroy the mutilated body, the doctor  performed a partial dissection of Dad's face, searching for the source of his  tears.

Josh Ahriman was a spectacularly successful writer, director, and producer-a genuine triple threat-whose work ranged from simple love stories to  patriotic tales of courage under fire. Diverse as these films were, they had one  thing in common: Audiences the world over were reduced to tears by them. Some  critics-though by no means all-labeled them sentimental hogwash, but the paying  public flocked to the theaters, and Dad picked up two Oscars-one for directing,  one for writing-before his untimely death at fifty-one.

His movies were box-office gold because the sentiment in them was sincere.  Although he had the requisite ruthlessness and duplicity to succeed big-time in  Hollywood, Dad also possessed a sensitive soul and such a tender heart that he  was one of the championship criers of his time. He wept at funerals even when  the deceased was someone for whose death he had often and fervently prayed. He  wept unashamedly at weddings, at anniversary celebrations, at divorce  proceedings, at bar mitzvahs, at birthday parties, at political rallies, at  cockfights, on Thanksgiving and Christmas and New Year's Eve and the Fourth of  July and Labor Day-and most copiously, bitterly, on the anniversary of his  mother's death, when he remembered it.

Here was a man who knew all the secrets of tears. How to wring them from sweet  grandmothers and labor racketeers alike. How to move beautiful women with them.  How to use them to purge himself of grief, pain, disappointment, stress. Even  his moments of joy were heightened and made more exquisite with the spice of  tears.

Thanks to a superb medical education, the doctor knew exactly how tears were  manufactured, stored, and dispensed by the human body. Nevertheless, he expected  to learn something from the dissection of his father's lacrimal apparatus. In this he was to be disappointed. After trimming away Dad's eyelids and then  gently extracting his eyes, the doctor discovered each lacrimal gland where he  expected it: in orbit, superior and lateral to the eyeball. The glands were of  normal size, shape, and design. The superior and inferior lacrimal ducts serving  each eye were likewise unremarkable. Each lacrimal sac-seated in a groove of  lacrimal bone, behind the tarsal ligament and tricky to tease out  intact-measured thirteen millimeters, which was the median size for an adult. Because the lacrimal apparatus was tiny, composed of very soft tissue, and  damaged in the doctor's limited autopsy, he had not been able to save any of it.

He had only the eyeballs now, and in spite of his diligent preservation  efforts-fixative, vacuum-packaging, regular maintenance-he could not entirely  prevent their gradual deterioration.

Shortly after his father's death, Ahriman had carried the eyes with him to Santa  Fe, New Mexico, where he believed that he would be better able to become his own  man beyond the great director's shadow, in which he would always stand if he  remained in Los Angeles. Out there on the high desert, he achieved his initial  successes and discovered his abiding passion for games of control.

From Santa Fe to Scottsdale, Arizona, the eyes came with him, and most recently  to Newport Beach. Here, little more than one hour south of Dad's old stomping  grounds, the passage of time and his own numerous accomplishments had brought  the doctor forever out of that patriarchal shadow, and he felt as if he had come  home.

When Ahriman bumped the leg of the desk with his knee, the eyes rolled slowly in  the formaldehyde and seemed to follow the progress of the last fried pecan as he  conveyed it to his mouth.

He left the dirty dishes on the desk but returned the jar to the safe.

He dressed in a sartorial-cut, double-breasted, blue wool suit by Vestimenta, a  custom-tailored white shirt with spread collar and French cuffs, and a figured  silk tie with a plain but complimentary pocket square. From his father's flair  for period dramas, he had learned the value of costume.

The morning was almost gone. He wanted to get to his office as much as two hours  ahead of Dustin and Martie Rhodes, to review all his strategic moves to date and  decide how best to proceed to the next level of the game.

In the elevator, descending to the garage, he thought fleetingly of Susan  Jagger, but she was the past, and the face that most easily came to mind now was  Martie's.

He could never wring tears from multitudes, as his father had done time and  again. Delight could be found, however, in the drawing of tears from an audience  of one. Considerable intelligence, skill, and craft were required. And a vision.  No one form of entertainment was more legitimate than another.

As the elevator doors opened at the garage, the doctor wondered if Martie's  lacrimal glands and sacs were plumper than Dad's.

46

Already scanned, rayed, scoped, graphed, and bled, Martie was required only to  pee in a small plastic cup before she could leave the hospital with all tests  completed and samples given. Thanks to the Valium, she was sufficiently calm to  risk going into the bathroom alone, without the mortified and mortifying  presence of Dusty, though he offered to be her "urine-sample sentinel."

She was still not herself. Her irrational anxiety had not been drenched by the  drug, merely dampened; hot coals smoldered sullenly in the darker corners of her  mind, capable of flaring again into an all-consuming fire.

As she washed her hands at the sink, she dared to look into the mirror. Mistake.  'Within the reflection of her eyes, she glimpsed the Other Martie, pent-up and  full of rage, chafing at this chemical restraint.

As she finished washing her hands, she kept her eyes downcast.

By the time that she and Dusty were leaving the hospital, those embers of  anxiety were glowing bright.

Only three hours had passed since she'd taken the first Valium, not an ideal  spacing of doses. Nevertheless, Dusty tore open the sample package and gave her  the second tablet, which she washed down at a drinking fountain in the lobby. A greater number of people than earlier were going to and fro in the quadrangle.  A quiet voice in Martie, as soft as a sinister spirit speaking at a seance, kept up a running commentary regarding the comparative  vulnerability of the other pedestrians. Here was a man in a leg cast, walking  with the aid of crutches, so easy to topple, defenseless when down, vulnerable  to the toe of a boot in the throat. And here, now, rolling along with a smile,  was a woman in a battery-powered wheelchair, left arm withered and slack in her  lap, right hand operating the controls, as defenseless a target as might pass  this way all day.

Martie lowered her attention to the pavement ahead of her and tried to block out  all awareness of the people she passed, which might also silence the hateful  inner voice that so terrified her. She held fast to Dusty's arm, relying on  Valium and her husband to get her to the car.

As they reached the parking lot, the January breeze quickened and brought a  slight chill out of the northwest. The big carrotwoods whispered  conspiratorially. The busy flickers and flashes of sunshine and shadow off  scores of automobile windshields were like semaphored warnings in a code she  could not read.

They had time for lunch before the appointment with Dr. Ahriman. Even though the  second Valium would soon be kicking in, Martie didn't trust herself to spend  forty-five minutes in even the coziest café without making a scene, so Dusty  went in search of a drive-through, fast-food restaurant.

He had driven little more than a mile before Martie asked him to pull over in  front of a sprawling, three-story, garden-apartment complex. The development  stood behind a lawn as green as a golf course, shaded by graceful California  pepper trees, lacy melaleucas, and a few tall jacarandas with early purple  flowers. Pale yellow stucco walls. Red tile roofs. It looked like a clean, safe,  comfortable place.

"They had to rebuild half of it after the fire," Martie said. "Sixty apartments  burned down."

"How long ago was that?"

"Fifteen years. And they replaced the roofs on the buildings that weren't  destroyed, because it was the old cedar shingles that allowed the blaze to  spread so fast."

"Doesn't look haunted, does it?"

"Ought to be. Nine died, three of them small children. Seems funny. . . how it  looks so nice now, you know, like that night must've been just a dream."

"Would've been worse without your dad."

Although Dusty knew all the details, Martie wanted to talk about the fire. All  she had of her father now were memories, and by talking about them, she kept  them fresh. "It was already an inferno when the pumpers got here. They couldn't  hope to knock it down fast. Smilin' Bob went in there four times, four times  into the fiery smoky hellish heart of it, and each time he came out. He was the  worse for it, but he always came out with people who wouldn't have survived  otherwise, carrying some of them, leading others. One whole family of five, they  were disoriented, blinded by smoke, trapped, encircled by fire, but out he came  with them, all five safe. There were other heroes there, every man on every crew  called to the scene, but none of them could keep at it the way he could, eating  the smoke as though it was tasty, all but reveling in the heat like he would a  sauna, just going at it and going at it-but that's how he always was. Always  was. Sixteen people saved because of him, before he collapsed and they packed  him out of here in an ambulance."

That night, rushing with her mother to the hospital, and then at Smilin' Bob's  bedside, Martie had been in the grip of a fear she had thought would crush her.  His face red with a first-degree burn. And streaked with black: particles of  soot pounded so deep into his pores by the concussive force of an explosion that  they could not be easily washed out. Eyes bloodshot, one swollen half-shut.  Eyebrows and most of his hair singed away, and a mean second-degree burn on the  back of his neck. Left hand and forearm cut by glass, stitched and bandaged. And  his voice so scary-scratchy, raw, weak as it had never been before. Words  wheezing out of him and with them the sour odor of smoke, the scent of smoke  still on his breath, the stink of it coming out of his lungs. Martie, thirteen,  had only that morning felt grown-up and had been impatient for the world to  admit that she was an adult. But there in the hospital, with Smilin' Bob brought  down so hard, she suddenly felt insignificant and vulnerable, as helpless as a  four-year-old kid.

"He reached for my hand with his good one, the right, and he was so exhausted he  could hardly hold on to me. And in that awful voice, that smoky voice, he says,  'Hey, Miss M.,' and I say, 'Hey.' He tried to smile, but his face hurt pretty  bad, so it was a weird smile that didn't do anything to cheer me up. He says, 'I  want you to promise me something,' and I just nod, because, God, I would promise  to cut off my arm for him, anything, and he must know that. He wheezes and  coughs a lot, but he says, "When you go to school tomorrow, don't you brag about your dad did this, your dad did that. They'll be asking  you, and they'll be repeating things said on the news about me, but don't you  bask in it. Don't you bask. You tell 'em I'm here. . . eating ice cream,  tormenting nurses, having a high old time, collecting as much sick pay as I can  get before they figure out I'm goldbricking.'"

Dusty had not heard this part of the story before. "Why'd he make you promise  that?"

"I asked why, too. He said all the other kids at school had fathers, and they  all thought their fathers were heroes, or they badly wanted to think so. And  most of them were heroes, according to Daddy, or would be if given a chance. But  they were accountants and salesmen and mechanics and data processors, and they  just weren't lucky enough to be in the right place at the right time, like my  dad was lucky because of his job. He says, 'If some kid goes home and looks at  his father with disappointment, because of you bragging on me, then you've done  a dishonorable thing, Miss M. And I know you're not dishonorable. Not you, ever.  You're a peach, Miss M. You're a perfect peach.'"

"Lucky," Dusty said wonderingly, and shook his head.

"He was something, huh?"

"Something."

The commendation her father received from the fire department for his bravery  that night had not been his first and would not be his last. Before cancer did  to him what flames could not, he had become the most-decorated fireman in the  history of the state.

He insisted on receiving every commendation in private, without ceremony and  without a press release. To his way of thinking, he was only doing what he was  paid to do. Besides, all the risks and all the injuries were evidently  insignificant compared to what he'd been through in the war.

"I don't know what happened to him in Vietnam," Martie said. "He never talked  about it. When I was eleven, I found his medals in a box in the attic. He told  me he'd won them because he'd been the fastest typist in the division  commander's secretarial pool, and when that didn't wash, he said they used to  have Bake-Offs a lot in Nam, and he made a fabulous bundt cake. But even at  eleven, I knew they don't give you multiple Bronze Stars for bundt cakes. I  don't know if he was as fine a man when he went to Nam as when he came out, but  for some reason I think that maybe he was better for what he suffered, that it  made him very humble, so gentle and so generous-so full of love for life, for  people."

The willowy pepper trees and the melaleucas swayed in the breeze, and the  jacarandas shimmered purple against graying sky.

"I miss him so damn much," she said.

"I know."

"And what I'm so afraid. . . about this crazy thing that's happening to me..."

"You'll beat it, Martie."

"No, I mean, I'm afraid that because of it. . . I'll do something to dishonor  him."

"Not possible."

"You don't know," she said with a shudder.

"I do know. Not possible. You are your father's daughter."

Martie was surprised to be able to manage even a frail smile. Dusty blurred  before her, and though she pressed her trembling lips tightly together, the  taste of salt seeped in at the corner of her mouth.

They took lunch in the car, in the parking lot behind a drive-through  restaurant.

"No tablecloth, no candle, no vase of flowers," Dusty said, enjoying a fish  sandwich and french fries, "but you must admit we've got a lovely view of that  Dumpster."

Although she had skipped breakfast, Martie ordered only a small vanilla milk  shake, sipping it slowly. She didn't fancy having a full stomach of greasy food  if she were stricken again by that devastating spook show of death images that  had flashed through her mind in the car between Skeet's apartment and Dr.  Closterman's office.

With the cell phone, she called Susan. She waited through twenty rings before  she pressed end.

"Something's wrong," she said.

"Let's not jump to conclusions."

"Can't jump. All the spring's out of my legs," she said, which was true, thanks  to the double Valium. Indeed, her worry was soft and fuzzy around the edges, but  it was worry nonetheless.

"If we can't reach her after seeing Dr. Ahriman, we'll swing by her place, check  up on her," Dusty promised.

Tormented by this bizarre affliction of her own, Martie hadn't found an  opportunity to tell Dusty about Susan's incredible claim that she was being  victimized by a night visitor who came and went at will, leaving her with no  memory of his intrusion.

This wasn't the moment, either. She had achieved a precarious balance; she was  concerned that recounting her emotional conversation with Susan would make her  wobbly again. Besides, they were due at Dr. Ahriman's office in a few minutes,  and she didn't have time to report the conversation to Dusty in appropriate  detail. Later.

"Something's wrong," she repeated, but she said no more.

Odd, to be here in this stylish, black-and-honey-toned waiting room without  Susan.

Crossing the threshold, setting foot on the black granite floor, Martie felt her  burden of anxiety lift significantly. A new lightness in body and mind. A  welcome hope in the heart.

This, too, struck her as odd, and quite different from the effect of the Valium.  The drug covered her anxiety, repressed it, yet she was still aware of it  squirming under the chemical blanket. In this place, however, she felt a measure  of her apprehension float up and away from her, not merely repressed any longer,  but dissipated.

Twice a week for the past year without exception, Susan, too, had brightened  noticeably upon reaching this office. The heavy hand of agoraphobia never lifted  from her in other enclosed spaces beyond the walls of her own apartment, but  past this threshold, she found surcease.

An instant after Jennifer, the secretary, looked up and saw them enter from the  corridor, the door to Dr. Ahriman's office opened, and the psychiatrist came out  into the lounge to greet them.

He was tall and handsome. His posture, carriage, and impeccable attire reminded  Martie of elegant leading men in movies of another era: William Powell, Cary  Grant.

Martie didn't know how the doctor was able to project such a reassuring air of  quiet authority and competence, but she didn't try to analyze it because the  very sight of him, even more than stepping through the doorway into this room,  put her at peace, and she was just grateful to feel a surge of hope.

47

Ominous, this darkness that came into the sea hours before twilight, as though  some primal malevolence were rising from deep oceanic trenches and spreading to  every shore.

The sky had completely shrouded itself in the gray clouds that it had been  steadily knitting since morning, leaving no blue to give the water color by  reflection, no sun to glitter off the teeth of the waves. Nevertheless, to  Dusty, the lead-gray Pacific was far darker than it should have been at this  hour, marbled with veins of black.

Somber, too, was the long coastline-the shadowed beaches, the slump of hills to  the south, and the peopled plains to the west and north-seen from this  fourteenth floor. Nature's green appeared to be thinly painted over a mold-gray  base coat, and all the works of man were rubble unrealized, waiting for the  thousand-year quake or thermonuclear war.

When he looked away from the view beyond the huge wall of glass, Dusty's  peculiar uneasiness left him as completely and suddenly as if a switch had been  thrown. The mahogany-paneled office, the bookshelves with neatly ordered tomes,  the array of degrees from the nation's most prestigious universities, the warm  multicolored light from three Tiffany-style lamps-Genuine Tiffany?-and the  tasteful furnishings exerted a calming influence. He had been surprised to feel  relieved when he'd stepped with Martie into Ahriman's waiting room; but here,  his relief gave way to an almost Zen-like serenity.

His chair stood near the immense window, but Martie and Dr. Ahriman sat apart  from him, in two armchairs that faced each other across a low table. With more  self-possession than she'd shown since Dusty had encountered her in the garage  the previous evening, Martie spoke of her panic attacks. The psychiatrist  listened attentively and with an evident compassion that was comforting. In fact, so comforted was Dusty that he found himself smiling.

This was a safe place. Dr. Ahriman was a great psychiatrist. Everything would be  all right now that Martie was in Dr. Ahriman's care. Dr. Ahriman was deeply  committed to his patients. Dr. Ahriman would make this trouble go away.

Then Dusty turned his attention to the view again, and the ocean appeared to be  a vast slough, as though its waters were so thick with clouds of mud and tangles  of seaweed that only low viscous waves were able to form. And in this peculiar  light, the serried whitecaps were not white, but mottled-gray and chrome yellow. On winter days, under overcast skies, the sea had often looked like this, and  never before had he found it so disquieting. Indeed, in the past, he had seen a  rare, stark beauty in such scenes.

A small voice of reason told him that he was projecting feelings onto this view  that were not actually a response to it, feelings that had another source. The  sea was just the sea, as it had always been, and the true cause of this  uneasiness lay elsewhere.

That thought was puzzling, because there was nothing in this room to account for  his disquiet. This was a safe place. Dr. Ahriman was a great psychiatrist.  Everything would be all right now that Martie was in Dr. Ahriman's care. Dr.  Ahriman was deeply committed- "We must have additional dialogue," Dr. Ahriman  said, "further discovery, before I can make a diagnosis with full confidence. But I'll risk  putting a name to what you've been experiencing, Martie."

Martie leaned forward slightly in her chair, and Dusty saw that she was  anticipating the psychiatrist's preliminary diagnosis with a half smile, no  apparent trepidation visible in her face.

"It's an intriguing and rare condition," said the psychiatrist. "Autophobia,  fear of oneself. I've never encountered a case of it, but I'm familiar with the  literature on the disorder. It manifests in astonishing ways-as you are now  unfortunately well aware."

"Autophobia," Martie marveled, with more fascination and less angst than seemed appropriate, as though the psychiatrist had cured her simply  by putting a name to the affliction.

Maybe the Valium accounted for it.

Even as Dusty wondered at Martie's response, he realized that he, too, was  smiling and nodding.

Dr. Ahriman would make this trouble go away.

"Statistically speaking," Ahriman said, "it's incredible that your best friend  and you would acquire profound phobic conditions. Phobias as powerfully  affecting as yours and Susan's are not common, so I suspect there's a  connection."

"Connection? How so, Doctor?" Dusty asked, and that small inner voice of reason  couldn't resist remarking on his tone of voice, which was not unlike that of a  twelve-year-old boy posing a question to Mr. Wizard, on the now-canceled  children's television program that had once endeavored to find the fun in  science.

Ahriman steepled his fingers under his chin, looked thoughtful, and said,  "Martie, you've been bringing Susan here for a year now-"

"Since she and Eric separated."

"Yes. And you've been Susan's lifeline, doing her shopping, other errands.  Because she's shown such little apparent progress, you've become ever more  worried. As your worry grows, you begin to blame yourself for her failure to  respond quickly to therapy."

Surprised, Martie said, "I do? Blame myself?"

"As much as I know about you, it appears to be in your nature to have a strong  sense of responsibility for others. Perhaps even an excessive sense of  responsibility."

Dusty said, "The Smilin' Bob gene."

"My father," Martie explained to Ahriman. "Robert Wood-house."

"Ah. Well, what I think's happened is that you've been feeling as though you've  somehow failed Susan, and this sense of failure has metastasized into guilt.  From the guilt comes this autophobia. If you have failed your friend, whom you  love so much, then. . . well, you begin telling yourself that you evidently  aren't the good person you thought you were, possibly even a bad person, but  certainly a bad friend, certainly that at least, and not to be trusted."

Dusty thought the explanation seemed too simple to be true- and yet it rang with  a convincing note. When Martie met his eyes, he saw that her reaction was much the same as his. Could such a weird, complex affliction befall someone overnight, someone  previously as stable as the Rocky Mountains?

"Only yesterday," Ahriman reminded Martie, "when you brought Susan for her  appointment, you took me aside to tell me how worried you were about her." "VS/ell, yes."

"And do you recall what else you said?" When Martie hesitated, Ahriman reminded  her: "You told me that you felt you had failed her."

"But I didn't mean-"

"You said it with conviction. With anguish. That you failed her."

Thinking back, she said, "I did, didn't I?"

Unsteepling his fingers, turning his hands palms up as though to say There you  have it, Dr. Ahriman smiled. "If further dialogue tends to confirm this  diagnosis, then there's good news."

"I need some good news," Martie said, though she'd not appeared distraught at  any moment since entering the office.

"Finding the root of the phobia, the hidden cause, is often the most difficult  phase of therapy. If your autophobia arises from this guilt about Susan, then  we've leaped over a year of analysis. Better yet, what you have is less a  genuine phobic condition than. . . well, call it sympathetic phobia."

"Like some husbands get sympathetic cramps and morning sickness when their wives  are pregnant?" Martie suggested.

"Exactly," Ahriman affirmed. "And a sympathetic phobia, if that is what you  have, is infinitely easier to cure than a deeper-rooted condition like Susan's.  I all but guarantee you won't be coming to me for long before I'm done with  you."

"How long?"

"One month. Perhaps three. You must understand, there's really no way to fix an  exact date. So much depends on. . . you and me."

Dusty leaned back in his chair, further relieved. One month, even three, was not  such a long time. Especially if she experienced steady improvement. They could  endure this.

Dr. Ahriman was a great psychiatrist. Dr. Ahriman would make this trouble go  away.

"I'm ready to begin," Martie announced. "Already this morning, I saw our  internist-"

"And his opinion?" Ahriman wondered.

"He thinks we should take the necessary steps to rule out brain tumors, that  sort of thing, but more likely than not it's a matter for therapy, not  medicine."

"Sounds like a good, thorough physician."

"I've had some tests done at the hospital, everything he wanted me to have. But  now. . . well, nothing's for sure, but I think this is where I'm going to get  help."

"Then let's proceed!" Dr. Ahriman said brightly, with an almost boyish  enthusiasm that Dusty found heartening because it seemed to be an expression of  dedication to his work and confidence in his skills.

Dr. Ahriman would make this trouble go away.

"Mr. Rhodes," the psychiatrist said, "traditional therapy is, of course, a  process requiring confidentiality for the patient if he-in this case, she-is to  be forthcoming. So I'll have to ask you to adjourn to our outgoing waiting room  for the rest of this session."

Dusty looked at Martie for guidance.

She smiled and nodded.

This was a safe place. She would be all right here.

Martie handed her leather jacket to him, which she had removed upon entering the  office, and he put it over his arm with his coat.

"Right this way, Mr. Rhodes," Dr. Ahriman said, crossing the large office toward  the door to the outgoing waiting room.

Scaled clouds, as greasy and sour-gray as rotting fish, seemed to be foul ejecta  spewed out by the rolling Pacific, clotted on the heavens. The coaly veins in  the water were varicose and more numerous than previously, and large sections of  the sea were fearfully black to Dusty's eyes if to no other's.

His brief ripple of disquiet at once smoothed away as he turned from the  enormous window and followed Dr. Ahriman.

The door between the mahogany-paneled office and the outgoing waiting room was  surprisingly thick. As tightly fitted as a Mason jar lid, it produced a soft pop  and a sigh when opened, as though a vacuum seal were being broken.

Dusty supposed that a serious door was required to protect the doctor's patients  from eavesdroppers. No doubt the core of it was composed of layers of  soundproofing.

The honey-toned walls, black-granite floor, and furnishings in this second  waiting room were like those in the larger, incoming lounge at the main entrance  of the suite.

"Would you like Jennifer to bring you coffee, cola, ice water?" Ahriman asked  Dusty.

"No, thank you. I'll be fine."

"Those," Ahriman said, indicating a fanned array of periodicals on a table, "are  current." He smiled. "This is one doctor's office that isn't a graveyard for the  magazines of prior decades."

"Very thoughtful."

Ahriman placed one hand reassuringly on Dusty's shoulder. "She is going to be  fine, Mr. Rhodes."

"She's a fighter."

"Have faith."

"I do."

The psychiatrist returned to Martie.

The door fell shut with a muffled but impressive thud, and the latch  automatically engaged. There was no handle on this side. The door could only be  opened from the inner office.

48

Black hair, black attire. Blue eyes shine like Tiffany. Her light, too, a lamp. The doctor polished that haiku in his mind, rather pleased with it, as he  returned to his armchair and sat across the low table from Martie Rhodes. Without a word, he studied her face, feature by feature and then as a whole,  taking his time, curious to see if his protracted silence would make her uneasy. Unperturbed, she waited, evidently confident that the doctor's mute inspection  had a clinical purpose that would be explained to her when the time was right. As with Susan Jagger, Dr. Ahriman had previously implanted in Martie and Dustin  Rhodes the suggestion that they would feel deeply at ease in his office.  Likewise, they were always to be reassured at the sight of him.

In their unconscious minds, he had embedded six thoughts, like little prayers,  to which they were able to resort one sentence at a time or in a single long  calming mantra, if any doubt or nervousness overcame them in his presence. This  is a safe place. Dr. Ahriman is a great psychiatrist. Everything will be all  right now that I am-or in Dustin's case, Martie is-in Dr Ahriman's care. Dr.  Abriman is deeply committed to his patients. Dr. Ahriman will make this trouble  go away. Even when they were fully conscious, these mini-meditations would reinforce their  perception that Dr. Mark Ahriman was their sole salvation.

The doctor had found it richly amusing to watch them smiling and nodding, even  as they must have wondered at their sudden shedding of anxiety. And what fun it  was to have a man so gratefully entrust his wife to you when your intention was  to debase, demean, humiliate, and ultimately destroy her.

After the unanticipated halftime occasioned by Susan's suicide, the game would  now resume.

"Martie?" he said.

"Yes, Doctor?"

"Raymond Shaw."

Her demeanor changed at once. She stiffened and sat straighter in her chair. Her  lovely half smile froze, faded, and she said, "I'm listening."

Having switched her on with that name, the doctor now loaded the elaborate  program that was so succinctly coded in her personal haiku. "Blown from the  west-"

"You are the west and the western wind," she said dutifully.

"-fallen leaves gather-"

"The leaves are your instructions."

"-in the east."

"I am the east," Martie said, and now all instructions that the doctor gave her  would be gathered in like autumn leaves, to compost in the dark warm depths of  her subconscious mind.

As Dusty hung Martie's black leather jacket on the coat rack, he felt the  paperback in the right-hand pocket. It was the novel she had carried here when  escorting Susan, not for the entire past year, but at least for four or five  months.

Although she had claimed that it was an entertaining read, the book appeared to  be as pristine as when it had first been stocked on a bookstore shelf. The spine  was smooth, uncreased. When he riffled the pages, they were so crisp and fresh  that this might have been the first time they had been parted from one another  since being married at the bindery.

He remembered how Martie had spoken of this story in the vague language of a  high-schooler faking a report on a book she'd never taken the time to crack. He  was suddenly sure that Martie had read none of the novel, but he couldn't  imagine why she would lie about anything this trivial.

Indeed, Dusty found it hard to get his mind around the thought that Martie would  ever lie about any matter whatsoever, whether great or small. Uncommon respect  for the truth was one of the touchstones by which she constantly tested her  right to call herself Smilin' Bob Woodhouse's daughter.

After hanging up his own jacket, still holding the paperback, he looked at the  magazines fanned on the table. They were of one ilk, dedicated either to  shameless fawning over celebrities or to the supposedly witty skewering and hip  analysis of the doings and sayings of celebrities, which in the end had  essentially the same effect as shameless fawning.

Leaving the magazines untouched, he sat down with the book.

He was vaguely familiar with the title. In its time, this novel had been a  best-seller. A famous film had been adapted from it. Dusty had neither read the  book nor seen the movie.

The Manchurian Gandidate by Richard Condon.

According to the copyright page, the first edition was published in 1959. An age  ago. Another millennium.

Yet still in print. A good sign.

Chapter 1. Although a thriller, the book opened not on a dark stormy night, but  in San Francisco, in sunshine. Dusty began to read. -

The doctor asked Martie to sit on the couch, where he could sit beside her.  Obediently, she moved from the armchair.

Wrapped up all in black. Odd color to wrap a toy-one not yet broken.

That haiku also resonated with him, and he ran it through his mind a few times  with increasing pleasure. It wasn't as good as the Tiffany one, but far better  than his recent efforts to capture Susan Jagger in verse.

Sitting on the couch close to Martie but not thigh to thigh, the doctor said,  "Today, together, we enter a new phase."

In the solemn and hushed confines of her mind chapel, where the only votive  candles were lit to the god Ahriman, Martie attended his every word with the  quiet acceptance and the shining visionary stare of Joan of Arc listening to her  Voice.

"From this day forward, you will discover that destruction and self-destruction  are ever more appealing. Terrifying, yes. But even terror has a sweet appeal.  Tell me if you have ever ridden a roller coaster, one of those that takes you on  barrel rolls, loops at high speed."

"Yes."

"Tell me how you felt on that roller coaster."

"Afraid."

"But you felt something else."

"Exhilaration. Delight."

"There. Terror and pleasure are linked in us. We are a badly miswired species,  Martie. Terror delights us, both the experience of terror and the dealing out of  it to others. We are healthier if we admit to this miswiring and do not struggle  to be better than our natures allow. You do understand what I'm saying."

Her eyes jiggled. REM. She said, "Yes."

"Regardless of what our Creator intended us to be, what we have become is what  we are. Compassion, love, humility, honesty, loyalty, truthfulness-these are  like those enormous plate-glass windows into which small birds crash repeatedly,  stupidly. We bash ourselves to pieces against the glass of love, the glass of  truth, foolishly struggling to go where we can never go, to be what we are not  wired to be."

"Yes."

"Power and its primary consequences-death and sex. That's what drives us. Power  over others is the thrill of thrills for us. We idolize politicians because they  have so much power, and we worship celebrities because their lives appear to be  more charged with power than our own. The strong among us seize power, and the  weak have the thrill of sacrificing themselves to the power of the strong.  Power. The power to kill, to maim, to hurt, to tell other people what to do, how  to think, what to believe and what not to believe. The power to terrorize.  Destruction is our talent, our destiny. And I am going to prepare you to wallow  in destruction, Martie, and ultimately to destroy yourself-to know both the  thrill of crushing and of being crushed."

Blue jiggle. Blue stillness.

Her hands in her lap, both palms up as though to receive. Lips parted to intake.  Head cocked slightly to one side in the posture of an attentive student. The doctor put one hand to her face, caressed her cheek. "Kiss my hand, Martie." She pressed her lips to his fingers.

Lowering his hand, the doctor said, "I'm going to show you more photographs,  Martie. Images that we will study together. They are similar to those we studied  yesterday, when you were here with Susan. Like those photographs, these images  are all repulsive, disgusting, horrifying. However, you will examine them calmly  and with careful attention to detail. You will store them away in your memory  where they will apparently be forgotten-but each time your anxiety swells into a  full-scale panic attack, these images will flood back into your mind. And then  you will not see them as photographs in a book, neatly boxed, with white borders  and captions underneath. Instead, they will be wall-to-wall images in your mind,  more vivid and real to you than things you have actually experienced. Please  tell me whether or not you understand, Martie."

"I understand."

"I am proud of you."

"Thank you."

Her blue eyes seeking. His wisdom gives her vision. Teacher and student. Not bad technically, but false. He isn't primarily her teacher, and she isn't  his student in any meaningful sense. Player and toy. Master and possession.

"Martie, when these images return to you during panic attacks, they will disgust  and sicken you, fill you with nausea and even with despair. . . but they will  also hold a strange fascination. You will find them repulsive but compelling.  Although you might despair for the victims in these images, in a deep precinct  of your mind, you will admire the killers who savaged them. A part of you will  envy those killers their power, and you'll recognize this murderous aspect of  yourself. You will fear this violent other Martie. . . and yet yearn to  surrender control to her. You will see these images as wishes, as frenzies of  violence that you yourself would indulge in if only you could be true to that  other Martie, that cold savage self who is, in fact, your true human nature. That other Martie is the real you. The gentle woman you  appear to be. . . she is nothing but a deception, a shadow you cast in the light  of civilization, so you can pass for one of the weak and not alarm them. Over  the next few sessions, I will show you how to become the Martie you are meant to  be, how to shed this shadow existence and become truly alive, how to fulfill  your potential, seize the power and the glory that are your destiny."

The doctor had brought two large and beautifully illustrated textbooks with him  to the couch. These expensive volumes were used in criminology courses in many  universities. Most police detectives and big-city medical examiners were  familiar with them, but few in the general public knew of their existence.

The first was a definitive study of forensic pathology, which is the science of  recognizing and interpreting diseases, injuries, and wounds in the human body.  Forensic pathology was of interest to Dr. Ahriman, because he was a man of  medicine and because he was determined never to leave evidence-in the organic  ruins resulting from his games-that might result in his transferral from mansion  to cell, padded or not.

GO TO JAIL, GO DIRECTLY TO JAIL was a card he intended never to accept. After  all, unlike in Monopoly, this game included no GET OUT OF JAIL FREE cards. The second textbook was a comprehensive study of the tactics, the procedures,  and the forensic techniques of practical homicide investigation. The doctor had  acquired it on the principle that good gamesmanship requires one to understand  fully the strategies of opposing players.

Both volumes held galleries of Death's dark art. The forensic-pathology textbook  featured more examples and a greater variety of soul-shriveling grisliness, but  the volume on homicide investigation offered more shots of victims in situ,  which had a charm not always to be found in photographs taken at the morgue, as  any slaughterhouse is visually more arresting than any butcher-shop display.  Guggenheims of blood, Louvres of violence, museums of human evil and misery  bound with tables of contents and indexes for easy reference.

Docile, she waited. Lips parted. Eyes wide. A vessel ready to be filled. "You're quite lovely," the doctor told her. "Martie, I must admit, blinded by  Susan's light, I had too little appreciation for your beauty. Until now."

Seasoned by more suffering, she would be exquisitely erotic.

He began, then, with the homicide-investigation textbook. He opened to a page  marked with a pink Post-it.

Holding the volume in front of Martie, Ahriman directed her attention to a  photograph of a dead man lying supine on a hardwood floor. Naked, he was, and  ravaged by thirty-six stab wounds. The doctor made sure that Martie noted, in  particular, the imaginative use to which the killer had put the victim's  genitals.

"And there, the railroad spike in the forehead," Ahriman said. "Steel, ten  inches in length, with a one-inch diameter nailhead, but you can't see much of  the length. It pins him to the oak flooring. A crucifixion reference, no  doubt-the nail through the hand and the crown of thorns combined in one  efficient symbol. Absorb it, Martie. Every glorious detail."

She stared intensely, as instructed, gaze traveling wound to wound across the  photograph.

"The victim was a priest," the doctor informed her. "The killer most likely  found the oak flooring regrettable, but no manufacturer of home-improvement  products has had the panache to market dogwood tongue and groove."

Blue jiggle. Blue stillness. A blink. The image captured now and stored away. Ahriman turned the page.

As worried as he had been about Martie, Dusty had not expected to be able to  concentrate on the novel. The peace of mind that had settled upon him when he  entered Dr. Ahriman's office did not fade, however, and he found himself more  easily captured by the story than he expected to be.

The Manchurian Candidate offered an entertaining plot peopled with colorful  characters, just as Martie had promised in her curious wooden tone and phrases.

Considering the high quality of the novel, her failure to finish it-or even to  read a significant portion of it- during the months she had carried it to  Susan's sessions was more inexplicable than ever.

In Chapter 2, Dusty came to a paragraph that began with the name Dr. Yen Lo. Shock triggered a reflex action that nearly sent the book flying out of his  hands. He held on to it, but lost his place.

Flipping through the text in search of his page. he was sure that his eves had  tricked him. Some phrase containing four syllables similar to those in that  Asian name must have made the connection for him, causing him to misread.

Dusty located the second chapter, the page. the paragraph, and there  indisputably was the name in clear black type, spelled just as Skeet had spelled  it over and over again on the pages of the notepad: Dr. Yen Lo. The type jittered up and down as his hands shook.

The name had caused the kid to drop instantly into that strange dissociate  state, as though he were hypnotized, and now it gave Dusty a case of the  whim-whams that left the nape of his neck more corrugated than corduroy. Even  the singularly calming influence of the waiting-room decor could not raise any  warmth along his spine, which was as cold as a thermometer in a meat locker. Using one finger as a bookmark, he got to his feet and paced the small room,  trying to work off sufficient nervous energy to be able to hold the book still  enough to read.

Why was Skeet so tormented and so affected by a name that was nothing more than  that of a character in a work of fiction?

Considering the kid's taste in literature, the groaning shelves of fantasy  novels in his apartment, he probably hadn't even read this thriller. There was  nary a dragon in it, neither elf nor wizard.

After several circuits of the room, beginning to understand the frustration of a  zoo-kept panther, Dusty returned to his chair, even though he still felt as if  all the fluid in his spine had collected, like chilled mercury, in the small of  his back.

He continued reading. Dr. Yen Lo....

49

Sloppy work, this decapitation, obviously performed with the wrong cutting tool. "The victim's eyes are a point of interest here, Martie. How wide they appear.

The upper lids crimped back so far by shock that they almost look as though they  were cut off. Such mystery in his gaze, such an otherworldly quality, as though  in the moment of death, he had been granted a glimpse of what awaited him  beyond."

She looked into the pitiable eyes in the photograph. Blinked. Blinked. Paging to the next pink Post-it, the doctor said, "This one is of special  importance, Martie. Study it well."

She lowered her head slightly toward the page.

"You and Dusty will eventually be required to mutilate a woman in a similar  manner to this, and you will arrange the various body parts in a tableau as  clever as this one. The victim here is a girl, just fourteen years old, but the  two of you will be dealing with a somewhat older person."

The doctor's interest was so gripped by the photograph that he didn't see the  first two tears until they had tracked most of the way down Martie's face.  Looking up, catching sight of those twin pearls, he was astonished.

"Martie, you are supposed to be in that deepest of deep places in your mind, far down in the chapel. Tell me whether or not that is where you  are."

"Yes. Here. The chapel."

With her personality this deeply repressed, she should not have been able to  respond emotionally either to anything that she witnessed or to anything that  was done to her. As with Susan, the doctor should have had to bring her out from  the chapel and up a flight or two of stairs, figuratively speaking, to a higher  level of consciousness, before she would be capable of any reaction as savory as  this.

"Tell me what's wrong, Martie."

Her voice was barely louder than a breath: "Such pain."

"You're in pain?"

"Her."

"Tell me who."

As more tears welled and shimmered in her eyes, she pointed to the rearranged  young girl in the photograph.

Puzzled, Ahriman said, "It's just a photograph."

"Of a real person," she murmured.

"She's been dead a long time."

"She was alive once."

Martie's lacrimal glands were evidently fine specimens. Her lacrimal sacs  emptied into the lacrimal lakes, which reached flood stage, and two more  droplets sluiced a little misery out of her eyes.

Ahriman was reminded of Susan's final tear, squeezed out in the last minute of  her life. Dying, of course, must be a stressful experience, even when one  perishes quietly in a state of extreme personality submersion. Martie was not  dying. Yet, these tears.

"You didn't know this girl," the doctor persisted.

Barely a whisper: "No."

"She might have deserved this."

"No."

"She might have been a teenage prostitute." Softly, bleakly: "Doesn't matter."

"Perhaps she was a murderer herself."

"She's me."

"What does that mean?" he asked.

"What does that mean?" she parroted.

"You say that she is you. Explain."

"It can't be explained." "Then it's meaningless." "It can only be known."

"It can only be known," he repeated scornfully.

"Yes."

"Is this a riddle, maybe a Zen koan or something?" "Is it?" she asked. "Girls," he said impatiently. Martie said nothing.

The doctor closed the book, studied her profile for a moment, and then said,  "Look at me."

She turned her head to face him.

"Be still," he said. "I want to taste."

Ahriman pressed his lips to each of her welling eyes. A little tongue work, too. "Salty," he said, "but something else. A subtle something quite intriguing." He required another sip. A spasm of REM caused her eye to quiver erotically  against his tongue.

Sitting back from her again, Ahriman said, "Astringent but not bitter." Girl's face shiny damp. All the sorrow of the world. Yet such bright beauty. Daring to believe that those three lines were the beginning of yet another haiku  worth committing to paper, the doctor tucked the verses away in his mind to be  polished later.

As if the heat of Ahriman's lips had withered Martie's lacrimal apparatus, her  eyes grew dry once more.

"You're going to be a lot more fun than I thought," Ahriman said.

"You'll require considerable finesse, but the extra effort ought to be  worthwhile. Like all the best toys, the art of your form-your mind and heart-at  least equals the thrill of your function. Now I want you to be calm, perfectly  calm, detached, observant, obedient."

"I understand."

He opened the textbook again.

With the doctor's patient guidance, dry-eyed this time, Martie studied the  crime-scene photograph of the dismembered girl, whose parts had been creatively  rearranged. He instructed her to imagine what it would be like to commit this  atrocity herself, to glory in the reeking wet reality of what she saw here on the glossy page. To be certain  Martie involved all five of her senses in this exercise, Ahriman employed his  medical knowledge, his personal experience, and his well-conditioned imagination  to assist her with many details of color, texture, and stench.

Then other pages. Other photographs. Fresh corpses but also bodies in various  stages of decomposition.

Blink.

Blink.

Finally he returned the two heavy volumes to the bookshelves.

He had spent fifteen minutes too long with Martie, but he had taken considerable  satisfaction in refining her appreciation for death. Sometimes the doctor  thought he might have been a first-rate teacher, costumed in tweed suits,  suspenders, bow ties; and he knew he would have enjoyed working with children.

He instructed Martie to lie on her back, on the couch, and close her eyes. "I'm  going to bring Dusty in here now, but you will not hear a word of what either of  us says. You will not open your eyes until I tell you to do so. You will go away  now into a soundless, lightless place, into a deep sleep, from which you will  awake back in the mind chapel only when I kiss your eyes and call you princess." After waiting a minute, the doctor timed the pulse in Martie's left wrist. Slow,  thick, steady. Fifty-two beats per minute.

Now on to Mr. Rhodes, housepainter, college dropout, closet intellectual, soon  to be infamous from sea to shining sea, unwitting instrument of vengeance.

The novel was about brainwashing, which Dusty realized within a page or two of  encountering Dr. Yen Lo.

This discovery startled him almost as much as seeing the name from Skeet's  notepad. He didn't fumble the book this time, kept his place, but muttered, "Son  of a bitch."

At the kid's apartment, Dusty had searched without success for evidence of cult  membership. No tracts or pamphlets. No religious vestments or icons. Not one  caged chicken clucking worriedly as it awaited sacrifice. Now, when Dusty hadn't  even been thinking about Skeet's troubles, here came the mysterious Chinese  physician, popping up from Condon's novel, revealing himself to be an expert in the science  and art of brainwashing.

Dusty didn't believe in coincidence. Life was a tapestry with patterns to be  discerned if you looked for them. This book didn't just happen to be the one  Martie had been carrying around for months. It had been made available to them  because it contained a clue to the truth of this insane situation. He would have  given his left testicle- or, with more alacrity, all the money in their checking  account-to know who had ensured The Manchurian Candidate would be here, now,  when needed. Although Dusty believed in a universe intelligently designed, he  had difficulty crediting God with working miraculously through a paperback  thriller rather than a burning bush or the more traditional and flashier signs  in the sky. Okay, so it wasn't God, wasn't coincidence, and therefore must be  someone of flesh and bone.

Dusty heard himself speaking aloud, as though he were imitating an owl, and he  silenced himself with the realization that he knew too little to answer his  question.

In Condon's novel, which was set during and after the Korean War, Dr. Yen Lo had  brainwashed some American soldiers, turning one of them into a robotic killer  who remained unaware of what had been done to him. Back home, acclaimed a hero,  the soldier would lead a normal life-until, activated by a game of simple  solitaire and then instructed, he became an obedient assassin.

But the Korean War had ended in 1953, and this thriller had been published in  1959, long before Dusty had been born. Neither the young soldier nor Dr. Yen Lo  was real. There was no apparent reason why a connection should exist between  this novel and Dusty, Martie, and Skeet with his haiku rules.

He could only read further, in search of revelation.

After he had shot through several more pages, Dusty heard the lever-action  handle squeak against its escutcheon on the other side of the door to Ahriman's  office, heard the click of the latch, and suddenly felt that he must let no one  catch him reading this book. He was abruptly, inexplicably nervous, and when the  door seal broke with the pop and sigh of a violated vacuum, he tossed the  paperback aside with alarm, as though he were about to be caught reading vile  pornography or, worse, one of the numerous pompous tomes pumped out by his  father and stepfathers.

The book slid across the small end table beside his chair, off the edge, and hit  the floor with a plop just as the heavy door opened and Dr. Ahriman appeared.  Unaccountably flushed, Dusty was getting to his feet even as the paperback was  still falling, and he coughed to cover the plop.

Flustered, he heard himself say, "Doctor, is Martie-Did it go- 'Will she-"

"Viola Narvilly," the doctor said.

"I'm listening."

50

After they went through the enabling litany of Dusty's personal haiku, Dr.  Ahriman escorted him into the office and led him directly to the armchair in  which Martie had been seated earlier. She slept upon the couch, and Dusty didn't  glance at her.

Ahriman sat in the facing armchair and studied his subject for a minute. The man  had a slightly detached attitude, but he responded immediately to the doctor's  voice. His passive expression was nothing stranger than the looks one saw on the  faces of motorists caught in the boredom of bumper-to-bumper, rush-hour traffic. Dustin Rhodes was a relatively new acquisition in the Ahriman collection. He had  been fully controlled by the doctor less than two months.

Martie herself, operating under the doctor's guidance, on three occasions had  served to her husband the meticulously blended dose of drugs required to slip  him into the twilight sleep that allowed him to be effectively programmed:  Rohypnol; phencyclidine; Valium; and a substance known-although only to a few  cognoscenti-as Santa Fe #46. Because Dusty always had dessert with dinner, the  first dose had come in a slice of peanut butter pie; the second, two nights  later, lent neither flavor nor odor to a bowl of crème brulée with a crown of  toasted coconut curls; the third, three nights after the second, would have been  undetectable to a bloodhound, tucked away in an ice-cream sundae topped with fudge sauce, maraschino cherries, almonds, and  chopped dates.

The man knew how to eat. As regarded culinary preferences, at least, the doctor  felt a certain kinship with him.

The programming had been conducted in the Rhodeses' bedroom: Dusty on the bed,  Martie sitting cross-legged and out of the way on the big sheepskin pillow in  the corner, a floor lamp serving as an W rack. All had gone well.

The dog wanted to be a problem but was too sweet and obedient to do more than  growl and sulk. They shut him away in Martie's study with a bowl of water, a  yellow Booda duck with a squeaking tummy, and a Nylabone.

Now, after a seizure of REM passed out of Dusty's eyes, Dr. Ahriman said, "This  won't take long, but my instructions today are very important."

"Yes, sir."

"Martie will return here for an appointment on Friday, the day after tomorrow,  and you will arrange your schedule to be able to bring her. Tell me if this is  clear."

"Yes. Clear."

"Now. You surprised me yesterday-all your heroics at the Sorensons' house. That  was not according to my plan. In the future, if you are present when your  brother Skeet attempts suicide, you will not interfere. You may make some effort  to talk him out of it, but you'll do nothing but talk, and in the end you will  allow Skeet to destroy himself. Tell me if you understand."

"I understand."

"When he does destroy himself, you will be utterly devastated. And angry. Oh,  enraged. You will give yourself completely to your emotions. You'll know at whom  to direct your rage, because the name will be there in the suicide note. We'll  discuss this further on Friday."

"Yes, sir."

Always one to find time for some fun, even when he had a busy schedule, the  doctor glanced at Martie on the couch, and then turned his attention to Dusty.  "Your wife is succulent, don't you think?"

"Do I?"

"Whether you do or not, I think she is a succulent piece."

Dusty's eyes were primarily gray, but with blue striations that made them  unique. As a boy, Ahriman had been a marble collector, with many sacks of fine  glass shooters, and he had owned three that had been similar to, but not as  lustrous as, Dusty's eyes. Martie found her husband's eyes particularly  beautiful, which was why the doctor had gotten such a kick out of implanting the  suggestion that her autophobia would really begin to get a grip on her when she  had a sudden vision of sticking a key into one of those beloved eyes.

"On this subject," Ahriman said, "no more curt answers. Let's have a genuine  discussion of your wife's succulence."

Dusty's gaze was fixed not on Ahriman, but on a point in the air midway between  them, as he said with no inflection whatsoever, as flatly as a machine might  speak, "Succulent, I guess, meaning juicy."

"Exactly," the doctor confirmed.

"Grapes are juicy. Strawberries. Oranges. Good pork chops are succulent," said  Dusty. "But the word isn't. . . accurately descriptive of a person."

Smiling with delight, Ahriman said, "Oh, really-not accurately descriptive? Be  careful, housepainter. Your genes are showing. What if! were a cannibal?" Unable, in this state, to answer a question with anything but a request for  further information, Dusty asked, "Are you a cannibal?"

"If I were a cannibal, I might be accurately descriptive when calling your tasty  wife succulent. Enlighten me with your opinion of that, Mr. Dustin Penn Rhodes." Dusty's emotionless tone of voice remained unchanged, but now it seemed drily  pedantic, much to the doctor's amusement. "From a cannibalistic point of view,  the word works."

"I'm afraid that under all your blue-collar earthiness lurks a droning  professor."

Dusty said nothing, but his eyes jiggled with REM.

"Well, though I'm no cannibal," said Ahriman, "I think your wife is succulent.  From now on, in fact, I'll have a new pet name for her. She'll be my little pork  chop."

The doctor concluded the session with the usual instructions not to retain any  conscious or any accessible subconscious memory of what had transpired between  them. Then: "You will return to the outgoing waiting room, Dusty. Pick up the  book that you were reading and sit where you were sitting before. Find the point  in the text where you were interrupted. Then, in your mind, you'll leave the chapel where  you are now. As you close the chapel door, all recollection of what happened  from the moment I stepped out of my office, just after you heard the click of  the latch, until you wake from your current state, will have been erased. Then,  counting slowly to ten, you'll ascend the stairs from the chapel. When you reach  ten, you will regain full consciousness-and continue reading."

"I understand."

"Have a good afternoon, Dusty."

"Thank you."

"You're welcome."

Dusty rose from his armchair and crossed the office, not once glancing at his  wife upon the couch.

When the mister was gone, the doctor went to the missus and stood studying her.  Succulent, indeed.

He dropped to one knee beside the couch, kissed each of her closed eyes, and  said, "My pork chop."

This, of course, had no effect, but it gave the doctor a laugh. Another kiss to each eye. "Princess."

She woke but was still in the mind chapel, not yet permitted full consciousness. At Ahriman's instruction, she returned to the armchair in which she had been  sitting earlier.

Settling into his chair, he said, "Martie, through the rest of the afternoon and  early evening, you will feel somewhat more at peace than you have been during  the past twenty-four hours. Your auto-phobia hasn't disappeared, but it has  relented a bit. For a while, you'll be troubled only by a low-grade uneasiness,  a sense of fragility, and brief spells of sharper fear at the rate of about one  an hour, each only a minute or two in duration. But later, at about. . . oh, at  about nine o'clock, you will experience your worst panic attack yet. It'll begin  in the usual way, escalate as before-but suddenly through your mind will pass  the dead and tortured people we studied together, all the stabbed and shot and  mutilated bodies, the decomposing cadavers, and you'll become convinced, against  all reason, that you personally are responsible for what happened to them, that  your hands committed all this torture and murder. Your hands. Your hands. Tell  me if you understand what I have said."

"My hands."

"I leave the details of your big moment to you. You've certainly got the raw  materials for it."

"I understand."

Sizzling passion eyes. Simmer in broth of eros. My juicy pork chop.

Haiku with culinary metaphor. This was nothing the masters of Japanese verse  were likely to endorse, but although the doctor respected the demandingly formal  structures of haiku, he was enough of a free spirit to make his own rules from  time to time.

Dusty was reading about Dr. Yen Lo and the team of dedicated Communist  mind-control specialists who were screwing with the brains of the hapless  American soldiers, when suddenly he exclaimed, "What the hell is this,"  referring to the paperback that he was holding in his hands.

He nearly pitched The Manchurian Candidate across the waiting room, but checked  himself. Instead, he dropped it on the little table next to his chair, shaking  his right hand as though the book had burnt him.

He sprang to his feet and stood looking down at the damn thing. He was no less  shocked and spooked than he would have been if an evil sorcerer's curse had  transformed the novel into a rattlesnake.

When he dared to look away from the book, he glanced at the door to Dr.  Ahriman's office. Closed. It looked as though it had been closed since time  immemorial. As formidable as a stone monolith.

The squeak of the lever-action handle, the click of the latch: He had clearly  heard both those sounds. Embarrassment, alarm, shame, a sense of danger.  Inexplicably, those feelings and more had crackled through him as quick as an  electric arc snapping across a tiny gap in a circuit: Don't be caught reading  this! Reflexively, he had tossed the book on the table, and because its shiny  cover was slippery, it had sailed right off the granite top. The door had done  its pop-sigh vacuum thing, and he had started to shoot to his feet as the book  hit the floor with a plop, and then... and then the novel was back in his hand, and he was reading, sitting in his  chair, as if the squeak-click-pop-sigh-plop moment of alarm had never happened.  Maybe his entire life, from birth to death, was on a videotape up there in kingdom come, where one of the celestial editors  had rewound it a few seconds, to the moment immediately before the sounds of the  door had alarmed him, erasing all those events from his past but forgetting to  erase his memory of them. Apparently, an apprentice editor with a lot to learn. Magic. Dusty recalled the fantasy novels in Skeet's apartment. Wizards,  warlocks, necromancers, sorcerers, spellcasters. This was the kind of experience  that made you believe in magic-or question your sanity.

He reached for the book on the table, where he had dropped it- for the second  time?-and then he hesitated. He poked the book with one finger, but it didn't  hiss or open an eye and wink at him.

He picked it up, turned it wonderingly in his hands, and then riffled the pages  across his thumb.

That sound reminded him of a deck of cards being snap-shuffled, which reminded  him, in turn, that the brainwashed American soldier in the novel, the one  programmed to be an assassin, was activated when handed a pack of cards and  asked Why don't you pass the time by playing a little solitaire? To be  effective, the question had to be asked in exactly those words. The guy then  played solitaire until he turned up the queen of diamonds, whereupon his  subconscious mind became accessible to his controller, making him ready to  receive his instructions.

Gazing thoughtfully at the paperback, Dusty let the edges of the pages fan  across his thumb again.

He sat down, still thoughtful. Still thumbing the pages.

What he had here wasn't magic. What he had here was another bit of missing time,  only a few seconds, shorter even than his moment on the phone in the kitchen,  the previous day.

Shorter?

Was it really?

He consulted his wristwatch. Maybe not shorter. He couldn't be sure, because he  hadn't checked the time since reading the first words of the novel. Maybe he had  been zoned out for a few seconds or maybe for ten minutes, even longer.

Missing time.

What sense did this make?

None.

Energized by gut instinct, mind spinning along a trail of logic twister than the  human intestinal tract, he couldn't concentrate on Condon's novel right now. He  crossed the room to the coat rack and tucked the book in his own jacket rather  than in Martie's.

From another jacket pocket, he withdrew his phone.

Instead of activating the brainwashed, programmed person with a precisely worded  question-Why don't you pass the time by playing a little solitaire?-why not  activate him with a name? Dr. Yen Lo.

Instead of the deep subconscious becoming accessible to the controller upon the  appearance of the queen of diamonds.. . why not access it by the recitation of a  few lines of poetry? Haiku.

Pacing, Dusty entered Ned Motherwell's mobile number.

Ned answered on the fifth ring. He was still at the Sorensons' house. "Couldn't  paint today, still damp from the rain, but we've done a lot of prep work. Hell,  Fig and I have gotten more done today, just us, than we get done in two days  with that hopeless little turd hanging around, smacked on one kind of dope or  another."

"Skeet's doing fine," Dusty said. "Thanks for asking."

"I hope wherever you took him, they're kicking his skinny ass around the clock."

"Absolutely. I checked him into Our Lady of the Ass-Kickers Hospital."

"There ought to be such a place."

"I'm sure if Straight Edgers take over the church, there'll be one in every  town. Listen, Ned, can you let Fig close up the job today while you do something  for me?"

"Sure. Fig isn't a dope-sucking, self-destructive, walking scrotum. Fig is  reliable."

"Has he seen Big Foot recently?"

"If he ever said he did, I'd believe him."

"Me, too," Dusty admitted.

He told Ned Motherwell what he needed to have done, and they agreed on when and  where to meet.

After terminating the call, Dusty clipped the phone to his belt. He checked his  watch. Almost three o'clock. He sat down again. Two minutes later, hunched forward in his chair, forearms on his thighs, hands  clasped between his knees, staring at the black granite floor, Dusty was  thinking so hard that the wax should have been blown out of his ears with the  velocity of bullets. When the lever- action handle squeaked and the latch clicked, he twitched but didn't explode to  his feet.

Martie came out of the office first, smiling prettily, and Dusty rose to greet  her, smiling less prettily, and Dr. Ahriman entered the waiting room behind her,  smiling paternally, and maybe Dusty smiled a little more prettily when he saw  the psychiatrist, because the man virtually radiated competence and compassion  and confidence and all sorts of good stuff.

"Excellent session," Dr. Ahriman assured Dusty. "We're already making progress.  I believe Martie is going to respond brilliantly to therapy, I really do."

"Thank God," Dusty said, getting Martie's jacket from the rack "Not to say there  won't be difficult times ahead," the doctor cautioned. "Perhaps even worse panic  attacks than any heretofore. This is, after all, a rare and challenging phobia.  But whatever short-term setbacks there may be, I'm absolutely sure that in the  long term there will be a complete cure."

"Long term?" Dusty asked, but not worriedly, because no one could be worried in  the presence of the doctor's confident smile.

"Not more than a few months," Dr. Ahriman said, "perhaps much more quickly.  These things have clocks of their own, and we can't set them. But there's every  reason to be optimistic. I'm not even going to consider a medication component  at this time, just therapy for a week or two, and then see where we are."

Dusty almost mentioned the prescription for Valium that Dr. Closterman had  issued, but Martie spoke first.

Shrugging into her black leather jacket as Dusty held it for her, she said,  "Honey, I feel pretty good. Really much, much better. I really do."

"Friday morning. Ten o'clock appointment," Dr. Ahriman reminded them.

"We'll be here," Dusty assured him.

Smiling, nodding, Ahriman said, "I'm certain you will."

When the doctor retreated to his inner office and closed the heavy door, a  measure of warmth went out of the waiting room. A little chill came in from  somewhere.

"He's really a great psychiatrist," Martie said.

Zipping up his jacket, Dusty said, "He's deeply committed to his patients," and though he was smiling and still felt good, some cranky part of  him wondered how he knew Ahriman was committed to anything more than collecting  his fees.

Opening the door to the fourteenth-floor corridor, Martie said, "He'll make this  trouble go away. I feel good about him."

In the long corridor, heading toward the elevator, Dusty said, "Who uses the  word heretofore?"

"What do you mean?"

"He used it. Dr. Ahriman. Heretofore."

"Did he? Well, it's a word, isn't it?"

"But how often do you ever hear it? I mean outside a lawyer's office or a  courtroom."

"What's your point?"

Frowning, Dusty said, "I don't know."

In the elevator alcove, when she pushed the call button, Martie said,

"Heretofore, you have generally made sense, but not now."

"It's a pompous word."

"No, it's not."

"In everyday conversation it is," he insisted. "It's something my old man would  say. Trevor Penn Rhodes. Or Skeet's old man. Or either of her other two  elitist-bastard husbands."

"You're ranting, which you've seldom done heretofore. What's your point?"

He sighed. "I guess I don't have one."

On the way down to the ground floor, Dusty's stomach dropped out of him, as  though they were in an express elevator to Hell. Crossing the lobby, he seemed to be decompressing after a dive into a deep ocean  trench, or adjusting to gravity after living in a space shuttle for a week.  Coming out of a dream.

As they approached the doors, Martie took his arm, and he said, "I'm sorry,  Martie. I'm just feeling. . . weird."

"That's okay. You were weird when I married you."

51

Unlike Dr. Ahriman's fourteenth-floor suite, the parking lot offered no view of  the nearby Pacific. Dusty couldn't see whether the ocean was as ominously dark  now as it had appeared to be from the psychiatrist's office.

The sky was sludge, but it didn't press down with full doomsday weight as  before, and within the works of man, he could no longer see the future wreckage  from pending cataclysms.

The breeze was promoting itself to a wind, busily sweeping dead leaves and a few  small scraps of litter across the pavement.

In the car, Martie had a nervous edge to her, although it was only a fraction as  sharp as it had been this morning. Still in a post-therapy glow, she rummaged  through the glove box, found a roll of chocolate candies, and popped them into  her mouth one at a time, chewing each with relish. Evidently she had no concern  that she would have to give them back later, in a panic attack, if she found  herself bent forward, retching uncontrollably.

Declining a chocolate when Martie offered it, Dusty withdrew the paperback from  his jacket pocket and said, "Where did you get this?"

She glanced at the book and shrugged. "Picked it up somewhere."

"Did you buy it?"

"Bookstores don't give the things away, you know."

"Which bookstore?"

Frowning, she said, "What's this about?"

"I'll explain. But first I need to know. Which store? Barnes and Noble? Borders?  Book Carnival, where you buy mysteries?"

Chewing chocolate, she studied the paperback for a long moment, and a bemused  look came over her. "I don't know."

"Well, it's not as if you buy a hundred books a week from twenty different  stores," he said impatiently.

"Yeah, okay, but I never claimed to have your memory. Don't you remember where I  got it?"

"I must not have been with you."

Martie put down the roll of candies and took the paperback from him. She didn't  open the book or even fan the pages with her thumb, as he might have expected,  but she held it in both hands, staring at the title, held it very tightly, as  though trying to squeeze out its origins as she might squeeze juice from an  orange.

"I better go back to the hospital, get a test for early-onset Alzheimer's," she  finally said, returning the book to Dusty and picking up the chocolates.

"Maybe it was a gift," he suggested.

"From whom?"

"That's what I'm asking."

"No. If it was a gift, I'd remember."

"When you examined the book just now, why didn't you open it?"

"Open it? There's nothing in it that'll tell me where I bought it." She held out  the half-depleted roll of candy. "Here. You're a little irritable. Maybe you're  hypoglycemic. Pump in some sugar."

"Pass. Martie, do you know what this novel is about?"

"Sure. It's a thriller."

"But a thriller about what?"

"Entertaining plot, colorful characters. I'm enjoying it."

"And what's it about?"

She stared at the paperback, chewing the candy more slowly. "Well, you know  thrillers. Run, jump, chase, shoot, run some more."

In Dusty's hands, the book seemed to grow cold. Heavier. Its texture began to  change, too: The colorful cover seemed slicker than before. As if it weren't  just a book. More than a book. A talisman, too, that might at any moment work  its witchery and send him plunging through a magical doorway into a dragon-infested alternate reality of the type  Skeet liked to read about. Or maybe the talisman already had performed that  trick, without him realizing that he'd stepped out of one world and into  another. Here there be dragons.

"Martie, I don't think you've read a sentence of this book. Or even opened it." Holding a chocolate between thumb and forefinger, poised to pop it into her  mouth, she said, "I told you, it's a real thriller. The writing's good. The plot  is entertaining, and the characters are colorful. I'm. . . enjoying. . . it." Dusty saw that she recognized the singsong quality in her voice. Her mouth was  open, but the chocolate morsel remained unpopped. Her eyes widened as if with  surprise.

Holding the book up, back cover turned to her, he said, "It's about  brainwashing, Martie. Even the sales copy makes that clear."

Her expression, better than any words she could have spoken, revealed that the  subject of the novel was news to her.

"It takes place during and a few years after the Korean War," he told her. The circlet of chocolate was beginning to get tacky between her fingers, so she  slipped it into her mouth.

"It's about this guy," Dusty said, "this soldier, Raymond Shaw, who has-"

"I'm listening," she said.

Dusty's attention was on the book when Martie interrupted him, and when he  looked up, he saw that a placid, detached expression had claimed her face. Her  mouth hung open. He saw the chocolate lozenge on her tongue.

"Martie?"

"Yeah," she said thickly, not bothering to close her mouth, the candy quivering  on her tongue.

Here was the episode with Skeet at New Life Clinic, repeating with Martie. "Oh, shit," he said.

She blinked, closed her mouth, tongued the candy into her left cheek, and said,  "What's wrong?"

She was back with him, no longer detached, eyes clear.

"Where did you go?" he asked.

"Me? When?"

"Here. Just now."

She cocked her head. "I really think you need a hit of sugar."

"Why did you say 'I'm listening'?"

"I didn't say it."

Dusty looked through the windshield and saw no obsidian castle with red-eyed  fiends manning its saw-toothed battlements, no dragons devouring knights. Just  the breeze-swept parking lot, the world as he knew it, though it was less  knowable than it had once seemed.

"I was telling you about the book," he reminded her. "Do you remember the last  thing I said about it?"

"Dusty, what on earth-"

"Humor me."

She sighed. "Well, you said it's about this guy, this soldier-"

"And?"

"And then you said, 'Oh, shit.' That's all."

He was getting creeped out just holding the book. He put it on the dashboard.

"You don't remember the name of the soldier?"

"You didn't tell me."

"Yes, I did. And then.. . you were gone. Last night you told me you feel like  you're missing bits of time. Well, you've got a few seconds missing right here."

She looked disbelieving. "I don't feel it."

"Raymond Shaw," he said.

"I'm listening."

Detached again. Eyes out of focus. But not as profoundly in a trance as Skeet  had been.

Suppose the name activates the subject. Suppose the haiku then makes the  subconscious accessible for instruction.

"Clear cascades," Dusty said, because it was the only haiku with which he was  familiar.

Her eyes were glazed, but they didn't jiggle like Skeet's.

She hadn't responded to these lines last night, when she'd been falling asleep;  and she wasn't going to respond to them now. Her trigger was Raymond Shaw, not  Dr. Yen Lo, and her haiku was different from Skeet's.

Nevertheless, he said, "Into the waves scatter."

She blinked. "Scatter what?"

"You were gone again."

Regarding him dubiously, she said, "Then who kept my seat warm?"

"I'm serious. You were gone. Like Skeet but different. Just the name, just Dr.  Yen Lo, and he got loosey-goosey, babbling about the rules, upset with me  because I wasn't operating him correctly. But you're tighter, you just wait for  the right thing to be said, and then if I don't have the verse to open you for  instruction, you snap right out of it."

She looked at him as though he were addled.

"I'm not addled," he insisted.

"You're definitely weirder than when I married you. What's this stuff about  Skeet?"

"Something bizarre happened at New Life yesterday. I haven't had a chance to  tell you about it."

"Here's your chance."

He shook his head. "Later. Let's settle this first, prove to you what's  happening. Do you have any candy in your mouth?"

"In my mouth?"

"Yeah. Did you finish that last piece you took, or is some of it still in your  mouth?"

She slipped the half-dissolved chocolate morsel out of the pocket of her cheek,  showed it to him on the tip of her tongue, and then tucked it away again.

Holding the half-finished roll of candy toward him, she said, "But wouldn't you  prefer an unused piece?"

Taking the roll from her, he said, "Swallow the candy."

"Sometimes I like to let it melt."

"You can let the next one melt," he said impatiently. "Come on, come on, swallow  it."

"Definitely hypoglycemic."

"No, I'm irritable by nature," he said, peeling a chocolate from the roll. "Have  you swallowed?"

She swallowed theatrically.

"No candy in your mouth?" he pressed. "It's gone? All of it?"

"Yeah, yeah. But what does this have to do with-"

"Raymond Shaw," Dusty said.

"I'm listening."

Eyes drifting out of focus, a subtle slackness pulling down on her face, mouth  open expectantly, she waited for the haiku that he didn't know.

Instead of poetry, Dusty gave her candy, slipping the chocolate lozenge between  her open lips, past her teeth, onto her tongue, which didn't even twitch when  the treat touched it.

Even as Dusty leaned away from her, Martie blinked, started to finish the  sentence that Dusty had interrupted with the name Raymond Shaw-and became aware  of the candy in her mouth.

For her, this moment was equivalent to Dusty's finding the book in his hand  again, magically, the instant after dropping it on the waiting-room floor. He  had almost thrown the paperback across the room, in shock, before he'd checked  himself. Martie wasn't able to check herself: She gasped with surprise, choked,  coughed, and ejected the candy with immeasurably more force than a Pez  dispenser, scoring a direct hit on his forehead.

"I thought you liked to let them melt," he said.

"It's melting."

As he wiped the candy off his forehead with a Kleenex, Dusty said, "You were  gone for a few seconds."

"I was gone," she agreed, a tremor in her voice.

Her post-therapy glow was fading. She scrubbed nervously at her mouth with the  back of her hand, pulled down the sun visor to examine her face in the small  mirror, at once recoiled from her reflection, and flipped the visor up again.

She shrank back in the seat.

"Skeet," she reminded him.

As succinctly as possible, Dusty told her about the plunge off the Sorensons'  roof, the pages from the notepad in Skeet's kitchen, the episode at New Life,  and his recent realization that he himself was experiencing at least brief  periods of missing time. "Blackouts, fugues, whatever you want to call them."

"You, me, and Skeet," she said. She glanced at the paperback on the dashboard.

"But. . . brainwashing?"

He was acutely aware of how outlandish his theory seemed, but the events of the  past twenty-four hours lent it credibility, though without diminishing the  absurdity factor. "Maybe, yeah. Something's happened to us. Something's. . .  been done to us."

"Why us?"

He checked his wristwatch. "We better go. Have to meet Ned."

"What's Ned got to do with this?"

Starting the engine, Dusty said, "Nothing. I asked him to get some things for  me."

As Dusty backed the car out of the parking slot, Martie said, "Back to the big  question. Why us? Why is this happening to us?"

"Okay, I know what you're thinking. A housepainter, a video-game designer, and  poor Skeet the feeb. Who would have anything to gain by messing with our minds,  controlling us?"

Plucking the paperback off the dashboard, she said, "Why do they brainwash the  guy in this story?"

"They turn him into an assassin who can never be traced back to the people who  control him."

"You, me, and Skeet-assassins?"

"Until he shot John Kennedy, Lee Harvey Oswald was at least as big a nobody as  we are."

"Gee, thanks."

"True. And Sirhan Sirhan. And John Hinckley."

Whether or not the sea would prove to be heavily marbled with black when  eventually he saw it, Dusty was aware of a new downshift in his mood, now that  the comforting ambience of the psychiatrist's office was far behind him. At the  exit from the parking lot, when he came to the cashier's kiosk with its striped  crossbar blocking the lane, the little building seemed to house a threat, as  though it were a guard post at some remote, godforsaken border crossing high in  the Balkans, where uniformed thugs with machine guns routinely robbed and  sometimes murdered travelers. The cashier was a pleasant woman-thirtyish,  pretty, somewhat chubby, with a butterfly barrette in her hair-but Dusty had the  paranoid feeling that she was someone other than whom she appeared to be.

When  the crossbar rose and he drove out of the lot, half the cars passing in the  street seemed likely to harbor surveillance teams assigned to track him

52

On Newport Center Drive, the wind-shaken rows of towering palm trees tossed  their fronds, as if warning Dusty off the route that he was driving. Martie said, "Okay, if something like this was done to us-who did it?"

"In The Manchurian Candidate, it's the Soviets, the Chinese, and the North  Koreans."

"The Soviet Union doesn't exist anymore," she noted. "Somehow, I can't see the  three of us being the instruments of an elaborate conspiracy of Asian  totalitarians."

"In the movies, it would probably be extraterrestrials."

"Great," she said sarcastically. "Let's call Fig Newton and tap into his vast  store of knowledge on the subject."

"Or some giant corporation bent on turning us all into mindless, robotic  consumers."

"I'm halfway there without their help," she said.

"A secret government agency, scheming politicians, Big Brother."

"That one's a little too real for comfort. But again-why us?"

"If it wasn't us, it would have to be somebody else."

"That's weak."

"I know," Dusty said, smoldering with more frustration than a monastery full of  celibates. From the shadowy regions of his mind, another answer teased him, glimmering  dully but not bright enough for him to get a clear look at it. Indeed, every  time he went into the shadows after it, the thought slipped away altogether. He remembered the drawing of the forest that became a city when his preconceived  perception of it changed. Here was another situation where he couldn't see the  city for the trees.

He recalled, as well, the dream of the lightning and the heron. The inflation  bulb of the sphygmomanometer had floated in midair, being compressed and  released by an invisible hand. In that dream with him and Martie, there had been  a third presence as transparent as a ghost.

That presence was their tormentor, whether an extraterrestrial or an agent of  Big Brother, or someone else. Dusty suspected that if he were indeed operating  according to some hypnotically implanted program, then his programmers had  hobbled him with the suggestion that if he ever became suspicious, his suspicion  would not fall on them but on a host of other suspects both probable and  improbable, such as aliens and government agents. His enemy might cross his path  at any moment but be as effectively invisible in real life as he was in the  nightmare of the shrieking heron.

As Dusty turned right onto Pacific Coast Highway, Martie opened The Manchurian  Candidate and scanned the first sentence in it, which contained the name that  had triggered her mini-blackout. Dusty saw a chill shiver through her when she  read it, but she didn't switch into that detached, anticipatory state. Then she spoke it aloud, "Raymond Shaw," with no more serious effect than  another brief shiver.

"Maybe it doesn't work on you properly when you read it or say it yourself," he  suggested, "only when someone says it to you."

"Or maybe just by knowing the name, I've taken away its power over me."

"Raymond Shaw," he said.

"I'm listening."

When Martie returned to full consciousness after about ten seconds, Dusty said,  "Welcome back. And so much for that theory."

Scowling at the book, she said, "We should take it home and burn it."

"No point doing that. There are clues in it. Secrets. Whoever put the book into your hands-and I tend to think you didn't just go out and buy  it-whoever they are, they must be working the other side of the street from the  people who programmed us. They want us to wise up to what's happening to us. And  the book is a key. They gave you a key to unlock all this."

"Yeah? Why didn't they just walk up to me and say, 'Hey, lady, some people we  know are screwing with your brain, planting auto-phobia in your head and lots  more stuff you don't even know about yet, for reasons you couldn't even imagine,  and we just don't like it much.'

"Well, let's say it is some secret government agency, and inside the agency  there's this small faction that's morally opposed to the project-"

"Opposed to Operation Brainwash Dusty, Skeet, and Martie."

"Yeah. But they can't come to us publicly."

"Why?" she persisted.

"Because they'd be killed. Or maybe it's just that they're afraid of being fired  and losing their pensions."

"Morally opposed but not to the extent of losing their pensions. That part  sounds creepily real. But the rest of it. . . So they slip me this book. Wink,  wink, nudge, nudge. Then for some reason they seem to program me not to read  it."

Dusty braked to a stop in a backup at a red traffic light. "A little lame, huh?"

"A lot lame."

They were on a bridge that spanned the channel between Newport Harbor and its  back bay. Under the sunless sky, the broad expanse of water was dark gray-green,  though not black, with hatching drawn on it by the breeze above and the currents  below, so that it looked scaly, like the hide of a fearsome slumbering reptile  out of the Jurassic Period.

"But there's something that isn't lame," Martie said, "not in the least lame.  Something that's happening to Susan."

A grimness in her voice drew Dusty's attention from the harbor. "What about  Susan?"

"She's missing periods of time, too. Not little pieces, either. Big blocks of  time. Whole nights."

The Valium veil in her eyes had been gradually lifting, that welcome but  artificial calm giving way to anxiety once more. At Dr. Ahriman's office, the unnatural paleness left her, replaced by peachy color, but  now shadows were gathering in the tender skin under her eyes, as though her face  were darkening in sympathy with the slowly waning winter afternoon. Beyond the farther end of the bridge, the red signal changed to green. The  traffic began to move.

Martie told him about Susan's phantom rapist.

Dusty had been worried. He had been frightened. Now a feeling worse than worry  or fear wrapped his heart.

Sometimes, when he woke in the abyss of night and lay listening to Martie's  sweet soft breathing, a mortal dread-more terrible than simple fear-crept into  him. After one too many glasses of wine at dinner, too much cream sauce, and  perhaps a bitter clove of garlic, his mind was as sour as his stomach, and he  contemplated the silence of the predawn world without his usual appreciation for  the beauty of stillness, hearing no peace in it, hearing instead the threat of  the void. In spite of the faith that was his rock through most of his life, a  worm of doubt chewed at his heart on these hushed nights, and he wondered if all  that he and Martie had together was this one life, and nothing beyond it but a  darkness that allowed no memory and was empty even of loneliness. He didn't want  until-death-do-you-part, didn't want anything short of forever, and when a  despairing inner voice suggested that forever was a fraud, he always reached out  in the night to touch Martie in her sleep. His intention was not to wake her,  only to feel in her what she invariably contained and what was detectable to  even his lightest touch: her given grace, her immortality and the promise of his  own.

Now, as he listened to Martie recount Susan's story, Dusty was an apple to the  worm of doubt again. Everything that was happening to all of them seemed unreal,  meaningless, a glimpse into the chaos underlying life. He was overcome by a  feeling that the end, when it arrived, would be only the end, not also a  beginning, and he sensed that it was coming fast, too, a cruel and brutal death  toward which they were hurtling blindly.

When Martie finished, Dusty handed his cell phone to her. "Try Susan again." She placed the call. The number rang and rang. And rang.

"Let's go see if the retirees downstairs know where she's gone," Martie  suggested. "It's not far."

Ned will be waiting for us. As soon as I pick up what he's got for me, we'll go  to Susan's. But for sure, it can't be Eric creeping around there at night."

"Because whoever is doing this to her, he's one of them behind what's happening  to you, me, Skeet."

"Yeah. And Eric, hell, he's an investment adviser, a numbers cruncher, not a  mind-control wizard."

Martie keyed Susan's number in again. She pressed the phone tightly to her ear.  Her face was pinched by the strain of wishing fervently for an answer.

53

Ned Motherwell's pride was an '82 Chevy Camaro: unpainted but with a  periodically reapplied coat of flat-gray primer, chopped, fitted with frenched  headlights, stripped of brightwork except for a pair of fat chrome tailpipes.

Parked in the southeast corner of the shopping-center lot where they had  arranged to meet, it looked like a getaway car. As Dusty parked two spaces away,  Ned climbed out of the Camaro, and though it was by no definition a subcompact,  there seemed to be a lot more of Ned than there was vehicle. He towered over the  low, customized car as he closed the door. Although the day was cool and the  afternoon fading, he wore only white khakis and a white T-shirt, as usual. If  the Camaro ever broke down, he appeared to be capable of carrying it to the  garage.

The trees along the periphery of the lot trembled in the wind, and little  funnels of dust and litter spun across the pavement, but Ned appeared unaffected  by-and even unaware of-the turbulence.

When Dusty lowered his window, Ned looked in past him, smiled, and said, "Hey,  Martie."

"Hey, Ned."

"Sorry to hear you're not feeling well."

"I'll live, they say."

On the phone from Ahriman's waiting room, Dusty had said that Martie was ill and  didn't feel well enough to go into a pharmacy or a bookstore, and that he didn't  want to leave her alone in the car.

"It's hard enough working for this guy," Ned told Martie, "so I imagine how sick  you must get living with him. No offense, boss."

"None taken."

Ned passed a small bag from the pharmacy through the window. It contained the  prescription for Valium that Dr. Closterman had phoned in earlier. He also had a  larger bag from the bookstore.

"If you'd asked me this morning what haiku is," Ned said, "I'd have told you  it's some kind of martial art like tae kwon do. But it's all these chopped  poems."

"Chopped?" Dusty asked, peering into the bag.

"Like my car," Ned said. "Cut down, streamlined. They're kind of cool. Bought  one book for myself."

Dusty saw seven collections of haiku in the bag. "So many."

"They've got this long shelf full of the stuff," Ned said. "For such a little  thing, haiku's big."

"I'll cut you a check for all this tomorrow."

"No hurry. Used my credit card. Won't come due for a while."

Dusty passed Martie's house key through the window to Ned. "Are you sure you've  got time to take care of Valet?"

"I'm on for it. But I don't know dogs."

"Not much to know." Dusty told him where to find the kibble. "Give him two cups.  Then he'll expect a walk, but just let him into the backyard again for ten  minutes, and he'll do the right thing."

"Then he'll be okay in the house alone?"

"As long as he's got a full water dish and the TV remote, he'll be happy."

"My mom is a cat woman," Ned said. "Not the Catwoman, like in Batman, but she  always has a kitty-cat."

Hearing big Ned say kitty-cat was akin to seeing an NFL fullback break into  ballet steps and execute a perfect entrechat.

"Once, a neighbor poisoned an orange tabby my mom really loved. Mrs. Jingles.  That was the cat's name, not the neighbor's."

"What kind of person would poison a cat?" Dusty commiserated.

"He was running a crystal-meth lab out of the rental next door," Ned said.

"Piece of human garbage. I broke both his legs, called 911, pretending I was  him, said I fell down the stairs, needed help. They sent an ambulance, saw the  meth lab, busted his operation."

"You broke the legs of a drug thug?" Martie said. "Isn't that risky?"

"Not really. Couple nights later, one of his pals takes a shot at me, but he's  so whacked on speed he misses. I broke both his arms, put him in his car, pushed  it over an embankment. Called 911, said I was him, cried for help. They found  dirty money and drugs in the car trunk, fixed his arms, and put him away for ten  years."

"All this for a cat?" Dusty wondered.

"Mrs. Jingles was a nice cat. Plus she was my mom's." Martie said, "I feel Valet's in good hands."

Smiling, nodding, Ned said, "I wouldn't let anything bad happen to your puppy."

On the peninsula, on Balboa Boulevard, a few blocks from Susan's place, Martie  was paging through a haiku collection when she gasped, dropped the book, and  huddled forward in the seat, her body clenched as though in pain. "Pull over.

Pull over now, hurry, pull over."

Not pain, fear. That she would seize the wheel. Swing the car into oncoming  traffic. The by now familiar the-monster-lurks-in-me blues.

In summer, with the beach crowds, Dusty would probably have had to cruise  through an hour-long panic attack to find a parking place. January allowed a  quick move to the curb.

On the sidewalk, a few kids whistled past on in-line skates, looking for senior  citizens to knock into nursing homes. Bicyclists pumped past on the left, on a  quest for death by traffic.

No one showed any interest in Dusty and Martie. That might change if she started  screaming again.

He considered how best to restrain her if she began to bash her head against the  dashboard. There was no low-risk way to do it. In her panic, she would  strenuously resist, try to wrench free, and he would inadvertently hurt her. "I love you," he said helplessly.

Then he began to talk to her, just talk quietly, as she rocked in her seat,  gasped for breath, and groaned like a woman coping with early labor pains, her  panic struggling to be born. He didn't try to reason with her or coddle her with  words, because she already knew how irrational this was. Instead, he talked  about their first date.

It had been a fine disaster. He had raved about the restaurant, but in the six weeks since he'd last been there, the ownership had changed. The new  chef evidently received his training at the Culinary Institute of Rural Iceland,  because the food was cold and every dish had an undertaste of volcanic ash. The  busboy spilled a glass of water on Dusty, and Dusty spilled a glass of water on  Martie, and their waiter spilled a boat of cream sauce on himself. The fire in  the kitchen, during dessert, was minor enough to be doused without the fire  department, but major enough to require one busboy, one waiter, the maître d',  and the sous-chef (a large Samoan gentleman) to battle it with four  extinguishers-though perhaps they required such an ocean of suppressant foam  because they got more of it on one another than on the flames. After leaving the  restaurant, starving, over a desperate make-good dinner at a coffee shop, Dusty  and Martie had laughed so hard that they were bonded forever.

Neither of them was laughing now, but the bond was stronger than ever. Whether  it was Dusty's quiet talk, the lingering effects of Valium, or Dr. Ahriman's  influence, Martie didn't descend into a full-fledged panic attack. Within two or  three minutes, her fear diminished, and she sat up straight in her seat again.

"Better," she said. "But I still feel like shit."

"Birdshit," he reminded her.

"Yeah."

Although nearly an hour of daylight remained, more than half the passing cars,  whether going up or down the peninsula, traveled behind headlights. The sludge  moving slowly west to east across the sky was ushering in an early and  protracted twilight.

Dusty switched on the lights and pulled into a gap in traffic.

"Thanks for that," Martie said.

"I didn't know what else to do."

"Next time, just talk again. Your voice. It grounds me."

He wondered how long it would be until he could hold her close, without her  stiffening in fear, without that glitter of incipient panic in her eyes. How  long, if ever?

The grumbling sea tried to shoulder its way out of the deeps and claim the  continent, while the wind-coaxed beach spread sandy fingers across the  promenade, stealing the pavement.

Three gulls clung to angled perches along the stair railing, sentinels on a sea  watch, trying to decide whether to abandon the blustery shore for more-sheltered  roosts inland.

As Martie and Dusty climbed the steep stairs to the third-floor landing, the  birds took flight, one at a time, each of them surfing eastward on tumbling  waves of air. Though gulls are never taciturn, not one of these let out a cry as  it departed.

Martie knocked on the door, waited, and knocked again, but Susan didn't answer. She used her key to unlock the two dead bolts. She opened the door and called  Susan's name, twice, but received no response.

They scrubbed their shoes on the coarse mat and went inside, closing the door  behind them and calling her name again, louder.

Gloom filled the kitchen, but lights were on in the dining room.

"Susan?" Martie repeated, but again she went unanswered.

The apartment was full of conversation, but all the voices were those of the  wind talking to itself. Chattering against the cedar-shingled roof. Hooting and  jubilant in the eaves. Whistling at any chink and whispering at every window. Darkness in the living room, all the shades down, drapes drawn. Darkness in the  hall, too, but light spilling out of the bedroom, where the door stood wide. A  hard fluorescent glow in the bath, the door only half open.

Hesitant, calling for Susan again, Martie went into the bedroom.

Hand on the bathroom door, even before he began to push it open, Dusty knew. The  fragrance of rose water unsuccessfully masked an odor that vast trellises of  roses could not have defeated.

She was not Susan anymore. Facial swelling from bacterial gas, greening of the  skin, eyes goggling from the pressure in the skull, purge fluid draining from  nostrils and mouth, that grotesque lolling of the tongue that makes each of us a  dog in death: Thanks to the accelerant factor of the hot water in which she had  died, she was already reduced by nature's tiniest civilizations to the stuff of  nightmares.

He saw the notepad on the vanity by the sink, the neat lines of handwriting, and  suddenly his leaping heart was pumping as much terror as blood, not a terror of  the poor dead woman in the tub, not a cheap horror-movie scare, but icy fear of  what this meant for him and Martie and Skeet. He saw through this tableau at  once, intuited had imagined, vulnerable to one another, vulnerable each to himself, in a way  and to a degree that almost justified Martie's autophobia.

Before he had read more than a few words of the note, he heard Martie call his  name, heard her coming out of the bedroom into the hail. He turned at once and  moved forward, blocking her. "No."

As though she saw everything in his eyes that he had seen in the bathroom, she  said, "Oh, God. Oh, tell me no, tell me not her."

She tried to push past him, but he held her and forced her back toward the  living room. "You don't want a good-bye like this."

Something tore in her, which he had seen torn only once before, at the deathbed  in the hospital, on the night her father had conceded victory to the cancer,  rending her into limp rags of emotion, so that she could walk no more easily  than a rag doll could walk, could stand no more erectly than the straw-stuffed  rags of a scarecrow could ever stand without its props.

Half carried to the living-room sofa, Martie dropped there, in tears. She clawed  a needlepoint pillow from an arrangement of them, and hugged it against her  chest, hugged it fiercely, as though with the pillow she were trying to staunch  her hemorrhaging heart.

While the wind pretended to mourn, Dusty called 911, though the emergency here  had ended long hours ago.

54

With the blustery afternoon huffing at their backs, preceded by the fumes of  wintergreen breath mints masking the reek of a garlic-rich lunch, two uniformed  officers arrived first.

The mood in the apartment-set by Martie's quiet grieving, by Dusty's murmured  sympathy, by the spirit voices of the haunting wind-had thus far allowed for the  unreasonable thread of fragile hope that holds the heart together in the  immediate aftermath of death. Dusty was aware of it in himself, in spite of what  he'd seen: the crazy, desperate, so dimly burning, yet not quickly extinguished,  pitiable desire to believe that an awful mistake has been made, that the  deceased isn't deceased, but merely unconscious or in a coma, or sleeping, and  that she will wake up and walk into the room and wonder what their glum faces  signify. He had seen Susan's greenish pallor, the darkening of the flesh along  her throat, her bloated face, the purge fluid; and yet a tiny irrational inner  voice argued that maybe he had seen only shadows, tricks of light, which he'd  misinterpreted. In Martie, who had not viewed the corpse, this faint mad hope  must inevitably have had a stronger grip than in Dusty.

The cops put an end to hope merely by their presence. They were polite,  soft-spoken, professional, but they were also big men, tall and solid, and by  their size alone they imposed a hard reality that crowded out false hope. Their  slanguage between themselves- "D.B." meaning dead body, "a probable 10-56" for a  case of apparent suicide-pinned down the certainty of death with words, and the  crackle of messages issuing from the transceiver clipped to one of their utility  belts was the eerie voice of fate, unintelligible but unignorable. Two additional uniformed officers arrived, followed closely by a pair of  plainclothes detectives, and in the wake of the detectives were a man and a  woman from the medical examiner's office. As the first two men had robbed the  moment of hope, this larger group quite unintentionally stole from death its  mystery and special dignity, by approaching it as an accountant approaches  ledgers, with a workaday respect for routine and a seen-it-all detachment.

The cops had a lot of questions but fewer than Dusty expected, largely because  the circumstances of the scene and the condition of the body provided nearly  unimpeachable support for a determination of suicide. The declaration of the  deceased, on four pages of the notepad, was explicit as to motivation yet  contained enough emotion-and enough instances of the particular incoherence of  despair-to appear authentic.

Manic identified the handwriting as Susan's. Comparisons with an unmailed letter  from Susan to her mother and with samples from her address book all but  eliminated any possibility of forgery. If the investigation raised any suspicion  of homicide, a handwriting expert would provide an analysis.

Martie was also singularly qualified to confirm, as claimed in the suicide note,  that Susan Jagger had been suffering from severe agoraphobia for sixteen months,  that her career had been destroyed, that her marriage had fallen apart, and that  she was enduring bouts of depression. Her protests that Susan was nevertheless  far from suicidal sounded, even to Dusty, like nothing more than sad attempts to  protect a good friend's reputation and to prevent Susan's memory from being  tarnished.

Besides, Martie's emotional self-reproach, voiced not so much to the police or  to Dusty as to herself, made it clear that she was convinced this was suicide.  She blamed herself for not being here when Susan needed her, for not calling  Susan the previous evening and, perhaps, interrupting her with the razor blade  in hand.

Before the authorities arrived, Dusty and Martie had agreed not to mention  Susan's story of a ghostly night visitor who left behind a very unghostly  tablespoon or two of biological evidence. Martie thought this tale would only convince the police that Susan was unstable, even  flaky; further damaging her reputation.

She also worried that broaching this sensitive subject would lead to questions  requiring the revelation of her autophobia. She was loath to expose herself to  their gimlet-eyed interrogation and cold psychologizing. She hadn't harmed  Susan, but if she began to expound on her conviction that she had an exceptional  potential for violence, the detectives would put a pin in their determination of  suicide and would bulldog her for hours until they were certain that her fear of  self was as irrational as it seemed to be. And if the stress of all this brought  on another panic attack while they were present to witness it, the cops might  even decide that she was a danger to herself and to others, committing her  against her will to a psychiatric ward for seventy-two hours, which was within  their authority.

"I couldn't tolerate being in a place like that," Manic had told Dusty before  the first police arrived. "Locked up. Watched. I couldn't handle it." "Won't happen," he had promised.

He shared her reasons for wanting to keep quiet about Susan's phantom rapist,  but he had another reason, too, which he hadn't yet disclosed to her. He was  convinced, as Martie only wished she were, that Susan had not killed herself, at  least not with volition or with awareness of what she was doing. If he revealed  this to the police, however, and even made a failed attempt to convince them  that here was an extraordinary case involving faceless conspirators and wildly  effective techniques of mind control, then he and Martie would be dead, one way  or another, before the week was out.

And this was already Wednesday.

Since discovering Dr. Yen Lo in that novel, and especially since discovering the  paperback magically returned to his shaky hands after it fell onto the  waiting-room floor, Dusty had been burdened by a rapidly growing sense of  danger. A clock was ticking. He couldn't see the clock, couldn't hear it, but he  could feel the reverberation of each hard tick in his bones. Time was running  out for him and for Martie. Indeed, with the weight of his fear now grown so  great, he was concerned that the cops would detect his anxiety, misunderstand  it, and grow suspicious.

Susan's mother, who lived in Arizona with a new husband, was notified by telephone, as was her father, who lived in Santa Barbara with a new  wife. Both were on their way. After the case detective, Lieutenant Bizmet, had  quizzed Martie as to the seriousness of the estrangement between Susan and her  husband, he called Eric, too, got an answering machine, and left his name, rank,  and number, but not any news.

Bizmet, a formidable bulk with buzz-cut blond hair and a stare as direct as a  drill bit, was telling Dusty that they were no longer needed here, when Martie  was hit by a spasm of autophobia.

Dusty recognized the signs of the seizure. The sudden alarm in her eyes. The  pinched expression. Her face a whiter shade of pale.

She dropped to the sofa from which she had just risen, bent forward, hugging  herself and rocking, as she had done in the car earlier, shuddering and gasping  for breath.

This time, in the company of cops, he wasn't able to talk her down with  reminiscences of their dating days. He could only stand by helplessly, praying  that this would not escalate into an all-out panic attack.

To Dusty's surprise, Lieutenant Bizmet mistook Martie's auto-phobic misery for  another seizure of grief. He stood looking down at her with evident dismay,  awkwardly spoke a few consoling words, and cast a sympathetic expression at  Dusty.

Some of the other cops glanced at Martie and then returned to their various  tasks and conversations, their bloodhound instinct failing to catch the scent.

"Does she drink?" Bizmet asked Dusty.

"Does she what?" he replied, so tense that he was at first unable to puzzle out  the meaning of the word drink, as though it were Swahili. "Oh, drink, yes, a  little. Why?"

"Take her to a nice bar, pour a few into her, blur the edge off her nerves."

"Good advice," Dusty agreed.

"But not you," Bizmet amended with a scowl.

Heart leaping, Dusty said, "What?"

"A few drinks for her but just one for you if you're driving."

"Sure, of course. Never had a citation. Don't ever want one."

Martie rocked, shook, gasped, and had the presence of mind to throw in a few  stifled sobs of grief. She shook off the seizure in a minute or two, as she'd  done in the car on the way here.

With Bizmet's thanks and sympathies, after only one hour in the apartment, they  were on their way into a day grown dark.

The afternoon's bluster had not faded with the early winter twilight. Its cool  breath scented with Pacific brine and with the iodine in snarls of seaweed that  lay withering on the nearby shore, the wind harried Dusty and Martie, huffing  and squealing as though with accusations of cover-up and guilt.

In the chaotic rattle and click of clashing palm fronds, Dusty heard the  half-masked, rhythmic ticking of a clock. He heard it, too, in their footsteps  on the promenade, in the action of a three-foot-high decorative windmill that  stood on the patio of one of the oceanfacing houses that they passed, and  between each half of his two-part heartbeat. Time running out. 55 Davy Crockett was bravely defending the Alamo, but not solely with the support  of his usual compatriots. This time Davy had the help of Eliot Ness and a  considerable force of G-men.

One might expect that submachine guns, had they been available to the stalwart  men at the Alamo, would have altered the historical outcome of that battle in  1836. After all, the Gatling gun, which was the first crude version of the  machine gun, wouldn't be invented for another twenty-six years. Indeed,  automatic rifles weren't in use, at that time, and the most-advanced weapons in  the hands of the combatants were muzzle-loaders.

Unfortunately for the defenders of the Alamo, this time they were under siege by  both Mexican soldiers and a bunch of ruthless Prohibition-era gangsters with  submachine guns of their own. The combination of Al Capone's vicious cunning and  General Santa Anna's talent for military strategy might be more than Crockett  and Ness could handle.

The doctor briefly considered complicating this epic battle by introducing  spacemen and futuristic weapons from his Galaxy Command collection. He resisted  this childish temptation, because experience had taught him that the greater  number of anachronistic elements he combined on a board, the less satisfying the  game. To be engrossing, a play session required him to control his flamboyant imagination and stick strictly to a scenario with one clever but believable  concept. Frontiersmen, Mexican soldiers, G-men, gangsters, and spacemen would be  just too silly.

Dressed comfortably in black ninja-style pajamas with a scarlet silk belt,  barefoot, the doctor slowly circled the board, craftily analyzing the positions  of the opposing armies. As he reconnoitered, he rattled a pair of dice in a  casting cup.

His immense game board was actually an eight-foot-square table that stood in the  center of the room. These sixty-four square feet of terrain could be redesigned  for each new game, using his large collection of custom-crafted topographical  elements.

The big room, thirty feet square, otherwise contained only an armchair and a  small table to hold a telephone and snacks.

Currently, the only illumination came from the downlights in the ceiling  directly over the game board. The rest of the room lay in shadows.

All four walls were lined with floor-to-ceiling display shelves on which were  stored hundreds of plastic playsets in their original boxes. Most of the boxes  were in mint or near-mint condition, and none could be rated less than  excellent. Each set contained all its original complement of figures, buildings,  and accessories.

Ahrirnan acquired only Marx playsets, those produced by Louis Marx during the  1950s, 1960s, and 1970s. The miniature figures in these sets were wonderfully  detailed, beautifully produced, and sold for hundreds-even thousands-of dollars  on the rare-toy market. In addition to the Alamo and Untouchables sets, his  collection included Adventures of Robin Hood, American Patrol, Armored Attack,  Ben Hur, Battleground, Captain Gallant of the Foreign Legion, Fort Apache, Roy  Rogers Rodeo Ranch, Tom Corbett Space Academy, and scores of others, many in  duplicate and triplicate, which allowed him to populate the tabletop with a  large cast of characters.

This evening, the doctor was in an exceptionally fine mood. The game on the  board before him promised to be tremendous fun. Better yet, his other and far  bigger game, being played in the world beyond this room, was getting more  interesting by the hour.

Mr. Rhodes was reading The Manchurian Candidate. Most likely, Dustin would lack  the imagination and the intellect to absorb all the clues in that novel and  wouldn't be able to build upon them enough to understand the web in which he was caught. His prospects of saving himself  and his wife were still dismal, though better than they had been before he'd  cracked open the book.

Only a hopeless narcissist, megalomaniac, or other psychotic would engage in any  sport year after year, if he knew in advance that he would win every time. For  the true-and well-balanced-games-man, an element of doubt, at least a soupcon of  suspense, was required to make the game worth playing. He must test his skills  and challenge chance, not to be fair to the other players-fairness was for  fools-but to keep himself sharp and to ensure amusement. Always, the doctor salted his scenarios with traps for himself. Often, the traps  were not triggered, but the possibility of disaster, when it loomed, was  invigorating and kept him nimble. He loved this impish aspect of himself, and he  indulged it.

He had, for instance, permitted Susan Jagger to be aware of the semen that he  left in her. He could have instructed her to remain oblivious of this  distasteful evidence, and she would have blocked it from her mind. By allowing  her awareness and by suggesting that she direct her suspicion at her estranged  husband, the doctor had established powerful character dynamics, the  consequences of which he could not predict. Indeed, this had led to the near  thing with the videotape, which was the last development that he could have  imagined.

Among other traps in this game was The Manchurian Candidate. He had given the  paperback to Martie, instructing her to forget from whom she had received it. He  implanted the notion that during each of Susan's sessions, Martie was reading a  little of the novel, though she was actually reading none at all, and he  inadequately supported this suggestion by seeding in her a few sentences of an  improbably general nature, which she could use to describe the story if Susan or  anyone else asked her about it. If Martie's feeble, wooden description of the  book had puzzled Susan, perhaps she might have delved into it, discovering  connections to her real-life dilemma. Martie herself was not strictly forbidden  from reading the novel, only discouraged from doing so, and eventually she might  overcome that discouragement when Ahriman least expected. Instead, for whatever  reason, Mr. Rhodes had gone fishing in this fiction.

Where does fiction end and reality begin? That is the essence of the game.

As the doctor circled the big table, wondering whether Crockett or Capone would  be victorious, his black ninja pajamas rustled with silken sibilance.  Rattle-rattle, the dice in the cup.

If asked, the interior designers would say that the theme was contemporary  bistro, Italian modern. They wouldn't be lying, or necessarily disingenuous, but  their answer would be beside the point. All this glossy dark wood and black  marble, all these sleek polished surfaces, the vulviform amber-onyx sconces, the  long back-bar mural of a Rousseau-like jungle with vegetation more lush than any  in reality and with mysterious feline eyes peering from between rain-jeweled  leaves-all this spoke to one theme and one theme only: sex.

Half the place was a restaurant, the other half a bar, connected by a massive  archway flanked by mahogany columns on marble plinths. This early in the  evening, with workers just getting out of offices, the bar was crowded with  affluent young singles on the prowl more aggressively than any jungle cats, but  the dining room wasn't yet busy

The hostess seated Dusty and Martie in a booth with such high backs on its  leather seats that it was virtually a private space, open on only one side to  the room.

Martie was uneasy about being in such a public place, chancing utter  mortification if she were stricken by an all-stops-pulled panic attack. She drew  strength from the fact that her recent seizures, since leaving Dr. Ahriman's  office, had been comparatively mild and of brief duration. In spite of the risk of humiliation, she would rather eat here than in the  shelter of her kitchen. She was reluctant to go home, where the untidied  wreckage in the garage would remind her of her demented, manic determination to  rid her house of potential weapons.

More daunting than the garage or other reminders of her loss of control, the  answering machine waited in her study. On it, as sure as Halloween came in  October, was a message from Susan, dating to the previous evening.

Duty and honor would not permit Martie to erase the tape without hearing it, nor  was she able to allow herself to delegate that grim responsibility to Dusty. She  owed Susan this personal attention.

Before she would be able to listen to that beloved voice and be prepared to bear  the greater guilt that it would surely induce, she needed to polish up her  courage. And wash down some fortitude.

As law-abiding citizens, they followed Lieutenant Bizmet's advice: a bottle of  Heineken for Dusty, Sierra Nevada for Martie.

With her first chug of beer, she chased a Valium, in spite of the warning on the  pharmacy bottle, which cautioned about mixing benzodiazepines and alcohol. Live hard, die young. Or die young anyway. Those seemed to be the choices facing  them.

"If only I'd called her back last night," Martie said.

"You weren't in any condition to call her. You couldn't have helped her anyway."

"Maybe, if I'd heard it in her voice, I could have gotten help for her."

"It wouldn't have been in her voice. Not what you mean, not some worse note of  depression, not suicidal despair."

"We'll never know," she said bleakly.

"I know, all right," Dusty insisted. "You wouldn't have heard suicidal despair  because she didn't commit suicide."

Ness was already dead, an early casualty, a devastation to the defenders of the  Alamo!

The noble lawman had been killed by a paper clip.

The doctor removed the little plastic cadaver from the board.

To determine which game piece in which army would open fire next, and to decide  what weapon would be used, Ahriman employed a complex formula with calculations  that derived from the roll of the dice and a blind draw from a deck of playing  cards.

The only weapons were a paper clip fired from a rubber band and a marble shot  with a snap of the thumb. Of course, these two simple devices could symbolize  many dreadful deaths: by arrow, by gun, by cannonade, by bowie knife, by a  hatchet in the face.

Regrettably, it was not in the nature of plastic-toy figures to commit suicide,  and it would be an unconscionable insult to America and its people to suggest  that men like Davy Crockett and Eliot Ness were even capable of considering  self-destruction. These board games, therefore, lacked that intriguing  dimension.

In the bigger game, where plastic was flesh and blood was real, another suicide  would have to be engineered soon. Skeet had to go.

Initially, when the doctor had conceived this game, he believed that Holden  "Skeet" Caulfield would be the star player, neck deep in the slaughter, come the  final bloodbath. His face first on all the news programs. His screwy name  immortalized in criminal legend, as infamous as Charles Manson.

Perhaps because his brain had been scorched with so many drugs since childhood,  Skeet proved to be a poor subject for programming. His powers of  concentration-even when in a hypnotic state!-were not good, and he had  difficulty subconsciously retaining the rudimentary code lines of his  psychological conditioning. Instead of the usual three programming sessions, the  doctor had needed to devote six to Skeet, and subsequently the need had arisen  for a few shorter- but unprecedented-repair sessions in which deteriorating  aspects of his program were reinstalled.

Occasionally, Skeet even surrendered himself for control after hearing only Dr.  Yen Lo, the activating name, and Ahriman didn't need to lead him through the  haiku. The security risk posed by this easy access was intolerable. Sooner rather than later, Skeet would have to take a paper clip, figuratively  speaking. He should have died Tuesday morning. Later this evening, for sure. The dice tumbled to a nine. The deck of cards gave up a queen of diamonds.

Swiftly calculating, Ahriman determined that the next shot would come from a  figure positioned at the southwest corner of the Alamo roof: one of Eliot Ness'  loyal subordinates. No doubt, the grieving G-man would be hot for vengeance. His  weapon was a marble, which had greater lethal potential than a mere paper clip,  and with the benefit of his high vantage point, he might be able to deliver  extreme woe to the surrounding Mexican soldiers and to the gangland scumbags who  would rue the day they agreed to do Al Capone's dirty work.

"She didn't commit suicide," Dusty repeated, speaking softly, leaning forward  conspiratorially in the booth, even though the roar of voices from the bar  prevented anyone from eavesdropping.

The certainty in his voice left Martie speechless. Slashed wrists. No  indications of a struggle. A suicide note in Susan's handwriting. The  determination of self-destruction was irrefutable.

Dusty held up his right hand, and with each point he made, he let a finger  spring from his clenched fist. "One-yesterday at New Life, Skeet was activated  by the name Dr Yen Lo and then together we stumbled to the haiku that allowed me  to access his subconscious for programming."

"Programming," she said doubtfully. "This is still so hard to believe."

"Programming is how I see it. He was waiting for instructions. Missions, he  called them. Two-when I became frustrated with him and told him he should give  me a break and just go to sleep, he went out instantly. He obeyed what seemed  like an impossible order. I mean, how can you drop off to sleep in a blink, at  will? Three-earlier yesterday, when he was going to jump off the roof, he said  someone had told him to jump."

"Yeah, the angel of death."

"Granted, he was whacked on something. But that doesn't mean there wasn't some  truth in what he said. Four-in The Manchurian Candidate, the brainwashed soldier  is capable of committing murder on the direction of his controller, then  forgetting every detail of what he's done, but, get this, he'll also follow  instructions to kill himself if necessary."

"It's just a thriller."

"Yeah, I know. The writing's good. The plot is entertaining, and the characters  are colorful. You're enjoying it."

Because she had no answer to that, Martie drank more beer.

General Santa Anna was dead, and history was being rewritten. Al Capone must now  assume command of the combined forces of Mexico and the Chicago underworld.

The goody-two-shoes bunch defending the Alamo had better not start celebrating  just yet. Santa Anna was a formidable strategist; but Capone had him beat for  sheer ruthlessness.

Once, the real Capone, not this plastic figure, had tortured a snitch with a hand drill. He locked the guy's head in a machine-shop vice, and  with henchmen holding the turncoat's arms and legs, old Al had personally  cranked the drill handle, driving a diamond-tipped bit through the terrified  man's forehead.

Once, the doctor had killed a woman with a drill, but it had been a Black &  Decker power model.

Dusty said, "Condon's book is fiction, sure, but you get a sense that the  psychological-control techniques described in it are based on sound research,  that what he proposes as fiction was pretty much possible even at that time. And  Martie, the book is set almost fifty years in the past. Before we had jet  airliners."

"Before we went to the moon."

"Yeah. Before we had cell phones, microwave ovens, and fat-free potato chips  with a diarrhea warning on the bag. Just imagine what specialists in mind  control might be able to do now, with unlimited resources and no conscience." He  paused for Heineken. Then:

"Five-Dr. Ahriman said it was incredible that both you and Susan should be  stricken with such extreme phobias. He-"

"You know, he's probably right that mine is related to Susan's, that it comes  from my sense of failure to help her, from my-"

Dusty shook his head and folded his fingers into a fist again. "Or your phobia  and hers were implanted, programmed into you as part of an experiment or for  some other reason that makes no danm sense."

"But Dr. Ahriman never even suggested-"

Impatiently, Dusty said, "He's a great psychiatrist, okay, and he's committed to  his patients. But he's conditioned by education and experience to look for  psychological cause and effect, for some trauma in your past that caused your  condition. Maybe that's why Susan didn't seem to be making much progress,  because there isn't any trauma to blame. And, Martie, if they can program you to  fear yourself, to have all these violent visions, to do the things you did at  the house yesterday. . . what else could they make you do?"

Maybe it was the beer. Maybe it was the Valium. Maybe it was even Dusty's logic. Whatever the reason, Martie found his argument increasingly  compelling.

Her name was Viveca Scofield. She was a starlet slut, twenty-five years younger  than the doctor's father, even three years younger than the doctor himself, who  at that time was twenty-eight. While playing the second lead in the old man's  latest film, she had used all her considerable wiles to set him up for marriage. Even if the doctor hadn't yearned to escape his dad's shadow and make a name for  himself, he would have had to deal with Viveca before she became Mrs. Josh  Ahriman and either schemed to control the family fortune or squandered it.

As savvy as Dad was in the ways of Hollywood, as talented as he was at screwing  associates and browbeating even the most vicious and psychotic studio bosses, he  was also a widower of fifteen years and the champion crier of his time, as  vulnerable in some ways as he was imperviously armored in others. Viveca would  have married him, found a way to drive him to an early death, eaten his liver  with chopped onions the night before the funeral, and then cast his son out of  the mansion with nothing but a used Mercedes and a token monthly stipend. In the interest of justice, therefore, the doctor was prepared to eliminate  Viveca on the same night that he killed his father. He prepared a second syringe  of the ultrashort-acting thiobarbital and paraldehyde, intending to inject it  into something she might eat or directly into the starlet herself.

When the great director lay dead in the library, felled by the poisoned petits  fours, but before surgery had been performed on his lacrimal apparatus, the  doctor had gone in search of Viveca and had found her in his father's bed. A  bobinga-wood crack pipe and other drug paraphernalia littered the nightstand,  and a book of poetry was on the rumpled sheets beside her. The starlet was  snoring like a bear that had gorged on late-season berries half fermented on the  vine, spit bubbles swelling and popping on her lips.

She was as naked as nature had made her, and because nature had obviously been  in a lascivious mood at the time, the young doctor got all sorts of hot ideas. A lot of money was at stake here, however, and money was  power, and power was better than sex.

Earlier in the day, during a private moment, he and Viveca had gotten into an  ugly little argument that ended when she coyly noted that she had never seen him  well up with emotion the way his father did so routinely. "We're alike, you and  me," she said. "Your father got his share of tears and yours, while I used up  all of mine by the time I was eight. We're both bone-dry. Now, the problem for  you, boy doctor, is that you've still got some little withered lump of a heart,  but I don't have any heart at all. So if you try to turn your old man against  me, I'll castrate you and have you singing show tunes, soprano, for my dinner  entertainment every night."

The memory of this threat gave the doctor an idea better than sex.

He went to the far end of the three-acre estate, to the lavishly equipped tool  room and woodworking shop housed in the building that also contained, upstairs,  the apartments of the couple that managed the estate, Mr. and Mrs. Haufbrock,  and the handymangroundskeeper, Earl Ventnor. The Haufbrocks were away on a  one-week vacation, and Earl was no doubt passed out after his nightly patriotic  effort to ensure that the American brewing industry would not be driven into  bankruptcy by competition from foreign beers.

Without the need to skulk, therefore, the doctor selected a Black & Decker power  drill from the collection of tools. He had the presence of mind also to take a  twenty-foot, orange extension cord.

In his father's bedroom once more, he plugged the extension cord into a wall  outlet, plugged the drill into the extension cord, and thus equipped, climbed  onto the bed with Viveca, straddling her but remaining on his knees. She was so  doped that she snored through all his preparations, and he had to shout her name  repeatedly to wake her. When she finally came around, blinking stupidly, she  smiled up at him, as if she believed he was someone other than who he was, as if  she thought the power drill was an elaborate new Swedish vibrator.

Thanks to the superb instruction provided by the Harvard Medical School, the  doctor was able to position the half-inch steel bit with pinpoint accuracy. To  the confused and smiling Viveca, he said, "If you don't have a heart, something  else must be in there, and the best way to identify it is take a core sample." The shriek of the powerful little Black & Decker motor brought her out of her  drug stupor. By then, however, the drilling operation was under way and in fact  nearly completed.

After taking time just to appreciate the loveliness of Viveca being dead, the  doctor noticed the book of poetry that lay open on the sheets. A whorl of blood  soiled both exposed pages, but in a pristine circle of white paper in the middle  of the crimson stain were three lines of verse.

This phantasm of falling petals vanishes into moon and flowers...

He did not know then that the poem was a haiku, that it had been written by Okyo  in 1890, that it was about the poet's own impending death, and that, like many  haiku, it didn't translate into English with the ideal five-seven-five syllable  pattern in which it was composed in the original Japanese.

What he did know was that this tiny poem moved him unexpectedly, profoundly, as  he'd never been moved before. The verse expressed, as Ahriman himself could  never express it, his heretofore half-repressed and formless sense of his  mortality. Okyo's three lines brought him instantly and poignantly in touch with  the terrible sad truth that he, too, was destined eventually to die. He, too,  was a phantasm, as fragile as any flower, one day to drop like wilting petals. As he knelt on the bed and held the book of haiku in both hands, reading those  three lines over and over again, having forgotten the drill-pierced starlet whom  he still straddled, the doctor felt his chest tighten and his throat thicken  with emotion at the prospect of his eventual demise. How short life is! How  unjust is death! How insignificant are we all! How cruel the universe.

So powerfully did these thoughts course through his mind, the doctor was sure he  must be crying. Holding the book with only his left hand, he raised his right to  his dry cheeks, then to his eyes, but he was tearless. He was convinced,  however, that he'd been close to tears, and he knew now that he possessed the  capacity to weep if ever he experienced anything sad enough to tap his salty  well.

This realization pleased him because it meant that he had more in common with  his father than he had supposed, and because it proved he wasn't like Viveca Scofield, as she had claimed. Perhaps she had no  tears, but his were stored away and waiting.

She had also been wrong about not having a heart. She had one, all right. Of  course, it was no longer beating.

The doctor climbed off Viveca, leaving her like an unfinished woodshop project,  Black & Decker embedded, and for a long while he sat on the edge of the bed,  poring through the book of haiku. Here, in this unlikely place and time, he  discovered his artistic side.

When he could finally pry himself away from the book, he brought Dad's body  upstairs, placed it on the bed, wiped the smears of dark chocolate off its  mouth, dissected the great director's fine lacrimal apparatus, and collected the  famous eyes. He tapped into Viveca for a few ounces of blood, gathered six pair  of her thong-style panties from the dresser drawer-she was a live-in fiancée-and  broke off one of her acrylic fingernails.

When he used a master key to let himself into Earl Ventnor's apartment, he found  a crude replica of the Leaning Tower of Pisa constructed out of empty Budweiser  cans on the living-room coffee table. The handyman, rather than leaning, lay in  full collapse on the sofa, snoring almost as loudly as Viveca had been snoring,  while Rock Hudson romanced Doris Day in an old movie on television. Where does fiction end and reality begin? That is the essence of the game.  Hudson romancing Day; Earl in a fit of drunken lust, raping the helpless starlet  and committing a brutal double homicide- we believe what is easy to believe,  whether fiction or fact.

The young doctor shook some of Viveca's blood on the pants and shirt of the  sleeping handyman. He used the last of it to soak one pair of the thong panties.  He carefully wrapped the broken-off fingernail in the blood-soaked underwear,  then put all six pair of panties in the bottom drawer of Earl's bedroom dresser. When Ahriman left the apartment, Earl was still sleeping deeply. The sirens  would eventually wake him.

In the nearby gardening shed, where the lawn mowers were stored, the doctor  found a five-gallon can of gasoline. He carried it into the main house and  upstairs to his father's bedroom. After bagging his own blood-spotted garments, quickly washing up, and changing  into fresh clothes, he soaked the bodies in the gasoline, dropped the empty can  on the bed, and lit the pyre.

The doctor had been staying the week at his father's vacation house in Palm Springs and had driven back to Bel Air this afternoon only to tend  to these urgent family matters. With his work done, he returned to the desert. In spite of the many lovely and valuable antiques that might burn if the fire  department didn't respond quickly enough, Ahriman took with him oniy the bag  full of his bloody clothes, the book of haiku, and his dad's eyes in a jar  filled with a temporary fixative solution. Little more than an hour and a half  later, in Palm Springs, he burned the incriminating clothes in the fireplace  along with a few aromatic cedar splits and later mixed the ashes into the mulch  in the little rose garden beyond the swimming pool. As risky as it was to keep  the eyes and the slim volume of poetry, he was too sentimental to dispose of  them.

He stayed up all night to watch a dusk-to-dawn marathon of old Bela Lugosi  movies, ate an entire quart of Rocky-Road ice cream and a big bag of potato  chips, swilled down all the root beer and cream soda he wanted, and caught a  desert beetle in a big glass jar and tortured it with a match, His personal  philosophy had been enriched immensely by Okyo's three lines of haiku, and he  had taken the poet's teaching to heart: Life is short, we all die, so you better  grab all the fun you can get.

Dinner was served with a second round of beers. Having had no breakfast and only  a small vanilla milk shake for lunch, Martie was famished. Nevertheless, she  felt as if having an appetite, so soon after finding Susan dead, was a betrayal  of her friend. Life went on, and even as you grieved, you had a capacity for  pleasure, too, as wrong as that might seem. Pleasure was possible in the midst  of an abiding fear, as well, for she relished every bite of her jumbo prawns  even as she listened to her husband reason his way toward an understanding of  the doom hanging over them.

Fingers sprang from Dusty's fist once again: "Six-if Susan could be programmed  to submit to repeated sexual abuse and have memories of those events scrubbed  from her mind, if she could be instructed to submit to rape, then what couldn't  she be made to do? Seven-she began to suspect what was happening, even though  she had no proof, and maybe just that little suspicion was enough to alarm her controllers. Eight-she shared her suspicions with you, and they knew it, and  they worried that she might share them with someone they didn't control, so that  meant she had to be terminated."

"How would they know?"

"Maybe her phone was tapped. Maybe a lot of things. But if they decided to  terminate her and instructed her to commit suicide, and she obeyed because she  was programmed, then that's not really suicide. Not morally, maybe not even  legally. That's murder."

"But what can we do about it?"

Eating steak, he considered her question for a while. Then: "Hell if I know-yet.  Because we can't prove anything."

"If they could just call her up and make her commit suicide, behind her locked  doors. . . what do we do the next time our telephone rings?" Martie wondered. They locked eyes, chewing the question, food forgotten. Finally he said, "We  don't answer it."

"That's not a practical long-term solution."

"Frankly, Martie, if we don't figure this out real fast, I don't think we're  going to be here long term."

She thought of Susan in the bathtub, even though she had never seen the body,  and two hands strummed her heartstrings-the hot fingers of grief and the cold of  fear. "No, not long," she agreed. "But just how do we figure it out? Where do we  start?"

"Only one thing I can think of. Haiku."

"Haiku?"

"Gesundheit," he said, the dear thing, and opened the bookstore bag that he had  brought into the restaurant. He sorted through the seven books that Ned had  purchased, passed one across the table to Martie, and selected another for  himself. "Judging by the jacket copy, these are some of the classic poets of the  form. We'll try them first- and hope. There's probably so much contemporary  stuff, we could be searching for weeks if we don't find it in the classics."

"What're we looking for?"

"A poem that gives you a shiver."

"Like when I was thirteen, reading Rod Stewart lyrics?"

"Good God, no. I'm going to try to forget I even heard that. I mean the kind of  shiver you got when you read that name in The Manchurian Candidate."

She could speak the name without being affected by it the way she would be if she heard it spoken by someone else: "Raymond Shaw. There, I  just shivered when I said it."

"Look for a haiku that does the same thing to you."

"And then what?"

Instead of answering, he divided his attention between his dinner and his book.  In just a few minutes, he said, "Here! It doesn't chill my spine, but I sure am  familiar with it. 'Clear cascades... into the waves scatter. . . blue pine  needles.'"

"Skeet's haiku."

According to the book, the verse was written by Matsuo Basho, who lived from  1644 to 1694.

Because haiku were so short, it was possible to speed through a great many of  them in ten minutes, and Martie made the next big discovery before she was half  finished with her scampi. "Got it. Written by Yosa Buson, a hundred years after  your Basho. 'Blown from the west. . . fallen leaves gather.. . in the east.'"

"That's yours?"

"Yeah."

"You're sure?"

"I'm still shivering."

Dusty took the book from her and read the lines to himself. The connection  didn't escape him. "Fallen leaves."

"My repetitive dream," she said. Her scalp prickled as if she could even now  hear the Leaf Man shambling toward her through the tropical forest.

So many dead: Sixteen hundred had perished in 1836, and hundreds more had been  blown away on this January evening, at the whim of the dice and the playing  cards. And still the battle raged so savagely.

While he played The Untouchables at the Alamo, the doctor worked out the details  of Holden "Skeet" Caulfield's termination. Skeet must go before dawn, but one  more death, in the midst of all this carnage, was of little import.

Snake eyes were rolled and the ace of spades was drawn on the same turn, which  by the doctor's complex rules meant that the supreme commander of each army must  turn traitor and flee to the other side. Now Colonel James Bowie, gravely ill  with typhoid and pneumonia, was leading the Mexican Army, while Mr. Al Capone was fighting  for the independence of the Texas Territory.

Skeet must not commit suicide on New Life property. Ahriman was a semi-silent  partner in the clinic, with a substantial investment to protect. Although there  was no need to worry that either Dustin or Martie would file a liability claim,  some relative that the doctor didn't control, maybe a second cousin who had  spent the last thirty years in a hut in Tibet and hadn't even met Skeet, would  come riding in with a malpractice attorney and lodge a suit five minutes after  the little dope fiend was stuck in the ground. Then an idiot jury-the only kind  that seemed to be impaneled these days-would award the Tibetan cousin a billion  dollars. No, Skeet would have to walk out of New Life, willfully, heedlessly,  against the advice of his doctors-and then off himself elsewhere.

A marble, fired by one of the Alamo heroes, ricocheted around the landscape and  took out an amazing nine Mexican soldiers and two of Capone's capos that hadn't  defected to the Texans with him.

Saint Antonio of Valero, for whom the Franciscan priests had named the mission  around which the great fortress of the Alamo was built, would have wept at this  seemingly endless, grievous loss of life in the shadow of his church-except that  he was dead and finished with weeping long before 1836. Most likely, he would  have been dismayed, as well, to know that Al Capone was proving to be a better  defender of this sacred ground than Davy Crockett.

The private nurse watching over Skeet on the evening shift was Jasmine  Hernandez, she of the red sneakers and green laces, who was unfortunately  professional and incorruptible. The doctor had neither the time nor the interest  to put Nurse Hernandez through a complete schedule of programming just to be  able to render her blind and deaf to the instructions he needed to give to  Skeet. Therefore, he would have to wait until her shift ended. The nurse who  came on at midnight was a lazy twit who'd happily park his butt in the employee  lounge, watching the Tonight show and sucking on a Coke, while Ahriman had a  powwow with Dustin's pathetic half-brother.

He didn't want to chance instructing Skeet in suicide over the phone. The  miserable junior Caulfield was such an iffy subject for programming that it was  necessary to put him through the drill faceto-face.

Paper clip. Ping. Disaster. Colonel Bowie is down. Colonel Bowie is down! The  Mexican Army is now leaderless. Capone gloats.

Lovely, the forest, deep and cool. The huge trees are crowded so close together  that their smooth, red-brown, polished trunks blend into one encircling wall of  wood. Martie somehow knows that they are mahogany trees, although she has never  seen one before. She must be in a South American jungle, where mahoganies  flourish, but she can't recall making the travel arrangements or packing her  bags.

She hopes that she brought enough clothes, remembered the travel iron, and  included a wide selection of antivenin, especially the last of those items,  because even now a snake has sunk its fangs into her left arm. Fang, singular.  The serpent appears to have only one fang, and the tooth is quite peculiar, as  silvery and slender as a needle. The snake has a thin, transparent body and  hangs from a silver tree with no leaves and one branch, but you expect exotic  reptiles and flora in the Amazon.

Evidently, the serpent isn't poisonous, because Martie isn't alarmed about it,  and neither is Susan, who is also on this South American expedition. At the  moment she is sitting in an armchair across the clearing, half turned away from  Martie, visible only in profile, so still and quiet that she must be meditating  or lost in thought.

Martie herself is lying on a cot, or perhaps even on something more substantial,  like a sofa, which is button-tufted and has a warm leathery sheen. This must be  a first-class wilderness tour if so much effort has been expended to bring along  armchairs and sofas.

From time to time, magical and amusing things occur. A sandwich floats in the  air-banana and peanut butter on thick slices of white bread, judging by the look  of it-moves back and forth, up and down, and bites disappear from it, as though  a ghost is here in the woods with her, a hungry ghost having lunch. A bottle of  root beer floats in the air, too, tipping to invisible lips, to slake the thirst  of the same ghost, and later a bottle of grape soda. She supposes this is to be  expected, because, after all, South American writers created the literary style  known as magical realism.

Another magical touch is the window in the woods, which is above and behind her,  shedding light into the forest, which would otherwise be quite dark and  forbidding. Everything considered, this is a fine spot for their camp.

Except for the leaves. Fallen leaves are scattered about the clearing, perhaps  from the mahoganies, perhaps from other trees, and though they are only dead  leaves, they make Martie uneasy. From time to time, they crunch, they crackle,  though no one steps on them. Not even the slightest breeze weaves through the  forest, but the restless leaves tremble singly and in small gatherings, shudder  and scrape together, and creep along the floor of the campsite with sinister  susurrant sounds, as if mere leaves could scheme and conspire.

Without warning, a hard wind blows out of the west. The window is west-facing,  but it must be open, because the wind rushes through it and into the clearing, a  great howling presence on which are borne more leaves, great seething masses,  hissing and flapping like clouds of bats, some moist and supple, others dry and  dead. The wind sweeps up the leaves on the floor, too, and the churning debris  pumps around the perimeter of the clearing- red autumn leaves, moist green  leaves, petals, stipules, whole bracts-pumps around like a carousel without  horses but with strange beasts formed of leaves. Then as if drawn by the pipes  of Pan, every leaf without exception flies to the center of the dearing and  coalesces into the shape of a man, forming around the invisible presence that  was always here, the sandwich-eating and soda-drinking ghost, giving it form,  substance. The Leaf Man looms, huge and terrible: his bristling Halloween face,  black holes where his eyes should be, the ragged maw.

Martie struggles to get up from the sofa, before he touches her, before it is  too late, but she is too weak to rise, as if afflicted by a tropical fever,  malaria. Or maybe the snake is poisonous after all, the venom finally producing  an effect.

The wind has blown the leaves out of the west, and Martie is the east, and the  leaves must enter her, because she is the east, and the Leaf Man places one  massive bristly hand over her face. The substance of him is leaves, churning  masses of leaves, some of them crisp and crimpled, others fresh and wet, still  others slimy with fungus, with mold, and he pushes the leafy essence of himself  into her mouth, and she bites off a piece of the beast, tries to spit it out,  but more leaves are shoved into her mouth, and she must swallow, swallow or  suffocate, because still more crushed and powdery leaves are forced up her nose,  too, and now a moldy mass of leaves squeezes into each ear She tries to scream  for Susan 's help, can't scream, can only gag, tries to cry out to Dusty, but  Dusty didn't come here to South America or wherever this is, he's back there in  California, there's no one to help, she is filling up with leaves, her belly  full of leaves, her lungs clogged, her throat, choking on leaves, and now a  frenzy of leaves whirling in her head, inside her skull, scraping across the  surface of her brain, until she can't think clearly anymore, until her entire  attention is focused on the sound of the leaves, the incessant  scraping-rattling-ticking-clicking-crunching-crackling-hissing SOUND- "And  that's where I always wake up," Martie said.

She looked down at her last scampi, lying on what remained of a bed of pasta,  and it less resembled seafood than it did a cocoon, one of those she'd  encountered from time to time when she was a kid, climbing trees. In the upper  branches of one spreading giant, in what seemed to be clean bowers of sunlight  and emerald-green foliage and fresh air, she'd once come upon an infestation,  dozens of fat cocoons firmly glued to leaves, which curved to half conceal them,  as though the tree had been induced to help protect the parasites that fed on  it. Only mildly repulsed, reminding herself that caterpillars, after all, can  become butterflies, she studied these spun-silk sacs and saw that squirming life  filled some of them. Deciding to free whatever golden or crimson winged wonder  wriggled within, to release it into the world minutes or perhaps hours before it  would otherwise be free, Martie delicately peeled back the layered fabric of the  cocoon- and found not a butterfly, nor even a moth, but scores of baby spiders  bursting from an egg case. Having made this discovery, she never again felt  exalted merely to be in the airy tops of trees, or indeed to be in the upper  reaches of any place; thereafter, she understood that for every creature living  under a rock or crawling through the mud, there is another equally squirmy thing  that flourishes in high realms, because although this is a wondrous world, it is  fallen.

Appetite spoiled, she passed up the last scampi and resorted to her beer.

Pushing aside what remained of his dinner, Dusty said, "I wish you'd told me  your nightmare in all this detail a lot sooner."

"It was just a dream. What would you have made of it, anyway?"

"Nothing," he admitted. "Not until after my dream last night. Then I'd have seen  the connections right away. Though I'm not sure what they would've meant to me."

"What connections?"

"In your dream and mine, there's an. . . an invisible presence. And a theme of  possession, of a dark and unwanted presence entering the heart, the mind. And  the IV line, of course, which you didn't mention before."

"IV line?"

"In my dream it's clearly an IV line, dangling from the floor lamp in our  bedroom. In your dream, it's a snake."

"But it is a snake."

He shook his head. "Not much in these dreams is what it appears to be. It's all  symbol, metaphor. Because these aren't just dreams."

"They're memories," she guessed, and felt the truth of it as she spoke. "Forbidden memories of our programming sessions," Dusty agreed. "Our.. . our  handlers, I guess you'd call them, whoever they are-they erased all those  memories, they must have, because they wouldn't want us to remember any of it." "But the experience was still with us somewhere, deep down."

"And when it came back, it had to come distorted like this, all in symbols,  because we were denied access to it any other way."

"It's like you can delete a document from your computer, and it disappears from  the directory, and you can't access it anymore, but it's still on the hard disk  virtually forever."

He told her about his dream of the heron, the lightning.

As Dusty finished, Martie felt that familiar mad fear suddenly squirming in her  again, with frenzied energy like thousands of baby spiders bursting from egg  cases along the length of her spine.

Lowering her head, she gazed down into her mug of beer, around which she had  clamped both hands. Thrown, the mug could knock Dusty unconscious. Once broken  against the tabletop, it could be used to carve his face.

Shaking, she prayed that the busboy wouldn't choose this moment to clear their  plates.

The seizure passed in a minute or two.

Martie raised her head and looked out at the wedge of restaurant visible from  their sheltered booth. More diners were seated than when she and Dusty had  arrived, and more waiters were at work, but no one was staring at her, oddly or  otherwise.

"You okay?" Dusty asked.

"That wasn't so bad."

"The Valium, the beer."

"Something," she agreed.

Tapping his watch, he said, "They're coming almost exactly an hour apart, but as  long as they're this mild. .

A prickly premonition came to Martie: that these little recent seizures were  merely previews of coming attractions, brief clips from the big show.

While they waited for their waiter to bring the check and then to bring their  change, they pored through the haiku books once more.

Martie found the next one, too, and it was by Matsuo Basho, who had composed  Skeet's haiku with blue pine needles.

Lightning gleams and a night heron's shriek travels into darkness.

Rather than recite it, she passed the book to Dusty; "This must be it. All three  from classic sources."

She saw the chill quiver through him as he read the poem.

Change arrived with a final thank-you from the waiter, plus the traditional  have-a-nice-day, though night had fallen two hours ago.

As Dusty calculated the gratuity and left it, he said, "We know the activating  names come from Condon's novel, so it should be easy to find mine. Now we have  our haiku. I want to know what happens when. . . we use them with each other.

But this sure isn't the place to try that."

"Where?"

"Let's go home."

"is home safe?"

"Is anywhere?" he asked.

56

Left alone most of the day, turned loose in the backyard rather than walked  properly as any good dog deserved to be, given dinner by an intimidating giant  whom he had met only twice before, Valet had every right to sulk, to be  standoffish, and even to greet them with a disgruntled growl. Instead, he was  all golden, grinning, wagging forgiveness, snuggling in for a cuddle, then  bounding away in pure delight because the masters were home, seizing a plush  yellow Booda duck and biting it to produce a cacophony of quacks.

They hadn't remembered to tell Ned Motherwell to switch lights on for Valet, but  Ned did indeed mother well, leaving the kitchen brightly lit.

On the table, Ned had also left a note taped to a padded mailing envelope:  Dusty, found this propped against your front door.

Martie tore the envelope, and the noise excited Valet, probably because it  sounded like a bag of treats being opened. She withdrew a brightly jacketed  hardback book. "It's by Dr. Ahriman."

Puzzled, Dusty took the book from her, and Valet stretched his head up, flared  his nostrils, sniffing.

This was Ahriman's current best-seller, a work of psychological nonfiction about  learning to love yourself.

Neither Dusty nor Martie had read it, because they preferred to read fiction.  Indeed, for Dusty, fiction was as much of a principle as it was a preference. In  an age when distortions, deceptions, and out-right lies were the primary currencies in much of society, he had often found  more truth in one work of fiction than in slop pails full of learned analyses.

But this, of course, was a book by Dr. Ahriman, and was no doubt written with  the same deep commitment that he brought to his private practice.

Looking at the jacket photo, Dusty said, "Wonder why he didn't mention mailing  it."

"Wasn't mailed," Martie said, pointing to the lack of postage on the envelope.

"Hand delivered-and not from Dr. Ahriman."

The label bore Dr. Roy Closterman's name and return address. Tucked inside the  book was a succinct note from the internist: My receptionist passes your place on her way home, so I've asked her to drop  this off I thought you might find Dr. Ahriman's latest book of interest. Perhaps  you've never read him.

"Curious," Martie said. "Yeah. He doesn't like Dr. Ahriman." "Who doesn't?"

"Closterman."

"Of course, he likes him," she protested.

"No. I sensed it. His expression, his tone of voice."

"But what's not to like? Dr. Ahriman's a great psychiatrist. He's so committed  to his patients."

Quack, quack, quack went the plush toy duck.

"I know, yeah, and look how much better you are just after one session. He was  good for you."

Bounding around the kitchen again, ears flopping, paws slapping the tile, duck  in mouth, Valet raised more quacks than a feathered flock.

"Valet, settle," Martie commanded. Then: "Maybe Dr. Closterman. . . maybe it's  professional jealousy."

Opening the book, leafing through it from the front, Dusty said, "Jealousy? But  Closterman's not a psychiatrist. He and Dr. Ahriman are in different fields."

Ever obedient, Valet stopped bounding around the kitchen, but he continued to  savage the Booda until Dusty began to feel as though they had been zapped into a  cartoon starring both famous ducks- Daffy and Donald.

Dusty was mildly irritated with Closterman for laying this unwanted gift on them. Considering the discreet and yet unmistakable dislike  that the internist had shown for Dr. Ahriman, his intentions here were not  likely to be either kind or charitable. The act seemed annoyingly petty.

Seven pages from the front of the psychiatrist's book, Dusty came across a brief  epigraph prior to the first page of Chapter 1. It was a haiku.

This phantasm of falling petals vanishes into moon and flowers... -Okyo, 1890

"What's wrong?" Martie asked. Something like theremin music, out of a long-ago movie starring Boris Karloff,  wailed and warbled through his mind. "Dusty?" "Odd little coincidence," he said, showing the haiku to her. Reading the three lines, Martie cocked her head as if she, too, could hear music  to which the poem had been set. "Strange," she agreed.

Again, the dog made the duck talk.

Martie's pace slowed as she ascended the stairs.

Dusty knew she dreaded hearing Susan's voice on the answering machine. He had  offered to listen alone and report back to her; but to her that would be moral  cowardice.

In the upstairs study, Martie's large U-shaped desk provided all the work space  that she needed to harry Hobbits out of Eriador and across the lands of Gondor  and Rhovanion, into the evil kingdom of Mordor-assuming life ever gave her a  chance to get back to the sanity of Tolkien's otherworld. Two complete computer  workstations and a shared printer occupied less than a third of the territory. Attached to the phone was an answering machine she'd used since graduating from  college. In electronic-appliance years, it was not merely old but antique.

According to the indicator window, the tape held five messages.

Manic stood well back from the desk, near the door, as though the distance would  insulate her somewhat from the emotional impact of Susan's voice.

Here, too, was a sheepskin pillow for Valet, but he remained with his mistress,  as though he knew she would need consolation.

Dusty pushed messages. The tape rewound, then played.

The first message was the one Dusty had left when he called her the previous  evening from the parking lot at New Life.

"Scarlett, it's me. Rhett. Just calling to say I do give a damn, after all. .. The second was a call from Susan, the one that must have come in just after  Martie had fallen asleep the first time, from sheer exhaustion and a little  Scotch, before she woke from a nightmare and raided the medicine cabinet for a  sleep aid.

"It's me. What's wrong? You okay? You think I'm nuts? It's all right if 'you do.  Call me."

Martie had retreated two steps, into the doorway, as if driven backward by the  sound of her dead friend's voice. Her face was white, but the hands with which  she covered it were whiter still.

Valet sat before her, gazing up, his ears perked, head cocked, hoping canine  cuteness could counter grief.

The third message was also from Susan, received at 3:20 in the morning; it must  have come in when Dusty was washing his hands in the bathroom and when Martie  was "sleeping the perfect sleep of the innocent," as the television commercials  for the patent medicine guaranteed.

"Martie, it's me. Martie, are you there?"

Susan paused on the tape, waiting for someone to pick up, and in the doorway  Martie groaned. Remorsefully, bitterly, she said, "Yes," and the meaning was  clear in that one word: Yes, I was here; yes, I might have been able to help;  yes, I failed you.

"Listen, if you 're there, for God's sake, pick up."

In the next pause, Martie lowered her hands from her face and stared with horror  at the answering machine.

Dusty knew what she expected to hear next, for it was the same thing that he  expected. Suicidal talk. A plea for support, for the counsel of a friend, for  reassurance.

"It isn't Eric, Martie. It's Ahriman. It's Ahriman. I've got the bastard on videotape. The bastard-after the good deal begot on his house. Martie,  please, please call me. I need help."

Dusty stopped the tape before the machine moved forward to the fourth message. The house seemed to roll with a temblor, as though continental plates were  colliding deep under the California coast, but this was strictly an earthquake  of the mind.

Dusty looked at Martie.

Such eyes, her eyes. Shock waves had cracked even the hard grief that had made  them a more intense blue than usual. Now, in her eyes was something that he'd  never seen in anyone's eyes before, a quality he couldn't adequately name.

He heard himself say, "She must've been a little crazy there at the end. I mean,  what sense does that make? What videotape? Dr. Ahriman is-"

"-a great psychiatrist. He's-"

"-deeply committed to-"

"-his patients."

That faint thereminlike music, eerie and tuneless, played in the concert hail  inside Dusty's skull: not music, actually, but the psyche's equivalent of an  acute ringing in the ears, tinnitus of the mind. It was caused by what  hundred-dollar-an-hour psychologists call cognitive dissonance: simultaneously  holding diametrically opposed convictions about the same subject. The subject in  this instance was Mark Ahriman. Dusty was awash in cognitive dissonance because  he believed Ahriman was a great psychiatrist and now also a rapist, believed  Ahriman was a doctor deeply committed to the welfare of his patients and now  also a murderer, compassionate therapist and cruel manipulator.

"It can't be true," he said.

"It can't," she agreed.

"But the haiku."

"The mahogany forest in my dream."

"His office is paneled in mahogany."

"And has a west-facing window," she said.

"It's crazy."

"Even if it could be him-why us?"

"I know why you," Dusty said darkly. "For the same reason as Susan. But why me?" "Why skeet?"

Of the last two messages on the tape, the first had come in at nine o'clock this  morning, the second at four o'clock this afternoon, and both were from Martie's  mother. The first was brief; Sabrina was just calling to chat.

The second message was longer, full of concern, because Martie worked at home  and usually returned her mother's calls in an hour or two; the lack of a quick  response gave Sabrina cause for apocalyptic speculations. Also unspoken in the  rambling message-but clear to anyone familiar with Sabrina's skills of indirect  expression-was the ardent hope that (1) Martie was at an appointment with a  divorce attorney, (2) Dusty had proved to be a drunk and was now being checked  into a clinic to dry out, (3) Dusty had proved to be a philanderer and was now  in the hospital recuperating from a beating-a severe beating-administered by  another woman's husband, or (4) Dusty, the drunk, was drying out in a clinic  after being beaten-severely--by another woman's husband, and Manic was at the  divorce attorney's office.

Ordinarily, Dusty would have been annoyed in spite of himself, but this time,  Sabrina's lack of faith in him seemed inconsequential.

He rewound the tape to Susan's key message. In every way, her words were harder  to listen to the second time than they had been the first.

Susan dead, but now her voice.

Ahriman the healer, Ahriman the killer.

Cognitive dissonance.

The answering-machine tape was not the conclusive evidence they could have used,  because Susan's message had not been sufficiently specific. She had not accused  the psychiatrist of rape-or, indeed, of anything other than being a bastard. Nevertheless, the tape was evidence of a sort, and they needed to preserve it. While Dusty extracted the microcassette, grabbed a red felt-tip pen from the  desk, and printed SUSAN on the label, Martie inserted a fresh tape into the  answering machine. He put the marked cassette in the shallow center drawer in  the desk.

Martie looked wounded.

Susan dead. And now Dr. Ahriman, who had seemed to be such a reliable pillar in  an uncertain world, apparently had become a trapdoor.

57

From the kitchen, Dusty phoned Roy Closterman's office and got the physician's  exchange that handled after-hours calls. He claimed that Martie was having an  allergic reaction to medication prescribed by the doctor. "We've got an  emergency situation here."

While his master and mistress sat at the kitchen table, waiting for a callback,  Valet sprawled under the table, sighing to make it clear that they were wasting  valuable time that could be better spent on tug-of-war or any game with a ball. Dusty searched The Manchurian Candidate for a name that would give him a shiver  like the one he'd gotten from the Basho verse about the heron. In Dr. Ahriman's  waiting room, he had read enough of the thriller to encounter most if not all of  the leading characters, none of whose names made his skin crawl. Now, late in  the book, scanning quickly, he found a walk-on character that did the trick: a  second-rate opera singer, Viola Narvilly, which seemed to be a silly name for  Ahriman-or whoever-to have chosen for such deadly purpose.

Now they read haiku to each other.

Dusty went first with the activating name. "Raymond Shaw."

"I'm listening," she said, detached, eyes glazed and yet alert.

"Blown from the west-"

"You are the west and the western wind."

Suddenly Dusty was reluctant to proceed through all three lines of verse,  because he didn't know how to handle her if he succeeded in accessing her subconscious. Opened for instruction, she would surely be in a  fragile state, vulnerable, and suggestions he made to her or questions he asked  might have serious unintended consequences, cause unforeseeable psychological  damage.

Besides, he didn't know how to bring her out of her trance, to full  consciousness, except by telling her to sleep it off, as Skeet had done. And  Skeet, at New Life, slept so deeply that calling his name, shaking him, even  administering smelling salts failed to rouse him; he came around at his own  pace. If Dusty's sense of time running out was perceptive rather than paranoid,  they couldn't take a chance that Martie would tumble into a narcoleptic  quasi-coma from which he could not make her stir.

When Dusty didn't proceed to the second line of the haiku, Martie blinked, and  her rapt expression vanished as she returned to full awareness. "So?"

He told her. "But it would have worked. That's clear. Now you try me-through  just the first line of my verse."

Unable to rely on memory, Martie resorted to the book of poetry.

He saw her open her mouth to speak-and then the retriever was pushing his burly head into Dusty's lap, seeking to  comfort or be comforted.

A fraction of a second ago, Valet had been slumped in a furry pile at Dusty's  feet.

No, not a fraction of one second. Ten or fifteen seconds had passed, maybe  longer, a piece of time now lost to Dusty. Evidently, when Martie had used the  activating name, Viola Narvilly, Dusty had responded-and the dog, sensing a  wrongness in his master, had risen to investigate.

"That's spooky," Martie said, closing the poetry book, grimacing as she pushed  it aside, as though it were a satanic bible. "The way you looked. . . zoned  out."

"I don't even have any memory of you saying the name."

"I said it, all right. And the first line of the poem, 'Lightning gleams.' And  you said, 'You are the lightning.'"

The phone rang.

Getting up from the table, Dusty nearly knocked his chair over, and as he  snatched the handset off the wall phone, he wondered if his hello would be  answered by Dr. Closterman or by someone else saying Viola Narvilly. Enslavement  was always a touch tone away.

Closterman.

Dusty apologized for lying in order to ensure a timely callback. "There's no  allergic reaction, but there is an emergency, Doctor. This book you sent over. .

"Learn to Love Yourself" Closterman said.

"Yeah. Doctor, why did you send this to us?"

"I thought you ought to read it," Closterman replied without any inflection that  could be interpreted as either a positive or negative judgment of the book or  its author.

"Doctor. . ." Dusty hesitated, then plunged: "Oh, hell, there's no way to sneak  up on it. I think maybe we have a problem with Dr. Ahriman. A big problem."

Even as he made the accusation, an inner voice argued with him. The  psychiatrist, great and committed, had done nothing to earn this calumny, this  disrespect. Dusty felt guilty, ungrateful, treacherous, irrational. And all  those feelings scared him, because considering the circumstances, he had every  reason to suspect the psychiatrist. The voice within, powerfully convincing, was  not his voice, but that of an invisible presence, the same that pumped the  inflation bulb of the sphygmomanometer in his dream, the same around which the  fury of leaves formed in Martie's nightmare, and now this presence walked the  halls of his mind, invisible but not silent, urging him to trust Dr. Ahriman, to  let go of this absurd suspicion, to trust and have faith.

Into Dusty's silence, Clostennan cast a question: "Martie's seen him already,  hasn't she?"

"This afternoon. But we think now. . . it goes back farther than that. Back  months and months, when she was taking her friend to see him. Doctor, you're  going to think I'm crazy-"

"Not necessarily. But we shouldn't talk about this any further on the phone. Can  you come here?"

"Where's here?"

"I live on Balboa Island." Closterman gave him directions.

"We'll be there soon. Can we bring a dog?"

"He can play with mine."

When Dusty hung up the phone and turned to Martie, she said, "Maybe this isn't  the best thing to do."

She was listening to an inner voice of her own.

"Maybe," she said, "if we just call Dr. Ahriman and lay all this out for him. .  . maybe he'll be able to explain everything."

The invisible walker of hallways in Dusty's mind argued for the same course of  action, almost word for word, as Manic suggested it.

She rose suddenly to her feet. "Oh, God, what the hell am I saying?" Dusty's face flushed, and he knew that if he looked in a mirror, he would see  his cheeks ruddy. Shame burned in him, shame at his suspicion, at his failure to  accord to Dr. Ahriman the well-earned trust and respect that the psychiatrist  was due.

"Where we are here," Dusty said shakily, "is in the middle of a remake of  Invasion of the Body Snatchers."

Valet had come out from under the table. He stood with his tail held low, his  shoulders slumped, his head half bowed, in tune with their mood.

"Why are we taking the dog with us?" Manic asked.

"Because I don't think we'll be coming back here for a while. I don't think we  can risk it. Come on," he said, crossing the kitchen toward the hallway. "Let's  throw some stuff in suitcases, clothes for a few days. And let's do it fast." Minutes later, before closing his suitcase, Dusty took the compact, customized  .45 Colt out of the nightstand drawer. He hesitated, decided not to put the  weapon beyond easy reach, closed the suitcase without adding to its contents,  and pulled from the closet a leather jacket with deep pockets.

He wondered if the gun could really provide protection.

If Mark Ahriman walked into the bedroom this very minute, the treacherous voice  inside Dusty might delay him long enough for the psychiatrist to smile and say  Viola Narvilly before the trigger could be squeezed.

Then would I suck on the pistol as if it were a Popsicle, and blow my brains out  as obediently as Susan slashed her wrists?

Out of the bedroom, down the narrow stairs, with the retriever in the lead, with  Martie lugging one suitcase, with Dusty carrying another, pausing to snare the  books in the kitchen, and then to the Saturn in the driveway, they moved with a  quickening sense that they must outrace the spreading shadow of a descending  doom.

58

A low, arched bridge connected Balboa Island, in Newport Harbor, to the  mainland. Marine Avenue, lined with restaurants and shops, was nearly deserted.

Eucalyptus leaves and blades torn from palm fronds spiraled in man-size  whirlwinds along the street, as though Martie's dream of the mahogany woods were  being re-created here.

Dr. Closterman didn't live on one of the interior streets, but along the  waterfront. They parked near the end of Marine Avenue and, with Valet, walked  out to the paved promenade that surrounded the island and that was separated  from the harbor by a low seawall.

Before they found Closterman's house, one hour to the minute after her previous  seizure, Martie was hit by a wave of autophobia. This was another endurable  assault, as low-key as the previous three, but she couldn't walk under the  influence of it, couldn't even stand.

They sat on the seawall, waiting for the attack to pass.

Valet was patient, neither cringing nor venturing forth to sniff out a potential  friend when a man walked past with a Dalmatian.

The tide was coming in. Wind chopped the usually calm harbor, slapping wavelets  against the concrete seawall, and the reflected lights of the harborside houses  wriggled across the rippled water.

Sailing yachts and motor vessels, moored at the private docks, wallowed in their  berths, groaning and creaking. Halyards and metal fittings clinked against steel  masts.

When Martie's seizure passed quickly, she said, "I saw a dead priest with a railroad spike in his forehead. Briefly, thank God, not like  earlier today when I couldn't clear my head of crap like that. But where does  this stuff come from?"

"Someone put it there." Against the counsel of the insistent inner voice, Dusty  said, "Abriman put it there."

"But how?"

With her unanswered question blown out across the harbor, they set out again in  search of Dr. Closterman.

None of the houses on the island was higher than three stories, and charming  bungalows huddled next to huge showplaces. Closterman lived in a cozy-looking  two-story with gables, decorative shutters, and window boxes filled with English  primrose.

When he answered the door, the barefoot physician was wearing tan cotton pants,  with his belly slung over the waistband, and a T-shirt advertising Hobie  surfboards.

At his side was a black Labrador with big, inquisitive eyes.

"Charlotte," Dr. Closterman said by way of introduction.

Valet was usually shy around other dogs, but let off his leash, he immediately  went nose-to-nose with Charlotte, tail wagging. They circled each other,  sniffing, whereafter the Labrador raced across the foyer and up the stairs, and  Valet bounded wildly after her.

"It's all right," Roy Closterman said. "They can't knock over anything that  hasn't been knocked over before."

The physician offered to take their coats, but they held on to them because  Dusty was carrying the Colt in one pocket.

In the kitchen, from a large pot of spaghetti sauce rose the mouthwatering  fragrance of cooking meatballs and sausages.

Closterman offered a drink to Dusty, coffee to Martie-"unless you've taken no  more Valium"-and poured coffees at their request.

They sat at the highly polished pine table while the physician seeded and sliced  several plump yellow peppers.

"I was going to feel you out a little bit," Closterman said, "before deciding  how frank to be with you. But I've decided, what the hell, no reason to be coy.

I admired your father immensely, Martie, and if you're anything like him, which  I believe you are, then I know I can rely on your discretion."

"Thank you."

"Ahriman," Closterman said, "is a narcissistic asshole. That's not opinion. It's such a provable fact, they should be required by law to include it  in the author's bio on his book jackets."

He glanced up from the peppers to see if he had shocked them- and smiled when he  saw they were not recoiling. With his white hair, jowls, extra chins, dewlaps,  and smile, he was a beardless Santa.

"Have you read any of his books?" he asked.

"No," Dusty said. "Just glanced at the one you sent."

"Worse than the usual pop-psych shit. Learn to Love Yourself Mark Ahriman never  had to learn to love Mark Ahriman. He's been infatuated with himself since  birth. Read the book, you'll see."

"Do you think he's capable of creating personality disorders in his patients?"  Martie asked.

"Capable? It wouldn't surprise me if half of what he cures are conditions he  created in the first place."

The implications of that response were, to Dusty, breathtaking. "We think  Martie's friend, the one we mentioned this morning-"

"The agoraphobic."

"Her name was Susan Jagger," Martie said. "I've known her since we were ten. She  killed herself last night."

Martie shocked the physician as the physician had not succeeded in shocking  them. He put down the knife and turned away from the yellow peppers, wiping his  hands on a small towel. "Your friend."

"We found her body this afternoon," Dusty elaborated.

Closterman sat at the table and took one of Martie's hands in both of his. "And  you thought she was getting better."

"That's what Dr. Ahriman told me yesterday." Dusty said, "We have reason to  think that Martie's autophobia- as we now know it's called-isn't naturally  occurring."

"I went with Susan to his office twice a week for a year," she explained. "And  I've begun to discover. . . odd memory lapses."

Sun-seared, windburnt, with permanent dashes of red in the corners, the doctor's  eyes were nevertheless more kind than damaged. He turned Martie's hand over in  his and studied her palm. "Here's everything important I can tell you about the  slick sonofabitch."

He was interrupted when Charlotte raced into the kitchen with a ball in her  mouth, Valet on her heels. The dogs slid on the tile floor and shot out of the  room as pell-mell as they had entered.

Closterman said, "Toilet training aside, dogs can teach us more than we can teach them. Anyway, I do a little pro bono work. I'm no saint. Lots  of doctors do more. My volunteer work involves abused children. I was battered  as a child. Didn't scar me. I could waste time hating the guilty. . . or leave  them to the law and to God, and use my energy to help the innocent. Anyway. . .  remember the Ornwahl case?"

The Ornwahl family had operated a popular preschool in Laguna Beach for over  twenty years. Every opening in their classrooms led to heated competition among  parents of potential enrollees.

Two years ago, the mother of a five-year-old preschooler filed a complaint with  the police, accusing members of the Ornwahl family of sexually abusing her  daughter, and claiming that other children had been used in group sex and  satanic rituals. In the hysteria that ensued, other parents of Ornwahl students  interpreted every oddity in their kids' behavior as an alarming emotional  reaction to abuse.

"I had no connections with the Ornwahls or with families whose children attended  the school," Roy Closterman said, "so I was asked to perform pro bono  examinations of the kids for Child Protective Services and the D.A.'s office.  They were getting pro bono work from a psychiatrist, too. He was interviewing  Ornwahl preschoolers to determine if they could give convincing accounts of  abuse."

"Dr. Ahriman," Martie guessed.

Roy Closterman got up from the table, fetched the coffeepot, and refreshed their  cups.

"We had a meeting to coordinate various aspects of the medical side of the  Ornwahl investigation. I instantly disliked Ahriman."

A twinge of self-reproach caused Dusty to shift uneasily in his chair. That  persistent inner voice shamed him for his disloyalty to the psychiatrist, for  even listening to this negativity.

"And when he mentioned offhandedly that he was using hypnotic-regression therapy  to help some kids revisit possible incidents of abuse," Closterman said, "all my  alarm bells went off."

"Isn't hypnosis an accepted therapeutic technique?" Martie asked, perhaps  echoing her own inner counselor.

"Less and less so. A therapist without finesse can easily, unwittingly implant  false memories. Any hypnotized subject is vulnerable. And if the therapist has  an agenda and isn't ethical. .

"Do you think Ahriman had an agenda in the Ornwahl case?"

Instead of answering the question, Closterman said, "Children are highly  susceptible to suggestion, even without hypnosis. Study after study has shown  they'll 'remember' what they think a persuasive therapist wants them to  remember. Interviewing them, you have to be very cautious to avoid leading their  testimony. And any so-called repressed memories recovered from a child under  hypnosis are virtually worthless."

"You raised this issue with Ahriman?" Martie asked.

Resuming his work with the yellow peppers, Closterman said, "I raised it-and he  was a condescending, arrogant prick. But smooth. He's a good politician. Every  concern I raised, he answered, and no one else in the investigation or the  prosecution shared my concerns. Oh, the poor damn doomed Ornwahl family didn't  like it, but this was one of those cases when mass hysteria subverts due  process."

"Did your examinations of the children turn up any physical evidence of abuse?"  Dusty asked.

"None. There's not always physiological evidence of rape with older children.

But these were preschoolers, small children. If some of the things claimed to've  been done to them actually had been done, I'd almost certainly have found tissue  damage, scarring, and chronic infections. Ahriman was turning up all these  stories of satanic sex and torture-but I couldn't find one scintilla of medical  backup."

Five members of the Ornwahl family had been indicted, and the preschool had  nearly been torn apart in the search for clues.

"Then," Closterman said, "I was approached by someone aware of my opinion of  Ahriman. . . and told that before all this started, he'd been treating the  sister of the woman who accused the Omwahls."

"Shouldn't Ahriman have disclosed that connection?" Dusty asked.

"Absolutely. So I went to the D.A. The woman, it turns out, was the sister of  the accuser, but Ahriman claimed he'd never been aware of their relationship."

"You didn't believe him?"

"No. But the D.A. did-and kept him on board. Because if they had admitted  Ahriman was tainted, they couldn't have used any of his interviews with the  kids. In fact, any stories the children told him would have to be treated as coerced or even induced memories. They wouldn't be  worth spit in court. The prosecution's case depended on unwavering belief in  Ahriman's integrity."

"I don't recall reading any of this in the papers," Martie said.

"I'm getting to that," Closterman promised.

His knife work at the cutting board grew less precise, more aggressive, as if he  were not slicing just yellow peppers.

"My information was that Ahriman's patient was often brought to his office by  the sister, by the woman who had accused the Ornwahls."

"Like I took Susan," Martie noted.

"If that were true, then there was no way he couldn't have met her at least  once. But I didn't have proof, just hearsay. Unless you want to be sued for  defamation of character, you don't go ranting in public about a man like Ahriman  until you've got the evidence."

Earlier in the day, in his office, Closterman had tried a frown, which hadn't  worked on his balloon-round features. Now anger overcame facial geometry, and a  hard scowl fit where a frown had not.

"I didn't know how to get that proof. I'm no doctor detective like on TV. But I  thought. . . Well, let's see if there's anything in the bastard's past. It did  seem odd that he'd made big moves twice in his career. After more than ten years  in Santa Fe, he'd jumped to Scottsdale, Arizona. And after seven years there, he  came here to Newport. Generally speaking, successful doctors don't throw over  their practices and move to new cities on a whim."

Closterman finished cutting the peppers into strips. He rinsed the knife, dried  it, and put it away.

"I asked around the medical community, to see if anyone might know someone who  practices in Santa Fe. This cardiologist friend of mine had a friend from med  school who settled in Santa Fe, and he made introductions. Turns out this doctor  in Santa Fe actually knew Ahriman when he was out there. . . and didn't like him  a damn bit more than I do. And then the kicker.. . there was a big sexual abuse  case at a preschool out there, and Ahriman did the interviews of the children,  like he did here. Questions were raised then, too, about his techniques."

Dusty's stomach had soured, and though he didn't think that the coffee had  anything to do with it, he pushed his cup aside.

"One of the children, a five-year-old girl, committed suicide as the trial was starting," Roy Closterman said. "A five-year-old. Left a pathetic picture she'd drawn of a girl like her.. . kneeling before a naked man. The man was anatomically correct."

"Dear God," Martie said, pushing her chair back from the table. She started to  get up, had nowhere to go, and sat down again.

Dusty wondered if the five-year-old girl's body would flicker through Martie's  mind in grisly detail during her next panic attack.

"The case might as well have gone to jury right then, because the defendants  were as good as cooked. The Santa Fe prosecutor obtained convictions across the  board."

The physician took a bottle of beer from the refrigerator and twisted off the  cap.

"Bad things happen to good people when they're around Dr. Mark Ahriman, but he  always comes out looking like a savior. Until the Pastore murders in Santa Fe.  Mrs. Pastore, perfectly nice woman, never known to have a bad word for anyone or  a moment of instability in her life, suddenly loads a revolver and decides to  kill her family. Starts by blowing away her ten-year-old son."

This story fed Martie's fear of her own violent potential, and now she had  somewhere to go. She rose from the table, went to the sink, turned on the water,  pumped liquid soap from a dispenser, and vigorously washed her hands.

Although Martie hadn't said a word to Dr. Closterman, he didn't appear to find  her actions either forward or peculiar.

"The boy was a patient of Ahriman's. He was a severe stutterer. There was some  suspicion that Ahriman and the mother had been having an affair. And a witness  placed Ahriman at the Pastore house the night of the murders. In fact, standing  outside the house, watching the carnage through an open window."

"Watching?" Martie said, pulling paper towels off a wall-mounted roll. "Just. .  . watching?"

"As if it were a sporting event," Roy Closterman said. "Like... he went there  because he knew it was going to happen."

Dusty couldn't sit still, either. Getting to his feet, he said, "I've had two  beers this evening, but if your offer still stands. . ."

"Help yourself," Roy Closterman said. "Talking about Dr. Mark Ahriman doesn't  promote sobriety."

Tossing the paper towels in the trash can, Martie said, "So this witness saw him  there-what came of that?"

"Nothing. The witness wasn't believed. And the rumored affair couldn't be  proved. Besides, there was absolutely no doubt at all that Mrs. Pastore pulled  the trigger. All the forensic evidence in the world. But the Pastores were  well-liked, and a lot of people believed that Ahriman was in the background of  the tragedy somehow."

Returning to the table with his beer, Dusty said, "So he didn't like the  atmosphere in Santa Fe anymore, and he moved to Scottsdale."

"Where more bad things happened to more good people," Closterman said, stirring  the meatballs and sausage in the pot of sauce. "I've got a file on all this.

I'll give it to you before you leave."

"With all this ammunition," Dusty said, "you must've been able to get him off  the Ornwahl case."

Roy Closterman returned to a seat at the table again, and so did Martie. The  doctor said, "No."

Surprised, Dusty said, "But surely the other preschool case was enough, by  itself, to-"

"I never used it."

The physician's deeply tanned face darkened further with anger, grew stormy and  empurpled under the sun-browned surface.

Closterman cleared his throat and continued: "Someone discovered I was phoning  around to people in Santa Fe and Scottsdale, asking about Ahriman. One evening,  I came home from the office, and two men were here in the kitchen, sitting where  the two of you are sitting. Dark suits, ties, well-groomed. But they were  strangers-and when I turned around to get the hell out of the house, there was a  third one behind me."

Of all the places Dusty had expected to follow Closterman, this wasn't on the  list of itineraries. He didn't want to go here, because it seemed to be a  highway to hopelessness for him and Martie.

If Dr. Ahriman was their enemy, he was enemy enough. Only in the Bible could  David win against Goliath. Only in the movies did the little guy have a chance  against leviathan.

"Ahriman uses cheap muscle?" Martie asked, either because she hadn't quite  leaped to the understanding that Dusty had reached-or because she didn't want to  believe it.

"Nothing cheap about them. They've got good retirement plans, excellent medical  coverage, full dental, and the use of a plain-Jane sedan during working hours.  Anyway, they'd brought a videotape,

and they played it for me on the TV in the den. On the tape was this young boy  who's a patient of mine. His morn and dad are my patients, too, and close  friends. Dear friends."

The physician had to stop. He was choking on rage and outrage. His hand was  clamped so tight to his beer that it seemed the bottle would burst in his fist. Then: "The boy is nine years old, a really good kid. Tears are streaming down  his face in the videotape. He's telling someone off-camera about how he's been  sexually molested, since the age of six, by his doctor. By me. I have never  touched this boy in that way, never would, never could. But he's very  convincing, emotional, and graphic. Anyone who knows him would know that he  couldn't be acting, couldn't sell a lie like this. He's too naive to be this  duplicitous. He believes all of it, every word of it. In his mind, it happened,  these vile things I'm supposed to have done to him."

"The boy was a patient of Ahriman's," Dusty guessed.

"No. These three suits who have no damn right to be in my house, these  well-tailored thugs, they tell me the boy's mother was Ahriman's patient. I  didn't know. I've no idea what she was seeing him for."

"Through the mother," Martie said, "Ahriman got his hands on the boy."

"And worked him somehow, with hypnotic suggestion or something, implanting these  false memories."

"It's more than hypnotic suggestion," Dusty said. "I don't know what it is, but  it goes a lot deeper than that."

After resorting to his beer, Roy Closterman said, "The bastards told me.. . on  the tape, the boy was in a trance. When fully conscious, he wouldn't be able to  remember these false memories, these dreadful things he was saying about me. He  would never dream about them or be troubled by them on a subconscious level,  either. They would have no effect on his psychology, his life. But the false  memories would still be buried in what they called his sub subconscious,  repressed, ready to gush out of him if he were ever instructed to remember them.  They promised to give him that instruction if I tried to make trouble for Mark  Ahriman in regard to the Ornwahl Preschool case or in any other matter. Then  they left with the videotape."

The advocate for Ahriman, in the corridors of Dusty's mind, had wandered to far reaches, its voice fainter than before and no longer convincing.

Martie said, "You have any guesses who those three men were?"

"Doesn't matter much to me exactly which institution's name is printed on their  paycheck," Roy Clostennan said. "I know what they smelled like."

"Authority;" Dusty said.

"Reeked of it," the physician confirmed.

Evidently, right now, Martie didn't fear her violent potential as much as she  feared that of others, because she put her hand over Dusty's and gripped him  tightly.

Panting and the pad of dog paws sounded in the hail. Valet and Charlotte  returned to the kitchen, played out and grinning.

Behind them came footsteps, and a stocky, affable-looking man in a Hawaiian  shirt and calf-length shorts entered the kitchen. He was carrying a manila  envelope in his left hand.

"This is Brian," Roy Closterman said, and made introductions.

After they shook hands, Brian gave the envelope to Dusty. "Here's the Ahriman  file that Roy put together."

"But you didn't get it from us," the physician cautioned. "And you don't need to  bring it back."

"In fact," said Brian, "we don't want it back, ever."

"Brian," Roy Closterman said, "show them your ear."

Pushing his longish blond hair back from the left side of his head, Brian  twisted, pulled, lifted, and detached his ear.

Martie gasped.

"Prosthetic," Roy Closterman explained. "When the three suits left that night, I  went upstairs and found Brian unconscious. His ear was severed-and the wound  sutured with professional expertise. They had put it down the garbage disposal,  so it couldn't be sewn back on."

"Real sweethearts," Brian said, pretending to fan his face with his ear,  exhibiting a macabre je ne sais quoi that made Dusty smile in spite of the  circumstances.

"Brian and I have been together more than twenty-four years," the doctor said.

"More than twenty-five," Brian amended. "Roy, you're hopeless about  anniversaries."

"They didn't need to hurt him," the physician said. "The video of the boy was  enough, more than enough. They just did it to drive the point home."

"It worked with me," Brian said, reattaching his prosthetic ear.

"And," Roy Closterman said, "maybe now you can understand how the threat of the  boy had extra punch. Because of me and Brian, our life together, some people  would more easily credit accusations about child molestation. But I swear to  God, if I ever felt any temptation along those lines, any yearnings for a child,  I'd take a knife to my own throat."

"If I didn't slit it first," Brian said.

With Brian's entrance, Closterman's throttled rage had slowly subsided, and the  stormy clotted coloration under his tan had faded. Now some of that darkness  gathered in his face again. "I don't much love myself for backing down. The  Ornwahl family was ruined, and all but certainly were innocent. If it was just  me against Mark Ahriman, I'd have battled it out no matter what the cost. But  these people who crawl out from under their rocks to protect him. . - I just  don't understand that. And what I don't understand, I can't fight."

"Maybe we can't fight it, either," Dusty said.

"Maybe not," Closterman agreed. "And you'll notice I avoided asking you exactly  what might've happened to your friend Susan and what your own problems with  Ahriman are. Because, frankly, there's only so much I want to know. It's  cowardly of me, I guess. I never thought of myself as a coward until this, until  Ahriman, but I know now that I've got my breaking point."

Hugging him, Martie said, "We all do. And you're no coward, Doc. You're a dear,  brave man."

"I tell him," Brian said, "but to me, he never listens"

Holding Martie very tightly for a moment, the physician said, "You're going to  need all your father's heart and all his guts."

"She's got them," Dusty said.

This was the strangest moment of camaraderie that Dusty had ever known: the four  of them so dissimilar in so many ways, and yet bonded as though they were the  last human beings left on the planet after colonization by extraterrestrials.

"May we set two more places for dinner?" Brian wondered.

"Thanks," Dusty said, "but we've eaten. And we've got a lot to do before the  night's out."

Martie clipped Valet to his leash, and the two dogs sniffed crotches in a last  good-bye.

At the front door, Dusty said, "Dr. Closterman-"

"Roy, please."

"Thank you. Roy, I can't say that Martie and I would be in less of a mess right  now if I had trusted my instincts and stopped calling myself paranoid, but we'd  be maybe half a step ahead of where we are now.,,

"Paranoia," Brian said, "is the clearest sign of mental health in this new  millennium."

Dusty said, "So. . . as paranoid as it sounds. . . I have a brother who's in  drug rehab. It's his third time. The last two have been at the same facility.

And last night, when I left him there, I had a disturbing reaction to the place,  this paranoid feeling. .

"What's the facility?" Roy asked.

"New Life Clinic. Do you know it?"

"In Irvine. Yes. Ahriman is one of the owners."

Remembering the tall and imperial silhouette at Skeet's window, Dusty said,  "Yeah. That would've surprised me yesterday. . . but not today."

After the warmth of the Closterman house, the January night seemed to have a  colder, sharper edge. Skirling wind skimmed a foamy scruff off the surface of  the harbor and flung it across the island promenade.

Valet pranced at the limit of his leash, and his masters hurried after him.

No moon. No stars. No certainty that dawn would come, and no eagerness to see  what might arrive with it.

59

With no dimming of the lights or raising of the curtain to alert Martie that it  was show time, with no previews of coming attractions to prepare her, dead  priests with spiked heads and other mind movies of an apparently worse nature  suddenly flickered across a screen in the multiplex cinema that occupied the  most haunted neighborhood of her head. She cried out and jerked in her car seat,  as if she'd felt a sleek theater rat, fat on spilled popcorn and Milk Duds,  scampering across her feet.

Not a measured descent into panic this time, not a slow slide down a long chute  of fear: Martie plunged in midsentence out of a conversation about Skeet and  into a deep pit swarming with terrors. One gasp, two quick hard grunts, and  then, already, the screaming. She tried to bend forward but was hampered by her  safety harness. The entangling straps terrified her as much as her visions,  perhaps because many of the monstrosities in her mind were restrained by chains,  ropes, shackles, spikes through their heads, nails through their palms. She  clawed with both hands at the nylon belts, but with no apparent recollection of  the nature of the device that was hindering her, too desperately frightened to  remember the buckle release.

They were traveling a wide avenue in light traffic, and Dusty angled across  lanes to the curb. He stopped with a shriek of brakes on a carpet of dead  evergreen needles, under an enormous stone pine at war with the wind.

When he tried to help Martie get out of the safety harness, she recoiled,  thrashing more strenuously and even more ineffectively against the belts, while  also swatting at him and trying to make him keep his distance. Nevertheless, he  managed to find the release and disengage the buckle.

For a moment she fought the snaring straps, but then she slipped out of them and  allowed them to retract. With this little freedom came no surcease, and her  escalating panic drew squeals of sympathy from Valet in the backseat, until the  fabric of her cries shredded into convulsive retching.

This time she had a full stomach, and when she bent forward in her misery, her  dry heaves almost became wet. Choking down her gorge with a shudder of  revulsion, she clawed at the door handle, trying to get out of the car. Maybe she wanted to escape the car only to avoid soiling it if she brought up  her dinner, but maybe once out, she would try to flee, not merely from the  inescapable spook show in her head, but from Dusty and the possibility that she  would turn on him in a fury. He couldn't allow her to leave, because in her  panic she might dash into traffic and be run down.

Martie cracked open the door, and the militant wind at once attacked. Barrages  of chilly air blasted through the gap, and her hair tossed like a flag.

"Raymond Shaw," Dusty said.

Because the wind's artillery keened across the edges of the door with a whistle  like incoming mortar, boomed and boomed unrelentingly, and because her own  fearful cries were loud, Martie didn't hear the name. She pushed the door open  wider.

"Raymond Shaw!" Dusty shouted.

She was half turned away from him in her seat, and he couldn't hear her say I'm  listening, but he knew she must have spoken those words, because she froze and  fell silent, waiting for haiku.

Quickly reaching across her, he pulled the door shut.

In the comparative quiet, before Martie could blink and shake off this reverie  and plunge back into her panic attack, Dusty put a hand under her chin, turned  her face toward him, and said, "Blown from the west-"

"You are the west and the western wind."

"-fallen leaves gather-"

"The leaves are your instructions."

"-in the east."

"I am the east."

Fully accessed, waiting to be operated, Martie stared through Dusty, as though  be were the invisible presence now, not Ahriman.

Shaken by Martie's placid, dull-eyed expression and the total obedience that it  implied, Dusty turned away from her. His heart was pumping like a hard-driven  piston, mind spinning like a flywheel.

She was unthinkably vulnerable now. If he gave her the wrong instruction,  phrased it in such words that an entirely unintended second meaning could be  derived from it, she might respond in ways he couldn't anticipate. The potential  to do great psychological damage, inadvertently, seemed fearfully real.

When he had told Skeet to go to sleep, Dusty hadn't specified what length of  time the nap should occupy. Skeet had been unwakable for more than an hour;  however, there seemed to be no reason why he might not have slept for days,  weeks, months, or for the rest of his life, kept alive by machines in the  expectation of an awakening that would never occur.

Before Dusty gave even the simplest instruction to Martie, he needed to think it  through carefully. The wording must be as unambiguous as possible.

In addition to being concerned about causing unintended harm, he was troubled by  the degree of control he had over Martie, as she sat patiently awaiting his  direction. He loved this woman more than he loved life, but no one should be  able to exercise absolute power over another human being, regardless of how pure  his intentions might be. Anger was less poisonous to the soul than was greed,  greed less toxic than envy, and envy only a fraction as corrupting as power.

Dead pine needles, like I Ching sticks, scattered across the windshield, forming  continuously changing patterns, but if they were foretelling the future, Dusty  wasn't able to read their predictions.

He gazed into his wife's eyes, which jiggled briefly, as Skeet's eyes had done.

"Martie, I want you to listen carefully to me."

"I'm listening."

"I want you to tell me where you are now."

"In our car."

"Physically, yes. That's exactly where you are. But it seems to me that mentally  you are somewhere else. I would like to know where that other place is."

"I'm in the mind chapel," she said.

Dusty had no idea what she meant by this, but he didn't have the time or  presence of mind to explore her statement further just now. He was going to have  to risk proceeding with nothing more than that term, mind chapel.

"When I hold my fingers in front of your face and snap them, you will fall into  a deep and peaceful sleep. When I snap them a second time, you will wake from  that sleep and you will also return from the mind chapel where you are now. You  will be fully conscious again. . . and your panic attack will be over. Do you  understand?"

"Do I understand?"

A fine sweat prickled along his hairline. He wiped his brow with one hand. "Tell  me whether or not you understand."

"I understand."

He raised his right hand, thumb and middle finger pressed tightly together, but  then he hesitated, restrained by doubt. "Repeat my instructions."

She repeated them word for word.

Doubt still hobbled him, but he couldn't sit here through the night, fingers  poised to snap, hoping for confidence. He searched his deep troves of memory for  all that he had learned about these control techniques from observing Skeet and  from all the apparently correct deductions he had made based on so many little  clues. He could find no fault with his plan-except that it was based more on  ignorance than on understanding. In case he screwed up and put Martie in a coma  forever, he left her with three whispered words to carry into that darkness and  hold there with her-"I love you"-and then he snapped his fingers.

Martie slumped in her seat, instantly asleep, the back of her skull bouncing  once against the headrest, and then her head tipped forward, chin to chest,  raven wings of hair spreading to shield her face from him.

His lungs seemed to cinch shut like drawstring purses, so he had to make an  effort to pay out his breath, and with the exhalation, he snapped his fingers  again.

She sat up in her seat, awake, alert, that faraway gaze no longer in her eyes,  and looked around in surprise. "What the hell?"

One instant she was gasping in blind panic, clawing-pushing her way out of the  Saturn-and the next instant she was calm, and the car door was closed. The  carnival of death that had pitched its tents inside her head, with all its  spiked priests and decomposing corpses, was abruptly gone, as though blown away  on the night wind.

She looked at him, and he saw that she understood. "You."

"I didn't think I had a choice. That was going to be one mean mother of an  attack."

"I feel. . clean."

From the back, Valet leaned forward between the front seats, rolling his eyes  fearfully and seeking reassurance.

Petting the dog, Martie said, "Clean. Can it be over?"

"Not that easily," Dusty guessed. "Maybe with some thought and care. . . maybe  we can undo what's been done to us. But first-"

"First," she said, buckling into her safety harness, "let's get Skeet out of  that place."

60

The rat-stalking cat, as black as soot, moving as sinuously as smoke, looked up  into the Saturn headlights, eyes flaring hot orange, and then vanished into  burnt-out corners of the night.

Dusty parked next to a Dumpster, close to the building, leaving the alleyway  unobstructed.

The dog watched them, nose pressed to a car window, his breath clouding one  pane, as they walked quickly to the service entrance of New Life.

Although visiting hours had ended twenty minutes ago, they would most likely be  permitted upstairs to see Skeet if they used the front door, especially if they  announced that they had come to remove him from the clinic. That bold approach,  however, would lead to a lot of discussion with the head shift nurse and with a  physician if one were on duty, as well as to delays with paperwork.

Worse, Ahriman might have Skeet's file flagged with a directive requiring his  notification if the patient or the patient's family requested a discharge. Dusty  didn't want to risk a face-to-face encounter with the psychiatrist, at least not  yet.

Fortunately, the service door was unlocked. Beyond lay a small, dimly lighted,  empty receiving room with a drain in the center of the concrete floor. The  astringent scent of pine disinfectant masked but didn't entirely conceal a sour  odor, which was probably milk that had dripped from a punctured carton on  delivery and then soaked into the porous concrete, but which smelled to Dusty like curdled blood or old puke,  evidence of cruelty or crime. In this new millennium, when reality was so  plastic, he could look at even this mundane space and imagine a secret abattoir  where ritual sacrifices were practiced at the first midnight of each full moon. He wasn't sufficiently paranoid to believe that every member of the clinic staff  was a mind-controlled minion of Dr. Ahriman, but he and Martie proceeded  stealthily, as if in enemy territory.

Beyond the first room was a long hallway leading to a junction with another  hall, and farther to a pair of doors that probably opened to the lobby. Offices,  storerooms, and perhaps the kitchen lay left and right off the corridor.

No one was in sight, but two people, speaking a language other than English,  perhaps an Asian tongue, conversed in the distance. Their voices were ethereal,  as if they didn't arise from one of the rooms ahead, but instead pierced a veil  from a strange other-world.

Immediately to the right, outside the receiving room, Martie indicated a door  labeled STAIRS, and in the best tradition of premillennium reality, stairs  actually lay beyond it.

Wearing a simple charcoal-gray suit, a white shirt with the collar unbuttoned,  and a blue-and-yellow striped tie loosened at the neck, forgoing a pocket  square, having allowed the wind to disarrange his thick hair and then having  combed it distractedly with his fingers upon stepping into the lobby at New  Life, Mark Ahriman was costumed and coiffed for the role of a dedicated doctor  whose evenings were not his own when patients needed him.

At the security station sat Wally Clark, pudgy and dimpled and pink-cheeked and  smiling, looking as though he were waiting to be buried in a sand pit lined with  hot coals, and served at a luau.

"Dr. Ahriman," Wally inquired, as the doctor crossed the lobby with a black  medical bag in hand, "no rest for the weary?"

"That should be 'No rest for the wicked,' "the doctor corrected.

Wally chuckled dutifully at this self-deprecatory witticism.

Smiling inwardly, imagining how quickly Wally would choke on that chuckle if  presented with a certain jar containing two famous eyes, the doctor said, "But the rewards of healing far outweigh an occasional  missed dinner."

Admiringly, Wally said, "Wouldn't it be nice if all doctors had your attitude,  sir?"

"Oh, I'm sure most do," Ahriman said generously as he pushed the elevator call  button. "But I'll agree, there's nothing worse than a man of medicine who  doesn't care anymore, who's just going through the motions. If the joy of this  job ever leaves me, Wally, I hope I have the good sense to move on to other  work."

As the elevator doors slid open, Wally said, "Hope that day never comes. Your  patients would miss you terribly, Doctor."

"Well, if that's so, then before I retire, I'll just have to kill them all."

Laughing, Wally said, "You tickle me, Dr. Ahriman."

"Guard the door against barbarians, Wally," he replied as he entered the  elevator.

"You can count on me, sir."

On the way up to the second floor, the doctor wished that the night were not  cool. In warmer weather, he could have entered with his suit coat slung over one  shoulder and his shirtsleeves rolled up; the desired image would thus have been  better conveyed with less need of supporting dialogue.

If he had chosen screen acting as a career, he was confident he would have  become not merely famous but internationally renowned. Awards would have been  showered on him. Initially, there would have been petty talk of nepotism, but  his talent eventually would have silenced the naysayers.

Having grown up in Hollywood's highest circles and on studio lots, however,  Ahriman could no longer see any romance in the movie industry, just as the son  of any third-world dictator might grow up to be bored and impatient even with  the spectacles in well-equipped torture chambers and with the pageantry of mass  executions.

Besides, movie-star fame-and the loss of anonymity that went with it-allowed one  to be sadistic only to film crews, to the high-priced call girls who serviced  the kinkier members of the celluloid set, and to the young actresses dumb enough  to allow themselves to be victimized. The doctor would never have been content  with such easy pickings.

Ding. The elevator arrived at the second floor.

On the second floor, when Dusty and Martie cautiously ventured out of the back  stairwell, their luck held. A hundred feet away, at the junction of the  well-lighted main corridors, two women were at the nursing station, but neither  happened to be looking toward the stairs. He led Martie to Skeet's nearby  quarters without being seen.

The room was illuminated only by the television. A flurry of cops-and-robbers  action on the screen caused pale forms of light to writhe like spirits up the  walls.

Skeet was sitting in bed, propped like a pasha against pillows, drinking through  a straw from a bottle of vanilla Yoo-hoo. When he saw his visitors, he blew  bubbles in his beverage as though tooting a horn, and he greeted them with  delight.

While Martie went to the bed to give Skeet a hug and a kiss on the cheek, Dusty  said a cheery good-evening to Jasmine Hernandez, the suicide-watch nurse on  duty, and he opened the small closet.

When Dusty turned from the closet, Skeet's suitcase in hand, Nurse Hernandez had  risen from the armchair and was consulting the luminous numbers on her  wristwatch. "Visiting hours are over."

"Yes, that's right, but we're not visiting," Dusty said.

"This is an emergency," Martie said, as she coerced Skeet into putting down his  Yoo-hoo and sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Illness in the family," Dusty added.

"Who's sick?" Skeet asked.

"Mom," Dusty told him.

"Whose mom?" Skeet asked, clearly unable to believe what he had heard.

Claudette ill? Claudette, who had given him Holden Caulfield for a father and  then Dr. Derek "Lizard" Lampton for a stepfather? That woman with the beauty and  the cool indifference of a goddess? That paramour of third-rate academics? That  muse to novelists who found no meaning in the written word and to hack  psychologists who despised the human race? Claudette, the hard-nosed  existentialist with her pure contempt for all rules and laws, for all  definitions of reality that did not begin with her? How could this unmovable and  apparently immortal creature fall victim to anything in this world?

"Our mom," Dusty confirmed.

Skeet was already wearing socks, and Martie knelt beside the bed, jamming his  feet into his sneakers.

"Martie," the kid said, "I'm still in my pajamas."

"No time to change here, honey. Your mom is really sick."

With a note of bright wonder in his voice, Skeet said, "Really? "Claudette is  really sick?"

Throwing Skeet's clothes into the suitcase as fast as he could pull them out of  the dresser drawers, Dusty said, "It hit her so suddenly."

"What, a truck or something?" Skeet asked.

Jasmine Hernandez heard the note of almost-delight in Skeet's voice, and she  frowned. "Chupaflor, does this mean you're self-discharging?"

Looking down at his pajama bottoms, Skeet said, with complete sincerity, "No,  I'm clean."

The doctor checked in at the station on the second floor to let the nurses know  that neither he nor his patient in Room 246 were to be disturbed while in  session.

"He called me, saying he intends to discharge himself in the morning, which  would probably be the end of him. I've got to talk him out of it. He's still in  deep addiction. When he hits the streets, he'll score heroin in an hour, and if  I'm right about his psychopathology, he really wants to overdose and be done  with it."

"And him," said Nurse Ganguss, "with everything to live for."

She was in her thirties, attractive, and usually a consummate professional. With  this patient, however, she was more like a horny schoolgirl than an RN, always  on the brink of a swoon from cerebral anemia, insufficient circulation to the  brain, as a consequence of so much of her blood flooding into her loins and  genitalia.

"And he's so sweet," Nurse Ganguss added.

The younger woman, Nurse Kyla Woosten, wasn't impressed by the patient in Room  246, but clearly she had an interest in Dr. Ahriman himself. Whenever the doctor  had occasion to talk with her, Nurse Woosten performed the same repertoire of  tricks with her tongue. Pretending to be unaware of what she was doing-but, in  fact, with more calculation than a Cray supercomputer could accomplish in one  full day of operation-she frequently licked her lips to moisten them: long, slow, sensuous licks. When considering a point that Ahriman  made, the vixen sometimes stuck her tongue out, biting on the tip of it, as if  to do so assisted thoughtful contemplation.

Yes, here came the tongue, questing into the right corner of her lips, perhaps  seeking a sweet crumb lodged in that ripe and tender crease. Now her lips parted  in surprise, tongue fluttering against the roof of her mouth. Again, the  moistening of the lips.

Nurse Woosten was pretty, but the doctor wasn't interested in her. For one  thing, he had a policy against brainwashing business employees. Although a  mind-controlled workforce, throughout his various enterprises, would eliminate  demands for increased wages and fringe benefits, the possible complications were  not worth risking.

He might have made an exception of Nurse Woosten, because her tongue fascinated  him. It was a perky, pink little thing. He would have liked to do something  inventive with it. Regrettably, in a time when body piercing for cosmetic  purposes was no longer shocking, when ears and eyebrows and nostrils and lips  and navels and even tongues were regularly drilled and fitted with baubles, the  doctor couldn't have done much to Woosten's tongue that, upon waking, she would  have deemed horrifying or even objectionable.

Sometimes he found it frustrating to be a sadist in an age when self-mutilation  was all the rage.

So, on to Room 246 and his star patient.

The doctor was the principal investor in New Life Clinic, but he didn't  regularly treat patients here. Generally speaking, people with drug problems  didn't interest him; they were so industriously wrecking their lives that any  additional misery he could inflict on them would be merely filigree atop  filigree.

Currently, his only patient at New Life was in 246. Of course, he also had a  particular interest in Dustin Rhodes' brother, down the hall in 250, but he was  not one of Skeet's official physicians; his consultation in that case was  strictly off the record.

When he entered 246, which was a two-room suite with full bath, he found the  famous actor in the living room, standing on his head, palms flat on the floor,  heels and buttocks against a wall, watching television upside down. "Mark? What're you doing here at this hour?" the actor asked, holding his yoga  position-or whatever it was.

"I was in the building for another patient. Thought I'd stop by and see how  you're doing."

The doctor had lied to Nurses Ganguss and Woosten when he had said that the  actor had phoned him, threatening to check out of the clinic in the morning.  Ahriman's real purpose was to be here when the midnight shift arrived, so he  could program Skeet after the too-diligent Nurse Hernandez went home. The actor  was his cover. After a couple hours in 246, the few minutes that he spent with  Skeet would seem like an incidental matter, and any staff who noticed the visit  would not find it remarkable.

The actor said, "I spend about an hour a day in this position. Good for brain  circulation. It'd be nice to have a second, smaller TV that I could turn upside  down when I needed to."

Glancing at the sitcom on the screen, Ahriman said, "If that's the stuff you  watch, it's probably better upside down."

"No one likes critics, Mark."

"Don Adriano de Armado."

"I'm listening," said the actor, quivering briefly but able to maintain his  headstand.

For the name to activate this subject, the doctor had chosen a character from  Love's Labour's Lost by William Shakespeare.

The upside-down actor, who collected twenty million dollars plus points for  starring in a film, had accepted little education of any kind during his  thirty-odd years, and had received no formal training in his profession. When he  read a screenplay, he often didn't read anything except his own lines, and frogs  were likely to fly before he ever read Shakespeare. Unless the legitimate  theater was one day turned over to the management of chimps and baboons, there  was no chance whatsoever that he would be cast in anything by the Bard of Avon,  and so no danger that he would hear the name Don Adriano de Armado other than  directly from the doctor himself.

Ahriman put the actor through his personal, enabling haiku.

As Martie finished tying the laces of Skeet's athletic shoes, Jasmine Hernandez  said, "If you're checking him out of here, I'll need you to sign a release of  liability."

"We're bringing him back tomorrow," Martie said, rising to her feet and  encouraging Skeet to stand up from the edge of the bed.

"Yeah," Dusty said, still jamming clothes into the suitcase, "we just want to  take him to see Mom, and then he'll be back."

"You'll still have to sign a release," Nurse Hernandez insisted.

"Dusty," Skeet warned, "you better never let Claudette hear you call her Mom  instead of Claudette. She'll bust your ass for sure."

"He attempted suicide only yesterday," Nurse Hernandez reminded them. "The  clinic can't take any responsibility for his discharge in this condition."

"We absolve the clinic. We take full responsibility," Martie assured her.

"Then I'll get the release form."

Martie stepped in front of the nurse, leaving Skeet to wobble on the uncertain  support of his own two legs. "Why don't you help us get him ready? Then the four  of us can go up to the nurses' station together and sign the release."

Eyes narrowing, Jasmine Hernandez said, "What's going on here?"

"We're in a hurry, that's all."

"Yeah? Then I'll get that release real quick," Nurse Hernandez replied, pushing  past Martie. At the door, she pointed at Skeet, and ordered: "Don't you go  anywhere until I come back, chupaflor."

"Sure, okay," Skeet promised. "But could you hurry? Claudette's really sick, and  I don't want to miss anything."

The doctor instructed the actor to get off his head and then to sit on the sofa. Ever the exhibitionist, the heartthrob was wearing only a pair of black bikini  briefs. He was as fit as a sixteen-year-old, lean and well-muscled, in spite of  his formidable list of self-destructive habits.

He crossed the room with the lithe grace of a ballet dancer. Indeed, although  his personality was deeply repressed and although, in this state, he was hardly  more self-aware than a turnip, he moved as if performing. Evidently, his  conviction that he was at all times being watched and adored by admirers was not  an attitude that he had acquired as fame had corrupted him; it was a conviction  rooted in his very genes.

While the actor waited, Dr. Ahriman took off his suit coat and rolled up his shirtsleeves. He checked his reflection in a mirror above a  sideboard. Perfect. His forearms were powerful, thatched with hair, manly  without being Neanderthalian. When he left this room at midnight and strolled  down the hall to Caulfield's room, he would sling his coat over his shoulder,  the very picture of a weary. hardworking, deeply committed, and sexy man of  medicine.

Ahriman drew a chair to the sofa and sat facing the actor. "Be calm."

"I am calm."

Jiggle, jiggle, the blue eyes that made Nurse Ganguss weak.

This prince of the box office had come to Ahriman the younger rather than to any  other therapist because of the doctor's Hollywood pedigree. Ahriman the elder,  Josh, had been dead of petits-fours poisoning when this lad had still been  failing math, history, and assorted other courses in junior high school, so the  two had never worked together. But the actor reasoned that if the great director  had won two Oscars, then the son of the great director must be the best  psychiatrist in the world. "Except, maybe, for Freud," he had told the doctor,  "but he's way over there in Europe somewhere, and I can't be flying back and  forth all the time for sessions."

After Robert Downey Jr. was finally sent to prison for a long stay, this hunk of  marketable meat had worried that he, too, might be caught by "fascist  drug-enforcement agents." While he was loath to change his lifestyle to please  the forces of repression, he was even less enthusiastic about sharing a prison  cell with a homicidal maniac who had a seventeen-inch neck and no gender  preferences.

Although Ahriman regularly turned away patients with serious drug problems, he  had taken on this one. The actor moved in elite social circles, where he could  make rare mischief with a singularly high entertainment value for the doctor.  Indeed, already, utilizing the actor, an extraordinary game was being prepared  for play, one that would have profound national and international consequences.

"I have some important instructions for you," Ahriman said.

Someone rapped urgently on the door to the suite.

Martie was trying to get Skeet into a bathrobe, but he was resisting.

"Honey," she said, "it's chilly tonight. You can't go outside in just these thin  pajamas."

"This robe sucks," Skeet protested. "They provided it here. It's not mine,  Martie. It's all nubbly with fuzz balls, and I hate the stripes."

In his prime, before drugs wasted him, the kid had drawn women the way the scent  of raw beef brought Valet running. In those days, he'd been a good dresser, the  male bird in full plumage. Even now, in his ruin, Skeet's sartorial good taste  occasionally resurfaced, although Martie didn't understand why it had to surface  now.

Snapping shut the packed suitcase, Dusty said, "Let's go."

Improvising frantically, Martie tore the blanket off Skeet's bed and draped it  over his shoulders. "How's this?"

"Sort of American Indian," he said, pulling the blanket around himself. "I like  it."

She took Skeet by the arm and hustled him toward the door, where Dusty was  waiting.

"Wait!" Skeet said, halting, turning. "The lottery tickets." "What lottery  tickets?"

"In the nightstand," Dusty said. "Tucked in the Bible."

"We can't leave without them," Skeet insisted.

In response to the rapping on the door, the doctor called out impatiently, "I am  not to be disturbed here."

A hesitation, and then more rapping.

To the actor, Ahriman said quietly, "Go into the bedroom, lie down on the bed,  and wait for me."

As though the direction he had just received was from a lover promising all the  delights of the flesh, the actor rose from the sofa and glided out of the room.  Each liquid step, each roll of the hips was sufficiently seductive to fill  theater seats all over the world.

The rapping sounded a third time. "Dr. Ahriman? Dr. Ahriman?"

As he moved toward the door, the doctor decided that if this interruption was  courtesy of Nurse Woosten, he would apply himself more diligently to the problem  of what to do with her tongue.

Martie took the pair of lottery tickets out of the Bible and tried to give them  to Skeet.

Clutching the blanket-cloak with his left hand, he waved away the tickets with  his right. "No, no! If I touch them, they won't be worth anything, all the luck  will go out of them."

As she thrust the tickets into one of her pockets, she heard someone farther  down the hall calling for Dr. Ahriman.

When Ahriman opened the door to 246, he was even more dismayed to see Jasmine  Hernandez than he would have been to see Nurse Wosten with pink tongue rampant.

Jasmine was an excellent RN, but she was too much like a few especially annoying  girls the doctor had encountered in his boyhood and early adolescence, a breed  of females that he referred to as The Knowers. They were the ones who mocked him  with their eyes, with sly little looks and smug smiles that he caught in his  peripheral vision as he turned away from them. The Knowers seemed to see through  him, to understand him in ways he didn't wish to be understood. Worse, he had  the curious feeling that they knew something hilarious about him, as well,  something he himself didn't know, that he was a figure of fun to them due to  qualities in himself he couldn't recognize.

Since the age of sixteen or seventeen, when his previous gangly cuteness had  begun to mature into devastating good looks, the doctor had rarely been troubled  by The Knowers, who for the most part seemed to have lost their ability to see  into him. Jasmine Hernandez was one of that breed, however, and though she had  not yet been able to x-ray him, there were times when he was sure that she was  going to blink in surprise and peer more closely, her eyes filling with that  special mockery and the corner of her mouth turning up in the faintest smirk. "Doctor, I'm sorry to disturb you, but when I told Nurse Ganguss what's  happening, and she said you were on the premises, I felt you ought to know." She was so forceful that the doctor backed up a couple steps, and she took this  as an invitation to enter the room, which was not what he had intended.

"A patient is self-discharging," Nurse Hernandez said, "and in my estimation,  under peculiar circumstances."

Skeet said, "Could I have my Yoo-hoo?"

Martie looked at him as if he had gone a little mad. Of course, when she thought  about it, there was ample evidence that both of them were in possession of less  than half their marbles, so she tried to give him the benefit of the doubt.

"Your what?"

"His soda," Dusty said from the doorway. "Grab it and let's get out of here!"

"Someone called Ahriman," Martie said. "He's here."

"I heard it, too," Dusty assured her. "Get the damn soda quick."

"Vanilla Yoo-hoo, or the chocolate for that matter," Skeet said, as Martie  rounded the bed and snatched the bottle off the nightstand, "isn't a soda. It's  not carbonated. It's more of a dessert beverage."

Shoving the bottle of Yoo-hoo into Skeet's right hand, Martie said, "Here's your  dessert beverage, honey. Now move your ass, or I'll put a boot in it."

Initially, in his confusion, the doctor assumed that Nurse Ganguss had mentioned  to Nurse Hernandez that the actor was going to check himself out of the hospital  and that this was the self-discharging patient about whom she was so exercised. Since the whole story about the actor was a lie to cover the doctor's true  purpose in coming to the clinic this evening, he said, "Don't worry, Nurse  Hernandez, he won't be leaving, after all."

"What? What're you talking about? They're trying to hustle him out of here right  now."

Ahriman turned to look at the living room and the open door to the bedroom. He  half expected to see several young women, perhaps members of a fan club,  lowering the nearly naked and semicatatonic actor out of a window, with the  intention of imprisoning him and making him their love slave.

No abductors. No movie star.

Turning to the nurse again, he said, "Who are you talking about?"

"Chupaflor," she said. "The little hummingbird. Holden Caulfield."

Martie descended the stairs, supporting Skeet.

The kid was so pale and frail that in his pajamas and white blanket, he might  have been a ghost haunting the back ways of New Life. A feeble ghost. He  doddered down the stairs, weak-kneed, unsure of his balance, and with every step  he took, the trailing blanket threatened to snare his feet and trip him.

Lugging the suitcase, Dusty followed Martie and Skeet, edging sideways down the  steps, covering their backs by keeping a lookout for Ahriman above them in the  stairwell. He had drawn the .45 Colt out of his jacket pocket.

Gunning down a prominent psychiatrist wouldn't ensure him a hallowed place in  the Heroes Hall of Fame, alongside Smilin' Bob Woodhouse. Instead of being feted  at testimonial dinners, he'd be standing in a prison chow line.

In spite of all they had learned about Dr. Ahriman and all they had deduced, the  bitter truth was that they didn't have any proof that he was guilty of either  any illegal or even unethical acts. The tape from the answering machine, with  Susan's message, was the closest thing to admissible evidence that they  possessed, but in it she accused the psychiatrist of nothing more than being a  bastard. If Susan had somehow videotaped Ahriman, as claimed, that video was  gone.

Skeet was taking the steps as a toddler would negotiate them. He lowered his  right foot to the next tread, then put his left foot beside it, hesitated a  moment to contemplate his subsequent move, and repeated the procedure. They reached the landing, and still there was no pursuit from above. Dusty  waited here, covering the upper flight of steps, while Martie and the kid  continued toward the door below.

If Ahriman entered the stairwell at the second floor and saw them in flight, he  would know they were on to him, a danger to him, and so Dusty would have to  shoot him on sight. Because if Ahriman had time to say Viola Narvilly and then  followed the name with the heron haiku, the psychiatrist would control the  pistol even though it was still in Dusty's hand. Thereafter, anything might  happen.

Alarmed but too experienced a performer to allow his concern to show, the doctor  backed Nurse Hernandez out of 246 and into the hall as he assured her that  Dustin and Martine Rhodes would make no rash decisions endangering Skeet's  rehabilitation. "Mrs. Rhodes, in fact, recently became a patient of mine, and I  know she has full confidence in the care we're giving her brother-in-law."

"They had some story about chupaflor's mother being ill-"

"Well, that would be a shame."

"-but it sounded like so much refried beans, if you ask me. And considering the  potential liability to the clinic-"

"Yes, yes, well, I'm sure I can straighten this out."

After firmly pulling shut the door to 246, Dr. Ahriman walked down the hall to  Room 250, shadowed by Jasmine Hernandez. He refused to hurry because haste would  indicate that in fact he considered this matter more important than he pretended  it was.

He was glad that he'd taken the time to remove his coat and roll up his  shirtsleeves. This working-Joe touch and his manly forearms supported the aura  of confidence and competence he wished to project.

The only life in 250 was the false life on the television. The bed was  disarranged, dresser drawers open and empty, a clinic-issued bathrobe rumpled on  the floor, and the patient gone.

"Please go ask Nurse Ganguss if she saw them leave by the front stairs or  elevator," the doctor instructed Jasmine Hernandez.

Because Nurse Hernandez wasn't programmed, because she was in possession of her  free will and far too much of it, she started to argue: "But there can't have  been enough time for them to-"

"Only one of us is needed to check the back stairs," the doctor interrupted.

"Now please see Nurse Ganguss."

Scowling so fiercely that no one would have disputed her if she claimed to be a  transsexual reincarnation of Pancho Villa, Jasmine Hernandez turned from him and  stalked toward the nurses' station.

At the back stairs, Ahriman opened the door, stepped into the upper landing,  listened, heard nothing, and leaped down the stairs two at a time, his heavy  footfalls slapping off the concrete walls, echoing and re-echoing over one  another, until by the time he came to the bottom of the second flight, he seemed to have left a wildly applauding  audience behind him.

The ground-floor hallway was deserted.

He pushed through a door into the receiving room at the back of the building.

Nobody here.

One more door, this opening to the alleyway.

As Ahriman stepped outside, the wind rattled the lid on one of the Dumpsters and  seemed to blow a red Saturn past him.

Behind the wheel was Dustin Rhodes. He glanced at the doctor. Fright and too  much knowledge were written across the house-painter's face.

The dope-withered, snot-nosed, useless little shit of a brother was in the  backseat. He waved.

Taillights dwindling like those of a spaceship going to warp speed, the Saturn  rocketed recklessly into the night.

The doctor hoped the car would slam into a Dumpster behind one of the buildings  along the alleyway, hoped it would spin out of control and tumble and explode  into flames. He hoped that Dusty and Martie and Skeet would be burned alive,  their carcasses reduced to scorched bones and charred hunks of smoking meat, and  then he hoped that out of the sky would come a great flock of big mutant crows  that would settle into the blasted ruins of the Saturn and tear at the cooked  flesh of the deceased, tear and tear and rip and rend, until not an edible scrap  remained.

None of that happened.

The car traveled two blocks before turning left at a corner, onto a main street. Long after the Saturn was out of sight, the doctor stood in the middle of the  alleyway, staring into its wake.

The wind buffeted him. He welcomed its cold blasts, as though it might blow the  confusion out of him and clear his head.

In the outgoing waiting room earlier in the day, Dusty had been reading The  Manchurian Candidate, which the doctor had planted with Martie as a wild card  that, if ever played, would add an acceptable measure of excitement to this  game. Reading the thriller, Rhodes would experience little frissons of fear too  piercing to be explained by the tale itself, especially when he found the name  Viola Narvilly, and he would recognize odd connections to the events in his own  life. The book would start him thinking, wondering.

Nevertheless, the possibility that the Condon novel alone would spur Dusty to  make great leaps of logic, leading to his understanding of the doctor's true  nature and real agenda, was so remote that there was a far greater likelihood of  astronauts discovering a Kentucky Fried Chicken franchise on Mars, with Elvis  chowing down in a corner booth. And he could see no-underscore that: no-chance  whatsoever that the housepainter could have deduced all this in one afternoon. Consequently, there must be other wild cards that the doctor himself had not  stacked in the deck, that had been dealt by fate.

One of them would be Skeet. Skeet, with a brain so addled by drugs that he  hadn't been entirely programmable.

Concerned about the apprentice painter's reliability, Ahriman had come here this  evening expressly to establish a suicide scenario in Skeet's sub-subconscious  and then send the wasted wretch toddling off to self-destruct before dawn. Now  he would need a new strategy.

What other wild cards in addition to Skeet? Unquestionably, others had been  played. However much Dusty and Martie knew-and their knowledge might not be  quite as complete as it seemed-they had not put together a major portion of the  puzzle with just the book and Skeet.

This unexpected development didn't appeal to Ahriman's sporting spirit. He  enjoyed some risk in his games, but only manageable risk.

He was a gamester, not a gambler. He preferred the architecture of rules to the  jungle of luck.

61

The trailer park huddled defensively in the high wind as though anticipating one  of the tornadoes that always found such places and scattered them across blasted  landscapes for the wicked delectation of television cameras. Fortunately,  twisters were rare, weak, and short-lived in California. The residents of this  park would not have to endure the practiced compassion of reporters torn between  thrilling to a big story of destruction and admitting to what drams of human  empathy had survived their years in service of the evening news.

The streets were laid out in a grid, one exactly like the next. The hundreds of  mobile homes on concrete-block foundations were more alike than not.

Nevertheless, Dusty had no difficulty recognizing Foster "Fig" Newton's place  when he saw it. This community was wired for cable television, and Fig's was the  only trailer with a small satellite dish on its roof.

Actually, three satellite receivers were mounted on Fig's roof, silhouetted  against the low night sky that was painted a sour yellowblack by the upwash of  the suburban light pollution. Each dish was a different size from the others.  One was aimed toward the southern heavens, one toward the northern; both were  stationary. The third, mounted on a complex gimbal joint, tilted and swiveled  ceaselessly, as if plucking tasty bits of elusive data from the ether in much the way that a  nighthawk snatches flying insects out of the air.

In addition to the satellite dishes, exotic antennae prickled from the roof:  four- and five-foot spikes, each featuring a different number of stubby  crossbars; a double helix of copper ribbons; an item resembling an inverted,  denuded metal Christmas tree standing on its point, with all branch ends aimed  toward the sky; and something else like a horned Viking helmet balanced on a  six-foot pole.

Bristling with these data-gathering devices, the trailer might have been a  spaceworthy extraterrestrial ship crudely disguised as a mobile home: the sort  of thing that callers were always reporting on the talk-radio programs that Fig  favored.

Dusty, Martie, Skeet, and Valet gathered on an eight-foot-square porch covered  by an aluminum awning that might, after takeoff, deploy as a solar sail. Dusty  knocked on the door when he couldn't find a bell push.

Clutching his blanket-cloak, which flapped and billowed in the wind, Skeet  resembled a figure from a fantasy novel, following the trail of a fugitive  sorcerer, exhausted by adventure, long harried by goblins. Raising his voice to  compete with the wind, he said, "Are you really certain Claudette's not sick?"

"We're certain. She's not," Martie assured him.

Turning to Dusty, the kid said, "But you told me she was sick."

"It was a lie, something to get you out of the clinic."

Disappointed, Skeet said, "I truly thought she was sick."

"You wouldn't really want her to be ill," Martie said.

"Not dying, necessarily. Cramps and puking would be enough."

The porch light came on.

"And bad diarrhea," Skeet amended.

Dusty had a sense of being studied through the fish-eye lens in the door. After a moment, the door opened. Standing on the threshold, Fig blinked behind  his thick spectacles. His gray eyes were made huge by the magnifying lenses,  brimming with the sorrow that never left them even when Fig laughed. "Hey." "Fig," Dusty said, "I'm sorry to bother you at home, and this late, but I didn't  know where else to go."

"Sure," Fig said, stepping back to let them in.

"Do you mind the dog?" Dusty asked.

Martie led Skeet up the steps. Valet and Dusty followed.

As Fig shut the door, Dusty said, "We've got big trouble, Fig. I might have gone  to Ned, but he'd probably strangle Skeet sooner or later, so I-"

"Sit?" Fig asked, leading them to a dinette table.

As the three of them accepted the invitation, pulling chairs up to the table,  and as the dog crawled under it, Martie said, "We might've gone to my mother,  too, but she would just-"

"Juice?" Fig asked.

"Juice?" Dusty echoed.

"Orange, prune, or grape," Fig elaborated.

"Do you have any coffee?" Dusty asked.

"Nope."

"Orange," Dusty decided. "Thanks."

"Grape would be nice," Martie said.

"You have any vanilla Yoo-hoo?" Skeet asked.

"Nope."

"Grape."

Fig went to the refrigerator in the adjoining kitchen.

On the radio, as Fig poured the juice, people were talking about "active and  inactive alien DNA grafted to the human genetic structure" and worrying about  "whether the purpose of current Earth colonization by aliens is enslavement of  the human race, elevation of the human race to a higher condition, or the simple  harvesting of human organs to make sweetbreads for extraterrestrial dinner  tables."

Martie raised her eyebrows as if to ask Dusty, is this going to work?

Surveying the trailer, nodding, smiling, Skeet said, "I like this place. It's  got a nice hum."

After Nurse Hernandez was sent home with a promise of a full night's pay for two  hours less work than she had been contracted to provide, after Nurse Ganguss was  repeatedly assured that there was nothing their movie-star patient required at  the moment, and after Nurse Woosten found a few new excuses to display the  gymnastic abilities of her sprightly pink tongue, Dr. Ahriman returned to his unfinished  business in room 246.

The actor was in bed, where he'd been told to wait, lying atop the covers in his  black bikini briefs. He stared at the ceiling with as much emotion as he had  brought to any of the roles in his string of colossal hit pictures. Sitting on the edge of the bed, the doctor said, "Tell me where you are now, not  physically but mentally."

"I'm in the chapel."

"Good."

During a previous visit, Ahriman had instructed the actor never again to use  heroin, cocaine, marijuana, or other illegal substances. Contrary to what the  doctor had told Nurses Ganguss and Woosten, this man was now effectively cured  of all drug addictions.

Neither compassion nor a sense of professional responsibility had motivated Dr.  Ahriman to free the patient from these destructive habits. Simply, this man was  more useful sober than stoned.

The movie star would soon be used in a dangerous game that would have enormous  historical consequences; therefore, when the time came for him to be put into  play, there must be no possibility that he'd be parked in a jail cell, awaiting  bail for narcotics possession. He must remain free and ready for his appointment  with destiny.

"You move in elite circles," said the doctor. "In particular, I'm thinking of an  event you're scheduled to attend ten days from now, Saturday night of next week.  Please describe the event to which I refer."

"It's a reception for the president," the actor said.

"The President of the United States."

In fact, the event was a major fund-raiser for the president's political party,  to be held at the Bel Air estate of a director who had earned more money,  garnered more Oscars, and risked contracting a sexually transmitted disease with  more would-be actresses than had even the late Josh Ahriman, King of Tears. Two  hundred of Hollywood's glitterati would pay twenty thousand dollars apiece for  the privilege of fawning over this ultimate politico as they themselves were  daily fawned over by everyone from famous talk-show hosts to riffraff in the  streets. For their money, they would get, alternately throughout the evening, both an ego rush so tremendous it induced spontaneous  orgasms and a deliciously perverse feeling that they were nothing more than  servile pop-culture scum in the presence of greatness.

"Nothing whatsoever will deter you from attending this party for the president,"  the doctor instructed.

"Nothing."

"Illness, injury, earthquakes, nubile teenage fans of either sex- neither those  distractions nor any others will prevent you from being on time for this event."

"I understand."

"I believe that the president is a particular fan of yours."

'Yes."

"On that evening, when you come face-to-face with the president, you'll use your  charm and manipulative skills to put him instantly at ease. Then, induce him to  lean especially close, as if you intend to impart an irresistible bit of gossip  about one of the most beautiful actresses present. When he is very close and  most vulnerable, you will seize his head in both hands and bite off his nose."

"I understand."

The trailer was indeed humming, as Skeet had noted, but Martie found the hum  more annoying than nice. In fact, an auditory tapestry of electronic buzzes and  purrs and sighs and tiny tweets wove through the air, some constant in tone and  volume, others intermittent, still others oscillating. All of these sounds were  quite soft, whispery, never shrill, and the combined effect was not dissimilar  to sitting in a meadow on a summer night, surrounded by cicadas and crickets and  other insect troubadours as they sang of bug romance. Maybe that was why the hum  made Martie itchy and gave her the feeling that things were crawling up her  legs.

Two walls of the living room, of which this dining area was an open extension,  were lined with floor-to-ceiling shelves holding computer monitors and ordinary  televisions, most aglow and streaming with pictures, numerical data, flow  charts, and abstract patterns of shifting forms and colors that made no sense to  Martie. Also on these shelves was a large quantity of mysterious equipment  featuring oscilloscopes, radar-display units, gauges, light-snake tracking graphs, and  digital readouts in six different colors.

When everyone had been served juice, Fig Newton sat at the table, too. Behind  him was a wall papered with star charts, Northern and Southern Hemisphere  skyscapes. He looked like a hillbilly cousin of Captain James Kirk, skippering a  bargain-basement version of the starship Enterprise.

The mascot of the space command, Valet, lapped water from a bowl the captain had  provided for him. Judging by his happy attitude, the dog was not bothered by the  trailer's hum.

Martie wondered if Fig's perpetually flushed face and cherry-bright nose  resulted from the radiation emitted by his collection of electronic gear, rather  than from exposure to the sun during his day job as a housepainter.

"So?" Fig asked.

Dusty said, "Manic and I have to go to Santa Fe, and we need-"

"To be energized?"

"What?"

"It's an energy locus," Fig said solemnly.

"What is? Santa Fe? What kind of energy locus?"

"Mystic."

"Really? Well, no, we're just going to talk to some people who might be  witnesses in . . . a criminal case. We need somewhere for Skeet to stay for a  couple days, where no one would think to look for him. If you could-"

"Gonna jump?" Fig asked Skeet.

"Jump where?"

"Off my roof."

"No offense," Skeet said, "but it's not high enough."

"Shoot yourself?"

"No, nothing like that," Skeet promised.

"Okay," Fig said, sipping his prune juice.

This had been easier than Martie expected. She said, "We know it's an  imposition, Fig, but could you make room for Valet, too?"

"The dog?"

"Yeah. He's really a sweetheart, doesn't bark, doesn't bite, and he's great  company if-"

"He dump?"

"What?"

"In the house?" Fig asked.

"Oh, no, never."

"Okay."

Martie locked eyes with Dusty, and apparently his conscience was as guilty as  hers, because he said, "Fig, I've got to be really straight with you. I think  there's going to be someone looking for Skeet, maybe more than one someone. I  don't believe they're likely to show up here, but if they do.. . they're  dangerous."

"Drugs?" Fig asked.

"No. It has nothing to do with that. It's..

When Dusty hesitated, struggling to capsulize their bizarre plight in words that  wouldn't strain Fig's credulity to the breaking point, Martie took over: "Crazy  as this might sound, we're caught up in some mind-control experiment,  brainwashing, a conspiracy of some-"

"Aliens?" Fig asked.

"No, no. We-"

"Cross-dimensional beings?"

"No. This is-"

"Government?"

"Maybe," Martie said.

"American Psychological Association?"

Martie was speechless, and Dusty said, "Where'd you come up with that one?"

"Only five possible suspects," Fig said.

"Who's the fifth?"

Leaning over the table, his pink pie-round face as close to an expression of  solemnity as it could ever get, limpid gray eyes flooded with the sorrow over  the human condition that was always with him, Fig said, "Bill Gates."

"Good juice," Skeet said.

The naked actor. Frivolous man of movies. Fame and infamy. Dreadful. If beautiful women did not easily inspire the doctor to reach the  heights of poetic composition, this thespian with his surgically sculpted nose  and collagen-enhanced lips was not likely to be the subject of immortal haiku. Rising from the edge of the bed, staring down into the placid face and the jiggling eyes, Ahriman said, "You will not chew the nose once you have  bitten it off. You will at once spit it out in such a condition that it can be  reattached by a team of first-rate surgeons. The intention here is not  assassination and not permanent disfigurement. There are some people who wish to  send the president a message-a warning, if you will-that he cannot ignore. You  are simply the messenger. Tell me whether or not this is clear to you."

"It's clear."

"Repeat my instructions."

The actor repeated the instructions word for word, far more faithfully than he  ever delivered the lines from one of his scripts.

"Although you will do no additional harm whatsoever to the president, all other  attendees at this event will be fair game in your attempt to escape."

"I understand."

"The shock of the assault will give you a chance to slip out of arm's reach of  Secret Service agents before they react."

"Yes."

"But they will be on your heels in an instant. After that, do what you must. . .  though you will not be taken alive. You may want to think of yourself as Indiana  Jones surrounded by Nazi thugs and their evil minions. Be inventive in creating  mayhem, using ordinary objects as weapons, swashbuckling your way through the  house until you're shot down."

This nice bit of work with the actor was a contract job, which the doctor was  obligated to accept from time to time. This was the price he paid to be  permitted to employ his control techniques for personal entertainment, with  little or no fear of imprisonment in the event that any of his games went awry. If this had been one of his private amusements, the scenario would not have been  this simple. In spite of the lack of complexity, however, this little game had a  high fun factor.

After programming the actor to have no accessible memory of what transpired  between them here this evening, Ahriman led him into the living room of the  suite.

Originally, the doctor had intended to spend at least an hour dictating  semicoherent psychotic rants while the actor entered them into his personal,  handwritten journal as if they were his own dark fantasies. They had done this  during a few previous sessions, and almost two hundred pages of feverish  paranoid terror, bitter hatred, and doomsday prophecies-virtually all related to the President of the United  States-filled the first half of the journal. The actor would remember writing  none of this and would open the journal only when instructed to do so by his  psychiatrist; however, following the assault on the presidential nose, once the  prep had been gunned down, the authorities would discover this heinous document  buried under the collection of souvenir panties that the movie star had talked  off the legions of women whom he had seduced.

Now, troubled by the Rhodeses' commando-style removal of Skeet from the clinic,  Ahriman chose to skip dictation this time. The existing two hundred pages would  be sufficiently convincing both to FBI agents and the nation's tabloid readers. Taking direction well, the actor rolled back into a headstand against the  living-room wall opposite the television, as nimble as an adolescent gymnast  twenty years his junior.

"Begin counting," Ahriman said.

When the actor reached ten, he returned from the mind chapel to full  consciousness. As far as he was aware, his psychiatrist had just now entered the  room.

"Mark? What're you doing here at this hour?"

"I was in the building for another patient. What're you doing?"

"I spend about an hour a day in this position. Good for brain circulation."

"The results are obvious."

"They are, huh?" the movie star beamed, upside down.

Counseling himself to have patience, the doctor engaged in ten minutes of  excruciatingly boring conversation regarding the huge box-office receipts  pouring in from the actor's current megahit, giving the subject something to  remember from this visit. When finally he left Room 246, he knew far more than  he cared to know about typical attendance patterns at mall theaters in the  greater Chicago area.

The famous actor. He bites democracy's nose. And the millions cheer. Not great but much better. Work on that one.

With January wind blustering outside and fields of electronic crickets humming  inside, Dusty activated Skeet with the name Dr. Yen Lo.

The kid sat up a little straighter at the table, his pale face becoming so  expressionless that Dusty only now realized how subtly anguished it had been  before. This observation sharpened the ever-present sorrow that he felt over the  fact that his brother had been robbed, so young, of a full and purposeful life. When they went through the haiku and Skeet's three responses, Fig Newton said,  "Exactly," as if he knew about such psychological control mechanisms.

Minutes ago, in a hurried consultation in Fig's library-a small bedroom filled  with books about UFOs, alien abductions, spontaneous human combustion,  cross-dimensional beings, and the Bermuda Triangle-Dusty had outlined for Manic  the effects he hoped to achieve with Skeet. What he proposed seemed fraught with  risk to Skeet's already fragile psychological condition, and he worried that he  would do more damage than good. To his surprise, Manic at once embraced his  plan. He trusted her common sense more than he trusted the sun to rise in the  east, so with her endorsement, he was prepared to take the awful responsibility  for the consequences of his plan.

Now, with Skeet accessed and his eyes jiggling as they had jiggled at New Life  Clinic, Dusty said, "Tell me if you can hear my voice, Skeet."

"I can hear your voice."

"Skeet. . . when I give you instructions, will you obey them?"

"Will I obey them?"

Reminding himself of everything he had learned in their previous session at the  clinic, Dusty rephrased the question as a statement:

"Skeet, you will obey all instructions that I give you. Confirm or deny that  this is true."

"I confirm."

"I am Dr. Yen Lo, Skeet."

"Yes."

"And I am the clear cascades."

"Yes."

"In the past, I have given you many instructions."

"The blue pine needles," Skeet said.

"That's right. Now, Skeet, in a little while, I am going to snap my fingers.  When that happens, you will fall into a restful sleep. Confirm or deny that you  understand me so far."

"Confirm."

"And then I will snap my fingers a second time. On that second snap of my  fingers, you will wake up, will become entirely conscious, but you will also  forget forever all of my previous instructions to you. My control over you will  come to an end. I-Dr. Yen Lo, the clear cascades-will never again be able to  access you. Skeet, tell me whether or not you understand what I've said."

"I understand."

Dusty sought Martie's reassurance.

She nodded.

Not privy to their plan, Fig leaned forward over the table, rapt, his prune  juice forgotten.

"Although you will forget all my previous instructions, Skeet, you will remember  every word of what I am going to tell you now, and you will believe it, and you  will act upon it for the rest of your life. Tell me whether you do or do not  understand what I've just said."

"I do."

"Skeet, you will never again use illegal drugs. You will have no desire to use  them. The only drugs you will use are those that may be prescribed for you by  physicians in time of illness."

"I understand."

"Skeet, from this moment forward, you will understand that you are basically a  good man, no more or less flawed than other people. The negative things your  father has said about you over all these years, the judgments your mother has  passed on you, the criticisms that Derek Lampton has leveled against you-none of  those things will affect you, hurt you, or limit you ever again."

"I understand."

Across the table, tears shone in Martie's eyes.

Dusty had to pause and take a deep breath before continuing. "Skeet, you will  look back into your childhood and find that time when you believed in the  future, when you were full of dreams and hopes. You will believe in the future  again. You will believe in yourself. You will have hope, Skeet, and you will  never, never again lose hope."

"I understand."

Skeet staring into infinity. Fig riveted. Good Valet watching somberly. Martie  blotting her eyes on the sleeve of her blouse.

Dusty put thumb to middle finger.

Hesitated. Thinking of all the things that might go wrong, and wondering about  the unintended consequences of good intentions.

Snap.

Skeet's eyes slipped shut, and he slumped in his chair, sound asleep. His chin  came to rest on his chest.

Overwhelmed by the responsibility that he'd just assumed, Dusty got up from the  table, stood indecisively for a moment, and then went into the kitchen. At the  sink, he twisted the COLD faucet, cupped his hands under the flow, and  repeatedly splashed his face with water.

Martie came to him. "It'll be all right, baby."

The water might have concealed his tears, but he couldn't hide the emotion that  wrenched his voice. "What if somehow I've screwed him up worse than he was?"

"You haven't," she said with conviction.

He shook his head. "You can't know. The mind is so delicate. One of the big  things wrong with this world is.. . so many people want to screw with other  people's minds, and they cause so much damage. So much damage. You can't know  about this, neither of us can."

"I can know," she insisted gently, putting one hand to his damp face. "Because  what you just did in there was done out of pure love, pure perfect love for your  brother, and nothing bad can ever come of that."

"Yeah. And the road to Hell is paved with good intentions."

"So is the road to Heaven, don't you think?"

Shuddering, swallowing a hard lump in his throat, he put an even deeper fear  into words: "I'm afraid of what might happen if it works.. . but even more  afraid that it won't work. How crazy is that? What if I snap my fingers, and who  wakes up is the old Skeet, still full of self-loathing, still confused, still  the poor sweet feeb? This is his last chance, and I want so much to believe it's  going to work, but what if I snap my fingers, and it turns out his last chance  was no chance at all? What then, Martie?"

The strength in her voice lifted him, as always she lifted him: "Then at least you tried."

Dusty looked toward the dining area, at the back of Skeet's head, his hair  rumpled and uncombed. The scrawny neck, the frail shoulders.

"Come on," Martie said softly. "Give him a new life."

Dusty turned off the running water.

He tore a few paper towels from a roll and blotted his face.

He wadded the towels and dropped them in the trash can.

He rubbed his hands together, as if he might be able to massage the tremors out  of them.

Clickety-click, claws on linoleum: Inquisitive Valet padded into the kitchen.  Dusty stroked the dog's golden head.

Finally he followed Martie back to the dinette table, and they sat once more with  Fig and Skeet.

Thumb to middle finger again.

Come the magic now, good or bad, hope or despair, joy or misery, meaning or  emptiness, life or death: snap.

Skeet opened his eyes, raised his head, sat up straighter in his chair, looked  around at those assembled, and said, "Well, when do we start?"

He had no memory of the session.

"Typical," Fig pronounced, nodding his head vigorously.

"Skeet?" Dusty said.

The kid turned to him.

Taking a deep breath, then speaking the name as an exhalation, Dusty said, "Dr.  Yen Lo."

Skeet cocked his head. "Huh?"

"Dr. Yen Lo."

Martie gave it a try: "Dr. Yen Lo."

And then Fig: "Dr. Yen Lo."

Skeet surveyed the expectant faces around him, including that of the dog, who  had stood up with his forepaws on the table. "What is this, a riddle, a quiz or  something? Was this Lo some guy in history? I was never any good at history."

"Well," said Fig.

"Clear cascades," Dusty said.

Baffled, Skeet said, "Sounds like a dish-washing soap."

At least the first part of the plan had worked. Skeet was no longer programmed,  no longer controllable.

Only the passage of time would prove, however, whether or not Dusty's second  goal had also been achieved: Skeet's liberation from his tortured past. Dusty pushed back his chair and rose to his feet. To Skeet, he said, "Get up."

"Huh?"

"Come on, bro, get up."

Letting the clinic blanket slip off his shoulders, the kid rose from the chair.  He looked like a stick-and-straw scarecrow wearing a fat man's pajamas. Dusty put his arms around his brother and held him very tight, very tight, and  when at last he could speak, he said, "Before we go, I'll give you some money  for vanilla Yoo-hoo, okay?"

62

The wheel of luck was turning. Two seats on United, out of John Wayne  International Airport, to Santa Fe by way of Denver, were available on an  early-morning flight. Using a credit card, Dusty secured the tickets from the  phone in Fig Newton's kitchen.

"Gun?" Fig asked, a few minutes later, as Dusty and Martie were at the front  door, preparing to leave brother and dog in his care.

"What about it?" Dusty asked.

"Need one?"

"No."

"Think you will," Fig disagreed.

"Please tell me you don't have an arsenal big enough to start a war," Martie  said, clearly wondering if Foster Newton was something more troubling than a  mere eccentric.

"Don't," Fig assured her.

"Anyway, I've got this," Dusty said, drawing the customized .45 Colt Commander  from his jacket.

"Flying, aren't you?" Fig said.

"I'm not going to try to carry it on the plane. I'll pack it in one of our  suitcases."

"Might get random scanned," Fig warned.

"Even if the baggage isn't carry-on?"

"Lately, yeah."

"Even on short-haul flights?"

"Even," Fig insisted.

"It's all these terrorist events recently. Everyone's nervous, and the FAA's  issued some new crisis rules," Skeet explained.

Dusty and Martie regarded him with no less astonishment than they would have  shown if he had suddenly opened a third eye in the center of his forehead.

Subscribing to the philosophical contention that reality sucks, Skeet never read  a newspaper, never tuned in to television or radio news.

Recognizing the source of their amazement, Skeet shrugged and said, "Well,  anyway, that's what I overheard one dealer telling another."

"Dealer?" Martie asked. "Like in drug dealer?"

"Not blackjack. I don't gamble."

"Drug dealers sit around talking current events?"

"I think this impacted their courier business. They were ticked off about it."

To Fig, Dusty said, "So how random is random scanning? One bag in ten? One in  five?"

"Maybe some flights, five percent."

"Well, then-"

"Maybe others, a hundred percent."

Looking at the pistol in his hand, Dusty said, "It's a legal gun- but I don't  have a permit to carry."

"And crossing state lines," Fig warned.

"Even worse, huh?"

"Not better." Winking one owlish eye, he added: "But I have something."

Fig disappeared into back rooms of the trailer but returned only a minute later,  carrying a box. From the box, he extracted a gleaming toy truck. With a swipe of  one hand, he spun the wheels. "Vrooooom! Transport."

From black sky, black wind. Black, the windows of the house. Does wind live  within?

On the back porch of the Rhodeses' miniature Victorian, which Ahriman found too precious for his taste, he hesitated at the door, listening to  the maraca rhythms of the shaken trees in the night, and to the black-wind haiku  in his mind, pleased with himself.

When he'd first come here to conduct programming sessions with Dusty, a couple  months ago, he had acquired one of the Rhodeses' spare house keys, just as he  had kept a key to Susan's apartment. Now he stepped inside and quietly closed  the door behind him.

If the wind lived here, it wasn't home. This blackness was warm and still. No  one else was in residence, either, not even the golden retriever. Accustomed to a royal right of passage in the homes of those whom he ruled, he  boldly switched on the kitchen lights.

He didn't know what he was looking for, but he was confident that he would  recognize it when he saw it.

Almost at once, a discovery. A padded mailing envelope, torn open, discarded on  the dinette table. His attention was snared by the return address on the label:  Dr. Roy Closterman.

Because of Ahriman's spectacular success both in his practice and with his  books, because he had inherited considerable wealth and was a figure of envy,  because he did not suffer fools well, because he was more disposed to feel  contempt rather than admiration for others in the healing community, whose  self-congratulatory codes of ethics and dogmatic views he found suffocating, and  for a number of other reasons, he made few friends but more than a few enemies  among fellow physicians in every specialty. Consequently, he would have been  surprised if the Rhodeses' internist had not been one of those harboring a  negative opinion of him. That they were patients of the self-beatified Saint  Closterman, therefore, was only marginally more troublesome than if they had  consulted one of the other doctors to whom Ahriman disdainfully referred as  pokers-and-prodders.

What concerned him was a handwritten message that lay with the torn envelope.  The note was on Closterman's stationary, signed by him.

My receptionist passes your place on her way home, so I've asked her to drop  this off I thought you might find Dr. Abriman's latest book of interest. Perhaps  you've never read him.

Here was another wild card.

Dr. Ahriman folded the note and pocketed it.

The volume to which Closterman referred was not here. If it was truly the  latest, then it must have been a hardcover copy of Learn to Love Yourself The doctor was pleased to know that even his enemies contributed to his book  royalties.

Nevertheless, when this crisis had been resolved, Ahriman would have to turn his  attention to Saint Closterman. Some balance could be restored to the boyfriend's  head by clipping from it the remaining ear. From Closterman himself, perhaps the  middle finger of the right hand could be removed, reducing his capacity to make  vulgar gestures; a saint should not object to being relieved of a digit that had  such obscene potential.

The fire truck-five inches wide, five inches high, and twelve inches long-was  constructed of pressed metal. Nicely detailed, hand-painted, made in Holland by  craftsmen with pride and flair, it would charm any child.

Sitting at the dining table, as his guests gathered around to watch, Fig used a  tiny screwdriver with a quarter-inch head to remove eight brass screws,  detaching the body of the truck from the base frame and wheels.

Inside the truck was a small felt bag of the type used to pack a pair of shoes  in a suitcase to prevent rubbing.

"Gun," Fig said.

Dusty gave the .45 Colt to him.

Fig wrapped the compact pistol in the shoe bag so it wouldn't rattle, and he  placed the bag inside the hollow body of the fire truck. If the weapon had been  much larger, they would have needed a bigger truck.

"Spare magazine?" Fig asked.

"I don't have one," Dusty said.

"Should."

"Don't." Fig reattached the body of the truck to the base, taped the little screwdriver  to the underside, and handed it to Dusty. "Let 'em scan."

"Lay it on its side in a suitcase, and it makes a recognizable toytruck  silhouette on an X ray," Martie said admiringly.

"There you go," Fig said.

"They wouldn't make anyone open a bag to inspect anything like that."

"Nope."

"We could probably even take this in a carry-on," Dusty said.

"Better."

"Better?" Martie said. "Well, yeah, because sometimes airlines lose the luggage  you don't carry."

Fig nodded. "Exactly."

"You ever use this yourself?" Skeet asked.

"Never," said Fig.

"Then why do you have it?"

"Just in case."

Turning the fire truck over in his hands, Dusty said, "You're a strange man,  Foster Newton."

"Thanks," said Fig. "Kevlar body armor?"

"Huh?"

"Keviar. Bulletproof."

"Bulletproof vests?" Dusty said.

"Got 'em?"

"No."

"Want 'em?"

"You have body armor?" Martie marveled.

"Sure."

Skeet said, "You ever needed it, Fig?"

"Not yet," said Fig.

Martie shook her head. "Next you'll be offering us an alien death-ray pistol."

"Don't have one," Fig said with evident disappointment.

"We'll skip the body armor," Dusty said. "They might notice how bulked up we  look going through airport security."

"Might," Fig agreed, taking him seriously.

The doctor found nothing more to engage him downstairs. Though he had a lively  interest in the arts and interior design, he didn't pause to admire even one  painting, article of furniture, or objet d'art. The decor left him cold. In the bedroom were signs of a hasty departure. Two dresser drawers weren't  closed. A closet door stood open. A sweater lay discarded on the floor. On a closer inspection of the closet, he saw two matched pieces of luggage  stored overhead on a shelf. Beside those two was an empty space where two  smaller bags might have been shelved.

Another bedroom and bath provided no clues, and then he came to Martie's office. Busy blue-eyed girl. Busy making Hobbit games. Death waits in Mordor.

Across her large U-shaped work area were stacked books, maps of fantasy lands,  sketches of characters, and other materials related to her project based on The  Lord of the Rings. Ahriman took more time examining these items than was  warranted, indulging his enthusiasm for anything to do with games.

As he pored through the computer-assisted designs for Hobbits and Ores and other  creatures, the doctor realized one reason why he was able to compose routinely  better haiku about Martie than he'd been able to write when Susan and other  women were his inspiration. He and Martie shared this gaming interest. She liked  the power of being the game master, as did he. At least this one aspect of her  mind resonated in sympathy with his.

He wondered if, in time, he might discover other attitudes and passions they  shared. Once they were past the current regrettable ferment in their  relationship, how ironic it would be to learn that they were fated to have a  more complex future together than he had ever envisioned, distracted as he had  been by Susan's exceptional beauty and by Martie's family connections. The sweet sentimentalist in Ahriman delighted at the thought of falling in love  or at least in something like it. Although his life was full and his habits long  established, he would not be averse to the complication of romance.

Proceeding from desktop to desk drawers, he felt now less like a detective than  like a naughty lover leafing through his darling's diary in search of the most  guarded secrets of her heart.

In a bank of three drawers, he found nothing to interest either a detective or a  lover. In the wide but shallow center drawer, however, among rulers and pencils  and erasers and the like, he came upon a microcassette on which SUSAN had been  printed in red letters.

He felt what a gifted Gypsy might feel when tipping a mess of tea leaves on a  plate and glimpsing a particularly ominous fate in the soggy patterns: a chill  that turned the pia mater of his spine into a membrane of ice.

He searched the remaining drawers for a tape recorder that would accept the  microcassette. Martie didn't have one.

When he saw the answering machine on one corner of the desk, he realized what he  held in his hand.

The aluminum awning, vibrating in the wind, had the guttural growl of a living  beast, as though in the night something hungry waited for Dusty to open the  trailer door.

"If the weather forecasts can be believed, the rest of the week is going to be a  mess," he told Fig. "Don't even try to go out to the Sorenson job. Just look  after Skeet and Valet for me."

"Till when?" Fig asked.

"I don't know. Depends on what we find out there. Probably be back the day after  tomorrow, Friday. But maybe Saturday."

"We'll keep ourselves entertained," Fig promised.

"We'll play some cards," Skeet said.

"And monitor shortwave frequencies for alien code bursts," Fig said, in what was  for him the equivalent of an oration.

"Listen to talk radio, I bet," Skeet predicted.

"Hey," Fig said to Skeet, "you want to blow up a courthouse?"

Martie said, "Whoa."

"Joke," said Fig, with an owlish wink.

"Bad one," she advised.

Outside, as Dusty and Martie descended the steps and crossed the small porch,  the wind tore at them, and all the way to the car, large dead-brown magnolia  leaves scuttled like rats at their feet.

Behind them, out of the open door of the trailer came a piercing and pathetic  whine from Valet, as though canine precognition told him that he would never see  them again.

The indicator window on the answering machine showed two waiting messages. Dr.  Ahriman decided to listen to these before reviewing the cassette labeled SUSAN. The first call was from Martie's mother. She sounded frantic to find out what  was wrong, to learn why her previous calls had not been returned.

The second voice on the tape was that of a woman who identified herself as an  airline ticket agent. "Mr Rhodes, I neglected to ask for the expiration date on  your credit card. If you get this message, would you please call me back with  the information? She provided an 800 number. "But if I don't hear from you, your  two tickets to Santa Fe will still be waiting for you in the morning." Dr. Ahriman marveled at their having focused so quickly on the central  importance of his New Mexico days. Martie and Dusty seemed to be supernatural  adversaries. . . until he realized that the Santa Fe connection must have been  made for them by Saint Clostennan.

Nevertheless, the doctor's slow and steady pulse, which even during the  commission of murder was seldom elevated by more than ten beats per minute,  accelerated upon the receipt of this news regarding the Rhodeses' travel plans. With an athlete's intimate awareness of his body, ever sensitive to the  maintenance of good health, the doctor sat down again, took several deep  breaths, and then consulted his wristwatch to time his pulse. Usually, when he  was seated, his rate ranged between sixty and sixty-two beats per minute,  because he was in exceptional condition. Now, he counted seventy, a full  eight-point elevation, and with no dead woman handy to credit for it.

In the car, as Dusty went in search of a hotel near the airport, Martie at last  phoned her mother.

Sabrina was distraught and in full fluster. For minutes, she refused to believe  that Martie was not injured or maimed, that she was not the victim of a traffic  accident, a drive-by shooting, fire, lightning, a disgruntled postal employee,  or that horrid flesh-eating bacteria that was in the news again.

As she listened to this rant, Martie was filled with a special tenderness that  only her mother could evoke.

Sabrina loved her sole child with a crazy intensity that would have made Martie  a hopeless neurotic by the age of eleven, if she had not been so determinedly independent almost from the day that she took her first  steps. But this world harbored worse things than crazy love. Crazy hate. Oh,  lots of that. And just plain crazy, in abundance.

Sabrina loved Smilin' Bob no less than she loved her daughter. The loss of him,  when he was only fifty-three, had made her more protective of Martie than ever.  The probability of her husband and her daughter both dying young, of separate  causes, might be as low as the chances of the earth being destroyed by an  asteroid impact before morning, but cold statistics and insurance-company  actuarial tables offered no consolation to a wounded and wary heart.

Martie, therefore, wasn't going to say a word to her mother about mind control,  haiku, the Leaf Man, the priest with the spike through his head, severed ears,  or the trip to Santa Fe. Given this overload of weird news, Sabrina's anxiety  would explode into hysteria.

She wasn't going to tell her mother about Susan Jagger, either, partly because  she didn't trust herself to talk about the loss of her friend without breaking  down, but also because Sabrina had loved Susan almost like a daughter. This was  news that she had to deliver in person, holding her mother's hand, both to give  emotional support and to receive it.

To explain her failure to return her mother's calls on a timely basis, Martie  told her all about Skeet's attempted suicide and his voluntary commitment to New  Life Clinic. Of course, these events had all occurred the previous morning,  Tuesday, which didn't explain Martie's behavior on Wednesday, but she fudged the  story to make it sound as if Skeet had taken the plunge from the Sorensons' roof  one day and entered the clinic the next, implying two days of turmoil.

Sabrina's reaction was only partly what Martie had expected- and surprisingly  emotional. She didn't know Skeet all that well; and she had never expressed a  desire to know him better. To Martie's mother, poor Skeet was no less dangerous  than any machine-gun-toting member of Columbia's Medellin drug cartel, a violent  and evil figure who wanted to pin down children on school playgrounds and  forcibly inject heroin into their veins. Yet here, now, tears and sobs, worried  questions about his injuries, his prospects, and more tears.

"This is what I've been afraid of, this is what eats at me all the time,"  Sabrina said. "I knew this was coming, it was bound to happen, and now here it  is, and the next time it might not turn out so well. The next time Dusty might go off the roof, break his neck and be paralyzed  for life, or die. And then what? I begged you not to marry a housepainter, to  find a man with more ambition, someone who will have a nice office, who will sit  at a desk, who won't fall off roofs all the time, won't even have a chance to  fall off roofs."

"Mom-"

"I lived with this worry all my life, with your father. Your father and fire.  Always fire and burning buildings and things blowing up and things maybe  collapsing on him. All my married life I dreaded him going to work, panicked  when I heard a fire siren, couldn't look at the news on TV because when they  showed some breaking news story about a big fire, I'd think maybe he was there.  And he was hurt, time and again. And maybe his cancer had something to do with  breathing so much smoke at fires. All those toxins in the air at a big fire. And  now you've got a husband with roofs like I had one with fires. Roofs and  ladders, always falling, and you'll never know any peace."

This worried, heartfelt speech left Martie stunned and wordless.

On the other end of the line, Sabrina was crying.

Apparently sensing a mother-daughter moment of unusual import and assuming that  it must have negative consequences for him, Dusty glanced away from the traffic  ahead and whispered, "Now what?"

Finally Martie said, "Mom, you've never said a word about this before. You-" "A fireman's wife doesn't talk about it, doesn't nag him about it or worry  aloud," Sabrina said. "Never, not ever, my God, because if you talk about it,  that's when it happens. A fireman's wife has to be strong, has to be positive,  has to give him support, swallow her fear, and smile. But it's always in her  heart, this dread, and now you go and marry a man who's on ladders all the time  and running around roofs and falling off, when you could have found someone who  worked at a desk and couldn't fall off worse than a chair."

"The thing is, I love him, Mom."

"I know you do, dear," her mother sobbed. "It's just terrible."

"This is why you've been on my case about Dusty since forever?"

"I haven't been on your case, dear. I've been on your team."

"It felt like my case. Mom.. . can I infer from this you might actually sort of,  kind of, at least a little bit like Dusty?"

Dusty was so startled to hear this question that his hands slipped on the  steering wheel and the Saturn almost swerved out of its lane in traffic.

"He's a sweet boy," Sabrina said, as if Martie were still in junior high and  dating adolescents. "He's very sweet and smart and polite, and I know why you  love him. But he's going to fall off a roof and kill himself one day, and that's  going to ruin your whole life. You'll never get over it. Your heart will die  with him."

"Why didn't you just say this long ago, instead of all the sniping about  everything he did?"

"I wasn't sniping, dear. I was trying to express my concern. I couldn't talk  about him falling off a roof, not directly. Never, my God, when you talk about  it, that's when it happens. And here we are, talking about it! Now he's going to  fall off a roof, and it'll be my fault."

"Mom, that's irrational. It won't happen."

"It's already happened," Sabrina said. "And now it'll happen again. Firemen and  fires. Painters and roofs."

Holding the phone between herself and Dusty, so that her mother could hear both  of them, Martie said, "How many house-painters have you known, people who work  for you, others in the trade who haven't?"

"Fifty? Sixty? I don't know. At least that."

"And how many have fallen off roofs?"

"Aside from me and Skeet?"

"Aside from you and Skeet."

"One that I know of. He broke a leg."

Putting the phone to her ear again, Martie said, "You hear that, Mom? One. Broke  his leg."

"One that he knows of" Sabrina said. "One, and now he's next."

"He already fell off a roof. Chances of any one painter falling off a roof twice  in his lifetime must be millions to one."

"His first fall didn't count," Sabrina said. "He was trying to save his brother.  It wasn't an accident. The accident is still waiting to happen."

"Mom, I love you tons, but you're a little nuts."

"I know, dear. All those years of worrying. And you're going to end up a little  nuts, too."

"We'll be busy the next couple days, Mom. Don't pass a kidney stone if I fail to return one of your calls right away, okay? We're not going to  fall off any roofs."

"Let me talk to Dusty."

Martie passed the phone to him.

He looked wary, but he accepted it. "Hi, Sabrina. Yeah. Well, you know. Uh-huh.  Sure. No, I won't. No, I won't. No, I promise I won't. That's true, isn't it?  Huh? Oh, no, I never did take it seriously. Don't beat up on yourself. Well, I  love you too, Sabrina. Huh? Sure. Mom. I love you, too, Mom."

He passed the phone back to Martie, and she pressed end.

They were both silent, and then Martie said, "Who would have thought-a  mother-and-child reunion in the midst of all this crap."

Funny, how hope raises its lovely head when least expected, a flower in a  wasteland.

Dusty said, "You lied to her, babe."

She knew he wasn't referring to her reconstruction of the time frame of Skeet's  leap and hospitalization, nor to her leaving out the news about Susan and the  rest of the mess they were in.

Nodding, she said, "Yeah, I told her we weren't going to fall off any roofs-and,  hell, every one of us falls off a roof sooner or later."

"Unless we're going to be the first to live forever."

"If we are, then we'd better get a whole lot more serious about our retirement  fund."

Martie was terrified of losing him. Like her mother, she could not bring herself  to put the fear into words, lest what she dreaded would come to pass.

New Mexico was the state where the high plains met the Rockies, the roof of the  American Southwest, and Santa Fe was a city built at a high altitude, nearly one  and a half miles above sea level: a long way to fall.

On the answering-machine microcassette labeled SUSAN, only one of the five  messages was important, but listening to it, the doctor felt his heartbeat  accelerate once more.

Another wild card.

When he had reviewed the two messages from Martie's mother that followed Susan's  bombshell, he erased the tape.

Once it was erased, he took the cassette out of the machine, dropped it on the  floor, and stomped it underfoot until the plastic casing was well crushed. From the ruins, he extracted the narrow magnetic tape and the two tiny hubs  around which it was spooled. They didn't even fill the palm of his hand: so much  danger compressed into such a small object.

Downstairs, in the living room, Ahriman opened the damper in the fireplace flue.  He placed the tape and two plastic hubs atop one of the ceramic logs. From his suit coat, he withdrew a slim Cartier cigarette lighter of elegant  design and superb craftsmanship.

He had carried a lighter since he was eleven years old, first one that he had  stolen from his father and then, later, this better model. The doctor didn't  smoke, but there was always the possibility that he would want to set something  on fire.

When he was thirteen, already in his first year of college, he had torched his  mother. If he hadn't been carrying a lighter in his pocket when the need of one  arose, his life might have changed much for the worse on that grim day  thirty-five years ago.

Although his mother was supposed to be skiing-this was at their vacation house  in Vail, during the Christmas holiday-she walked in on him while he was  preparing a cat for live dissection. He had only just anesthetized the cat,  using chloroform that he concocted from common household cleaning fluids, had  used strapping tape to secure its paws to the plastic tarp that would serve as  an autopsy table, had taped its mouth shut to muffle its cries when it woke, and  had laid out the set of surgical tools he had acquired from the medical-supply  company that offered a discount to premed students at the university. Then. . .  hello, Mom. Often he didn't see her for months at a time, when she was on  location with a film, or when she went on one of the gunless safaris she so  enjoyed, but now suddenly she felt guilty about leaving him alone while she went  skiing with her girl pals, and she decided they needed to spend an afternoon in  some damn bonding activity or another. What lousy timing.

He could see that his mother knew at once what had happened to his cousin  Heather's puppy at Thanksgiving, and perhaps she intuited the truth behind the  disappearance of the four-year-old son of their estate manager a year previous.  His mother was self-involved,

the typical thirty-something actress who framed her magazine covers and  decorated her bedroom with them, but she was not stupid.

As quick-thinking as always, young Ahriman plucked the stopper from the  chloroform bottle and splashed her photogenic face with the contents. This gave  him time to free the cat, put away the tarp and surgical kit, extinguish the  pilot lights in the kitchen range, turn the gas on, set his mother ablaze while  she still lay unconscious, grab the cat, and run for it.

The explosion rocked Vail and echoed like thunder through the snowy mountains,  triggering a few avalanches too minor to have any entertainment value. The  ten-room redwood chalet, shattered into kindling, burned furiously. When firemen found young Ahriman sitting in the snow a hundred feet from the  pyre, clutching the cat that he had saved from the blast, the boy was in such a  state of shock that at first he could not speak and was even too dazed to cry.  "I saved the cat," he told them eventually, in a stricken voice that haunted  them for years after, "but I couldn't save my mom. I couldn't save my mom." Later, they identified his mother's body with the help of dental records. The  small mound of remains, once cremated, didn't even half fill the memorial jar.  (He knew; he looked.) Her graveside service was attended by the royalty of  Hollywood, and that noisy honor guard of celebrity funerals-press  helicopters-circled overhead.

He had missed seeing new movies starring his mother, because she'd been smart  about scripts and usually made only good pictures, but he had not missed his  mother herself, as he knew she would not have much missed him, had their fates  been reversed. She loved animals and was a staunch champion of all the causes  related to them; children just didn't resonate with her as deeply as did  anything with four feet. On the big screen, she could stir your heart, plunge it  into despair or fill it with joy; this talent didn't extend to real life. Two terrible fires, fifteen years apart, had made an orphan of the doctor (if  you didn't know about the poisoned petits fours): the first a freak accident,  for which the manufacturer of the gas range paid dearly, the second set by the  drunken, lust-crazed, homicidal handyman, Earl Ventnor, who had finally died in  prison two years ago, stabbed by another inmate during a brawl.

Now, as Ahriman thumbed the striker wheel on the old flint-style lighter and  ignited the answering-machine tape in the fireplace, he meditated upon the fact that fire had played such a central role in both his  life and Martie's, her father having been the most-decorated fireman in the  history of the state. Here was yet another thing they shared.

Sad. After these latest developments, he would probably not be able to allow  their relationship to evolve. He had so looked forward to the possibility that  he and this lovely, game-loving woman might one day be something special to each  other.

If he could locate her and her husband, he could activate them, take them down  to their mind chapels, and find out what else they had learned about him, whom  they might have told. More likely than not, the damage could be undone, the game  resumed and played to its end.

He had their cell-phone number but they knew he had it, and they were unlikely  to answer it in their current paranoid state of mind. And he could activate only  one at a time by phone, thereby immediately alerting the one who was listening.  Too risky.

Finding them was the trick. They were running, alert and wary, and they would  stay well hidden until they boarded the flight to New Mexico in the morning. Approaching them in the airport, at the boarding gate, was out of the question.  Even if they didn't flee, he couldn't activate, quiz, and instruct them in  public.

Once in New Mexico, they were as good as dead.

When the audiotape began to burn, issuing a noxious stink, the doctor switched  on the fireplace gas. Whoosh, and in two minutes, nothing was left of the tape  but a sticky residue on the topmost of the ceramic logs.

He was in a mood, the doctor, and sadness was not the greater component of his  mood.

All the fun had gone out of this game. He had put so much effort into it, so  much strategy, but now it would most likely not be played out above the beaches  of Malibu, as he had planned.

He wanted to burn down this house.

Spite was not his sole motivation, nor was his distaste for the decor. Without  spending the better part of a day searching the place inch by inch, he couldn't  be sure that the microcassette with Susan's accusations was the only evidence  against him that Martie and Dusty had accumulated. He didn't have a day to waste, and burning the house to the  ground was the surest way to protect himself.

Granted, Susan's message on the tape was insufficient to convict him, not even  damning enough to get him indicted. He was, however, a man who never made  bargains with the god of chance.

Torching the house himself was far too risky. Once the fire was set, someone  might see him leaving-and be able to identify him one day in court. He shut off the fireplace gas.

Room by room, as he left the house, he extinguished the lights. On the back porch, he slipped his spare key under the doormat, where the next  visitor would be instructed to look for it.

Before morning, he would torch the house, but by proxy rather than with his own  hands. He had a candidate, programmed and easily reached by phone, who would  commit this bit of arson when told to do so, but who would never remember  striking the match.

The night remained wind-rattled.

On the walk to his car, which was parked three blocks away, the doctor tried to  compose a wind haiku, without success.

Driving past the Rhodeses' quaint Victorian, he imagined it in flames, and he  searched his mind for a seventeen-syllable verse about fire, but the words  eluded him.

Instead, he recalled the lines he had composed extemporaneously and so fluently  when, on entering Martie's office, he had seen the work piled on her desk. Busy blue-eyed girl. Busy making Hobbit games. Death waits in Mordor. He edited the work, updating it to reflect recent developments: Busy blue-eyed girl. Busy playing detective. Death in Santa Fe.

63

Larger than San Quentin quarters, far different from the drab gray of prison  decor, the colorful and overly patterned hotel room felt nonetheless like a  cell. In the bath, the tub reminded Martie of Susan soaking in crimson water,  though she had been spared the sight of her dead friend. All the windows were  permanently sealed, and the pumped-in warm air, even with the thermostat dialed  down to the lowest comfort zone, was suffocating. She felt isolated, hunted, all  but cornered. Autophobia, which had been simmering at extremely low heat since  nine o'clock, seemed about to be reborn as full-blown claustrophobia.

Action. Action, shaped by intelligence and a moral perspective, is the answer to  most problems. So it is written on page 1 of the philosophy of Smilin' Bob. They were taking action, too, although only time would reveal if there was  enough intelligence shaping it.

First, they pored through Roy Closterman's file on Mark Ahriman, paying special  attention to the information dealing with the Pastore murders and with the  preschool case in New Mexico. From the Xeroxes of newspaper articles, they  extracted names and made a list of those who had suffered and in whose suffering  there might be both clues and damning testimony.

Finished with Closterman's file, Dusty used Raymond Shaw and the leaf haiku to  access Martie and return her to her mind chapel- though first he made a solemn promise to leave her psyche utterly unaltered, all  her faults intact, which she found both amusing and touching.

As with Skeet, he carefully instructed her to forget everything that Raymond  Shaw had ever said to her, to forget all the images of death that Shaw had  implanted in her mind, to be free of the control program that Shaw had installed  in her, and to be forever free from the autophobia. On a conscious level, she  heard nothing of what he said, and later remembered nothing that happened after  he spoke the activating name until- Snap, whereupon she woke and felt free and  clean, as she had not felt in almost two days. Her old friend, hope, took up residence in her again.  When tested, she did not respond to Raymond Shaw anymore.

In turn, Martie liberated Dusty after accessing him with Viola Narvilly and the  heron haiku.

With a snap, he returned to her.

She was staring into his beautiful eyes when they cleared from the trance, and  she understood the terrible sense of responsibility under which he had labored  when accessing and instructing Skeet. How awesome and frightening it was to have  had her husband so vulnerable before her, the innermost chambers of his mind  presented to her for remodeling as she wished; how awesome, too, and humbling,  to present her most fundamental self to him, to be so naked and helpless, with  no defense except absolute trust.

When tested, he could not be accessed for control.

"Free," he said.

"Better yet," she said, "from now on, when I tell you to take out the garbage,  you'll really hop to it."

His laughter was out of proportion to the joke.

As a declaration of independence, Martie flushed her Valium down the toilet.

Having been in high spirits when he'd left home earlier in the night, the doctor  was driving his cherry-red Ferrari Testarossa, which was as low to the ground  and as quick as a lizard, but it was too flashy to match his current mood. His  Mercedes would also have been the wrong vehicle, too stately and ambassadorial for a guy in a down-and-dirty,  throat-cutting frame of mind. One of his collection of street rods would have  suited him better: in particular, the '63 black Buick Riviera with its chopped  top, split grille, elliptical hood scoops, sectioned rear fenders, and other  custom details, which looked like a demonic car that, in the movies, would drive  itself on murderous missions, possessed and indestructible.

He stopped at a convenience store to make the call, because he didn't want to  use either his cell phone or his phone at home.

This land of the brave new millennium was one giant confessional booth, with  listening priests of the secular church monitoring every conversation from  behind concealing electronic screens. The doctor swept his house, his offices,  and his vehicles for listening devices once each month, doing the work himself,  with equipment he purchased for cash, because he trusted no one among the  private-security firms that offered such services. A phone, however, could be  monitored by an off-site tap; therefore, incriminating calls must always be made  from telephones not listed in his name.

The pay phone outside the convenience store was racked on the wall. The wind  would foil a directional microphone if a surveillance team was stalking the  doctor, though he was confident no one was tailing him. If this phone was a  known contact for drug dealers, there might be a passive tap recording every  conversation, in which case voice analysis could eventually be used to  incriminate Ahriman in a court of law; but this was a minor and unavoidable  risk.

Although the doctor's friends in high places could be counted on to ensure him  against a successful prosecution for virtually any crime, he was nonetheless  cautious. Indeed, it was the possibility of being monitored by these friends  that motivated him to conduct an electronic sweep of his house each month, and  he was more concerned about keeping them ignorant of his private games than he  was worried about the police. The doctor himself would have sold out a friend  without hesitation if he benefited sufficiently from the sale, and he assumed  that any friend would do the same to him.

He keyed in a number, fed coins to the phone, cupped his hand around the  mouthpiece to keep out the shriek of the wind, and when he got an answer on the  third ring, he said, "Ed Mavole," which was the name of a character in The  Manchurian Candidate.

"I'm listening."

They proceeded through the lines of the enabling haiku, after which the doctor  said, "Tell me whether or not you are alone."

"I'm alone."

"I want you to go to Dusty and Martie's house in Corona Del Mar." He checked his  wristwatch. Nearly midnight. "I want you to go to their house at three o'clock  in the morning, a little more than three hours from now. Tell me whether or not  you understand."

"I understand."

"You will take with you five gallons of gasoline and a book of matches."

"Yes."

"Please be discreet. Take every precaution against being seen."

"Yes."

"You will enter by their back door. Under the doormat is a key that I have left  for you."

"Thank you."

"You're welcome."

Convinced that his subject wouldn't have the technical knowledge necessary to  commit a completely successful act of arson, wanting to be certain the house  would be utterly destroyed, the doctor huddled against the pummeling wind and  devoted five minutes to an explanation of how flammable liquids and highly  combustible materials already on the premises could be best used to supplement  the gasoline. Further, he enlightened his dutiful listener on the four crucial  architectural details that could be used to serve an arsonist's purposes.

In spite of the danger in which they found themselves or perhaps because of it,  in spite of their grief or because of it, Martie and Dusty made love. Their  slow, easy coupling was as much affirmation as sex: an affirmation of life, of their love for each other, and of their faith in the  future. For sweet minutes, no fear troubled them, no demons of the mind or demons of the  world, nor did the hotel room seem either small or stifling, as before. For the  duration of these silken rhythms, there was no blurring of the line between fact and fiction, between reality and  fantasy, because reality was reduced to their two bodies and the tenderness they  shared.

At home, in his lacewood-paneled study, the doctor sat in his ergonomic  ostrich-skin chair, touched one of the many buttons inset in an extractable  writing slide, and watched as his computer rose out of the top of the desk. The  lift mechanism purred softly.

He composed a message, warning of Martine and Dustin Rhodes's travel plans,  providing detailed descriptions, and requesting, as a personal courtesy, that  they be kept under surveillance from the moment they landed in New Mexico. If  their investigation proved fruitless, they were to be allowed to return to  California. If they obtained any information damaging to the doctor, he  preferred to have them killed there in the Land of Enchantment, as the natives  called it, to save him the trouble of disposing of them when they returned here  to the Golden State. If termination in New Mexico was deemed necessary, then the  couple should first be persuaded to reveal the whereabouts of Mr. Rhodes's  brother, Skeet Caulfield.

As Ahriman reviewed his message to be sure it was clear, he was not optimistic  that he'd ever again see either Dusty or Martie alive, and yet he was not  entirely without hope. They had been astonishingly resourceful thus far, but he  had to believe that a mere house-painter and a girl video-game designer would  have their limits.

If they exhibited little talent for playing detectives, perhaps when they  returned to California, Ahriman would be able to engineer a meeting with them.  He could access them, interrogate them to learn what they knew about his true  nature, and rehabilitate them, removing all memories that would either inhibit  their continued obedience or diminish their programmed admiration for him. If that could be done, the game would be salvaged.

He could have asked the operatives in New Mexico to abduct the couple and put  them, one at a time, on the telephone with him, which would allow him to access,  interrogate, and rehabilitate them long-distance. Unfortunately, this would make  his friends privy to his private game, and he didn't want them to know anything  about his strategies, motivations, and personal pleasures.

Currently, he and the fellowship of puppeteers in New Mexico had an ideal  relationship, mutually beneficial. Twenty years ago, Dr. Ahriman had developed  the effective formula of combined drugs that induced a programmable state of  mind, and he had continually refined it ever since. He also had written the  bible on programming techniques, from which others did not deviate to this day.  A handful of men-and two women-could perform these miracles of control, but the  doctor was without peer in the fellowship. He was the puppeteer of puppeteers,  and when they had a particularly difficult or delicate job, they came to him. He  never denied them, never charged them-but did receive reimbursement of all  travel expenses, a generous per diem dining allowance when on the road, and a  small but thoughtful gift of some personal item (lambskin driving gloves, lapis  lazuli cuff links, a necktie hand-painted by the uncannily gifted children of a  Tibetan orphanage for the mystic deal) every Christmas.

Three or four times a year, at their request, he flew to Albany or to Little  Rock, to Hialeah or to Des Moines, or to Falls Church, more often than not to  places he would otherwise never have seen, costumed to pass unnoticed by the  locals, traveling under such false names as Jim Shaitan, Bill Sammael, and Jack  Apollyon. There, with a staff at his command, he conducted programming  sessions-usually on one or two subjects-over three to five days, before winging  home to the balmy shores of the Pacific. In compensation and as recognition of  his unique status, Ahriman was the only member of the fellowship permitted by  their overseers to apply his skills to private projects.

One of the other psychologists in the project-a young, goateed German American  whose unfortunate surname was Fugger-had attempted to presume this fringe  benefit for himself, but he had been caught. In front of the other programmers,  as an object lesson, Fugger was dismembered and fed in pieces to a pit full of  thrashing crocodiles.

Because Dr. Ahriman was not prohibited from private enterprises, he had not  received an invitation and had learned of the disciplinary action only after the  fact. He had lived his life in such a way that he had few regrets, but he sorely  wished that he could have attended Fugger's going-out party. Now, at the onyx-topped desk in his lacewood-paneled study, the doctor added two  lines to his message, to report that the actor had been fully programmed as requested and that the presidential nose was soon to  receive wall-to-wall media coverage for at least a week, complete with learned  analyses by the usual experts as well as by a few leading nasologists. A team of aggressive investigators, turned loose by the White House and  currently probing into the varied activities of certain overreaching bureaucrats  in the Commerce Department, would no doubt be reined in within twenty-four hours  of the reattachment of the chief executive's proboscis, and the government could  get back to the business of the people.

Always a politician himself, the doctor added a few personal notes: a  happy-birthday greeting to one of the other programmers; a query as to the  health of the project director's oldest child, who had been ill with a  particularly severe case of the flu; and hearty congratulations to Curly, in  maintenance, whose girlfriend had accepted his proposal of marriage. He sent the document to the institute in Santa Fe, via E-mail, using an  unbreakable encryption program not available to the general public, one that had  been designed for the exclusive use of the fellowship and its support staff.

What a day.

Such highs, such lows.

To lift his spirits and to reward himself for remaining so calm and focused in  the face of adversity, the doctor went to the kitchen and constructed a large  cherry ice-cream soda. He also gave himself a plate of Milano cookies by  Pepperidge Farm, which had been one of his mother's favorites, too.

Banshees of wind shrieking down out of the sky, goblin cries of sirens cycling  upward, trees caught between and tossing-roaring in torment, ragged scarves of  orange sparks winding through the tresses of the palms and Indian laurels: This  was Halloween in January or any day in Hell. Now more second-story windows  exploded, shards of glass glittering with reflections of fire and plinking onto  the frontporch roof like an unmelodious piano passage in a symphony of  destruction.

Fire engines and emergency vehicles choked the narrow street,

mars lights and spotlights revolving and blazing, departmental radios burning  with dispatchers' voices that crackled like flames. Python colonies of hoses  serpentined across the wet pavement, as if charmed forth by the rhythmic  throbbing of the pumpers.

The Rhodes residence had been fully engulfed by the time the first engine  company arrived, and because houses in this neighborhood stood so close  together, the firemen's initial efforts were directed toward watering down  neighbors' roofs and the surrounding trees to prevent the flames from spreading  structure to structure. With that disaster narrowly averted, the deluge gun atop  the largest pumper was brought to bear on the Victorian.

The house, with all its ornamental millwork, was bright in its wreaths of fire,  but beneath the flames, the colorful San Francisco-style paint job was already  scorched away, replaced by soot and char. The front wall buckled, shattering the  last window. The main roof sagged. The porch roof collapsed. All the hoses were  trained on the place at last, but the fire seemed to relish the water, sucking  it down, unquenched.

When a large section of the main roof dropped out of sight into the fiery  interior, a cry of dismay arose from a knot of neighbors gathered across the  street. Sudden masses of dark smoke billowed forth and, stampeded by the wind,  galloped westward like a herd of nightmare horses.

Martie was being carried through a raging fire, and the strong arms cradling her  were those of her father, Smilin' Bob Woodhouse. He was dressed in working gear:  helmet with unit and badge numbers on the front-piece, turnout coat with  reflective safety stripes, fireproof gloves. His fire-boots crunched through  smoldering rubble as he bore her purposefully toward safety.

"But, Daddy, you're dead, " Martie said, and Smilin' Bob said, "Well, I'm dead  and I'm not, Miss M., but since when does being dead mean I wouldn't be there  for you?"

Flames encircled them, sometimes lambent and transparent, other times seeming to  be as solid as stone, as though this were not merely a place being destroyed by  fire, but a place constructed of fire, the Parthenon of the fire god himself  massive columns and lintels and archways of fire, mosaic floors of intricate flame patterns, vaulted ceilings of fire, room after room of  eternal conflagrations, through which they passed in search of an exit that  seemed not to exist.

Yet Martie felt safe in the cradle other father's arms, holding on to him, with  her left arm around his shoulders, certain he would carry her out of this place  sooner or later-until, glancing behind them, she saw their pursuer. The Leaf Man  followed, and though the very substance of him was ablaze, he wasn't diminished  by the flames that fed on him. If anything, he appeared to grow both larger and  stronger, because the fire wasn't his enemy; it was the source of his strength.  As he drew closer to them, shedding sparkling leaves and veils of ashes, he  reached out with both hands for Smilin 'Bob and for the firefighter's daughter,  clawing the hot air before her face. She began to shake and to sob with terror  even in her father's arms, sobbing, sobbing. Closer, closer, the dark eyeholes  and the hungry black maw, ragged-leaf lips and teeth of fire, closer, closer,  and now she could hear the Leaf Man's autumn voice, as cold and prickly as a  field of thistles under a full October moon: "I want to taste. I want to taste  your tears-"

She was out of sleep in an instant and up from the bed, awake and alert, yet her  face was as hot as if she were still surrounded by fire, and she could smell the  faint scent of smoke.

They had left a light on in the bath and left the door ajar, so the  claustrophobic hotel room would not be blind-dark. Martie could see well enough  to know that the air was clear; there was no haze of smoke.

The faint but pungent smell was still with her, however, and she began to fear  that the hotel was on fire, the scent-if not the smoke itself-seeping under the  door from the hallway.

Dusty was asleep, and she was about to wake him, when she became aware of the  man standing in the gloom. He was at the farthest remove from the pale wedge of  bathroom light.

Martie couldn't see his face clearly, but there was no mistaking the shape of  his fire helmet. Or the luminous safety stripes on his turnout coat. A trick of shadows. Surely, surely. Yet.. . no. This wasn't mere illusion. She was certain that she was wide-awake, as certain as she had ever been about  anything in her life. And yet he stood there, only ten or twelve feet away,  having carried her out of the nightmare of seething fire.

The dream world and the world in which this hotel room existed suddenly seemed  equally valid, parts of the same reality, separated by a veil even thinner than  the curtain of sleep. Here was truth, pure and piercing, as we are seldom given  the chance to glimpse it, and Martie was breathless, transfixed by awareness. She wanted to go to him but was restrained by a curious sense of propriety, by  an innate understanding that his world was his and her world hers, that this  temporary intersection of the two worlds was an ephemeral condition, a grace  that she must not abuse.

In his shadows, the fireman-and also watchman-appeared to nod approvingly at her  restraint. She thought she saw the luminosity of teeth revealed in the crescent  of a familiar and beloved smile.

She returned to bed, head propped on two pillows, and pulled the covers to her  chin. Her face was no longer hot, and the scent of smoke was gone. The nightstand clock showed 3:35 in the morning. She doubted that she would be  able to sleep any more.

Wonderingly, she looked toward those special shadows, and still he was there. She smiled and nodded and closed her eyes, and when in a little while she heard  the distinctive squeak of his rubber fireboots and the rustle of his turnout  coat, she didn't open her eyes. Nor did she open them when she felt the asbestos  fireglove touch her head, nor when he smoothed her hair against the pillow. Although Martie had expected to lie restless for the remainder of the night, a  particularly peaceful sleep overcame her, until she stirred again more than an  hour later, in the predawn stillness, just minutes before the wake-up call was  due from the hotel operator.

She could no longer detect even the faintest trace of the scent of smoke, and no  visitor stood watch in the satiny shadows. She was living in one world again,  her world, so familiar, fearsome, and yet full of promise. She couldn't prove to anyone else what had been real in the night and what had  not, but to her own satisfaction, the truth was clear. As the bedside phone rang with their wake-up call, she knew that she would never  see Smilin' Bob again in this world, but she wondered how soon she would see him  in his, whether in fifty years or sometime tomorrow.

64

High deserts seldom offer warmth in winter, and on Thursday morning at the Santa  Fe Municipal Airport, the plane brought Martie and Dusty down into cold dry air,  to a pale land as windless now as the surface of the moon.

They had carried both small pieces of luggage onto the flight, after the bag  with the toy fire engine had passed inspection at the security gate in Orange  County. With no need to visit the baggage carousel, they went directly to the  car-rental agency.

Getting into the two-door Ford, Martie inhaled an orange grove's worth of  citrus-scented air freshener. Yet the fragrance could not entirely mask the  underlying noxiousness of stale cigarette smoke.

On Cerrillos Road, as Dusty drove into the city, Martie removed the brass screws  from the bottom of the fire truck. She extracted the felt shoe bag from the  truck, and the pistol from the shoe bag.

"You want to carry?" she asked Dusty.

"No, you go ahead."

Dusty had ordered the supertuned Springfield Armory Champion, a version of the  Colt Commander produced by Springfield's custom shop, with numerous aftermarket  parts. Featuring a beveled magazine well, a throated barrel, a lowered and  flared ejection port, a Novak low-mount combat sight, a polished feed ramp, a polished extractor and ejector, and an A-i style trigger tuned to a 4.5-pound  pull, the seven-shot pistol was lightweight, compact, and easy to control. Initially she had been opposed to owning the gun. After having fired two  thousand rounds during a dozen visits to a shooting range, however, she'd proved  to be somewhat more effective with the weapon than Dusty was, which surprised  her more than it surprised him.

She slipped the pistol into her purse. This wasn't the ideal way to carry it,  because making a quick and unhampered draw wasn't possible. Dusty had researched  holsters, strictly for use on the shooting range, but he hadn't gotten around to  selecting one yet.

Because she was wearing blue jeans, a navy-blue sweater, and a blue tweed  jacket, Martie could have tucked the gun under her belt, either against her  abdomen or in the small of her back, and concealed it with the sweater. In  either case, the discomfort factor would be too high, so the purse was the only  choice.

"We're now officially outlaws," she said, leaving the central compartment of the  purse unzipped, for easier access.

"We were already outlaws the moment we boarded the plane."

"Yeah, well, now we're outlaws in New Mexico, too."

"How's it feel?"

"Didn't Billy Bonney come from Santa Fe?" she asked.

"Billy the Kid? I don't know."

"He came from New Mexico, anyway. How I feel is not a damn thing like Billy the  Kid, let me tell you. Unless he walked around so scared that he worried about  wetting his pants."

They stopped at a shopping center and purchased a tape recorder with a supply of  minicassettes and batteries.

Using a directory chained in a public telephone booth, their breath pluming  frostily over the pages, they went through the short list of names they had  culled from the articles in Roy Closterman's file. Some were not listed, having  either died or moved out of town- or perhaps the now grown-up girls had married  and were living under new names. Still, they found addresses for a few people on  the list.

In the car again, eating a lunch of chicken tacos from a fast-food joint, Dusty  studied the city map provided by the rental agency, while Martie inserted batteries in the tape recorder and scanned the operating  instructions. The recorder was the essence of simplicity and easy to use. They weren't sure what testimony they would be able to gather, whether any of it  would support the story that they themselves hoped to bring to the police in  California, but they had nothing to lose by trying. Without the statements of  others who'd suffered at the hands of Ahriman, to establish context, the  complaints Martie and Dusty filed would have the grotesque quality of paranoid  rants and would not be taken seriously, even with the tape of Susan's phone  call.

Two advantages gave them heart. First, because of what Roy Closterman had  uncovered, they knew there were people in Santa Fe who hated Ahriman, who  suspected him of the worst offenses against his oaths as a medical doctor and  therapist, and who were frustrated beyond endurance to see him escape  prosecution and move out of state with his reputation intact and with his  license to practice medicine unchallenged. Surely, these individuals were  potential allies.

Second, because Ahriman wasn't aware that they knew of his past and because he  wasn't likely to credit them with either the ambition or the intelligence to  discover the roots of his earliest attempts at brainwashing, he wouldn't think  to look for them in Santa Fe. Which meant that at least for a day or two, and  perhaps longer, they. could operate without attracting the frightening attention  of the mystery men who had cut off Brian's ear.

Here in the land of Ahriman's past, flying below the radar of the psychiatrist  and his enigmatic associates, they might be able to gather enough information to  make their story credible when at last they approached the authorities in  California.

No. Might wasn't an acceptable word. Might was a loser's word. Must was the word  she wanted, from the vocabulary of winners. They must gather enough information;  and because they must, they would.

Action.

Leaving the shopping center, Martie drove while Dusty consulted the map and gave  directions.

Over this high land, the sky was low and the color of New Mexico gypsum. Those  slowly grinding clouds were icy, too, and according to the radio weather report,  they were going to scrape some snow off one another before the day was out. Only a few blocks from the Cathedral of Saint Francis of Assisi, the residence  was surrounded by an adobe wall with a raised, stepped arch in which was set a  spindled wooden gate.

Martie parked at the curb. She and Dusty went visiting with tape recorder and  concealed pistol, bringing a little California style to mystic Santa Fe. Beside the gate, a cascading ristra of red chiles spilled down the earthen wall  under a copper lamp with coppery mica panes. This bright autumn decoration, long  past its season, was frosty in parts but colorful and glossy where ice jacketed  the chiles.

The gate was ajar, and beyond lay a brick forecourt. Agave and century plants  bristled low, and tall piñons would have cast deep shadows had there been sun. The single-story, pueblo-style house, by itself, validated the state's claim to  be the Land of Enchantment. Solid and round-edged, all soft lines and earth  tones. Deep door and window openings, with simple fenestration. A porch extended the width of the structure, supported by time-smoothed fir-log  columns and by carved corbels painted with blue star designs. In the ceiling,  aspen latillas bridged the spaces between the large fir vigas that supported the  roof.

Rosettes, conchas, and rope braids were carved into the arched front door. The  hand-forged, hand-stamped iron coyote knocker hung from its hind legs. Its  forelegs swung against a large iron clavo set in the door, and when Dusty  knocked, the sound carried across the forecourt in the cold, still air. The thirty-something woman who responded to the knock must have been only two  generations out of Italy on one side of her family; but another branch of her  tree unmistakably had Navajo grafted on to it. Lovely, with high cheekbones,  eyes as black as raven feathers, hair even blacker than Martie's, she was a  Southwest princess in a white blouse with bluebirds embroidered on the collar, a  faded denim skirt, folded bobbysocks and scuffed white sneakers.

Dusty introduced himself and Martie. "We're looking for Chase Glyson."

"I'm Zina Glyson," she said, "his wife. Maybe I can help."

Dusty hesitated, and Martie said, "We'd very much like to talk to him about Dr.  Ahriman. Mark Ahriman."

No tension came into Mrs. Glyson's serene face, and her voice remained pleasant  when she said, "You come here to my door, speaking the devil's name. Why should  I talk to you?"

"He's not the devil," Martie said. "He's more a vampire, and we want to drive a  stake straight through the bastard's heart."

Mrs. Glyson's direct and analytic stare was as penetrating as that of any elder  sitting on a tribal council. After a moment, she stepped back and invited them  off the cold porch, into the warm rooms beyond the thick adobe walls.

Ordinarily, the doctor did not carry a concealed weapon, but with all the  unknowables of the Rhodes situation, he believed that prudence required him to  be armed.

Martie and Dusty were no immediate danger to him out there in New Mexico. They  would pose no threat when and if they returned, either, unless he wasn't able to  get close enough to them to speak the names-Shaw, Narvilly-that activated their  programs.

Skeet was another matter. His holey brain, drilled by drugs, didn't seem able to  hold the essential details of a control program without periodic reloading. If  the little dope fiend, for whatever reason, got it into his addled head to stalk  Ahriman, he might not respond immediately to Dr. Yen Lo and might be able to use  a knife or gun or whatever other weapon he was carrying.

The doctor's double-breasted, gray pinstripe suit by Ermenegildo Zegna was  elegantly tailored; and strictly as a fashion issue, there ought to have been a  federal law against spoiling the garment's lines by wearing a shoulder holster  under it. Fortunately, ever the man of foresight, the doctor had commissioned a  custom holster of supple leather, which carried his pistol so deep under the arm  and so snugly against the body that even the master tailors in Italy would not  have been able to detect the weapon.

Unsightly bulge was eliminated, as well, by the fact that the weapon was a  compact automatic, the Taurus PT-111 Millennium fitted with a Pearce grip  extension. Quite small but powerful.

After his busy night, the doctor had slept late, which was possible because he  didn't need to keep the usual Thursday-morning appointment with Susan Jagger now  that she was so dead. With no commitments until after lunch, he enjoyed a visit  to his favorite antique-toy store, where he purchased a mint-condition Gunsmoke  Dodge City playset by Marx for only $3,250, and a die-cast Johnny Lightning  Custom Ferrari for only $115.

A couple of other customers were browsing in the store, chatting with the owner,  and Dr. Ahriman had great fun imagining what it would be like to surprise them  by drawing his pistol and gut-shooting them without provocation. He did not do  this, of course, because he was pleased with his purchases and wanted the owner  to feel comfortable with him when he returned to shop for other treasures in the  future.

The kitchen was redolent of baking corn bread, and from a large pot on the stove  rose the beefy aroma of beanless chili.

Zina phoned her husband at work. They owned a gallery on Canyon Road. When he  heard why Martie and Dusty had sought him out, he came home in less than ten  minutes.

While waiting for him, Zina set out red ceramic mugs of strong coffee mellowed  with cinnamon, and pinwheel cookies topped with toasted pine nuts.

Chase, when he arrived, appeared to earn his living not in an art gallery but as  a cowboy on the range: tall and lanky, tousled straw-yellow hair, a handsome  face abraded by wind and sun. He was one of those men who, just by walking  through any stable, would win the trust of horses, which would nicker softly at  him and strain their necks across stall doors to nuzzle his hands.

His voice was quiet but intense as he sat down at the kitchen table with them.

"What has Ahriman done to you and yours?"

Martie told him about Susan. The worsening agoraphobia, the suspected rapes. The  sudden suicide.

"He made her do it somehow," Chase Glyson said. "I believe It. I absolutely do.  You came all this way because of your friend?"

"Yes. My dearest friend." Martie saw no reason to tell more.

"Over nineteen years," Chase said, "since he ruined my family, and more than ten  since he hauled his sick ass out of Santa Fe. For a white, I hoped he was dead.

Then he got famous with his books."

"Do you mind if we tape what you tell us?" Dusty asked.

"No, don't mind at all. But what I've got to say. . . hell, I've said it all  maybe a hundred times to the cops, to different district attorneys over the  years, until I was bluer in the face than a blue coyote. No one listened to me.

Well, the once when someone listened and thought I might be telling the truth,  then some big-shot friends of Ahriman's paid him a visit, taught him some  religion, so he'd know what he damn well was supposed to believe about my mom  and dad."

While Martie and Dusty taped Chase Glyson, Zina perched on a stool before an  easel near the adobe fireplace, drawing a pencil study of a humble tableau that  she'd earlier set up on one corner of the distressed-pine table at which the  rest of them sat. Five pieces of Indian pottery in unusual shapes, including a  double-spouted wedding pitcher.

The essence of Chase's story was the same as in the clippings from Roy  Closterman's file. Teresa and Carl Glyson had for years operated a successful  preschool, the Little Jackrabbit School, until they and three employees were  accused of molesting children of both sexes. As in the Ornwahl case in Laguna  Beach years later, Ahriman conducted supposedly careful, psychiatrically valid  exploratory conversations with the kids, sometimes using hypnotic regression-and  found a pattern of stories supporting the original accusations.

"The whole thing was a lot of bushwa, Mr. Rhodes," said Chase Glyson. "My folks  were the best people you'd want to meet."

Zina said, "Terri, that was Chase's mother, would have cut off her hand before  she'd raise it to hurt a child."

"My daddy, too," said Chase. "Besides, he was hardly ever at the Little  Jackrabbit. Only to do some repairs now and then, 'cause he was handy. The  school was my mother's business. Daddy was half owner of a car dealership, and  it kept him busy. Lots of people in town, they never believed a word of it."

"But there were those who did," Zina added darkly.

"Oh," said Chase, "there's always those who'll believe anything about anybody.

You whisper in their ear that 'cause there was wine at the Last Supper, Jesus  must've been a drunkard, and they'll gossip their souls into perdition, passing it along. Most people figured it couldn't be  true, and with no physical evidence, it might never have resulted in  convictions. . . until Valerie-Marie Padilla killed herself."

Martie said, "One of the students, that five-year-old girl."

"Yes, ma'am." Chase's face seemed to darken as if a cloud had passed between him  and the ceiling lights. "She left that good-bye of hers, that colored-pencil  drawing, that sad little scribble drawing that changed everything. Her and a  man."

"Anatomically correct," Martie said.

"Worse, the man had a mustache. . . like my daddy. In the drawing, he's wearing  a cowboy hat, white with a red band, and a black feather tucked in it. Which is  the type of hat my daddy always wore."

With a violence that drew their attention, Zina Glyson tore off the top sheet  from her drawing pad, balled it up, and threw it into the fireplace. "Chase's  father was my godfather, my own father's best friend. I knew Carl from when I  was a toddler. That man. . . he respected people, no matter who they were, no  matter how little they had or what their faults. He respected children, too, and  listened to them, and cared. Never once did he ever put his hand on me that way,  and I know he didn't touch Valerie-Marie. If she killed herself, it's because of  the hateful, evil stuff Ahriman put in her head, all the twisted sex and stories  about sacrificing animals at the school and being forced to drink their blood.  This child was five. What mess do you make of a little child's mind, what awful  depression do you instigate when you ask her about stuff like that under  hypnosis, when you help her remember what never happened?"

"Easy, Zee," her husband said softly. "It's all over long ago."

"Not for me, it isn't." She went to the ovens. "It won't be over until he's  dead." She slipped her right hand into an oven mitt. "And then I won't believe  his obituary." She drew a pan of finished corn bread from the oven. "I'll have  to look at his corpse myself and stick a finger in its eye to see if he reacts." If she was Italian, then she was Sicilian, and if she was part Indian, she was  not a peaceful Navajo but an Apache. There was an unusual strength in her, a  toughness, and if she'd had the chance to finish Ahriman herself without being  caught, she probably would have acted on the opportunity.

Martie liked her a lot.

"I was seventeen at the time," Chase said, almost to himself. "God knows why  they didn't accuse me, too. How did I escape? When they're burning witches, why  not the whole family?"

Returning to something that Zina had said, Dusty raised a key question: "if she  committed suicide? What did you mean by that?"

"Tell him, Chase," said Zina, moving from the corn bread to the pot of chili.  "See if they think it sounds like something a little child would do to herself." "Her mother was in the next room," Chase said. "She heard the gunshot, ran,  found Valerie-Marie seconds after it happened. No one else could've been there.  The girl definitely killed herself with her father's pistol."

"She had to get the pistol out of a box in the closet," Zina said. "And a  separate box of ammunition. And load the thing. A child who'd never handled a  gun in her life."

"Even that isn't the hardest to believe," Chase said. "What's hardest is. . ."  He hesitated. "This is awful stuff, Mrs. Rhodes."

"I'm getting used to it," Martie grimly assured him.

Chase said, "The way Valerie-Marie killed herself. . . the news quoted Ahriman  as calling it 'an act of self-loathing, of gender denial, an attempt to destroy  the sexual aspect of herself that had led to her being molested.' That little  girl, you see, before she pulled the trigger she undressed herself, and then she  put the gun. . . inside. . .

Martie was on her feet before she realized that she intended to get out of her  chair. "Dear God." She needed to move, to go somewhere, do something, but there  was nowhere to go except-as she discovered when she got there-to Zina Glyson,  around whom she put her arms as she would have put them around Susan at such a  moment as this. "Were you dating Chase then?"

"Yes," Zina said.

"And stood by him. And married him."

"Thank God," Chase murmured.

"What it must have been like," Martie said, "after the suicide, to defend Carl  to other women, and stand by his son."

Zina had accepted Martie's embrace as naturally as it had been given. The memory  made this Southwest princess tremble after all these years, but both Sicilian  and Apache women were loath to cry.

"No one accused Chase," she said, "but he was suspected. And me . . . people smiled, but they kept their children at a distance from me. For  years."

Martie brought Zina back to the table, and the four of them sat together.

"Forget all that psychological blather about gender denial and destroying her  sexual aspect," said Zina. "What Valerie-Marie did, no child would think to do.  No child. That little girl did what she did because someone put it in her head  to do it. Impossible as it seems, crazy as it sounds, Ahriman showed her how to  load a gun, and Ahriman told her what to do to herself, and she went home and  just did it, because she was. . . she was, I don't know, hypnotized or  something."

"It doesn't sound impossible or crazy to us," Dusty assured her.

The town was torn apart by Valerie-Marie Padillo's death, and the possibility  that other Little Jackrabbit kids might be suicidally depressed caused a sort of  mass hysteria that Zina called the Plague Year. It was during this plague that a  jury of seven women and five men returned unanimous guilty verdicts against all  five defendants.

"You probably know," said Chase, "other inmates consider child molesters the  lowest of the low. My daddy. . . he lasted just nineteen months before he was  killed at his job in the prison kitchen. Four stab wounds, one through each  kidney from behind, two through the gut from in front. Probably, two guys  sandwiched him. No one would ever talk, so no one was ever charged."

"Is your mother still alive?" Dusty asked.

Chase shook his head. "The other three ladies from the school, nice people, all  of them-they served four years each. My mom, she was released after five, and  when they let her go, she had cancer."

"Officially, the cancer killed her, but what really killed her was shame," Zina  said. "Tern was a good woman, a kind woman, and a proud woman. She'd done  nothing, nothing, but she was eaten up by shame just dwelling on what people  thought she'd done. She lived with us, but it wasn't long. The school had been  closed, Carl lost his interest in the car dealership. Legal bills took  everything. We were still scraping by ourselves, and we hardly had money to bury  her. Thirteen years, she's dead. Might as well be yesterday to me."

"What's it like here for you, these days?" Dusty asked.

Zina and Chase exchanged a look, volumes written in one glance.

He said, "A lot better than it used to be. Some people still believe it all, but not many after the Pastore killings. And some of the Little  Jackrabbit kids.. . they eventually recanted their stories."

"Not for ten years." Zina's eyes in that moment were blacker than anthracite and  harder than iron.

Chased sighed. "Maybe it took ten years for those false memories to start  falling apart. I don't know."

"In all that time," Martie wondered, "did you ever think of just picking up and  leaving Santa Fe?"

"We love Santa Fe," Chase said, and his heart seemed to be in his declaration.

"It's the best place on earth," Zina agreed. "Besides, if we'd ever left, there  are a few out there who would've said our leaving proved all of it was true,  that we were crawling away in shame."

Chase nodded. "But just a few."

"If it was just one," Zina said, "I wouldn't have left and given him the  satisfaction."

Zina's hands were on the table, and Chase covered both of them with one of his.  "Mr. Rhodes, if you think it would help you, some of those Little Jackrabbit  kids, the ones who recanted, I know they would talk to you. They've come to us.  They've apologized. They aren't bad people. They were used. I think they'd like  to help."

"If you could set it up," Dusty said, "we'll devote tomorrow to them. Today,  while there's still light and before it snows, we want to go out to the Pastore  ranch."

Chase pushed his chair back from the table and got to his feet, seeming taller  than he had been earlier. "You know the way?"

"We've got a map," Dusty said.

"Well, I'll lead you halfway," Chase said. "Because halfway to the Pastore  ranch, there's something you should see. The Bellon Tockland Institute."

"What's that?"

"Hard to say. Been there twenty-five years. It's where you'll find Mark  Ahriman's friends, if he has any."

Without pulling on a jacket or sweater, Zina walked with them to the street. The piñons in the forecourt were as still as trees in a diorama, sealed behind  glass.

The squeak of the iron hinges on the spindled gate was the only sound in the winter day, as if every soul in the city had vanished, as if Santa  Fe were a ghost ship on a sea of sand.

No traffic moved on the street. No cats roamed, no birds flew. A great weight of  stillness pressed down on the world.

To Chase, whose Lincoln Navigator was parked in front of them, Dusty said, "Does  that van across the street belong to a neighbor?"

Chase looked, shook his head. "I don't think so. Maybe. Why?"

"No reason. Nice-looking van, is all."

"Something's coming down," Zina said, gazing at the sky.

At first Martie thought she meant snow was falling, but there was no snow.

The sky was more white than gray. If the clouds were moving at all, their motion  was internal, concealed behind the pale skin that they presented to the world  below.

"Something bad." Zina put her hand on Martie's arm. "My Apache premonition.  Warrior blood senses violence coming. You be careful, Martie Rhodes."

"We will be."

"Wish you lived in Santa Fe."

"Wish you lived in California."

"World's too big, and all of us too small," Zina said, and again they hugged  each other.

In the car, as Martie pulled into the street, following Chase's Navigator, she  glanced at Dusty. "What about the van?"

Turned in his seat, peering through the rear window, he said, "Thought maybe I'd  seen it earlier."

"Where?"

"At the shopping center where we bought the recorder."

"Is it coming?"

"No."

One right turn and three blocks later, she asked, "Yet?"

"No. Guess I was wrong."

65

In California, one time zone farther west than Santa Fe, Mark Ahriman ate lunch  alone, at a table for two, in a stylish bistro in Laguna Beach. A dazzling  Pacific vista lay to his left; a generally well dressed and monied luncheon  crowd was seated to his right.

Not all was perfect. Two tables away, a thirtyish gentleman-and this was  stretching the word to its elastic limits-let out a bray of laughter from time  to time, so harsh and protracted that all donkeys west of the Pecos must have  pricked their ears at each outburst. A grandmotherly woman at the next table was  wearing an absurd mustard-yellow cloche hat. Six younger women at the far end of  the room were obnoxiously giggly. The waiter brought the wrong appetizer, and  then didn't return with the correct dish for a tedious number of minutes. Nevertheless, the doctor didn't shoot any of them. For a true gamesman like him,  little pleasure was to be had in a simple shooting spree. Mindless blasting  appealed to the deranged, to the hopelessly stupid, to waxed-off teenage boys  with far too much self-esteem and no self-discipline, and to the fanatical  political types who wanted to change the world by Tuesday. Besides, his mini-9mm  pistol had a double-column magazine that held only ten rounds.

After finishing lunch with a slice of flourless dark-chocolate cake and saffron  ice cream, the doctor paid his check and departed, granting absolution even to  the woman in the absurd cloche hat.

Thursday afternoon was pleasantly cool, not chilly. The wind had blown itself to  far Japan during the night. The sky was pregnant, but the rain that was supposed  to break shortly after dawn had not yet been delivered.

While the valet brought the Mercedes, Dr. Ahriman examined his fingernails. He  was so pleased by the quality of his manicure that he almost didn't pay  attention to the surrounding scene, didn't look up from his hands-strong, manly,  and yet with the gracefully tapered fingers of a concert pianist-almost didn't  see the stranger lounging against a pickup parked across the street. The truck was beige, well maintained but not new, the type of vehicle that would  never be collectible even a thousand years from now and, therefore, one in which  Ahriman had so little interest that he had no idea what make or model year it  was. The bed of the truck was covered by a white camper shell, and the doctor  shivered at the thought of a vacation thus spent.

The lounging man, although a stranger, was vaguely familiar. He was in his early  forties, with reddish hair, a round red face, and thick eyeglasses. He was not  staring directly at Ahriman, but there was something about his demeanor that  screamed surveillance. He made a production of checking his wristwatch, and then  looking impatiently toward a nearby store, as if waiting for someone, but his  acting ability was far inferior even to that of the movie star currently  preparing for his once-in-a-career role as a presidential nose nosher.

The antique-toy shop. Just a few hours ago. A half-hour drive and six towns away  from here. That was where the doctor had seen the blushing man. When he'd amused  himself by imagining the surprise that would sweep the shop staff if he gut-shot  the other customers for no reason other than whimsy, this was one of two patrons  who, in his mind's eye, had been targets.

In a county with a population of three million, it was difficult to believe that  this second encounter in only a few hours was merely happenstance.

A beige pickup with a camper shell was not a vehicle one would ordinarily  associate with either undercover police surveillance or a private detective. When Ahriman took a closer look at it, however, he saw that the truck boasted  two antennae in addition to the standard radio aerial. One was a whip antenna,  attached to the cab, most likely in support of a police-band receiver. The other  was an odd item bolted to the rear bumper: a six-foot-long, straight, silvery  antenna with a spiked knob at the top, surrounded by a black coil.

Driving away from the restaurant, Dr. Ahriman was not surprised to see the  pickup following him.

The blushing man's trailing technique was amateurish. He did not stay on the  bumper of the Mercedes, and he allowed one or even two vehicles to intervene and  screen him, as perhaps he had learned from watching idiotic detective shows on  television, but he didn't have sufficient confidence to let Ahriman out of his  sight for more than a second or two; he constantly drove close to the center  line of the street or as near to the parked cars on the right as he dared get,  shifting back and forth as the traffic in front of him briefly obscured his view  of the Mercedes. Consequently, in the doctor's rearview and side mirrors, the  pickup was the only anomaly in the traffic pattern, unprofessionally visible,  its big antennae slashing at the air, weaving like a Dodgem car in a carnival  ride.

These days, with advanced transponder technology and even with satellite  tracking available to them, the pros could trail a suspect all day and night  without actually being within a mile of him. This tracker in the pickup was such  a loser that his only professional act was not decorating his antennae with  Day-Glo Styrofoam balls.

The doctor was baffled-and intrigued.

He began switching streets with regularity steadily moving into less-traveled  residential neighborhoods, where there was no traffic to screen the pickup. As  expected, the stalker compensated for the loss of cover merely by dropping  farther back, nearly one block, as though confident that his quarry's mental  capacity and radius of concern were equal to that of a myopic cow.

Without indicating his intention with a turn signal, the doctor abruptly hung a  hard right, sped to the nearest house, shot into the driveway, shifted into  reverse, backed into the street, and returned the way he had come-just in time  to meet the pickup as it rounded the corner in lamebrained pursuit. As he approached and passed the truck, Dr. Ahriman pretended to be looking for  an address, as if utterly unaware of being tailed. Two quick leftward glances  were sufficient to take a great deal of the mystery out of this game. At the  corner, he actually stopped, got out of the Mercedes, and went to the street  sign, where he stood peering up at the name and the block numbers, scratching his head and consulting an  imaginary address on an imaginary piece of paper in his hand, as though someone  had given him incorrect information.

When he returned to his car and drove away, he poked until he saw the beige  pickup fall in behind him once more. He didn't want to lose them.

But for the shared browsing at the toy shop this morning, the driver was still a  stranger to him; however, the driver was not alone in the truck. Boggling in  surprise and then quickly turning his head away when he saw Ahriman's Mercedes,  Skeet Caulfield had been riding in the passenger's seat.

While Dusty and Martie were digging into the doctor's past in New Mexico, Skeet  was playing detective, too. This was undoubtedly his own half-baked idea,  because his brother was too smart to have put him up to it.

The blushing man with the Mount Palomar spectacles was probably one of Skeet's  dope-smoking, dope-swilling, dope-shooting buddies. Sherlock Holmes and Watson  played by Cheech and Chong.

Regardless of what happened to Dusty and Martie in New Mexico, Skeet was the  biggest loose end. Getting rid of the cheese-headed doper had been a priority  for two days, since the doctor had sent him toddling away to jump off a roof. Now, relieved of the need to locate Skeet, Dr. Ahriman must only drive  considerately, keeping the boy in tow, until he had time to assess the situation  and to settle upon the best strategy to take advantage of this fortuitous  development. The game was on.

Martie followed Chase Glyson's Navigator into the parking lot of a roadhouse a  few miles past the city line, where a giant dancing cowboy was depicted in mid  sashay with a giant cowgirl, outlined in neon but unlit now, with a few hours  remaining till the music and the drinking started. They parked facing away from  the building, looking toward the highway.

Chase left his SUV and settled into the back of the rental Ford. "That, over  there, is the Bellon-Tockland Institute."

The institute occupied approximately twenty acres in the middle of a much larger tract of undeveloped sage. It was surrounded by an  eight-foot-high, stacked-stone wall.

The building looming beyond the wall had been inspired by Frank Lloyd Wright, in  particular by his most famous house, Fallingwater. Except that this was  Fallingwater without the water, and it was overscaled in violation-perhaps even  in contempt-of Wright's belief that every structure must be in harmony with the  land on which it rested. This massive stone-and-stucco pile, two hundred  thousand square feet if it was an inch, didn't hug the stark desert contours; it  seemed to explode from them, more an act of violence than a work of  architecture. This was what one of Wright's works might look like if  reinterpreted by Albert Speer, Hitler's favorite architect.

"A bit Goth," Dusty said.

"What do they do in there?" Martie asked. "Plan the end of the world?"

Chase wasn't reassuring. "Probably, yeah. I've never been able to make sense of  what they say they do, but maybe you're not as dense as me. Research, they say,  research that leads to. . ." Now he quoted from something he must have read:  "'Applying the latest discoveries in psychology and psychopharmacology to design  more equitable and stable structural models for government, business, culture,  and for society as a whole, which will contribute to a clean environment, a more  reliable system of justice, the fulfillment of human potential, and world  peace-'"

"And, at long last, the end of that nasty old rock-'n'-roll," Dusty added  scornfully.

"Brainwashing," Martie declared.

"Well," said Chase, "I guess I wouldn't argue with you on that- or on much of  anything you chose to say. Might even have a crashed alien spaceship in there,  for all I know."

"I'd rather it was aliens, even nasty ones with a taste for human livers," Dusty  said. "That wouldn't scare me half as much as Big Brother."

"Oh, this isn't a government shop," Chase Glyson assured him. "At least there's  not a visible connection."

"Then who are they?"

"The institute was originally capitalized by twenty-two major universities and  six big-bucks private foundations from all over the country, and they're the ones who keep it running year after year, along with  some large grants from major corporations."

"Universities?" Martie frowned. "That disappoints the raving paranoid in me. Big  Professor isn't as spooky as Big Brother."

"You wouldn't feel that way if you'd spent more time with Lizard Lampton," Dusty  said.

"Lizard Lampton?" Chase asked.

"Dr. Derek Lampton. My stepfather."

"Considering that they're working for world peace," Chase said, "it's a damn  tightly guarded place."

Less than fifty yards to the north, cars entering the institute had to stop at a  formidable-looking gate next to a guardhouse. Three uniformed men attended to  each visitor as he came to the head of the line, and one of them even circled  each vehicle with an angled mirror on a pole, to inspect the undercarriage.

"Looking for what?" Dusty wondered. "Stowaways, bombs?"

"Maybe both. Heavy electronic security, too, probably better than out at Los  Alamos."

"Maybe that's not saying much," Dusty noted, "since the Chinese waltzed out of  Los Alamos with all our nuclear secrets."

Martie said, "Judging by all this security, we don't need to worry about the  Chinese making off with our peace secrets."

"Ahriman was deep into this place," Chase said. "He had his own practice in  town, but this was his real work. And when strings had to be pulled to save his  ass, after the Pastore killings, these were the people pulling them."

Martie didn't get it. "But if they aren't government types, how can they make  cops and district attorneys and everyone else dance to their tune?"

"Lots of money, for one thing. And connections. Just because they aren't  government doesn't mean they don't have influence in all branches of the  government. . . and the police, and the media. These guys are more connected  than the Mafia but with a whole lot better image."

"Creating world peace instead of peddling dope, counterfeiting CDs, and  loan-sharking."

"Exactly. And if you think about it, they've got a better setup than if they  were government. No congressional oversight committees.

No humbug politicians to answer to. Just some good guys, doing good stuff, for a  good tomorrow, which makes it unlikely anyone would take a really close look at  them. Hell, whatever they're doing in that place, I'm sure most of them believe  they're good guys saving the world."

"But you don't."

"Because of what Ahriman did to my folks and because he was in so tight with  this place. But most people around here, they don't think about the institute.  It's not important to them. Or if they do think about it, they just have this  sort of fuzzy-warm feeling."

"Who are Bellon and Tockland?" Martie asked.

"Kornell Bellon, Nathaniel Tockland. Two bigwigs in the world of psychology,  professors once. The place was their idea. Bellon died a few years ago.

Tockland's seventy-nine, retired, married to this knockout-looking, smart, funny  lady-a rich heiress, too!-about fifty years younger. If you met the two of them,  you'd never in this life figure out what she sees in him, because he's as  humorless and dull and ugly as he is old."

Martie's eyes met Dusty's. "Haiku."

"Or something like."

Chase said, "Anyway, I thought you ought to see this. Because somehow, I don't  know, but somehow it explains Antiman. And it gives you a better idea what  you're up against."

In spite of its Wrightian influence, the institute nevertheless looked as though  it would be better suited to its environment if it were situated high in the  Carpathians, just down the road from the castle of Baron von Frankenstein,  wreathed ever in mists and struck with regularity by great bolts of lightning  that sustained rather than damaged it.

Following a fine lunch, Dr. Ahriman had intended to swing by the Rhodeses'  residence and have a look at what the fire had wrought. Now that Skeet and the  reincarnation of Inspector Clouseau were on his tail, taking that scenic route seemed unwise.

Anyway, his day was not entirely given to leisure, and he did have a patient  scheduled this afternoon. He drove directly, though sedately, to his offices in  Fashion Island.

He pretended to be unaware of the pickup as it parked in the same lot, two rows  back from his Mercedes.

His suite on the fourteenth floor was ocean-facing, but he went first to the  offices of an ear-nose-and-throat specialist on the east side of the building.  The waiting room featured windows that looked down on the parking lot. The receptionist, busy with typing, never looked up as Ahriman went to the  window, no doubt assuming he was just another patient who would have to wait  with the rest of the runny-nosed, red-eyed, raspy-throated, forlorn bunch  sitting in uncomfortable chairs and reading ancient, bacteria-infested  magazines.

He spotted his Mercedes and quickly located the beige pickup with the white  camper shell. The intrepid duo had gotten out of the truck. They were stretching  their legs, rolling their shoulders, getting a breath of fresh air, obviously  prepared to wait until their quarry reappeared.

Good.

Arriving at his suite, the doctor asked his secretary, Jennifer, if she had  enjoyed her sandwich of tofu cheese and bean sprouts on rye crackers, which was  her Thursday lunch. When he was assured that it had been delicious-she was a  health-food nut, no doubt born with less than half the usual number of taste  buds-he spent a few minutes pretending to be interested in the nutritional  imperative of taking huge regular supplements of ginko biloba, and then closeted  himself in his office.

He phoned Cedric Hawthorne, his house manager, and requested that the least  conspicuous car in his street-rod collection-a 1959 Chevrolet El Camino-be left  in the parking lot of the building next door to the one in which the doctor had  his offices. The keys were to be placed in a magnetic box under the right rear  fender. Cedric's wife could follow in another car and return him to the house.

"Oh, and bring a ski mask," the doctor added. "Leave it under the driver's  seat."

Cedric did not ask why a ski mask was wanted. It was not his job to pose  questions. He was too well trained for that. Very well trained. "Yes, certainly,  sir, one ski mask."

The doctor already had a handgun.

He had arrived at a strategy.

The game pieces were now all in place.

Soon, playtime.

66

The ranch house featured time-worn Mexican-paver floors and ceilings of exposed  vigas separating inlays of aspen latillas. In the main rooms, aromatic  fires-subtly scented by pine cones and by a few cedar splits-crackled in  sensuously sculpted adobe fireplaces. Except for the upholstered armchairs and  sofas, the tables and chairs and cabinets were mostly WPA-era pieces,  reminiscent of Stickley furniture, and everywhere underfoot were fine Navajo  rugs-except in the room where the deaths had occurred.

No fire burned here. All but one piece of the furniture had been removed and  sold. The floor was bare.

Thin gray light pierced the curtainless window, and a chill radiated from the  walls. Now and then, in her peripheral vision, Martie thought she saw the gray  light bend around something, as if strangely deflected by the soundless passage  of a nearly transparent figure, but when she looked directly, nothing was there;  the light was hard and unbent. And yet, here, it was easy to believe in unseen  presences.

In the center of the room stood a wooden chair with a spindle back, no padding  on the flat seat. Perhaps it had been selected for the degree of discomfort that  it ensured. Some monks believed that the ability to focus for meditation and  prayer was diminished by comfort.

"I sit here a few times each week," said Bernardo Pastore, "for ten or fifteen  minutes usually. . . but sometimes for hours."

His voice was thick and slightly slurred. Words were marbles in his mouth, but  he patiently polished them and got them out.

Dusty held the tape recorder with the built-in microphone turned toward the  rancher, to be sure that his awkward speech was clearly captured.

The right half of Bernardo Pastore's rebuilt face was incapable of expression,  the nerves irreparably damaged. His right jaw and part of his chin had been put  back together with metal plates, wire, surgical screws, silicone parts, and bone  grafts. The result was reasonably functional but not an aesthetic triumph. "For the first year," Bernardo said, "I spent a lot of time in that chair just  trying to understand how such a thing could be, how it could happen."

When he had hurried into this room in response to the gunfire that had killed  his sleeping son, Bernardo had been hit by two rounds fired at close range by  his wife, Fiona. The first had torn through his right shoulder, and the second  had shattered his jaw.

"After a while there seemed to be no sense trying to understand. If it wasn't  black magic, it was as good as. These days, I sit here just thinking about them,  letting them know I love them, letting her know I don't blame her, that I know  what she did was as big a mys tery to her as it is to me. 'Cause I think that's  true. It must be true."

His survival, surgeons claimed, was against all odds. The high-powered round  that shattered his jaw had been miraculously deflected upward and back by the  mandible, had traveled along the mastoid, and had exited his face above the  zygomatic arch, without damaging the external carotid artery in the temple,  which would have led to death long before medical assistance arrived.

"She loved Dion as much as I did, and all those accusations she made in her  note, the things she said I'd done to her and Dion, they were untrue. And even  if I'd done those things, and even if she had been suicidal, she wasn't the kind  of woman to kill a child, her own child or any other."

Hit twice, Pastore had staggered to a tall chest of drawers near the window,  which had been open to the summer night.

"And there he was, standing just outside, looking in at us, and the most  godawful expression on his face. Grinning, he was, and his face all sweaty with  excitement. His eyes shining."

"You're talking about Ahriman," Dusty clarified for the tape.

"Dr. Mark Ahriman," Pastore confirmed. "Standing there like he knew what was  coming, like he had tickets to the killings, a front-row seat. He looked at me.  What I saw in those eyes, I can't put into words. But if I've done more bad than  good in my life, and if there's a place where we have to account for all we've  done in this world, then I've no doubt I'll see eyes like that again." He was  silent awhile, staring at the window that was now empty of everything but the  austere light. "Then I fell."

Down, lying with the undamaged half of his face to the floor, vision swimming in  and out, he had seen his wife kill herself and fall inches beyond his reach.

"Calm, so strangely calm. As if she didn't know what she was doing. No  hesitation, no tears."

Bleeding, nauseous with pain, Bernardo Pastore had washed in and out of  consciousness, minute by minute, but during each spell of awareness, he had  dragged himself toward the telephone on the nightstand.

"I could hear coyotes outside, far away in the night at first, but then closer  and closer. I didn't know if Ahriman was still at the window, but I suspected he  was gone, and I was afraid that the coyotes, drawn by the scent of blood, might  come through the window screen. They're shy creatures alone. . . but not in a  pack."

He reached the phone, pulled it down onto the floor, and called for help, barely  able to torture half-comprehensible words out of his swollen throat and  shattered face.

"And then I waited, figuring I'd be dead before anyone got here. And that would  have been all right. Maybe that would have been best. With Fiona and Dion gone,  I didn't care much about living. Only two things made me want to hang on. Dr.  Ahriman's involvement had to be uncovered, understood. I wanted justice. And  second... though I was ready to die, I didn't want coyotes feeding on me and my  family as if we were no different from chased-down rabbits."

Judging by how loud their cries became, the pack of coyotes had gathered under  the window. Forepaws clawing at the sill. Snarling muzzles pressed against the  screen.

As Pastore had grown weaker and his mind had become increasingly muddled, he had  begun to believe that these were not coyotes seeking entrance, but creatures  previously unknown to New Mexico,

having come out of Elsewhere, through a door in the night itself. Brethren to  Ahriman, with even stranger eyes than the doctor's. Pressing at the screen not  because they were eager to feed on warm flesh, but drawn instead by a hunger for  three fading souls.

The doctor's sole patient of the day was the thirty-two-year-old wife of a man  who had made half a billion dollars in Internet-stock IPOs in just four years. Although she was an attractive woman, he had not accepted her as a patient  because of her looks. He had no sexual interest in her, because by the time she  came to him, she was already as neurotic as a lab rat tortured for months by  continuous changes in its maze and by randomly administered electric shocks.  Ahriman was aroused only by women who came to him whole and healthy, with  everything to lose.

The vast wealth of the patient was not a consideration, either. Because he had  never experienced a shortage of wealth himself, the doctor harbored nothing but  contempt for those who were motivated by money. The finest work was always done  for the sheer pleasure of it.

The husband had harried the wife into Ahriman's care not so much because her  condition concerned him as because he intended to run for the United States  Senate. He believed that his political career would be jeopardized by a spouse  given to eccentric outbursts bordering on lunacy, which was probably an  unrealistic concern, considering that such outbursts had been for many years a  staple of both politicians and their spouses, across the entire political  spectrum, resulting in little negative consequences at the polls. Besides, the  husband was as boring as a dead toad and unelectable in his own right.

The doctor had accepted her as a patient strictly because her condition  interested him. This woman was steadily working herself into a unique phobia  that might supply him with interesting material for future games. He was also  likely to use her case in his next book, which would concern obsessions and  phobias, and which he had tentatively titled Fear Not for I Am with You, though  of course he would change her name to protect her privacy.

The would-be senator's wife had for some time been increasingly obsessed with an  actor, Keanu Reeves. She assembled dozens of thick scrapbooks devoted to  photographs of Keanu, articles about Keanu, and reviews of Keanu's films. No  critic was half as familiar with this actor's filmography as she was, for in the  comfort of her forty-seat home theater, on a full-size screen, she had watched  each of his movies a minimum of twenty times and had once spent forty-eight  hours watching Speed over and over, until she had at last passed out from a lack  of sleep and a surfeit of Dennis Hopper. Not long ago she had purchased a  two-hundred-thousand-dollar Cartier heart-shaped pendant, gold and diamonds, on  the back of which she ordered engraved the words I Krave Keanu.

This lovefest had suddenly turned sour, for reasons the patient herself didn't  understand. She began to suspect that Keanu had a dark side. That he had become  aware of her interest in him and was not pleased. That he was hiring people to  watch her. Then that he was watching her himself. When the telephone rang and  the caller hung up without speaking, or when the caller said, Sorry, wrong  number, she was convinced that it was Keanu. Once she had adored his face; now  she became terrified of it. She destroyed all the scrapbooks and burned all the  photographs of him in her bedroom, because she grew convinced that he could view  her remotely through any picture of himself. Indeed, at the sight of his face,  she was now stricken by a panic attack. She could no longer watch television,  for fear of seeing an advertisement for his latest film. She dared not read most  magazines, because she might turn a page and find Keanu watching her; even the  sight of his name in print alarmed her, and her list of safe periodicals now  included little more than Foreign Policy Journal and such medical publications  as Advancements in Kidney Dialysis.

Dr. Ahriman knew that soon, as was the pattern in these cases, his patient would  become convinced that Keanu Reeves was stalking her, following her everywhere  she went, whereupon her phobia would be fully established. Thereafter, she would  either stabilize and learn to live as restricted a life as Susan Jagger had  lived under the influence of her agoraphobia, or she would descend into complete  psychosis and perhaps require at least short-term care in a good institution. Drug therapy offered hope to such patients, but the doctor did not intend to  treat this one conventionally. Eventually, he would put her through three  sessions of programming, not for the purpose of controlling her but simply to instruct her to be not afraid of Keanu. Thus, for  his next book, he would have a great chapter about a miraculous cure, which he  would attribute to his analytic skills and his therapeutic genius, concocting an  elaborate story of therapy that he had, in fact, never performed.

He hadn't yet begun to brainwash her, because her phobia needed more time to  ripen. She needed to suffer more in order that her cure would make a better  story and to ensure that her gratitude, after she was made whole again, would be  boundless. Properly played, she might even consent to appear on Oprah with him  when his book was published.

Now, sitting in the armchair across the low table from her, he listened to her  fevered speculations about the Machiavellian scheming of Mr. Reeves, not  bothering to take notes because a hidden recorder was capturing her monologue  and his occasional prodding question.

Impish as ever, the doctor suddenly thought how fun it would have been if the  actor now waiting to assault the president's nose could have been Keanu himself.  Imagine this patient's terror when learning of the news, which would absolutely  convince her that hers would have been the savaged nose had not fate put the  nation's chief executive in Keanu's path before her.

Ah, well. If there was a sense of humor behind the workings of the universe, it  wasn't as acute as the doctor's.

"Doctor, you're not listening to me."

"But I am," he assured her.

"No, you were woolgathering, and I'm not paying these outrageous hourly rates so  you can daydream," she said sharply.

Although just five short years ago, this woman and her boring husband had been  barely able to afford fries with their Big Macs, they had become as imperious  and demanding as if they had been born into vast wealth.

Indeed, her Keanu madness and her pan-faced husband's crazy need to seek  validation at the ballot box resulted from the suddenness of their financial  success, from a nagging guilt about having gained so much with so little effort,  and from the unspoken fear that what had come so quickly could be quickly gone.

"You don't have a patient conflict here, do you?" she asked with sudden worry.

"Excuse me?"

"An unrevealed patient conflict? You don't know K-K-Keanu, do you, Doctor?"

"No, no. Of course not."

"Not to reveal a connection with him would be highly unethical. Highly. And how  do I know you're not capable of unethical conduct? What do I really know about  you at all?"

Rather than draw the Taurus PT-ill Millennium from his shoulder holster and  teach this nouveau-riche dirt a lesson in manners, the doctor switched on his  considerable charm and sweet-talked her into continuing with her delusional  ramblings.

A wall clock revealed less than half an hour until he could send her out into  the Keanu-haunted world. Then he would be able to deal with Skeet Caulfield and  the blushing man.

In places, the glaze on the Mexican payers had been worn away.

"Where I kept seeing bloodstains," Bernardo Pastore explained. "While I was in  the hospital, friends cleaned out the room, got rid of the furniture,  everything. When I came back, there were no stains. . . but I kept seeing them  anyway. For a year, I scrubbed a little every day. It wasn't blood I was trying  to get rid of. It was the grief. When I realized that, I finally stopped  scrubbing."

During his first few days in the intensive-care unit, he had struggled to  survive, only intermittently conscious; his injuries and his badly swollen face  had prevented him from speaking even when he was alert. By the time he had  accused Ahriman, the psychiatrist had been able to establish a cover story, with  witnesses.

Pastore stepped to the bedroom window and gazed out at the ranch. "I saw him  right here. Right here, looking in. It wasn't anything I dreamed after I was  shot, like they tried to say."

Moving to the rancher's side, keeping the tape recorder close to him, Dusty  said, "And no one believed you?"

"A few. But only one that mattered. A cop. He started working on Ahriman's  alibi, and maybe he was getting somewhere, because they cracked his knuckles  hard. And shifted him to another case while they closed this one."

"You think he'd talk to us?" Dusty asked.

"Yeah. After all this time, I suspect he would. I'll call and tell him about  you."

"If you could set it up for this evening, that would be good. I think Chase  Glyson's going to keep us busy tomorrow with former students at Little  Jackrabbit."

"None of what you're doing is going to matter," Pastore said, and he might have  been staring into the past or the future rather than at the ranch as it was now.

"Ahriman's untouchable somehow."

"We'll see."

Even in the gray light filtered through a skin of gray dust on the window, the  thick keloid scars on the right side of Pastore's face were angry red. As if sensing Martie's stare, the rancher glanced at her. "I'll give you  nightmares, ma'am."

"Not me. I like your face, Mr. Pastore. There's honesty in it. Besides, once a  person's met Mark Ahriman, there's nothing else could ever give her nightmares." "That's right enough, isn't it?" Pastore said, turning his eyes once more to the  waning afternoon.

Dusty switched off the recorder.

"They could remove most of these scars now," Bernardo Pastore said. "And they  wanted me to have more surgeries on the jaw, too. They promised they could  smooth out the line. But what do I care how I look anymore?"

Neither Dusty nor Martie knew what to say to that. The rancher was no older than  forty-five, with many years ahead of him, but no one could make him want those  coming years, no one but he himself.

Jennifer lived within two miles of the office. In good weather and in bad, she  walked to and from work, because walking was as much a part of her health  regimen as tofu cheese, bean sprouts, and ginko biloba.

The doctor asked her to do him the favor of driving his car to the Mercedes  dealership and leaving it for an oil change and tire rotation. "They'll give you  a lift home in their courtesy van."

"Oh, that's okay," she said, "I'll walk home from there."

"But that's probably nine miles."

"Really? Great!"

"What if it rains?"

"They've changed the forecast. Rain tomorrow, not today. But how will you get  home?"

"I'm walking over to Barnes and Noble to browse, then meeting a friend for an  early drink," he lied. "He'll take me home." He consulted his wristwatch. "Close  up early. . . in say about fifteen minutes. That way, even with a nine-mile  walk, you'll get home at the usual time. And take thirty dollars from petty  cash, so you can stop at that place you like-Green Acres, is it?-for dinner if  you want."

"You're the most considerate man," she said.

Fifteen minutes would be enough time for Ahriman to leave this building by the  front entrance, where the boys in the beige pickup could not see him, proceed to  the building next door, and then to the parking lot behind it, where his 1959  Chevrolet El Camino would be waiting for him.

The riding rings and the paddocks were deserted, all the quarter horses warmly  stabled in advance of the coming storm.

When Martie paused beside the rental car, the adobe ranch house didn't appear  quaint and romantic, as it had when she first arrived. As with so much of New  Mexico's architecture, this place had been magical, as if sprung from the desert  by an act of sorcery; but now the patinaed earthen walls looked no more romantic  than mud, and the house seemed not to be rising up, but settling down, slumped,  melting into the earth from which it had been born, soon to vanish as though it  had never existed, along with the people who had once known love and joy within  its walls.

"What are we dealing with, I wonder?" Dusty said as Martie drove away from the  ranch house. "What is Ahriman. . . in addition to what he appears to be?"

"You're not talking just about his connections, the institute, who protects him  and why."

"No." His voice had fallen, soft and solemn, as if he spoke now of sacred  things. "Who is this guy, beyond the obvious and easy answers?"

"A sociopath. A narcissist, according to Closterman." But she knew these were  not the words that he was looking for, either.

The private, graveled road leading from the ranch to the paved highway was more  than a mile long, passing first across table-flat land and then down a series of  hills. Under the bleak gypsum sky, in this last hour of winter light, the dark  green sage appeared to be mottled with silver leafing. The tumbleweeds, in this  breathless day, stood as untumbled as the strange rock formations that resembled  the half-buried, knobby bones of prehistoric behemoths.

"If Ahriman came walking across the desert right now," Dusty said, "would  rattlesnakes boil out of their dens by the thousands and follow him, as docile  as kittens?"

"Don't go spooky on me, babe."

Yet Martie had no difficulty imagining Ahriman at Dion Pastore's bedroom window,  in the aftermath of the gunfire, unperturbed by the arrival of the coyotes,  standing among those predators as though he insisted upon and received a place  of honor in the pack, pressing his face to the screen and into the thick smell  of blood, while the prairie wolves growled low in their throats and, on both  sides of him, scraped their teeth against the mesh.

Where the graveled road rounded the side of a hill and took a sharp turn  downward, someone had left a spike strip, one of those tricks the police  resorted to in high-speed urban chases when the target of the pursuit proved  difficult to catch.

Martie saw it too late. She braked just as both front tires blew out.

The steering wheel ripped back and forth in her hands. She fought for control.

Rattling against the undercarriage, like a frenzied snake with a cracked spine,  the spike strip whipped from front to back of the Ford, where it found more  rubber with its fangs. The rear tires blew.

Four flats, sliding and shredding across loose gravel, down a runneled incline,  allowed Martie less control than she might have had if the Ford were skating  across ice. The car turned sideways to the road.

"Hang on!" she cried, though it hardly needed to be said.

Then the pothole.

The Ford jolted, canted, seemed to hesitate for a fraction of a second, and  rolled.

Rolled twice, she thought, though it may have been three times, because counting  was not her first concern, especially when they went over the edge of the road  into a wide dry swale, tumbling and sliding twenty feet in a curiously lazy  fall. The windshield burst and pieces of the car tore loose with shrieks and  twangs before at last the Ford came to rest on its roof.

67

Faster than smelling salts, the pungent reek of gasoline brought Martie out of  shock. She heard it gurgling, too, from some ruptured line.

"You all right?"

"Yeah," Dusty confirmed, struggling with his safety harness and cursing either  because the buckle release wouldn't work or because he was too disoriented to  locate it.

Hanging upside down in her harness, looking up at the steering wheel and, higher  still, at her feet and the floorboards, Martie was a little disoriented, too.

"They'll be coming."

"The gun," he said urgently.

The Colt was in her purse, but her purse was no longer on the seat, no longer  wedged between her hip and the door.

Instinct told her to look toward the floor, but the floor was above her now. The  purse couldn't have fallen upward.

With trembling fingers, she found the harness release, flailed out of the  stubbornly entangling straps, and slid onto the ceiling.

Voices. Not close but drawing nearer.

She would have bet her house that the approaching men weren't paramedics rushing  to the rescue.

Dusty clambered loose of his harness and eeled onto the ceiling. "Where is it?"

"I don't know." The words wheezed from her, because the stink of gasoline made  breathing increasingly difficult.

The light inside the overturned car was dismal. Outside, the cloud-choked sky  faded toward twilight. The broken-out windshield was clogged with tumbleweeds  and other brush that filled the bottom of the swale, so hardly any light entered  from that direction.

"There!" Dusty said.

Even as he spoke, she saw the purse, near the rear window, and she slithered on  her belly across the ceiling.

The purse had been open, and several items had spilled from it. She swept a  compact, a comb, a tube of lipstick, and other objects out of her way, and  grabbed the bag, which was heavy with the weapon.

Small stones clattered down on the exposed undercarriage of the car, dislodged  by men descending the slope from the graveled road.

Martie looked left and then right, at the side windows, which were low to the  ground, expecting to see their feet first.

She tried to be quiet, listening for their footsteps, so she might have some  advance warning of which side they would approach, but she was forced to gasp  noisily for breath, because the air was thick with fumes. Dusty gasped, too, and  the desperation in their wheezing was an even more frightening sound than the  clatter of the falling stones.

Pitipat, pitipat-not the sound of her heart, because that was booming-pitipat,  pitipat, and then a wetness dripping down the side of her face, which made her  twitch and peer up toward the bottom of the car. Gasoline was drizzling through  the floorboards.

Martie twisted her head, looked behind, and saw three or four other places where  fuel was dripping down through the inverted Ford. The droplets caught what  little light there was and glimmered like pearls as they fell.

Dusty's face. Eyes wide with the realization of their hopeless situation. Stinging fumes pricked tears from Martie's eyes, and just as her husband's face  blurred, she saw him mouth the words Don't shoot more clearly than she heard him  wheeze them.

If the muzzle flash didn't touch off an explosion-and it would- then the spark  from a ricochet was sure to destroy them.

She wiped the back of her hand across her streaming eyes and glimpsed a pair of  cowboy boots at the nearest window, and someone began wrenching on a stubborn,  buckled door.

The grape-purple '59 Chevrolet El Camino was smartly customized: a dechromed, filled, and louvered hood; smoothed, one-piece bumpers; a sweet  tubular grille; an air-activated hard tonneau roof; lowered on McGaughly's  Classic Chevy dropped spindles.

Dr. Ahriman waited at the wheel, parked in the street within sight of the exit  from the parking lot behind his office building.

Under the driver's seat was the ski mask. He had checked for it before starting  the engine. Good, reliable Cedric.

The weight of the mini-9mm pistol in the holster under his left arm was not in  the least uncomfortable. Indeed, it was a pleasant, warm little weight. Bang,  bang, you're dead.

And here came Jennifer in the Mercedes, pausing at the tollbooth only to say  hello to the clerk, because the car had a monthly sticker on its windshield.  Then the striped barrier rose, and she proceeded to the stop sign at the street. Behind her, the pickup braked to a hard stop at the booth, all its antennae  quivering violently.

Jennifer turned left into the street.

Judging by the length of time they spent at the booth, the two dithering  detectives had failed to have change in hand to ensure a quick exit. By the time  they reached the street, the Mercedes was turning the corner at the far end of  the block, and they nearly lost sight of it.

The doctor had been concerned that seeing only Jennifer and not their true  quarry, Skeet and his sidekick would wait in the parking lot for him to reappear  or until they died of thirst, whichever came first. Perhaps they were unprepared  for the parking toll precisely because they had been debating the wisdom of  tailing the car without their target in it. In the end, they had taken the bait,  as the doctor had expected.

He didn't follow them. He knew where Jennifer was going, and he set out for the  Mercedes dealership via a route of his own, making use of a shortcut or two. The El Camino was smartly powered by a 9.5:1 small-block Chevy 350 engine. The  doctor enjoyed scooting across Newport Beach with one eye out for traffic cops  and a quick hand on the horn for those pedestrians who dared enter a crosswalk. He parked across the street from the service entrance to the dealership and  waited more than four minutes for the Mercedes and the pickup to appear.  Jennifer drove directly into a service bay, while the truck parked farther along  the street, a few spaces in front of the El Camino.

With the camper shell blocking their view through the rear cab window of the  pickup, neither Skeet nor his partner in adventure was easily able to see who  was parked behind them. They could have used their side mirrors to scope the  street, but Ahriman suspected that because they saw themselves as the intrepid  surveillance team, they didn't comprehend the possibility that they themselves  could also be surveilled.

The compact, customized, slab-sided Colt slipped under Martie's belt and snugged  into the small of her back more easily than she had expected.

She pulled her sweater over it and tugged her tweed jacket into shape as the  driver's door was wrenched open with a hard screech-pop of twisted metal. A man ordered them out.

Desperately sucking fumes, her lungs aching for a clean breath, Martie  belly-crawled across the car ceiling, through the door, and into the open air. A man grabbed her left arm and jerked her to her feet, pulled her, stumbling,  after him, and then shoved her aside. She staggered and fell, landing hard on  the sandy soil and half in a snagging mass of sagebrush.

She didn't at once reach for the pistol, because she was still gasping  uncontrollably and half blinded by a flood of tears. Her throat was hot and raw,  her mouth full of an astringent taste. The lining of her nostrils felt scorched,  and gasoline fumes writhed all the way into her sinuses, caustic in the hollows  of her brow, where now a throbbing headache flared.

She heard Dusty being dragged from the rental car and knocked to the ground as  she had been.

They both sat where they had fallen, sucking in great shuddering breaths, but choking on the too-sweet air and explosively exhaling before their  lungs could get full benefit.

Martie's watering eyes blurred and distorted everything, but she saw two men,  one watching over them with what appeared to be a gun in his hand, the other  circling the overturned car. Big men. Dark clothes. No facial details yet. Something fluttered against her face. Gnats. Clouds of gnats. But cold. Not  gnats, snow. Snow had begun to fall.

She was breathing easier but not normally, her vision clearing as her eyes dried  out, when she was grabbed by her hair and urged to her feet once more. "Come on, come on," one of the strangers growled impatiently. "If you slow us  down, I'll just blow your brains out and leave you here."

Martie took the threat seriously and started up the gentle slope of the swale  along which the car had rolled.

When Jennifer appeared on the far side of the street, walking away from the  Mercedes dealership, the sleuthhounds were flummoxed. They were prepared to  trail her in their flivver, but neither frail Skeet nor his round-faced friend  was in good enough condition to undertake a protracted foot pursuit.

Worse, Jennifer walked as if all the hounds of Hell and half a dozen aggressive  insurance salesmen were after her. Head erect, shoulders back, bosom thrust  forward, hips rolling, she strode into the cool afternoon like a woman intent on  making the Nevada border before sundown.

She was wearing the same pantsuit she had worn at the office, but her feet were  shod in Rockport's best walking shoes instead of in high heels. Everything she  needed to carry was secure in a fanny pack, freeing her hands; she swung her  arms rhythmically, as if she were an Olympic racewalker. Her hair was tied back;  her ponytail bobbed cutely as she burned up the pavement, on her way to dinner. The El Camino windows were lightly tinted, and Jennifer wasn't familiar with  this car. When she passed, across the street, she didn't even glance in the  doctor's direction.

She turned at the corner, still in sight, and started up a long but gentle  incline.

Bounce, bounce, bounce: the ponytail. Her clenching butt muscles looked hard  enough to crack walnuts.

Gesticulating at each other, the detectives pulled away from the curb, hung a  sharp U-turn, drove past the El Camino without giving it a look, and proceeded  to the corner, where they drew to the curb and stopped again. A few hundred yards uphill, at the next intersection, Jennifer turned right. She  headed west.

When she was nearly out of sight, the pickup pursued her.

After a decent interval, the doctor followed the pickup.

Once more, the funky truck pulled to a stop on the shoulder of the roadway about  a hundred yards behind Jennifer.

The street ahead led uphill for perhaps a mile, and apparently the gumshoes  intended to watch Jennifer until she reached the crest, then catch up to her,  pull to the shoulder, and watch her some more as she strode onward.

Green Acres, culinary mecca to the alfalfa-sprouts set, was about four miles  away, and Ahriman saw no reason to follow the pickup there in fits and starts.  He drove past the truck, past Jennifer, and on to the restaurant.

The two amateur detectives greatly amused the doctor, Sherlock and Watson  without wisdom or good costumes. Their sweet idiocy gave them a charm all their  own. He almost wished that he didn't have to kill them, that he could keep them  around like two pet monkeys, to enliven the occasional dull afternoon. Of course, it had been a long time since he had directly taken a human life,  rather than through an intermediary, and he was looking forward to getting his  hands wet, so to speak.

Silver fleece, shorn from a woolly sky, drifted straight down through the  windless twilight, and every clump of sage and every frozen tumbleweed was  already knitting itself a white sweater.

By the time they reached the top of the slope, Martie's vision cleared, and her  breathing was labored but not ragged. She was still spitting out saliva soured by gasoline fumes, but she wasn't choking anymore. A midnight-blue BMW was stopped on the ranch road, doors open, engine running,  clouds of vapor billowing from its exhaust pipe. The heavy winter tires were  fitted with snow chains.

Martie glanced back into the swale, at the wrecked Ford, hoping that it would  explode. In this still and open land, the sound might be heard even half a mile  away at the ranch house; or looking out a window at an opportune moment, maybe  Bernardo Pastore would spot the glow of fire just beyond the hill, a beacon. False hopes, and she knew it.

Even in this dying light, Martie could see that both gunmen were carrying  machine pistols with extended magazines. She didn't know much about such guns,  just that they were point-and-spray weapons, deadly even in the hands of a lousy  marksman, deadlier still when wielded by men who knew what they were doing. These two appeared to have been created in a cloning lab, using a genetic  formula labeled presentable thugs. Although good-looking, clean-cut, and almost  cuddly in their Eddie Bauer winter togs, they were a formidable pair, with necks  thick enough to foil any garroting wire thinner than a winch cable and with  shoulders of such massive width that they ought to be able to carry horses out  of a burning stable.

The one with blond hair opened the trunk of the BMW and ordered Dusty to get  into it. "And don't do anything stupid, like trying to come out at me later with  a lug wrench, because I'll blow you away before you can swing it."

Dusty glanced at Martie, but they both knew this wasn't a good time to pull the  Colt. Not with the two machine pistols trained on them. Their advantage wasn't  the concealed pistol; it was surprise, a pathetic advantage but an advantage  nonetheless.

Angry at the delay, the blond moved fast and kicked Dusty's legs out from under  him, tumbling him to the ground. He screamed, "Get in the trunk!"

Reluctant to leave Martie alone with them but with no rational choice except to  obey, Dusty got to his feet and climbed into the trunk of the car.

Martie could see her husband in there, on his side, peering out, face bleak. This was the pose of victims on the covers of tabloids, related to  stories about Mafia hits, and the only things missing from the composition were  the fixed stare of death and the blood.

As if weaving shroud cloth, snow shuttled into the trunk, laying a white weft  first on Dusty's eyebrows and lashes.

She had the sickening feeling she would never see him again.

The blond slammed the lid and twisted the key in the lock. He went around to the  driver's side and got in behind the wheel.

The second man pushed Martie into the backseat and quickly slid in after her. He  was directly behind the driver.

Both gunmen moved with the grace of athletes, and their faces were not like  those of traditional hired muscle. Unscarred, fresh, with high brows, good  cheekbones, patrician noses, and square chins, either was a man whom an heiress  could bring home to Mummy and Daddy without having her allowance slashed and her  dowry reduced to one teapot. They looked so much alike that their essential  clone nature was disguised only by hair color-dark blond, coppery red- and by  personal style.

The blond seemed to be the more volatile of the two. Still hot because of  Dusty's hesitancy about getting into the trunk, he slammed the car into gear,  spun the tires, causing gravel to clatter against the undercarriage, and he  drove away from the Pastore ranch, toward the highway half a mile ahead. The redhead smiled at Martie and raised his eyebrows, as though to say that  sometimes his associate was a tribulation.

He held the machine pistol in one hand, pointed at the floor between his feet.  He seemed unconcerned that Martie might offer effective resistance.

Indeed she could never have taken the weapon away from him or landed a disabling  blow. As quick and big as he was, he would crush her windpipe with a hard chop  of his elbow or pound her face through the side window.

Now more than ever, she needed Smilin' Bob beside her, either in the flesh or in  spirit. And with a fire ax.

She thought they were headed toward the highway to the south. In less than a  quarter mile, however, they turned off the ranch road and traveled due east on a  rutted track defined almost solely by the clear swath it carved through  sagebrush, mesquite, and cactus.

If her memory of the map could be trusted-and judging by what she had seen of the landscape on the trip out from Santa Fe-nothing lay in this  direction but wasteland.

Cascades of snow, a foaming Niagara of flakes, resisted the probing headlights,  so a city might have waited ahead of them. She held out no hope for a  metropolis, however, and expected instead a killing ground with unmarked graves.

"Where are we going?" she asked, because she thought they would expect her to be  full of nervous questions.

"Lover's lane," said the driver, and his eyes in the rearview mirror met hers,  looking for a thrill of fear.

"Who are you people?"

"Us? We're the future," the driver said.

Again, the man in the backseat smiled and raised his eyebrows, as if to mock his  partner's dramatic flair.

The BMW wasn't moving as fast as it had been on the ranch road, though it was  still going too fast for the terrain. Encountering a bad pothole, the car  bounced hard; the muffler and the gas tank scraped on the down side of the  bounce, and they were jolted again.

Because neither the redhead nor Martie was wearing a seat belt, they were lifted  and rocked forward.

She seized the opportunity, reached behind herself, and slid her right hand up  under her coat and sweater. She pulled the pistol from her belt while they were  being pitched around.

As the car settled down, Martie held the gun at her side, on the seat, against  her thigh, letting her unbuttoned jacket trail over it. Her body also blocked  the redhead's view of the Colt.

The driver's pistol was probably on the seat at his side, within easy reach. Beside Martie, the redhead was still gripping his gun in his right hand, between  his knees, muzzle aimed at the floor.

Action. Action informed by intelligence and a moral perspective. She trusted her  intelligence. Murder wasn't moral, of course, though killing in self-defense  surely was.

But the time wasn't right.

Timing. Timing was equally important in ballet and gunplay. She'd heard that somewhere. Unfortunately, in spite of her visits to the  shooting range, having shot at nothing more than paper silhouettes of the human  form, she knew nothing about either ballet or gunplay.

"You'll never get away with this," she said, letting them hear the genuine  terror in her voice, because it would reinforce their conviction that she was  helpless.

The driver was amused. To his partner, he said, with a mock tremor of doubt in  his voice, "Zachary, you think we'll get away with this?"

"Yeah," said the redhead. He raised his eyebrows again and shrugged.

"Zachary," the driver said, "what do we call an operation like this?"

"A simple hump and dump," said Zachary.

"You hear that, girl? With the emphasis on simple. Nothing to it. A walk in the  park. A piece of cake."

"You know, Kevin, for me," Zachary said, "the emphasis is on hump."

Kevin laughed. "Girl, since you're the humpee and you and your husband are the  dumpees, it's naturally a big deal to you. But it's no big deal to us, is it,  Zachary?"

"No."

"And it won't be to the cops, either. Tell her where she's going, Zachary."

"With me, to Orgasmo City."

"Man, you're delusional but fun. And after Orgasmo City?"

"You're going down an old Indian well," Zachary told Martie, "and God knows how  deep into the aquifer under it."

"Been no Indians living there or using it for more than three hundred years,"  Kevin explained.

"Wouldn't want to contaminate anybody's drinking water," said Zachary. "Federal  offense."

"Nobody'll ever find your bodies. Maybe after your car crash, you just wandered  off into the desert, got disoriented and lost in the storm, and froze to death."

As the speed of the car dropped, eerie shapes appeared in the snow on both  sides. They were low and undulant, pale formations reflecting the headlights,  gliding past like ghost ships in a fog. Weathered ruins. Fragments of buildings,  the stacked-stone and adobe walls of a long-abandoned settlement.

When Kevin braked to a stop and put the car in park, Martie turned toward  Zachary and jammed the .45 Colt into his side so hard that his face clutched in  pain.

His eyes revealed a man who was both fearless and pitiless, but not a stupid  man. Without her saying a word, he dropped the machine pistol onto the floor  between his feet.

"What?" Kevin asked, instinct serving him well.

As the driver sought Martie in the rearview mirror, she said, "Reach behind and  put your hands on the headrest, you sonofabitch."

Kevin hesitated.

"Now," Martie screamed, "before I gut-shoot this moron and blow out the back of  your head. Hands on the headrest where I can see them."

"We have a situation here," Zachary confirmed.

Kevin's right shoulder dropped slightly, as he started to reach for the machine  pistol on the front seat.

"HANDS ON THE HEADREST NOW, YOU FUCKER!" she roared, and she was shocked to hear how totally psychotic she sounded, not like  a woman merely playing at being tough, but like a genuine crazy person, and in  fact she probably was crazy right now, totally psychotic with raw fear.

Sitting up straight again, Kevin reached behind himself with both hands and  gripped the headrest.

With the Colt jammed into his gut, Zachary was going to behave, because she  could pull the trigger faster than he could move.

"You got off that plane with nothing but carry-ons," Kevin said.

"Shut up. I'm thinking."

Martie didn't want to kill anyone, not even human garbage like this, not if it  could be avoided. But how to avoid it? How could she get out of the car and get  them out of the car, too, without giving them a chance to try anything? Kevin wouldn't leave it alone. "Nothing but carry-ons, so where did you get a  gun?"

Two of them to watch. All that movement getting out. Moments of imbalance,  vulnerability.

"Where did you get the gun?" Kevin persisted.

"I pulled it out of your buddy's ass. Now shut up?'

Going out of the driver's side, she'd have to turn her back on one of them, at  some point. No good.

So then ease backward out of the passenger's side. Make Zachary slide across the  seat with her, keeping the gun in his belly, looking past him to Kevin in the  front. With the windshield wipers off, the snow began to spread a thin coverlet on the  glass. The motion of the descending flakes made her dizzy.

Don't look outside.

She met Zachary's eyes.

He recognized her irresolution.

She almost looked away, realized that would be dangerous, and jammed the muzzle  of the Colt even deeper into his gut, until he broke eye contact.

"Maybe it's not a real gun," Kevin said. "Maybe it's plastic."

"It's real," Zachary was quick to inform him.

Feeling her way backward, out of the car, would be tricky. Could hook her foot  on the doorsill or hook up on the door itself. Could fall.

"You're just damn housepainters," Kevin said.

"I'm a video-game designer."

"What?"

"My husband's the housepainter."

And after she was out, when Zachary followed her, he would for a moment fill the  open door, her gun in his belly, and Kevin would be blocked from her sight. The only smart thing to do was shoot them while she had a clear advantage.  Smilin' Bob hadn't told her what to do when intelligence and morality collided  head-on.

"I don't think the lady knows what's next," Zachary told his partner.

"Maybe we got a stalemate here," Kevin said.

Action. If they thought she was incapable of ruthless action, then they would  act.

Think. Think.

68

A winter scene frozen in a liquid-filled glass globe: the soft and rounded lines  of ancient Indian ruins, silvered sage, a midnight-blue BMW, two men and one  woman therein, another man unseen in the trunk-two dumpers and two dumpees-and  nothing moving, everyone and everything as still as the empty universe before  the Big Bang, except for the snow, a windless blizzard, which falls and falls as  though a giant's hand just shook the globe, an arctic winter's worth of fine  white snow.

"Zachary," Martie finally said, "without turning away from me, using your left  hand, open your door. Kevin, you keep your hands on the headrest."

Zachary tried the door. "Locked."

"Unlock it," she said.

"Can't. It's the childproof master lock. He has to do it up front."

"Where's the lock release, Kevin?" Martie asked.

"On the console."

If she allowed him to operate the lock release, his hand would be within inches  of the machine pistol that was no doubt lying on the passenger's seat.

"Keep your hands on the headrest, Kevin."

"What kind of video games you design?" Kevin asked, trying to distract her. Ignoring him, Martie said, "You have a pocket knife, Zachary?"

"Pocket knife? No."

"Too bad. If you so much as twitch, you'll need a knife to dig two hollow points  out of your intestines, because you'll never live long enough to get to a  hospital where a real doctor could do it"

As she slid backward across the seat, to a point at which she would be midway  between the front headrests, Martie kept the pistol trained on the redhead,  although the weapon would have been more intimidating if she could have  continued to press the muzzle hard into his abdomen.

"In case you're wondering," she said, "this piece isn't double-action.  Single-action. No ten-pound pull. Four and half pounds, crisp and easy, so the  barrel won't wobble. Shots aren't going to go wide or wild."

She couldn't see well enough into the front while sitting in the back, so she  eased forward, rising off the seat, legs bent in a half squat, feet splayed and  braced, twisted toward Zachary but her right shoulder against the back of the  front seat, with a cross-body grip on the pistol. Awkward. Stupidly, dangerously  awkward, but she couldn't figure any other way to keep the weapon trained on  Zachary and be able to watch Kevin's hand as he lowered it to the console. She didn't dare reach into the front seat herself. She would be unbalanced,  completely distracted from Zachary.

Two angry Orcs and one Hobbit locked in a car. What are the chances that all  three get out alive? Poor.

Either the Hobbit wins and moves on to the next level of play, or the game ends. To peer into the front seat, she'd have to turn her head away from Zachary,  leaving him visible only in her peripheral vision. "One sound of movement, one  glimpse out of the corner of my eye, and you're dead."

"If you were me, I'd already be dead," Zachary noted.

"Yeah, well, I'm not you, shithead. If you're smart, you'll sit tight and thank  God you have a chance of coming out alive."

Heart beating so hard it felt like it was tearing loose. That was okay. More  blood to the brain. Clearer thinking.

She turned her head and leaned to look into the front seat.

As she expected, Kevin's machine pistol was on the passenger's seat, within his  easy reach. Big magazine. Thirty rounds.

"Okay, Kevin, carefully use your right hand to pop the lock release, with the emphasis on carefully, and then put it back on the headrest."

"Don't get nervous and waste me for nothing."

"I'm not nervous," she said, and the steadiness of her voice astonished her,  because she was shaking inside if not out, shaking like field mouse in the  shadow of an owl's wings.

"Gonna just do what you say." Kevin slowly lowered his right hand from behind  his head.

Martie glanced quickly at Zachary, who was keeping his hands high, beside his  face, in order not to alarm her, even though she hadn't told him to do that-and  she should have told him-and then she looked into the front seat once more.

As Kevin's hand seemed to float down toward the lock release, he said, "I like  to play Carmageddon. You know that game?"

"I'd figure you for Kingpin," she said.

"Hey, that's some cool action, too."

"Easy now."

He pressed the rocker switch.

What happened next seemed to have been planned between the two men  telepathically.

The locks released with an audible sound.

Instantly, Zachary threw open the back door and rolled out, and from the corner  of Martie's eye, she saw him reaching down to scoop the machine pistol off the  floor as he went.

Even as Martie squeezed off two shots at the departing redhead and sensed that  at least one might have hit its mark, Kevin dropped sideways onto the front seat  and grabbed his weapon.

Her second round still booming like cannon fire in the confines of the car,  Martie went to the floor, out of Kevin's line of sight, pointed the Colt at the  back of the front seat, and rapid-fired a horizontal spread of  one-two-three-four rounds into the upholstery, not sure if the slugs would punch  through all that padding and support structure.

Vulnerable from the front and above. Nothing preventing Kevin from returning  fire through the seat, and him with thirty rounds to find her. If unhit, he  might rise up, shoot down on her. Vulnerable, too, from the open door from  Zachary outside with the second machine pistol. Couldn't stay. Move, move. Even  as she fired the fourth round into the seat, she scrambled for safety.

She dared not waste time backing up to open the door behind her, so she went out  of the door that Zachary had opened, maybe straight into a hard barrage, with  only one round remaining in her seven-round magazine.

No barrage. Zachary-for me, the emphasis is on hump-wasn't waiting for her. He  was hit, down, though not dead. With at least one and possibly two bullets in  his broad back, the rugged beast was struggling onto his hands and knees. Martie spotted what he was crawling toward. His pistol. When he'd gone down, the  piece had tumbled out of his hand. It lay about ten feet in front of him on the  snow-dusted ground.

All survival mechanism now, Sunday school and civilization no match for the  savage in her heart, she kicked him in the ribs, and he grunted in pain, tried  to grab her, but then he fell forward onto his face.

Heart knocking, knocking so hard that her vision pulsed, dimming at the edges  with each beat. Throat crimped tight with fear. Breath falling like chunks of  ice into her lungs, then rattling noisily out of her. She skated past Zachary to  the machine pistol. Snatched it off the ground, expecting to be lifted and  pitched by the powerful impact of multiple rounds in the back.

Dusty locked in the trunk of the BMW. Desperately shouting her name. Pounding on  the inside of the lid.

Amazed to be alive, she dropped the Colt. Spun with the new weapon in both  hands, squinting into snowy murk, searching for a target, but Kevin hadn't been  behind her. The driver's door was closed. She couldn't see him in the car. Maybe he was dead on the front seat. Maybe he wasn't.

Hardly any glow remained in the winter sky. Not the color of gypsum anymore.  Ashes now, and pure soot in the east. The falling snow was much brighter than  the fading realm above, as if these were flakes of light, the last bits of day  shaken loose and cast out by an impatient night.

Pearlescent in the car's headlights, the snow-curtains behind curtains behind  more curtains of snow-played tricks on the eye, and shadowy shapes seemed to  steal through it where, in fact, no shadows moved at all.

In a genuflection to God-given instinct, Martie dropped onto one knee, making a smaller target of herself, surveying the gloom and the bright  wedges thrown by the headlights, searching for any movement other than the  relentless and utterly vertical descent of snow, snow, snow.

Zachary lay facedown, unmoving. Dead? Unconscious? Faking? Better keep one eye  on him.

In the trunk of the car, Dusty was still calling her name, and now he was  desperately trying to kick his way through into the backseat.

"Quiet!" she shouted. "I'm all right. Quiet. One down, maybe two. Quiet, so I  can hear."

Dusty fell silent at once, but now in spite of the hoofbeat thunder of Martie's  own galloping heart, she realized the car was idling. Clock-work engine. Heavy,  damping muffler: just a soft, low whump-whump-whump. Nevertheless, there was enough noise to mask any sounds Kevin might make if he  was lying, wounded, in the car.

Wiping laces of snow off her eyelashes, she rose slightly from her crouch,  squinting, and saw that the front door on the passenger's side of the BMW was  open. She hadn't noticed it before. Whether wounded or not, Kevin was out of the  car and on the move.

Arriving at Green Acres well ahead of the unsuspecting Jennifer and the two  idiot nephews of Miss Jane Marple, Dr. Ahriman went into the restaurant to  select a takeout snack to curb his appetite until dinner, which he would most  likely have to postpone until late this evening, depending on events.

The corn-pone decor stunned his sensibilities, and he felt as though someone had  rapped a shiny steel reflex hammer lightly against the exposed surface of the  frontal lobe of his cerebrum. Oak-plank flooring. Country-plaid fabrics. Striped  gingham curtains. Horrid stained-glass depictions of wheat sheaves, ears of  corn, green beans, carrots, broccoli, and other examples of Mother Nature's vast  bounty separated one booth from another. When he saw the waitresses wearing  blue-denim, bib-style culottes and red-and-white checkered shirts, with small  straw hats barely larger than skullcaps, he nearly fled.

He stood by the cashier's station, reading the menu, which he found more gruesome than any set of autopsy photographs he had ever perused. He  would have thought that a restaurant offering such grim fare must go bankrupt in  a month, but even at this early hour, the place had business. Diners were  stuffing their flushed faces with enormous green salads glistening with yogurt  dressing, steaming bowls of meatless soup, egg-white omelets with stacks of dry  cracked-wheat toast, veggie burgers as appetizing as peat moss, and gloppy  masses of tofu-potato casserole.

Appalled, he wanted to ask the hostess why the restaurant didn't carry this  insane theme one step further, to its logical fulfillment. Simply line the  customers up at a trough or scatter their meals on the floor and allow them to  graze barefoot at their leisure, baaing and mooing as they pleased.

Preferring to be ravaged by hunger rather than to eat anything on this menu, the  doctor hopefully turned his attention to the big, individually wrapped cookies  displayed near the cash register. A hand-lettered sign proudly proclaimed that  they were HOMEMADE AND WHOLESOME. Rhubarb-apple crisps. No. Bean-nut butter  macaroons. No. Sweet carrot gingersnaps. No. He was so excited by the very sight  of the fourth and last variety that he had his wallet out of his pocket before  he realized they were not chocolate-chip cookies but were made instead of carob  morsels, goat's milk, and rye flour.

"We have this one other" the hostess said, sheepishly producing a basket of  cellophane-wrapped cookies that had been hidden behind a display of dried fruit.  "They don't sell very well. We're going to stop carrying them." She held the  basket at arm's length, blushing as though she were pushing pornographic videos.

"Chocolate-coconut bars."

"Real chocolate, real coconut?" he asked suspiciously.

"Yes, but I assure you-no butter, margarine, or hydrogenated vegetable  shortening."

"Nevertheless, I'll take them all," he said.

"But there are nine here."

"Yes, fine, all nine," he said, scattering money on the counter in his haste to  make the purchase. "And a bottle of apple juice if that's the best you've got." The chocolate-coconut bars were three dollars apiece, but the hostess was so  relieved to be shed of them that she let the doctor have all nine for eighteen  dollars, and he returned to his El Camino more exuberant than he could have  imagined being only moments ago.

Ahriman had positioned himself so that he enjoyed a clear view of both the  entrance to the parking lot and the front door of Green Acres. He was settled  behind the wheel, slumped in his seat, working on the second cookie, when  Jennifer strode out of the rapidly fading afternoon.

Her stride was as quick and impressively long as it had been at the start of her  trek, and her arms swung with undiminished vigor. Her ponytail bounced cheerily.  Looking as though she had not raised the slightest sweat, she churned toward  Green Acres, shiny-eyed and clearly eager to sit down to the finest of fodder  and slops.

Creeping after Jennifer at an indiscreet distance, spewing blue exhaust fumes,  as conspicuous as a spawned and flatulent fox on the trail of a rabbit, the  aging pickup with camper shell entered the lot just as the ponytailed quarry  opened the door to Green Acres and took her well-muscled haunches inside. They  parked closer to the doctor than he would have preferred; but they would have  been oblivious of him even if he had been sitting in a Rose Parade float,  wearing a Carmen Miranda banana hat.

They waited a few minutes, apparently discussing their options, and then the  blushing man got out of the truck, stretched, and went into Green Acres, leaving  Skeet alone.

Perhaps they suspected that Jennifer had come here to meet the doctor himself,  for a romantic tête-a-tête over bowls of bran mash and platters of steamed  squash.

Ahriman considered walking over to the pickup, opening Skeet's door, and trying  to access him with Dr. Yen Lo. If it worked, he might be able to bring Skeet  back to the El Camino and drive away with him before the other man returned. Skeet's program didn't always function properly, however, due to the unfortunate  custard consistency of his drug-addled brain, and if the encounter didn't go  smoothly, then the pie-faced partner might catch the doctor in the act.

He couldn't just walk over to the truck and shoot Skeet, either, because with  twilight, multitudes of the terminally taste-challenged were driving into the  restaurant lot. Witnesses were witnesses, after all, regardless of whether they  were gourmets or gourmands.

The blushing man came out of the restaurant and returned to the pickup truck,  and after only two minutes, both he and Skeet went into Green Acres. Evidently  they were going to conduct surveillance of Jennifer while shoveling down some  swill of their own.

The doctor's mood was ever rising, because he expected to have a clear shot at  both men, in a suitably private setting, before the night was out, and then a  dinner fit for a predator. He intended to use all ten shots in the magazine,  whether he needed them or not, just for the fun of it.

The threatened rain had never fallen, and now the clouds were breaking apart in  the twilight, revealing stars. This pleased the doctor, too. He liked stars.  He'd once wanted to be an astronaut.

He was halfway through his third cookie when he saw something that threatened to  spoil his wonderful mood. One row away and east in the parking lot stood a  beautiful white Rolls-Royce with tinted windows, traditional hood ornament, and  polished titanium hubcaps. He was shocked that anyone wealthy enough to own a  Rolls and refined enough to choose to drive such a motorcar would come to Green  Acres for dinner other than at gunpoint.

This truly was a dying culture. Rampant capitalism had spread wealth so widely  that even root-chewing, grass-grazing vulgarians could drive in royal equipage  to dine at the vegetarian equivalent of a Wienerschnitzel franchise.

The sight of this vehicle here, of all places, was enough to make the doctor  want to consign his vintage Rolls-Royce Silver Cloud to the nearest hydraulic  automobile crusher. He looked away from the white beauty and vowed not to look  again. To put the depressing sight out of his mind, he started the El Camino,  popped a classic-radio tape of old Spike Jones programs into the cassette deck,  and concentrated on his cookie.

On three sides, the ghost village. In centuries past, watchfires and tallows  burning, mica-lens lanterns holding back the night. Now, no resistance to the  frigid dark. Populated by wraiths, perhaps all of them merely figures of snow,  perhaps some spirits.

To the south, behind Martie, half seen in the murk, stood broken and weathered  adobe walls, two stories in places, a few feet high in others, with deep-set  window openings. Doorless doorways led to rooms more often than not roofless and  filled with debris, inhabited in warm weather by tarantulas and scorpions. In the east, better revealed by the car headlights but still resist- ant to full revelation, tall fractured chimneys of stone rose from round stone  formations: perhaps ancient ovens or fireplaces.

North lay the low curving walls of a structure largely blocked from view by the  BMW. Surprisingly, looming throughout the crescent of ruins were tall cottonwoods. In  addition to the deep well that Zachary had mentioned, there must be water near  the surface, within reach of roots.

Kevin could be circling Martie, moving from one crumbling structure to the next,  from tree to tree. She had to get out of the open, but she dreaded the thought  of stalking him-and being stalked-through this strange and ancient place. In a crouch, she hurried to the car and huddled against the rear tire on the  driver's side.

The back door was open. Pale light from the ceiling fixture.

She dropped flat and risked a quick look under the car. Kevin wasn't there. In the backwash of headlights, the thin mantle of snow on the far side of the  BMW was aglow. From this ground-level perspective, the otherwise pristine  whiteness appeared in one place to have been disturbed by someone heading away  from the car.

Rising into a crouch again, she leaned into the light that came from within the  BMW, and she examined the machine pistol to make sure that nothing about it  would surprise her if and when she was forced to use it. The extended magazine  scared her. From the high ammo capacity, she inferred that the pistol was fully  automatic, not just semi, and she didn't have much confidence in her ability to  control such a powerful weapon.

Her hands were cold, too. Fingers growing numb. She closed the rear door and leaned with her back against it, studying Zachary.  He remained motionless, facedown on the ground. If he was faking  unconsciousness, waiting for her to lower her guard, he was supernaturally  patient.

Before she could concentrate on Kevin, she had to know whether this man was  still a threat.

After consideration, she approached him boldly rather than with caution, moving  in fast and poking the muzzle of the machine pistol against the nape of his  neck.

He didn't move.

She pulled back the collar of his quilted ski jacket and pressed her cold fingers against his throat, searching for a carotid-artery pulse. Nothing. His head was turned to one side. She thumbed back his eyelid. Even in the poor  light, his fixed stare was unmistakable.

Guilt sutured her heart and mind together, so that the thought of what she had  done caused stitches of pain to pull in her breast. She would never be the same  person again, for she had taken a life. Although circumstances had given her no  option but to kill or be killed, and though this man had chosen to serve evil  and to serve it well, the gravity of Martie's action weighed on her nonetheless,  and she felt diminished in more ways than she could count. Gone was a certain  innocence that she would never be able to regain.

And yet, cohabiting with the guilt was a sense of gratification, a cold and  keenly felt satisfaction that she had acquitted herself so well thus far, that  her and Dusty's odds of survival had improved, and that she had shattered the  gunmen's smug assumptions of superior power. A thrill of righteousness filled  her, and she found it simultaneously heartening and terrifying.

To the car once more, to the front door on the driver's side, slowly rising  until she could see through the window. The door open on the passenger's side.  Kevin gone. Blood on the seat.

Crouching below the window again, she thought about what she had seen. At least  one of the four rounds she had fired through the seat must have struck him.  There hadn't been a lot of blood, but any at all meant that he was hurting and  at a disadvantage.

The keys were in the car ignition. Switch off the engine, open the trunk, free  Dusty? Then it would be two against one.

No. Kevin might be waiting for her to go after the keys, might have a clear line  of sight on the interior of the car, through the open passenger's door. Even if  she obtained the keys without being shot, she would be an easy target when she  stood at the back of the car, fumbling at the lock and opening the trunk lid. Although she loathed the idea, the safest thing seemed to be to retreat across  this clearing into the ruins to the south. Use the cover of the crumbling  structures and the cottonwoods to circle east, then north. Get around to the  other side of the car, where Kevin had gone. If she made a wide enough loop, she  might come in behind the northern position from which he was covering the BMW. Of course, maybe he wasn't hunkered down and watching the car from a fixed position. He might be on the move, too, doing the same thing that  she was doing, just in reverse. Using the long-abandoned village and the trees  to travel east, then south. Circling in search of her.

If she had to stalk him through the adobe-and-cottonwood maze, while he, too,  was on the prowl, her chances of being the one to come out alive were dismal.  She no longer had the advantage of surprise. And though he was wounded, he was  the pro, skilled at this, and she was the amateur. Luck didn't favor amateurs. Luck didn't favor the hesitant, either. Action.

Action would be Kevin's motto, as well, drummed into him by whatever military or  paramilitary specialists had trained him, and probably also by hard experience.  She suddenly knew that he would be on the move, and that the last thing he might  be expecting from a video-game designer and a housepainter's wife would be for  her to follow him boldly, seeking him out by as direct a route as she could  possibly take.

Maybe this was true. Maybe it wasn't. She convinced herself, nevertheless, that  she should neither circle behind him nor lie in wait for him to appear, but  aggressively pursue, tracking him by whatever spoor he had left in the fresh  snow.

She didn't dare cross through the headlights. Might as well just shoot herself  and save him the ammunition.

Instead, she retreated in a crouch along the side of the car, away from the  headlights. Against the rear fender, she hesitated, but then she moved around to  the back of the BMW.

The red taillights were far dimmer than the blaze of headlamps, but the falling  snowflakes turned to blood when they passed through the glow. The billowing  exhaust was a sanguinary mist.

The plumes of vapor gave Martie cover but also blinded her, a crimson immersion,  a fearful baptismal passage. Then she was out of the churning cloud, exposed and  vulnerable on the north side of the car.

Action that seemed bold in the planning now seemed reckless in the execution.  Staying low, but still a choice target, she angled at a run to the tracks  leading from the open front door of the BMW.

Footsteps and drops of blood, half covered by the falling snow, revealed that  Kevin had gone toward the round adobe structure, forty feet away. She hadn't been able to see this building clearly from the other side of the  car. Now that she had a better view, she found the place more rather than less  mysterious. A six-foot-high wall curving away into the darkness. The suggestion  of a low domed roof. Hard to judge the diameter of the structure from this one  aspect, but surely thirty or forty feet. Stairs, flanked by decorative stepped  walls, led to the roof, where the entrance appeared to be located, and the  logical deduction was that most of the building lay underground. Kiva.

The word came to her from a documentary that she had once seen. Kiva, a  subterranean ceremonial chamber, the spiritual center of the village. As Martie hurried farther from the car, the shadows grew deeper, and by the  second, torrents of snow obscured the spoor. The trail remained clear enough,  however, because the footprints deteriorated into broad shuffle marks, and the  spots of blood were replaced by more liberal spatters.

Her heart a tom-tom, her eardrums vibrating with a sympathetic beat, she  followed him to the steps, dreading the possibility that he had climbed to the  roof, had then gone down into the kiva, and was waiting there in the smooth  round darkness. At the steps, however, he had hesitated, losing more blood, and  then he had continued along the curving wall.

Martie moved with her back against the adobe, sidling around the kiva into ever  deeper darkness, beyond the last reflection of the BMW headlights, holding the  machine pistol with both hands, finger tense upon the trigger. The deep pitchy  shadows were relieved only by the faintly luminous cassock of snow spread across  the ground and by the phosphorescent falling flakes.

Muffled by the intervening structure and by skeins of snow, the idling car  engine faded until it was barely louder than an imagined sound, and something  near to silence settled around her. She listened for her quarry, for the scrape  of footsteps or ragged breathing, but she heard nothing.

Even in this gloom, she was able to follow Kevin, though hardly at all by the  marks that his shuffling feet had left. Now only the blood was clear enough to  lead her, a drizzle of blackness across the virgin snow, laid down in looping  script, as though he were writing the same number over and over again, and she thanked God that there was so much of  it. Instantly, Martie cringed at having expressed gratitude for the blood of another  human being, and yet she could not repress a flush of pride at her  effectiveness. This pride, she warned herself, might yet earn her a few bullets  of her own.

Inching, inching, inching sideways, she remembered now and then to glance back  the way she'd come, in case he'd circled the building and stolen in behind her.  While looking back, she knocked her left foot against an object on the ground,  and turning her head, she saw a dark shape more geometric than the patterns of  blood. The clatter had been distinctive.

She froze, afraid she'd been revealed by the noise, but she was frozen also by  disbelief. Not daring to hope, she finally slid down along the kiva wall,  squatting, to touch the thing she'd kicked.

The second machine pistol.

She would need both hands to control the weapon already in her possession. She  pushed Kevin's dropped gun behind her, no longer worried that he might be  creeping up from that direction.

Ten steps farther, she saw his large huddled form, his splayed legs dark against  the snowy ground. He was slumped against the kiva wall, as though he had  traveled all day on foot and was profoundly weary.

She stood just out of his reach, the machine pistol trained on him, waiting for  her eyes to adapt even more fully to the unforgiving night. His head was tipped  to his left. His arms hung at his sides.

As far as she could see, he produced no plume of breath.

On the other hand, there was insufficient light here to reflect upon the vapor.  She couldn't see her own breath, either.

Finally Martie moved closer, crouched, and gingerly pressed her freezing fingers  to his throat, as she had done with Zachary. If he was still alive, she couldn't  walk away and leave him to die alone. She wasn't able to bring help in time to  save him, and even if help could have been gotten, she didn't dare seek it under  these circumstances, with possible charges of murder hanging over her. She could  stand witness to his death, however, a vigil, because no one, even such a man as  this, ought to die alone.

An arrhythmic pulse. A flush of hot breath across the back of her hand. Like a spring-loaded trap, his hand flew up, seized her wrist. She fell out of her squat, onto her back, squeezing the trigger. The pistol  leaped with recoil in her hand, and bullets tore uselessly into the high  branches of a nearby cottonwood.

Time out of whack, seconds as long as minutes, minutes as long as hours, here in  the trunk of the BMW.

Martie had told Dusty to wait, to be quiet, because she needed to hear movement  out there. One down, she had said. One down, and maybe two.

The maybe was the source of his terror. This little maybe was like the culturing  medium in a petri dish, breeding fear rather than bacteria, and Dusty was  already sick half to death with what it had bred.

From the moment they had put him in the trunk, he had blindly explored the  space, especially along the bottom of the lid, searching for a latch release. He  couldn't find one.

In a side well, a few tools. A combination lug wrench, jack handle, and pry bar.  But even if the locked lid could be pried open, the leverage would have to be  applied from outside, not from within.

The thought of her alone with them, and then the gunfire, and now the silence.  Just the ticking of the engine, a low vibration in the floor of the trunk.  Waiting, waiting, feverish with terror. Waiting, until finally the waiting was  unendurable.

Lying on his side, he worked the blade end of the crowbar along the edges of the  carpeted panel on the forward wall of the trunk, popped staples, bent the edges  of the panel, got his fingers around it, and with considerable effort tore it  out of the way, flattened it on the floor.

He put the crowbar aside, rolled onto his back, drew his knees toward his chest  as far as the cramped space would allow, and jackhammered his feet into the  forward wall of the trunk, which was formed by the backseat of the car. And  again, again, and a fourth time, a fifth, gasping for breath, his heart booming- -but not booming so loud that he failed to hear another burst of gunfire, the  hard ugly chatter of a fully automatic weapon, in the distance,  tat-tat-tat-tat-tat-tat.

Maybe two down. Maybe not.

Martie didn't have a machine pistol The creeps had them. He held his breath, listening, but there was not immediately another burst of  fire.

Again, he kicked, kicked, kicked, until he heard plastic or fiberboard crack,  felt something shift. A ribbon-thin line of pale light in the blackness. Light  from the passenger compartment. He swiveled around, pressing with his hands,  putting his shoulder to it, heaving.

The dying man expended the last of his strength when he clutched Martie's wrist,  perhaps not with the intention of harming her, but to get her keen attention.  When she fell out of her squat and onto her back, squeezing off eight or ten  rounds into the tree, Kevin's hand let go and dropped away from her. As pieces of branches rattled down through the huge cottonwood, clicked off the  kiva wall, and plopped in the snow, Martie scrambled backward and then onto her  knees, gripping the machine pistol with both hands again. She trained the weapon  on Kevin but didn't squeeze the trigger.

The last bits of cottonwood descended as Martie managed to stop gasping, and in  the returning quiet, the man wheezed, "Who are you?"

She thought he must be delirious in these last moments of his life, his mind  cloudy from the loss of so much blood.

"Better make your peace," she advised gently, because she could think of nothing  else to say. This would have been the only valuable counsel anyone could have  given even if this man had been a saint, and it was only more apt considering  how far removed from saintliness he was.

When he summoned enough breath to speak again, the judgment of delirium seemed  hasty. His voice as thready as any cloth that had been woven millennia ago: "Who  are you, really?" She could barely see the faint shine of his eyes. "What were  we. . . dealing with. . . in you?"

A chill passed through Martie, unrelated to the cold night or to the snow, for  she was reminded of the similar questions that Dusty had asked about Dr.  Ahriman, just before they rounded the turn in the ranch road and ran over the  spike strip.

"Who... . . are you... . really?" Kevin asked once more.

He choked and then gagged on a thickness rising in his throat. The crisp air  became brittle with a coppery scent that steamed out of him with his last  breath, and blood flooded from his mouth.

At his passing, there was not even an eddy in the snow, neither the briefest  glimpse of the occluded moon nor the faintest stirring through the trees. In  this regard, her death, when sooner or later it came, would be like his: the  world indifferent, turning smoothly onward toward the fascination of another  dawn.

As in a dream, Martie rose from the dead man and stood, chilled and half  bewildered, unable to find an answer to his final question.

She followed in her footsteps and in his, returning by the route that had  brought her to him. Once, she leaned against the kiva wall. And then went on. Curving toward the light, through hard-falling snow that seemed eternal, Martie  held the pistol ready in both hands, troubled by an almost superstitious sense  that a dangerous creature still was afoot, but then she lowered the weapon when  she realized that hers were the eyes through which this dangerous creature  studied the night.

To the clearing, toward the idling car, the encircling ruins. The world steadily  dissolving and spinning away in the snowfall.

Dusty, having freed himself, was following a swiftly blurring trail of  footprints and blood.

At the sight of him, Martie let the gun slip from her hands. They met at the bottom of the kiva stairs and held each other.

He anchored her. The world could not dissolve or spin away with him in it, for  he seemed eternal, as everlasting as mountains. Perhaps this was an illusion,  too, as were the mountains, but she clung to it.

69

Long after twilight, hitching their pants up over full bellies, prying stubborn  wads of mulch from their teeth with toothpicks, Skeet and his florid friend  hurried out of Green Acres directly to their environmentally disastrous vehicle,  which fired up with a wheeze of burnt oil that the doctor swore he could smell  even inside his closed El Camino.

A minute later, Jennifer exited the restaurant, too, as glossy and robust as a  young horse, revitalized by the feed bag. She did a few stretching exercises,  working out the kinks in her rump, stifles, gaskins, hocks, and fetlocks. Then  she set out for home, at an easy canter instead of a racewalk, her mane bobbing  and her pretty head no doubt filled with dreamy thoughts of fresh straw bedding  free of stable mice and a good crisp apple just before sleep.

As tireless as they were witless, the detectives gave pursuit, their task  complicated by the filly's slower pace and the darkness.

Although even Skeet and his pal might soon realize that this woman had no  rendezvous to keep with the doctor and that their true quarry had long ago given  them the slip, Ahriman risked not following them. Once more, he skipped ahead,  this time to the street in front of the apartment complex in which Jennifer  lived. He parked beneath the spreading limbs of a coral tree large enough to  serve as a guest house for the Swiss Family Robinson, protected here from the  glow of nearby streetlamps.

In other circumstances, Martie and Dusty would have turned to the police, but  this time they gave that option little consideration.

Remembering Bernardo Pastore's patched face and the frustration the rancher had  met, at every turn, when trying to find justice for his murdered son and  self-accused dead wife, Dusty shuddered at the prospect of bringing the police  back here. Mere facts would probably not convince them that the Bellon-Tockland  Institute, in its stirring quest for world peace, was in the habit of employing  hit men.

What meaningful investigation had been conducted into five-year-old  Valerie-Marie Padilla's supposed suicide? None. Who had been punished? No one. Carl Glyson falsely accused, swiftly convicted, stabbed to death in prison. His  wife, Tern, dead of shame, according to Zina. What justice for them? And Susan Jagger. Dead by her own hand, yes, but her hand had not been under her  control.

Convincing the police of all this, even the honest ones-which included the large  majority-would be difficult if not impossible. And among them, the few corrupt  would labor tirelessly to ensure the burial of the truth and the punishment of  the innocent.

With a powerful six-battery flashlight that they found in the BMW, they searched  the nearby ruins and quickly located the ancient well of which the two gunmen  had spoken. This seemed to be a largely natural shaft in soft volcanic rock,  widened by hand and fortified with masonry, surrounded by a low stone wall, but  with no sheltering roof.

The big flashlight couldn't reveal the bottom of the well. Snow spiraled down,  glowing like swarms of moths in the beam, disappearing into darkness, and a  faint dank odor wafted upward.

Together, Dusty and Martie dragged Zachary's corpse to the well, tipped it over  the low wall, and listened to it ricochet from side to side of the irregular  shaft. Bones cracked almost as loud as gunfire, and the dead man plummeted so  long that Dusty wondered if the bottom would ever be struck.

When the body hit, it landed with neither a splash nor a thud, sending up instead a sound that had the character of both. Perhaps the water  below was not as pure as it had been in ancient days, now thickened by centuries  of sediment and perhaps by the grisly remains of others dumped here on previous  nights.

Following the slap of impact, a wet and eerie churning arose, as though  something that lived below were feeding or perhaps merely examining the dead  man, striving to identify him by a braille-like reading of his face and body.  More likely, the corpse had disturbed pockets of noxious gas trapped in the  viscous soup, which now roiled, bubbled, burst.

For Dusty this was a little piece of Hell on earth, and for Martie, as well,  judging by the ghastly look on her face. A precinct of Hell just outside Santa  Fe. And the work before them was the work of the damned.

Bringing the second cadaver to the well taxed both him and her, though not  solely because of the physical effort involved. The one named Kevin had spilled  more blood than Zachary, seemingly most of his six or seven liters, and not all  of it had yet frozen to his skin and clothes. He stank, too, apparently having  been incontinent in his final throes. Heavy, sticky, as stubborn in death as in  his dying, he was a difficult package to move.

Worse, however, was the sight of him, first in the questing beam of the  flashlight, slumped against the kiva wall, and then as they half carried and  half dragged him through the headlights. His beard of blood, his red-stained  teeth and red mustache, his skin gray under a white freckling of snow. In his  glazed eyes was fixed such a pure and piercing expression of terror that in the  moment of his exit from this world, he must have glimpsed the face of Death  himself, bending close to kiss-and then beyond the empty sockets of the Reaper's  bony face, some unspeakable eternity.

The work of the damned, and still more to do.

Laboring in grim silence, neither of them dared to speak a word. If they were to  speak of what they were doing, this essential work would become impossible. They  would be forced to turn away from it in horror.

They dumped Kevin down the well, and when he hit bottom with an even more solid  sound than his partner had raised, the impact was followed by more of that  hideous churning. Dusty's imagination gave him the ghoulish spectacle of Zachary and Kevin being greeted below by  their previous victims, nightmare figures in various stages of decomposition yet  animated by vengeance.

Though much of New Mexico is parched on the surface, underlying the state is a  reservoir so vast that only a tiny fraction of it has been explored. This secret  sea is fed by subterranean rivers carrying water out of both the high plains of  the central United States and the Rocky Mountains. The wonders of the Carlsbad  Caverns were shaped by the ceaseless action of these waters flowing through  fractures in soluble limestone; and there are doubtless undiscovered networks of  caverns large enough to shelter cities. If ghost ships plied this secret sea,  crewed by the restless dead, these two new recruits might pass eternity as  rowers in an oar-propelled galley or as seamen tending the rotting sails of a  moldering galleon driven by a phantom wind, under skies of stone, to unknown  ports beneath Albuquerque, Portales, Alamogordo, and Las Cruces.

An ocean lay below, but no water could be found aboveground to wash the blood  from their hands. They scooped up snow and scrubbed. And still more snow and  still more scrubbing, until their freezing fingers ached, until their skin was  red from the friction, and then until their skin was white from the cold, and  yet more snow and more and harder scrubbing, harder, harder, striving not merely  to cleanse but also to purify.

With a sudden sense of madness looming, Dusty looked up from his throbbing hands  and saw Martie kneeling, bent forward, her face greasy with revulsion, her black  hair mostly concealed under a lacy white mantilla. She was scouring her hands  with hard-packed snow half turned to prickly ice, scrubbing so ferociously that  she would soon begin to bleed.

He seized her wrists, gently forced her to drop the ice-crusted lumps of snow,  and said, "Enough."

She nodded. In a voice shaky with horror and with gratitude, she said, "I'd  scrub all night if I could scrub away the past hour."

"I know," he said. "I know."

In fifty minutes-or nearly two episodes of The Phil Harris-Alice Faye Show, if  measured by the clock of classic radio-Jennifer cantered home, ready to be  cooled down and blanketed.

Her shy pacers, Skeet and the blushing man, arrived close behind her. They  actually drove into the apartment-complex parking lot and stopped to watch  Jennifer disappear into her building.

From his dark post beneath the spreading coral tree, the doctor watched the  watchers, and allowed himself to take some quiet pride in his all-but-inhuman  patience. A good gamesman must know when to make his moves and when to wait,  though waiting may sometimes put his very sanity to the test.

Evidently, Martie and Dusty had recklessly entrusted Skeet to the care of the  blushing man. Patience, therefore, would be rewarded with two kills and the game  prize.

By now he knew these two detectives well enough to predict with confidence that  even they would be too bored and frustrated to resume their surveillance and  would now at last admit to having screwed up. Besides, stuffed with rhubarb  goulash and sweet-potato gumbo, these boys were feeling dull and sluggish,  yearning for all the comforts of home: well-stained reclining chairs with pop-up  footrests and the absolute dumbest sitcoms that the vasty, humming, puffing,  cranking, thrumming, thermonuclear American entertainment industry knew how to  provide.

Then, when they were comparatively isolated, feeling snug and secure, the doctor  would strike. He only hoped that Martie and Dusty might live to identify the  remains and to grieve.

To Dr. Ahriman's mild surprise, the man with the Mount Palomar eyeglasses got  out of the pickup, went around to the back, and coaxed a dog out of the camper  shell. This was a possible complication that would require an adjustment to his  strategy.

The man led the dog to a grassy area in the apartment-complex landscaping. After  much sniffing and several tentative starts, the canine completed his business. Ahriman recognized the dog. Dusty and Martie's sweet-tempered and timid  retriever. What was the name? Varney? Volley? Vomit? Valet.

No adjustment to his strategy would be necessary, after all. Oh, yes, a small  change. He would have to save one bullet for the dog.

Valet was escorted back to the camper shell, and the blushing man returned to  the cab of the pickup.

The doctor prepared for a leisurely pursuit, but the truck didn't move. After a minute, Skeet appeared. Carrying a flashlight and an unidentifiable blue  something, he searched the area where the dog had recently toileted.

Skeet located the prize. The blue something was a plastic bag. He made the  collection, twisted the neck of the bag, tied a double knot, and delivered a  deposit to the decorative redwood trash can that stood near the pickup. Congratulations, Mr. and Mrs. Caulfield. Although your son is a shiftless,  dope-smoking, coke-snorting, pill-popping, delusional, addle-brained fool with  less common sense than a carp, he stands one rung up the ladder of social  responsibility from those who don't scoop the poop.

The pickup drove out of the apartment parking lot, drove past the El Camino, and  headed east.

Because the street was long and straight, with at least five blocks of  visibility, and because the pickup was poking along, the doctor surrendered to  an impish impulse. He bolted out of the El Camino, hurried to the redwood trash  can, snatched up the blue bag, returned to his vehicle, and gave chase before  the truck was out of sight.

During his background interrogatories with Skeet, which were part of the  programming sessions, the doctor had learned about the prank once played on  Holden Caulfield the Elder. When Skeet and Dusty's mother had tossed out Skeet's  father in favor of Dr. Derek Lampton, the mad psychiatrist, the brothers had  joyously collected dog droppings from all over the neighborhood and had mailed  them anonymously to the great professor of literature.

Although Dr. Ahriman didn't yet know quite what he would do with Valet's  product, he was certain that with some thought he would put it to amusing use.  It would add a fragrant grace note of symbolic meaning to one of the many deaths  soon to come.

He had put the blue bag on the floor in front of the passenger's seat. The  knotted plastic was surprisingly effective: No hint of an unpleasant smell  escaped it.

Now, confident that his skills of surveillance would render him all but  invisible to Valet's toileting team, the doctor settled in behind the pickup.  Into the adventure-filled night he went, with five of the nine chocolate-coconut  cookies still to be eaten and all ten bullets as yet unused.

Physically exhausted, mentally numb, emotionally fragile, Martie got through the  next hour by telling herself that the necessary tasks immediately ahead of them  were just housekeeping. They were simply putting things in order, tidying. She  disliked housekeeping, but she always felt better for having done it. They dropped both machine pistols down the well.

Though it was unlikely that the bodies would be found, Martie wanted to dispose  of the .45 Colt, too, because the slugs in both dead men could be matched to the  pistol. Perhaps someone at the institute knew where their bad boys had intended  to dump her and Dusty, and maybe they would look here for their own when Kevin  and Zachary failed to report back. She wasn't taking any chances.

She couldn't drop the Colt down the well, lest it be found with the corpses and  traced to Dusty. Between here and Santa Fe were miles of desolate land in which  the pistol would stay lost forever.

Not a lot of blood was smeared across the front seat of the BMW, but it posed a  problem. From the tool well in the trunk, Dusty retrieved two utility rags. He  used one cloth and a handful of melted snow to clean the upholstery as much as  possible.

Martie kept the second rag for later use.

On the floor in front of the passenger's seat, she discovered the tape recorder.  Here, too, was her purse with what remained in it- including the minicassettes  that they had used to record Chase Glyson and Bernardo Pastore.

Evidently, either Zachary or Kevin had made a quick search for the tapes while  Martie had sat on the ground near the overturned car, gasping for breath and  teary-eyed from the gasoline fumes. No doubt the cassettes would have been  dropped down the well.

No wind had yet risen. Although the snow was not being driven in blinding  sheets, visibility was poor, and they weren't confident of finding their way  back from the haunted ruins to the ranch road.

The route was clear, however, because the flanking sagebrush and cactus defined  the unpaved track. Less than two inches of snow had fallen, and none of it had  drifted to block or obscure the path out. With winter tires and snow chains, the  BMW was undaunted by the bad weather.

They returned along the ranch road to the spot where the rental Ford had hit the  spike strip and rolled. Guided by the flashlight, on foot, they descended the  gently sloping wall of the swale.

The overturned car was tipped forward, allowing the trunk to be opened just far  enough for Dusty to extract the two suitcases. He and Martie each carried a bag  up the slippery slope, abandoning Fig's toy truck and the few items from  Martie's purse that were scattered inside the wreck; the interior of the car  still reeked of gasoline, and neither of them wanted to tempt fate. Later, before they reached the main highway, Dusty stopped the car, while Martie  walked about fifty feet off the graveled road and found a place to bury the  Colt. The sandy soil had not frozen. Digging was easy. She scooped with both  hands, put the pistol in the hole, and covered it with eighteen inches of soil.  She found a loose rock the size of a bag of sugar and placed it over the hole. They were unarmed, defenseless now and with more enemies than ever. At this moment, she was too burnt out to care. Besides, she didn't want to fire  a gun ever again. Maybe tomorrow or the day after, she would feel differently.  Time might heal her. No, not heal. But time might harden her. Housekeeping completed, Martie returned to the dead men's car, and Dusty drove  into Santa Fe.

Cruising south on the Pacific Coast Highway, between Corona Del Mar and Laguna  Beach. Not much traffic. The residents of the coast at dinner or cozy at home.  Only tattered clouds remained, unraveling eastward.

Cold stars, moon of ice. And the silhouette of wings. Night bird seeking prey. He wouldn't critique his compositions this evening. He'd grant himself a respite  from his obsession with high artistic standards. Tonight, after all, he was less artist than predator, although the two were not  mutually exclusive.

The doctor felt as free as a night bird and young again, fresh from the nest. He hadn't killed anyone since he presented poisoned petits fours to his father and made a lasting impression on Viveca's heart with a half-inch  drill bit. For more than twenty years, he had contented himself with corrupting  others, dealing death through their obedient hands.

Homicide by remote control was infinitely safer than direct action, of course.  For a man who was a prominent member of his community with much to lose, it was  necessary to develop a refined sensibility in these matters, to learn to take  more pleasure from the power to control other human beings, from having the  power to order them to murder, than from the act of murder itself. And the  doctor took pride in the fact that his sensibilities were not merely refined or  twice refined but distilled to an exquisite purity Nevertheless, in all honesty he couldn't deny an occasional yearning for the old  days. Ever the sentimentalist.

The prospect of getting right down into the wet nastiness of ultimate violence  made him feel like a boy again.

This one night, then. This one indulgence. For old times' sake. Then another  twenty years of unwavering self-denial.

Ahead of him, without benefit of a turn signal, the pickup turned right, off the highway, onto an approach road that led down through a section of undeveloped shore property to a parking lot that served a public beach.

This turn of events surprised Ahriman. He drove onto the shoulder of the  highway, stopped, and switched off his headlights.

The pickup had descended out of sight.

At this hour, especially on a cool January night, Skeet and the blushing man  were most likely the only people visiting the beach. If Ahriman drove in  immediately behind them, even this clueless pair would have to suspect a tail. He would wait ten minutes. If they didn't return in that time, he'd have to  follow them into the parking lot.

A lonely stretch of beach might be a fine place to whack them.

70

By daylight, Santa Fe had been enchanting. On this snowy night, every street  along which they drove seemed sinister.

Martie had a far stronger awareness of altitude than previously. The air was too  insipid to nourish her. She hunched around a weakness in her chest, a shriveling  sensation, as though her lungs were half collapsed and wouldn't inflate in such  thin atmosphere. A lightness in her body, an unpleasant buoyancy, gave her the  queasy feeling that at these rarefied heights, gravity was diminished and her  ties to the earth at risk.

All these sensations were subjective, and the truth was that she wanted out of  Santa Fe neither because the air was really gruel-thin nor because she might  slip the bonds of Earth. She wanted out because here she had discovered  qualities within herself that she would have preferred never to recognize. The  farther she traveled from Santa Fe, the more easily she might be able to make  peace with these discoveries.

Besides, the risks of staying in the city even until they could catch the first  flight out in the morning were too great. Perhaps Kevin and Zachary wouldn't be  missed for many hours yet. More likely, they were expected to report to someone  at the institute when they had completed their assignment, which they ought to  have done by now. Soon, people might be looking for them, for their car-and then  for Martie and Dusty.

"Albuquerque," Dusty suggested.

"How far?"

"About sixty miles."

"Can we make it in this weather?"

At last a commanding wind had risen, lashing the snowfall with discipline until  it had become a snowstorm. Rigorously marshaled ghost-white armies blitzed  across the high plains.

"Might be less snow as we lose some altitude."

"Albuquerque's bigger than Santa Fe?"

"Six or seven times bigger. Easier to hide until morning."

"They have an airport?" she asked.

"A big one."

"Then let's go."

The wipers brushed snow off the windshield and gradually swept away Santa Fe, as  well.

Even as Dr. Ahriman waited along the side of the Coast Highway, a sudden onshore  wind blew through the tall shore grass and buffeted the El Camino harder than  did the slipstreams of passing cars and trucks. A good wind would help to cover  the crack of gunshots and would at least distort them so that getting an  accurate directional fix on the source would be difficult for anyone who  happened to hear the reports.

Yet the doctor had doubts about the beach, too. What were these two geeks doing  there at this time of night, in this cool weather?

What if they were two of those kooks who tested their stamina by swimming in  very cold water? Polar bears, they called themselves. And what if they were  polar bears who liked to skinny-dip?

The prospect of encountering Skeet and his pal sans clothing was enough to alter  the doctor's relationship to the four cookies that he had eaten. One a walking  skeleton, the other a Pillsbury Doughboy wanna-be.

He didn't believe they were gay, though he couldn't rule out the possibility,  either. A little romantic assignation in a beach parking lot.

If he found them in their car, going at each other like two hairless monkeys,  should he kill them as planned or give them a reprieve?

When the bodies were found, the police and media would assume that they had been killed because of their sexual orientation. That would  be annoying. The doctor was not homophobic. He was not a bigot of any stripe. He  chose his targets with a sense of fair play and a belief in equal opportunity. Admittedly he had brought suffering to more women than men. He was, however, in  the process of redressing that imbalance within the hour-and especially by the  time he finished playing out the game in which these two killings were but one  inning.

After ten minutes, when the pickup didn't return, the doctor set aside his  misgivings. In the interest of sport, he switched on the headlights and drove  down to the parking lot.

The truck was indeed the only vehicle in sight.

Only moonlight brightened the lot, but Ahriman could see that no one was in the  cab of the pickup.

If romance was in the picture, they might have adjourned to the camper shell.  Then he remembered the dog. He grimaced with disgust. Surely not.

He parked two spaces from the truck and counseled himself to move quickly. The  police might patrol lots like this, once or twice during the night, to  discourage teenage drinkers from staging rowdy parties. If the patrolmen  recorded license-plate numbers, Dr. Ahriman would have a problem come morning,  when the bodies were discovered. The trick was to hit them fast and get out  before the cops or anyone else drove in from the highway.

He pulled the ski mask over his head, exited the El Camino, and locked the door.  He might have saved a few precious seconds on his return if he'd left the  vehicle unlocked; however, even here in this long stretch of the California Gold  Coast, in Orange County where the crime rate was much lower than elsewhere,  untrustworthy people were unfortunately still to be found.

The wind was lovely: cool but not chilling, turbulent but not so strong that it  would hamper him, certain to damp and distort the gunfire. And the nearest house  along the shore was a mile north.

Upon hearing the low thunder of the breaking surf, he realized that not only the  wind would conspire with him. All of nature in this fallen world seemed allied  with him, and he was overcome by a sweet sense of belonging.

Drawing the Taurus PT-111 Millennium from his shoulder holster, the doctor  walked briskly to the pickup. He glanced through the cab window, just to be sure  no one was inside.

At the back of the truck, he pressed one mask-covered ear to the door of the  camper shell, listening for sounds of bestiality, and was relieved to hear  nothing.

He stepped past the truck and, surveying the night, spotted an odd light down on  the shore and perhaps fifty yards to the north. The moonlight revealed two men  twenty feet back from the tide line, huddled at some task.

He wondered if they could be digging for clams. The doctor had no idea where  clams were dug up, or when, because that was work, and he had little interest in  the subject. Some were born to work, some to play, and he knew into which camp  the stork had delivered him.

A set of concrete steps with a pipe railing led down a ten-foot-high embankment  to the beach, but he preferred not to approach these men along the strand. In  the moonlight, they would see him coming, and they might suspect that his  intentions weren't good.

Instead, Ahriman headed north through soft sand and shore grass, staying well  back from the edge of the embankment, so that his prey would not glance up and  see him silhouetted against the sky.

His handmade Italian shoes were filling with sand. By the time this was  finished, they would be too abraded to take a good shine.

Moonglow on the sand. Black shoes wear pale glowing scuffs. Should I blame the  moon?

He wished he'd had an opportunity to change clothes. He still wore the suit in  which he had started the day, and it was dreadfully rumpled. Appearance was an  important part of strategy, and no game was what it ought to be if played in the  wrong costume. Fortunately, the darkness and the moonlight would make him look  better-pressed and more elegant than he actually was.

When he had mentally measured fifty yards, Ahriman approached the brink of the  low bluff-and directly in front of him were Skeet and his buddy. They stood only  fifteen feet from the foot of the embankment, facing away from him and toward  the sea.

The golden retriever was with them. It, too, was facing the Pacific. The onshore  flow, blowing toward Ahriman, ensured that the dog wouldn't catch his scent. He watched them, trying to figure out what they were doing.

The Skeeter was holding a battery-powered signal light with a semaphore shutter  and a quick-flick lens system that allowed him to change the color of the beam.  Apparently, he was flashing a message to someone at sea.

In his right hand, the other man had what might have been a small directional  microphone with a dish receiver and a pistol grip. In his left hand, he was  holding a set of headphones, pressing one of the cups to his left ear, though he  was unlikely to be able to pluck any conversations out of the blustering wind.

Mysterious.

Then Ahriman realized the men weren't aiming the signal light or the microphone  at any ships at sea, but high into the night sky.

More mysterious.

Unable to understand what he might be walking into, the doctor almost decided to  back off from his plan. He was too hot for action, however. Deciding to hesitate  no longer, he quickly descended the crumbling embankment. The shifting sand was  silent underfoot.

He could have shot them in the back. But ever since his fantasy in the  antique-toy store earlier in the day, he had been itching to gut-shoot someone.  Besides, blasting people in the back was no fun; you couldn't see their faces,  their eyes.

He walked boldly around in front of the men, startling both of them. Pointing  the Millennium at the blushing man, the doctor raised his voice to compete with  the wind and the crashing surf. "What the hell are you doing here?"

"Aliens," the man answered.

"Making contact," said Skeet.

Assuming that they were high on a combination of drugs and that neither of them  was likely to make any sense, Ahriman shot Skeet's pal twice in the gut. The man  was flung backward, instantly dead or dying, dropping the microphone and the  headset as he fell.

The doctor turned to the astonished Skeet and shot him twice in the gut, too,  and Skeet dropped like a biology-lab skeleton clipped loose from its suspension  rack.

Stars, moon, and gunshots. Two deaths here where life began. The sea and the  surf.

Quickness counts. No time for poetry. Two more rounds in the chest for the  downed Skeet-wham, wham-finishing him for sure.

"Your mother's a whore, your father's a fraud, your stepfather's got pig shit  for brains," Ahriman gloated.

Swivel, aim. Wham, wham. Two more in the chest for Skeet's idiot buddy, just for  good measure. Regrettably, the doctor knew nothing about this man's family, so  he couldn't flavor the moment with any colorful insults.

The pungent stink of gunfire was satisfying, but unfortunately the inconstant  moonlight wasn't the ideal illumination in which to enjoy the blood and the  ravages of the shattered flesh.

Perhaps he could spare a minute with his penknife to take some mementos. He felt so young. Rejuvenated. Death was definitely what life was all about.

Two shots left.

The mild-mannered retriever was whining, yelping, even daring to bark. The dog  had backed off toward the surf and was not going to attack. Nevertheless, the  doctor decided to save both the ninth and tenth rounds for Valet.

As the eighth shot was still ringing in his ears, he swung the gun toward the  dog-and almost squeezed the trigger before realizing that Valet didn't appear to  be barking at him but at something on the low bluff behind him.

When Ahriman turned, he saw a strange figure standing atop the embankment,  gazing down at him. For an instant he had the crazy idea that this was one of  the aliens with which Skeet and his pal had been trying to make contact.

Then he recognized the off-white St. John suit, luminous in the moonlight, and  the blond hair, and the arrogant posture of the nouveau riche.

In the office, earlier in the day, in a spasm of paranoia, she had accused him  of having a patient conflict, of possible unethical conduct. You don't know  K-K-Keanu, do you, Doctor?

At the time, he thought he had charmed her out of her absurd suspicion, but  evidently not.

The doctor, of all people, should have known better. This was one of his  psychiatric specialties, and also the subject of his next best- selling book, Fear Not for I Am with You. Severe obsessives and severe phobics,  of which she was both, were highly unpredictable and, in the worst cases,  capable of extremely irrational behavior. She was trouble in six-hundred-dollar  shoes.

In fact, she was holding those shoes, one in each hand, standing in her stocking  feet. He felt stupid for having ruined his Italian wing tips.

He hadn't known what vehicle she drove, but now he did. A white Rolls-Royce. While he'(l been having so much fun following the deadhead dicks, this  delusional woman had followed him, expecting to catch him in a conspiratorial  meeting with Keanu Reeves. His shortsightedness mortified him.

All these startling realizations flew through the doctor's mind in perhaps two  seconds. In the third, he raised the pistol and fired one of the rounds that  he'd been saving for the dog.

Maybe he was foiled by the wind or the distance, or the angle, or the shock that  shook him at the sight of her, but whatever the cause, he missed.

She ran. Away from the low bluff. Out of sight.

Regretting the necessity to leave without killing the dog and without harvesting  souvenirs from the two men, the doctor raced after his Keanuphobic patient. He  was eager to administer a complete and final cure for her condition.

Raced proved not to be an apt description of his pace once he reached the foot  of the embankment. The sandy incline, carved by erosion, had no shore grass to  bind it. Ascending it was trickier than his descent had been. The sand shifted  treacherously under his feet. He sank in as deep as his ankles, and by the time  he reached the top, he was almost reduced to crawling.

His suit was a mess.

The Keanuphobe was far ahead of Ahriman, as fleet as a gazelle, but at least she  had no weapons except one high-heeled pump in each hand. If he could catch her,  he would make good use of the one round left in the Millennium, and if somehow  he missed even at point-blank range, he could rely on his greater size and  strength to pummel her into submission and then choke the life out of her. The problem was catching her. When she reached the hard surface of the parking  lot, she picked up speed, while Dr. Ahriman was still slogging forward through sucking sand. The gap between them began to  widen, and he regretted eating the third and fourth chocolate-coconut cookies. The white Rolls-Royce was parked near the top of the approach road, facing  toward the lot. She reached it and got in behind the wheel just as the doctor  slapped shoe leather against blacktop.

The engine caught with a roar.

He was still at least sixty yards from her.

The dark headlights suddenly blazed.

Fifty yards.

She shifted into reverse. The tires barked against the pavement as she jammed  her foot down on the accelerator.

The doctor stopped, raised the Millennium, gripped it in both hands, and assumed  a perfect isosceles shooting stance: facing her squarely with head and torso,  right leg quartering back for balance, left knee flexed slightly, no bend  whatsoever at the waist.

The distance was too great. The Rolls was receding. Then she was gone over the  brow of the hill, reversing toward Pacific Coast Highway, out of sight. No point  in taking the shot.

Time is of the essence, said Anonymous, possibly the most quoted poet in  history, and this was truer now for the doctor than ever it had been. Backward,  turn backward, 0 Time, in your flight, wrote Elizabeth Akers Allen, and Ahriman  fervently wished that he possessed a magical watch that could turn this trick,  because Delmore Schwartz had never written a truer word than Time is the fire in  which we burn, and the doctor dreaded burning, though the electric chair was not  the instrument of capital punishment in the state of California. Time, a maniac  scattering dust, wrote Tennyson, and the doctor feared his own dust being  scattered, though he knew that he must calm himself and embrace the attitude of  Edward Young, who had written defy the tooth of time. Sara Teasdale advised Time  is a kind friend, but she hadn't known what the hell she was talking about, and  The bards sublime whose distant footsteps echo through the corridors of Time  wrote Henry Wadsworth Longfellow, which had absolutely no application to the  current crisis, but the doctor was a genius, preposterously well educated, and  distraught, so all these thoughts, and countless more, machine-gunned through  his mind as he ran to the El Camino, started the engine, and drove out of the  parking lot.

By the time Ahriman reached the Pacific Coast Highway, the Rolls-Royce was gone. The rich ditz and her clam-dull husband lived in nearby Newport Coast, but she  might not go directly home. Indeed, if her phobia had progressed to a more  serious condition than he'd previously realized, to some form of paranoid  psychosis, she might be reluctant to return home ever again, for fear that Keanu  or one of his henchmen-such as her own pistol-packing psychiatrist-would be  waiting there to do her harm.

Even if he'd thought she was headed home, Ahriman wouldn't have pursued her  there. She and her husband were certain to have a lot of household staff, each  one a potential witness, and considerable security.

Instead, the doctor tore off his ski mask and drove to his own house as fast as  he dared.

71

On the way home, no more poetic observations about time tumbled out of Mark  Ahriman's overturned memory chest, but during the first half of the ten-minute  journey, he foamed at the mouth with vicious obscenities-all aimed at the  Keanuphobe, as if she could hear-and with vivid oaths to humiliate, brutalize,  mutilate, and dismember her in imaginative ways. This fit was adolescent and not  worthy of him, which he realized, but he needed to vent.

During the second half of the trip, he pondered when or whether she would call  the police to report the two murders. Paranoid, she might suspect that the  nefarious Keanu controlled every police agency from the local cops to the  Federal Bureau of Investigation, in which case she would keep silent or at least  take time to mull and fret over whether to approach the authorities.

She might go away for a while, even flee the country and hide until she had  puzzled out a strategy. With half a billion bucks to draw upon, she could go far  and be difficult to find.

The thought of her possible vanishment alarmed him, and an icy sweat oozed out  of the nape of his neck. His friends in high places could easily help him  conceal his links to any number of outrageous crimes committed by others who  were under his control; but it was a very different thing, and a lot iffier, to  expect them to protect him from the consequences of murders committed by his own  hand, which was one reason he hadn't taken such risks in twenty years. The sweat from the nape of his neck was now trickling down his  spine.

A man of sublime confidence, he had never felt anything remotely like this  before. He realized that he had better quickly get a grip on himself. He was the lord of memory, the father of lies, and he could meet any challenge.  Okay, all right, a few things had gone wrong lately, but a little adversity now  and then was a welcome spice.

By the time he drove into his labyrinthine underground garage, he was filly in  control of himself once again.

He got out of the El Camino and looked with dismay at all the sand smeared on  the upholstery and mashed into the carpeting.

Sand or soil of any kind was admissible evidence in a criminal trial. The  scientific-investigation division of any competent police department would be  able to compare the composition, grain size, and other aspects of this sand with  a sample of sand taken from the scene of the murders-and make a match. Leaving the keys in the ignition, Ahriman salvaged only two items from the El  Camino. The knotted blue plastic bag of Valet's best work. The Green Acres sack  half full of cookies. These he carefully set aside on the flamed-granite floor  of the garage.

Quickly, the doctor pried off his ruined shoes, stripped off his socks and  pants, and shrugged out of his suit coat, piling the garments on the floor. He  put his wallet, the mini-9mm, and the shoulder holster aside with the two bags.  The sand-crusted necktie and white shirt came off next and were added to the  pile, although he salvaged the 24-karat tie chain.

Amazingly, considerable sand had even caked in his underwear. Consequently, he  completely disrobed and committed his T-shirt and briefs to the heap of  discards.

The doctor used his belt to cinch the garments together in a neat bundle. He  placed it on the car seat.

An annoyance of sand, rather than a significant quantity, was stuck in his body  hair. With his hands, he brushed himself off as best he could.

Naked except for his wristwatch, carrying the few items that he had salvaged, he  entered the lowest floor of the house and took the elevator up to the  third-floor master suite.

Using the Crestron touch panel, he opened the secret safe in the fireplace. He put the Taurus PT-l 11 Millennium in the small padded box with the  jar containing his father's eyes, and after consideration, he added the blue  bag.

This was only temporary storage for the incriminating handgun, until he had a  day or two to decide how to dispose of it permanently. The poop he might need as  early as the morning.

After donning a lime-green silk robe with black silk lapels and a black sash,  Ahriman phoned downstairs to the house manager's apartment and asked Cedrick  Hawthorne to come to the master suite sitting room at once.

When Cedric arrived moments later, Ahriman accessed him with the name of a  suspicious butler from an old Dorothy Sayers mystery novel and then took him  through his enabling haiku.

The doctor had a policy against programming employees in his businesses, but in  the interest of absolute privacy; he felt that it was vital to have such total  control over the two key personnel on his household staff. He did not, of  course, use his power to take undue advantage of them. They were paid well,  provided with superb health-care and retirement plans, and given adequate  vacation-although he had implanted in each of them an iron restriction against  exploiting their kitchen rights to poach upon supplies of his favorite nibbles. Succinctly, he instructed Cedric to drive the El Camino to the nearest Goodwill  collection station and deposit the bundle of sand-filled clothes. From there,  Cedric would top off the fuel tank and cruise directly to Tijuana, Mexico, just  across the border from San Diego. In one of Tijuana's more dangerous  neighborhoods, if the valuable vehicle were not first stolen out from under him,  he would park it with the doors unlocked and the keys in the ignition to ensure  its disappearance. He would walk to the nearest major hotel, arrange for a  rental car, and drive back to Newport Beach well before morning. (As it was not  yet 8:00 P.M., the doctor estimated that Cedric should be able to return by 3:00  A.M.) In Orange County once more, he would turn the rental car in at the airport  and hire a cab to bring him home. Thereupon, he would go to bed, sleep two  hours, and wake rested, with no recollection of having gone anywhere.

Some of these arrangements would be tricky, considering the late hour when he  would arrive in Mexico, but with five thousand dollars packed in a money  belt-which Ahriman provided-he should be able to get done what was necessary.

And cash left less of a trail.

"I understand," Cedric said.

"I hope I see you alive again, Cedric."

"Thank you, sir."

After Cedric departed, the doctor phoned downstairs to Nella Hawthorne and asked  her to come at once to the master-suite sitting room from which her husband had  just been dispatched on a Mexican adventure.

'When Nella arrived, Ahriman accessed her with the name of the scheming head  housekeeper of Manderley, the mansion in Daphne du Maurier's Rebecca. He  instructed her to sweep the garage clear of every trace of sand, to dig a deep  hole in one of the backyard planting beds, and to bury the sweeper bag therein.  When these tasks were completed, she was to forget that she had performed them.

"Then return to your quarters and await further instructions," Ahriman directed. "I understand."

With Cedric on his way to Mexico and with Nella busily occupied, the doctor went  down one floor to his lacewood-paneled office. His computer required only seven  seconds to rise out of the desktop on its electric lift, but he tapped his  fingers impatiently as he waited for it to lock into place and switch on.

Networked with his office computer, he was able to access his patient records  and call up the Keanuphobe's telephone number. She had given two: home and  mobile.

Less than forty minutes had passed since her hasty exit from the beach parking  lot.

Although he regretted having to call her from his home phone, time was of the  essence-as well as the fire in which we burn-and he couldn't worry about leaving  an evidence trail. He tried the mobile number.

He recognized her voice when she answered on the fourth ring:

"Hello?"

Apparently, as he suspected, she was in a state of paranoid perplexion, driving  around aimlessly as she tried to decide what to do about what she'd witnessed. Oh, how he wished she were programmed.

This would be a delicate conversation. While instructing the Hawthornes and  dealing with sundry other matters, he'd been thinking furiously about how best  to approach her. As far as he could see, there was but a single strategy that  might work.

"Hello?" she repeated.

"You know who this is," he said.

She didn't reply, because she recognized his voice. "Have you spoken to anyone  about. .. the incident?"

"Not yet."

"Good."

"But I will. Don't you think I won't."

Remaining calm, the doctor asked: "Did you see The Matrix?" The question was  unnecessary, as he already knew that she had seen every Keanu Reeves film at least twenty times in the privacy of her  forty-seat home theater.

"Of course, I saw it," she said. "How could you even ask the question if you  were listening to me in the office? But you were probably woolgathering, as  usual."

"It's not just a movie."

"Then what is it?"

"Reality," the doctor said, imbuing that single word with as much ominousness as  his considerable acting talent made possible.

She was silent.

"As in the movie, this is not the beginning of a new millennium, as you think.  It's actually the year 2300.. . and humanity has been enslaved for centuries."

Although she said nothing, she was drawing shallower, faster breaths, a reliable  physiological indicator of paranoid fantasizing.

"And, as in the movie," he continued, "this world you think is real-is not real.

It's nothing but an illusion, a deception, a virtual reality, a stunningly  detailed matrix created by an evil computer to keep you docile."

Her silence seemed thoughtful rather than hostile, and her soft rapid breathing  continued to encourage the doctor.

"In truth, you and billions of other human beings, all but a few rebels, are  kept in pods, fed intravenously, wired to the computer to provide it with your  bioelectric power, and fed the fantasy of this matrix."

She said nothing.

He waited.

She outwaited him.

Finally he said, "Those two that you saw. . . on the beach tonight. They weren't  men. They were machines, policing the matrix, just like in the movie."

"You must think I'm insane," she said.

"Precisely the opposite. We've identified you as one of those in the pods who  have begun to question the validity of this virtual reality. A potential rebel.

And we want to help set you free."

Though she said not a word, she was panting softly, like a toy poodle or some  other little rag mop of a dog contemplating a mental image of a biscuit treat.

If she was already a functional paranoid, as he suspected, this scenario the  doctor had laid out for her would have enormous appeal. The world must suddenly  seem less confusing to her. Previously she had sensed enemies on all sides, with  numerous, often inexplicable, and frequently conflicting motives, whereas now  she had one enemy to focus upon: the giant, evil, world-dominating computer and  its drone machines. Her obsession with Keanu-first based on love, then based on  fear-had often baffled and distressed her, because it seemed so bizarre to vest  so much importance in someone who was only an actor; but now she might come to  understand that he wasn't just a movie star but also The One, the chosen who  would save humanity from machines, the hero of heroes, and therefore worthy of  her intense interest. As a paranoid, she was convinced that reality as the mass  of humanity accepted it was a sham, that the truth was stranger and more  fearsome than the false reality that most people accepted, and now the doctor  was confirming her suspicions. He was offering paranoia with a logical format  and a comforting sense of order, which ought to be irresistible.

Finally she said, "Your implication seems to be that K-K-Keanu is my friend, my  ally. But I know now he's... dangerous."

"You once loved him."

"Yes, well, then I saw the truth."

"No," the doctor assured her. "Your original feelings toward The One were  perceptive. Your instinctive sense that he is special and worthy of adoration is  true and right. Your subsequent fear of him was implanted in you by the evil  computer, which wants to keep you productive in your battery pod."

Listening to himself, to the compassion and the sincerity in his voice, the  doctor was beginning to feel like a raving lunatic.

She retreated into silence once more. But she didn't hang up.

Ahriman gave her all the time she needed to brood. He must not appear to be  selling this concept to her.

While he waited, he thought about what he would like for dinner. About ordering  a new Ermenegildo Zegna suit. About clever uses for the bag of poop. About the  thrill of pulling the trigger. About Capone's surprising triumph at the Alamo.

"I'm going to need time to consider this," she said at last.

"Of course."

"Don't try to find me."

"Go anywhere you want in the virtual reality of the matrix," Ahriman said, "and  in reality you're still suspended in the same battery pod."

After a moment of reflection, she said, "I suppose that's true."

Sensing that she was beginning to embrace the scenario he had put before her,  the doctor took one daring step: "I have been given the authority to tell you  that The One does not consider you to be just another potential rebel recruit." A breathless silence was followed by more of the soft, shallow, rag-mop-dog  panting, though this time the sound was different, with a subtle erotic quality. Then she said, "Keanu has a personal interest in me?"

She hadn't stuttered on the actor's name.

Interpreting this as a sign of progress, the doctor carefully crafted his reply:  "I've said everything on this subject that I'm authorized to say. By all means,  take the night to think about what we've discussed. I'll make myself available  in the office all day tomorrow, whenever you're ready to call me."

"If I call you," she said.

"If," he agreed.

She terminated the call.

"Rich bitch ditz nitwit," the doctor said, as he put down his phone. "And that's  my professional diagnosis."

He was confident that she would call him and that he would be able to maneuver  her into a face-to-face meeting. Then program her.

After a few rocky moments, the lord of memory was secure in his throne once  more.

Before calling Nelia Hawthorne to order dinner, Ahriman reviewed his E-mail and  discovered two encrypted messages from the institute in New Mexico. He put them  through decryption and then, after reading them, permanently burned each off his  hard disk.

The first had come in this morning and was an acknowledgment of the  communication that he'd sent the previous evening. Mr. and Mrs. Dustin Rhodes  would be under continuous observation from the moment they stepped off the  airplane at Santa Fe Municipal. Prior to their arrival, their rental car had  been fitted with a transponder to allow electronic tracking. Curly, in  maintenance, wanted Ahriman to know that he and his new fiancée had originally  decided to start dating after discovering a mutual enthusiasm for Learn to Love  Yourself

The second message had come in only a few hours ago and was terse. Throughout  the day, Mr. and Mrs. Rhodes had been aggressively questioning people involved  in the Glyson and Pastore cases, and they had been receiving support from those  they interviewed. Thus, they would be staying in the Santa Fe area forever or  until the universe collapsed into a nugget of matter the size of a pea,  whichever came first.

Ahriman was relieved that his colleagues could be depended upon to protect his  interests, but he was dismayed that his current game-one of the most important  of his life-would now have to be canceled and reconceived. He needed at least  Skeet or Dusty, or Martie-and preferably two of them-to make it possible to play  out his elaborate strategy, and now they were all dead or dying.

He hadn't received confirmation of the executions in Santa Fe, but that would  arrive soon, probably before he went to bed.

Well, he was still a player. As long as he remained a player, the outcome of any  single contest was not of cataclysmic importance. As long as he was a player,  there would always be another game, and by tomorrow he would have devised a new  one.

Consoled, he phoned downstairs to Nella Hawthorne and ordered dinner: two chili  dogs with chopped onions and cheddar cheese, a bag of potato chips, two bottles  of root beer, and a slice of Black Forest cake.

When he returned upstairs to the master suite, he found that reliable Cedric had  earlier gone to the car dealership and removed the morning purchases from the  Mercedes; he had put them on the bedroom desk. The die-cast Johnny Lightning Custom Ferrari. The mint-condition  Gunsmoke Dodge City playset by Marx.

He sat at the desk, opened the playset, and examined some of the small plastic  figures. Lawmen and gunfighters. A dance-hall girl. The detail was superb,  exciting to the imagination, as with virtually all of the late Louis Marx's  products.

The doctor admired people who approached their work, regardless of its nature,  with attention to detail, as he himself always did. An old folk saying passed  through his always busy, always fertile mind: The devil is in the details. This tickled him perhaps more than it should have.  He laughed and laughed.

Then he recalled a variation of the aphorism: God is in the details. Although  the doctor was a player, not a believer, this thought stopped his laughter. For  the second time this evening, and only for the second time in his life, an icy  sweat oozed out of the nape of his neck.

Frowning, he thought back through the long, surprise-filled day, searching his  memory for a crucial detail that he might heretofore have misunderstood or  overlooked. Like the white Rolls-Royce in the Green Acres parking lot, which he  had grossly misunderstood.

Ahriman went into the bathroom and repeatedly washed his hands, using a lot of  liquid soap and scrubbing at them with a soft-bristled brush meant for cleaning  under fingernails. He worked the bristles vigorously from fingertips to wrists,  both sides of each hand, with particular attention to the knuckle creases.

The Keanuphobe was not likely to call the police and report that the doctor had  killed two men on the beach, and it was unlikely that anyone else had seen him  in the vicinity of the murders. If the cops suddenly showed up, however, he  couldn't afford to have any traces of gunpowder on his hands, which might show  up in lab tests and prove that he had fired a weapon this evening.

He could think of no other detail that he needed to address.

After drying his hands, Ahriman returned to the desk in the bedroom, where he  positioned Marshal Dillon and a badass gunslinger in a showdown.

"Bang, bang, bang," he said, and with a flick of his finger, he snapped the dead  marshal so hard that the figure bounced off the wall twenty feet away.

Marshals and gunmen. Shootouts in the western sun. Vultures always eat.

He felt better.

Dinner arrived.

Life was good.

So was death when you dealt it.

From the higher desert to the high desert, descending more than two thousand  feet from Santa Fe to Albuquerque, Dusty covered sixty miles in ninety minutes.

The intensity of the storm diminished with the altitude, but snow was falling  steadily in the lower city, too.

They found a suitable motel and checked in, paying cash because by morning  someone might be trying to track them through the use of their credit cards.

After putting their suitcases in the room, they drove the BMW about a mile and  left it on a side street where it wasn't likely to seem out of place or draw  attention for days. Dusty had wanted to make this trip himself, while Martie  remained in the warm motel room, but she refused to be separated from him.

Martie used the second utility cloth to wipe off the steering wheel, dashboard,  door handles, and other surfaces that they might have touched.

Dusty didn't leave the keys in the car. If it were stolen and cracked up by kids  on a joyride, the cops would contact the BMW's owners, and the institute would  immediately shift their search to Albuquerque. He locked the car and dropped the  keys through the grate on the nearest storm drain.

They walked back to the motel through the snow, hand in hand. The night was cold  but not bitterly so, and the wind that had come to the higher desert was absent  here.

The walk might have been fun, even romantic, on any night before this one. Now,  Dusty associated snow with death, and he suspected that the two would be so  closely linked in his mind for the rest of his life that he would prefer always  to stay by the balmy California coast throughout the winter months.

At an all-night grocery, they purchased a loaf of white bread, a package of  cheese, a jar of mustard, corn chips, and beer.

Moving along the aisles, making selections, engaged in what otherwise might have  been a task that made him impatient, Dusty was so overcome with emotion, so thankful to be alive, so glad to have Martie at his  side, that his legs grew weak, and gratitude almost drove him to his knees. He  leaned against a shelf, pretending to read the label on a can of stew.

If others in the store saw him, they were probably fooled. Martie wasn't  deceived. She stood with him, one hand on the back of his neck, pretending to  read the label with him, and in a whisper she said, "I love you so much, babe."

Back in their room, he phoned an airline's 800 number, seeking the earliest  possible flight. He found available seats and used a credit card solely to  reserve them, asking the agent not to run the purchase. "I prefer to pay cash  when I pick them up tomorrow."

They took very hot, long showers. The thin, miniature cakes of hotel soap had  melted away by the time they finished.

Dusty discovered a skinned spot just behind his right ear. It was caked with  blood. Perhaps he had taken a knock when the car rolled. He hadn't even felt it  until now.

Sitting in bed, using a bath towel for a tablecloth, they made cheese  sandwiches. They had kept the cans of beer cold in a snow-filled wastebasket.

The sandwiches and the chips tasted neither good nor bad. It was just something  to eat. Fuel to keep them going. The beer was to help them sleep, if they could.

Neither of them had talked much on the trip from Santa Fe, and neither of them  said much now. In the years to come, should they be lucky enough to have years  left instead of mere hours or days, they probably wouldn't speak often or at  length about what had happened in those Indian ruins. Life was too short to  dwell on nightmares instead of dreams.

Too worn out to talk, they watched TV while they ate.

The television news was full of images of warplanes. Explosions in the night,  somewhere half a world away.

On the advice of experts in international relations, the world's most powerful  alliance of nations was once again trying to bring two military factions to the  bargaining table by bombing the crap out of civilian infrastructure. Bridges,  hospitals, electric-power plants, video-rental stores, waterworks, churches,  sandwich shops. Judging by the news, no one across the spectrum of politics or  media, or in fact anywhere in the higher reaches of the social order, questioned  the morality of the operation. The debate among the experts centered, instead,  on how many millions of pounds of bombs in what type of high-tech packages would  have to be dropped to bring about a popular uprising against the targeted  government, thereby avoiding a full-fledged war.

"To the people who were in that fucking sandwich shop," Martie said, "it's  already a war,"

Dusty turned off the TV

After they'd eaten-and finished two beers each-they got under the covers and lay  in the dark, holding hands.

The previous night, sex had been an affirmation of life. Now it would seem like  blasphemy. Closeness was all they needed, anyway.

After a while, Martie asked, "Is there a way out of this?"

"I don't know," he said honestly.

"These people at the institute . . whatever they're doing, they didn't really  have any bone to pick with us before we came here. They went after us just to  protect Ahriman."

"But now there's Zachary and Kevin."

"They'll probably take a practical view about that. I mean, for them, it's a  cost of doing business. We don't have anything on them. We're no real threat to  them."

"So?"

"So if Ahriman were dead . . . wouldn't they leave us alone?"

"Maybe."

Neither of them spoke for a while.

The night was so hushed that Dusty almost believed he could hear the snowflakes  striking the ground outside.

"Could you kill him?" he finally asked.

She was a long time answering: "I don't know. Could you? Just. . . in cold  blood? Walk up to him and pull the trigger?"

"Maybe."

She was silent for minutes, but he knew she wasn't drawing near to sleep.

"No," she said eventually. "I don't think I could. Kill him, I mean. Him or  anyone. Not again."

"I know you wouldn't want to have to do it. But I think you could. And so could  I."

To his surprise, he found himself telling her about the optical illusion that  had fascinated him as a kid: the drawing of the forest that by a simple shift of perspective suddenly revealed a bustling metropolis.

"This applies?" she asked.

"Yeah. Because tonight I was that drawing. I always thought I knew exactly who I  was. Then a simple shift of perspective, and I see a different me. Which one is  real and which is fiction?"

"They're both the real you," she said. "And that's okay."

Hearing her say that it was okay actually made it okay in his mind. Although she  didn't know it, and although he would never be able to quite put his feelings  into words that she would understand, Martie was the only touchstone by which  Dusty measured his value as a human being.

Later, when he was near sleep, she said, "There's got to be a way out. Just. . .  shift perspective."

Maybe she was right. A way out. But he couldn't find it either in the waking  world or in dreams.

72

In the blue morning, flying out of Albuquerque with neither a toy fire truck nor  a handgun, stiff and sore from the previous day's exertions, Martie felt tired  and old. While Dusty read Learn to Love Yourself to better understand their  enemy, Martie pressed her forehead to the window and gazed down at the  snow-dusted city as it rapidly disappeared below them. The whole world had grown  so strange that she might as well have been flying out of Istanbul or another  exotic capital.

Slightly less than seventy-two hours ago, she'd taken Valet for his morning  walk, and her shadow had briefly frightened her. After the odd moment passed,  she'd been amused. Her dearest friend had still been alive. She had not yet been  to Santa Fe. Back then, she believed that life had a mysterious design, and she  saw reassuring patterns in the events of her days. She still believed in the  existence of design, though the patterns she saw now were different from those  she'd seen before, different and troublingly more complex.

She had expected to suffer terrible nightmares-and not from two cans of beer and  crummy cheese sandwiches. But her sleep hadn't been disturbed.

Smilin' Bob had not come to her in dreams, either, nor in those moments during  the night when, awake, she had searched the shadows of the motel room for the  distinctive shape of his helmet and the faintly luminescent stripes on his  turnout coat.

Martie had badly wanted to see him in dreams or otherwise. She felt abandoned,  as if she no longer deserved his guardianship.

With California coming and with all that waited there, she needed both the men  in her life, Dusty and Smilin' Bob, if she were to have hope.

The doctor rarely saw patients other than on the first four days of the week.  Only Martie and Dusty Rhodes were on his schedule this Friday, and they were not  going to be able to keep their appointment.

"You better be careful," he told his reflection in the bathroom mirror. "Pretty  soon, you're not going to have any practice at all if you keep killing off your  patients."

Having sailed through the crises of the past two days with his tail unbobbed and  both horns intact-a little metaphysical humor, there-he was in a splendid mood.  Moreover, he had thought of a way to revive the game that had seemed hopelessly  unplayable last night, and he had arrived at a lovely use for the fragrant  contents of the blue bag.

He dressed in another fine Zegna suit: a black, sartorially cut number with the  very latest lapel style and a two-button jacket. He cut such a dashing figure in  the three-panel dressing mirror in his walk-in closet that he considered setting  up the video camera to record how terrific he had looked on this historic day. Unfortunately, time was of the essence, just as it had been the previous night.  He had promised the Keanuphobe that he would be in the office all day, awaiting  her decision as to whether or not she would join the rebellion against the  malevolent computer. He must not disappoint the nouveau-riche nutcake.

For the second day in a row, he decided to carry a gun. The threat seemed to  have been reduced, with so many potential enemies dead, but these were dangerous  times.

Although the Taurus PT-111 Millennium was not registered- having been provided  to him, as were all his weapons, by the good folks at the institute-he couldn't  use it again. Now that it could be linked to the murders of two men, it was a  hot piece; it would have to be broken down and disposed of with maximum  discretion.

From his gun safe, concealed behind bookshelves in the master- suite sitting room, he selected a .380 Beretta model 85F, an elegant  twenty-two-ounce pistol with an eight-round magazine. This, too, was an  unregistered handgun with no traceable history.

He packed a compartmentalized, hand-tooled Mark Cross briefcase with the blue  bag, the Green Acres bag, and the tape recorder that he used for dictation.  While he waited for the Keanuphobe to call, he would do some game planning and  compose a chapter of Fear Not for l Am with You. In his study, he checked his E-mail and was surprised to find that he had still  not received a confirmation of the double hit in New Mexico. Puzzled but not  worried, he composed a short encrypted query and shot it off to the institute.

He drove his antique Rolls-Royce Silver Cloud.

The car inspired several haiku during the short trip to the office. Blue day, Silver Cloud. Conveyance of kings, of queens. And blue bag of poop. The doctor was in fine form, and his bubbly mood resulted in another playful  verse only two blocks from his office:

Silver Cloud, blacktop. Blind man in crosswalk, cane taps. Compassion or fun? He chose compassion and allowed the blind man to cross without incident.

Besides, the Silver Cloud was pristine, and the doctor shuddered at the thought  of the magnificent motorcar sustaining even minor body damage.

Coming fast down to California at a precipitous angle, Dusty suspected that he  and Martie had a long descent ahead of them even after the wheels of the  airliner were safely on the tarmac. Past this sunny day lay dark places yet  unvisited.

Weaponless but armed with knowledge, he believed they had no choice but to  confront Ahriman. He suffered under no illusions that the psychiatrist would  confess or even explain himself. The best they could hope for was that Mark  Ahriman would inadvertently reveal something that would give them a slight edge  or at least deepen their understanding of him and of the institute in New  Mexico.

"Besides, I don't think Ahriman has ever faced much in the way of adversity.  He's had a smooth ride through life. Judging by what I've read of his stupid book, he's every bit the classic narcissist Dr.  Closterman accused him of being."

"And damn smug," Martie added, because Dusty had read her some passages from  Learn to Love Yourself

"He's powerful, he's connected, he's smart, but at the core he might be soft. If  we can rattle him, intimidate him, get in his face and shake him up, he probably  won't come apart significantly, but he might do something stupid, reveal  something he shouldn't. And right now, we need every tiny advantage we can get."

After they ransomed the Saturn from the airport parking garage, they drove to  Fashion Island in Newport Beach, to the high-rise where Ahriman had his office.  The Tower of Cirith Ungol, Martie called it, which was a place of evil in The  Lord of the Rings.

On the elevator ride to the fourteenth floor, Dusty experienced a sinking  sensation in his chest and stomach, as though the cab were descending rather  than ascending. He almost decided not to get off the elevator, to ride it back  downstairs again. Then. . . an idea.

The doctor was seated at his desk, taking a cookie break, when his  computer-which was always running-issued a soft bing, and the screen filled with  a security-camera view of the reception lounge, which happened every time  someone entered from the public corridor. If he had been working on the  computer, the camera shot would have appeared as a picture-in-picture, and he  wouldn't have had such a clear view of Martie and Dusty Rhodes.

He checked his Rolex and saw that they were only six minutes late for their  appointment.

Evidently, something had gone badly wrong in New Mexico.

Various security-system icons had appeared along the bottom of the screen. The  doctor used his mouse to click on an image of a gun.

A highly refined metal detector indicated that both subjects were carrying small  amounts of metal on their persons-coins, keys, and the like-but that neither of  them was concealing a metal mass of sufficient size to be a firearm.

To another icon: a miniature skeleton. Click.

As the pair stood at the reception window, talking to Jennifer, they were  aligned with roentgen tubes concealed between the louvers in an air-return grille in the wall to their left. Fluoroscopic images were  relayed to Ahriman's screen.

They had good skeletons, these two. Solid bone structure, well-articulated  joints, excellent posture. If they possessed the talent to match their physical  gifts, they would be fine ballroom dancers.

As though floating in zero gravity, other objects were revealed by fluoroscopy,  suspended around the well-poised bones. Coins, keys, buttons, metal zippers, but  no knives in arm or leg sheaths, nothing lethal.

A jumble of small items in Martie's purse couldn't be easily identified. Among  them might be a folded switchblade. Impossible to be sure.

The third icon was a drawing of a nose. As the doctor finished his cookie, he  clicked the nose.

This activated a trace-scent analyzer that sampled air drawn from the reception  lounge. The device, programmed to recognize the chemical profiles of thirty-two  different explosive compounds, was sensitive enough to detect as few as three  signature molecules per cubic centimeter of air. Negative. Neither of his  visitors was carrying a bomb.

He had not really expected Dusty or Martie to have either the expertise with  explosives or the sheer gumption to come calling with bombs strapped to their  bodies. This extraordinary level of security had been installed because from  time to time the doctor dealt with patients who were far less stable than these  two.

Some might have looked at these elaborate precautions and called them  indications of paranoia. To the doctor, however, this was simply paying  attention to detail.

His dad had often counseled him on the importance of security. The great  director's production offices were equipped with state-of-the-art (for that  time) security to protect him from jilted starlets, volatile actors furious with  the way he'd edited their performances, and any critic who might have discovered  who had paid to have his mother's legs broken.

Now, confident that neither Dusty nor Martie could harm him faster than he could  access them, Ahriman buzzed Jennifer and told her that he was ready for his  appointment. Without rising from his desk, he triggered the electronic lock on  the door to the reception lounge, and it swung slowly inward on powered hinges. The doctor clicked an icon that showed a pair of headphones.

Manic and Dusty entered, appearing angry but more subdued than he expected. When  he directed them to the two smaller chairs that faced his desk, they sat as  instructed.

The door closed behind them.

"Doctor," Martie said, "we don't know what the hell's going on, but we know it's  rotten, it stinks, it's sick, and we want answers."

Ahriman had been consulting his computer screen as she talked. Judging by the  absence of the low-level electronic field associated with a voice-activated  transmitter, she was not wired.

"A moment, please," he said, clicking a microphone icon.

"Listen," Dusty said angrily, "we're not going to just sit here while you-"

"Ssshhh," the doctor admonished, finger to his lips. "Only for a moment, please,  absolute silence. Absolute."

They glanced at each other while Ahriman studied the report on the screen. The doctor said, "Martie, there are highly sensitive microphones in this room  that detect the precise, characteristic sound pattern of the rhythmically  turning hubs in a cassette tape recorder. I see that you have left your purse  open and are holding it tipped slightly toward me. Do you have such a device in  your purse?"

Clearly shaken, she extracted the recorder.

"Put it on the desk, please."

She leaned forward from her chair and surrendered the recorder.

Ahriman switched it off and extracted the minicassette.

"You've got that tape," Martie said angrily. "All right, okay. But we've got a  better one, you sonofabitch. We've got one of Susan Jagger-"

"Raymond Shaw," said the doctor.

"I'm listening," Martie responded, stiffening slightly in her chair as she was  activated.

Immediately, as Dusty turned to frown at his wife, Ahriman said, "Viola  Narvilly."

"I'm listening," Dusty replied, his attitude identical to that of his wife's. Accessing the two simultaneously would be tricky but doable. If more than six  seconds passed between exchanges in their enabling haiku, they would revert to  full consciousness. Therefore, he would have to switch back and forth between them, like a juggler spinning plates on  top of sticks.

To Martie, he said, "Blown from the west-" "You are the west and the western  wind."

To Dusty, he said, "Lightning gleams-"

"You are the lightning."

Now to Martie: "-fallen leaves gather-"

"The leaves are your instructions."

And back to Dusty: "-and a night heron's shriek-"

"The shrieks are your instructions."

Ahriman finished with Martie: "-in the east."

"I am the east."

Finally to Dusty: "-travels into darkness."

"I am the darkness."

Martie sat with her head tipped slightly forward, her eyes on her hands, which  were clutching her purse.

Beautiful bowed head. If told to blow out her brains.. . obeys her master.

Admittedly, this was not first-rate haiku, but the doctor found the sentiment  charming.

Still turned toward his wife, head half cocked in an attitude of puzzlement,  Dusty appeared to be focused on her.

Of course, she was not actually interested in her purse, and her husband was not  truly aware of her, because both of them were waiting for one thing:

instructions.

Perfect.

Astonished and delighted, Ahriman leaned back in his chair and marveled at how  abruptly his fortunes had improved. The game, which he'd been restructuring this  morning, could now be played out with much of his original strategy. All his  problems were solved.

Well, except for the Keanuphobe. But now with the universe seeming to be  considerate of the doctor's every need, he expected that the issue of the  hemi-billionaire bubblehead basket case would be resolved to his advantage  before the day was out.

He was curious to know how this unlikely pair, the housepainter and the  video-game designer, had survived New Mexico. Indeed, he had five hundred  questions if he had one; he could have spent the entire day quizzing them about  how they had puzzled out so much about him even with the few wild cards that had  fallen in their favor.

As important as attention to detail was, however, one must also remember to keep  one's eye on the prize. The prize in this case was the successful completion of  the most important game of the doctor's career. Although originally he had  intended to play with Martie for a while before using her and Dusty in Malibu,  he was no longer willing to wait months, weeks, or even an extra hour for his  final satisfaction.

Ultimately, in spite of their cleverness, Martie and Dusty were nothing but two  plebs, two common little people desperately striving to rise above their social  class, which is what all the plebs wanted even if they would never admit it, two  earnest scrabblers with dreams far bigger than their ability to fulfill them. No  doubt some of the details of their pathetic sleuthing would be amusing, but in  the end, their escapades would be only slightly less witless than the doings of  Detective Skeet and his nameless pal. They were interesting not for who they  were but solely for how they could be controlled.

Before the Keanuphobe called or showed up to complicate matters, Ahriman needed  to instruct Dusty and Martie, wind them up and send them off on the killing  spree that would be the final inning of this game.

"Martie, Dusty, I am addressing both of you now. I will instruct you  simultaneously to save time. Is this understood?"

"Is it understood?" Martie asked, even as Dusty asked, "Is it?" "Tell me whether or not you understand what I've told you."

"I understand," they said simultaneously.

Leaning forward in his chair, savoring this moment, downright giddy with  delight, not even regretting that now he would not have the chance to boff  Martie a few times, the doctor said, "Later today you are going to take a drive  out to Malibu-"

"Malibu. . ." Martie murmured.

"Yes, that's right. Malibu. You know the address. The two of you are going out  to visit Dusty's mother, Claudette, and her husband- that greedy, grasping,  self-aggrandizing little shit, Dr. Derek Lampton."

"I understand," Dusty said.

"Yes, I'm sure you do," Ahriman said, amused, "since you had to live under the  same roof with the reeking little pisspot. Now, when you get to Malibu, if  either Claudette or Dickhead Derek is out somewhere on an errand, you must wait  until both are home."

The doctor realized that by heaping this ridicule on Lampton, he was indulging  in adolescent name-calling. But, ah, what a sweet release it was.

With increasing excitement, he said, "You must wait, in fact, until their son is  home, too, your venomous little half brother Derek junior-who is, by the way, as  much of a suppurating pimple on the ass of humanity as his old man. Jackoff  Junior will probably be there when you arrive, because he's home-schooled, as  you know. Your syphilitic stepfather has his own ass-wipe theories about  education, some of which I suppose he shoved down your throat, too, and Skeet's.  Anyway, they must all be present before you act. You will disable all of them  but not kill them immediately. You will mutilate and dismember them in the  following order: Claudette first, then Junior, then Derek shit-for-brains  Lampton himself. He must be last, so he can watch everything you do to Claudette  and Junior. Wednesday, Martie, I showed you a photograph of a girl whose  dismembered body had been rearranged by her killer in a particularly clever  fashion, and I asked you to focus particularly on that tableau. Once you've cut  her apart, you and Dusty are going to rearrange Claudette in the same fashion,  with but one variation, involving her eyes-"

He halted, realizing that in his excitement he had gotten ahead of himself. He  paused to take a deep breath and then a long swallow of black cherry soda.

"Excuse me. Sorry. I've got to back up a moment. Before you go to Malibu, you'll  stop at a self-storage unit in Anaheim to pick up a satchel full of surgical  instruments. And an autopsy saw with spare blades-including a few excellent  cranial blades that'll open any skull, even one as dense as Derek's. I've also  left a pair of Glock machine pistols and spare magazines. .

Involving her eyes.

Those three words from his instructions cycled back through the doctor's mind,  and for a moment he didn't understand why.

Involving her eyes.

Abruptly he stood up from his chair, pushing it backward, out of his way.

"Martie, look at me."

After a hesitation, the woman raised her bowed head and her downcast eyes.

Swiveling to the husband, Ahriman said, "Dusty, why have you been looking at  Martie all this time?"

"Why have I been looking at Martie?" Dusty replied, correctly answering a  question with a question, as he was required to do in this deep programmed  state.

"Dusty, look at me. Look directly at me." Dusty turned his gaze from his wife to  Ahriman. Martie was staring down at her hands once more. "Martie!" the doctor  commanded. Obediently, she met his eyes again.

Ahriman stared at Martie, studying her eyes, then turned to Dusty, turned from  one to the other, one to the other, one to the other, until he said, more  shakily than he would have liked, "No REM. No jiggle."

"No shit," Dusty said, getting to his feet.

Their attitude changed. Gone, the glazed expressions. Gone, the air of  obedience.

Rapid eye movement couldn't be faked convincingly, so they hadn't tried.

Rising from her chair, Martie said, "What are you? What sort of disgusting,  pathetic thing are you?"

The doctor did not like the tone of her voice, did not like it at all. The  loathing. The contempt. People did not speak to him in this fashion. Such  disrespect was intolerable.

He tried to reestablish control: "Raymond Shaw."

"Kiss my ass," she said.

Dusty began to circle the desk.

Sensing a potential for violence, the doctor drew the .380 Beretta from his  shoulder holster.

The sight of the gun stopped them.

"You can't have been deprogrammed," Ahriman insisted. "You can't have been."

"Why?" Martie asked. "Because it's never happened before?"

"What do you have against Derek Lampton?" Dusty demanded.

People didn't demand things of the doctor. Not more than once, anyway. He wanted  to shoot this stupid, stupid, cheaply dressed, nobody, nothing housepainter  right between the eyes, blow his face off, blow his brains out.

A shooting here, of course, would have unpleasant repercussions. Police with  their endless questions. Reporters. Stains that might never come out of the  Persian rug.

For a moment he suspected treachery at the institute: "Who reprogrammed you?"

"Martie did it for me," Dusty claimed.

"And Dusty freed me."

Ahriman shook his head. "You're lying. This isn't possible. You're both lying."

The doctor heard a note of panic in his voice and was ashamed. He reminded  himself that he was Mark Ahriman, only son of the great director, greater in his  own field than Dad had been in Hollywood, a puppeteer, not a puppet.

"We know a lot about you," Martie said.

"And we're going to find out more," Dusty promised. "Every ugly little detail."

Detail. That word again. Which last night had seemed to be an omen and not a  good one.

Convinced they had been activated and accessed, he had told them too much. Now  they had an advantage, and they might eventually find a way to use it  effectively. Game point to the opposition.

"We're going to find out what you have against Derek Lampton," Dusty vowed. "And  when we've figured out your motivation, that'll be another nail in your coffin."

"Please," the doctor said, wincing with pretended pain. "Don't torture me with  clichés. If you're going to try to intimidate me, have the courtesy to go away  for a while, acquire a better education, improve your vocabulary, and come back  with some fresh metaphors."

That was better. He had slipped out of character for a moment. His was a  demanding role, complex, intellectual, and richly nuanced. Of the actors who had  won Oscars for starring in Dad's tearjerkers, none could have settled into this  part as deeply and successfully as had the doctor. A rare departure from  character was understandable, but once again he was the lord of memory.

Now, in response to their pathetic attempt at intimidation, he gave them a  lesson in the real thing: "While you're embarked on this crusade to bring me to  justice, you might need to move in with dear old Mom for a while. Your quaint  little house burned to the ground Wednesday night."

The poor dumb children were bewildered for a moment, not sure if what he had said was true or if it was a lie, and if it was a lie, they  couldn't puzzle out a purpose in the deceit.

"Your marvelous collection of thrift-shop furniture-all gone, I'm afraid. And  the damning tape recording you mentioned earlier, the message from Susan-gone,  too. The tragedy of fire. Insurance can never replace things with sentimental  value, can it?"

They believed now. The stunned expression of the displaced, the dispossessed. While they were emotionally reeling, the doctor hit them hard again. "The  goggle-eyed idiot you left Skeet with. What's his name?"

They glanced at each other, and then Dusty said, "Fig."

The doctor frowned. "Fig?"

"Foster Newton." "Ah. I see. Well, the Fig is dead. Shot four times in the gut and chest."

Rattled, Dusty asked, "Where's Skeet?"

"Dead, too. Also four shots in the gut and the chest. Skeet and the Fig. It was  a nice two-for-one deal."

When Dusty started around the desk again, Ahriman aimed the Beretta point-blank  at his face, and Matrtie seized her husband by the arm, halting him.

"Unfortunately," the doctor said, "I wasn't able to kill your dog. That would  have been a fine dramatic touch, leading to such a nice reveal just now. An Old  Yeller moment. But life isn't as neatly structured as the movies."

The doctor was back. If he could have jumped into the air and high-fived  himself, he would have done so.

Great emotions boiled in the plebs, because like all their kind, they were  driven far less by intellect than by raw emotion, but the Beretta required them  to control themselves, and second by second, they were forced to come to terms  with the hard realization that the pistol was not the doctor's only weapon. If  he was willing to confess to the killing of Skeet and the Fig, even here in the  utter privacy of his sanctum sanctorum, then he must have no fear of being  brought to trial for murder; he must be confident that he was untouchable.

Reluctantly, bitterly, they were coming to the conclusion that no matter how  vigorously they sought to defeat him, he would gun them down with his superior  gamesmanship, with his superior intelligence, with his disregard for all rules other than his own, and with his exceptional  talent for deception-which, in fact, made the handgun the least of his weapons. After allowing them a moment for this truth to percolate down through their  sadly porous gray matter, the doctor brought an end to the standoff. "I think  you better go now. And I'll give you some advice to make this game a bit  fairer."

"Game?" Martie said.

The contempt and revulsion in her voice couldn't touch Ahriman any longer.

"What do you people want?" Dusty asked, his voice thick with emotion. "The  institute. . . why?"

"Oh," said the doctor, "surely you see that it's useful from time to time to  remove someone who obstructs important public policy. Or to control someone who  can advance it. And sometimes . . . a bombing by some right-wing fanatic, or  next week by a left-wing fanatic, or a dramatic mass murder by a lone gunman, or  a spectacular train wreck or a disastrous oil spill.. . these things can  generate enormous media coverage, focus the national attention on a particular  issue, and drive legislation that will ensure a more stable society, that will  allow us to avoid the extremes of the political spectrum."

"People like you are going to save us from extremists?"

Ignoring her taunt, he said, "As for that advice I mentioned.

From now on, don't sleep at the same time. Don't be apart. Cover each other's  back. And remember that anyone on the street, anyone in a crowd, could belong to  me."

He could see they were loath to leave. Their hearts were racing, their minds in  a tumult of anger and grief and shock, and they wanted a resolution right now,  right here, as their kind always did, because they had no appreciation for  long-term strategy. They were unable to reconcile their desperate need for  immediate emotional catharsis with the cold fact of their powerless position.

"Go," Ahriman said, gesturing to the door with the Beretta. They went, because they had no other options.

Through the security-camera display on the computer screen, the doctor watched  them cross the reception lounge and leave by the door to the public corridor.

Putting the Beretta on the desk rather than returning it to his shoulder holster, keeping it within easy reach, he sat down to brood over this  latest development.

The doctor needed to know much more about how this pair of rubes discovered they  were programmed and how they deprogrammed themselves. Their astounding  self-liberation seemed to be less of an achievement than a flat-out miracle.

Unfortunately, he wasn't likely to learn anything further unless he could drug  them again, rebuild their mind chapels, and reload the program, which meant  taking them through the tedious three-session process that he had gone through  with each of them before. They were too wary now, alert to the thin line between  reality and fantasy in the modern world, and unlikely to give him that chance,  no matter how clever he was.

He would have to live with this mystery.

Stopping them from doing further damage was more important than learning the  truth of how they had rescued themselves.

He had no great respect for truth, anyway. Truth was a squishy thing, amorphous,  changing shape before your eyes. Ahriman had spent his entire life shaping truth  as easily as a potter shapes a wad of clay into a vase of any desired form. Power trumped truth any day. He couldn't kill these people with the truth, but  power properly applied could crush them and sweep them from the game board  forever.

From his briefcase, he extracted the blue bag. He placed it in the center of his  desk and stared at it for a minute or two.

The game could be played to its end within the next few hours. He knew where  Martie and Dusty would go from here. All the principal figures would be in the  same place, vulnerable to a strategist as nimble as the doctor.

We're going to find out what you have against Derek Lampton. And when we've  figured out your motivation, that'll be another nail in your coffin. What hopeless naIfs they were. After all that they had endured, they still  believed in a world as ordered as any in a mystery novel. Clues, evidence,  proof, and truth wouldn't avail them in this matter. This game was driven by  more fundamental powers.

Hoping the Keanuphobe wouldn't call during his brief absence, the doctor  holstered the .380 Beretta, took the elevator down to the ground floor, left the building, crossed Newport Center Drive to one of the  restaurants in the nearby shopping-and-entertainment complex, and used a public  telephone to place a call to the same number that he had used on Wednesday  night, when he'd needed to arrange a fire.

The number was busy. He had to try it four times before at last it rang.

"Hello?"

"Ed Mavole," said the doctor.

"I'm listening."

After proceeding through the lines of the enabling haiku, the doctor said, "Tell  me whether or not you're alone."

"I'm alone."

"Leave home. Take plenty of pocket change with you. Go directly to a pay phone  where you'll have at least a little privacy. Fifteen minutes from now, call this  number." He recited the direct line in his office, which didn't go through  Jennifer. "Tell me whether or not you understand."

"I understand."

Ahriman conveyed the subject from the mind chapel up to full consciousness on  the count of ten, whereupon he said, "Sorry, wrong number," and hung up.

Returning directly to his fourteenth-floor suite, the doctor was circumspect  upon entering the reception lounge, lest the Keanuphobe be waiting there with a  spike-heeled shoe in each hand.

Jennifer looked up from her desk, beyond the reception window, and waved  perkily.

He waved but hurried to his office before she could launch into an enthusiastic  harangue about the health benefits of eating five ounces of liquefied pine bark  every day.

At his desk once more, he slipped the Beretta out of his holster and put it  within easy reach.

He plucked a fresh bottle of black cherry soda from the office refrigerator and  used it to wash down another cookie. He needed a blast of sugar.

He was in action again. He had gotten through a rocky moment or two, but the  crisis had only invigorated him. Ever the optimist, he knew that another  spectacular win was only hours away, and he was excited.

Now and then, people asked the doctor how he managed to keep his youthful looks,  his youthful figure, and such a high energy level day after day, through a busy  life. His answer was always the same: What kept him young was his sense of fun.

When the phone rang, it was necessary to activate and access the subject once  more: "Ed Mavole."

"I'm listening."

Following the haiku, Dr. Ahriman said, "You will go directly to a self-storage  yard in Anaheim." He provided the address of the facility, the number of the  unit that he had rented with false ID, and the combination of the lock on the  door. "Among other things in the storage unit, you will find two Glock 18  machine pistols and several spare thirty-three-round magazines. Take one of the  pistols and four magazines ought to be enough."

Regrettably, with five rather than three people to subdue at the house in  Malibu, and with only one person to subdue them instead of two, it would not be  possible to take control of the residence quietly enough to be able, thereafter,  to dismember all the victims and compose ironic tableaux according to the  original game plan. So much gunfire would be required that police would arrive  quickly and interrupt the work: Cops had a notoriously poor sense of both fun  and irony.

Perhaps, however, there would be enough time to transform Derek Lampton Sr. into  the object of ridicule that he deserved to be.

"Other than the pistol and the four magazines, the only items you'll take from  the storage unit are an autopsy saw and a cranial blade. No, better take two  blades, in case one snaps."

Attention to detail.

He described these tools to be sure no mistakes were made, and then he gave  directions to Derek Lampton's place in Malibu.

"Kill everyone you find at the house." He listed the people he expected to be  present. "But if there are others-visiting neighbors, a meter reader,  whoever-kill them, too. Enter forcefully, moving quickly from room to room,  chasing them down if they flee, and waste no time. Then before the police  arrive, you will remove the top of Dr. Derek Lampton's skull with the cranial  saw." He described the technique by which this could be best accomplished. "Now  tell me whether or not you understand."

"I understand."

"You will remove the brain and set it aside. Repeat, please."

"Remove the brain and set it aside."

The doctor gazed wistfully at the blue bag on his desk. There was no way, on a  timely basis and beyond the eyes of witnesses, to rendezvous with this  programmed killer and pass along Valet's useful product. "There is something you  must put in the empty skull. If the Lamptons have a dog, you might find what you  need, but if not, you'll have to produce it yourself." He gave his final  instructions, including a suicide directive.

"I understand."

"I've given you very important work, and I'm convinced you will perform it  impeccably."

"Thank you."

"You're welcome."

When he hung up the phone, Ahriman wished that he had been able to program the  pustulant Lampton family themselves-the insufferable Derek, his slut of a wife,  and their deranged son-and use them as puppets. Unfortunately, they were too  aware of him and were sure to regard him with suspicion; he stood little or no  chance of getting close enough to them to administer the requisite drugs and to  conduct three long programming sessions.

Nevertheless, he was ebullient. Triumph was within reach.

Black cherry soda. Dead fool out in Malibu. Learn to love yourself.

Perfection. The doctor raised a toast to his poetic genius.

73

On Cape Cod or Martha's Vineyard, this house would have looked like the place  that was central to the American Dream, the place you crossed over the river and  went through the woods to reach on a cool Thanksgiving dawn, the place where  Santa Claus seemed to be real even to adults on a snowy Christmas morning, the  quintessential house for the idealized grandmother. Although a perfect house-and  indeed a faultless grandmother-had never existed in real life, this nation of  passionate sentimentalists believed this was the way grandmothers' houses  universally ought to be. Slate roof with a widow's walk. Silvered cedar-shingle  siding. Window frames and shutters glossy with white marine-finish paint. A deep  porch with white wicker rocking chairs and a bench swing, and a manicured yard  with foot-high white picket fences surrounding each lush flower bed. On Cape Cod  or Martha's Vineyard, in a certain moment of the past, you might have found  Norman Rockwell sitting at an easel in the front yard, painting two adorable  children as they chased a goose with a red ribbon tied in a half-finished bow  around its neck, while a happy dog frolicked in the background.

Here in Malibu, even in the middle of a coastal winter, on a low bluff above the  Pacific, with steps leading down to the beach, with palm trees aplenty, the  house looked misplaced. Beautiful, graceful, well designed, and well  constructed, but misplaced nonetheless. If anyone's grandmother lived herein,  she would have had electric-blue fingernails, bleached-blond hair, lips sensuously recontoured with injections of  collagen, and surgically enlarged breasts. The house was a shining fiction,  harboring darker truths within, and the sight of it on this visit-only the fifth  Dusty had paid since leaving almost twelve years ago, at the age of  eighteen-affected him as it always had before, sending a chill through his heart  rather than up his spine.

The house, of course, was not to blame. It was only a house.

Nevertheless, after he and Martie parked in the driveway, as they were ascending  the front-porch steps, he said, "The Tower of Cirith Ungol."

He dared not think about their little house in Corona Del Mar. If it was really  burned to the ground, as Ahriman had claimed, Dusty wasn't ready to deal with  the emotional impact. A house is just a house, sure, and property is  replaceable, but if you have lived well and loved in a house, if you have made  good memories there, then you can't help but grieve over the loss of it. He dared not think, either, about Skeet and Fig. If Ahriman was telling the  truth, if he had killed them, both this world and Dusty's heart were darker  places than they had been yesterday, and they were certain to remain darker for  the rest of his life. The possible loss of his troubled but much-loved brother  had left him half numb, as he might have expected, but he was a little surprised  at how profoundly disturbed he was, as well, by the thought of Fig's death; the  quietly diligent painter had been peculiar indeed, but also kind and  good-natured, and the hole he left in Dusty's life was the size and the shape of  an odd but meaningful friendship.

His mother, Claudette, answered the bell, and as always Dusty was startled and  disarmed by her beauty. At fifty-two, she could pass for thirty-five; and at  thirty-five she'd had the power to rivet everyone in a crowded room merely by  entering, a power that she no doubt would still have at eighty-five. His father,  her second of four husbands, once said, "Since birth, Claudette has looked good  enough to eat. Every day the world looks on her, and its mouth waters." This was  so correct and so succinct that it was probably something Trevor, his father,  had read somewhere rather than anything he had thought himself, and though it  seemed at first crude, it was not, and it was true. Trevor hadn't been  commenting on her sexuality. He had meant beauty as a thing apart from sexual  desire, beauty as an ideal, beauty so striking that it spoke to the soul. Women  and men, babies and centenarians alike, were drawn to Claudette, wanted to be near her, and deep in  their eyes when they gazed at her was something like pure hope and something  like rapture, but different and mysterious. The love so many brought to her was  love unearned-and unreciprocated. Her eyes were similar to Dusty's, gray-blue,  but with less blue than his; and in them he had never seen what any son longs to  see in his mother's eyes, nor had he ever seen a reason to believe that she  wanted or would accept the love that-more as a boy than now, but still now-he  would have lavished on her.

"Sherwood," she said, offering neither a kiss nor a welcoming hand, "do all  young people come unannounced these days?"

"Mother, you know my name's not Sherwood-"

"Sherwood Penn Rhodes. It's on your birth certificate."

"You know perfectly well that I had it legally changed-"

"Yes, when you were eighteen, rebellious, and even more foolish than you are  now," she said.

"Dusty is what all my friends called me since I was a kid."

"Your friends were always the class losers, Sherwood. You've always associated  with the wrong type, so routinely it almost seems willful. Dustin Rhodes. What  were you thinking? How could we keep a straight face, introducing you to  cultured people as Dusty Rhodes?"

"That's exactly what I was thinking."

"Hello, Claudette," Martie said, having been ignored thus far.

"Dear," Claudette said, "please use your good influence with the boy and insist  he revert to a grown-up name."

Martie smiled. "I like Dusty-the name and the boy."

"Martine," Claudette said. "That's a real person's name, dear."

"I like people to call me Martie."

"I know, yes. How unfortunate. You're not setting a very good example for  Sherwood."

"Dustin," Dusty insisted.

"Not in my house," Claudette demurred.

Always, upon arrival here, no matter how much time had passed since his previous  visit, Dusty was greeted in this distant fashion, not routinely with a debate  about his name, sometimes with lengthy comments on his blue-collar dress or his  unstylish haircut, or with probing queries about whether he had yet pursued  "real" work or was still painting houses. Once, she kept him on the porch,  discussing the political crisis in China, for at least five minutes, though it had seemed like  an hour. She always eventually invited him inside, but he was never sure that  she would let him cross the threshold.

Skeet had once been enormously excited when he'd seen a movie about angels, with  Nicholas Cage starring as one of the winged. The premise of the film was that  guardian angels aren't permitted to know romantic love or other strong feelings;  they must remain strictly intellectual beings in order to serve humanity without  becoming too emotionally involved. To Skeet, this explained their mother, whose  beauty even the angels might envy, but who could be cooler than a pitcher of  unsweetened lemonade in midsummer.

Finally, having extracted whatever psychic toll she sought from these delays,  Claudette stepped back, inviting them in without word or gesture. "One son shows  up with a. . . guest at almost midnight, the other with a wife, and neither  calls first. I know both took classes in manners and deportment, but apparently  the money was wasted."

Dusty assumed that the other son was Junior, who was fifteen and lived here, but  when he and Martie stepped past Claudette, Skeet bounded down the stairs to  greet them. He appeared to be paler than when they had last seen him, thinner as  well, with darker circles under his eyes, but he was alive.

When Dusty hugged him, Skeet said, "Ouch, ouch, ouch," and then said it again  when he hugged Martie.

Astonished, Dusty said, "We thought you were-"

"We were told," Martie said, "that you were-"

Before either of them could finish the thought, Skeet hiked up his pullover and  his undershirt, eliciting a wince of distaste from his mother, and displayed his  bare torso. "Bullet wounds!" he announced with amazement and a curious pride. Four wicked bruises with ugly dark centers and overlapping aureoles marked his  wasted chest and stomach.

Relieved to see Skeet alive, joyous, but puzzled, Dusty said, "Bullet wounds?" "Well," Skeet amended, "they would have been bullet wounds if me and Fig-"

"Fig and I," his mother corrected.

"Yeah, if Fig and I hadn't been wearing Keviar vests."

Dusty felt the need to sit down. Martie was shaky, too. But they had come here with a sense of urgency, and it might be a mortal mistake to lose  it now. "What were you doing in Keviar vests?"

"Good thing you didn't want them for New Mexico," said Skeet. "Me and Fig-" A  quick, guilty glance at his mother. "Fig and I figured we might as well make  ourselves useful, so we decided to tail Dr. Ahrirnan."

"You what?"

"We followed him in Fig's truck-"

"Which I made them park in the garage," said Claudette. "I do not wish that  vehicle to be seen in my driveway."

"It's a cool truck," Skeet said. "Anyway, we put on vests just to be safe, and  we followed him, and somehow he turned the tables on us. We thought we lost him,  and we were out on the beach, trying to make contact with one of the mother  ships, and he just walked up and shot us both four times."

"Good God," Martie said.

Dusty was trembling, overcome by more emotions then he could name or sort out.  Nevertheless, he noticed that Skeet's eyes were brighter and clearer than they  had been since that celebratory day, over fifteen years ago, when the two of  them had packaged a box of dog droppings and mailed it off to Holden Caulfield,  the elder, after Claudette had thrown him out in favor of Derek.

"He was wearing a ski mask, so we couldn't positively identify him to the  police. We didn't even go to the police. Didn't seem like we'd get anywhere with  them. But we knew it was him, all right. He didn't fool us." Skeet was beaming,  as if they had pulled one over on the psychiatrist. "He shoots Fig twice, then  me four times, and it's like being slammed in the gut with a hammer, knocks all  the breath out of me, and I'm almost unconscious, too, and I want to suck air,  but I don't because even with the wind howling, he might hear me and know I'm  not really dead. Fig's playing dead, too. So then before he turns back to Fig  and shoots him two more times, the guy says to me, 'Your mother's a whore, and  your father's a fraud, and your stepfather-he's got shit for brains.'" Icily, Claudette said, "I've never even met this purveyor of poppsych drivel." "Then both me and Fig, Fig and I, we knew Ahriman went away in a hurry, but we  laid there, 'cause we were scared. And for a while we couldn't move. Like we  were stunned. You know? And then when we could move, we came here to find out why he thinks Mother's a whore."

"Have you been to a hospital?" Martie worried.

"Nah, I'm fine," Skeet said, finally lowering his sweater.

"You could have a cracked rib, internal injuries."

"I've made the same argument," Claudette said, "to no avail. You know what  Holden's like, Sherwood. He's always had more enthusiasm than common sense."

"It's still a good idea to go to a hospital, be examined while the injuries are  visible," Dusty advised Skeet. "That's admissible evidence if we're ever able to  get this shithead into court."

"Bastard," Claudette admonished, "or sonofabitch. Either is adequate, Sherwood.  Pointless vulgarities don't impress me. If you think shithead will shock me,  better think again. But in this house we've never thought William Burroughs is  literature, and we're not going to start thinking so now."

"I love your mother," Martie told Dusty. Claudette's eyes narrowed almost imperceptibly.

"How was New Mexico?" Skeet asked.

"A land of enchantment," Dusty said.

At the end of the hall, the swinging door to the kitchen swung, and through it  came Derek Lampton. He approached with his shoulders back, spine  ramrod-straight, chest out, and although his bearing was military, he  nevertheless seemed to slink toward them.

Skeet and Dusty had secretly called him Lizard virtually from the day he  arrived, but Lampton was more accurately a mink of a man, compact and sleek and  sinuous, hair as thick and shiny as fur, with the quick, black, watchful eyes of  something that would raid a chicken coop the moment the farmer's back was  turned. His hands, neither of which he offered to Dusty or Martie, featured  slender fingers with wider than normal webbing and with slightly pointy nails,  like clever paws. The mink is a member of the weasel family.

"Has someone died and are we having a reading of the will?" Lampton asked, which  was his idea of humor and the closest thing to a greeting he would ever offer. He looked Martie up and down, his attention lingering on the swell of her  breasts against her sweater, as he always forthrightly examined attractive  women. When at last he met her eyes, he bared his small, sharp, white-white teeth. This passed for his smile-and perhaps even  for what he believed to be a seductive smile.

"Sherwood and Martine actually were in New Mexico," Claudette told her husband.

"Really?" Lampton said, raising his eyebrows.

"I told you," Skeet said.

"That's true," Lampton confirmed, addressing Dusty rather than Skeet. "He told  us, but with such flamboyant detail, we assumed that it was less reality than  just one of his dissociative fantasies."

"I don't have dissociative fantasies," Skeet objected, managing to put some iron  in his voice, although he couldn't meet Lampton's eyes-and instead stared at the  floor when he raised his objection.

"Now, Holden, don't be defensive," Lampton soothed. "I'm not judging you when I  mention your dissociative fantasies, any more than I would be judging Dusty if I  were to mention his pathological aversion to authority."

"I don't have a pathological aversion to authority," Dusty said, angry with  himself for feeling the need to respond, striving to keep his voice calm, even  friendly. "I have a legitimate aversion to the notion that a bunch of elitists  should tell everyone else what to do and what to think. I have an aversion to  self-appointed experts."

"Sherwood," said Claudette, "you don't advance your argument whatsoever when you  use unintentional oxymorons like self-appointed experts."

With a remarkably straight face and measured tone, Martie said, "Actually,  Claudette, it wasn't an oxymoron. It was a metonymy in which he was substituting  self-appointed for the more vulgar if more accurate arrogant asshole experts." If he'd ever had the slightest doubt that he would love Martie forever, Dusty  knew now that they would be bonded through eternity.

As if she had not heard her daughter-in-law, Claudette said to Skeet, "Derek is  absolutely correct, Holden, as to both issues. He wasn't judging you. He's not  that kind of person. And you do, of course, have dissociative fantasies. Until  you acknowledge your condition, you're never going to heal."

Getting across the threshold, although difficult, was always less of a challenge  than moving beyond the foyer.

"Holden has stopped taking his medications," Derek Lampton told Dusty, while his  gaze slid down and lingered again on the shape of Martie's breasts.

"You had me on seven prescriptions," Skeet said. "By the time I took all of them  in the morning, I didn't have room for breakfast."

"You will never be able to realize your potential," Claudette admonished, "until  you acknowledge your condition and address it."

"I think he should have stopped taking his medications a long time ago," Dusty  said. Looking up from Martie's breasts, Lampton said, "Holden's recovery isn't  facilitated when he's confused by uneducated advice."

"His father facilitated his recovery until he was nine, and you've facilitated  it since." Dusty forced a smile and a light tone that he knew fooled no one.

"And so far all I've seen is a lot of facilitating and no recovery."

Brightening, Skeet said, "Mother, did you know my father's name isn't really  Holden Caulfield? It was Sam Farner before he had it legally changed."

Claudette's eyes pinched. "You're fantasizing again, Holden."

"No, it's true. I've got the proof at home. Maybe that's what Ahriman meant,  after he shot me, when he called him a fraud."

Claudette pointed a finger at Dusty. "You encourage him to go off his  medications, and this is where it leads." To Skeet, she said, "This Ahriman  person called me a whore. Am I to assume, Holden, you think that word fits me as  well as you think fraud fits your father?"

Dusty's head was filled with that ominous buzzing that usually didn't afflict  him until he had been in this house for at least half an hour. Desperate to get  back to the urgent issue, he said, "Derek, why would Mark Ahriman harbor such  animosity toward you?"

"Because I've exposed him for what he is."

"And what is he?"

"A charlatan."

"And when did you expose him?"

"Every chance I get," Lampton said, his mink eyes gleaming with dark glee.

Moving to her husband's side, slipping an arm around his waist, giving him a  playful hug, Claudette said, "When foolish men like this Mark Ahriman get stung  by my Derek's wit, they don't forget it."

"How?" Martie pressed. "How did you expose him?"

"Analytical essays in two of the better journals," Lampton said, "putting his  empty theories and his jejune prose under a spotlight."

"Why?"

"I was appalled by how many psychologists were beginning to take him seriously.  The man's not an intellectual. He's the worst kind of poseur."

"And that's it?" Martie asked. "A couple of essays?"

Lampton's pointy teeth flashed. The corners of his eyes crinkled. Although this  was an expression of mirth, he looked as though he had just spotted a mouse that  he intended to snare and rip to bits. "Oh, lawdy, Miss Claudy, they don't  understand what it means to be on the receiving end of a Lampton blitz, do  they?"

"I think I do," Skeet said, but neither his mother nor his stepfather appeared  to hear him.

As if Lampton had been witty or naughty, or both, Claudette let out a brief  girlish giggle, as full of genuine humor as the rattle of a diamondback.

"Oh, lawdy, Miss Claudy," Lampton repeated, doing a jive wiggle and snapping his  fingers, as if he thought he was making with the latest of street vernacular.

"Essays in two journals. Some quite clever guerrilla warfare. And a parody of  his style for 'Bookend,' the last page in The New York Times Book Review-" "Wickedly funny," Claudette assured them.

"-plus I reviewed his latest for a major syndicate, and the review ended up in  seventy-eight newspapers nationwide. I have all the clippings. Can you believe  that dreadful book has been on the Times list for seventy-eight weeks?"

"You mean Learn to Love Yourself?" Martie asked.

"Pop-psych slush," Lampton declared. "It's probably done more damage to the  American psyche than any book published in a decade."

"Seventy-eight weeks," Dusty said. "Is that a long time to be on the list?"

"For a book in this category, it's forever," said Lampton

"How long was your last book on the list?"

Suddenly taking the high road, Lampton said, "I really don't count. Popular  success isn't the issue. The quality of the work is the issue, how much impact  it has on society, how many people it helps."

"Seems to me it was twelve or fourteen weeks," Dusty said.

"Oh, no, it was more than that," Lampton said.

"Fifteen, then."

Squirming with the need to have his accomplishment properly reported, but now in  a trap of his own devising, Lampton looked at Claudette for help, and she said,  "Twenty-two weeks it was on the list. Derek never cares about these things, but  I do. I'm proud of him. Twenty-two weeks is a very good run, very good indeed  for a work of substance."

"Well, there you have the problem, of course," Lampton lamented. "Pop-psych  slush will always do better than solid work. It might not help anyone worth a  damn, but it's easy to read."

"And the American public," Claudette said, "is as lazy and as poorly educated as  it is in need of sound psychological counseling."

Looking at Martie, Dusty said, "We're talking about Derek's Dare to Be Your Own  Best Friend."

"I couldn't get through it," Skeet said.

"You're certainly bright enough to," Claudette told him. "But when you don't  take your medication, your learning disability roars right back, and you can't  read your name. 'Medicate to educate.'"

Glancing toward the living room, Dusty wondered what percentage of visitors ever  made it farther than the foyer.

Skeet found a little more courage. "I don't have any trouble reading my fantasy  novels, with or without medication."

"Your fantasy novels," said Lampton, "are part of the problem, Holden, not part  of the cure."

"What about the guerrilla warfare?" Dusty asked.

Everyone regarded him with puzzlement.

"You said you used some clever guerrilla warfare against Mark Ahriman," Dusty  reminded Lampton.

That coop-raiding, mouse-ripping smile again. "Come on, I'll show you!" Lampton led them upstairs.

Valet was waiting in the second-floor hail, apparently because he had been too  intimidated by the war zone in the foyer.

Martie and Dusty paused to cuddle him, to scratch under his chin, to rub behind  his ears, and in return he lashed them with tongue and tail.

If he'd had a choice, Dusty would have preferred to sit on the floor and spend the rest of the day with Valet. Other than Skeet's hug-Ouch,  ouch, ouch/-the dog's welcome was the only real and true moment Dusty had  experienced since ringing the doorbell.

Lampton rapped on a door farther along the hail. Glancing back at Dusty and  Martie, he said, "Come on, come on."

Claudette and Skeet went into a room on the opposite side of the hall: Lampton's  study.

Although no one had spoken an invitation that Dusty could hear, Lampton opened  the door on which he'd knocked, and when they caught up to him, they crossed the  threshold after him.

This was Junior's bedroom. Dusty hadn't been here in about four years, since  Derek Lampton Jr. was eleven. Back then, the decor had been sports-related.

Posters of basketball and soccer stars.

Now all the walls and the ceiling were painted glossy black, and these surfaces  soaked up the light, so the room seemed dark even with three hundred watts'  worth of lamps aglow. The iron-pipe headboard of the bed was black, and the  sheets and spread on it were black, too. The desk and chair were black, as were  the bookshelves. The natural-finish maple floor, so lovely through much of the  rest of the house, had been painted black. The only color in the room was  provided by the spines of the books on the black shelves, and by a pair of  full-size flags stapled to the ceiling: the red field, white circle, and black  swastika of the flag that Adolph Hitler had attempted to plant across the globe,  and the hammer-and-sickle flag of the former Soviet Union. Four years ago,  sports histories, sports biographies, books about archery, and science-fiction  novels had crowded the shelves. Those had been replaced by books about Dachau,  Auschwitz, Buchenwald, the Soviet gulags, the Ku Klux Klan, Jack the Ripper,  several modern real-life serial killers, and a few mad bombers.

Junior himself was dressed in white sneakers, white socks, tan chinos, and a  white shirt. He was lying on the bed, reading a book that featured a pile of  decomposing human bodies on the dust jacket, and because of the high contrast  between the boy and the black-satin bedclothes, he appeared to be levitating  like a yogi.

"Hey, bro, how're you doing?" Dusty asked awkwardly. He never knew what to say  to his half brother, as they were largely strangers. He had left  home-fled-twelve years ago, when Junior was only three.

"Do I look dead yet?" Junior asked sullenly.

Actually, the boy appeared to be magnificently alive, too alive for this world,  as though he were supercharged with a spectral energy pumped into him from a  wall socket in the Beyond, so that he glowed. He hadn't been cursed with any of  his father's slippery mink looks; Fate had decided to lavish his mother's genes  on him, to bless him with a perfect form and perfect features, as had been given  to none of her other children. If one day he ever decided to ascend to a stage,  take a microphone in his hand, and sing, regardless of whether his voice was  good or merely adequate, he would be bigger than Elvis and the Beatles and Ricky  Martin combined, and both young women and young men would scream and weep and  throw themselves at the stage, and a significant percentage of them would be  pleased, if asked, to cut themselves and offer blood.

"What's this?" Dusty wondered, indicating the black room and the flags on the  ceiling.

"What's it look like?" Junior asked.

"Post-Goth?"

"Goth sucks. It's for children."

"Looks like you're practicing for death," Martie said.

"Closer," Junior said.

"What's the point of that?"

Junior put his book aside. "What's the point of anything else?"

"Because we all die, you mean?"

"It's why we're here," Junior said. "To think about it. To watch it happen to  other people. To prepare for it. And then to do it and be gone."

"What's this?" Dusty asked again, but this time he directed the question to his  stepfather.

"Most adolescent boys, like Derek here, go through a period of intense  fascination with death, and each of them thinks he has deeper thoughts about the  subject than anyone before him has had," Lampton said, talking about his son as  though Junior couldn't hear. When Dusty and Skeet had lived under his thumb,  he'd done the same with them, talking about them as though they were interesting  lab animals who didn't understand a word of what he was saying. "Sex and death.  They're the big issues in adolescence. Both boys and girls, but most especially  boys, are obsessive about both subjects. Periodically they go through phases  that are borderline psychotic.

It's a matter of hormonal imbalance, and the best thing to do is let them  indulge the obsession, because nature will correct the imbalance soon enough." "Well, gee, I don't remember being obsessed with death," Martie said.

"You were," Lampton said, as though he'd known her as a child, "but you  sublimated it into other interests-Barbie dolls, makeup."

"Makeup is a sublimation of a death obsession?"

"How obvious can it be?" Lampton said with pedantic smugness. "The purpose of  makeup is to defy the degradations of time, and time is just a synonym for  death."

"I'm still struggling with Barbie dolls," Dusty said.

"Think about it," Lampton urged. "What is a doll but an image of a corpse?  Unmoving, unbreathing, stiff, lifeless. Little girls playing with dolls are  playing with corpses-and learning not to fear death excessively."

"I remember being obsessed with sex," Dusty admitted, "but-"

"Sex is a lie," Junior said. "Sex is denial. People turn to sex to avoid facing  the truth that life is about death. It's not about creation. It's about dying." Lampton smiled down on his son as though he might burst his shirt buttons with  pride. "Derek here has chosen to immerse himself in death for a while, in order  to put the fear of it behind him much sooner than most people ever do. It's a  legitimate technique for self-forced maturation."

"I haven't put it behind me," Martie noted.

"You see?" Lampton said, as if she had made his point for him. "Last year, it  was sex, as it always is with fourteen-year-old boys. Next year-sex again, once  he's done immersing himself in this."

Dusty suspected that after a year of living in this black room, obsessing on  death, Junior might be the lead item on the evening news one night, and not  because he had won a spelling bee.

To the boy, Lampton said, "Dusty and Martie are interested in our guerrilla  operation against Mark Ahriman."

"That creep," Junior said. "You want to whack him some more?"

"Why don't we?" Lampton said, rubbing his hands together.

Junior rolled off the bed, onto his feet, stretched, and then headed out of the  room. As he passed Martie, he said, "Nice tits."

Beaming after him, Lampton said, "You see? Already, he's moving out of this  phase of death obsession, even though he doesn't entirely recognize it yet." In the past, Dusty and Martie had felt like kidnapping the boy, hiding out with  him in some far place, and raising him themselves, to give him a chance at a  normal life. A glance at Martie confirmed that she, like Dusty, still felt like  hiding out, although perhaps from Junior rather than with him anymore.

They followed the boy into Lampton's upstairs study, where Skeet and Claudette  were waiting with Foster Newton.

Fig was standing by the window, peering out at the front yard and the driveway.

"Hey, Fig," Dusty said.

He turned. "Hey."

"Are you okay?" Martie worried.

Fig nicked up his shirt to show them his chest and belly, which were neither as  pale nor as slim as Skeet's, and which were darkened by a different but equally  ugly pattern of bruises from the impact of four slugs that had been stopped by  Keviar body armor.

"This is a very trying morning," said Claudette, grimacing with distaste.

"I'm okay," Fig assured her, missing the point.

"You saved our lives," Martie told him. "Fire truck?"

"Yes."

"And he saved mine, too," Skeet said. Fig shook his head. "Kevlar."

The boy was sitting at his father's desk, before the computer.

Lampton stood behind Junior, watching over his shoulder. "Here we go."

Dusty and Martie crowded close and saw that Junior was composing a scathing and  well-written mini-review of Learn to Love Yourself

"Where we're going with this," Lampton said, "is the reader's review page on the  Amazon.com site. We've written and posted over a hundred and fifty denunciations  of Learn to Love Yourself using different names and E-mail addresses."

Appalled, Dusty flashed to the memory of the inhuman viciousness in Ahriman's  face and eyes when they had confronted him in his office a short while ago.

"Whose names and E-mail addresses?" he asked, wondering what vengeance the psychiatrist might have extracted from these  unsuspecting and innocent people.

"Don't worry," Lampton said, "when we use real names, we choose brain-dead types  who don't read much. They aren't likely to visit Amazon and see any of this."

"Anyway," Junior said, "most of the time we just make up names and E-mail  addresses, which is even better."

"You can do that?" Martie wondered.

"The Net is liquid," Junior said.

Trying to puzzle out the full meaning of that statement, Dusty said, "It's  difficult to separate fiction from reality."

"It's better than that. Fiction and reality don't matter. It's all the same, one  river."

"Then how do you find the truth about anything?"

Junior shrugged. "Who cares? What matters isn't what's true. it's what works."

"I'm sure on Amazon's site, half the rave reviews of Ahriman's idiotic book were  written by Ahriman himself," Lampton said. "I know some novelists who do more of  this stuff than spend time writing. All we're trying to achieve here is to  redress the imbalance."

"Did you post your own raves about Dare to Be Your Own Best Friend?" Martie  asked.

"Me? No, no," Lampton assured her. "If the book is solid, the book takes care of  itself."

Yeah, right. For hours, for days, those clever mink paws had no doubt pounded  out self-praise at such a blistering pace that the keyboard had locked up  repeatedly.

"After this," Junior promised, "we'll show you what we can do with various  Ahriman-related sites on the Web."

"Derek is enormously clever with the computer," boasted Derek the Elder. "We go  all over the Web after Ahriman, all over. No security wall, no program  architecture is too much for him."

Turning away from the computer, Dusty said, "I think we've seen enough."

Gripping Dusty's right arm with both hands, Martie pulled him aside. Her  expression, as ghastly as it was, could be no more horrified than his own face.  She said, "When Susan was representing Ahriman's house, before it was Ahriman's  house, she was the agent for the original owner, and she wanted me to see the  place. Spectacular house, but very imposing, like a stage set for  Gotterdammerung. Had to see it, she said. So I met her there. It was the day she  first showed it to Ahriman, the day she met him. I arrived when she was  finishing the tour with him. I met him that day, too. The three of us. . .  talked a little."

"Oh, Jesus. Can you remember? . .

"I'm trying. But, I don't know. Maybe the subject of his book came up.  Seventy-eight weeks on the best-seller list now. So back then it would have been  fairly new. Eighteen months ago. And if I realized what kind of book it was. . .  maybe I mentioned Derek."

Trying to pad the sharp points of the piercing conclusion toward which Martie  was hurtling, Dusty said, "Miss M., stop right now. Stop what you're thinking.  Ahriman would've gone after Susan anyway. As beautiful as she was, he had her in  his sights before you came into the picture."

"Maybe."

"Definitely."

Lampton had turned away from the computer to listen. "You've actually met this  pop-psych putz?"

Confronting Derek senior, fixing him with a glare that would have turned him to  ice if there had been blood in his veins, Martie said, "We're all dead because  of you."

Waiting to hear the punch line of what he assumed must be a joke, Lampton  skinned his lips back from his nippy little teeth.

Martie said, "Dead because of your childish competitiveness."

Like a radiant Valkyrie flying to the assistance of her wounded warrior,  Claudette came to Lampton's side. "There is nothing in the least childish about  it. You don't understand the academic world, Martine. You don't understand  intellectuals."

"Don't I?" Martie bristled.

Dusty heard so much loathing in Don't I? that he was glad Martie was no longer  in possession of the .45 Colt.

"Competition among men like Derek," said Claudette, "isn't about egos or  self-interest. It's about ideas. Ideas that shape society, the world, the  future. For those ideas to be tested and tempered and readied for  implementation, they have to survive challenges, debate of all types, in all  arenas."

"Like Amazon.com reader reviews," Martie said scathingly.

Claudette was undaunted. "The battle of ideas is a very real war, not a childish  competition, as you're trying to paint it."

Valet backed out of the room and stood watching from the hail.

Joining Dusty and Martie, though careful to stand behind them, Skeet found the  courage to say, "Martie's right."

"When you're off your medications," Lampton told him, "your judgment isn't good  enough to make you a welcome ally, Holden."

"I welcome him," Dusty disagreed.

With her teeth into this issue, Claudette was more emotional than Dusty had ever  seen her. "You think life is video games and movies and fashion and football and  gardening, and whatever the hell else fills your days, but life is about ideas.  People like Derek, people with ideas, shape the world. They shape government,  religion, society, every tiniest aspect of our culture. Most people are drones  by choice, spending their days in trivialities, absorbed with piffle, living  their lives without ever realizing that Derek, people like Derek, have made this  society and rule them by the power of ideas."

Here, in this ugly confrontation with Claudette, which for Dusty and surely for  Skeet, as well, was rapidly growing into a showdown of mythic proportions,  Martie was their paladin, lance raised and eye to eye with the dragon. Skeet had  moved directly behind her, putting his hands on her shoulders, and Dusty was  half tempted to move behind Skeet for additional protection.

"Daring to be your own best friend," Martie said, "and learning to love  yourself-these are ideas that shape?"

"There's no comparison between my book and Ahriman's," Lampton objected, but  after his wife's vigorous defense, he sounded as though he were pouting.

Moving half in front of Lampton, as if to physically defend her beleaguered man,  but also to press her butt against him, Claudette insisted: "Derek writes vivid,  solid, psychologically profound work. Rigorously composed ideas. Ahriman spews  out pop-psych vomit."

Dusty had never before seen his mother cast off her icy veil and reveal her  sexual nature, and he hoped that he would never see anything like this again.  What aroused her was not ideas themselves, but the idea that ideas were power.

Power was her true aphrodisiac; not the naked power of generals and politicians  and prize-fighters, or even the raw power of serial killers, but the power of  those who shaped the minds of generals, politicians, ministers, teachers, lawyers,  filmmakers. The power of manipulation. In her flared nostrils and glittering  eyes, he saw now an eroticism as cold as that of the trapdoor spider and the  whip-tailed skink.

"You still don't get it," Martie seethed. "In defense of Dare to Be Your Own  Best Friend, you burned down our house. It might as well have been you, you  directly. In defense of Dare to Be Your Own Best Friend, you shot Skeet and Fig.

You think what they say happened last night is a dissociative fantasy, but it's  real, Claudette. Those bruises are real, the bullets were real. Your stupid,  stupid, stupid idea of what constitutes debate, your idea that harassment is the  same as reasoned discussion-that's what influenced the finger that pulled the  trigger. How's that for shaping society, huh? Maybe you're ready to die for  Derek's vivid, solid, rigorously composed, psychologically profound narcissistic  bullshit, but I'm not!"

From his post at the window, Fig said, "Lexus."

Claudette hadn't breathed fire yet, though she was full of it. "How easy it  evidently is to make ignorant, specious arguments when you've never had a  college course in logic. If Ahriman burns down houses and shoots people, then  he's a maniac, a psychopath, and Derek is right to go after him any way he can.  Indeed, if what you say is true, it's courageous to go after him."

Daring to be his own best friend, Lampton said, "I always sensed a sociopath  worldview in his writing. I always suspected there was risk in opposing him, but  one takes risks if one cares."

"Oh, yes," Martie said, "let's call the Pentagon at once and have them get a  Medal of Honor ready for you. For valor on the field of academic battle, bravery  at the computer keyboard with courageous use of false names and invalid E-mail  addresses."

"You are not welcome in my house," said Claudette.

"Lexus in the driveway," Fig said.

"So what if there's a hundred fucking Lexuses in the driveway?" Claudette  demanded, never taking her eyes off Martie. "Every idiot in this pretentious  neighborhood has a Lexus or a Mercedes."

"Parking," said Fig.

Martie and Dusty joined Fig at the window.

The driver's door of the Lexus opened, and a tall, handsome, dark-haired man got  out of the car. Eric Jagger.

"Oh, God," Martie said.

Through Susan, Ahriman had gotten at Martie. With or without the benefit of a  college course in logic, Dusty was able to add this particular two-plus-two. Eric reached back into the car to get something that he had left on the seat.

Through Susan, Ahriman had also gotten at Eric, programming him and instructing  him to separate from his wife, thereby leaving Susan alone and more vulnerable,  more accessible any time the psychiatrist was in the mood to have her. And now  there was something else Ahriman wanted from Eric, something a little more  strenuous than moving out of his wife's house.

"Hacksaw," Fig said.

"Autopsy saw," Dusty corrected.

"With cranial blades," Martie added.

"Gun," said Fig.

And here came Eric.

74

Death was as stylish as anyone now: gone, the black carriage drawn by black  horses, traded in on a silver Lexus. Gone, the black robe with the melodramatic  hood: instead, tasseled loafers, black slacks, a Jhane Barnes sweater.

The Keviar body armor was in the pickup, and the pickup was in the garage, so  Skeet and Fig were as unprotected as everyone else, and this time the gunman  would be taking head shots, anyway.

"Gun?" Lampton said when Martie asked. "You mean here?"

"No, of course not, don't be ridiculous," Claudette said, as if spoiling for  another argument even now, "we don't have a gun."

"Then too bad you don't have a really lethal idea, " Martie said.

Dusty grabbed Lampton by the arm. "The back-porch roof. You can get onto it  through Junior's room or the master bedroom."

Blinking in confusion, nose twitching as if trying to catch a scent that would  explain the precise nature of the danger, the mink man said, "But why-" "Hurry!" Dusty said. "All of you. Go, go. Onto the porch roof, down to the lawn,  down to the beach, and hide out at one of the neighbors' houses."

Junior was the first through the study doorway, out and gone in a sprint,  apparently not in fact prepared to immerse himself in anything more than the  idea of death.

Dusty followed the boy, pulling the wheeled office chair away from Lampton's desk and then pushing it ahead of him, racing down the hall to  the top of the stairs, while the rest of them hurried off in the opposite  direction.

No, not all of them. Here was Skeet, sweet but useless. "What can I do?"

"Damn it, kid, just get out!"

"Help me with this," Martie said.

She hadn't fled, either. She was at a six-foot-long Sheraton sideboard that  stood along the wide hallway, opposite the head of the stairs. With a sweep of  her arm, she cleared off a vase and an arrangement of silver candlesticks, which  shattered and rattled to the floor. Evidently, she had figured out what Dusty  intended to do with the office chair, but she was of the opinion that  higher-caliber ammunition was needed.

Together, after moving the chair aside, the three of them dragged the sideboard  away from the wall and stood it on one end at the head of the stairs.

"Now make him go," Dusty urged her. His voice was hoarse with terror, worse now  than it had been when they had finished the slomo roll in the rental car outside  Santa Fe, because at least then he'd had the comfort of knowing, as the gunmen  descended the slope after them, that Martie had the Colt Commander, whereas now  he had nothing but a damn sideboard.

Martie grabbed Skeet by the arm, and he tried to resist, but she was the  stronger of the two.

Downstairs, a tattoo of automatic gunfire shattered the leaded glass in the  front door, cracked off pieces of wood, too, and chopped into the walls of the  foyer.

Dusty dropped onto the hall floor, behind the upended sideboard, looking past it  down the long single flight of stairs.

The investment adviser slammed through the splintered door and stormed into the  house as though a master's in business administration from Harvard now required  courses in ass-kicking and heavy weaponry. He put the autopsy saw on the foyer  table, gripped the machine pistol in both hands, and turned in a  hundred-eighty-degree arc, spraying bullets into the downstairs rooms on three  sides of him.

This was an extended magazine, probably thirty-three rounds, but it wasn't a  magic well of cartridges, so at the end of Eric's arc, the gun ran dry.

Spare magazines were tucked under his belt. He fumbled with the pistol, trying  to eject the spent magazine.

He couldn't be allowed to search the lower floor first, because when he went  into the kitchen, he might see people dropping off the back-porch roof or  fleeing across the backyard toward the beach.

Gunfire seemed to be still thundering through the house, but Dusty knew the  inner workings of his ears were just vibrating in the aftermath, so he shouted,  "Ben Marco!"

Eric looked up at the top of the stairs, but he didn't freeze or get that  telltale glazed look. He continued fumbling with the pistol, which was clearly  unfamiliar to him.

"Bobby Lembeck!" Dusty shouted.

The spent magazine clattered to the foyer floor.

In this case, maybe the activating name didn't come from The Manchurian  Candidate. Maybe it came from The Godfather or Rosemary's Baby, or from The  House at Pooh Corner, for all he knew, but he didn't have time to sample the  last fifty years of popular fiction in search of the right character. "Johnny  Iselin!"

After shoving another magazine into the machine pistol, Eric locked it in place  with a hard whack from the palm of his hand.

"Wen Chang!"

Eric squeezed off a burst of eight or ten rounds, which tore through the solid  cherry-wood top of the sideboard-pock, pock, pock, too many pocks to  count-cracked through the drawers, smashed out of the bottom, and thudded into  the hallway wall behind Dusty, passing over his head and leaving a wake of  splinters to rain over him. High-velocity rounds, jacketed in something way  harder than he wanted to think about, and maybe with Teflon tips.

"Jocelyn Jordan!" Dusty shouted into the jarring silence that throbbed through  his head following the skull-ringing peals of the gunshots. He had read a  sizable piece of the novel, and he had skimmed the whole thing, looking for  names, in particular for the one that would activate him. He remembered them  all. His eidetic memory was the one gift with which he'd been born into this  world, that and the common sense that had driven him to be a housepainter  instead of a mover and shaker in the world of Big Ideas, but Condon's novel was  chocked full of characters, major and minor-as minor as Viola Narvilly, who  didn't even appear until past page 300-and he might not have time to run through the entire cast before Eric blew his head  off. "Alan Melvin!"

Holding his fire, Eric climbed the steps.

Dusty could hear him coming.

Climbing fast, unfazed by the Sheraton-sideboard deadfall that loomed over him.  Coming like a robot. Which was pretty much what he was, in fact: a living robot,  a meat machine.

"Ellie Iselin!" Dusty shouted, and he was simultaneously half mad with fear and  yet aware of what a ludicrous exit this would be, blown to kingdom come while  shouting out names like a frantic quiz-show contestant trying to beat a  countdown clock. "Nora Lemmon!"

Unmoved by Nora Lemmon, Eric kept coming, and Dusty scrambled up from the floor,  shoved the sideboard, and dove to his left, away from the top of the stairs,  behind a sheltering wall, as another burst of gunfire smacked into the toppling  mass of fine eighteenth-century cherry wood.

Eric grunted and cursed, but it was impossible to tell from the thunderous  descent of the sideboard whether he had been hurt or carried to the foyer below.  The stairs were wider than the upended antique, and he might have been able to  dodge it.

Standing with his back to the hallway wall, next to the stairs, Dusty didn't  relish poking his head around the corner to have a look. In addition to never  having attended a college class in logic, he'd never taken a class in magic,  either, and he didn't know how to catch bullets in his teeth.

And, dear God, even as the thudding-crashing-cracking-banging still rose from  the staircase, here came Martie-who was supposed to be gone with the rest of  them-pushing a wheeled, three-drawer filing cabinet along the hallway, having  commandeered it from Lampton's office.

Dusty glowered at her. What the hell was she thinking, anyway? That Eric would  run Out of bullets before they ran out of furniture?

Seizing the filing cabinet, pushing Martie away, using the fourfoot-high stack  of metal drawers as cover, Dusty moved to the head of the stairs again. Eric had tumbled into the foyer with the sideboard. His left leg was pinned  under it. He was still holding the machine pistol, and he fired toward the top  of the stairs.

Ducking, Dusty heard the shots go wild. They slammed hard into the ceiling, and  a few rounds twanged through ducts and pipes behind the plaster. Not even one  ricocheted off the filing cabinet.

His heart was rattling in his chest as if several rounds were ricocheting from  wall to wall of its chambers.

When he cautiously peered down into the foyer again, he saw that Eric had pulled  his leg out from under the sideboard and was getting to his feet. Relentless as  a robot, operating on programmed instructions rather than reason or emotion, the  guy was nonetheless pissed.

"Eugenie Rose Cheyney!"

Not even limping, cursing fluently, Eric started toward the stairs. The filing  cabinet wasn't half as massive as the sideboard. He would be able to dodge it,  pumping out rounds as he came.

"Ed Mavole!"

"I'm listening."

Eric stopped at the foot of the stairs. The murderous glare melted off his face,  and what replaced it was not the flat, grimly determined expression with which  he had entered the house, but the glazed and slightly quizzical look that  signified activation.

Ed Mavole was the name, all right, but Dusty was still lacking a haiku.

According to Ned Motherwell, umpteen feet of shelves in the bookstore were  devoted to haiku, so even if all the volumes Ned had bought were now near at  hand-which they weren't-the accessing lines might not be in them.

Down in the foyer, Eric twitched, blinked, and reacquainted himself with his  murderous intentions.

"Ed Mavole," Dusty said again, and once more Eric froze and said, "I'm  listening."

This wouldn't be fun, but it ought to be doable. Keep using the magic name, snap  Eric back into an activated state every time he came out of it, go straight down  the stairs at him, snatch the gun from his hand, knock him ass over teakettle,  clip him alongside the head with the butt of the gun, just hard enough to knock  him unconscious without leaving him comatose for life, and then tie him up with  whatever was at hand. Maybe when he regained consciousness, he would no longer  be a robotic killer. Otherwise, they could keep him under restraint, buy all  umpteen shelf feet of haiku, brew ten gallons of strong coffee, and read every verse to him until they got a response. As Dusty rolled the filing cabinet aside, Martie said, "Oh, God, please, babe,  don't chance it," and Eric twitched back to his killing glare.

"Ed Mavole."

"I'm listening."

Dusty descended the stairs fast. Eric was looking straight at him but didn't  seem to be able to work out the physics of what was about to happen. Before  Dusty was a third of the way down, taking no chances, he shouted, "Ed Mavole,"  and Eric Jagger replied, "I'm listening," and then he was two-thirds of the way  down, and he said, "Ed Mavole," and as he reached Eric, the answer came in that  same mellow voice, "I'm listening." Looking straight into the muzzle, which  seemed as big as any tunnel that he might drive through, Dusty closed one hand  around the barrel, pushed it aside and out of his face, wrenched the gun from  Eric's slack hands, and at the same time drove his shoulder into the dazed man,  knocking him to the floor.

Dusty fell, too, and rolled across broken glass and chunks of wood from the  bullet-riddled front door, afraid he might accidentally discharge the pistol. He  tumbled into the half-moon table that stood against the foyer wall, rapping his  forehead hard against the sturdy stretcher bar that connected its three legs,  but he didn't shoot himself in the thigh, the groin, or anywhere else. When Dusty staggered to his feet, he saw that Eric had already gotten off the  floor. The guy looked confused but nonetheless angry and still in a  programmed-killer mode.

From the stairs, which she was rapidly descending, Martie said, "Ed Mavole,"  even before Dusty could say it, and suddenly this seemed to be the lamest video  game Martie had ever concocted: Housepainter Versus Investment Adviser, one armed with an automatic weapon and  the other with furniture and magic names.

It might have been funny, this thought at this moment, if he'd not looked past  Martie to the top of the stairs, where Junior stood with a crossbow, cranked to  full tension and loaded.

"No!" Dusty shouted.

Shusssh.

A crossbow quarrel, shorter and thicker than an ordinary arrow, is far more  difficult to see in flight than is an arrow let off by a standard bow, so much  faster does it move. Magic, the way this one appeared to pop from Eric Jagger's  chest, as if out of his heart like a rabbit out of a hat: All but two inches of  its notchless butt protruded in a small carnation of blood.

Eric dropped to his knees. The homicidal glare cleared from his eyes, and he  looked around in bewilderment at the foyer, which apparently was altogether new  to him. Then he blinked up at Dusty and seemed astonished as he fell forward,  dead.

When Martie tried to stop Dusty from going upstairs, he shook her off, and he  climbed two steps at a time, his forehead throbbing where he'd rapped it against  the stretcher bar, his vision swimming, but not from the blow on the head,  swimming because his body was flooded with whatever brain chemicals induce and  sustain rage, his heart pumping as much pure fury as blood, the angelic-looking  boy seen now through a dark lens and a red tint, as though Dusty's eyes were  streaming tears of blood.

Junior tried to use the crossbow like a shield, to block the assault. Dusty  grabbed the stock at midpoint, the revolving nut of the lock plate digging into  the palm of his hand. He wrenched the bow out of the boy's grasp, threw it on  the floor, and kept moving. He drove the boy across the hall, into the space  where the sideboard had stood, shoving him against the wall so hard that his  head bounced off the plaster with a thock like a tennis ball off a racket.

"You sick, rotten little shit."

"He had a gun!"

"I'd already taken it away from him," Dusty screamed, spraying the boy with  spittle, but Junior insisted, "I didn't see!" And they repeated the same useless  things to each other, twice, three times, until Dusty accused him with such  violence that his damning words boomed along the hail: "You saw, you knew, you  did it anyway!"

Then came Claudette, pushing between them, forcing them apart, her back to  Junior, confronting Dusty, eyes harder than before, the unyielding gray of flint  and flashing as if with sparks. For the first time in her life, her face didn't  astonish with its beauty: instead, such a hideous ferocity. "You leave him  alone, leave him alone, you get away from him!"

"He killed Eric."

"He saved us! We'd all be dead, but he saved us!" Claudette was shrill, as never  before, her lips pale and her skin gray, like some stone goddess come alive and  raging, a termagant who, by sheer power of will, would alter this bitter reality  to suit her, as only gods and goddesses could do. "He had the guts, and he had  the brains to act, to save us!"

Lampton appeared, too, pouring out thick streams of soothing words, gouts of  platitudes, slathers of anger-management jargon, no less containable than the  oil spill from a floundering supertanker. Talking, talking, talking, even as his  wife pressed her ceaseless strident defense of Junior, both of them chattering  at once: Their words were like paint rollers, laying down obscuring swaths of  new color over stains.

At the same time, Lampton was trying to get the machine pistol out of Dusty's  right hand, which at first Dusty didn't even realize he was still holding. When  he understood what Lampton wanted, he let go of the weapon.

"Better call the police," Lampton said, though surely neighbors had already done  so, and he hurried away.

Skeet warily approached, staying well clear of his mother but nonetheless coming  around to Dusty's side of the standoff, and Fig stood farther back down the  hall, watching them as though he had, at last, made contact with the aliens he  had so long desired to meet.

None of them had fled the house as Dusty had urged them to do-or if they had  gotten as far as the roof of the back porch, they had returned. At least Lampton  and Claudette must have known that Junior was loading his crossbow with the  intention of joining the battle, and apparently neither of them had tried to  stop him. Or perhaps they had been afraid to try. Any parents with common sense  or a genuine love of their child would have taken the crossbow away from him and  dragged him out of this house if necessary. Or maybe the idea of a boy with a  primitive weapon defeating a man with a machine pistol-a twisted incarnation of  Rousseau's concept of the noble savage, which set so many hearts aflutter in the  academic literary community-had been too delicious to resist. Dusty could no  longer pretend to understand the odd thought processes of these people, and he  was weary of trying.

"He killed a man," Dusty reminded his mother, because for him no amount of  shrill argument could change this fundamental truth.

"A lunatic, a maniac, a demented man with a gun," Claudette insisted

"I'd taken the gun away from him."

"That's what you say."

"That's the truth. I could have handled him."

"You can't handle anything. You drop out of school, you drop out of life, you  paint houses for a living."

"If customer satisfaction were the issue," he said, knowing he shouldn't say it,  unable to restrain himself, "I'd be on the cover of Time, and Derek would be in  prison, paying for all the patients' lives he's fucked up."

"You ungrateful bastard."

Distraught, on the verge of tears, Skeet pleaded, "Don't start this. Don't  start. It'll never stop if you start now."

Dusty recognized the truth of what Skeet said. After all these years of keeping  his head down, all these years of enduring and being dutiful but distant, so  much hurt remained unsalved, so many offenses had never been responded to, that  the temptation now would be to redress all wrongs in one terrible venting. He  wanted to avoid that dreadful plunge, but he and his mother seemed to be in a  barrel on the roaring brink of Niagara, with nowhere to go but down.

"I know what I saw," Claudette insisted. "And you're not going to change my mind  about that, not you of all people, not you, Dusty."

He couldn't let it go and still be sure of who he was: "You weren't here. You  weren't in a position to see anything."

Martie had joined them. Taking hold of Dusty's hand, gripping it tightly, she  said, "Claudette, only two people saw what happened. Me and Dusty."

"I saw," Claudette declared angrily. "No one can tell me what I saw or didn't  see. Who do you think you are? I'm not a doddering old senile bitch who can be  told what to think, what she saw!"

Behind his mother, Junior smiled. He met Dusty's eyes and was so lacking in  shame that he didn't look away.

"What's wrong with you?" Claudette demanded of Dusty. "What's wrong with you  that you'd rather see your brother's life ruined over something as meaningless  as this?"

"Murder is meaningless to you?"

Claudette slapped Dusty, slapped him hard, grabbed handfuls of his shirt, tried to push him back, and as she shook him, words shook from her,  too, one at a time: "You. Won't. Do. This. Vicious. Thing. To. Me."

"I don't want to ruin his life, Mother. That's the last thing I want. He needs  help. Can't you see that? He needs help, and somebody better get it for him." "Don't you judge him, Dusty." Such venom in the emphasis that she gave to his  name, such bitterness. "One year of college doesn't make you a master of  psychology, you know. It doesn't make you any damn thing at all, except a  loser."

Crying now, Skeet said, "Mother, please-"

"Shut up," Claudette said, rounding on her younger son. "You just shut up,  Holden. You didn't see anything, and you better not pretend you did. No one will  believe you, anyway, the mess you are."

As Martie pulled Skeet aside, out of the fray, Dusty looked past Claudette, to  Junior, who was smirking as he watched Skeet.

Dusty almost heard the click as a switch was thrown and insight brightened a  previously dark space in his mind. The Japanese called this a satori, a moment  of sudden enlightenment: an odd word learned in one year of college.

Satori. Here was Junior, as fair of face as his mother, blessed with her  physical grace, as well. And bright. No denying how very bright he was. At her  age, he would be her last child, and the only one with the prospect to fulfill  her expectations. Here was her last chance to be not merely a woman of ideas, to  be not merely the bride to a man of ideas, but to be the mother of a man of  ideas. Indeed, in her mind, though not in reality, here was her last chance to  be associated with ideas that might move the world, because her first three  husbands had proved to be men whose big ideas had no solidity and had popped at  the first prick. Even Derek, with all his success, was a chupaflor, not an  eagle, and Claudette knew it. Dusty was, in her mind, too pigheaded to fulfill  his potential, and Skeet was too fragile. And Dominique, her first child, was  long and safely dead. Dusty had never known his half sister, had seen one photo  of her, perhaps the only ever taken: her sweet, small, gentle face. Junior was  the only hope that remained for Claudette, and she was determined to believe  that his mind and his heart were as fair as his face.

While she was still browbeating Skeet, Dusty heard himself say, "Mother, how did  Dominique die?"

The question, dangerous in this context, silenced Claudette as nothing else  except perhaps another gunshot would have done.

He met her eyes and didn't turn to stone, as she intended, and shame-rather than  a lack of it-kept him from looking away. Shame that he had known the truth,  intuitively at first and then through the application of logic and reflection,  had known the truth since boyhood and yet had denied it to himself and had never  spoken. Shame that he allowed her and Skeet's pompous father and then Derek  Lampton to grind Skeet down, when ferreting out the truth about Dominique might  have disarmed them and given Skeet a better life.

"You must have been heartbroken," Dusty said, "when your first child was born  with Down's syndrome. Such high hopes, and such sad reality."

"What are you doing?" Her voice was softer now but even more highly charged with  anger.

The hallway seemed to grow narrower, and the ceiling seemed to descend slowly,  as if this were one of those deadly room-size traps in corny old adventure  movies, and as if all of them were in danger of being crushed alive.

"And then another tragedy. Crib death. Sudden infant death syndrome. How  difficult to endure it. . . the whispers, the medical inquiry, waiting for a  final determination of the cause of death."

Martie drew a sharp breath with the realization of where this was going, and she  said, "Dusty," meaning Maybe you shouldn't do this.

He had never spoken up when it might have helped Skeet, however, and now he was  determined to do what he could to force her to get treatment for Junior while  there might still be time. "One of my clearest early memories, Mother, is a day  when I was five, going on six.. . a couple weeks after Skeet was brought home  from the hospital. You were born prematurely, Skeet. Did you know that?"

"I guess," Skeet said shakily.

"They didn't think you'd survive, but you did. And when they brought you home,  they thought you were likely to have suffered some brain damage that would show  up sooner or later. But that, of course, proved not to be the case."

"My learning disability," Skeet reminded him.

"Maybe that," Dusty agreed. "Assuming you ever really had one."

Claudette regarded Dusty as though he were a snake: wanting to stomp him before  he coiled and struck, but afraid to make any move against him and thereby  precipitate what she feared most.

He said, "That day when I was five, going on six, you were in a mood, Mother.

Such a strange mood that even a little boy couldn't help but sense that  something terrible was going to happen. You got out the photograph of  Dominique."

She raised one fist as if to hit him again, but it hung in the air, the blow not  struck.

In some respects, this was the hardest thing that Dusty had ever done, and yet  in other ways it was so easy that it frightened him, easy in the same sense that  jumping off a roof is easy if there are no consequences to the fall. But there  would be consequences here. "It was the first time I'd ever seen that  photograph, ever known I'd had a sister. You carried it with you around the  house that day. You couldn't stop looking at it. And it was late in the  afternoon when I found the photo lying in the hallway outside the nursery."

Claudette lowered her fist and turned away from Dusty.

His hand seemed to belong to another, bolder man as he watched it reach out and  take her by the arm, halting her and forcing her to face him.

Junior stepped forward protectively.

"Better pick up your crossbow and load it," Dusty warned the boy. "Because you  can't handle me without it."

Although the violence in his eyes was more fierce even than the hard rage in his  mother's, Junior backed off.

"When I came into the nursery," Dusty said, "you didn't hear me. Skeet was in  the crib. You were standing over him with a pillow in your hands. You stood over  him for the longest time. And then you lowered the pillow toward his face.

Slowly. And that's when I said something. I don't remember what. But you knew I  was there, and you.. . stopped. At the time, I didn't know what had almost  happened. But later. . . years later, I did understand, but wouldn't face it.,'

"Oh, Jesus," Skeet said, his voice as weak as that of a child. "Oh, dear sweet  Jesus."

Although Dusty had faith in the power of truth, he didn't know for sure that  this revelation would help Skeet more than harm him. He was so torn by the  thought of the wreckage he might be causing that when a quiver of nausea passed  briefly through him, he assumed he would throw up blood if he threw up anything  at all.

Claudette's teeth were so tightly clenched that the muscles twitched in her  jaws.

"A couple minutes ago, Mother, I asked if murder was meaningless to you, and the  question didn't even give you pause. Which is odd, because that is a big idea.

Worth discussion if ever anything was."

"Are you done?"

"Not quite. After all these years of putting up with this crap, I've earned the  right to finish what I have to say. I know your worst secrets, Mother, all the  worst. I've suffered for them, we all have, and we're going to suffer more-"

Clawing at his hand, drawing two thin tracks of blood with her fingernails,  wrenching loose of him, she said, "If Dominique hadn't been a Down's baby, and  if I hadn't spared her that half life she would've led, and if she were alive  here and now, wouldn't that be worse? Wouldn't that be infinitely worse?"

The sense she made diminished as the volume of her voice rose, and Dusty had no  idea what she meant.

Junior moved closer to his mother's side. They stood hand in hand, drawing a  strange strength from each other.

Pointing toward the dead man sprawled in the foyer below, a gesture that seemed  to have no connection to her words, she said, "Down's was at least an obvious  condition. What if she'd seemed normal but then.. . all grown up, what if she'd  been just like her father?"

Dominique's father, Claudette's first husband, had been more than twenty years  her senior, a psychologist named Lief Reissler, a cold fish with pale eyes and a  pencil mustache, who had thankfully played no role in either Dusty's or Skeet's  life. A cold fish, yes, but not the monster that her question implied he was.

Before Dusty could express his bafflement, Claudette clarified. After three days  of shocks that he'd thought had forever inoculated him against surprise, she  rocked him with eight words: "What if she'd been just like Mark Ahriman?" The  rest was superfluous: "You say he burns down houses, he shoots people, he's a sociopath, and this crazy man  who's dead downstairs is somehow associated with him. So would you want his  child for your half sister?"

She raised Junior's hand and kissed it, as though to say that she was especially  glad that she had spared him the problem of this difficult sister.

When Dusty had claimed to know her worst secrets, all the worst, she assumed  he'd been referring to more than the fact that the sudden infant death syndrome  that claimed Dominique had truly been ruthless suffocation.

Now, because of his reaction and Martie's, Claudette realized this revelation  need never have been made, but instead of retreating into silence, she tried to  explain.

"Lief was infertile. We were never going to be able to have children. I was  twenty-one, and Lief was forty-four, and he could have been the perfect father,  with his tremendous knowledge, all his insights, his theories of emotional  development. Lief had a brilliant child-rearing philosophy."

Yes, they all had their child-rearing philosophies, their deep insights, and  their abiding interest in social engineering. Medicate to educate, and all that. "Mark Ahriman was just seventeen, but he'd started college soon after his  thirteenth birthday, and he'd already earned a doctorate by the time I met him.  He was a prodigy's prodigy, and everyone at the university was in awe of him. A  genius almost beyond measure. He was no one's idea of a perfect father. He was a  snooty Hollywood brat. But the genes."

"Did he know the child was his?"

"Yes. Why not? None of us was that conventional."

The buzzing in Dusty's head, which was the accompanying theme music for any  visit to this house, had settled into a more ominous tone than usual. "When  Dominique was born with Down's... how did you handle that, Mother?"

She stared at the blood on his hand, which she had drawn with her fingernails,  and when she raised her eyes to meet his, she said only, "You know how I handled  it."

Once more, she lifted Junior's hand to her lips and kissed his knuckles, this  time as if to say that all her problems with damaged children had been worth  enduring now that she had been given him.

Dusty said, "I meant, not how did you handle Dominique. How did you handle the  news of her condition? If I know you, Ahriman got his ear bent almost off. I'll  bet you dished out more humiliation to him than a snotty Hollywood brat is used  to."

"Nothing like that has ever showed up in my family," she said, confirming that  Ahriman must have been the target of her full fury.

Martie could contain herself no longer. "So thirty-two years ago, you humiliate  him, you kill his child-"

"He was glad when he heard she was dead."

"I'm sure he was, knowing him like I do now. But just the same, you humiliate  him back then. And all these years later, the man who gave you Junior, this  golden boy-"

Junior actually smiled, as if Martie were coming on to him.

"-the man who gives you this boy that Ahriman couldn't give you, your husband,  goes out of his way to mock Ahriman, to belittle him, to tear him apart in every  public forum he can find, and even sabotages him with this petty crap on  Amazon.com. And you didn't put a stop to it?"

Claudette's anger flared anew at Martie's accusation of bad judgment. "I  encouraged it. And why not. Mark Ahriman can't make a book any better than he  can make a baby. Why should he have more success than Derek? Why should he have  anything at all?"

"You foolish woman." Martie evidently chose this insult because she knew that it  would sting Claudette worse than any other. "You foolish, ignorant woman."

Skeet, alarmed by Martie's directness, afraid for her, tried to draw her back.

Instead, Martie grasped his hand and held it tightly, just as Claudette held  Junior's. But she wasn't taking strength from Skeet; she was giving it. "Stay  cool, honey." Pressing the attack, she said, "Claudette, you don't have a clue  what Ahriman is capable of doing. You don't understand jack about him-his  viciousness, his relentlessness."

"I understand-"

"Like hell you do! You opened the door to him and let him into all our lives,  not just your own. He wouldn't have looked twice at me if I hadn't had a  connection to you. If not for you, none of this would have happened to me, and I  wouldn't have had to do"-she looked miserably at Dusty, and he knew she was thinking of two dead men in New  Mexico-"the things I've had to do."

Claudette could be cowed neither by the virulence of an argument nor by the  facts of it. "You make it sound as if it's all about you. Like they say, shit  happens. I'm sure you've heard that kind of talk in your circles before. Shit  happens, Martie. It happens to all of us. It's my house that was shot apart, in  case you hadn't noticed."

"Get used to it," Martie countered. "Because Ahriman won't stop with this. He's  going to send someone else, and someone else, and then ten more someone elses,  people who're strangers and people we've known and trusted all our lives,  blindsiding us time after time, and he's going to keep sending them until we're  all dead."

"You aren't even making any damn sense," Claudette fumed.

"Enough! Shut up, shut up, all of you!" Derek stood downstairs in the foyer,  near Eric's body, shouting up at them. "Neighbors must not be home, 'cause no  one called the police till I just did. Before they get here, I'm telling you how  it's going to be. This is my house, and I'm telling you. I wiped the gun off. I  put it back in his hand. Dusty, Martie, if you want to go against us, you do  what you have to do, but then it's warfare between us, and I'll smear the two of  you any way I can. You said your house burned down? I'll tell them you gamble,  you have debts, and you burned it down for the insurance."

Staggered by this grotesque threat and yet not surprised, Dusty said, "Derek,  for God's sake, what good would that do any of us now?"

"It'll muddy the waters," Lampton said. "Confuse the cops. This guy was your  friend's husband, Martie? So I'll tell the cops he came here to kill Dusty  because Dusty was screwing with Susan."

"You stupid bastard," Martie said, "Susan's dead. She-"

Claudette embraced the conspiracy: "Then I'll say Eric confessed to killing  Susan before he started shooting up this place, killed her because she was  screwing Dusty. I'm warning you two, we'll muddy these waters until they can't  even see my boy, let alone accuse him of murder, when all he did was save our  lives."

Dusty couldn't recall having stepped through a looking glass or being sucked  into a tornado full of dark magic, but here he was in a world where everything  was upside down and backward, where lies were celebrated as truths, where truth  was unwelcome and unrecognized.

"Come on, Claudette," Lampton urged, motioning her downstairs. "Come on, Derek.  The kitchen. Quick. We've got to talk before the police get here. Our stories  have to match."

The boy smirked at Dusty as he trailed his mother, still holding her hand, to  the stairs and then down.

Dusty wheeled away from them and back down the hall to Fig, who had stood  motionless through the storm.

"Wow," Fig said.

"You understand Skeet better now?"

"Oh, yeah."

"Where's Valet?" Dusty asked, because the dog was a link to reality, his own  Toto, reminding him of a world where wicked witches were not real.

"Bed," Fig advised, pointing toward the open door of the master-bedroom suite.

The Sheraton bed stood high enough off the floor for Valet to have squeezed  under it. He was betrayed by his tail, which trailed beyond the bedspread.

Dusty went around to the farther side of the bed, got down on the floor, lifted  the spread, and said, "Got room in there for me?"

Valet whined as if inviting him under for a cuddle.

"They'd find us anyway," Dusty assured him. "Come out of there, fella. Come here  and let me rub your tummy."

With coaxing, Valet crawled into the open, although he was too spooked to expose  his belly even to those he trusted most.

Martie joined Dusty, sitting on the floor with the dog between them. "I'm  reconsidering the whole idea of ever having a family. I think maybe this here is  as good as it gets-you, me, and Valet."

The dog seemed to agree.

Martie said, "Driving here, I didn't think this mess could get any worse, and  now look where we are. Neck deep and sinking. I'm numb, you know? I know what  happened to Eric, but I don't feel it yet."

"Yeah. I'm beyond numb."

"What are you going to do?"

Dusty shook his head. "I don't know. What's the use, though? I mean, the kid's  going to be a hero, right? No matter what I say. Or you. I can see it clear as  I've ever seen anything. The truth won't play well enough to be believed."

"And what about Ahriman?"

"I'm scared, Martie."

"Me too."

"Who's going to believe us? It would have been hard enough to get anyone to  listen to us before. . . this. But now, with the Lizard and Claudette willing to  make up wild stories about us just to muddy the waters. . . If we start talking  about brainwashing and programmed suicide, programmed killers . . . that'll only  make their lies about us ring more true."

"And if someone did burn down our house-Ahriman or someone he sent-it'll be  obvious arson. What's our alibi?"

Dusty blinked in surprise. "We were in New Mexico."

"Doing what?"

He opened his mouth to speak-but closed it without a word.

"If we mention New Mexico, we're going to get into the Ahriman stuff. And yeah,  there's some substantiation of it-all the things that happened to people out  there a long time ago. But how do we get into all that and not risk. . . Zachary  and Kevin?"

They stroked the dog in silence for a moment, and finally Dusty said, "I could  kill him. I mean, last night, you asked me could I do it, and I said I didn't  know. But now I know."

"I could do it, too," she said.

"Kill him, and then it stops."

"Assuming the institute doesn't come after us."

"You heard Ahriman in the office this morning. This wasn't any part of that.  This was personal. And now we know just how personal."

"You kill him," she said, "and you'll spend the rest of your life in prison."

"Maybe."

"Definitely. Because no judge will allow a cockamamie defense like, 'I killed  him because he was a brainwashing fiend.'"

"Then they'll put me away for ten years in an asylum. That's better, anyway."

"Not unless they put the two of us in the same asylum."

Valet raised his head and looked at them as if to say three.

Someone was running in the upstairs hall, and it proved to be Fig Newton when he  burst into the room, his glasses askew and his face more red than usual.

"Skeet."

"What about him?" Martie asked, thrusting to her feet.

"Gone."

"Where?"

"Ahriman."

"What?"

"Gun."

Dusty was on his feet, too. "Damn it, Fig, enough telegraphy already. Talk!"

Nodding, Fig stretched himself: "Took the gun off the dead man. And one of the  full magazines. Took the Lexus. Said none of you was safe until he did it."

To Dusty, Martie said, "Tell the cops, let them stop him?"

"Tell them he's on his way to shoot a prominent citizen, armed with a machine  pistol? In a stolen car? Skeet's as good as dead if we do that."

"Then we have to get there ahead of him," she said. "Fig, you watch out for  Valet. There're people around here might kill him just for the fun of it."

"Don't feel too safe myself," Fig said.

"Do the others know where Skeet's gone?"

"No. Don't yet know he's gone at all."

"You tell them he popped pills earlier today and now suddenly got funny. Took  the gun and said he was going up to Santa Barbara, settle with some people for  selling him bad dope."

"Doesn't sound like Skeet. Too macho."

"Lampton will love it. Helps muddy the waters."

"What happens when I lie to cops?"

"You don't say a word to the cops. You're good at that. You just tell Lampton,  and he'll do the rest. And tell him we went after Skeet. To Santa Barbara."

By the time Dusty and Martie reached the foyer, clambered around the body and  the overturned sideboard, and reached the front porch, with Lampton and  Claudette shouting behind them, Dusty could hear sirens in the distance.

They cleared the driveway, turned south on the highway, and went more than a  mile before they saw the first black-and-white racing north toward the Lampton  house.

Neck deep and sinking.

75

In his fourteenth-floor office, the doctor worked on his current book, polishing  an amusing anecdote about a phobic patient whose fear of food had caused her to  drop from one hundred forty pounds to just eighty-six, where she'd hovered near  death for many days before he discovered the key to her condition and cured her  with no time to spare. Her entire story wasn't amusing, of course, but rather  dark and dramatic, just the right stuff to ensure him a long segment on  Dateline, with the grateful patient, when the time came to promote; however,  here and there in the gloom were bright moments of humor and even one  knee-slapping hilarity.

He wasn't able to concentrate on his work as intensely as usual, because his  mind kept straying to Malibu. After calculating the time Eric would need to  visit the self-storage yard and drive all the way to the Lamptons' house, he  decided that the first shot would be fired at approximately a quarter to one,  perhaps as late as one o'clock.

He was also distracted, although not much, by thoughts of the Keanuphobe, who  had not yet phoned. He wasn't concerned. She would call soon. Few people were  more reliable than obsessives and phobics.

The .380 Beretta lay on the near-right corner of his desktop, within easy reach. He did not expect that the Keanuphobe would rappel down from the roof and crash  through his aerie window, carrying a submachine gun and lobbing grenades, but he didn't underestimate her, either. Over the  years, the toughest women he'd ever encountered were attired in stylish but  conservative St. John knit suits and Ferragamo shoes. Many of them had been the  wives of long-married, older studio heads and power agents; they looked as  Brahmin as any Boston dowager whose family tree had roots deep under Plymouth  Rock, were refined and aristocratic-but nevertheless would eat your heart for  lunch, with your kidneys in a mousse on the side, accompanied by a glass of fine  Merlot.

Able to order in from a deli that believed in the righteousness of mayonnaise,  butter solids, and animal fat in all forms, the doctor was content to have lunch  at his desk. He ate with the blue bag near his plate, its neck crimped and  angled jauntily. He wasn't offended by the knowledge of its contents, because it  was a cheerful reminder of the condition in which Derek Lampton's body would be  found by the police.

By one-fifteen, lunch finished, he had cleared his desk of deli plates and  wrappings, but he had not resumed composing the bulimia anecdote for his book.  On his Corinthian-leather blotter with faux-ivory inlays, the blue bag stood  alone.

Regrettably, he could not enjoy Lampton's humiliation firsthand, and unless one  of the sleazier tabloids did its job well, he wasn't likely to see even one  satisfying picture. Photographs of uncapped skulls stuffed full of ordure were  not rushed into print by The New York Times or even by USA Today.

Fortunately, the doctor had a good imagination. With the blue bag before him for  inspiration, he had no trouble painting the most vivid and entertaining mind  pictures.

By one-thirty, he assumed Eric Jagger had completed the shooting and was  busy-perhaps nearly finished-with the amateur craniotomy. When he closed his  eyes, the doctor could hear the rhythmic rasp of the cranial blade. Considering  the density of bone mass in Lampton's skull, sending a spare blade had been a  wise decision. In the event that the Lamptons didn't have a dog, he hoped Eric's  dietary regimen included a high-fiber cereal every morning.

His greatest regret was that he had not been able to play out his original game  plan, in which Dusty, Skeet, and Martie would have tortured and killed Claudette  and the two Dereks. Before committing suicide, Dusty, Skeet, and Martie would  have written a long statement accusing the elder Derek and his wife of horrendous physical abuse of  Skeet and Dusty when they were children, and of repeated Rohypnol-facilitated  rapes of Martie and of Susan Jagger, whom Ahriman might even have chosen to  include as part of the killing team if she hadn't gotten clever with a video  camera. The death toll would have been seven, plus housekeepers and visiting  neighbors, if any, which was by Ahriman's calculations the minimum magnitude of  slaughter necessary to attract the attention of the national media-although with  Derek's reputation as a pop-psych guru, seven deaths would receive as much  coverage as a bomb blast that killed two hundred but that produced no celebrity  among the casualties.

Well, although the game had been played with less grace than he would have  preferred, he took satisfaction in winning. With no way to take possession of  Derek Lampton's brain, perhaps he would have the blue bag vacuum-sealed in  Lucite as a symbolic trophy.

Although Skeet's thought processes had grown clearer and more efficient during  the past two drug-free days, he still didn't have the mental acuity needed to  manage a nuclear power plant or even to be trusted to sweep the floors of one.  Fortunately, he was aware of this, and he intended to think carefully through  each step of his attack on Dr. Ahriman during his drive from Malibu to Newport  Beach.

He was also an emotional mess, frequently breaking into tears, even sobbing.

Operating a motor vehicle with badly blurred vision was particularly dangerous  along the Pacific Coast Highway during the rainy season, because sudden massive  mudslides and dislodged boulders the size of semitrucks tumbling onto the  roadway required drivers to have the reflexes of a wired cat. Worse, the  early-afternoon traffic on the freeway was southbound at eighty miles per hour,  in spite of a legal limit of sixty-five, and uncontrollable sobbing at that  speed could have cataclysmic consequences.

His chest and belly were sore from the impact of four Keviararrested bullets.  Painful cramps twisted his stomach, unrelated to the bruising, born of stress  and fear. He had a migraine, which he always had after seeing his mother,  whether or not anyone was shot with a crossbow during the visit.

His heartache, however, was worse than any of the physical pains that he  suffered. Dusty and Martie's house was gone, and he felt as if his own house had  been burned to the ground. They were the best people in the world, Martie and  Dusty, the best. They didn't deserve such trouble. Their terrific little house  gone in flames, Susan dead, Eric dead, living in fear.

More heartache assailed him when he thought of himself as a baby, his mother  standing over him with a pillow in her hands, his own beautiful mother. When  Dusty called her on it, she didn't even deny that she'd been going to kill him.  He knew he was a total screwup as an adult, had been a screwup as a kid, but now  it seemed to him that he must have been such an obvious screwup-waiting-tohappen  even as an infant that his own mother had felt justified in smothering him while  he slept in his crib.

He didn't want- to be such a screwup. He wanted to do the right thing, and he  wanted to do well, to have his brother, Dusty, be proud of him, but he always  lost his way without realizing he was losing it. He also realized he caused  Dusty a lot of heartache, too, which made him feel worse.

With chest pain, belly pain, serial stomach cramps, migraine, heartache, blurred  vision, and eighty-mile-per-hour traffic to keep him distracted, worried as well  because his driver's license had been revoked years ago, he arrived in Newport  Beach, in the parking lot behind Ahriman's office building, shortly before three  o'clock in the afternoon, without having carefully thought out any step of his  attack on Dr. Ahriman.

"I'm a total screwup," he said.

Screwup that he was, the chances that he would make it across the parking lot,  up to the fourteenth floor, into Ahriman's office, and successfully execute the  bastard were too small to be calculated. Like trying to weigh the hair on a  flea's ass.

He did have one thing going for him. If he defied all the odds and managed to  shoot the psychiatrist, he would probably not go to prison for the rest of his  life, as Dusty or Martie surely would if either of them pulled the trigger.  Considering his colorful record of rehab, a foot-tall stack of unflattering  psychiatric evaluations, and his history of pathological meekness rather than  violence, Skeet would probably end up in a mental institution, with a hope of  being released one day, supposing that there was anything left of him after another fifteen  years of massive drug therapy.

The pistol had a long magazine, but he was still able to tuck it under his belt  and cover it with his sweater. Fortunately, the sweater was meant to be baggy;  it was even baggier than intended, because he had bought it years ago, and after  his continued weight loss, it was now two sizes too large.

He got out of the Lexus, remembering to take the keys with him. If he left them  in the ignition, someone might steal the car, perhaps making him an accessory to  grand theft auto. When his name was all over the newspapers and people were  looking at him being arrested on TV, he didn't want them thinking that he was  the type of person to be involved in car theft. He'd never stolen a penny in his  life.

The sky was blue. The day was mild. There was no wind, and he was grateful for  the calm, because he felt as if a stiff breeze might have blown him away. He walked back and forth in front of the car, staring down at his sweater,  cocking his head to one side and then the other, trying to detect the outline of  the pistol from various angles. The weapon was completely concealed.

Hot tears welled again, just as he was ready to march into the building and do  the deed, and so he walked back and forth, blotting his eyes on the sleeves of  his sweater. A security guard was likely to be posted in the lobby. Skeet  realized that a gaunt, gray-faced man in clothes two sizes too large for him,  sobbing his eyes out, was likely to arouse suspicion.

One row in front of where Skeet had parked the Lexus and a few spaces to the  north, a woman got out of a white Rolls-Royce and stood beside it, staring  openly at him. His eyes were now dry enough to allow him to see that she was a  nice-looking blond lady, very neat, in a pink knit suit, obviously a successful  person and good citizen. She didn't appear to be the rude type who would stand  and stare at a perfect stranger, so he figured he must look as suspicious as if  he were wearing bandoliers of ammunition and openly carrying an assault rifle. If this lady in the pink suit found him alarming, the security guard would  probably spray him with Mace, shock him with a Taser, and club him to the floor  the moment he walked through the door into the lobby. He was going to screw up  again.

He couldn't bear the thought of failing Dusty and Martie, the only people who  had ever loved him, really loved him, in his entire life. If he couldn't do this  for them, he might as well pull the gun out from under his sweater and shoot  himself in the head right now.

He was no more capable of suicide than he was capable of theft. Well, except for  jumping off the Sorensons' roof on Tuesday. From what he understood, however,  that might not have been his own idea.

Under the scrutiny of the lady in pink, pretending not to notice her, trying to  appear far too happy and too pleased with life to be a crazed gunman, whistling  "What a Wonderful World," because it was the first thing that came to his mind,  he crossed the parking lot to the office building and went inside, never looking  back.

The doctor was not accustomed to having his schedule imposed by others, and he  grew increasingly annoyed with the Keanuphobe for not calling sooner rather than  later. He had no doubt she would respond to the evil-computer fantasy he had  provided to her; her obsession allowed no other course of action. Apparently,  however, the twit was without a shred of courtesy, without appreciation for the  value of other people's time: the typical nouveau-riche clod.

Unable to concentrate on writing but unable to leave his office and go play, he  contented himself with making haiku out of the humble material before him. My little blue bag. My Beretta, seven rounds. Should I shoot the shit? That was  ghastly. Seventeen syllables, yes, and technically adequate in every regard.  Nonetheless, he had never seen a better example of why technical adequacy was  not the explanation for William Shakespeare's immortality.

My gun, seven shots. My little Keanuphobe. Kill, kill, kill, kill, kill. Equally  ghastly but more satisfying.

The security guard, twice Skeet's size and wearing clothes that fit him, sat  behind the counter at the information station. He was reading a book, and he  never glanced up.

Skeet checked the directory to locate Ahriman's office, went to the elevators, pressed the call button, and stared straight ahead at the doors.

He figured that the guard, a highly trained professional, would immediately  sense anyone staring worriedly at him.

One of the elevators arrived swiftly. Three birdlike elderly women and three  tall handsome Sikhs in turbans exited the cab; the two groups headed in  different directions.

Already stressed out and fearful, Skeet was rattled by the sight of the old  ladies and the Sikhs. As he had learned from Fig during the previous thirty-six  hours, the numbers three and six were somehow key to understanding why  extraterrestrials were secretly on Earth, and here was three twice and six once.  Not a good omen.

Two people followed Skeet onto the elevator. A United Parcel Service deliveryman  wheeled in a hand truck on which were stacked three boxes. Behind him came the  woman in the pink suit.

Skeet had pushed the button for the fourteenth floor. The UPS man tapped the  button for the ninth floor. The lady in pink didn't press anything.

Entering the building, Dusty at once spotted Skeet getting into an elevator at  the farther end of the lobby. Martie saw him, too.

He wanted to shout at his brother, but a guard sat nearby, and the last thing  they needed was to attract the attention of building security.

They hurried without running. The cab doors slid shut before they were halfway  across the lobby.

None of the other three elevators was at the ground floor. Two were ascending,  two descending. Of the two headed down, the nearest was at the fifth floor.

"Stairs?" Martie asked.

"Fourteen floors. No." He pointed to the indicator board, as the elevator on the  fifth floor moved down to the fourth. "This'll be faster."

The deliveryman got off at the ninth floor, and when the doors slid shut, the  lady in pink pushed the stop button.

"You're not dead," she said.

"Excuse me?"

"You were shot four times in the chest last night on the beach, but here you  are."

Skeet was amazed. "You were there?"

"As I'm sure you know."

"No, really, I didn't see you there."

"Why aren't you dead?"

"Keviar."

"Not likely."

"It's true. We were tailing a dangerous man," he said, figuring he sounded  totally lame, like he was trying to impress her, which in fact he was. She was a  pretty lady, and Skeet felt a certain stirring in his loins that he had not felt  in a long time.

"Or was the whole thing fake? A setup for my benefit?"

"No setup. My chest and belly are sore as hell."

"When you die in the matrix," she said, "you die for real."

"Hey, did you like that movie, too?"

"You die for real . . . unless you're a machine."

She was beginning to seem a little spooky to Skeet, and his intuition was  confirmed when she drew a pistol from the white handbag that hung on straps from  her left shoulder. It was fitted with what in the movies they called a silencer,  but which he knew was more accurately called a sound suppressor.

"What're you carrying under your sweater?" she demanded.

"Me? This sweater? Nothing."

"Bullshit. Lift your sweater very slowly."

"Oh, man," he said with grave disappointment, because here he was screwing up  again. "You're professional security, aren't you?"

"Are you with Keanu or against him?"

Skeet was certain that he hadn't taken any drugs in the past three days, but  this sure had the feel of episodes that had followed some of his more memorable  chemical cocktails. "Well, I'm with him when he's doing cool sci-fi stuff, you  know, but I'm against him when he's making crap like A Walk in the Clouds."

"Why are they stopped so long on the ninth floor?" Dusty asked, frowning at the  indicator board above the elevator that Skeet had boarded.

"Stairs?" Martie suggested again.

After lingering at the third floor, the elevator for which they were waiting  suddenly moved to the second. "We might get past him this way."

The machine pistol that she took from Skeet would not fit easily in her handbag.

The butt of the extended magazine stuck out, but she didn't seem to care.

Still covering him with her own pistol, she took the elevator off stop and  pressed the button for the fourteenth floor. The cab started up at once.

"Aren't sound suppressors illegal?" Skeet asked.

"Yes, of course."

"But you can get one because you're professional security?"

"Good God, no. I'm worth five hundred million dollars, and I can get anything I  want."

He couldn't know if what she said was true or not. He didn't suppose it  mattered.

Although the woman was quite pretty, Skeet began to recognize something in her  green eyes or in her attitude, or both, that scared him. They were passing the  thirteenth floor, appropriately, when he realized why she put ice in his spine:  She possessed an indefinable but undeniable quality that reminded him of his  mother.

At that moment, as they arrived at the fourteenth floor, Skeet knew that he was  a dead man walking.

When the elevator doors slid open, Martie immediately stepped inside and pressed

14.

Dusty followed, blocked two other men who tried to enter after them, and said,  "Sorry, emergency. We're expressing to fourteen."

Martie had pressed close door immediately after pressing the floor number. She  held her thumb on it.

One of the men blinked in surprise, and one of them started to object, but the  doors closed before an argument could begin.

As they came out of the elevator alcove into the fourteenth-floor corridor,  Skeet said, "Where are we going?"

"Don't be so stupidly disingenuous. It's annoying. You know perfectly well where  we're going. Now move."

She seemed to want him to go to the left, so he did, not just because she had a  gun, but because all his life he had gone where people told him to go. She  followed him, jamming the muzzle of the sound suppressor into his back.

The long, carpeted corridor was quiet. The acoustic ceiling soaked up their  voices. No sounds came from beyond the hallway walls. They might have been the  last two people on the planet.

"What if I stop right here?" Skeet asked.

"Then I shoot you right here," she assured him.

Skeet kept moving.

As he passed the doors to office suites on both sides of the hall, he read the  names on the etched-brass wall plates beside them. Mostly, they were doctors,  specialists of one kind or another- though two were attorneys. This was  convenient, he decided. If he somehow survived the next few minutes, he would no  doubt need a few good doctors and one attorney.

They arrived at a door where the name on the brass plate was DR. MARK AHRIMAN.  Under the psychiatrist's name, in smaller letters, Skeet read, A CALIFORNIA  CORPORATION.

"Here?" he asked.

"Yes," she said.

As Skeet pushed the door inward, the lady in pink shot him in the back. If the  silenced pistol made any noise at all, he didn't hear it, because the pain was  so instantaneous and terrible that he wouldn't have heard a marching band going  past. He was focused entirely, intensely on the pain, and he was amazed that  being shot could hurt so much worse when you weren't wearing Kevlar. Even as the  woman blew a hole in him, she shoved him hard through the door and into Dr.  Ahriman's reception lounge.

Bing!

Ahriman's computer announced an arrival, and the screen filled with a  security-camera view of the reception lounge.

With more amazement than he had experienced in years, the doctor swiveled away  from his contemplation of the blue bag and saw Skeet stagger into the lounge,  the door to the corridor slowly falling shut behind him.

A large blot of blood stained the front of his yellow sweater, which certainly  ought to have been the case after he had taken four rounds in the chest and gut  at close range. Although this might have been the same sweater Skeet had been  wearing yesterday, the camera angle wasn't clear enough to allow Ahriman to see  whether there were four bullet holes in the blood-stained fabric. Skeet clawed  at the air as if for support, stumbled, and collapsed facedown on the floor.

The doctor had heard stories of dogs, accidentally separated from their masters  when far from home, crossing hundreds and even thousands of miles of  inhospitable terrain, through rain and snow and sleet and blazing sun, often  with cut feet and worse injuries, and showing up weeks later on the very  doorstep where they belonged, to the astonishment and tearful joy of their  families. He had never heard even one story about a gut-shot man getting up from  a beach, walking approximately six to eight miles over-he checked his watch-  eighteen hours, through a densely populated area, ascending fourteen floors in  an elevator, and staggering into the office of the man who had shot him, to  point a finger of accusation, so he was convinced that there was more to this  development than met the eye.

With his mouse, the doctor clicked on the security icon shaped like a gun. The  metal detector indicated that Skeet was not carrying a firearm.

Lying flat on the floor, the would-be detective was not aligned with the  roentgen tubes, so fluoroscopy wasn't possible.

Jennifer came out from behind the receptionist's window and stood over the  fallen Skeet. She appeared to be screaming--although whether because the  condition of this wounded man horrified her or because the sight of blood  offended her vegetarian sensibilities, Ahriman couldn't be sure.

The doctor activated the audio. Yes, she was screaming, though not loudly hardly  more than wheezing, as though she couldn't draw a breath deep enough to let go  with a real window-rattler.

As Jennifer dropped to one knee beside Skeet to check for vital signs, Ahriman  clicked on the nose icon, activating the trace-scent analyzer. Any sane person's  credulity would be stretched past the breaking point by the notion that this  man, with four bullet wounds, had paused in his eighteen-hour trek to acquire  explosives and build a bomb, which was now strapped to his chest. Nevertheless,  reminding himself that attention to detail was important, the doctor waited for  the system to report. Negative: no explosives.

Jennifer rose from the body and hurried out of camera range.

She no doubt intended to call the police and paramedics.

He buzzed her through the in-phone intercom. "Jennifer?"

"Doctor, oh, God, there's-"

"Yes, I know. A man's been shot. Do not call the police or the paramedics,  Jennifer. I will do that. Do you understand?"

"But he's bleeding badly. He's-"

"Calm down, Jennifer. Call no one. I'm handling this."

Less than a minute had passed since Skeet had staggered into the reception  lounge. The doctor calculated that he had one more minute, at most two, before  his delay in calling paramedics would alarm Jennifer into action.

What worried him and what he needed an answer to was this: If one man with four  serious bullet wounds could show up eighteen hours later, why not two?

As highly imaginative as he was, the doctor was not able to conjure in his mind  a credible picture of the wounded Skeet and his wounded pal staggering up the  coast, their arms around each other's shoulders, providing mutual support, like  a pair of drunken pirates heading shipward after a long night of revelry ashore.

Yet if one had shown up, there might be two, and the second could be lurking  somewhere with bad intentions.

The worst delay was at the sixth floor. The elevator stopped and the doors  opened, even though Martie kept pressing the close door button.

A stout, determined woman with iron-gray curls and the face of a longshoreman in  drag insisted on boarding, though Dusty blocked her and claimed emergency  privilege.

"What emergency?" She inserted a foot into the cab, triggering the safety  mechanism and preventing the door from closing, regardless of how hard Martie  leaned on the button. "I don't see any emergency."

"Heart attack. Fourteenth floor."

"You're not doctors," she said suspiciously.

"It's our day off."

"Doctors don't dress like you even on their day off. Anyway, I'm going all the  way to fifteen."

"Then get in, get in," Dusty relented.

When she was safely inside, when the doors closed, the woman pressed the button  for the twelfth floor and glared triumphantly.

Dusty was furious. "I love my brother, lady, and if anything happens to him now,  I'll track you down and gut you like a fish."

She looked him up and down with undisguised contempt and said, "You?"

The doctor plucked the .380 Beretta off the desk and headed toward the door, but  stopped when he remembered the blue bag. It still stood in the center of his  desk blotter.

Whatever might happen next, eventually the police were going to arrive. If Skeet  wasn't already dead, Ahriman intended to finish him before the authorities got  here. With a corpse lying in a pool of blood in the reception lounge, the cops  were certain to have a lot of questions.

They would at the least take a casual look around the premises. If their  suspicions were in any way aroused, they would station a man in the office while  they got a warrant for a thorough search.

They were not permitted by law to inspect his patient files, so he was not  concerned about anything they might find-except for his Beretta and the blue  bag.

The pistol was unregistered, and while he would never go to jail for possessing  it, he didn't want to give them any reason whatsoever to wonder about him.

Wondering, they might keep an eye on him in the days ahead, seriously cramping  his style.

The bag of dog poop wasn't incriminating, but it was... peculiar. Definitely  peculiar. Finding it on his desk, they would surely ask why he had brought it to  the office. As clever as he was, the doctor could not think of a single answer,  on such short notice, that made sense. Again, they would wonder about him.

He returned quickly to the desk, pulled open a deep drawer, and dropped the bag  into it. Then he realized that if they went so far as to obtain a search  warrant, they would find the bag in the drawer- where it would seem no less  strange than if found in plain sight. Indeed, wherever he put the bag in the  office, even in the waste can, it would seem weird to them when they found it. All of these considerations flashed through the doctor's mind in mere seconds,  since he was every bit as sharp as in the days when he'd been a child prodigy,  but still he reminded himself that time was a maniac scattering dust. Hurry,  hurry.

His intention was to get rid of the Beretta and the shoulder holster before the  police arrived, so he might as well ditch the blue bag with the pistol. Which  meant he had to take it with him now.

For several reasons, not the least being his sense of personal style, he didn't  want Jennifer to see him carrying the bag. Besides, it would hamper him if he  were forced to deal with Skeet's pal. What had Dusty called him? The Fig. Yes.  The blue bag would hamper him if the Fig were lurking out there somewhere and  had to be dealt with.

Hurry, hurry.

He started to slip the bag into an inside pocket of his coat, but the thought of  it bursting and ruining this fine Zegna suit was too dreadful to bear. Instead,  he carefully tucked it into his empty shoulder holster.

Pleased with his quick thinking, and sure that he had forgotten no detail that  might destroy him, Ahriman went out to the reception lounge, holding the Beretta  at his side, concealing it from Jennifer.

She was standing in the open door to the back work area, eyes wide, trembling.

"He's bleeding, Doctor, he's bleeding."

Any fool could see that Skeet was bleeding. Indeed, he could not have been  losing blood at this rate for eighteen hours and still have made his way here.

The doctor dropped to one knee beside Skeet. Keeping both eyes on the door to  the corridor, he felt for a pulse. The little dope fiend was still alive, but his pulse was not good. He would be easy to finish off.

First, the Fig. Or whoever else was out there.

The doctor went to the door, put an ear to it, listened.

Nothing.

Gingerly, he opened the door and peered into the corridor.

No one.

He stepped across the threshold, holding the door open, and looked left and  right. No one was in sight for the entire length of the hail.

Clearly, Skeet had not been shot here, because gunfire would surely have  attracted some attention. No one had even stirred from the office of the child  psychologist across the hall-Dr. Moshlien, that insufferable boor and hopeless  bonehead whose theories on the causes of youth violence were as improbable as  his neckties.

The mystery of how Skeet had gotten here might remain a mystery, which would  leave the doctor sleepless more than one night. The important thing now,  however, was to clean up.

He would step back into the lounge and instruct Jennifer to call the police and  the paramedics, after all. While she was occupied on the phone, he would stoop  beside Skeet, ostensibly to assist as best he could, but actually to cover the  man's mouth and pinch his nose shut for about a minute and a half, which should  be long enough to finish him, considering his desperate condition.

Then, quickly back into the hallway, directly to a nearby maintenance closet  that could be opened with his suite key. There, tuck the gun, the holster, and  the blue bag deep behind rest-room supplies. Later, retrieve them after the  police were gone.

Defy the tooth of time.

Hurry, hurry.

As he turned away from the corridor, intending to return to his office, he  realized that no bloodstains marred the hallway carpet, which should have been  liberally spattered if Skeet had traveled over it, gushing as he was now gushing  in the reception lounge. Even as his lightning-quick gamesman's mind was  arriving at the significance of this odd detail, the doctor heard Moshlien's  door open behind him, and he cringed in expectation of the usual Say, Abriman,  do you have a moment? and the torrent of idiocies that would follow it.

The words never came, but bullets did. The doctor didn't hear a single shot, but  he felt them, all right, at least three, slamming into him from the small of his  back in a diagonal line to his right shoulder.

With less grace than he would have liked, he staggered into the reception  lounge. Fell half on top of Skeet. Rolled off the little dope fiend in  revulsion. Rolled onto his back, and looked up at the doorway.

The Keanuphobe stood on the threshold, bracing the door open with her body,  holding a silenced pistol with both hands. "You're one of the machines," she  said. "That's why you weren't really paying attention during our sessions.  Machines don't care about real people like me."

Ahriman recognized in her eyes a fearsome quality that he had overlooked before:  She was one of The Knowers, those girls who could see right through his  disguises and deceptions, who mocked him with their eyes, with smug smiles and  sly looks behind his back, who knew something hilarious about him that he  himself did not know. Since he was fifteen, when he'd grown into his fine face,  The Knowers had not been able to penetrate his facade, and so he had ceased to  fear them. Now this.

He tried to raise the Beretta and return fire, but he discovered that he was  paralyzed.

She pointed the pistol at his face.

She was reality and she was fantasy, truth and lie, an object of mirth, yet  deadly serious, all things to all people and a mystery to herself, the  quintessential person for her times. She was a nouveauriche ditz with a husband  as dull as a spoon, but she was also Diana, the goddess of the moon and the  hunt, on whose bronze spear Minette Luckland had impaled herself in that  Palladian mansion in Scottsdale, after first killing her father with a handgun  and her mother with a hammer.

How fun that had been, but how lacking in fun this was.

My rich Diana. Fly me to the moon with you. Dance among the stars.

Treacle. Romantic hogwash. Derivative. Unworthy.

My rich Diana. I hate you, hate you, hate you. Hate you, hate you, hate.

"Do it," he said.

The goddess emptied the magazine into his face, and the doctor's phantasm of  falling petals vanished into moon and flowers. And fire.

As she and Dusty came out of the elevator alcove, Martie saw a woman standing  half in the doorway to Ahriman's reception lounge, near the end of the corridor.

The pink Chanel suit marked her as the same woman who had followed Skeet into  the elevator, downstairs in the lobby. She moved all the way into the office,  out of sight.

Running along the hall, with Dusty close behind, Martie thought of enchanted New  Mexico-and two dead men at the bottom of an ancient well. The purity of falling  snow-and all the blood it covered. She thought of Claudette's face-and  Claudette's heart. The beauty of haiku-and the hideous use to which it had been  put. The glory of high green branches-and spiders squirming out of egg cases  inside curled leaves. Things visible and invisible. Things revealed and hidden.  This flash of cheerful pink, baby-pink, cherry-blossom pink, but a sense of  darkness in the flash, poison in the pink.

All her dread expectations became dread realities in gruesome detail when she  pushed through the door into Mark Ahriman's reception lounge and was received by  bodies sprawled in blood.

The doctor lay faceup, but without a face: thin noxious smoke rising from  scorched hair, terrible craters in the flesh, cheekbones imploded, red pools  where eyes had once been-and beyond one torn and gaping cheek, half a grin. Facedown, Skeet was the less dramatic figure of the two, and yet more real. His  own red lake surrounded him, and he was so frail that he seemed to float in the  crimson as though he were but a tangle of rags.

Martie was rocked harder by the sight of Skeet than she would have expected to  be. Skeet the feeb, perpetual boy, so earnest but so weak, self-destructive,  always seeking to do to himself what his mother had failed to do with a pillow.  Martie loved him, but only now did she realize how much she loved him-and only  now was she able to understand why. For all his faults, Skeet was a gentle soul,  and like his precious brother, his heart was kind; in a world where kind hearts were more rare than diamonds, he was a treasure flawed but a treasure  nonetheless. She could not bear to stoop to him, touch him, and find that he was  also a treasure broken beyond repair.

Heedless of the blood, Dusty dropped to his knees and put his hands on his  brother's face, touched Skeet's closed eyes, felt the side of his neck, and in a  voice torn as Martie had never heard it torn, he cried, "Oh, Jesus, an  ambulance! Hurry, someone!"

Jennifer appeared at the open door to her work area. "I called. They're coming.  They're on their way."

The woman in pink stood at the reception window, on the ledge of which she had  placed two guns, including the machine pistol that Skeet had taken off Eric's  body. "Jennifer, don't you think it would be a good idea if you put these out of  the way someplace until the police arrive? Have you called the police?"

"Yes. They're coming, too."

Warily, Jennifer went around to the inside of the window, took possession of the  guns, and put them aside on her desk.

Maybe it was because Skeet was dying, maybe it was the horror of Ahriman's  ghastly face and the blood everywhere, but whatever the reason, Martie couldn't  think clearly enough to make sense of what had happened here. Had Skeet shot  Ahriman? Had Ahriman shot Skeet? Who had shot first and how often? The positions  of the bodies didn't support any scenario that she could imagine. And the eerie  calm of the woman in pink, as though she were accustomed to witnessing gun  battles daily, seemed to argue that she had played some mysterious role.

The woman stepped to the least spattered corner of the lounge, withdrew a cell  phone from her purse, and placed a call.

Still far away but drawing nearer, distorted by distance and topography, the  shrillness of sirens sounded fearsome and curiously prehistoric, organic rather  than mechanical, a pterodactyl shriek.

Jennifer hurried to the entrance door, opened it, and placed a small rubber  wedge to prevent it from closing.

To Martie, she said, "Help me move these chairs out to the end of the hall, so  the paramedics will have room to work when they get here."

Martie was glad to have something to do. She felt that she was standing on a  crumbling brink. Helping Jennifer, she was able to step back from the abyss. Holding the phone away from her mouth, the woman in pink paid a compliment to  Jennifer: "You're quite impressive, young lady."

The receptionist cast an odd look at her. "Uh, thanks."

By the time the last chair and small table had been transferred to the nearer  end of the corridor, multiple sirens had grown louder and then, one by one, had  cycled into silence. Help must be in the elevators.

Speaking into her cell phone, the woman in pink said, "Will you stop babbling,  Kenneth? For an expensive attorney, you're something of a ninny. I'll need the  finest criminal-defense attorney, and I'll need him immediately. Now get a grip  on yourself and do it."

When she terminated the call, the woman smiled at Martie.

Then she took a card from her purse and held it out to Jennifer. "You'll be  needing a job, I suppose. I could use a young woman as competent as you, if  you're interested."

Jennifer hesitated, but then she took the card.

On his knees in blood, repeatedly smoothing Skeet's hair back from his pale  face, her special husband was talking softly to his brother, though there was no  indication that the kid could hear him. Dusty spoke about the old days, about  things they had done as boys, pranks they had played, discoveries they had made  together, escapes they had planned, dreams they had shared.

Martie heard men running in the hall, the heavy booted feet of fire-department  paramedics, and she had the crazy wonderful feeling, just for a moment, that  when they burst through the open doorway, one of them would be Smilin' Bob.

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Out of chaos, more chaos for a while. Too many strangers' faces and too many  voices talking at once, paramedics and police, quickly but noisily negotiating  jurisdictional boundaries between the living and the dead. If confusion had been  loaves of bread and if suspicion had been fishes, no miracles would have been  required to provide a banquet for multitudes.

Martie's confusion was only fed by the startling news that the woman in the pink  Chanel suit had shot both Skeet and Ahriman. She admitted to the shooting,  requested to be arrested, and would provide no further details, though she  complained about the lingering stink from the doctor's burnt hair.

Skeet on a gurney, lifeless to the layman's eye, was attended by four beefy  paramedics in white, their uniforms strangely radiant under the fluorescent  corridor lights, as if they were linebackers who had gone to Heaven and now  returned here dressed in this modern version of angels' robes. One sprinting  ahead to block the elevator, one pulling, one pushing, one holding an W bottle  high and running alongside the gurney, they swept Skeet away, swiftly and  smoothly, and to Martie it seemed that neither the wheels nor their feet were  actually touching the floor, as though they were flying down the long corridor,  not conveying a wounded man to a hospital, but escorting an immortal soul on a  far longer journey.

Having been cleared by Jennifer-and by the pink lady's succinct confession-Dusty was given permission by the police to accompany his brother. He  gripped Martie by the shoulders and pulled her close, held her fiercely for a  moment, kissed her, and then ran after the gurney.

She watched him until he turned the corner into the elevator alcove, out of  sight, and then she saw that his hands had left faint bloody impressions on her  sweater. Shaking uncontrollably, Martie crossed her arms over her breasts,  placing her hands on the terrible red marks, as though by touching those vague  prints, she would be with Dusty and Skeet in spirit, allowing her to draw  strength from them and they from her.

Martie was detained at the scene. Because the police in Malibu had, too late,  contacted the police in Newport, the link between this shooting and Eric  Jagger's death by crossbow was established, marking both Martie and Dusty as  material witnesses in one case and perhaps in both. An officer was en route to  the hospital, to question Dusty in the waiting room, but the police preferred to  conduct the initial interrogation of at least one of them here rather than  elsewhere, now rather than later.

Police photographer, SID technicians, representatives from the coroner's office,  detectives, all bitching about the contamination of the crime scene,  methodically gathered evidence, in spite of the pink lady's confession, because  she might, of course, retract it later or claim police intimidation.

Jennifer was questioned at her desk, but Martie was asked to sit with two  detectives, both soft-spoken and polite, in Ahriman's inner office. One of them  perched beside her on the sofa, the other in a facing armchair.

Odd, to be once more in this mahogany forest of her nightmares, where the Leaf  Man ruled. She felt his presence still, though he was dead. She crossed her  arms, left hand on her right shoulder, right hand on her left, fingers spread  across the red images of Dusty's fingers.

The detectives saw, and asked if she wanted to wash her hands. They didn't  understand. She only shook her head.

Then, as the wind in her haiku had blown fallen leaves out of the west, the  story blew out of her in one long gush. She held back no details, however  fantastic or improbable-except that while she told them of the Glysons in Santa  Fe, and of Bernardo Pastore and his lost family, she didn't mention the  encounter with Kevin and Zachary in a snowy twilight.

She expected disbelief, and disbelief she received in squint-eyed and  open-mouthed abundance, although even in the early hours of the aftermath,  things happened to lend her at least a small measure of credibility. Hearing news of the shooting on one of the first radio reports, Roy Closterman  had come to the scene from his office, which was only a few miles away. She  learned that he was in the corridor, talking to police, when one of her  questioners was called away and, on his return, was shaken enough to reveal that  Closterman was providing corroboration.

And then there was the matter of the unfired Beret-ta clutched in Ahriman's dead  hand. A quick computer check of handgun registrations revealed no record of the  psychiatrist ever having purchased this gun or any other. Likewise, he had never  been granted a license to carry a concealed weapon in Orange County. His image  as an upstanding and law-abiding citizen sustained some damage from these  discoveries.

Perhaps what finally convinced the cops that this was a case involving  unprecedented weirdness, even in the annals of southern California crime, was  the discovery of a bag of feces in the doctor's finely tooled custom shoulder  holster. Sherlock Holmes himself would have been hard-pressed to logically  deduce an explanation for this startling find. An assumption of major kinkiness  was made at once: The blue bag was bagged, tagged, and sent to the lab, with  police officers wagering among themselves as to the sex and species of the  mystery person or creature who had produced the sample.

Martie didn't think she was fit to drive, but once in the car, she drove as well  as ever, directly to the hospital. She didn't wash her hands until she had found  Dusty in the ICU waiting room and knew that Skeet had survived three hours of  surgery. He was in critical condition, unconscious, but hanging on.

Even then, in the women's lavatory, Martie panicked and almost stopped scrubbing  off the blood, for fear that this link to Skeet, once washed away, would leave  him unable to draw needed strength from her, spirit to spirit. She surprised  herself with this superstitious hysteria. Having survived an encounter with the  devil, however, maybe she had reason to be superstitious. She finished washing her hands, reminding  herself that the devil was dead.

Shortly after eleven o'clock, more than seven hours after he was admitted to the  hospital, Skeet regained consciousness, coherent but weak. They were allowed to  visit with him, but only for two or three minutes. That was long enough to say  what needed to be said, which in the ICU is always the same simple thing that  family members come there to say to every patient, the same and simple thing  that matters more than all the words of all the doctors: I love you.

They stayed that night with Martie's mother, who set out home-baked bread and  homemade vegetable soup for them, and by the time they returned to the hospital  Saturday morning, Skeet's condition was upgraded from critical to serious. How big the story would eventually become in the national news was foreshadowed  by the fact that two TV crews and three print journalists were already camped  out at the hospital, waiting for Martie and Dusty to appear.

Armed with a warrant, the police required three days to conduct a thorough  search of Mark Ahriman's vast house. Initially, nothing stranger turned up than  the psychiatrist's enormous collection of toys, and halfway through the first  day, the investigation seemed as though it might founder.

The sprawling mansion featured an elaborate automated-house system. Police  officers with specialized computer knowledge cracked the privacy code, which  previously ensured that only Ahriman enjoyed full access to every aspect of the  system; soon they discovered the existence of six hidden safes of various sizes. Once combinations were decoded, the first safe-in the lace-wood study-proved to  contain only financial records.

The second, in the sitting room of the master suite, was larger and held five  handguns, two fully automatic machine pistols, and an Uzi carbine. None were  registered to Mark Ahriman, and none could be traced to any licensed gun dealer. The third safe was a small box cleverly concealed in the master bedroom  fireplace. Therein, police discovered yet another handgun, a ten-shot Taurus PT-111 Millennium with an empty magazine, which appeared to  have been fired recently.

Of greater interest both to criminologists and to film buffs was the second item  in this box: a vacuum-sealed jar containing two human eyes in a chemical  fixative. A gummed label on the lid bore a neatly hand-printed haiku.

Father's eyes, my jar

Hollywood's great king of tears.

I prefer to laugh.

The media squall became a media storm.

Dusty and Martie could no longer stay at Sabrina's house, which was for days  thereafter under siege by newsmen.

On the third day, the police found a trove of videotapes stored in a vault that  was not included in the list of safes known to the house computer. A contractor  had come forward to report that he had bootlegged this bit of construction for  Dr. Ahriman subsequent to the psychiatrist's purchase of the house. The tapes  were the doctor's prized mementos, the record of his most dangerous games,  including the candid video of Susan and her tormentor, shot from the potted ming  tree in her bedroom.

The media storm became a media hurricane.

Ned Motherwell ran the business, while Martie and Dusty lived for a while with a  series of friends, staying one step ahead of the microphones and cameras. The only story that displaced the Ahriman extravaganza from the top of the  nightly news was the insane attack on the President of the United States at a  Bel Air fund-raiser, and the subsequent shooting to death of the megastar  assailant by those outraged Secret Service agents who weren't otherwise occupied  with recovering and preserving the nose. Within twenty-four hours, when the  discovery was made that the megastar had known Mark Ahriman and had in fact  recently been a patient at a drug-rehab clinic partly owned by Ahriman, the  media hurricane became the storm of the century.

Eventually, the storm blew itself out, because it is in the character of these  strange times that any outrage, regardless of its unprecedented dimensions and horror, is inevitably followed by another outrage more novel and  more shocking still.

By late spring, Skeet was finished with physical rehabilitation and fleshed out  as he had not been in years. The lady in pink, at her instigation and without  threat of suit, settled upon Skeet the sum of one and three-quarter-million  dollars, after taxes, and with his health restored, he decided to take a few  months off from housepainting to travel and consider his options.

Together, Skeet and Fig Newton had planned an itinerary that would take them  first to Roswell, New Mexico, and thereafter to other points of interest on the  UFO trail. Now that Skeet's driving privileges had been restored, he and Fig  would be able to spell each other at the wheel of Skeet's new motor home. Because the pink lady contended that she had been brainwashed by Mark Ahriman  and subjected to sexual depravities, she resorted to a plea of self-defense.

Skeet, she claimed, had unfortunately gotten in the way of her first shot. After  furious debate and tumult in the district attorney's office, she was charged  with manslaughter and released on bail. By summer, the smart money was betting  that she would never stand trial. If indeed she were hauled into court, what  jury of her peers would ever find her guilty after her moving appearance on the  talk show of all talk shows, at the end of which Oprah had embraced her and  said, "You are an inspiration, girl," while an entire audience had wept  uncontrollably.

Derek Lampton, the younger, was a hero for a week and appeared on the national  news, giving archery demonstrations. When asked what he wanted to be when he  grew up, Junior said, "An astronaut," which seemed not in the least childish,  for he was a straight 4.0 student with a flair for the sciences and already a  student pilot.

By midsummer, the Bellon-Tockland Institute in Santa Fe had been cleared of any  involvement with Mark Ahriman's bizarre experiments in mind control. The belief  that he had worked at the institute or had been associated with it in any way  was disproved beyond contention. "He was a sociopath," noted the institute's  director, "and a pathetic narcissist, a pop-psych lightweight who wanted to  legitimize himself by claiming to be involved with this prestigious institution  and its great work for world peace." Although the nature of the institute's  research was described in various ways by the media,

no reportage from that in The New York Times to that in the National Enquirer  could make it comprehensible.

Martie canceled her contract to design a new video game based on The Lord of the  Rings. She still loved Tolkien, but she felt the need to do something real.  Dusty offered her a job painting houses, and she took him up on it for a while.  The work was real enough to leave a delicious ache in her muscles, and it gave  her time to think.

The surgery on the president's nose was successful.

Ned Motherwell sold three haiku to a literary magazine.

The two lottery tickets were losers.

From time to time during the summer, Martie and Dusty visited three cemeteries,  where Valet loved to explore among the stones. In the first, they brought  flowers to Smilin' Bob. In the second, they brought flowers to Susan and Eric  Jagger. In the third, they brought flowers to Dominique, the half sister whom  Dusty had never known.

Claudette claimed to have lost the only picture ever taken of her infant  daughter. Perhaps that was true. Or perhaps she didn't want Dusty to have it. Each time that Dusty described Dominique's sweet, gentle face as he recalled it  from that photograph, Martie wondered if that baby, allowed to live, might have  redeemed Claudette. By providing care and protection for one so innocent,  perhaps Claudette would have found herself transformed, taught the meaning of  compassion and humility. Though it was difficult to imagine that a Down's child,  conceived by the unholy union of Ahriman and Dusty's mother, could be a blessing  in disguise, the universe was full of even stranger patterns that seemed, when  considered in detail, to have meaning.

In late July, in its one hundredth week on The New York Times nonfiction  best-seller list, Learn to Love Yourself was still riding high at the number  five position.

In early August, Skeet and Fig called from Oregon, where they had taken a  photograph of Big Foot, which they were sending along by express mail. The photo was blurry but intriguing.

By late summer, Martie decided to keep the inheritance that had been granted to  her by Susan Jagger's will. After liquidation of the assets, including the sale of the house on Balboa Peninsula, the sum was  substantial. Initially, she had not wanted a penny; it felt like blood money.  Then she realized that she could use it to realize the dream that she had  cherished as a child, wind back the clock and take the road in life from which  she had turned away for all the wrong reasons. Susan would never have the chance  to wind back the clock and be the violinist that she had dreamed of being when  she was a girl, so it seemed real and true to Martie that from this gift born of  death should come a life set right.

Because Martie was a diligent student, not too many years passed before they  celebrated her graduation from veterinary school and the near-simultaneous  opening of her animal hospital and rescue shelter for abused cats and dogs. Not  much was left of the inheritance, but not much was needed. With luck, her  veterinary practice would pay for the rescue operation, with enough left over to  bring as much home as Dusty cleared from painting houses.

The party was held at their home in Corona Del Mar, which had been rebuilt years  ago on the ashes of the old. The new place was identical in every detail to the  lost house, including the paint job that Sabrina, though mellow these days,  still found "clownlike."

From Dusty's family, only Skeet was invited. He came with his wife, Jasmine, and  their three-year-old boy, Foster, whom everyone called Chupaflor.

Fig and his wife, Primrose, who was Jasmine's older sister, brought lots of  copies of the latest brochure from the enterprise that Fig and Skeet had  launched together. Strange Phenomena Tours was prospering. If you wanted to  follow Big Foot's trail, see the actual sites of the most famous alien  abductions in the continental United States, stay in a series of haunted houses,  or track Elvis in his peripatetic wanderings across this great country since his  supposed death, Strange Phenomena Tours was the only travel agency with the  packages that would satisfy your curiosity.

Ned Motherwell came with his girlfriend, Spike, bringing signed copies of his  latest book of haiku. As he said, there wasn't a lot of money in poetry,  certainly not enough to be able to stop painting houses for a living, but there  was satisfaction in it. Besides, in his daily work, he found his inspiration: The new book was titled Ladders and  Brushes.

Luanne Farner, Skeet's newfound grandmother, whom he had met while on the road  with Fig a few years before, traveled all the way from Cascade, Colorado,  bringing homemade banana-nut bread. She was a delightful lady, but the best  thing was that no one could identify anything about her that was remotely  similar to her son, Sam Farner, née Holden Caulfield, the elder.

Roy Closterman and Brian came with their black lab, Charlotte, and there were  other dogs aplenty. Three Dog Bakery treats were provided for the four-legged  set, and Valet was a generous host, even with the carob biscuits.

Chase and Zina Glyson flew in from Santa Fe, bringing a ristra of red chiles and  other Southwest treasures. The ruined reputations of Chase's mother and father  had been restored, and by now not one former student of the Little Jackrabbit  School still clung to false memories of abuse.

Late that night, when the guests were gone, the three members of the Rhodes  family, with their eight legs and one tail, snuggled in the king-size bed. In  recognition of his advanced age, Valet had at last been granted limited  furniture privileges, bed being within the limits.

Martie was lying on her back, and Valet was draped across her feet, and she  could feel the noble throb of his great heart against her ankles. Dusty lay on  his side, close to her, and she was aware of the slow, steady rhythm of his  heart, as well.

He kissed her shoulder, and in the silken warm darkness, she said, "If only this  could last forever."

"It will," he said.

"I've got everything I could ever have hoped for, minus one dear friend and a  father. But you know what?"

"I love my life not because it's a dream, but because it's so real. All our  friends, what we do, where we are. . . all so real. Am I making any sense?" "Plenty," he assured her.

That night she dreamed of Smilin' Bob. He was wearing his black turnout coat  with the two reflective stripes, but he was not striding through fire. They were  walking together in a hillside meadow, under a blue summer sky. He said he was proud of her, and she apologized for not being so very brave as he had been. He insisted that she was brave in all the ways that counted, and that nothing could please him more than the knowledge that for years to come, her good strong hands would bring comfort and healing to the most innocent of this world.

When she woke from this dream in the middle of the night, the presence that she  felt, in the darkness, was just as real as Valet snoring, just as real as Dusty  at her side.